Chapter 63. Would it be an answer to say that the white and red rose (6)


    knew it was wrong?


    Would it be possible to answer the question if I exined why I looked away?


    If you say you will never do that again.


    Will this be the answer?


    Be quiet, don’t step forward, and don’t show your hand carelessly. No matter what you say, it’s all just a thorn, so just keep your mouth shut and watch from the side. Always be careful and be careful so that even your gaze does not be a thorn.


    n had warned me so.


    ‘father.’


    Words that are already heavily bruised.


    The bruises on the horse are already full.


    Is it okay if I answer? How should I answer? What answer should I give to words that hurt even if I hug and pat them? Because they didn’t even teach me that.


    A poor father doesn’t even know that.


    “I…”


    My voice did note out easily from my open mouth.


    After hesitating for a while, Lemain reached out and picked up the teacup. And after quenching my thirst with a sip of the tea with the thorn-like pine needles in it, I put down the tea cup quietly.


    Was he surprised to hear for the first time from his son that he had done something wrong? Are you surprised to hear your son say the word ‘father’ for the first time? Before that, I wonder if I was really surprised.


    Could there be another reason?


    For some inexplicable reason, the fingertips holding the teacup trembled helplessly.


    “…… I.”


    Even though I applied a lot of force, a little bit of tea eventually spilled and stained the white cloth of the table a rusty color.


    This was my first time seeing tea spilled in front of someone. It was the first time I saw someone unable to continue speaking. ntz, who was calmly watching Lemain’s unfamiliar appearance with calm eyes, spoke in a simrly calm voice.


    “I apologize if my words were excessive.”


    “No. No. It’s not because it’s too much, it’s because it’s too much.”


    As I looked for words to answer, looking for words I knew, these words came out without me realizing it. A person who couldn’t have known that the answer was very simr to what ntz said a long time ago gave that answer. Instead of saying thank you or sorry, I ended up giving an answer that only showed that he was a person who bore an inextricable resemnce to my son.


    “yes.”


    okay.


    Resembles.


    In the end, it was simr to what I ignored, it was simr to what I thought was the answer, and it was simr to what I didn’t know was actually the wrong answer. Lemain showed only those methods, and Randel and ntz learned only by observing those methods, so they eventually grow up looking like Lemain and have no choice but to resemble each other. Still, it looked simr.


    The clever ntz recognized the resemnce.


    Now that I’vee to see reality, I’ve realized that it’s toote, and I can’t even say an apology, let alone thank you for the undeserved words. The fact that they resemble each other in every way.


    So, I’ll just get up.


    He said he already understood everything without saying anything.


    He said that he had said everything he wanted to say, and that Lemain had fully understood all the apologies, regrets, and future promises that he could not express in words, so he would just get up. That’s what I was going to say.


    “Don’t forget.”


    But Lemain’s answer came back.


    Not words that came out of nowhere, but words that were chosen and chosen. These are words left by a person like an ox who worked really hard to pick out the thorns in his own way. That’s it for nts.


    It was passed down.


    “I won’t forget the mistakes I made or the things you said today. I will think about them every day and reflect on them every time I see you.”


    I don’t know if that’s correct, though. I spoke.


    I wonder how I can say everything I want to say out loud.


    I guess you still don’t understand that silent actions are better than big words.


    “I was wrong. I was very wrong…”


    Even so.


    Even if that were the case.


    “I’m sorry. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry for not being able to look at you. I’m so sorry. I left you alone in the world.”


    I felt like I had to tell you.


    “I’m sorry… for leaving you alone to grow up like this.”


    Forgiveness may still be a long way off.


    I don’t even know if the festering wound can heal.


    still.


    “nz.”


    “…… yes.”


    I apologized.


    I received an apology.


    * * *


    – Tap, tap!


    Although there was no dust, Kalian looked proud as he brushed it off by rubbing his palms together. Then, if anyone looked at him, he turned his head with an expression on his face that made him look like he had just caught the devil himself.


    “How is it.”


    “It’s pointless.”


    A sharp answer came back.


    “Can’t you at least say that you had a hard time?”


    “It didn’t seem that difficult.”


    “You should look at the sincerity, not the difficulty. Didn’t all the attendants get bitten and take care of it yourself?”


    Since it was built, windows at Chermil Pce have rarely been broken, so they could not be made in advance.


    It’s natural.


    How could anyone expect that someone would ask my brother, ‘Are the roses blooming in that garden?’ and break the window that Sispanian had ced a spell on.


    Therefore, it was absolutely not the fault or responsibility of the management of Chermil Pce that there was no spare window to be put back up only after first making a wide, thick, transparent, and beautifully crafted ss and then casting a spell.


    “But anyway, since the window was lost because of me, I took responsibility and blocked it. I was kind and admirable.”


    Thanks to this, Kalian hase back to take responsibility.


    It’s the same logic as giving treatment and constion money to Raven, who had left a horseshoe-shaped hole on her buttocks because the newly appointed bath attendant had brushed her without asking for sufficient understanding.


    Anyway, something like that.


    “Is it really that meaningful that you did it yourself?”


    “Of course. I am also a well-bred child like Brother Randel.”


    Just now.


    Calian, who ate sweet,vender-scented sugar cookies and bought some more sugar cookies to bring to the pce, stopped by Banensha and almost got broken off after rmending golden chain armor. Although he is a little more clumsy, he is good at Dmirea’s sword skills. He did a great job helping me match the armor to a good material and shape that wouldn’t hinder me in the slightest. Then, he found a suitable restaurant on Astricia Street, prepared a meal for three people, and after sessfullypleting the personal business of taking Dmirea to the duke’s residence, he returned to the pce with a light, fluttering gait.


    Then, I heard that Lemain, who hade to visit while Calian was away, had a conversation with nz and then returned. It was also said that Randel was still stuck on the 5th floor while Lemain came and went.


    ‘You said Brother Randel was sick because the wind was blowing?’


    ‘yes. He told me to leave it alone even though he said he would put in another window first as a matter of urgency, and it seemed like he must have caught a cold in the meantime. ‘I’m sure your body is much weaker than that of a prince or a crown prince.’


    The innocent baby elephant seems to believe that.


    Calian, who held back the words that said that the person who seemed to have just taken root on the 5th floor, would live a long and healthy life better than the person who seemed to be several times greener than the inner skin of a young pumpkin that had yet to ripen, just nodded. Because it is said that the illusions of children growing up are not something to be broken carelessly.


    Instead, he picked up his long, huge ck robe and went up to the fifth floor. After that, he invested generously in the robe, which had waterproof and windproof magic as standard, to block Randel’s window. It is said that the ck robe, which seemed to have been made from a handful of darkness, was spread out and roughly added to the empty window space. Because the workmanship wasn’t meticulous enough to add it nicely.


    Suddenly ck cloth.


    Randel opened his mouth when he saw the window blocked by a thick, dull fabric that did not match the room’s curtains and wallpaper floor at all.


    “It doesn’t look good.”


    “Wouldn’t it be better than being in pain?”


    “I think it would be better to be sick again.”


    “No. You should live a long, healthy life.”


    Kalian smiled brightly as he wished his eldest brother, who is not yet 20 years old, a long and healthy life. Randel, who was watching this, let out a low-pitched voice.


    “You’re doing something for nothing.”


    “Does it seem pointless?”


    “I closed the window that was left open.”


    “You know it’s a difficult window to open.”


    “Don’t I know that?”


    “Thank goodness. At least you know.”


    Randel nodded slightly and looked deeply into Calian’s eyes.


    “Your attitude toward me has changed.”


    “Is that so.”


    “It seems like the de that was pointed at me has be dull.”


    “I guess I feel at ease now that I have nothing to hide.”


    “Was thatfortable?”


    “You recognize the change in attitude, but you don’t recognize the empty words.”


    Actually, it’s ufortable.


    Even though I knew very well what had be of the old Kalian, I couldn’t feelfortableing back to see someone who couldn’t admit it or fully ept the current Kalian in just one day.


    Didn’t you already tell Randel about it?


    The truth is, it won’t be okay.


    “It’s notfortable and it’s unfair. I guess that’s why I’ve be numb to it.”


    “Why is it so unfair?”


    “I said it’s okay if you don’t receive an apology, and I told you that it’s okay for you to treat a person who is still breathing with their eyes open. But you’re using the broken window as an excuse to hide again.”


    Randel kept his mouth shut.


    Calian said as he nced at the empty table with no tea on it.


    “I blocked the window you broke with my own hands again, so don’t make excuses that you’re in pain because of you. It’s not your fault that the window was broken. I thought I should tell you that one more time, so I came up.”


    “Your worries about your second child are extreme.”


    “Not only that, Brother Randel is also extremely worried. Although you don’t seem to know.”


    “Remember that.”


    “yes.”


    After finishing speaking, Kalian took out his pocket and put his hand in it. Inside, he found a small red paper bag and ced it on the table.


    “What was it?”


    “It’s a sugar cookie. I bought it for Brother Randel because it smells like roses. I think you can treat it as a new birthday present.”


    “I don’t like sweets.”


    “Should I cover it? I also hate grapefruit.”


    Kalian, who presented sweet cookies in a voice that sounded like he was chewing on sand, stood up. And without any time to refuse the new birthday present, he showed his courtesy and headed out.


    Randel stared at the red cardboard box for a while and slowly stretched out his hand. Instead of a birthday gift I couldn’t use, I picked up a rose-scented sugar cookie and put it in my mouth. And then I closed my eyes for a moment.


    Sweet.


    It doesn’t smell like roses.


    Instead, it tasted different.


    It had a strong strawberry vor.


    Because the bag of strawberry-vored sugar cookies we bought to give to Hina was also red. Kalian, who was not very careful this time, gave Randel strawberry vored food as a gift.


    “…Den.”


    “Yes, prince. Did you call me?”


    “Tea.”


    “Yes. I will bring it to you soon.”


    Randel’s brows wrinkled due to the sweetness of the strawberry taste that remained in his mouth.


    I frowned.


    Randel, who was quietly listening to the footsteps of the servant who was going to get tea to get rid of the strawberry vor, stretched out his hand. Then he put another sweet sugar cookie in his mouth and frowned again.


    When I tried it again, it definitely tasted like strawberry.


    It tasted like strawberries.


    “…… “They said it was a rose.”


    Randel made a mistake that any Calian he knew would never make and went down happily. He couldn’t tell the


    difference between the taste of strawberries and the scent of roses. He thought he should just throw away that ck cloth that he had left unsightly. Thinking about that, he frowned. He frowned.


    * * *


    idents happen easily.


    Strangely, I am busy.


    Why?


    Calian, who was thinking carefully, smiled and opened his mouth.


    “Brother.”


    “Why.”


    If you n on having another ident, please tell me in advance. If I keep doing this, I’m going to get really old.


    I wanted to say that, but I couldn’t, so I justughed again. And, leaving the story behind, I said something else.


    “I’m thinking of going to meet a Sispanian.”


    “Now.”


    “Yes. ”


    That the sea dragon Arnaizel has a piece of the axis of time. I had to tell that to Sispanian. It was probably the first thing I should have said when I came here, but I was pushed by other things and had to go now. “Let’s go together.” ”


    Okay


    . ”


    Let’s go together. Even if I didn’t say anything, he would definitely follow me around, so I just went on the road together. I


    passed the artificialke with a rose garden in the distance, left Chermil Pce, and crossed the fountain garden. If it’s far, it’s far, if it’s close, it’s close. While I was walking, I didn’t say anything else because I didn’t have anything worth saying.


    “To your highness. I’ve been telling you all this time that you were wrong.”


    But after a while, ntz spoke up.


    Calian opened his mouth as he was walking and with his eyes focused on the falling fountain making a good sound.


    “Is that so?”


    “Yes.”


    Lemain . It’s obvious even without looking at


    how Lemain would have responded.


    So I didn’t bother to ask and just said that it was a good job. It would have been difficult to tell people what happened between the two anyway.


    “Thank you for your hard work.” He said


    he would ept an apology . I wonder


    if it had something to do with Calian himself.


    After receiving one of Calian’s questions, he broke the window to meet Randel and even told Lemain. Calian, who ended up providing the starting point, said nothing else. All he said was that he had a hard time.


    “If you will know.”


    As they were about to pass the fountain garden, ntz began,


    “I thought you would be able to see. I thought you should see it. That’s not true.”


    “Are you talking about Brother Randel?”


    “Yes.”


    “… Not everyone is like you. Just because they found out the truth, it doesn’t mean that everyone can create a new position and put me there and look after me like my brother. There are people like my teacher who only cared about me and took care of everything for me, and there were people like Arianne who couldn’t trust mepletely, and there were people who reacted like Dmirea who was more worried about Jan than me after finding out about it. There is also Prince Siegfried who doesn’t care whether it happens or not. Sometimes, there are people who turn away again. Everyone is bound to react in their own way.”


    nz just walked quietly.


    “Is that why you took out your anger on His Majesty?”


    “…… Perhaps.”


    Lemain, who only taught him how to look away, said Because I was resentful and resentful. In the end, all of this happened because of Lemain’s neglect. I once again expressed my disappointment in Landel, who turned away from me even after knowing the truth, to Lemain. “You did a good job on that, too.” Lemain


    said


    . It was obvious that ntz would not feel at ease with the apology given, so Calian responded like this: “Have you felt


    relieved?”


    “Yes and no.


    ” Why are you so lukewarm? Instead of feeling relieved, I said, “


    I feel like I did something pointless. “To my brother.”


    Calian chuckled after hearing ntz’s words. He


    was picking on something unnecessary and tearing up something that had been healing for some time, so that also shows that he was paying attention. Soon


    Calian rummaged in his arms and took out something.


    Randel . There is one thing I gave him and one thing to give to Hina.


    “I heard it’s the snack that Demirea bought for Riri. Delicious. As I was feeling a little bitter, Demirea bought this for me. At least sweeten your mouth. He goes into Evan’s house to save his brother, and then meets Lillie. He almost dies from shock when he sees Lillie, butes back to life. Demirea takes Lilie who she found and buys her a snack. After that, the same thing happened to me too.” Kalyan


    , who still believed that it tasted like strawberries.


    In fact, took out a sugar cookie that smelled like a rose, said,


    “It’s all like that. Maybe it’s because I was in puberty, but I didn’t learn how to be an actor, and I always learned strange things, and idents happened as they were, and it was a headache, so I slowed down a bit. I know that my brother did it because he was thinking about me in his own way. So you don’t have to feel sorry about that. That’s how we continue to live in the midst of things that don’t go as nned.”


    Soon Kalian handed the cookie to ntz.


    He seemed to be just as upset as Calian, so he meant for you to eat something sweet, too.


    nz epted the sugar cookie. Calian took out another one and put it in his mouth first. His face hardened for a moment. Then he stretched out his arm like lightning and snatched back the sugar cookie that was about to go into nz’s mouth. The sugar cookie flew into his brother’s hand at an invisible


    speed


    . Lost nz looked at Calian. Calian, whose face was embarrassed, smelled the scent of sugar cookies and said,


    “Do not eat them. “This smells like roses.”


    Strawberry vor.


    Where’s my strawberry vor?


    Calian turned his head slightly and looked at Chermil Pce and gave a hollow smile. He almost gave a strawberry to Randel and a rose to ntz, so he couldn’t help butugh. Outside.


    Looking at the appearance and guessing roughly what had happened, nz let out a short sigh. Then he reached out and took out a sugar cookie that smelled like roses from the paper bag in Calian’s hand and put it in his mouth. Sweet


    . .


    It smells like roses.


    “It smells like roses.” “Why are you eating that?”


    “They say it’s all like that.”


    That’s how everyone lives in the midst of unexpected events. Sometimes, without even thinking about it, they taste the scent of a rose and they live that way. “


    nz answered calmly and started walking around.


    Calian looked at that for a moment, thenughed and walked behind nts.


    “Then would you like to give me one more?”


    “No.”


    “You said it was all like that.”


    “I don’t like it.”


    “But you’re amazing. Learn not to avoid.”


    “My brother hasn’t learned not to bark yet.”


    “But when he gets older, are you going to get into more serious trouble? If you’re going to do that, please tell me before you cause an ident. I’ll prepare my heart.”


    “Keep barking.”


    The wind blew a little warmer than yesterday, I could hear the sound of water, the sky was dark, and the day was good. I passed all those things and walked for a long time again. That’s how the old Heisia used to be. Arrived.


    The wide cavity was still there.


    Calian entered the ce full of traces of the ancient dragon and looked around for a moment. Then he called out to Sispanian. The


    ck butterfly did note.