"What happened between you and him?" I said.


    "No


    "He knows how you feel about him?"


    "I don''t know He probably doesn''t know. Maybe he has feelings, too. "


    "Does he mean that to you?"


    "He I don''t know He should not. He has a girlfriend He has a good relationship with his girlfriend, and he shouldn''t have been nice to me. "


    "How do you know there isn''t?"


    "I I guess, I estimate


    "Do you believe your guess?"


    "I I don''t know I only know that I''m so tangled and mean. I''ve betrayed my feelings for you. I''ve fallen in love with my sister''s boyfriend. I''ve fallen so far I''m so miserable. I''ve been hesitating about telling you. After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided to tell you. "


    "What do you mean by telling me? You don''t have that feeling for me. You want to tell me this, don''t you? "


    "No, no My feelings for you are still the same, only more thick, without any weakening, but, somehow, I will consciously or unconsciously treat him as you, in him, I can''t help thinking of you often, I know that I am dreaming, is in lust, but I can''t control myself, I can''t control my inner thoughts and feelings.


    "Just because of this, I feel deeply guilty and often fall into pain. I can''t imagine that I would become such a wicked person and dare not think that I would become such a woman Hakka, I''m so miserable. I''m so sad. "


    "What''s so good about that boy? You will treat him as me, you will see my shadow on him, and you will feel that way."


    "He Although he has many shortcomings, he is cynical, idle, yin and Yang However, he has more advantages, he has more places like you, he has the same advantages as you, and even Even, the feeling he gives me in reality is more real than you Every time I see him, I can''t help thinking of you


    "I know he''s not you, I know I shouldn''t feel like this, but I really can''t control my brain, I can''t control my inner Association Although everyone doesn''t know what I think, I can''t cheat myself. Every time I think of you, every time I see his girlfriend, I feel guilty Hakka, do you think I''m shameless, obscene and ugly? "


    See floating life like a dream, so self reproach words, my heart deeply pain, pain can''t help.


    "If you dream, don''t blame yourself or suffer. I understand your feelings and thoughts. I won''t blame you. You are the best woman in the world. Don''t belittle yourself like this


    "Do you really think so? Now you think so? "


    "Yes, I am speaking from my heart. You are the most beautiful, purest, most impeccable woman in my heart."


    "Thank you In my heart, you are also the best and most perfect man in the world Perhaps because of the virtual, so you will be so perfect, your perfect even more than Yike, although I know the reality of you may not be so perfect, but I am still willing to deceive myself She said, "Hakka You said, "how far is virtual reality?"


    I said, "what do you think?"


    She said: "I really don''t know how far the virtual network is from the reality, and I don''t know why I will fall in love with someone I''ve never met. If I can, I really hope I''ve never met you and don''t know you, so I won''t like you, and I won''t like the real Yi Ke, so I won''t be so painful."


    "Virtual and reality, say far away, say near, even close to you."


    She said, "I don''t understand what you mean."


    "If you don''t understand, you will be more painful."


    "I don''t understand any more."


    I said, "if you don''t understand, don''t think about it."


    She was silent for a moment: "in fact, I have thought many times that one day you will come into my reality, how I hope you can really come into my reality, how I hope you are the real Yi Ke, but I dare not think, I am afraid of my own ideas


    "I clearly know that I can''t think like this. I shouldn''t think like this. In reality, Ike has a girlfriend. In reality, I''m helpless. In reality, my destiny has been determined for a long time. If you really go into reality and join in, you are really Ike in reality, then I will be more painful, and we will all be more painful I''m a tragic person. I don''t even dare to daydream. I don''t even have the qualification to daydream. "


    My heart continues to cramp and I''m speechless.


    After a moment''s silence, she said, "guest guest -"


    "I am -"


    "you are my air."


    "Well..."


    "I''m not even your air..."


    "Wrong -"


    "Alas..." She sighed deeply."Don''t blame yourself, don''t let yourself live in contradiction and pain."


    "Don''t blame yourself, don''t suffer, don''t contradict, then you say, what should I do?"


    "I I don''t know. "


    "Well Actually, I don''t know However, I understand that I can''t hurt others or do things that I feel sorry for others. I would rather suffer myself than hurt innocent people. " She said.


    "You''re talking about Ike''s girlfriend?"


    "Well, I see her as a sister. She''s a very good girl. The point is, she loves Ike very much."


    "Well Does Ike love her? "


    "It should be Love Ike loves her very much and is very kind to her. "


    "Well..." Somehow, there was a sense of comfort and balance in my heart.


    "Hakka, do you think a woman will fall in love with two men at the same time? Is such a woman a bad woman? "


    "I don''t know if a woman will fall in love with two men at the same time, but I know you are definitely not a bad woman. No matter how you feel in your heart, no matter how you think in your heart, I firmly believe that you are a good woman, the best woman in the world."


    "You say you don''t know if it''s fake, but you know it!" She said.


    I took a deep breath: "just as a man will fall in love with two women at the same time, so a woman will fall in love with two men at the same time If you ask me this question, it doesn''t mean you don''t know. It''s just that you may be a fan now. "


    "Oh..."


    I said: "according to the analysis of social psychologists, this possibility really exists A few days ago, I happened to attend a lecture of a social psychologist and heard the analysis of this problem. "


    "Oh, what did you say?"


    "The general meaning is that Can a woman fall in love with two men at the same time? The answer is - yes. Although as a man is not willing to accept, but it is a kind of existence. Since it exists, there will always be a reasonable side to it. The reason why they are not willing to accept it may be that social constructivism is at fault. Social construction formulates a series of behavior rules to tell people what is right and what is wrong.


    "So without thinking, people use the laws constructed by society to restrain themselves and demand others, whether it is against human nature or not. When a person falls in love with two people at the same time, it shows that he is not satisfied with the only choice, especially women. Women are really like cats.


    "Most of the time, people just need a kind of mental temporary leave. In fact, people need freshness, you, me and everyone. Men are lower body animals, women are upper body animals, because of this difference, the consequences are often different.


    "When a man encounters this kind of situation, he will feel deeply hurt, angry, and lose his dignity. Of course, he will also blame himself," my heart is riddled with wounds, shriveled, and can''t shed a drop of blood. Then he was kicked around by hip-hop and thrown into the deserted wilderness. " As a woman who deviates from the so-called social law, she will regret, blame herself and be frightened, but she will also complain about the men around her who are not so good at it - when attacked by others, no matter how weak they are, they will subconsciously defend themselves.


    "There''s nothing we can do about this kind of thing. It''s too easy to be like this in ordinary life. People love to play, play for a period of time to compare their hearts, or can find the answer they want. In fact, one of the men should thank the other man. After all, when the person he loves needs but he can''t satisfy himself, that man is doing something you can''t do for the person you love or that you ignore. Thank that man for giving you a chance to reflect on yourself Forgive others, and you will be forgiven yourself. After all, we all want a better life. "


    "You have a point, but it doesn''t seem to fit me."


    "Then I have nothing to say That''s all I can do. "


    "What I''m most entangled with is actually the problem of reality and virtuality Maybe I''m confused, maybe I''m confused, you''re a man in the air, he''s a man in reality, I''m tangled, painful, I I really don''t know what to do with myself. "


    "Since you don''t know what to do, don''t think about it. The more you think about it, the more tangled you are. Let it be."


    "Never let it be. It will destroy everyone and myself!"


    "What do you want to do? How to do it? "


    "I I don''t know. "


    "If you don''t know, don''t think about it..."


    "I''m trying not to let myself think about it. I''m trying to work hard to get rid of these tangles and pain. But in the dead of night, those things come out of my heart and gnaw at my soul Let me spend one sleepless night after another in loneliness and uneasiness. "


    I felt pity and said, "if you dream, those who should come will come back sooner or later, and those who should go will go sooner or later. Those who belong to you belong to you. Yes, those who don''t belong to you are versatile in their efforts. Believe in the fate."


    When I say this, I feel sad. I know that she and I belong to what we should go to. This is the fate of her and me. Now I''m just comforting her."Well I''m so confused. I won''t talk about it I feel relaxed after talking to you so much. "


    "Well, work hard and live well. If one day you really forget me, I won''t blame you I believe it''s all fate. "


    My heart continues to be sad.


    "It''s easy to know someone, but it''s really hard to forget someone." She had a sigh expression: "just like this, I will live a good life, you too, must live well in this world."


    "Well Because it''s not easy to live, so we all have to live well. "


    "Well, I''ll remember what you said Guest guest, I''m off. "


    "Go ahead."


    She really went on.


    I looked at the dialogue window on the computer screen and those conversations with her. I was stunned for a long time.


    After work, I walked out of the office and saw that Qiutong''s office was still on.


    Quietly, through the open door, Qiutong is standing at the window, staring at the city in a daze, holding a cigarette in her hand, curling green smoke in front of her eyes


    For a long time, I heard a deep sigh from her.


    My heart also with a sigh, quietly turned away.


    Back in the dormitory, Haizhu had finished dinner after work, and we began to eat.


    I eat absent mindedly, thinking about the afternoon and the dreamlike conversation


    At this time, my mobile phone rang, the mobile phone on the coffee table.


    I haven''t had time to react. Haizhu has gone to me first, picked up my mobile phone, looked at the calling number, and then changed slightly.