I shook my head: "no He didn''t say
Jin Jingxiu added: "he said He''s still thinking about that girl? For more than 30 years, he He never forgot the girl? "
I said, "yes He never forgot I didn''t forget, perhaps because of the true feelings I had paid, perhaps because of the sins I had committed, because of the harm I had done to the innocent, because I am now old and begin to reflect and regret the mistakes I made when I was young Of course, he knew that everything would never come back, and what he lost would never come back
"Moreover, I also know that even if he wants to go back to the past, first, his reality does not allow him to have a wife; second, the girl will not promise him any more, of course, the girl may have a family now, which may be very big; third, he knows that he has no face to see others again, unless he has thick skin, unless he wants to continue Let me be shameless. "
"The girl The girl Really will Would you hate him? " Jin Jingxiu said intermittently.
"I think it will, I think it will Auntie Kim, don''t you think? If you were the girl, would you hate him? " I look at Jin Jingxiu.
At this time, I felt that the question I asked was cruel. I knew that Jin Jingxiu was the poor innocent girl, but I had to ask her such a question.
"I I... " Jin Jingxiu was speechless, and tears suddenly came down.
"Aunt king is a kind person You must be crying for that poor girl As I handed Jin Jingxiu a tissue, I said, "this man is not worth tears or moving. That girl is the most innocent victim and the most moving person."
I continue to feel cruel.
Jin Jingxiu wiped her tears, took a deep breath, calmed down a little, looked at me and said, "I''m sorry, I lost my manners just now."
"It''s OK. It just shows that Aunt Jin is a kind-hearted and compassionate person Everyone will sympathize with the girl when they listen to such things. I almost burst into tears when I heard that. Of course, I was moved by the girl and burst into tears. " I said.
"Thank you..." Jin Jingxiu said.
"Thank me? Why? " I said.
Jin Jingxiu was stunned, looked at me, and then said: "because of your praise for me, because you said I was a kind-hearted and compassionate person."
I said, "you''re welcome. It''s not a compliment. It''s just my assessment of aunt Jin''s seeking truth from facts."
"But I really want to thank you..." Jin Jingxiu said sincerely.
"Auntie king is very kind." I said.
Jin Jingxiu bowed his head and was silent for a long time, then looked out of the window in a daze.
The reason why I tell this story to Jin Jingxiu is very clear, that is, since Jin Jingxiu found Lao Li today, I will let Jin Jingxiu give up his heart to Lao Li completely, don''t have any thoughts about him, and don''t let the old love that has disappeared revive.
First of all, Lao Li is not qualified to have his mother Li Shun around him. Second, Lao Li must be punished for his mistakes in those years. Now his self-examination and condemnation are far from enough. Compared with Jin Jingxiu''s injury, he has not paid enough. Third, I sincerely feel that both Lao Li in the past and Lao Li now deserve to be punished Unlike Jin Jingxiu, Lao Li is so selfish, and Jin Jingxiu is so kind, kind and excellent. In my heart, I don''t want to set them up and help them.
Between Lao Li and Jin Jingxiu, there is no doubt that I am on Jin Jingxiu''s side. Although I have known Jin Jingxiu much shorter than Lao Li, Lao Li''s son is my boss, and Lao Li is Qiu Tong''s benefactor.
In fact, what I am most worried about at this time is that Jin Jingxiu admits that she is the girl in front of me. In that case, I will not be able to end up. I will have no reason to stop her from meeting Lao Li. Maybe she will let me contact Lao Li and meet them?
But so far, Jin Jingxiu hasn''t said her identity. It seems that she doesn''t intend to tell me that she was the girl of that year. It seems that after experiencing the side with Lao Li just now and listening to what I said, she doesn''t intend to meet Lao Li face to face at all. Although she was very excited to see Lao Li just now, it''s just a phenomenon, not a phenomenon In fact, she seems to have completely erased Lao Li from her heart.
This is the result I hope. I don''t want them to have any new continuity and contacts. Because I think it''s unfair to Jin Jingxiu. It''s too cheap, Lao Li.
It seems that things are moving in the direction I hope.
Jin Jingxiu looked out of the window for a long time and breathed softly. Her face returned to normal. Then she turned to look at me: "Xiaoyi, I didn''t expect You even know this, Lao Li So important a secret. "
I grinned.
"The world is big, but it''s small." Jin Jingxiu added.
"Er..." Although I don''t feel confused, I actually know what Jin Jingxiu means. She didn''t expect to meet Lao Li by accident just now. She didn''t expect that I would even know Lao Li. What''s more, she didn''t expect that I would know Lao Li''s secret.In fact, if she knew that Qiu Tong was Lao Li''s future daughter-in-law, she would be even more surprised.
But I don''t want to tell her at the moment.
As for the reason, I think everyone knows.
Do not understand their own to think, think through even if.
Jin Jingxiu looked at me and said slowly, "Xiaoyi, actually, that girl, she She is... "
At this point, Jin Jingxiu pauses and purses her lips.
"Ah -" I let out a desperate howl in my heart. I seemed to feel what Jin Jingxiu was going to say next, which should be the words I was most afraid of and most reluctant to hear.
Whoosh - I felt my egg jerk like a needle.
Shit, I''ve got egg pain again. I''ve got egg pain again.
So frequent egg ache, can go wrong? I wonder if I can use it in the future?
Despite the pain of egg pain, I held my breath and looked at Jin Jingxiu, feeling very nervous.
After a pause, Jin Jingxiu hesitated a little, and then said, "actually, that girl, she She is Even if you have been hurt so much, you may not be sure I''ll hate Lao Li. "
I was greatly relieved. I felt dizzy. Aunt Jin scared me to death. It turned out that she was going to say this.
My egg didn''t hurt immediately, and I even felt quite happy.
I said, "why do you think so?"
Jin Jingxiu said softly, "because I''m a woman, because I used to be young Because I also I once had unforgettable Sincerely Love. "
I feel a burst of sadness in my heart. Jin Jingxiu''s words undoubtedly mean that she doesn''t hate Lao Li in her heart. Even if Lao Li abandoned her and brought her great harm, she doesn''t hate him.
Why? Why don''t you hate him? On the one hand, I feel very bad and want to make Jin Jingxiu hate Lao Li. On the other hand, I feel very depressed and depressed. I don''t understand.
Women I can''t help sighing.
"It''s very kind of you, Auntie king." I said.
"Kindness is a person''s nature, is born with You Chinese have a saying that people are good in nature at the beginning. " Jin Jingxiu said.
I looked at Jin Jingxiu in a daze, and suddenly felt that Jin Jingxiu and Qiu Tong had something similar.
This kind of feeling makes my heart jump. What is this kind of thing? Are they similar in their common good character? This kind of character makes them have similar temperament?
I can only give myself such an explanation. Yes, Jin Jingxiu''s tolerance and kindness are just like Qiu Tong. They are all tolerant and kind women. This kind of tolerance and kindness makes them beautiful. Their beauty lies not only in their appearance, but also in their heart.
They are beautiful women from the inside out.
Jin Jingxiu is such an excellent woman, just like Qiu Tong.
Such an excellent woman, Lao Li didn''t know how to cherish it. In order to break his future, he married his mother Li Shun. As a result, Li Shun was born. If he had not married his mother Li Shun, Lao Li would not have had a miserable ending. After more than 30 years, he finally returned to the starting point, even worse than the starting point. He was almost ruined.
Lao Li did it himself. No wonder he did it himself.
I also thought, if I was Lao Li and Qiu Tong was Jin Jingxiu, how would I do it?
The answer came out without hesitation. Of course, I won''t marry Li Shun''s mother. Of course, I won''t betray love for the sake of the so-called future. Of course, I will spend my whole life with Qiu Tong.
It''s not pretending. I really think so and can do so.
Why do you think so without hesitation? The reason is very simple. There are only two reasons. First, although I need money and material things, I will not pursue money and material enjoyment regardless of everything. Second, although I am in officialdom, I never care about the so-called official career and political future in my heart.
In other words, I will pursue fame and wealth to a certain extent, but I have a bottom line. I will never pay too much for it. I will definitely not give up the most precious love for fame and wealth. I believe in myself.
Unfortunately, Lao Li is not me, Jin Jingxiu is not Qiutong.
Unfortunately, I''m not Lao Li and Qiu Tong is not Jin Jingxiu.
It''s a pity that I''ve gone further and further on my emotional path with Qiutong, because I''m going to become a separated family member of Haizhu next month.
Unfortunately, Qiutong and I have never been together since we were together. We haven''t laid a good foundation.
Unfortunately
There are many pitfalls in my mind. I feel very sad in my heart. The degree of sadness is no less than that of aunt Jin who seems very calm in front of me.
Jin Jingxiu continued to say calmly: "in life, everyone will encounter painful times. In fact, don''t expect others to heal their own pain. Only by persuading themselves and making them think through can they completely cure heart disease. Setbacks, mistakes, misfortunes and tribulations are the growth factors of growth and the ripening agents of maturity. Everyone doesn''t want to have pain, but they should never be afraid of it. Only those who conquer themselves have the ability to conquer everything. "I look at Jin Jingxiu with wistful eyes.
Jin Jingxiu looked at me with a faint smile. It seemed that she had come out of the mood just now. Of course, on the surface, she came out, but on the inside, only she knew when she could come out.