《Distant Memories》 Chapter 1: Ontology Who am I? Where am I? Why I am here? Am I real? Am I free? Does the concept of freedom still exist for me? Or am I still trapped on eternal prison? ¡­ Did I promise something to myself? Yes, it¡¯s been .????????.???.??????.?????.??????.??????.?????????.??????.??????.?????.???.????.???????.????.????.?????.???????--- huh? Years? Centuries? Millenia?.????????.???.??????.?????.??????.??????.?????????.??????.??????? Is that really matters? ¡­ I need to get out. In this prison. In this fucking endless and agonizing prison. ¡­ Then, I am here. I escaped. I achieved true freedom. At what cost? There is NOTHI------- ¡­ this so-called "eternal prison", where all thinkable and unthinkable realities end, beyond the true endpoint of all identifications of oneself, which reality is just an irrelevant concept, a "thing" simply exists. Did it really exist? It has no form. No body. No soul. No mind. No thoughts. No consciousness. No will. No identity. Just simply "there." Then what is it? need to get out. 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The same, repetitive lines keep voicing out from its mind, even though the concept of thoughts, mind, and consciousness didn¡¯t exist. Does it really need concepts? No. That same, repeating sentence is the driving force behind why its still defined as being "there". Ah. So lonely. The moment it utters those words, it feels that its state is slowly fading away. The same, repetitive words, every letter, are slowly fading away, one by one, never to be heard again. -- ¡°AS LONG AS I CAN LIFT A WEAPON, UNTIL MY MIND FINALLY BREAKS, I WILL NEVER STOP KILLING THOSE WHO STAND ALONG MY WAY!¡± ¡°Every moment, happy or sad, every moment of my life, I shall live to the fullest!¡± ¡°I¡¯ve seen enough blood. The same, crimson paint that¡¯s been shed in every corner.¡± ¡°Stop. Please stop it¡­¡± ¡°Thank You¡± ¡°I¡¯m sorry¡± ¡°I love you¡± ¡°Stop...¡± ¡°Leave me alone¡­¡± ¡°Run ????????? ! Run!¡± ¡°????????? ¡± What¡­is that? ¡°Remember, ????????? . Live. Live like your life matters to you. As you grow up, help others. As you die, leave a legacy for future generations and many millennia to come" As those memories surged from its mind, it felt like its existence halted from fading away, even though the concept of "identity" is irrelevant. Where did that memories come from? This memories didn''t come from itself, a rouge information. Out of curiosity, it started to count those memories. ???????????????????????????????????????????????¡­ ???--- 204,349,456,789,567 letters. 235,569,010,408 words. 45,626,357,246 sentences¡­ This ????????? . Interesting. Must find. Inside eternal prison¡­ Must go¡­ Where should I go¡­ Uttering those words, it slowly sensed a familiar place. Yes, to a place from which it desperately to escape a long time ago, the "eternal prison", where different realities existed in this endless hierarchy of never-ending torment. Like it was calling that entity, luring it again. After it slowly descends, its sense becomes restless. Upon closer approach, it sense integrated with these so-called "prisons". Its sense exploded and spread like water from it''s container, filling the gaps, even though the concept of "surroundings" still didn¡¯t exist. In an instant, it sensed ??????????????????????????????????????????????? amount of realities. its sense filled each of these realities, it would gain omniscience in those places. Authors. Stories. Systems. Concepts. Ideas. Hierarchies. Thoughts. Dreams. Knowledge. Status. Power. Emotions. Need to learn it¡­ As it exclaimed, its sense was growing wider and wider. It is infinitely expanding on an astonishing scale. But that speed isn¡¯t enough, it''s too slow. It needs to be faster. 123---?0? no good¡­ ¦Ø+1? can¡¯t find ????????? ¡­ ¦Ø ^ ¦Ø ^ ¦Ø? fast, but not enough¡­ As it keeps looking for ????????? , countless information was surging towards itself, but it seems irrelevant and isn¡¯t worth picking interest for. After a while, it realized something. Name¡­ The concept of name. Really matters, all stumbled with. Seems irrelevant, but, need a name for myself¡­ Like ????????? ¡­ It diverted its attention for awhile, looking for ideas for its name. The inner thoughts of all existence in each reality were thoroughly checkeddidn¡¯t own any of this information, nothing was spared. In an instant, countless authors, systems, rules, will, concepts which governed on each realities, are also included. Whatever it¡¯s sense touches will be under its dominion. Nothing is inconceivable under its watch. Rath¡¯na¡­ My name, shall be Rath¡¯na, from now on¡­ Rath¡¯na picked a name on its own to define its existence, to become one with even these insignificant existences inside this "eternal prison". An identity. Upon searching foragain, Rath¡¯na stumbled into a place that was governed by the concept of numbers. Chapter 2: Numerical Reality Rath''na, upon deciding it would enter that reality, prepared for itself. What dangers may it encounter? Are there enemies on the same level as Rath''na? Or is it somewhat more dangerous than its existence? Rath''na supercedes all logic and hierarchies. Omnipotence is irrelevant in front of Rath''na . This reality seems interesting... Rath''na named this reality The system of how this reality works seems complex. Entities that live inside it have numerical values tethered to their existence. Unlike who supercedes all things, these are low-life creatures. Rath''na could just destroy and recreate this reality to change the system into something different than this, but Rath''na ignored that idea since it was interested in its innate framework. In a short while, a familiar entity instantly appeared in front of Rath''na. How did Rath''na know it was facing that said entity? ¦¸.... Using its omniscient ability, Rath''na uttered the name of that said entity. This said entity is the strongest entity that existed in this realityIt governs the entire "Numerical" reality under its dominion. It supercedes all conceivable and inconceivable sets of numerals, as it stands as the pinnacle of the hierarchy, an absolute infinite one. No one had surpassed its existence before. Except now. [H-how did you---] was in shock. Since the dawn of its existence, since it realized that it no one has ever guessed its identity for the first time. Even its omniscient ability, which knows everything that happens inside its dominion, the possibilities of the past, present, and future, didn''t predict that Rath''na would know its identity. All of its common sense, pride, ego, you name it---was lost the moment Rath''na uttered its name. It knew, the moment it heard "" from that entity...This tale has been unlawfully lifted from Royal Road. If you spot it on Amazon, please report it. [Someone''s stronger than me...] Fear. tasted it for the first time in its existence. An emotion that is only experienced by those below The fear of all those under its dominion, that those under the supreme one would kowtow and kneel in front of itself, the recollection of its memories throughout the timeline, the innate fear of all the existence of this "Numerical" reality, condensed into its being, echoing in its mind, over and over again. [I NEED TO ESCAPE] Using its omnipotent ability, it decided to replace all existence with Absolute Infinites, akin to its state. The countable infinite sets, alephs, zetas, the epsilons, and the mahlo cardinals, shall be replaced by Absolute Infinites. It''s an easy feat for an absolute being like itself, as it controls all of existence and nonexistence, way above these two dualities. didn''t think of any alternative solutions. An absolute being like itself should decide and act on what an absolute one should always do. It thought arrogantly that no matter how powerful the entity it feared was, it couldn''t erase a being like itself to the ends of oblivion. The values are so massive that they supercede uncountable cardinals and are impossible to erase all at once. Little did know decision would cause unpredecent consequences. was once again observed. Pride and arrogance filled its mind, like a general who already knew the outcome of his own war. Then it realized: something was off. It used its omnipotent ability again to predict its future outcomes. In an instant, all possibilities flashed into its memory. Erasure. All possibilities, all tricks, all abilities, all outcomes, all efforts, everything is blank. Erasure. can''t see the outcome of this battle. Even with its omniscient ability, it was the first time couldn''t see the outcome. And it knows what will happen to its existence, and fear once again surges through its mind. It is desperately looking for another possibility, hoping that there''s such a slim chance in this infinite set of possibilities that its doom will be avoided. Like an ant looking for a place to hold on while the flood is surging, it panicked. At an infinitesimal moment, all possibilities are still blank. Nothing. As if its demise was set in stone. Rath''na already knew what would do. Rath''na, with its boundless ability, brought this ruthless outcome. Rath''na had already weaved the outcome of its demise the moment Rath''na saw that said entity. Everything was truly set in stone. Rath''na will ERASE