《Sweet Summer (BoyxBoy)》 Chapter 1: Smell of Summer May 12, 2010 I never knew when I develop this feeling. From what I can deduce, it started from the day I smell the air of summer. We were kids back then, my family visited our relatives in the countryside, then there I met the one who captured my heart. We often visit our relatives for vacation, to get together. As my family works in the city, we don¡¯t get to visit our relatives as they all live in the countryside. I am not a fan of long road trips with family as they can get a little too uncomfortable. But every summer, every vacation, I look forward to visiting the countryside. ¡­ I met a kid the same age as I am, son of the neighbor of my uncle. For a kid in the countryside, he is not tanned and I think he have foreign gene, clearly shows from his looks. ¡°I am Damian Romero, what about yours?¡± he energetically held his hands. ¡°I am Lucio Calleja.¡± I replied shyly. We were just 10 years old. He lives in front of our relative¡¯s house. From the moment we held hands, I felt something warm inside of me. Maybe it¡¯s the heat of summer, or it¡¯s just the power of youth. One thing I know; I began to like this person. ___________________________________ June 5, 2018 I¡¯m Lucio Calleja, 17 year-old, Born on the 12th of March, 2000. I have medium length of dark brown hair, I like it when my hair is flowing and hid part of my face. Height is 170cm, just average build and my zodiac is Pisces. That¡¯s my introduction as I don¡¯t have redeeming features I can boast about. Currently changing into my school uniform, since today is my first day in a new school as my family moves a lot from different places because of work related stuff. We keep on changing places to live since my parents don¡¯t have a permanent location as their company keep changing workplace. At first, it didn¡¯t bother me as I don¡¯t get attached to the various neighborhood we stayed in as we will not stay for long, maybe 3 years at most we stayed in a single location. I¡¯m a little nervous¡­. New environment for me, new faces, especially the new feeling of being a new student¡­ seems too heavy to think about. Since my family¡¯s house is not that far from school, I will have to walk in order to get there. I¡¯m the 3rd child of the Calleja family, I have an older brother and an older sister. They are only 1 year apart; I was born 5 years after my older sister was born. My personality is something I call common, smile when needed, cry when needed, and be serious when needed. I don¡¯t find passion in many things but I really enjoy music and stuff. It¡¯s the only one that is permanent in my head as I easily forgot. Sometimes I get gloomy but it¡¯s just how I normally am and that¡¯s not because of a negative aspect of my real self but I just don¡¯t easily find joy in many things. I wore my earphone as I walk on the hot road towards school. After a while I saw students wearing similar uniform. (One of these people could be my classmate¡­) I thought to myself.If you encounter this tale on Amazon, note that it''s taken without the author''s consent. Report it. I keep walking, enjoying the strong breeze of wind and the music I¡¯m listening to. It gives me a refreshing feeling as the cool wind brush on my skin on this hot day. As I reach the gate, I removed my earphones. ¡°Who is that?¡± I heard a female student said to another besides her. I curiously looked at the person they¡¯re talking about. Tall. Good-looking. Looks like a delinquent. Long hair. He could be mistaken as a model, well¡­ he could be. As we accidentally locked at each other¡¯s eyes, I felt a sense of d¨¦j¨¤ vu. I ignored the unnecessary thought and proceeded entering the school. ___________________________________ ¡°Classroom 306.¡± I muttered to myself as I read the sign above the door. This is my classroom for the whole year. I entered and quickly examines the room. Students all over the place, I guess they¡¯ve been classmates before from how they all look friendly and calm with each other. I randomly sit on a chair with no bags in it, thinking it is an unclaimed chair. The 3rd row, 2nd column near the right window. My room is in the 3rd floor of the school building. As there is no class, I began to scan the people I will be entangled with for the whole year. Noisy, flirty, and a bit rowdy. I guess teenagers are still teenagers no matter what grade you are in. One person seems to catch my attention because as I was scanning the room, we locked eyes. What is with these situations? I keep locking eyes with people. Anyways, she seems to have mix Asian blood. ¡°What¡¯s your name?¡± a person from my left talked to me. ¡°I¡¯m Lucio Calleja..¡± I meekly replied. ¡°That¡¯s a fancy name, I¡¯m Emery Dias. We will be seatmate for the whole school year, please treat me nicely.¡± She smiled back at me. Although I don¡¯t really easily trust people, I should at least have to know and understand them to avoid unnecessary misunderstandings in the future. ¡°Treat me well too.¡± I smiled back at her. She has common black straight hair, black eyes and a woman her age have a voluptuous body. I guess it¡¯s normal for a growing woman. She then began to talk to other female classmates in the room. As I am a new student, I guess I would be the center of curiosity but maybe they want to respect my space for now, they don¡¯t want to bother me too much. Although I don¡¯t mind the noisy background, it too can get a little distracting. ¡­ ¡°¡­Handsome.¡± I heard Emery suddenly muttered. As I look at the object of fascination, a new person arrives and sat on one of the empty chair in front of me, I also become stuttered as this person was the one on the gate. (Hmmm¡­ I guess we are classmates.) I talked to myself. All the girls in the room then began to gossip because of the new guy. I assumed he¡¯s a new guy since nobody seems to know him and bothered him. I hope I survive this hectic life. But what is this nostalgic feeling I keep having when I look at him. ¡°¡­smells like summer¡­¡± I muttered to myself. I then reminiscence on my childhood, when I visit my relatives in the countryside. I enjoyed my childhood vacations there as it was a new fascinating world, kind of enchanting to be honest. I have one and only friend over there too, but I can¡¯t seem to remember his name. His sweet smell and the bright smile is all I can remember; the very essence of summer seems to reminds me of him¡­ my first love. As I keep on reminiscing, the homeroom teacher arrives. She seems in her 30s from the way she looks but let¡¯s not judge early. ¡°Okay class, I am Claren Yap, I¡¯ll be your homeroom teacher for the whole school year. I see there are familiar faces here and some new ones as well. Common introduction, let¡¯s start at the guy from the back.¡± She then pointed at the guy from the back. I didn¡¯t really listen to the introduction of my classmates as I¡¯m bad in remembering names, I¡¯ll remember it through the course of time. Although I can say ill forget it if I don¡¯t keep interacting with them. After Emery, I stand up and introduce myself. ¡°I am Lucios Calleja, 17 year-old, my Birthday is on the 12th of March, I am new here so please treat me nicely.¡± I quickly ended my introduction. Emery gives me a thumbs up for reason I don¡¯t know. I look at the guy in front of me and my curiosity began to rise. (His back sure is wide¡­) I muttered to myself. It¡¯s his turn and as he stood up, I clearly imagine him as tall as a skyscraper. His tied black long flowing hair sways from the breeze, his clear big frame, and his fair skin makes him look like a prince from fairytales. Clearly came from foreign brand of genes. ¡°¡­I am... Damian Romero, 18 year-old, Born on the 7th of November. I¡¯m also new here, and also please treat me well.¡± He ended his introduction and I can clearly have heard the girls giggling and talking to each other because of the handsome new guy. (¡­Damian...) a sudden thought came to mind. Then a strong breeze gushed from the window. Smell is one of the activators of memory. The wind brought me memories, it clearly smells like¡­ ¡°¡­summer...¡± The person in front of me, is my first love. Chapter 2: Just us two. May 12, 2010 ¡°Damian, do you like me?¡± a childlike question. ¡°Hmm¡­ Yes, I do, you are the first friend I made since I came to this country.¡± little Damian replied. The picturesque image of two best friend playing on a lake while cicadas sings depicts the image of summer.
June 5, 2018 ¡°¡­I am... Damian Romero, 18 years old, Born on the 7th of November. I¡¯m also new here, and also please treat me well.¡± I suddenly was shocked from hearing that name, the very name of the first person that captured my heart. The very same Damian whom I fallen for in the heat of summer, the person I admire and the person I forgotten. ¡°Lucio? Are you ok?¡± Emery besides me tap my shoulder. I was suddenly stunned from knowing the person in front of me is the Damian I befriended in my childhood days that I became petrified. ¡°Ah, Yes, I¡¯m fine.¡± I meekly replied, although the looks on her face seems puzzled but instead focus on the class introduction. The very fragrance that keeps reminding me of summer, his natural scent that I kept on remembering. An indescribable smell that lingers from him, it¡¯s not a bad odor but rather a natural scent the human body emit, I can¡¯t describe it as anything but all I can think of is him. All I can think of his fragrance is of the days we spent together. Nothing happened in class but just introductions, the homeroom teacher then left after saying a few words, one thing stuck to my mind the whole time is¡­ (Does he remember me?) I kept on remembering the days we played together and felt nostalgic that I couldn''t stop myself from smiling. Why did I forget him? I couldn¡¯t really remember as I am bad in remembering things. He was my first love and yet I forgotten him. As I was in deep thought, my classmates flocked Damian and keep on barging him with questions. "Where are you from?", "Where do you live?", "Are you single?" These questions also piqued my interest as I am curious of Damian as we haven¡¯t seen each other in years. ¡­ Why haven¡¯t we though? I forgotten it. Then a husky smooth deep voice sends shivers to my spine. ¡°Lucio.¡± Damian is looking at me. I haven¡¯t really focused on his voice when he was introducing himself because I was shocked from the moment he said his name, his voice is already appealing. I kept looking at him and couldn¡¯t utter a word. ¡°Do you two know each other? You both are new so you both must¡¯ve been from the same school before right?¡± Emery suddenly barged in between us. ¡°Ah¡­ No, we just know each other when we were kids.¡± I replied to the overly curious Emery. Damian kept looking at me with his hazel brown piercing eyes, taking my breath away. ¡°So you remember me then?¡± he asked me. I don¡¯t know how to answer that as I have trouble remembering all the events that happened in the past.Ensure your favorite authors get the support they deserve. Read this novel on the original website. ¡°Vaguely.¡± I replied. His looks became sharp and it seems that he wants to ask more but the flocks of fan girls from inside the room to people outside that kept on passing our room because of curiosity to the new student with foreign looks have become suffocating. I stood up from my chair and left the room, looked for a place with some fresh air because a sudden bomb just drops on me. No matter how deeply I think, I couldn¡¯t recall all the events that happened from the past. Damian. Damian. Damian. I keep thinking of his name in hope of being able to recover some memories. Why am I this forgetful?? I began to give up in pondering as I can¡¯t really remember.
Whole day passed and Damian didn¡¯t talk to me again, I didn¡¯t try to remember anything more from that point on as it seems I forced my memories of certain events to disappear. I made some friends because of my approachable nature, mostly female friends as they kept asking me about Damian and all I could say is¡­ ¡°Just ask him, I don¡¯t want to blabber things from his life.¡± And that¡¯s how I befriended all the females in the classroom. I also befriended some males in the room. Although I have feelings for Damian before, I don¡¯t consider myself gay. I tried to test myself by looking at other men, but they don¡¯t give me the feelings I felt for Damian. I don¡¯t even know if I like girls, honestly as they also didn¡¯t give me the same feelings of love. Only Damian is in my heart I guess, but what about now? Am I still in love with him? Am I? I went home with nothing special happening, just normal.
June 6, 2018 Wake up, shower, eat breakfast, and walk to school. Just my normal routine in life. Classmates met in front of the gate. Just my normal routine in life. But why is Damian walking besides me, he has longer legs so why couldn¡¯t he walk faster and not keep on pace with me. ¡°Morning.¡± I greeted him shyly. ¡°Morning,¡± he replied with his deep voice. Girls in this school admired the heavens creation that is the lord Damian, because of his foreign looks, they fall for him. Is it looks from before that I also had fallen for him? I kept on remembering his childlike appearance and his sweet smile. Nothing more. Is it really just because of his looks? ¡°Hey, let¡¯s talk later. When it¡¯s just the two of us.¡± Damian says to me. Just the two of us? What does he mean by that? ¡­. Is he in love with me? That can¡¯t be true right? Or else I will lose my mind. I became rather frantic because of just few words, as a normal person, I could interpret it into various things. ¡°I just want to ask you something and it would be best if it¡¯s just the two of us.¡± Damian said to me as he smiled and went ahead of me. His words are full of questions.
The day passed by and I can¡¯t keep my mentality stable. Damian left along with the guys in class, I guess they are now friends, I mean it¡¯s easy to befriend everyone when you are that popular. Before he left, he whispered to me to meet outside the school. I passed by the gate and went to my usual route home, there I see Damian waiting and leaning on a wall with earphones stuck on his ear. (Gosh why does he look amazing?) I wondered myself. I want to avoid him and don¡¯t want to discuss the things he said earlier morning because I don¡¯t know what he will say. But he saw me, he waves his hand and took off his earphones. I let out a sigh and just accepted the whole situation. ¡°Let¡¯s walk for now.¡± He said and continued to walk. But why still he didn¡¯t say anything when we¡¯ve been walking for 3 minutes. ¡°Da- ¡°I was about to asked him but instead I was cut off when he suddenly whispered to me. ¡°Are you still in love with me?¡± his deep voice penetrated my ear. The questions that he asked shocked me. ¡°¡­what are you talking about?¡± I replied. He then looked at me confuse. ¡°When we were kids, I think it was on the 21st of May, when I was about to leave the country and go abroad.¡± He said. Then a gush of wind blew between us, as I looked at him trying to looked deeply to his eyes. A memory lapse in my mind.
May 21, 2010 Deep within the woods where the chirping of birds and the sound of cicadas echoes, two little children was sitting on a log watching the river in front of them flows by. ¡°I¡¯m leaving today.¡± Boy with hazel eyes looked sadly at the boy with a lonely expression. ¡°Why did you just told me today, Damian?¡± the angry Lucio asked. Damian with a serious look, stared straight on the river in front of him and seems to be deep in thoughts. ¡°Damian, please don¡¯t leave, I¡¯ll be lonely.¡± Lucio pleaded. ¡°My parents are getting divorced, I have to follow my mother, she is alone right now and I can¡¯t just leave her alone.¡± Damian said with a serious tone. Lucio also understands that he can¡¯t stop Damian. ¡°Damian, please don¡¯t leave.¡± Lucio held Damian¡¯s hands. ¡°I have something to say to you before you leave¡­¡± Lucio seems reluctant to say something. ¡°What is it?¡± Damian looked at the face of Lucio. Silent looms as Lucio couldn¡¯t utter a word for a while. ¡°I like you.¡± Lucio told his feelings for little Damian. ¡°We are best friends after all.¡± Damian smiled to Lucio. Lucio¡¯s hands grip Damian¡¯s hands tighter. ¡°NO¡­I like you that I want to kiss you!¡± Lucio couldn¡¯t hold his feelings any longer. Damian was shocked from Lucio¡¯s words. Lucio looked at Damian, a smile appeared on Damian¡¯s face, Lucio being relieved but couldn¡¯t believe the words that came out of Damian¡¯s mouth. ¡°You¡¯re kinda gross...¡± Chapter 3: Bud of Love July 10, 2018 It¡¯s kind of hot today. On this time of the year, the heat is unbearable. I unbutton the button on my neck till my chest as the heat makes me sweat a lot. I wore a shirt under my uniform and I am starting to regret it. My shirt is soaking on sweat and I just hope I don¡¯t smell. ¡°Lucio, want some juice?¡± Emery offered me an apple juice. ¡°Thanks, since its cold I needed it to cool my head off.¡± I took the apple juice and put it above my head. Emery is like a best friend to me as we talk a lot to each other even when there is no class, well she¡¯s a talkative person and I guess she took all my free time by just talking. Interacting with other classmates aren¡¯t difficult as they are all approachable. It¡¯s been a month since school started and I could say, all of us began to feel comfortable with each other. On the other hand, ¡°Why¡¯d you put it on your head?¡± A deep yet pleasant voice whispered behind me and took the apple juice above my head. ¡°AHH!! Why¡¯d you drink it when it¡¯s not even yours? You are sometimes mean you know that?¡± Emery yelled at the person behind me. I looked behind and saw the tall and handsome fellow named Damian.
June 6, 2018 ¡°Are you still in love with me?¡± his deep voice penetrated my ear. The questions that he asked shocked me. ¡°¡­what are you talking about?¡± I replied. He then looked at me confuse. ¡°When we were kids, I think it was on the 21st of May, when I was about to leave the country and go abroad.¡± He said. ¡­ ¡°I¡­ remembered.¡± I timidly say. ¡°Then?¡± I don¡¯t even know how to answer that. Do I still have feelings for him? Do I? I looked at him and think deeply if I¡¯m still in love with him. But¡­ ¡°You¡¯re kinda gross...¡± A memory suddenly emerged. My heart starts to hurt as I keep remembering being rejected by him when I told him about my feelings. We were still kids back then so these words should be something like child¡¯s play but those words still hurt till now. ¡°I don¡¯t think I still have those feelings anymore...¡± I stared straight at him. ¡°Hmm, well I guess I¡¯m relieved. Since we reunited I thought it would be an awkward situation since we see each other at school.¡± He turns his back and continued walking ahead of me. I don¡¯t know what¡¯s his thinking but I am really uncomfortable walking with him. ¡°So¡­ you like guys huh?¡± he looks at me. Guys? I don¡¯t like anyone after you and I don¡¯t think I could love any guys anymore since the rejection haunts me still. ¡°I don¡¯t have any affection towards anyone.¡± I looked at his eyes as I answered. ¡°By the way, why¡¯d you ask those questions?¡± I ask. ¡°Just curious.¡± He then looked straight. Curious? About my sexual orientation? ¡°Are you uncomfortable with a gay classmate?¡± I asked but I¡¯m kind of afraid with his reply. ¡°Not really, I¡¯m fine with classmates like that. Just as I said, I¡¯m just curious about you.¡± Tell me why did I fall in love with this guy in the first place? My childhood memories with his seems to be completely wiped out except from what I can recover as of now. The pain from that rejection could¡¯ve forced my memories at that time to disappear to ease my broken heart. I¡¯m a child, it¡¯s what such childish thing to do. We kept walking for a while and he told me stories after he left the country. He met his new dad and two new older sisters, at first they are not happy with their father¡¯s decision but as time went by, they started to care for Damian. Life at that point seems fine and they started to look like a normal family. Years went by and they decided to visit Damian¡¯s birthplace, after loving the place, they decided to stay.If you encounter this narrative on Amazon, note that it''s taken without the author''s consent. Report it. ¡°I live here.¡± We arrived at my place, nobody seems to be at home. ¡°Ah, I¡¯ll take a cab since I live far from here. I Just wanted to talk. You know, to catch things up.¡± He then left after waving goodbye. I went inside the house and I don¡¯t know why but my body lost its energy.
July 10, 2018 Why is this man keeps pestering me? I don¡¯t want to do anything with him. Honestly, why did I even liked this man? Yeah he has these good looks, beautiful eyes, pointed nose, cute smile but I saw many good looking people and none of them haven¡¯t made my heart skip a beat. ¡°Lucio? Your eyes seem¡­scary.¡± Emery tapped my shoulder. Well I¡¯ve been trying to guess what¡¯s this man thinking. ¡°He took the juice you gave me and the coolness on my head disappeared.¡± I turned around and focus on the window, looking at the clear blue sky. ¡°It¡¯s hot.¡± I whispered to myself. After a while, the teacher arrives, its history subject so I am not quite fond of it anyways. ¡­ ¡°Group yourselves into three for your history project.¡± Said by the teacher. Grouping by ourselves seems a bad decision from you teach as they will only group themselves with friends, people that don¡¯t have any smarts could fail your class but you don¡¯t seem motivated enough to bother picking it yourself due to the heat. As I grumbled in my head, someone came up to me. ¡°¡­Lucio, would you like to be in the same group? We lack one and seems that Lucio doesn¡¯t have a group yet.¡± The one that talked just now, medium length dark brown silky hair, golden ratio body, porcelain looks, and a cute smile, the class president Shin Hokama. ¡°Ah, yes sure.¡± I answered slowly since the heat dries my throat. The class president is a beauty with her mix Asian genes, she¡¯s also friendly but shy sometimes, very approachable and boys seems to love her. ¡°I added you to the group chat. We can talk in it since you seem too tired to talk.¡± She then returns to her chair. I opened my phone and saw the newly made group chat. *Shin added you- The other person is¡­ Lirio Cea. The class secretary, he wore glasses and have curly black hair. They sat next to each other so I guess they are friends, but why did the class president asked me? ¡°I¡¯ll leave early since I¡¯m sweating bullets.¡± The teacher then left, it must be nice since the teacher¡¯s office is air-conditioned. Even though we are on the third floor, wind is so rare to pass by. I went outside the room and just lean on the fence looking at the students below. ¡°Ahh~ they¡¯re eating ice cream.¡± I whispered to myself. Since there are no class I guess it would be fine to go to the cafeteria. While walking, I kept on thinking to myself on what part of Damian did I liked. Why am I even thinking of these stuff when I said I don¡¯t like him anymore, or just subconsciously, I am still in love with him. ¡°¡­¡± what just happened? Why did my heart suddenly flutter? No¡­ I don¡¯t want to be hurt again. This is just stupid thoughts and it¡¯s just because we are childhood friends¡­ I suddenly stopped on the hallway and covered my reddish face. This is going to be hard¡­ ¡°Lucio? Are you okay?¡± Shin who was behind me asked me while having a worrying look. ¡°Yes I¡¯m fine, it¡¯s just the heat¡­¡± I gave her a smile. ¡°Are you heading to the cafeteria? Let¡¯s go together since I¡¯m heading there as well.¡± She smiled back at me and hold my hand. Why is she being this friendly, I mean she is the class president, but she just suddenly holds my hand. I empty my head instead because I will have a headache from thinking too hard with this heat. We bought ice cream popsicles, even the ice creams suffering from this heat, it¡¯s not even hard and melts easily. I tried to eat it quickly so that it won¡¯t drips. Suddenly, class pres. touched my lips and wipes the dripping ice cream, I seem to have ice cream dripping from my mouth. ¡°I¡¯m sorry.¡± I shyly told her. ¡°Don¡¯t worry, you look kinda cute eating the ice cream.¡± She then proceeds to ate her ice cream as well. What¡¯d she means cute? I blushed from her saying that. ¡°Lucio, I¡¯ll be honest. I like you.¡± She looked at me with seriousness in her eyes. I was speechless as I don¡¯t know how to respond to that confession. She like me? You mean romantically? Or just as a friend? As a friend right? Just a friend. ¡°You look flustered?¡± she keeps looking at me with those straight eyes. ¡°I¡­I don¡¯t know how to respond¡­ you mean you like me as a friend right?¡± I shyly asked her. ¡°Nope, I meant it like I want to be your girlfriend.¡± She smiled back at me. I don¡¯t know why but rather than feeling happy, I seems to be afraid of her. ¡°You like me too right?¡± she asked me. ¡°I don¡¯t have an answer¡­¡± I looked away from her. Suddenly, someone put his arms on my shoulder. ¡°What are you guys talking about?¡± Its Damian. I became even more flustered, I remembered I also confessed to Damian before and I was rejected and I was hurt. What if I rejected this girl in front of me and she also will be hurt with my words? ¡°Nothing, you can message me later Lucio, Bye~¡± she then waved us goodbye. I was relieved when she left, the ice cream on my hand completely melted and my hands are now sticky. I shoved Damian¡¯s arms off my shoulder and went to the restroom to wash my hands. This kind of things should happen to people like Damian, things like the most beautiful girl in class will fall in love with the most handsome guy as well. These situations are too stressful for me; I don¡¯t know how to function when cornered on those situations. I¡¯ll go back to the classroom since class will start soon, just keep your head cool Lucio, I washed my face with water to cool off. Am I bisexual? It¡¯s the first time a girl confessed to me and I was that flustered but also felt fear, I also liked Damian before. I looked at the clouds, clear blue sky. Ah, this feeling, I¡¯ve unlocked a memory~
May 13, 2010 ¡°Lucio!! What will you do in the future?¡± Damian asked little Lucio while dipping his feet on the shallow river. ¡°Hmm... I don¡¯t know, I am too young to think of the future yet.¡± Lucio replied while also dipping his feet on the cold river. ¡°My parents keep fighting and I think they¡¯ll end their marriage. I don¡¯t know what will happen to me after.¡± Damian looked at Lucio with a sad face. Lucio pinch Damian¡¯s cheeks. ¡°You can stay with me when that happens!¡± Lucio proudly said himself. ¡°Hahahaha~ it¡¯s like we are getting married¡± Damian keeps on laughing. ¡°We are both sad and when we are together, we are happy!¡± Lucio said to Damian with a caring tone. ¡°You really are a good friend Lucio! ~¡± Damian leapt at Lucio and hugged him, making them fall down and drench in the river water. Lucio felt something in his heart, his heart skips a beat when he looks at the happy Damian. He began to understood those feelings as love, at his age, he understands that having those feelings between the same gender will always give bad results. He kept those feelings hidden.
July 10, 2018 I don¡¯t have any reason, my feelings just appeared on that day. Do I have a reason to love someone? My reason would be, ¡°I just do.¡± Lucio squats and cover his red face. My feelings aren¡¯t gone, they are now a part of me, my feelings on that day still lingers. I am still in love with him. I just do, this unknown reason of why I just love him doesn¡¯t require any reason. He is just someone I love. I stood up and tried to compose myself. ¡°Shin Hokama!¡± I heard a familiar voice. A tall guy I¡¯m so familiar with stood in front of the beautiful girl that just confessed to me. ¡°Will you be my girl?¡± Damian confesses to Shin. Pain suddenly erupts within my heart, my heart suddenly felt heavy and tight. This is the feeling of being hurt again.