《Bye-Bye》 CH 1 Trigger Warning: Suicidal Thought? ? It must be cold.? ? It will be cold.? ? It was at that moment I took a step back and stared at the endless flow of the black river.? ? SCRATCH.? ? And then I heard a strange noise. When I turned around, I saw a sedan gliding in the rain.? ? ¡®That¡¯s a very expensive car.¡¯ I thought, and suddenly the car turned around in a big circle. ? ? I was completely frozen at the thought of an accident and his eyes followed the back of the car.? ? The car turned on the spot, ran unsettlingly, and stopped only after crumpling the railing and putting one front wheel on the sidewalk.? ? The horn shrieked loudly before stopping. Then there was silence.? ? I trembled and approached because I thought I shouldn¡¯t just stand there. I was limping to put my shoes back on after taking them off.? ? The car was more expensive than expected upon closer inspection. The engine was overheating, causing smoke, and the windows were heavily tinted, making it impossible to see inside.? ? ¡°Excuse me, are you okay?¡±? ? He knocked on the window, but there was no response.? ? ¡°Excuse me.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°You are not dead, right?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? It wasn¡¯t a major accident, but the thought that the driver might injured somewhere caused me to panic. I was in a hurry to find my phone and remembered leaving it at home. It was late at night in the middle of winter, so there were no cars passing by, and after a brief moment of thought, I decided to force open the car door.? ? I took a step back and gathered my strength to slam the window with all my might.? ? ¡°Argh¡­!¡±? ? Fortunately, the door opened just at that time.? ? My shoulder and forearm were sore from slamming into the window so I rubbed them with my other hands, and the driver then comes out of the car.? ? ¡°Oh, shit¡­ this is driving me crazy.¡±? ? The person who came out swearing was a young-looking man. He examined the car¡¯s dented bumper carefully, looking for any damage.? ? ¡°Damn it, fuck. My brother will kill me.¡±? ? ¡®Brother?¡¯? ? While he was tall, he looks to be quite young, and the word ¡°brother¡± makes me suspicious.? ? ¡°Ah, I was surprised to see you standing on the Han River bridge in the middle of the night!¡±? ? The sudden shouting confirmed my suspicion. While massaging my still-achy shoulder, I asked sarcastically.? ? ¡°How old are you?¡±? ? ¡°I-I¡¯m twenty-five, why?¡±? ? ¡°Twenty-five? You¡¯re born in the Year of the Horse, then.¡±? ? ¡°Huh, what¡¯s with a horse Year! I got into an accident because of you.¡±? ? ¡°Hey, high school student. Did you steal your brother¡¯s car and drive it?¡±? ? ¡°W-what, I-I¡¯m not?¡±? ? The high school student shook his dripping wet hair. He was a man who could not lie like a child.? ? ¡°I can see right through you. You can get a license if you wait a month, but you couldn¡¯t help yourself and drove your brother¡¯s car out? You¡¯re a complete moron.¡±? ? ¡°Darn it, this is my car! My mom gave it to me as a gift that I¡¯m done with my college entrance.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, right.¡±? ? I looked at the car again when I heard the high school student yelling angrily.? ? It¡¯s brand new, so it¡¯s worth about a billion. I guess it¡¯s a very well-off house to give this kind of car as a gift for the college entrance exam.? ? ¡°Your car or not, you are unlicensed. You secretly pulled out a decent car and caused an accident. Well, it will be confiscated. Congratulations.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s because of you! I¡¯m surprised because you¡¯re wearing a dark black outfit on the Han River bridge at this hour, and I¡¯m going to sue you for damages!¡±? ? ¡®Do you even understand what it means to be compensated for damages?¡¯? ? I looked pityingly at the pathetic high school student. The high school student began whining and tearing his hair off, which terrified me.? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m going crazy. It¡¯s ruined, damn it. He will kill me.¡±? ? It was interesting to see a high school student who spits out curse words in front of a stranger and is terrified of his brother.? ? I moved my gaze to the front and examined the completely crumpled railing and bumper. There was no other option but to send it in for repair.? ? ¡°Do you have insurance?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know. How do I know?¡±? ? ¡°A few hundreds won would be enough for these.¡±? ? In fact, it would be over a thousand, but I cut it short because I thought the high school student would be terrified. The high school student, on the other hand, shakes his head and shows an unexpected reaction.? ? ¡°It doesn¡¯t matter if it¡¯s hundreds or thousands. My brother gave me the keys and told me to get a license the following year, but if he found out I disobeyed him and caused an accident, he¡¯d kill me! He¡¯ll throw me into the Han River without a second thought. It¡¯s driving me insane.¡±? ? ¡®It doesn¡¯t matter how many thousands? Are you saying you¡¯re more concerned with being scolded by your brother than with money?¡¯? ? I scanned him from head to toe without the high school student noticing. I don¡¯t know much about a school brand, but I recognized the logo on the bottom of the shirt. It was a well-known school.? ? Furthermore, this high school student is an alpha.? ? I knew he was an Alpha the moment he stepped out of the car. Now, I¡¯ve perfectly captured the pheromone, but I didn¡¯t catch it while he was in the car.? ? I was worried in vain about this rich high school¡­ I laughed out loud.? ? ¡°What the fuck are you laughing at?¡± ? ? The high school student thought I was laughing at him, so he frowned and became annoyed.? ? ¡°Nothing, I was curious as to why you crashed to the railing. Why don¡¯t you just hit me?¡± ? ? I said it because it was truly such a waste.? ? I wish that crumpled railing was my body.? ? Although I said it with sincerity, the high schooling had eyes that listened to all kinds of nonsense.? ? ¡°Are you crazy? No wonder you were alone on the Han River bridge in the middle of the rainy night; it turns out you¡¯re crazy.¡±? ? ¡°Think whatever you want. You don¡¯t seem to be hurt but go to the hospital just in case. I¡¯m leaving.¡±? ? ¡°Damn it, where are you going! I had an accident because of you!¡±? ? ¡°Stop it there¡¯s a CCTV here and call your guardian.¡±? ? I pointed my chin at the cell phone that was rolling in the passenger seat. The high school student had a world-weary expression. I secretly hoped he¡¯d grab my collar and punch me, but that didn¡¯t happen. Eventually, the high school student returned to his car and picked up his phone.? ? I looked at the crushed rail and turned around.? ? Why did I come here? There was a reason why I come to the Han River on a rainy night.? ? I¡¯m so tired.? ? I wouldn¡¯t have been able to do it anyway.? ? I should go home, wash up, and think about whether I want to continue this tedious time or take a different path.? ? Either way, I have to go back first.? ? My footsteps naturally slowed down.? ? I¡¯m sick and tired of everything.? ? I stopped for a moment and looked up at the rainy sky. Standing in the middle of winter in wet clothes gave me chills.? ? I¡®ll catch a cold if I stay here any longer.? ? I intended to return quickly, but my feet did not move.? ? ¡°Hey!¡±? ? As I was getting ready to leave, I heard a loud shout from behind me.? ? ¡°Hey, you! Wait!¡±? ? When I turned around, I saw the high schooler approaching me. I waited for him with a questioning expression on my face.? ? He¡¯s not really asking for compensation, is he?? ? ¡°You.¡±? ? The high school student who had come to a close stop took a breath and opened his mouth.? ? ¡°You, I will give you money, so please help me tell my brother.¡± CH 2 I got a cold, as expected. I don¡¯t know what to say because I brought it on myself. It¡¯s even stranger if I haven¡¯t caught a cold after spending hours on the riverbank on a rainy winter night.? ? Despite the fact that I was wearing a mask, that damned section chief rolled his eyes because he was annoyed by my constant coughing. I gave him the same look and flipped the paper over.? ? But I¡¯m glad it¡¯s not a night shift week. Working in the office in the morning is easier than working in the logistics room at night.? ? ¡°Come on, let¡¯s eat.¡±? ? As soon as it was lunchtime, the section chief got up from his seat.? ? ¡°Seo-yu, you¡¯re not eating again today?¡°? ? ¡°I¡¯ve brought a simple meal pack. Enjoy your meal.¡±? ? ¡°If you have a cold, you should eat something. You must have had a hard time doing the ancestral rites.¡±? ? The section chief approached me and placed his hand on my shoulder, pretending to be concerned. I tried to put his hand that came up to the back of my neck down with a pencil that I was holding in my hand while he patted my shoulder. It would have been successful if the section chief hadn¡¯t avoided it by saying ¡°Oops.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re so fierce to me, even though I¡¯m only concerned about you. Why do you always have your guard up when I speak to you?¡±? ? ¡°Hurry up and go get something to eat. Before I show you what the real ferocious is.¡±? ? ¡°Hahaha. Okay, fine. Whatever it is, don¡¯t forget to eat something.¡±? ? The section chief smiled slyly and walked out when I threatened him with a sharpened pencil in front.? ? The section chief is a 43-year-old Beta man who married his Beta lover, whom he had been dating for 10 years this year. I even went to the motel with him after my company¡¯s first dinner.? ? His cell phone was constantly vibrating while he was washing up, so I took it out and saw the name [Girlfriend] on the screen. I remember shamelessly saying, ¡°Did you try one night-stand while you have a girlfriend?¡± and kicking him in the lower stomach with my knee.? ? It¡¯s been four years since he¡¯s continued to flirt with me, and it makes me cringe. Maybe I¡¯ll tell his wife one day.? ? Cough, cough.? ? My forehead was hot, possibly because I was angry remembering that time or because I had a cold. I¡¯d like to take a nap, but I don¡¯t have time. I have to work even during lunchtime to print all of the stamps on paper for the day.? ? There are a total of five employees in the office, including myself, one section chief, one assistant, and two employees. These employees are younger than me, and they are still in their third month and first year, respectively, so getting them to do a lot of work is difficult. I¡¯ll have to double-check it anyway, so it¡¯s better to do it myself from the start.? ? I was slow today because I wasn¡¯t feeling well. I left a cup of mixed coffee after only one sip and kept moving my hands.? ? ¡®Shit, if I win a lottery, I¡¯ll quit right away.¡¯? ? Cough, cough.? ? My entire body had a fever by the time I got off work at 8 p.m. after working an extra two hours. I¡¯m pretty sure I¡¯m screwed.? ? I needed to lock the office because I was the last to leave, but my head kept spinning as I walked out. The building security staff eventually locked it for me.? ? I checked my cell phone, which I hadn¡¯t touched since the morning while waiting for the bus at the bus stop. Plenty of chat rooms appeared, and I clicked one of them.? ? Won-jo [Are the ancestral rites going well?]? ? [Yeah.] ? ? As soon as I sent a reply, I received another message while scrolling through my phone.? ? Won-jo [Did Park Jin-cheol help you?]? ? [We broke up before the ancestral rites.]? ? Won-jo [Hahaha. It doesn¡¯t seem like that long ago.]? ? Won-jo [Today¡¯s pork belly, deal?]? ? Wonjo [It¡¯s on me.]? ? It irritates me that my one and only friend is overjoyed about my breakup. Won-jo always promises to buy me a meal if I have a breakup.? ? I had been dating Park Jin-cheol for six months.? ? Park Jin-cheol was a new employee at the customer service. We began dating after the second time we met. Park Jin-cheol, who was a beta, discovered that I was an Omega while we were having sex.? ? Despite the fact that he was a beta, I, as an omega like him.? ? He was the type of man who could overlook my flaws and bad habits. I believe it was a complementary relationship by giving me the advice I needed and giving him what he needed.? ? It was the first time I had dated for half a year. I thought I was finally going to meet the relationship I had given up on due to my age. Park Jin-cheol would have persuaded me to marry him if he had been an Alpha.? ? Eventually, it was over.? ? Won-jo [Meat, go?]? ? I coughed and typed on the screen.? ? [No, let¡¯s eat on the weekend]? ? Won-jo [Why? It¡¯s my treat. Don¡¯t you like it when it¡¯s free? Hahaha]? ? [Caught a cold]? ? Won-jo [Bastard, you¡¯ve always had a weak body.]? ? It was true that I was sick too frequently to ask this bastard to worry, so I had nothing to say.? ? [Anyway, see you later]? ? The bus arrived as soon as I sent the message, and I boarded. It¡¯ll be a long bus ride home.? ? After seating in the back seat, I checked the reply from Wonjo.? ? Won-jo [I will not treat you then.]? ? I sent [Okay]. There was no more response.? ? I¡¯d already used up my data for the month, so I just stared out the window until I got close to my house.? ? On the way, I stopped at a pharmacy to buy some cold medicine and then went grocery shopping.? ? The old landlord was checking the mail in front of the gate.? ? ¡°Hello.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, you are here. I guess you¡¯re on a day shift today.¡°? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s cold, so put on your coat.¡±? ? ¡°I just came out for a brief moment. Did you complete the ancestral rites properly?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, thanks to you.¡±? ? After 20 years of living alone on the second floor, I became accustomed to greeting the old man, who was once I found frightening. Rather than a landlord, he is just an ordinary old man who is self-conscious about his appearance.? ? This year marks the 12th anniversary of the landlord¡¯s wife¡¯s death. I remember he was at her funeral, looking dismayed at the picture of the portrait. Maybe he feels the same way when he sees me.? ? The house was, of course, freezing. While I was washing, I briefly turned on the boiler. First, I turned on the television and opened the instant rice cover. The microwave was louder than the anchor¡¯s voice on TV. Even with the TV on, a house that is too large to live alone is quiet.? ? The market-style soybean paste soup and rice bowl on the table looked shabby and the worst in the world, but I ate the entire bowl. I didn¡¯t have much of an appetite, but I didn¡¯t skip out on the ice cream.? ? The toothbrush holder holds four toothbrushes. I chose the one on the right. I kept getting depressed while brushing my teeth and patting my chest to shake it off.? ? 9:30 p.m.? ? I took a bath, ate, and had no housework to do. This early bedtime has always been a crisis for me.? ? What should I do to spend my time?? ? I sat on the sofa for a long time, watching a show that seemed to be a story from another world to me.? ? Do these people spend their time doing this? What do office workers in my age usually do after work?? ? Drama or movie? Games or cartoons?? ? For me there¡¯s nothing to do at all.? ? People will meet up with friends for a drink, spend time with their lover, or spend the majority of their time with family.? ? Just like I did before.? ? There was a cold breeze. The chill began at the back of my neck and quickly spread throughout my body. The damp, sticky chill wrapped itself around me like a snake.? ? There is only one way out of this cold. I need to find myself a lover.? ? This should not be the case, whether it¡¯s with a lover or a one-night stand. It¡¯s been a while since I broke up with Park Jin-cheol, so I thought I should hold back, but circumstances prevent me from doing so.? ? I¡¯m a fucking omega who¡¯s far too promiscuous to even consider.? ? I picked up my phone with the thought of going into one of the flashing chat rooms.? ? ¡­.? ? ? There were calls and messages from unknown numbers.? ? [This is Choi Sung-hoon. I contacted you because of my younger brother, so please reply when you can.]? ? Ah.? ? Looking at the formal sentence, I remembered that high school kid who was involved in an accident at Mapo Bridge yesterday said his older brother would contact me.? ? I accepted that high school kid¡¯s offer to pay me if I lied to his older brother.? ? His name was Choi Sang-hyun or Sung-hyun. He is quite smart, he realized right away that I needed money.? ? He handed me a check for 100,000 won on the spot, and he promised me 3 million won if I completely deceived his older brother, which I couldn¡¯t refuse.? ? [Hello ^^ I¡¯ve been waiting to hear from you. It¡¯s too late now and I¡¯ll call you tomorrow morning. ^^] ? ? I hope there aren¡¯t any spelling mistakes.? ? I took my time writing the message. I debated whether or not to include ¡®nevertheless,¡¯ but ultimately decided to leave it out. I entered another chat room without waiting for a response.? ? Several chat rooms were displayed, but only one was clicked.? ? Namjin-hyung [Hi? Hehe, remember me from Mapo Jinie? It¡¯s been a while. How are you?]? ? Namjin-hyung [I¡¯m sorry, I mean Genie.]? ? I chose this person because the typo was cute. He is a Beta, 15 years older than me, and an ex-lover I met in a gay bar.? ? [Hehe, it¡¯s been a while. Hyung, how are you?]? ? Namjin-hyung [Yeah]? ? Namjin-hyung [I want to see Seo-yu¡¯s face after a long time. Shall we have a drink?] ? ? Let¡¯s get straight to the point. Well, we don¡¯t need pre-dinner greetings when we know each other¡¯s true nature.? ? [Sure, hahaha. When?]? ? Riing.? ? I hadn¡¯t even finished typing when I got a phone call. When I looked at the number, I realized it belonged to the high school kid¡¯s older brother.? ? Is this what that rude high school kid so afraid of.? ? I was a little nervous and answered the phone.? ? ¡°Yes, hello.¡±? ? ¨C Good evening. I¡¯m Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°¡­ Good evening, I¡¯m Seo-yu.¡±? ? I answered a beat late.? ? Damn, isn¡¯t your voice so sexy?? ? His low-pitched voice seemed polite, but he was emotionless.? ? Is he also an alpha? If there is an alpha sibling, the older sibling is almost certainly an alpha as well.? ? ¨C I apologize for calling at such a late hour, but I need to check something.? ? ¡°That, you don¡¯t have to doubt what Sung-hyun said. Your younger brother was a very good student. He¡¯s also responsible, which is rare these days. I will definitely compensate you for the car that was damaged because of me.¡±? ? ¨C Tomorrow. ? ? The man cut off the conversation with a firm voice.? ? ¨C If you tell me when you¡¯re available, I¡¯ll come to see you.? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? -Tell me the time and place.? ? ¡°No, you don¡¯t have to, even on the phone¡­¡±? ? ¨C Are you all right at 7 p.m. in Jamsil?? ? He seemed polite but strangely ignored my words. He was a coercive person. Indeed, it was unsurprising that high school kid said that I would have to meet his older brother in person as if he had expected him to act this way.? ? I changed the time and location to ¡®8 o¡¯clock, Mapo-gu.¡¯ ¡°I¡¯ll see you then,¡± the man said before hanging up.? ? His voice is so handsome.? ? It was a low tone that will shake the atmosphere.? ? I couldn¡¯t help but look forward to seeing his face. The high school student had a good face, but I¡¯m curious if his older brother is a more handsome Alpha.? ? The high school student described him as a terrifying older brother. I called the high school kid because I expected to have to make up a word before our meeting tomorrow.? ? I opened my mouth as soon as I heard the reception tone, shortly after the ringtone had ended.? ? ¡°Hey, kid. I got a call from your Hyung. He wants to see me tomorrow?¡±? ? ¨C ¡­ ? ? ¡°What should I say to¡­¡±? ? ¨C ¡­ ? ? ¡°Hey, about the words¡­¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t hear the high school kid who was supposed to be making a lot of noise. The thought that came to mind shocked me. I asked cautiously.? ? ¡°¡­Hyung-nim?¡±? ? ¨C ¡­ I have Choi Sung-hyun¡¯s cell phone, Seo-yu-ssi.? ? He got his phone confiscated!? ? I¡¯m glad my sixth sense is still active because I almost spilled the beans on all of our plans.? ? ¡°Ahahaha, I see. I¡¯m calling to ask how he was doing. See you tomorrow, Hyung-nim. Hahaha.¡°? ? ¨C Yes, have a good night. ? ? He said goodbye and hung up the phone. ? ? I was aware that the line had been disconnected, but I continued to hold my phone to my ear. I¡¯m not sure if my heart is racing because I¡¯m scared or because of his sexy voice.? ? Namjin-hyung [Seo-yu?] ? ? Namjin-hyung [When is the time?] ? ? While I was taking a deep breath and stroking my chest, my ex sent a prompt message.? ? I¡¯m sorry but I¡¯ll have to put it off until next time.? ? I deleted my previous text and wrote a new one.? ? [I¡¯m sorry~ I¡¯ll call you later]? ? Namjin-hyung [ ¡­?]? ? Namjin-hyung [Why did you text me when you said you weren¡¯t going to meet?]? ? [I just remembered I still have work to do. I¡¯m sorry.]? ? Namjin-hyung [You¡¯re being a bitch again.]? ? [I¡¯ve already apologized, you bastard.]? ? Namjin-hyung [You¡¯ll fall one day, haha. Take care.]? ? Namjin-hyung [You need to get hurt once.]? ? Namjin-hyung [Bitch.] ? ? In the meantime, I just read the message from the man who sent me a typo. A sigh of relief came out. ? ? It¡¯s worth getting upset about. It¡¯s ridiculous to act as if we¡¯re going to meet and then abruptly cancel. I¡¯d feel the same way.? ? Cough.? ? I coughed out like I was being punished.? ? Dirty omega bastard. I know you are a slut since you started releasing your pheromones a few days ago. If you¡¯re a slut, write ¡°slut¡± on your face so I don¡¯t have to deal with a slut like you.? ? It reminds me of Park Jin-cheol¡¯s words.? ? It¡¯s all my fault that he and I are starting to drift apart. We used to go to gay clubs together, but on that particular day, my heat arrived. Perhaps the club had a dominant alpha. However, because I was a recessive omega, my heat cycle was irregular, and I made the mistake of not bringing any medicine.? ? That day, Park Jin-cheol saw me seducing alpha with my pheromones.? ? How dirty it must have looked.? ? Since then, he¡¯s been staring at me like a slut, and later, while I was washing up, he secretly looked at my phone and went insane after seeing messages from my ex-lovers. Park Jin-cheol thought I cheated on him, but I never slept with anyone else while we were dating.? ? When I told him that, he didn¡¯t believe me, and we eventually broke up.? ? I understand him.? ? Even though it had only been a few weeks since my breakup, my heart was pounding when I heard the voice of a sexy alpha (supposed) man, so I said it all.? ? Now that I¡¯m getting older, I should have a serious relationship on the premise of marriage rather than a casual meeting, but it¡¯s not easy. Nobody will take me seriously, and I don¡¯t want to ruin anyone¡¯s life. The love will fade quickly, and I¡¯ll find another man.? ? I¡¯m sick of this kind of me, too.? ? That¡¯s why they¡¯re all leaving.? ? It¡¯s always like this, and I¡¯m tired of it. CH 3 I got dizzy after barely two hours of sleep. During my lunch break, I slept for about 20 minutes, but it wasn¡¯t enough. Fortunately, no errors were found during the document check.? ? Cough.? ? I coughed and closed the last file.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, you seem completely sick today. Did you have a lot of fun last night?¡±? ? ¡°Ah, why are you being so insensitive again?¡±? ? The chief section approached me with a smirk.? ? ¡°What do you mean insensitive, I was just saying it out of envy~ You¡¯ve never completely cut contact with your ex-lover. Was it alpha yesterday? Huh?¡± ? ? The logistics staff who work the night shift are unaware that I am Omega, but the office staff who work during the day are aware. So there are times when I just want to work in the logistics room. ? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, get some sleep tonight. How old are you and you still lose control at night? Oh right, you¡¯ve been always energetic, hmm?¡±? ? ¡°If you say another word, I will report you for sexual harassment within the company, so say more. I¡¯ll take the settlement money.¡±? ? ¡°Hahaha, it¡¯s not as scary as it looks.¡± ? ? The chief section smirked and walked away as if surrendering. Should I tell his wife? I have the phone number.? ? In the past, when that chief section bastard took a day off due to excessive drinking. His wife called on his behalf, claiming that his phone had broken. The phone number still remains since then.? ? I picked up my cell phone and looked through the call log, lest I ever get it right.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I hesitated with the unsaved number in front of me.? ? The chief section was my interviewer and my resident registration card clearly shows the word ¡°extremely enthusiastic Omega¡±. That¡¯s most likely why he made such an obvious move on the first day of the company dinner.? ? And I was easily fooled by the trick¡­? ? I feel a sense of shame.? ? Sigh¡­? ? I sighed and turned off the phone screen.? ? Let¡¯s get ready for work¡­? ? ***? ? It was an elevator-free building, so I was coming down the stairs to the fourth floor and my head was spinning. I stopped by the cafe on the first floor because I thought I would faint if I didn¡¯t have coffee.? ? ¡°Hello.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, you¡¯re here. Hot americano, right?¡±? ? The boss who recognized me was already familiar with my usual order.? ? ¡°Are you taking a coupon stamp today?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, please.¡±? ? With a little humility, I held out the coupon. I¡¯ve been going to this cafe since I started working for the company and it¡¯s been four years since. I used to take the coupon stamp without forgetting it, but I haven¡¯t been able to do so recently.? ? ¡®Don¡¯t take coupon stamps, you look pathetic. It¡¯s really embarrassing.¡¯? ? When I was in a relationship, I couldn¡¯t take a coupon in front of Park Jin-cheol because I heard his words on the way out after taking the coupons. We had a huge fight that day. When we got back, I didn¡¯t just take out the coupon because he was staring at me whether I took it or not.? ? ¡°I give three stamps for you. Even the ones you didn¡¯t take last time.¡±? ? ¡°Really? Thank you. I will be a regular customer for the rest of my life.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, come often~.¡±? ? The boss must have heard Park Jin-cheol¡¯s sarcastic remarks, but he remained kind and friendly, showing no signs of offense. He appears to be my age, but his social life appears to be one level higher than mine.? ? ¡®Do you have a girlfriend? You know what? I¡¯ve seen you go out with a girl before. How does it feel to go out with such a sweet person? I also want to date a kind person.¡¯? ? Even if it is not within your means, your imagination is free.? ? I left the cafe, enjoying the warm and soft aroma of coffee.? ? ***? ? The place I decided to meet that high school kid and his older brother was at a high-end Korean restaurant.? ? I didn¡¯t even know there was such a place in Mapo-gu. Should I have worn a one-piece suit instead?? ? ¡°Hello, how can I help you?¡±? ? As I walked around the entrance, an elegantly dressed employee approached me.? ? ¡°I have an appointment here.¡±? ? ¡°Are you Mr. Seo-yu?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, that¡¯s right.¡±? ? ¡°We have someone waiting for you. Come on in.¡±? ? It was ten minutes before the scheduled time, but they were already here.? ? I followed the employees inside. After a few more floors in the elevator, a long and wide hallway appeared. The employees stopped in front of a large door in the middle.? ? ¡°Should I go in here?¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? I took a look around. This was the door. Surprisingly, this floor seemed to have only one room.? ? What kind of restaurant¡­ It¡¯s not even a hotel¡­? ? I opened the door with a confused feeling.? ? And as I opened the door, I was frozen.? ? ¡°You are here.¡±? ? I almost unintentionally spit out the words, ¡®A gangster?¡¯ to the man who greeted me coldly.? ? Even when seated, he seemed to be taller than 190cm with broad shoulders and forearms the size of my head. He was dressed in a black suit, but his sexy tight fit was enough to draw my attention to him.? ? His hair was neatly pulled up without leaving a single strand of hair, he had a sharp bridge nose, a firm jawline, and his eyes look so emotionless because he didn¡¯t have double eyelids.? ? Overall, there was a sense of cold oppression. Furthermore, the scar from the right cheek to the chin left an unfavorable impression on ordinary people.? ? Of course, I am not an ordinary person.? ? I immediately smiled and sat across from him.? ? ¡°Hello, Sang-hoon ssi. You came early.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s Sung-hoon, you asshole!¡±? ? The high school kid, who was sitting on his knees in his school uniform, raised his head and yelled.? ? ¡°Oh, you are over there? I¡¯m sorry. I can¡¯t remember your name well¡­ haha.¡±? ? ¡°Crazy bastard¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun.¡±? ? The older brother warned his younger brother by calling his name. He bowed his head and closed his mouth. It was so intimidating that I even wanted to lie flat on my face.? ? Even when I took off my coat and put it next to me, I was still coughing. Thankfully, the room was warm. The older brother looked at me quietly and opened his heavy mouth.? ? ¡°Did you catch a cold?¡±? ? ¡°A little. Haha, I won¡¯t pass it to you.¡±? ? To suppress my coughing, I drank the tea on the table.? ? There were three on the table, so one must be mine.? ? ¡°You know why I called you, right?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, of course.¡±? ? I recited the lines I had prepared. It cost 3 million won, so I practiced a lot.? ? ¡°Sung-hyun is such a good student which is rare these days! I wouldn¡¯t be here right now if Sung-hyun hadn¡¯t stopped me from making an extreme decision because I had a hard time. Thank you so much, and thank you to Hyung-nim for raising him so well. I¡¯ll pay for all of the car repairs.¡±? ? Of course, all the expenses will come from the high school kid¡¯s wallet.? ? I looked up at the older brother brightly after I had finished speaking, but I was discouraged by his deep and indifferent eyes.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t lie.¡±? ? The older brother, as expected, did not believe me. Even in the acting about my pitiful life, the man remains cold.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun caused an accident while trying to stop someone from jumping into the river, do you think I¡¯ll believe it? That Choi Sung-hyun saved someone?¡± ? ? It was a sharp remark but I didn¡¯t lose my smile.? ? ¡°In any case, he also said that Hyung-nim would not believe it. But it¡¯s the truth. If not, why would I lie? There is nothing to gain by lying like this.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m sure you took the money without a second thought.¡±? ? ¡°What? Money?¡±? ? ¡°How much did you get?¡±? ? The older brother asked without a change in his expression. It was a determined voice, and I wondered, ¡®Did this high school kid leak the plan?¡¯? ? I took a quick look at the high school kid, who had a look on his face that said, ¡°If you can¡¯t convince my older brother here, there will be no money.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m asking you how much did you get.¡±? ? ¡°Ahaha. You really don¡¯t trust people. I didn¡¯t take any money.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Perhaps my reply was too absurd, and the cold eyes change a little. The high school kid in the corner of the room shook his head. His face had turned pale.? ? ¡°Hey, y-you, why are you talking casually-.¡±? ? ¡°He did it first.¡±? ? I blinked as if it didn¡¯t matter. The high school kid stuttered and fixed his gaze on me and his brother.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not sure how old he is, but he did it first, so I¡¯m going with the flow. There is no reason for me to be polite to strangers who talk casually to me without my permission.¡±? ? The older brother cocked his brow and looked down at me. A cold eye indicated a cold personality. Anyway, I had no idea that a person who called me to talk about their brother would be so arrogant.? ? That cold stare on my face felt like it was going to crush me to death. I got goosebumps on the back of my neck because his cold stare made me feel he wasn¡¯t looking at humans.? ? Damn, should I just use honorifics again¡­? ? The man remained silent. He just gave me a cold stare. As a result, I couldn¡¯t even open my mouth and my conscience was attacked as well.? ? To be honest, it¡¯s true that I took the money without hesitation!? ? ¡°Th-this, crazy bastard who does he think he is to speak-¡­ !¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun.¡±? ? ¡°Huh, yes, Hyung. I will not curse.¡±? ? Meanwhile, the high school kid was scolded by his brother for being overly excited on his own. As a result, I was no longer under the gaze of the older brother. As soon as his gaze shifted away from me, I returned my gaze to the table.? ? Are you a real gangster? How can your eyes be so emotionless?? ? To use the honorific again.? ? ¡°Your words and actions do not seem to be those of someone who attempted suicide yesterday.¡±? ? Fortunately, the older brother stepped down first. I breathed a sigh of relief inwardly.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t want to die anymore. I was able to overcome it thanks to Sung-hyun¡¯s help.¡±? ? ¡°How much money did you get?¡±? ? ¡°Well, I didn¡¯t get it. Aren¡¯t you too sure? You should have a little trust in your younger brother.¡±? ? I brought back the smile that had faded due to tension on my face. I considered using my Omega appeal. Because I didn¡¯t look like an Omega, I had to smile prettily and release a little pheromone. However, I did not do it for fear of offending the older brother.? ? ¡°To be honest, he looks like a teenager who¡¯s very interested in cars. How excited must he have been to get one as a gift? The day he finally drove it out, he met a man who was about to jump to his death and saved his life, so I think it¡¯s fate. Hyung-nim aren¡¯t you proud?¡±? ? ¡®I was trying to commit suicide.¡¯? ? ¡°Yes, yes, it¡¯s true. I tried to jump into the Han River. Think about it. Why would I be in the middle of Mapo Bridge at that time if I wasn¡¯t planning on killing myself? It¡¯s cold and raining outside.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Sang-hyun broke the car because of me and was so worried that I would report him. It¡¯s illegal for a minor to drive, but if it hadn¡¯t been for Sang-hyun that day, I would have died. So please think about it with an open mind that he was driving to save one person.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s Sung-hyun.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Ahaha, I can¡¯t memorize people¡¯s names very well. Whether it¡¯s Sung-hyun or Sang-hyun¡­¡±? ? I smiled with my eyes while concealing my twisted heart.? ? ¡°We should give Sung-hyun something like a brave national award. Shall I notify the Seoul Metropolitan Government?¡±? ? ¡°It should be a brave citizen award.¡±? ? Whether it¡¯s the public or citizens I don¡¯t really care¡­? ? ¡°Anyway, you should be proud to have such a wonderful younger brother, and I will treat you to today¡¯s meal. I owe the price of my life, haha.¡±? ? Of course, I will charge Choi Sung-hyun later.? ? ¡°The meal has already been paid.¡±? ? From the beginning to the present, the man has had a consistent low tone. He seemed to have a cold personality, not showing much enthusiasm for anything. How are brothers so different?? ? The man¡¯s black cell phone on the table then began to vibrate. The man prepared to get up by looking at the screen with only his eyes.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t believe you, but I¡¯ll leave first. I will contact you later.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Are you going?¡±? ? I was so happy that I asked without even realizing it. I was in a hurry to control my expression, so my face became awkward with a forced smile.? ? ¡°You can stay a little longer¡­¡±? ? ¡°Sure.¡±? ? ¡°But if you¡¯re really busy, you can go.¡±? ? ¡°Then I¡¯ll go.¡±? ? Are you making fun of me?? ? The man¡¯s voice seems to have a faint laugh in it.? ? The harsh impression is a little better as there is a little laughter in those cold eyes. It¡¯s just that I¡¯m not sure if it¡¯s cynicism or a genuine smile.? ? ¡°The meal will be delivered after I leave. Have a meal with Sung-hyun.¡± The man stood up in his seat. Even the knee-up movement was composed and disciplined.? ? When Choi Sung-hoon and I stood up at the same time, the physical difference between us became even more obvious. I was compelled by instinct to scan the man¡¯s body with my eyes.? ? As if it were a scene from a movie, the man took the suit coat from the hanger and began putting it on his arm. With his determined eyes, cheek scars, and even a ghastly physique, he would look great in a noir film.? ? ¡°What¡¯s wrong?¡±? ? The man noticed my gaze as I watched his long, hard fingers slowly button the buttons. I felt bad for staring so intently, so I spoke up.? ? ¡°You have a great body and broad shoulders. Those square shoulders.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s an inverted triangle.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Then I will contact you. Please take a rest. Sung-hyun-ah, see you tomorrow.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, yes, Hyung!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun responded aloud.? ? The man opened the door.? ? Huh. ? ? I was taken aback and almost fell backward at that moment. There were apparently two big guys in black suits waiting in the hallway where no one was!? ? At first glance, it seemed to be ten people. When and how did they appear silently, and why are they waiting in the corridor for a man? The phrase ¡°death disposal¡± came to mind at the time, but I shook my head.? ? ¡°Boss.¡±? ? Among them, a man with glasses about the same size as him approached the man with a tablet PC. He said something in low voices, presumably aware of my presence, and another man of his size closed the door.? ? ¡°What the hell.¡±? ? I took a seat on the spot.? ? ¡°Hey, kid. Is your brother really a gangster?¡±? ? ¡°No? He works in the financial sector.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun, who had regained his spirit, sat comfortably in his seat when his older brother left.? ? ¡°How dare you look at my brother and speak casually to him? Is there a problem with your head? You¡¯re a lunatic, aren¡¯t you?¡±? ? ¡°Do you want to be beaten by a lunatic?¡±? ? ¡°I had no idea there was a big human who dared to speak casually to my brother. You¡¯re lucky to be alive. You¡¯d be dead if there was a knife here.¡±? ? ¡°You said you weren¡¯t a gangster.¡±? ? ¡°Do only gangsters kill people? Ordinary office workers, too.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I¡¯m not sure which world you¡¯re referring to. An ordinary office worker kills people because they spoke casually to them, and what kind of company refers to the higher up as ¡®boss¡¯?? ? I stretched my legs out to relax my tense body.? ? ¡°How old are you?¡±? ? ¡°Older than you.¡±? ? ¡°And don¡¯t call me you. Put honorific on it. Come on, before I tell your brother.¡±? ? ¡°Yu-ssi¡­¡±? ? ¡°So, how old is your brother?¡±? ? ¡°Thirty, will be thirty one next year?¡±? ? Thirty? I was surprised to know he was younger than I had thought. The flowing force seemed to be at a certain stage.? ? He seems to knew that I¡¯m in my early twenties, so I thought he must be upset when I spoke casually earlier.? ? ¡°Why are you surprised?¡±? ? ¡°I expected him to be older. Your brother looks so mature that he seems to be in his mid-40s and¡­¡±? ? I want to have sex.? ? ¡°¡­because he looked like that-.¡±? ? ¡°He looks like that because of the scar. It¡¯s because he always wears suits and has his hair slicked back. When he has his hair down, he seems to be in his twenties. And what¡¯s the deal with Alpha looking so young?¡±? ? Now that I think about it, it was a severe brocom. His older brother looked quite scary, but he still admires him that much? Choi Sung-hyun, who was flapping and siding with his brother looked quite cute.? ? Well, the reason he called me today was to warn his underage brother not to drive again. He¡¯s a great brother.? ? I couldn¡¯t help but think of my brother. We used to be close. Because I liked it so much, I thought it was a mask.? ? ***? ? When I came home after eating a lot of expensive dishes, the desolate atmosphere was waiting for me again.? ? Tuesday night at 11 p.m., a vague time to go anywhere.? ? I washed up and went to the refrigerator to get a can of beer.? ? A table for four.? ? A closet with one of the doors missing.? ? A chair with a curved back.? ? And a refrigerator that is making noise.? ? Things will lean and break down if you live in one place for a long time. But I have no intention of moving.? ? The owner has not raised the deposit for over 10 years.? ? I sat down in front of the television and drank the entire can of beer. While brushing my teeth, I was watching a drama in which a woman was crying in a man¡¯s arms.? ? After taking my cold medicine, I jumped into bed.? ? Both the doors of the bedroom and the small room were opened and the TV was turned on.? ? Nevertheless, how can this loneliness disappear? Is there ever going to be a day in my life when I don¡¯t feel lonely?? ? Cough, cough.? ? I stared blankly at the ceiling? ? It¡¯s not that I haven¡¯t tried to find a hobby that I enjoy. I also joined a photography club, purchased and watched a DVD of a well-known film. I played online games and even traveled alone.? ? However, while watching a movie, I only commented about the male actors. I left a club after being caught flirting with two people at the same time. In games, I fell in love and quit when my relationship ended, and while traveling, I dropped by a local gay club and had a one-night stay with a beta.? ? I feel ashamed when I think of the past.? ? My life really.? ? I didn¡¯t think it would be easy to fall asleep, so I just woke up.? ? The eleventh ancestral rite is over.? ? I can¡¯t live like this forever. I should stop dating Beta. I want to create a peaceful and happy family. If I¡¯m going to live, I want to live as a part of a happy family.? ? I¡¯m not even young anymore, so I need to get married before I turn another year older. There are ways to contact my little father, but that¡¯s the last resort.? ? Let¡¯s look for an alpha and omega dating site. Isn¡¯t there a chance that if I smile prettily, say I¡¯ll work and do housework, the passionate old alphas will choose me?? ? But I just stared at the ceiling and did nothing.? ? I¡¯m sick of it. I¡¯m sick of life. I¡¯m tired of even thinking about this. It¡¯s too boring.? ? What do people do for a living?? ? What the hell are people doing with this terrible time? CH 4 Won-jo [Today soju call?]? ? [No, no. I have an appointment.]? ? Won-jo [You¡¯re pretending to be busy.]? ? [It¡¯s Friday night. How about tomorrow?]? ? Won-jo [Okay, tomorrow at 9 o¡¯clock]? ? [All right, I¡¯ll go to your house]? ? Won-jo [sure]? ? After making an appointment with Won-jo, I adjusted my clothes again.? ? Last night I got a call from the high school kid¡¯s older brother. It was a short and bleak message saying that we will see each other again tomorrow to talk about his little brother. I¡¯ve set the time and location without assuming you have an appointment. I sent a reply full of smiles saying [Yes~^See you tomorrow^].? ? The place we met today was a hotel restaurant in Nonhyeon-dong.? ? That¡¯s right.? ? It is a hotel lounge restaurant.? ? After receiving an anti-coughing injection, I changed into my most expensive suit. I wore a light purple shirt with no tie and only one button undone at the top. On top of that, I was attempting to dress in a black-timbered wine jacket and a woolen coat, but it was so cold that I had to resort to a black cashmere long coat and a muffler.? ? Of course, the most important thing to me is my underwear. Because it is a meeting between Alpha and Omega at the hotel restaurant, many possibilities exist.? ? They don¡¯t know I¡¯m an Omega, so I don¡¯t expect too much.? ? In the taxi, I slap my cheek lightly enough that the driver isn¡¯t surprised. This means to get a hold of myself.? ? The high school kid¡¯s older brother called me when the taxi came to a stop near the hotel.? ? -Where are you?? ? He has the best voice ever.? ? ¡°We¡¯re close. We¡¯re almost there. How about you?¡°? ? ¨C What is the car number?? ? *It¡¯s a taxi.? ? I recited the taxi number. I overheard the man repeating the number to someone.? ? ¨C When you arrive, my secretary will guide you.? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? You have a secretary? Isn¡¯t he a real gangster?? ? After hanging up the phone with the man, I sprayed perfume while I was thinking about it. It¡¯s a precious perfume that my ex-lover gave me as a present. It¡¯s a flimsy attempt to hide my scent because my unusual pheromones might come out in a solo encounter with Alpha.? ? When I got out of the taxi in front of the hotel, an adult with a profound impression approached me.? ? ¡°Are you Mr. Seo-yu?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, that¡¯s right.¡±? ? ¡°Director Choi is waiting for you. This way.¡± ? ? The secretary was older than I thought. He is tall, has an expressionless face, and speaks few words, just like his boss.? ? The restaurant was of the room variety, with gangster-looking brothers standing as a guard on all sides of the entrance. I felt a sense of separation. This isn¡¯t a hotel, rather it¡¯s a classy restaurant. ¡°I¡¯ve brought him here,¡± the secretary said after knocking twice on the closed door. He backed away when he heard a low response asking me to come in as if telling me to go in by myself.? ? I was a little nervous and opened the door with a pretty smile.? ? ¡°You¡¯re early.¡± ? ? The man who arrived ahead of me greeted me while his face was hidden behind a tablet PC. He really didn¡¯t match his outer appearance. It looks like he should be wiping the blood off his pedestal, but the high school kid was sitting sullenly next to the man. His bloodless face and trembling legs gave him the appearance of a death row inmate about to be executed. Did something happen?? ? I was worried, but disappointment came first. I doubt we¡¯ll ever go up to the hotel, given that he brought his younger brother.? ? I shouldn¡¯t have been wearing this underwear. It¡¯s uncomfortable.? ? ¡°Haha, I was going to come first this time, but you came very early.¡±? ? ¡°Please sit down, let¡¯s eat first.¡±? ? I hid my disappointment and greeted him brightly. Unlike the last time, I guess today¡¯s meal comes first. I¡¯m going to have another stomachache.? ? I tried to keep my cough as quiet as possible while removing my coat and muffler, but it came out a few times. ? ? The man raised his hair today without leaving a single strand behind. His wide forehead and manly eyebrows drew my attention. There was also a scar across the cheek. Wearing the best suit and keeping his back straight makes him look extremely sexy.? ? I spoke several times during the course meal to lighten the mood.? ? ¡°It was very cold today, wasn¡¯t it? Now that winter has begun, I¡¯m afraid it is just the beginning.¡±? ? ¡°The first snow fell about a month ago. I haven¡¯t seen any snow yet, so I¡¯m hoping it will fall soon.¡±? ? ¡°Wow, this is delicious. I should have treated this meal to my lifesaver, but I am the one being treated. Haha.¡±? ? There were times when the man replied, ¡°I see¡± or ¡°Is that so?¡± but there were also times when he simply nodded his head or frowned his brow. I naturally closed my mouth because I didn¡¯t want to talk to someone who wouldn¡¯t talk.? ? The dessert was a coffee with a strong aroma and an octopus salad that wasn¡¯t my taste.? ? I was awkwardly sipping coffee when the man put down his cup of coffee and said, ¡°You tried to commit suicide that day.¡±? ? ¡°What? Ah, yes, that day, I attempted suicide.¡±? ? ¡°But he stopped you.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡± ? ? It was a repeat of the same story.? ? ¡°You still don¡¯t believe me? Trust your little brother. If Sang-hyun didn¡¯t stop me-.¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun¡±? ? ¡°If Sung-hyun didn¡¯t stop me, I wouldn¡¯t be here now. I was probably floating on the river¡¯s edge as a drowned person.¡°? ? ¡°You¡¯re really bad at memorizing names. Do you know my name?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Sung¡­ Hyung?¡±? ? I thought it was a Sung, so I hesitated after saying ¡®Sung¡¯. The man was speechless, so he just stared at me.? ? I¡¯m sure there was an H in his name.? ? ¡°Sung-hwan?¡±? ? ¡°No.¡±? ? ¡°Sung-han? Sung-hee?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Sung-ho, Sung-hae, Sung-hyuk? Sung-heon? Sung-hun¡­ Sung-hun?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Damn, honestly, how am I supposed to memorize a name I¡¯ve only heard once?? ? I looked at the man, embarrassed. The man lowered his head and lifted the corner of his right lip, then picked up a cup of coffee and took a sip.? ? You¡¯re drinking coffee right now?? ? I looked at Sung-hyun and he was trembling as if he was holding back his laughter.? ? ¡°Are you doing this on purpose?¡±? ? ¡°What?¡±? ? ¡°How do you say everything but that? What is Sung-hun?¡±? ? Instead of giving his name with a good sense, this bastard made a joke. God, just let him laugh and get beaten by his older brother.? ? ¡°It¡¯s Choi Sung-hoon.¡±? ? I quickly turned my head. The man¡¯s low voice tickled my ears. With a still expressionless face, he drew a business card case.? ? ? ? S&S¡­?? ? It was such a large corporation that I suspected him of lying. It must be the same name, but with a different abbreviation S.? ? ¡°Wow, you are a Director. Three names, I will remember you until the day I die.¡±? ? I accepted it with a smile and handed him my business card.? ? ? ? Maybe Choi Sung-hoon doesn¡¯t know this company. It¡¯s a really small company with only 10 people including the president.? ? Choi Sung-hoon took a look at my business card and quickly placed it in the case. I¡¯m not sure if that man will ever take out my business card again.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡°? ? ¡°¡­ Yes. ¡°? ? It was so thrilling to hear my name being called by the man¡¯s voice.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t lie anymore about the accident that day.¡±? ? ¡°No, it¡¯s real. I really tried to commit suicide. Why don¡¯t you believe it?¡± ? ? Aside from his sexiness, Choi Sung-hoon looked frustrated before picking up the tablet PC on the table and turning it on.? ? ¡°¡­?¡±? ? I tilted my head because I couldn¡¯t figure out why he was suddenly doing that. When I looked at Choi Sung-hyun, he seemed to be on the verge of crying.? ? What? What is it?? ? I asked silently with my lips, but Choi Sung-hyun replied gloomily ¡°My brother¡¯s got the CCTV of that day.¡°? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? CCTV?? ? As far as I know, CCTV footage can only be viewed by police. Since the car was a very expensive new car and the insurance company needed it¡­ The police would have had no choice but to allow the investigation to proceed. It is a precious car that there are only a few in our country.? ? But, how can he have it on his tablet? ? ? Is it possible for an individual to own the CCTV footage?? ? An office worker who is neither a police officer nor a civil servant.? ? He skillfully used the tablet, giving the impression that it would only be used to smack someone on the head, and then he held it out to me.? ? The video on the screen was played. ? ? A car slipped in the rain and crashed into a guard rail on the sidewalk on a rainy night. After that, I, who was standing 100 meters away and looking down at the Han River, approached him.? ? It was not convincing to claim that he attempted to stop someone from committing suicide when the driver¡¯s window was not even lowered. No matter where I looked, the accident that hit the railing came first, and I was on my way to check the accident.? ? ¡°Because there is no sound, we can¡¯t tell if my little brother shouted that you shouldn¡¯t die.¡±? ? I¡¯m glad there¡¯s no sound.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun is angry at you right now.¡°? ? Choi Sung-hyun, who come out from the smashed car, was so angry that he looked about to grab my collar.? ? ¡°He is mad at me for trying to commit suicide. Don¡¯t you see it?¡±? ? ¡°From the video, it does seem that he was surprised to find someone standing alone on a rainy night and caused an accident.¡±? ? He is an older brother who understands the situation very well.? ? Perhaps because I was embarrassed or the cold medicine didn¡¯t work, I start coughing. I looked at Choi Sung-hyun while coughing.? ? He looked like he already gave up.? ? But I can¡¯t give up.? ? I can¡¯t let go of 3 million won so easily!? ? I haven¡¯t confessed yet, so I¡¯ll use my last resort.? ? ¡°I wasn¡¯t going to show you this.¡±? ? I took out my cell phone.? ? Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t even flinch his eyelids when I told him this.? ? I opened the notepad app and handed it to him.? ? ¡°Because I didn¡¯t have a phone that day, I couldn¡¯t call 911 if there was an accident. I forgot about it at home. This is why I left it.¡±? ? The reason I left it is simple.? ? It can¡¯t break due to the water, and I can¡¯t afford to lose it.? ? Shouldn¡¯t I make it obvious that I wrote it to show you?? ? On the notepad I showed him, this is what it says:? ? [I think I¡¯ll be fine if I don¡¯t live any longer. I¡¯m sick of it all. I don¡¯t want to live anymore.]? ? ¡°This is¡­ ¡°? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s emotionless face showed signs of unexpectedness. A twitching scar and a raised brow. It wasn¡¯t particularly frightening, but it was unexpected.? ? I didn¡¯t understand why he was surprised.? ? What kind of lunatic would stand alone at Mapo Bridge in the rainy dead of winter without an umbrella?? ? Unless there is a particular purpose.? ? Choi Sung-hoon will have no choice but to believe it. He has to believe it.? ? Because I went to die that day.? ? ¡°What is it?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun poked his head in, intrigued by his brother¡¯s surprise.? ? ¡°Huh¡­ Is this a will? Are you really going to die?¡±? ? Ugh, stupid kid. You shouldn¡¯t be surprised.? ? ¡°You didn¡¯t write it on your way here, did you?¡°? ? You have to believe it.? ? ¡°Look at the writing time. 11:30 p.m. before the accident. I¡¯m really there to die.¡±? ? ¡°¡­I see.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon answered with a cold voice. His gaze was as bloody as if he was going to hit the phone against the wall at any moment.? ? ¡°Wow, it was real¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun kept hitting the candle next to him, but Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t care. He handed me the cell phone.? ? ¡°It¡¯s a suicide note¡­¡± He murmured coldly. I put my cell phone back in my pocket. After coughing a few times, Choi Sung-hoon asked, ¡°Have you taken the medicine?¡±? ? ¡°I did. Thanks to Sung-hyun, I feel like I want to live, so I¡¯m taking medicines with the thought of living a healthy life.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun did a wonderful thing.¡±? ? He praised his younger brother with an apathetic tone that sounds like he was not proud at all. ? ? Even after overcoming the crisis when everything was revealed, Choi Sung-hyun avoided his gaze with a complicated face.? ? I¡¯ve even revealed the truth I¡¯ve been hiding, so please give me my money.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry for doubting you.¡±? ? ¡°No, it¡¯s okay.¡±? ? ¡°Did you have any reason to die?¡±? ? ¡°Well, this and that¡­ don¡¯t you also have moments when you want to die?¡±? ? There was not a single feeling of regret in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice, and there was no sign of genuine curiosity. So I passed on the question that was posed to me indifferently.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon answered briefly. Like he doesn¡¯t even know what dying means.? ? But I don¡¯t believe there isn¡¯t any. A man can die if he hits his little toe on the threshold.? ? That¡¯s how today¡¯s meeting ended. ¡°See you next time,¡± Choi Sung-hoon said as he stood up first. Choi Sung-hyun hurriedly followed his older brother, saying, ¡°If my brother believes it, I will give hyung money.¡± (The title Sung-hyun use for Seo-yu has already changed from ¡®Hey¡¯ to ¡®Hyung¡¯.)? ? There was a time when I was also sticking to my older brother.? ? After finishing the coffee that had been brought out for dessert and thought about my brother for a moment, I went home. CH 5 I went to work in the morning on Saturday and returned home before lunch. After completing some housework, it was time for my appointment with Won-jo, so I dressed casually and went out.? ? I felt bad about repeatedly refusing to meet him, so I went to Guro-dong, where Won-jo lives. Won-jo appeared in a very comfortable outfit, complete with a padded coat and slippers. It left me speechless.? ? ¡°Hey, what are you wearing? You¡¯re not going to the club like that, are you?¡±? ? ¡°We are going to the club? Damn it, we didn¡¯t talk about going, that¡¯s why I dressed comfortably.¡°? ? ¡°You should expect that much when we meet on Saturday night, you bastard.¡±? ? Won-jo is a friend I met while working part-time and has a light hip like me. He also knows that I am an Omega. We became close quickly because we have similar personalities and many similar ways of living.? ? We headed to a gopchang restaurant in Guro-dong station. I don¡¯t like gopchang because it smells bad, but Won-jo insisted on eating it. (T/N: Gopchang is Korean cuisine made of the small intestines.) ? ? ¡°You bastard only said we should eat gopchang when I¡¯m dressed up.¡± ? ? ¡°You idiot, you only asked me to go to the club when I looked shabby.¡±? ? ¡°Hey, is there a time when you don¡¯t look shabby?¡±? ? ¡°Ah, you bastard. How neat you are¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m cleaner than you.¡±? ? In fact, the gopchang restaurant and the taste of gopchang itself were the most shabby. I drank alcohol as a side dish. I knew this was going to happen, so I ate at home before going out.? ? They openly talked about each other¡¯s gossip at work until the bottle of soju was empty, and when the second bottle of soju was reached, a conversation about life¡¯s story soon followed.? ? ¡°How was your memorial service?¡±? ? ¡°Uh¡­ Well.¡±? ? ¡°You must have had a hard time alone. You were working separately from your relatives. I thought Park Jin-cheol would be there to help you. I expected him to be the first lover to share a family anniversary with you.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t talk about my ex-boyfriend, it makes me feel awful.¡±? ? Won-jo frowned as I coughed while speaking.? ? ¡°Did you catch a cold?¡±? ? ¡°Uh, I didn¡¯t get better on purpose so that my cold would be passed on to you.¡±? ? ¡°Fuck you.¡±? ? Even though I took medicine and received an injection for it, the cold lasted for quite a long time.? ? It¡¯s not a problem for me to complain about standing for hours on the Han River bridge on a rainy winter night.? ? ¡°Why did you break up with Park Jin-cheol? You even thought about marriage.¡±? ? ¡°What marriage?¡±? ? I snorted. In fact, I seriously considered getting married. Park Jin-cheol is Beta, so he can¡¯t give me children, but there is a way for us to adopt. (T/N: Beta in this story can¡¯t make omega pregnant or get pregnant)? ? Jin-cheol felt burdened because I wanted to start a family as soon as possible. At 27, marriage is considered too early.? ? ¡°Still, Park Jin-cheol was the nicest guy among your ex-lovers, but it¡¯s too bad he was in his twenties.¡±? ? If I add up all my lover¡¯s ages, they are on average ten years older than me.? ? ¡°Coming to think of it, it was my first time dating a beta in my 20s. Maybe I¡¯ll date Beta again next time.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, look at this light omega jerk attempting to date both alpha and beta. Don¡¯t even think about touching Beta.¡±? ? ¡°What if I don¡¯t have an Alpha to meet?¡±? ? ¡°After breaking up with Park Jin-cheol, is there any other man you see? Usually, you¡¯ll get a new one right away.¡±? ? ¡°None. Who the fuck said I can¡¯t live without a man¡­¡±? ? I stopped talking because it reminded me of Choi Sung-hoon, the Alpha with a domineering physique.? ? ¡°There is! Wow, this bastard. I¡¯m so envious of your luck with man.¡± ? ? Won-jo immediately noticed my hesitation.? ? ¡°No, we¡¯ve only met twice and we¡¯re not seeing each other anymore.¡°? ? ¡°You¡¯ll be able to make it work. It¡¯s your specialty to get things you can¡¯t have.¡±? ? ¡°He comes from a completely different world¡­ a very dominant alpha from a wealthy family.¡±? ? Then Won-jo made a face that it was such a waste.? ? ¡°If he is a dominant alpha, shouldn¡¯t you be sleeping with him at least once? Even if it¡¯s impossible to date.¡±? ? ¡°Of course, I¡¯d love to sleep with him. But I don¡¯t have a single piece of bait through which to make contact.¡±? ? ¡°What a waste¡­¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s such a waste for me as well.¡±? ? Thinking about the manly appearance, wide right-angled shoulders, and sexy low voice, I got I became bitter again when I remembered his masculine appearance, wide right-angle shoulders, and sexy low voice. We will most likely never see each other again in our lives.? ? We exchanged business cards, but that was it. Because the world in which we live is different.? ? We had one toast. The taste of soju was so bitter that it made its way into the top ranking of my life.? ? ¡°You must find someone to marry, not just a lover. I¡¯m a beta, so I can find it late, but you¡¯re an omega.¡±? ? Won-jo said while rummaging through the tripe with chopsticks.? ? ¡°How old are we now?? ? ¡°Twenty-seven.¡±? ? ¡°It will be twenty-eight in a month. Huh? 28. It¡¯s fine for me because I¡¯m a beta, but omega age has a limit. Before you get any older, you need to catch a good alpha. What¡¯s the point of working if you don¡¯t date Alpha?¡±? ? I agree with you.? ? If you want to continue living, you should get married.? ? As I watched Won-jo stuff several pieces of tripe into his mouth at once, I grabbed the seaweed that had been served as a side dish.? ? ¡°Who doesn¡¯t know that? Introduce me to someone and stop nagging, damn it.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know of any Alphas. It¡¯s extremely difficult for Beta to become involved with Alpha.¡±? ? ¡°What the hell am I supposed to do? I¡¯m not a particularly attractive Omega either.¡±? ? ¡°Even so, you¡¯re good at ¡®turning your back¡¯.¡°? ? ¡°I can¡¯t say ¡®I can turn my back well¡¯ for every alpha I meet for the first time.¡± (T/N: For this ¡®turn my back well¡¯ it¡¯s pointing to something sexual. If you know then you know(¡ä???¨F))? ? If you think about it, my only real strength is my nightlife skill. Today, the taste of alcohol is extremely bitter.? ? ¡°Tsk tsk, Seo-yu how did you happen to be born as an omega.¡±? ? Won-jo sympathizes, it was a confused expression as if he wasn¡¯t sure whether he was laughing or feeling sorry for me.? ? ¡°Stop talking about me and talk about you. How have you been? You¡¯ve been in a private workshop for almost five months, haven¡¯t you?¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t find a lover. I just did a lot of one nightstand.¡±? ? ¡°When you say one night, you usually ask for a number. Didn¡¯t you like anyone?¡±? ? I asked, recalling my one night stand experience. I only tried it a few times because I¡¯m more of a dating person than a one-nighter, but there were times when the other side expressed interest in continuing to see me. There were two or so relationships that developed into lovers.? ? ¡°Well, there was a man asking for my number¡­ But I refused.¡±? ? Won-jo had a broken self-esteem expression and stuttered hopelessly. I realized I had made a slip of the tongue.? ? ¡°But you can still be a woman. I¡¯m nothing but a man¡­ and beta, that¡¯s great. I don¡¯t have to be nervous yet. Unlike you, I have a long way to go before I get married.¡± ? ? It¡¯s better than you. He says something as if he¡¯s envious, then brags again.? ? Won-jo had always felt sorry for me as an omega, and he frequently reminded me that ¡®I am a beta different from you.¡¯ So when Won-jo seems to be upset, I also express my envy.? ? He¡¯s my friend, but he¡¯s really simple. No, it¡¯s my friend¡¯s simple personality.? ? ***? ? After the first round at the gopchang restaurant, the second at the indoor bar, and up to the third at the bar, they went home separate ways. He arrived in his neighborhood after paying 3000 won for a taxi and went into a convenience store to buy a hangover drink.? ? ¡°It¡¯s 5,300 won.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­ cough.¡±? ? I shook my head and took out the money.? ? ¡°You are late today.¡±? ? ¡°What? Ah.¡±? ? A familiar face smiled as I lifted my head in response to the pleasant voice. Because there is only one convenience store in the neighborhood, I regularly visited it and became acquainted with the part-timers. I can¡¯t remember his name, but he¡¯s a part-time night student at a nearby university. I¡¯ll remember it when I¡¯m sober.? ? ¡°You work the night shift¡­ so take this and eat it.¡±? ? I also held out the chocolate bar in front of the counter. The part-timer said, ¡°Yes, thank you.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s late, please be careful, no, would you like to take a break?¡±? ? The part-timer tried to get out of the counter as I stumbled while putting the drink in my jumper pocket. I smiled as I waved my hands.? ? ¡°It¡¯s all right. It¡¯s hard to work at dawn. Take this and eat it¡­¡±? ? I took out the sausage from the counter and stuck out a thousand won bill. The part-timer¡¯s hand was stopped, so I urged him to pay quickly.? ? The part-timer saw me off with worried eyes. I stumble when I¡¯m drunk, but I don¡¯t have to worry because I have good thinking and memory. CH 6 Another exhausting week has passed, and the day has finally arrived. The day I receive 3 million won in cash.? ? Choi Hyun-Sung ¡­? Was it Choi Sung-hyun? Anyway, I assumed he¡¯d deposit it because a high school student had received my account number, but he called me yesterday and insisted on giving it to me in cash. It didn¡¯t matter whether it was a deposit or cash, as long as I got it.? ? The cafe where he asked me to meet had partitions in each seat, so it was eligible for a cash-only area.? ? Cough, cough.? ? This cough isn¡¯t going away.? ? The high school kid arrived after I had taken two or three sips of warm citron tea.? ? ¡°Eh? Why are you here so quickly? Is it ten minutes until the appointment?¡± ? ? ¡°Will you be late for money? Give it to me quickly.¡±? ? Even before the high school kid sat down, I extended my hand. The adolescent grumbled and sat down, claiming that I was not friendly. I was excited by the sight of him opening the zipper of the cross bag he was carrying.? ? 3 million won! Two months¡¯ worth of my salary!? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? But what came out was not a white envelope, but a flashing gold watch.? ? ¡°What, this?¡±? ? ¡°I have no cash. My brother blocked my card.¡±? ? ¡°What?¡±? ? ¡°It was good to save people, but it¡¯s wrong for me to sneak out with the car, so I¡¯ll pay the repair cost.¡±? ? ¡°You said you had enough money for the repair cost.¡±? ? ¡°That was the time when the card was active. All of the cards that my parents gave me were blocked by my brother. I¡¯m a beggar now. It¡¯s possible that I¡¯ll have to work part-time.¡±? ? The high school kid pronounced part-time job awkwardly as if it were a foreign word he had just learned.? ? ¡°So you¡¯re going to cover it with some items?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m glad I didn¡¯t take it off. This watch is worth ten million won, so you¡¯re lucky.¡±? ? ¡°How can I believe that? Do you have a certificate?¡±? ? ¡°I threw it away in the past. It isn¡¯t worth it. If you want to sell it secondhand, call him here at this number. I know him, but if you say you got it from me, A-Tech Gold Four, he¡¯ll handle it on his own.¡±? ? The high school kid handed me a business card. He is living a good life. I don¡¯t think a high school kid who shows off will be short on money, and it seemed like a good deal. I don¡¯t know how much it¡¯ll sell for because it¡¯s used, but it was originally worth 10 million won, so I believe it¡¯ll sell for more than 3 million.? ? However, it is uncomfortable because it seems I ripped off a child.? ? I was debating whether or not to ask, and in the end, I did.? ? ¡°How much did the car repair cost?¡±? ? ¡°Was it one thousand and five hundred or two thousand? I don¡¯t know.¡±? ? I was surprised at the price that was higher than expected.? ? Can I really have this watch?? ? ¡°Then you won¡¯t be able to work regular part-time in the future to pay back the repair cost.¡±? ? ¡°No, I already paid for the repair.¡±? ? ¡°You already pay it?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have the money because I spent it on that.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I have to work part-time if I don¡¯t have enough pocket money. However, when I don¡¯t have enough money, I just think about selling hats or shoes, and since a used one is 5 million won, I can live with that for a week.¡±? ? I decided to receive the watch without any hesitation. I wanted to punch this high school kid in the face with this watch, but I resisted.? ? ¡°Put it in the case. If it gets scratched, the price will be reduced.¡± ? ? Given that he was considerate of taking care of the case, I thought it was a good thing that I¡¯m holding it in.? ? I was putting the business card in my wallet and realized I was forgetting something important.? ? ¡°What¡¯s your name? Choi Hyun-seok?¡±? ? ¡°Damn, are you a stone head? Memorize it, Choi Sung-hyun!¡±? ? ¡°Oh, Choi Sung-hyun.¡±? ? That¡¯s right, it was Choi Sung-hyun. I have to sell the watch, so let¡¯s memorize them properly. Choi Sung-hyun looked at me pityingly as he stood up with his bag.? ? ¡°I came out when my brother wasn¡¯t around, so I have to go back quickly. I will contact you later¡±? ? ¡°Uh¡­ Yeah.¡±? ? I wondered why he would call again after our business was over, but I didn¡¯t ask.? ? ¡°No, Hyung! You go out later.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun freaked out when I got up to leave now.? ? ¡°Please come out five minutes after I leave. There are bodyguards outside.¡±? ? ¡°You have bodyguards following you¡­?¡±? ? ¡°A monitoring to make sure that I don¡¯t do useless things. They were assigned to me by my father. If they find out I was with the person involved in the car accident, my father will scold me and if it gets into my brother¡¯s ears, we¡¯re screwed. My Hyung would notice everything before and after simply hearing the words ¡®the two of them met at a cafe¡¯?¡±? ? It seemed that the bean pods for his older brother were on the level of Jack and the Beanstalk, but I didn¡¯t say this either.? ? ¡°Okay. Five minutes?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, see you later.¡±? ? Why should you and I ever meet again?? ? ¡°Go home safely.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun left, and I drank citron tea while looking at the clock.? ? A-Tech Gold Four. A-tech is a famous brand I have heard of. The hour, minute, and second pins are working fine, and the time is right.? ? Should I just wear it instead of selling it?? ? I liked it because it wasn¡¯t even big for a man¡¯s watch. First, I put it on my wrist with the idea of taking a picture. After I put it on, it felt better.? ? While looking satisfactorily, I inadvertently raised my head in response to the sound of creaking and moving partitions, and I froze as I realized who it was.? ? ¡°Long time no see, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? My mouth twitched as I politely greeted him and watched the man sitting in the seat where Choi Sung-hyun was sitting.? ? Why is Hyung-nim coming out of there?? ? The man in the perfectly tailored suit with the cold expression was still sexy and frightening.? ? He sat down and crossed his legs while looking at my wrist slowly. There was enough tension to tingle the flesh. I lowered my hand under the table and smiled awkwardly.? ? ¡°Oh, haha. What a coincidence that I¡¯ve run into you in all of these places.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not a coincidence.¡±? ? Shit.? ? ¡°You¡¯re wearing a watch that I¡¯ve seen quite a few times.¡±? ? ¡°Watch? Maybe because it¡¯s famous¡­ haha.¡±? ? ¡°Until when are you going to lie? Do I look like a fool?¡±? ? I was so taken aback that my shoulders were trembling. The man never emitted pheromones, but a sense of intimidation ran through his body, putting pressure on me. It was like being a mouse in front of a leopard.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun must have brought you in to make it sound like an accident and to be less scolded. If you give them money, most of the snobs will fall for it.¡±? ? It¡¯s right that I did something wrong, and everything he says is true. But I can¡¯t simply accept it and move on.? ? ¡°You saw the will. It¡¯s an app that can¡¯t manipulate time, that¡¯s it.¡±? ? ¡°There are many people who write wills. I also always keep a paper will at home, and Choi Sung-hyun also has¡­¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s because you¡¯re rich and an Alpha¡­ ordinary people like us don¡¯t write wills unless we really mean it.¡±? ? However, the man didn¡¯t seem to believe it. He just stared at me coldly, as if waiting for me to make more excuses.? ? ¡°It¡¯s really frustrating. Ordinary people don¡¯t write wills unless they really want to commit suicide. Go and grab someone then ask, ¡®Have you written a will?¡¯ ¡°? ? ¡°They say that regular office workers always carry a resignation letter with them.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s different from a resignation letter! A will is really written with the risk of death!¡±? ? I screamed out of frustration. I should have ordered iced water instead of warm citron tea.? ? ¡°I can¡¯t believe it. You don¡¯t look like you want to die at all.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s because I decided not to die anymore thanks to Sung-hyun~.¡±? ? ¡°Then explain why.¡±? ? The man said slowly, in a calm tone.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t look like someone who wants to die. If you explain why you want to die convincingly, I¡¯ll admit it. However, if you don¡¯t, I¡¯ll interpret it as a scam to Choi Sung-hyun, a scam to obtain that watch.¡±? ? What the¡­? ? I was speechless.? ? What did I do? Why would I? Why would I tell a stranger a secret about myself that neither my coworkers nor my one and only friend are aware of?? ? I was just about to ask if he was crazy.? ? ¡°As expected, my prediction was right. You were there to scam someone.¡±? ? A cold smirk appeared on the man¡¯s lips when he noticed I wasn¡¯t talking. The polite honorifics had disappeared, and the eyes were filled with contempt.? ? ¡°People who really want to die don¡¯t take suicide as lightly as you do. Choi Sung-hyun, where did you get this beggar?¡±? ? The moment I heard that my mouth opened automatically.? ? ¡°It was my older brother¡¯s death anniversary.¡±? ? It¡¯s never because of the watch. This is because I want to cast doubt on the man who is certain of his reasoning. I¡¯d like to distort that constant expression of indifference.? ? ¡°When I was young, there was an accident, and my parents died on the spot. My older brother was hospitalized, but he died a week later. That day was my brother¡¯s anniversary.¡±? ? Of course, as the man said, I¡¯m a snob who steals from a high school kid, but I got angry when he disrespected my desire to die.? ? In the end, I didn¡¯t jump¡­ unfortunately, that is.? ? ¡°I had always thought I would die after this year¡¯s ancestral rites, and I really tried to put that thought into action that day. I¡¯d jump off if it weren¡¯t for your brother.¡±? ? My parents died instantly in an accident, and my older brother was taken to the hospital and died a week later. Relatives hold ancestral rites together on the anniversary of my parents¡¯ deaths, but I always perform separate rites with my brother¡¯s friends on the anniversary of my brother¡¯s death.? ? In fact, calling it a ritual is too grand. It¡¯s just cutting some fruit, going to the ossuary to and complain. In any case, my older brother¡¯s friends make all of the transportation and lodging arrangements.? ? My older brother¡¯s friends still treat me like a child because there was a considerable age difference with my older brother. A 16-year-old middle school kid who suddenly suffered the death of his family.? ? When I get home from being treated like a younger brother, I can¡¯t help but want to die because of the empty seats of the three people who dissapeared so suddenly.? ? That day I really wanted to die.? ? ¡°It¡¯s my older brother¡¯s death anniversary¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°How come you chose this year¡¯s anniversary rather than next year or the year before?¡±? ? ¡°Because I didn¡¯t want to exceed my brother¡¯s age.¡±? ? The man¡¯s brow furrowed. Maybe I¡¯m as expressionless as this man now.? ? I lowered my eyes.? ? ¡°I am twenty-seven now, and my older brother also died at this age. I was going to die because I feel sorry to live longer than my brother.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re twenty-seven?¡±? ? The man frowned upon hearing my age. Does he feel uncomfortable when a guy younger than him talks informally?? ? ¡°What does it matter how old I am? It¡¯s proven now, I¡¯m leaving.¡±? ? ¡°Even if the date was right, I wonder if you actually want to jump at that time. On CCTV, you took a step back before Choi Sung-hyun car arrived.¡±? ? ¡°No, that¡¯s shit¡­¡±? ? I was frustrated and cursed because he still refused to believe this serious story.? ? ¡°Do you have a video? Do you have it now?¡±? ? The man took out his cell phone. CCTV footage is stored on the phone.? ? Wow, a pervert.? ? I paused the video at the scene where I took a step back.? ? ¡°Look. If you look closely, you¡¯ll notice that I¡¯m taking off my shoes while stepping back. When I take it off halfway, I see a car accident and put it back on as I run to it. I was taking off my shoes before I jump. Everyone took off their shoes when they jumped the river or the sea.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Are you a fucking psycho? Shouldn¡¯t you believe it if the person you¡¯re speaking with suddenly becomes serious?¡±? ? I was so frustrated that I asked the man who might be a gangster if he was a psycho. Fortunately, he didn¡¯t look offended but rather had wrinkles between his eyes.? ? ¡°You should make it believable. You have a bright expression for someone who wants to die.¡±? ? ¡°Do you think all suicidal people are like this? Even if they smile on the outside, there are a lot of people with depression on the inside.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ It¡¯s hard to believe you because of this appearance.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, do you want me to show you my depression certificate?¡±? ? ¡°You really want to die?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die. I¡¯m going crazy.¡± ? ? It¡¯s an unusual situation in which I¡¯m forced to explain that I really want to die.? ? I never imagined myself in a position where I would have to defend my desire to die. I refused to acknowledge my heart and responded that it was all a lie.? ? ¡°Even if a family member has died, it is not very common for people to commit suicide by jumping into a river, and there are many people who tried it but returned because they were afraid of actually seeing the river.¡±? ? ¡°No, didn¡¯t I take off my shoes? I also wrote a will. And how much grief must have built up since I lost a family when I was young? I was looking forward to the day when I would die, and for someone who wants to commit suicide right away, fear of the river isn¡¯t a big deal.¡±? ? ¡°There was a big age difference with your brother.¡±? ? ¡°We were 11 years apart. I was the youngest and the most loved, so it was even more shocking.¡±? ? ¡°Even so, choosing the anniversary of your brother¡¯s death as the day of suicide is not convincing, but wouldn¡¯t it be possible if it was the anniversary of your parents?¡±? ? ¡°I was at the scene of the accident. My brother could have survived, but he died in vain in order to save me. It¡¯s because of that guilt.¡±? ? It was ridiculous and unbelievable why I was talking about this, but this man seemed to have no conscience to be moved by the painful realities of others.? ? So somehow, the story came out more easily.? ? I¡¯ve told my counselor that I don¡¯t think about suicide anymore.? ? Is it because I won¡¯t be seeing him anymore? Or is it because the man treats it lightly?? ? ¡°Then you still want to die?¡±? ? Is he a real psycho? ? ? The man asked if I still wanted to die with a cold face. My black eyes glowed with curiosity. He seemed to understand because the question and answer were repeated several times. Instead of responding, I asked him.? ? ¡°Have you never wanted to die?¡±? ? ¡°No. Of course not.¡±? ? The firm response, without hesitation, reminded me of our previous conversation.? ? ¡®Did you have any reason to die?¡¯? ? ¡®Something like this and that¡­ Isn¡¯t there a time when you also want to die?¡¯? ? ¡®I don¡¯t know.¡¯? ? The answer ¡®I don¡¯t know¡¯ was sincere.? ? It was heartbreaking to realize I was speaking to someone who would never understand me.? ? He lives in a completely different world than me.? ? ¡°That¡¯s enough. Anyway, I wanted to die, tried to die, but your brother saved me, and I¡¯ll return this watch, so stop it right now.¡±? ? I took off the watch in a bad mood.? ? While explaining to the man, I remembered the day¡¯s accident.? ? I feel very bad and heartbroken. My heart sinks to the point where I wonder if I¡¯ll ever come back. I¡¯m not sure if this damn pain is the result of the moment millions of dollars flew away, or of the accident that day.? ? Cold river.? ? The hand that pushed me away with all its might.? ? I bit my lips.? ? I will never cry.? ? I haven¡¯t cried for 10 years and I¡¯ve been doing well.? ? I will never cry, even if a piece of broken teacup falls into my eye.? ? The fishy taste of blood quickly leaked from the inside of the bitten lips.? ? I held out the watch to the man, but he didn¡¯t even look at it.? ? The man was staring at me. As if observing a creature he saw for the first time.? ? I glared the same way without avoiding that gaze.? ? ¡°¡­ Please keep it.¡±? ? The man ended the long confrontation first. It¡¯s a meaningless expression of respect.? ? ¡°As an apology.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I didn¡¯t even ask if I could have the watch. I put it in my bag and looked the man in the eyes.? ? ¡°I understand, we¡¯ve finished talking about it.¡±? ? I said it firmly on purpose. At times like this, I felt compelled to maintain strong eye contact without lowering my gaze.? ? Aside from the scar on his cheek, there was a small scar above his brow when I looked at him closely. It looked like a cut.? ? I gently lowered my eyes.? ? As a gangster, something about death¡­ did that happen?? ? The man sees me talking lightly about death, but it is this man who treats me lightly.? ? Normally, they are unable to say anything or apologize with an awkward look when they learn that a member of someone¡¯s family has died, but the man dug in to cut them. Maybe it¡¯s because he works in a field that deals with death and is unable to empathize, or maybe it¡¯s because he truly believes it¡¯s a lie¡­? ? I stood up suppressing my curiosity.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll get going now. I understand that Sung-hyun should be disciplined for driving without a license, but since he saved my life, please don¡¯t punish him too harshly.¡±? ? ¡°It is not my job to discipline. It is entirely up to the parents.¡±? ? You¡¯re already disciplining me right now.? ? I laughed inwardly and stopped.? ? The man who got up after me was big enough to create tension just by standing there. I noticed it the last time we met, but when we stood together, the difference in height became more obvious.? ? How tall was he? More than 195cm?? ? He had a huge and strong body that made him look like an athlete. ? ? Even if he was wearing a suit, it was clear that his entire body was muscular. He¡¯s a cruel psycho who stabbed my wounds mercilessly, but his body¡­ melts my heart.? ? ¡°Goodbye.¡± ? ? When we came out, the employee who was coming to clean up was taken aback. It is due to the existence of the men. The large physique itself is intimidating, but approaching quickly will be difficult due to the cold eyes and scars on the cheek.? ? Two black sedans were parked outside the cafe (it was not in the parking lot!). When the man come out, the brothers in suits left the car door open and waited.? ? I was still a little sick, so I coughed a few times. I coughed as soon as I was hit by the cold wind.? ? ¡°Are you still suffering from a cold?¡±? ? ¡°This year, I¡¯ve had a bad cold. You should be cautious as well.¡±? ? ¡°Did you go to Han River again?¡±? ? ¡°Let¡¯s stop talking about that now. Goodbye, and please convey my greetings to Sung-hyun.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll take you home.¡±? ? ¡°I have an appointment. Goodbye.¡±? ? I walked forward, saying goodbye as casually as possible. The back of my head ached, but I pretended not to notice. The man didn¡¯t catch me until I got a taxi and left.? ? Sigh¡­ ? ? I sat leaning against the taxi seat. Fortunately, he was not a meddlesome person.? ? I laughed in vain.? ? Will there ever be another time in my life when I come across alpha like this?? ? If I were more omega-like, I would seduce him and at least try a one-night stand? ? The man did not emit any pheromones even when they first met and now. It¡¯s not easy for a dominant alpha to do that.? ? Despite the fact that he spoke without thinking and looked down on me, he was the most polite alpha I had ever met. I¡¯ve met ten alphas who have tried to manipulate me with pheromones.? ? Since I decided to live my life¡­? ? I want to build a loving family. I want to marry a wealthy and handsome Alpha and work hard to help out.? ? So it was unfortunate that the relationship with that man came to an end.? ? I felt regret that I should have led the conversation without being harsh, smiling softly, and evoking sympathy.? ? But I don¡¯t think a caterpillar should live on pine needles, he was not my destiny.? ? He and I are too different to be meant to be. CH 7 Vibrate vibrate vibrate. ? ? I was exhausted after working a night shift, and I was woken up by constant vibration.? ? 10:10 am.? ? An hour had passed since I fell asleep.? ? I was so irritated that I looked at the screen, convinced that the company would curse at me, and the words [Uncle] came to mind.? ? I woke up.? ? It would have been better if it was a company.? ? I went out, drank a sip of water, sat in the living room, blinked blankly, and answered the third phone call.? ? ¡°Yes, Uncle.¡±? ? ¨CWhy aren¡¯t you picking up the phone? I called five times. ? ? My uncle became irritated as soon as I answered the phone. I was already annoyed, but this agitated me even more.? ? ¡°I told you that I work night shifts. If I don¡¯t answer the phone, I¡¯m sleeping because I work at night. Do I have to wake up and work tiredly?¡±? ? ¨C This is very¡­ do you think I¡¯m your friend? What¡¯s going on? Just hurry up and tell me what happened, and you can go back to sleep.? ? ¨C You¡¯re such a punk. If your father knows, he¡¯ll fall to the ground and cry.? ? Nothing can¡¯t be said to a child who has lost his parents in an accident. I waited for my uncle to say something without responding to his previous words.? ? ¨C I know someone who owns two buildings and runs a private academy. Would you like to meet him? Of course, it¡¯s alpha.? ? I snorted.? ? ¡°Of course, it¡¯s Alpha and a divorced man, right? How old was he? He wasn¡¯t in his fifty, was he?¡±? ? ¨C He was only forty-five. He was married to a Beta woman and divorced neatly for one reason or another. After all, shouldn¡¯t alpha need to meet omega?? ? Expectedly.? ? My uncle is the person who had been introducing me to a middle-aged Alpha since I was in my third year of high school. I trusted my uncle¡¯s family when I was younger, so I met everyone they introduced me to.? ? despite the large age difference, he introduced me to a fifty-one-year-old Alpha when I was nineteen years old. The meeting location I received through text message at that time was ¡®¡ð¡ð Hotel Room 1303¡¯. Naturally, we had a relationship¡­ and my uncle and aunt were planning a wedding without my knowledge. However, I was planning to go to college normally.? ? When I was fussing about why they wanted to proceed with my marriage on their own, they advised an ardent omega like me to get married when I was young. Now that I think about it, they seem right.? ? I met the people my uncle introduced me to a few times, and my cousin later informed me that they are clients of my uncle¡¯s company.? ? He said he overheard him brag about having an omega nephew while on the phone with his client.? ? He has the audacity to do that to his older brother¡¯s child. Damn fucking pervert bastard.? ? ¡°So, when and which hotel should I go to this time? I have plans for this weekend, so I¡¯m only available for next month.¡±? ? Nonetheless, I¡¯m going because the person my uncle introduced me to is a rich Alpha and I need to start thinking about marriage gradually. Who knows? Relationships could develop as a result of unexpected situations.? ? ¨C Yeah, good thinking. He¡¯s a knowledgeable and decent person, so you¡¯ll be fine.? ? My uncle was relieved and scheduled a meeting. I believe he was worried because I had been refusing for two years.? ? Uncle said that he was a 45-year-old director of a math academy, an avid alpha who owns two commercial buildings in the countryside. He also emphasized that he was the most gentle and highly educated teacher among those whom he has introduced to me. He divorced his ex-wife due to religious differences and had a daughter, who was taken by his ex-wife.? ? It seemed like a good thing because if I had a child, there would be a conflict with the other child.? ? I scheduled a weekend appointment for early next month. After I made the schedule, I realized I¡¯d have to wait three weeks without finding a lover.? ? I believe it was the 18th that I had my longest solo period since turning 20.? ? I can¡¯t go three weeks without making a lover. I should have a lover I can break up with for a short period of time, or I should have a one-night stand.? ? In fact, I don¡¯t like one night stand that much, so I should find someone to date for three weeks. But first, I¡¯m going to bed.? ? I coughed and lay back on the bed.? ? My cold hasn¡¯t gone away after two weeks.? ? Fuck lover or whatever.? ? I was so dizzy from not being able to sleep for hours. I was in terrible shape on this day of all days when I had work in the logistics room this week.? ? Cough, cough.? ? In the meantime, I was irritated that I couldn¡¯t stop coughing. I needed a sweet drink, so I left work and went down to the cafe.? ? ¡°Welcome¡­ Oh, you¡¯re here?¡±? ? The cafe owner looked at me and smiled. He was about to take off his brown barista apron.? ? I looked at the time. It is unmistakably still 10 o¡¯clock. The cafe closes at 10:30 p.m.? ? ¡°I had an appointment, so I had to close early. What should I do, I can¡¯t make a delicious Americano right now?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m sorry. I¡¯ll be back tomorrow.¡±? ? ¡°Wait a minute.¡± ? ? The boss grabbed me in a hurry and moved loudly in the kitchen. There was also a sound of bumping or dropping something. It was not like a person who was always quiet.? ? I said I¡¯d go, but he won¡¯t let me.? ? I took a seat at the table and waited. It was difficult for me to sit still, so I leaned against the wall.? ? ¡°Customer.¡±? ? After a while, the boss called me quietly. I was surprised to see that the boss had brought something with him.? ? ¡°Is this porridge?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s porridge.¡±? ? It wasn¡¯t even just a porridge, it was a chicken porridge. The steaming hot chicken porridge was served in a disposable container.? ? ¡°Why is there porridge in the cafe?¡±? ? ¡°Actually, I had a cold and went to the store to get some porridge. I saw you on your way to work earlier today and thought you had a cold, so I bought two¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°I bought it¡­ customer¡­ please, eat it.¡±? ? The boss blushed and bowed his head as I stared. I blinked my eyes at the fading voice.? ? I¡¯m not sure why. Did I present a favorable image to the boss? What happens if I don¡¯t show up today?? ? I hid my confusion and smiled softly.? ? ¡°I can¡¯t eat right now because I still have work, so I¡¯ll take it home. Thank you.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, Thank you.¡±? ? The boss bought me porridge and said thank you. It was the strangest act I¡¯d seen in four years.? ? If someone else had acted like this, they would have wanted to sleep with me, but the owner of this cafe most likely did not intend for that to happen. This guy has a pretty girlfriend.? ? Even if such a motive existed, I couldn¡¯t be in a relationship with someone I could see face to face. I have to have an Americano and a citron tea here at least once a day, but if we break up, I won¡¯t be able to return.? ? ¡°Take it easy. You look very sick.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s already late at night, so get home safely.¡°? ? ¡°I, by the way, customer.¡±? ? I was about to leave the cafe with my packed porridge when the boss grabbed me, hesitated, and asked,? ? ¡°Do you wear perfume?¡±? ? ¡°What? Perfume?¡±? ? ¡°The scent comes from you, customer. It smells like roses.¡±? ? ¡®Your pheromones smell like rain-soaked rose petals.¡¯? ? That¡¯s how the Alpha, whom I met through my uncle¡¯s introduction, described my pheromone. I thought it was a fresh scent, but after he said that, it smelled exactly like roses.? ? I didn¡¯t leave the cafe to return to work but instead went across the street to the pharmacy. However, because the pharmacist did not provide me with a prescription for heat cycle inhibitors, I returned to the company in vain.? ? Why does the hit cycle have to happen now?? ? Since my last relationship with Park Jin-cheol¡­ It had been two months. The heat cycle doesn¡¯t come often because of my extreme heat. However, the last time I went to the club, I was stimulated by Alpha¡¯s pheromone and forced to go into heat.? ? Damn¡­? ? I¡¯m guessing it¡¯s due to the wealthy dominant alpha brothers.? ? This explains why my fever didn¡¯t go away. Because of the cold, my nose was stuffed and I couldn¡¯t smell the pheromone. Even though I could smell it, it was too dull.? ? Why didn¡¯t I prepare?? ? If you¡¯re not smart, your body will suffer. I¡¯m such a fool.? ? Fortunately, it hasn¡¯t completely hit me yet, so I think I¡¯ll be fine without medicine until work is finished. I have a pheromone remover at home, so I¡¯ll use that for now.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, are you okay? Why are you trembling like this?¡±? ? My logistics manager asked me with a worried expression when I returned to my seat and put on my work clothes.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not okay. I¡¯m dying from a cold.¡°? ? ¡°Just endure it for today. Tomorrow is the weekend.¡±? ? ¡°Sir, how do you manage to work the night shift? Even after two weeks, I¡¯m exhausted.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m an owl type of person. Seo-yu ssi, if you¡¯re tired, you can take a break.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, thank you for your hard work.¡±? ? Unlike other employees, I rotate every two weeks between offices and logistics rooms. The office is a job that requires you to sit and turn over documents, whereas the logistics room requires you to work hard to transport paper boxes. Originally, I applied for office work only, but the section chief gave me night work, claiming that the zealous omega is like a beta.? ? That bastard, he clearly gave orders for retaliation.? ? I barely made it until the morning thinking only that tomorrow is Saturday. There was no place that didn¡¯t hurt. My back, shoulders, and neck were all sore from carrying the box.? ? In case I emitted a pheromone scent, I bought an air freshener in a hurry at a convenience store that opened early in the morning. Even on the way home on the bus, I couldn¡¯t sit down and relax because I was too wary of people.? ? The weather was quite warm for winter, but there was no time to relax and gaze up at the sky.? ? I fell asleep in the living room when I got home.? ? I fell asleep as if I were about to pass out. I woke up screaming from a nightmare. when I looked at the time on my phone, When I looked at the time on my phone, it was only 30 minutes after I got home.? ? Warm sunlight streamed in through the living room window, and I nervously pulled the curtains down.? ? The heat cycle is a crazy physiological phenomenon.? ? It exhausts the human mind and body.? ? I stumbled up and went inside to wash up. I had to take a bath because I was covered in dust from working in the logistics room.? ? I lay down on the bed instead of the sofa I usually visit after taking cold medicine and a heat cycle inhibitor without forgetting to take them.? ? My eyes were spinning around.? ? I closed his heavy eyelids.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Oh.? ? Oh shit.? ? Not long after, I woke up feeling cold.? ? A dark night sky appeared in front of me.? ? The bed was floating on the river.? ? Cold river.? ? I¡¯m so tired.? ? The river that engulfed everything, ran over the bed and filled up to the tip of my feet.? ? A black hole with its mouth open¡­ waiting for me to jump in.? ? I woke up and opened the top drawer of the bedside drawer. I took a handful of sleeping pills and poured them into my mouth without water.? ? When will I be able to get out of this nightmare?? ? Will such a day ever come? Life is so depressing. CH 8 Vibrate vibrate vibrate? ? I slept well for a long time without even dreaming, possibly due to the medication, and woke up to the constant vibration of my phone.? ? Uncle again?? ? I was about to become irritated when I noticed the name [Mapo Bridge High School Kid] on the screen. With my eyes closed, I answered the phone.? ? ¡°What? I¡¯m sleeping, so if it¡¯s not urgent, call me later.¡±? ? ¨C Hey, Hyung, what time is it, and you are still sleeping?? ? When I looked at the time, it was 2:00 PM. I returned early in the morning, so I wasn¡¯t overslept at all. If I¡¯m going to wake up after only a few hours of sleep, the sleeping pills will be a waste.? ? ¨C Did you sell the watch I gave you?? ? ¡°No, not yet.¡±? ? ¨C What¡¯s written on the back of the watch? Look at it now.? ? ¡°Damn it, you¡¯re so annoying¡­.¡±? ? ¨C Ah, hurry up~? ? As soon as I woke up at Choi Sung-hyun¡¯s prompt, my head was throbbing and I stopped.? ? The cold hasn¡¯t changed and my nose is stuffy, so I¡¯m not sure if the inhibitor was effective. At the very least, the fever has subsided.? ? ¨C Hyung, are you looking at it?? ? ¡°Oh, wait.¡±? ? I walked slowly to retrieve the watch that I had placed on the desk.? ? ¡°Back?¡±? ? ¨C Yeah. What¡¯s the English word say?? ? I read the embossed letters on the back of the watch.? ? ¡°Happy 17 -Mom-¡°? ? ¨C Ah, damn it. I¡¯m doomed.? ? ¡°Did you get it as a present?¡±? ? ¨C Yes, from my mother.? ? It looks like it! It says Mom.? ? ¨C Give it back to me. To be honest, I don¡¯t mind if I don¡¯t have it, but my father does. I¡¯ve been collecting things from my mom since she left.? ? I paused for a moment before answering.? ? ¡°Okay. When should I give it to you? I have time today.? ? -¡­Hyung, When you aren¡¯t fully awake, your voice is more docile¡­? ? ¡°What the heck, do you want me to break your watch?¡± ? ? Choi Sung-hyun laughed out loud when I threatened with a cracked voice.? ? I decided on the time and location and then went into the bathroom. Before I started washing, I grabbed a big brush.? ? There is a bathtub in our bathroom. My mother was the only one of the four of us who liked lower half-baths. My mother, who owns a stationery store, takes a day off every two weeks to soaks in the bathtub, but on holidays, she always bathed before going out. The day before her day off, my father and brother would take turns to clean the bathtub. I had never cleaned the bathtub before, but now I do it every weekend.? ? There is no one to use it right now.? ? ¡®I¡¯ve been collecting things from my mom since she left.¡¯? ? I remembered Choi Sung-hyun¡¯s words as I washed the foam in the bathtub with water. The Alpha Brothers¡¯ mother has also passed away.? ? The psychopath gangster-like man also lost his mother. I began to understand the rude words and actions at the time, thinking that perhaps the sadness had caused a defect in empathy.? ? My family also took my feelings to the underworld.? ? Many parts of me disappeared with the death of my family.? ? Maybe Choi Sung-Hoon is like that¡­? ? I went to the appointment wearing only a hood and a coat. Choi Sung-hyun asked me to meet him in front of Nonhyeon-dong restaurant for a meal, but I didn¡¯t have time. I need to do some housework and sleep. There is also the possibility of my heat.? ? Since I¡¯m facing a dominant Alpha, I used a pheromone remover just in case. It comes in the form of a pill, and when you take it, your body¡¯s pheromone glands stop working for about a day. The symptoms are a high fever and a headache, but my head is only throbbing and my fever is not high. Anyway, I¡¯m a person with extreme heat, so this type of weakness comes naturally to me.? ? I¡¯d gotten into the habit of arriving at least 10 minutes before the appointment time, so I was on time this time as well. I was standing in front of the restaurant, and the hall was packed because it was almost dinnertime. A couple had just arrived and were sitting in the waiting area. They were flirting with each other while holding each other¡¯s hands. ? ? Come to think of it, all the people passing by were couples. They were wearing couple mufflers or gloves, hugging each other because it was cold, and kissing each other whether anyone was looking or not. Well, good for you. My sides are cold¡­? ? I¡¯ve gone far too long without a lover. I can¡¯t go on living this lonely life. I¡¯m going to have to find a lover sooner rather than later. If anything, among my ex-lovers.? ? ¡°Are you Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? I was looking at the contact information when two men in black suits suddenly approached me.? ? ¡°Yes, that¡¯s right.¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun is waiting for you.¡±? ? ¡°We were supposed to meet at this restaurant.¡±? ? ¡°Follow me.¡±? ? These bad-looking men who were standing next to me tried to drag me away.? ? When I was told to move into the black Mercedes-Benz parked on the side of the road, I did so with ease and detected the alpha pheromone. It meant that despite my blocked nose, it was strong enough to sniff.? ? I moistened my lips and clenched my clothes. This is because I suspected Choi Sung-hyun would not be alone in the place where the Mercedes-Benz would arrive.? ? I unbuttoned the coat and straightened the crumpled hoodie. I also rushed through arranging my damp hair because I hadn¡¯t dried it.? ? I was thinking about not washing up because I was in a bad condition, but I¡¯m glad I did.? ? If I, an omega who is suppressing estrus with medication instead of the inhibitor, inhale the dominant Alpha pheromone, the dam that I barely blocked may break.? ? Nonetheless, neither Choi Sung-hoon nor Choi Sung-hyun has directly exuded pheromones, so everything will be fine. The psychopath older brother and the immature younger brother have are proper manners in that aspect.? ? If that man runs into me again today, I would say he is 100% interested in me.? ? Unlike other people, with an unobtrusive attitude, such as ¡®You are the first person to speak against me¡¯, or ¡®I want to protect you after hearing about your suicide attempts and sad past.¡¯? ? After all, interest is something that can sprout anytime and for any reason.? ? Maybe it¡¯s all in vain and there¡¯s only a bunch of high school kids who have no idea how scary the world is. I¡¯m sure that my instincts are correct in this regard.? ? Of course, it wasn¡¯t in vain.? ? The Mercedes-Benz arrived in front of a building with an English sign that was difficult to read due to the cursive writing. When I got out of the car, an elderly secretary I¡¯d seen before greeted me, and as I walked inside the building (which felt like a luxury club under his supervision), a large room appeared.? ? It was a room with red carpeting. On the right, there was an exhibition hall with a poker table and a billiard table, and on the left, various wines and champagne were displayed.? ? Choi Sung-hoon sat cross-legged on the leather sofa, looking straight ahead, as usual, with his bodyguards in black suits surrounding him as if protecting him.? ? Choi Sung-hyun was nowhere to be seen.? ? Also¡­ ? ? This man is interested in me.? ? I love people¡¯s casual interest in me.? ? I sat across from him smiling.? ? ¡°Hello. Nice to see you again. Sung-hyun¡¯s older brother. You must have come instead of Sung-hyun.¡±? ? Then he nodded and shifted his gaze to the air in front of me, which wasn¡¯t exactly me.? ? What is it?? ? ¡°Have you eaten?¡±? ? ¡°No, I haven¡¯t.¡±? ? ¡°Let¡¯s eat salmon. You ate deliciously last time.¡±? ? ¡°What? When did you see me eat? I like it but¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll be the one to pay for it.¡±? ? ¡°Thank you for buying it.¡±? ? I could hear a low laugh.? ? This is the first time I¡¯ve seen this person laugh. I don¡¯t know why he was laughing.? ? ¡°Then I¡¯ll hang up now. Please take good care of Director Kang.¡±? ? I soon found out why he was laughing.? ? Choi Sung-hoon pulled out the wireless earphones that were plugged into his ears with a smile hanging from his lips.? ? There is only one thing I can do in this desperate situation.? ? I found a string to hang myself on.? ? I got up from my seat, took off my muffler, wrapped it around my neck, and walked around looking for a place where I could hang it. ? ? Choi Sung-hoon asked, ¡°What are you doing now?¡±? ? ¡°Hold on a minute. I¡¯m going to kill myself.¡±? ? Another low laughter was heard.? ? ¡°Do you like salmon dishes?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t make fun of me. You¡¯re going to make this kind of mistake someday in your lives.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not teasing you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who quickly returned with an expressionless face as if he had never laughed, brushed aside my suspicions and commanded his bodyguards.? ? ¡°Tell them to add salmon dishes.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes, boss¡±? ? That¡¯s right. There were not only us in this space but also a lot of bodyguards. I will remember every face of the people who saw my ugliness and erase my memories of today by beating myself up late at night¡­? ? I raised my head to look for any signs of laughter on their faces, but to my surprise, they were not laughing. They were surprised and confused, so they exited the room to carry out the instructions.? ? What had them so surprised? Is it because it¡¯s strange for the cold boss to meet such an idiot?? ? ¡°Now sit down. Don¡¯t kill yourself¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­ If you forget about it, I¡¯ll sit down.¡±? ? ¡°I can¡¯t promise you that.¡±? ? Fuck¡­ It would be fine if you just say yes.? ? I grumbled as I sat in my seat. The fever, which had only just subside began to rise and I fanned my hands.? ? ¡°What happened to Choi Seong-hyun, and why did Hyung-nim come?¡±? ? ¡°I heard he was locked up at home. My father must be very angry.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­¡±? ? It must be because of the watch.? ? Although it is not my fault, I am saddened. I quickly took the watch box out of the crossbody bag.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll return this to you. For your information, I had no idea his mother had given it to him.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I know. This is Choi Seong-hyun¡¯s watch.¡±? ? In exchange for the watch box, Choi Sung-hoon offered me paper envelopes.? ? Is this a gift card because I said I couldn¡¯t afford car repairs with cash?? ? I glanced inside. one is placed in a bag? ? I peeked inside. It looked like a gift card, but I couldn¡¯t see it well. It¡¯s kind of bad to take it out right away and check it, so I put it in my bag for now.? ? When I looked up and saw Choi Sung-hoon throwing the watch box roughly to the sofa over there. I was freaked out.? ? ¡°Handle it with care! He said it was given to him by his deceased mother.¡±? ? ¡°You mean this watch?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, but what happens if it gets scratched? Even though it¡¯s still in the box¡­¡±? ? ¡°My deceased mother?¡± ? ? When Choi Sung-hoon raised one eyebrow, I felt it.? ? I¡¯ll be ashamed of myself again.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun said that his mother had gone away¡­so your father collects items given by your mother.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ She went on the world trip with her college friends. She is currently in Germany.¡±? ? ¡°My father is someone who cannot live without my mother, so he tries to comfort himself with things from my mother.¡±? ? Shit¡­ The father of such a ruthless gangster is a pitiful husband who can¡¯t even wait for his wife to return from her vacation!? ? In an instant, a fever surged from my neck. Choi Sung-hoon gazed at my reddened face and then turned his head for a little while. He then pressed his clenched hand against his lips.? ? Is he trying to hide his smile? Is he holding back his laughter?? ? ¡°You could be mistaken. Are you going to kill yourself again?¡±? ? ¡°No!¡±? ? I exclaimed and made a hasty excuse.? ? ¡°It¡¯s because I caught a cold. The cold is so bad that I have a fever and can¡¯t stop coughing.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon nodded calmly, but I was prepared to run if I was asked what the shameful things I had done in a row and what a cold had to do with it.? ? ¡°I understand. You have a cold. That¡¯s possible.¡±? ? This man, he¡¯s not very rude.? ? ¡°Hmm. However, if you have a cold, you will not be able to drink today. It¡¯s a shame because I had something good prepared.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon raised his big body and walked to the wine display case. He took out a wine that looked luxurious and shook it slightly at me as if asking how does it sound.? ? Of course, even if he recommended makgeolli, I was going to say yes. CH 9 Let¡¯s drink, but don¡¯t get drunk.? ? My goal was to never get drunk because I can¡¯t remember having sex while drunk.? ? It would be a pity if I had no recollection of having sex with the dominant Alpha, who also has such a beastly body? ? I usually drank quite a lot, but I had to be careful since I had a cold and was on a heat inhibitor.? ? ¡°So, when is your mother coming?¡±? ? ¡°She¡¯s coming next year¡±? ? ¡°How come even her son doesn¡¯t know the exact date.¡±? ? ¡°It seems she herself doesn¡¯t know.¡±? ? ¡°Hahaha, what¡¯s that¡­ so funny. So, when is your mother coming?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I wasn¡¯t very drunk thanks to my hard self-control. Except for a little twisted tongue, I talk very rationally. Choi Sung-hoon poured wine into my glass to stop talking about his mother.? ? What wine was that? Was it bourbon? Was it makgeolli?? ? ¡°It seems you really like salmon. Is it to your liking?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah,¡±? ? I¡¯m not sure what kind of wine this was, but it goes so well with the creamy, salty salmon dish that I eat three plates of it.? ? ¡°Uh oh¡­ It¡¯s so good.¡±? ? I praised, ¡®This salmon dish is very good.¡¯? ? Choi Sung-hoon chuckled slightly before turning his head to the side and returning with a stern expression.? ? He poured a glass of wine for me. I raised the glass, gave it a quick toast, and then drank it all at once.? ? I never imagined the day would come when we would sit face to face and drink in such an atmospheric setting when I first met this man. I gave Choi Sung-hoon a glance.? ? Unlike me, who had a loose posture with messy hair, he was still sitting in an upright position in a perfect suit. ? ? A sharp nose, a hard jaw, and a scar across the cheek. ? ? His appearance was unlikely to have changed in the meantime, but why does he look more and more handsome? Was it because I fall in love quickly?? ? I wonder what it would feel like to have a lover like this.? ? People will look at me whenever I go on a date, right? I¡¯m afraid I¡¯ll die of stomachache as a result of the others¡¯ envy. I¡¯d go to the club every day and brag about it. I have to show it to my Hyung¡¯s friends and the landlord grandfather. If my uncle asks me to meet up again, I can confidently say that I have such a scary lover.? ? How hot will it be at night or how big will it be?? ? I sipped a glass of wine. It was a burning sensation that reached all the way to the top of the head.? ? Choi Sung-hoon immediately tried to pour wine into my empty glass. I shook my head.? ? ¡°It¡¯s not the time to just drink¡­¡± ? ? ¡°Then what time is it?¡± ? ? ¡°Uh, let¡¯s do this¡­¡±? ? I pretended to be shy as I glanced up at him. ¡°Do you have a boyfriend?¡±? ? I asked whether he had a boyfriend because it¡¯s a necessary question to ask before having sex. I don¡¯t want to repeat the experience I had with the section chief.? ? ¡°Boyfriend?¡±? ? ¡°Yes. Or girlfriend¡­fiance?¡±? ? ¡°No, I don¡¯t have any.¡±? ? He responded quickly and refilled my glass with wine. The prescription was a little higher than I expected, but that¡¯s fine. I¡¯m keeping a decent level of self-control.? ? ¡°Why not¡­¡±? ? He grinned as he sipped his wine.? ? There seemed to be none. I checked everything beforehand and there was no evidence of a ring on his fingers.? ? ¡°Is that secretary married?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Who are you talking about?¡±? ? ¡°You know, there¡¯s a gray-haired and dignified secretary¡­ who was also standing in front of the room today as well.¡±? ? ¡°Secretary Kim met his grandchild lately.¡±? ? His previously pleasant voice seemed to turn colder for some reason.? ? ¡°As expected, it¡¯s like that.¡°? ? ¡°Why are you curious about whether Secretary Kim is married?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon asked in a very cold and low voice.? ? ¡°Just because he is an Alpha?¡±? ? That¡¯s right. That secretary was an Alpha. An incredibly passionate omega like myself has an instinct to survive, and I can tell just by looking at them since I have a sharp Alpha radar. I¡¯m not sure if he was passionate or not, but he was Alpha and an elderly gentleman whom I liked. He was perfect for marriage.? ? ¡°Alpha¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon muttered quietly.? ? Ah¡­ did I say something wrong? It seems that he mistook me for a Beta. He might have been dumbfounded when he discovered that Beta, who can¡¯t smell the alpha and omega pheromones to find out that the secretary was an alpha.? ? But, if he knew I was Omega now, wouldn¡¯t he want to sleep with me even more?? ? I¡¯m starting to wonder if I now smell like the soaked rose in the rain.? ? I¡¯m curious about the scent of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s pheromone. I wish I hadn¡¯t caught a cold.? ? ¡°Then Seo-yu ssi, do you have a lover?¡±? ? ¡°No¡­ I don¡¯t have a lover.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s unexpected.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s been so long¡­ I think my love hormones are going to die like this.¡±? ? ¡°How long has it been?¡±? ? I counted the days since I¡¯ve been single with my fingers.? ? I broke up with Park Jin-cheol before my brother¡¯s death anniversary¡­ So¡­? ? ¡°Wow, it¡¯s already been 20 days. I¡¯m going to get mold on my ass like this. How did I stay single for three weeks. This is crazy.¡±? ? Suddenly, sadness came.? ? How was it possible that no one has dated me for more than 20 days?? ? There were so many lovers who kissed in public today, hugging even though it was not very cold, and dressed in couple clothes.? ? I drank all of the wine at once. My esophagus felt like it was burning. Still, it wasn¡¯t enough, so I took Choi Seong-hoon¡¯s glass and drank it. When I did that, Choi Sung-hoon remained silent.? ? I groaned and fell on the table.? ? ¡°I¡¯m the only one who doesn¡¯t have a boyfriend. Everyone has a boyfriend, but I don¡¯t have a boyfriend¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s really too much, if there are 7 billion people in the world, at least one of them can date me. It¡¯s not like I want the best Alpha¡­ I¡¯m not going to cling to you for the rest of my life like an idiot. I¡¯m going to be really nice to you while we¡¯re dating, and I¡¯m quite good at turning my back and sucking it.¡±? ? I fell on my stomach and squealed. I wanted to say that I was good at turning my back, but I held back because I was afraid of being too open in my seduction. There was also a word at the tip of my tongue about how good I would suck it, but I didn¡¯t say it because I was afraid it wouldn¡¯t work if I sounded too cheap.? ? ¡°Sigh¡­¡±? ? I heard a sigh above my head.? ? I buried my face in my arm and mumbled a few more times. I kept closing my eyes whether I was getting drunk or sleepy.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon called my name and said something, but I couldn¡¯t hear it well. You have to speak loudly so that I can hear you.? ? ¡°¡­Wake up¡­¡±? ? I felt a hand shaking me slightly. I felt so much better when the hard palm of his hand touched my shoulder. After all, people have to live with each other¡¯s touch and must have a lover. ? ? But I don¡¯t have a lover, I don¡¯t have a family. ? ? Only me. ? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have a lover¡­I have everything but I don¡¯t¡­¡± ? ? I lamented as I cuddled on his palm. ? ? I felt like I heard low laughter. ? ? I¡¯m maintaining my rationality right now, but I was sure I¡¯d get drunk if I drank more wine, so I reached the table and drank water. It was water that tasted like alcohol.? ? ¡°Are you all right? You already drunk¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Moreeeeeeeee¡­ ¡°? ? I just replied that it was okay. How shameful it would be to say that I ate twenty-seven salmon and was drunk after only a few glasses of wine.? ? I know exactly how much I can drink while remaining in control. I hate people who are drunk and flirtatious. Of course, no matter how hard I try, I occasionally get drunk, but I only stumble a little and do not lose control of my body.? ? I¡¯m a little disappointed in myself because I¡¯m such a good self-manager. It would be easier for me and Choi Sung-hoon to develop a relationship if I pretend to be drunk.? ? ¡°¡­I¡¯ll go up to the room¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon said something in a low voice, but I couldn¡¯t hear him well. I feel so sleepy right now. It¡¯s all because of the cold. People have to sleep when they are sleepy, so I lay face down on the table and buried my head in my arms.? ? I felt a hand shaking me, but it had to be an illusion. Who was going to wake me up? I don¡¯t have a family and a lover. Then I realized it had to be Choi Sung-hoon who was waking me up, but I had a cold and needed to sleep when I was sick, so I continued to sleep.? ? I felt my body being lifted while I was sleeping. I also heard a loud noise. ¡°Director, Director, we will take care of him.¡±? ? I felt nauseous as if I were getting motion sickness.? ? ¡°Uuub¡­¡±? ? I got nauseous. I paused for a moment and grabbed the hand that was firmly supporting me.? ? ¡°Uub¡­ Blergh!¡±? ? And then, the noisy surroundings became quiet in an instant.? ? It was so quiet that I couldn¡¯t even hear someone¡¯s breath. I don¡¯t want it to be quiet¡­ I want people to keep talking¡­? ? ¡°¡­Just kill-¡­!¡±? ? ¡°Hold on!¡±? ? Fortunately, it soon became noisy again. I thought it was a good thing and smiled mischievously.? ? ¡°There are so many¡­¡±? ? It sounded like a tongue-clicking sound, and then something touched my lips. Tissue? It was made of a soft material, similar to a handkerchief, and it was damp from being soaked in water.? ? The gentle and warm rub on the lips was very soothing. The dampness dissipated as it continued to touch my lips, and I felt that my body was being lifted once more.? ? ¡°Director, I¡­¡±? ? ¡°Clean up here.¡±? ? I felt like I was lying on a big rock. It was a moving rock. I thought, ¡®Who carried me on their back?¡¯ but it probably no one.? ? I don¡¯t have a lover, and my father and brother, who could carry me on their backs, both died a long time ago.? ? ¡°I¡¯m the only one who doesn¡¯t have¡­¡±? ? Another low laughter was heard.? ? ¡°Everyone has it, but I am not.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ I¡¯m dying of sadness.¡±? ? A laughing voice answered. ? ? I lamented my condition by rubbing my cheeks against the rock.? ? I¡¯m so sad that I¡¯m going to die. Everyone has it, but I¡¯m the only one who doesn¡¯t have it. I¡¯m the only one¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m the only one who doesn¡¯t have a family¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? The movement seemed to have stopped. However, I didn¡¯t stop complaining.? ? The high school kid has an older brother and even the psycho man has a father and mother as well.? ? Everyone has a family, but I¡¯m the only one who doesn¡¯t.? ? I¡¯m the only one who doesn¡¯t have it¡­ CH 10 Ughh¡­? ? I haven¡¯t had such a bad hangover in a long time. I struggled to lift my face from the pillow.? ? Argh, shit.? ? My lower body seemed to be completely dead, and my upper body was half-numb. I couldn¡¯t move my body. It was difficult to even turn on the side.? ? I knew why my body was in a state of chaos.? ? The scene from yesterday keeps coming non-stop.? ? That¡¯s right.? ? The scene keeps pouring in.? ? Arghhhh¡­ ? ? How shameful did I act yesterday?? ? It seems I was drunk from when I was in the dining room. Fortunately, I refrained from saying things like ¡®turning my back well¡® and ¡®sucking it well¡¯, but I had a clear memory of leaning against his broad back and complaining about not having a boyfriend or family.? ? I ate twenty-seven pieces of salmon and even talked about my family. I¡¯m so embarrassed.? ? Still, I was grateful for the sex, but it was too much.? ? It was the first time I had sex without such a tomorrow.? ? ¡®Seo-yu ssi, lie down here¡­¡¯? ? ¡®Where are you going? Don¡¯t go¡­¡¯? ? Last night, I grabbed Choi Sung-hoon, who put me down, and looked at him with teary eyes.? ? ¡®Don¡¯t go¡­¡¯? ? ¡®I have no intention of dealing with drunkards.¡¯? ? ¡®I¡¯m not usually a drunkard¡­I¡¯m a drunk Omega¡­¡¯? ? Choi Sung-hoon paused.? ? ¡®Choi Sung-hoon ssi is Alpha¡­¡¯? ? I lied on my back, one hand between the pillow and my face, the other twirling the hem of his shirt.? ? ¡®I¡¯m an Omega¡­¡¯? ? ¡®¡­¡¯? ? ¡®And neither of us has a lover.¡¯? ? I widened my eyes and smiled at him. I thought I was fatally sexy at the time, so I did something like that. However, now that I thought about it, I¡¯m just a drunkard with his eyes wide open.? ? ¡®What more do you need¡­?¡¯? ? ¡®¡­Haa.¡¯? ? Nonetheless, after some thought, he let out a heavy sigh and unbuttoned his blazer. Choi Sung-hoon was extremely sexy. And I knew the moment our eyes met, my pheromone was leaking out.? ? It was the pheromone from the Omega who was in the heat cycle.? ? ¡®Are you okay?¡¯ He asked. ? ? ¡®It¡¯s even worse if you leave it like that.¡¯ I replied.? ? There were no more words for Alpha and Omega¡¯s one-night stand, especially when the Omega went into a heat cycle.? ? It had been the beginning of peaceful sex until then, but the next was the problem.? ? The pheromone of the dominant Alpha that leaked out for the first time took away my sanity.? ? Even though I was in heat, I couldn¡¯t handle it. I remember begging him to stop later. The size was also big, but it was because we did it for too long and a lot. Even a drunken Omega in heat like me thought that this was too much.? ? What¡¯s unfortunate was that I only remember crying and begging. I don¡¯t remember the rest.? ? Damn it¡­ I should have been sober.? ? The reason I don¡¯t remember the sex was not because I was drunk, but because I was in heat. Even when I¡¯m drunk, I can keep my composure, but I always lose my reason when I¡¯m in heat.? ? I¡¯m going insane because the image of him hugging and lifting my waist with his thick hands appears in my mind blurrily.? ? I don¡¯t know when I would have another chance like this.? ? The only thing that comes clear to my mind was when I was complaining about my family.? ? Shame on you. What expression should I make when I look at Choi Sung-hoon?? ? I just wanted to lie down, but I woke up clutching my aching waist. The arm that supported the waist hurt as well.? ? The room was styled after a hotel suite. Several condoms rolled around on the calm-colored rug, and when I awoke, my face reflected in the front mirror was disastrous.? ? To be honest, I almost went to see it thinking it was a crucian carp raised in this room when I first saw it.? ? The dominant alpha pheromone, which I had felt faintly as I lost my reason the day before, had disappeared completely.? ? My clothes were neatly folded on the luxurious sofa under the bright lights. As if it had just been washed, it was soft and warm.? ? I immediately thought of it when I saw those clothes.? ? I got over yesterday¡­ in that outfit. ? ? I wish someone would smack me on the head. I want to forget everything.? ? I went down carefully under the bed. My legs were shaking, but I bit my lips and held them in. I sat on the floor, holding my clothes in my hand. And I realized while sat down that I was naked and only wearing a gown.? ? Now there was a sound of running water in the shower room. 99% chance it was Choi Sung-hoon.? ? There were three options. Either find a mouse hole that can fit 178cm right now, find a time machine to go back to yesterday, or go out that door and disappear quickly.? ? Fortunately, my cell phone was in my coat pocket. I looked at the time and saw that the sun had risen in the middle of the sky.? ? I crawled and scurried around like a caterpillar. It was because the shower room was right next to the door. I still had a backache, but I put up with it.? ? I barely made it to the door while lying on my stomach. I stretched out my hand, grabbed the doorknob, and opened the door very quietly and carefully.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I made eye contact with the gangster-looking brothers who stood directly in front of the door. They were men with bald heads and tattoos that reached all the way to the back of their necks.? ? They seemed bewildered to see me crawling on the floor.? ? ¡°Did the boss give you medicine?¡±? ? ¡°You must be exhausted, what kind of play was it?¡±? ? I got up with a smile on my face and shook my head.? ? ¡°Thanks¡­ for, your hard work.¡±? ? My voice was terrible. I didn¡¯t say much yesterday, but I moaned a lot.? ? The more I thought about it, the more I realized how wasteful it was. Why can¡¯t I remember the hot sex because of my heat and I remember only embarrassing things! I should have stopped whining and vomiting because I missed my family. Anyway, even when I drink, I always rationally restrain myself, so my rationality was never easily shattered.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, why are you here?¡±? ? It felt like a very ominous sign that the gangster-like men knew my name.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon is washing right now, so please come in in 10 minutes.¡±? ? ¡°Yes? Where are you going?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to buy something for a while.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ve got a lot of condoms.¡±? ? ¡°Not that. I need all sorts of tools and¡­ There¡¯s got to be all kinds.¡°? ? Haa¡­ Should I go back in? Tool¡­ The beastly dominant Alpha and tools¡­? ? I was attracted for a while, but I kept it to myself. I¡¯d done too many shameful things to ever have sex with him again.? ? Omega¡¯s estrus was a very unfair physiological phenomenon. The Alpha¡¯s pheromones cool it down, causing him to lose his reason and memory. What a waste.? ? I approached the gangster-looking brothers took the gesture to bow their heads and said,? ? ¡°Actually, we¡¯re playing right now. It¡¯s kind of hide-and-seek play. The whole building is the backdrop.¡±? ? ¡°The boss said that he wouldn¡¯t come out within the next 12 hours¡­¡± ? ? Was he trying to spend another 12 hours of bliss? I¡¯m getting goosebumps.? ? But I liked it.? ? ¡°I asked him to do it and he said okay. I¡¯m going to go hide quickly before Choi Sung-hoon shows up.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, we also¡­¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re all so big that you¡¯ll get caught quickly. Do you want to get in trouble for making the play boring?¡±? ? I jokingly threatened them with my eyes wide open. Surprisingly, the gangster-looking brothers¡¯ faces hardened in an instant.? ? Choi Sung-hoon must be frightening.? ? ¡°I have no choice but to go alone. See you later!¡±? ? I smiled and waved goodbye as I exited the room. My legs were trembling, so I leaned against the wall as I walked.? ? They looked at each other and seemed to ponder, but in the end, they did not follow.? ? From the moment I reached a point where the gangster-looking brothers¡¯ eyes couldn¡¯t reach, I ran like an athlete who competed in the Korea-Japan 100m race. It means that I ran like hell at the risk of my life in bad physical condition.? ? I encountered other gangster-looking brothers who stood in the middle of the hallway while I ran, but I didn¡¯t look them in the eyes, and they didn¡¯t try to catch me.? ? As soon as I left the building, I got into a taxi in sight.? ? ¡°Haa, Haa¡­ Ughh.¡±? ? The driver seemed concerned when I took a breath and groaned due to my sore back.? ? ¡°Passenger, are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°Please go to Hapjeong. Hurry up. I¡¯m in a hurry.¡±? ? ¡°In a hurry?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, if I don¡¯t leave right now, I¡¯ll die.¡±? ? Two gangster-looking brothers appeared urgently at the club¡¯s entrance. Fortunately, the taxi left before they came to catch me.? ? ¡°Passenger, are you a celebrity? Are you broadcasting something¡­ like a chase?¡±? ? ¡°What? No, it¡¯s not like that.¡±? ? ¡°What a shame, but you¡¯re a celebrity, aren¡¯t you? I don¡¯t know much about idols, are you an idol?¡±? ? ¡°I told you it¡¯s not like that.¡± ? ? The taxi driver snooped me with his rearview mirror and recited the name of an idol he know. All of the idols he mentioned had thin and pretty faces. I turned on my phone¡¯s screen to say no to any further conversations.? ? Ring, ring, ring.? ? Huh, fuck. ? ? I got a phone call and jumped like I¡¯d been stung by lightning. I was so surprised that my seat and hips had slipped by 30 cm.? ? It was Choi Sung-hoon and I didn¡¯t answer. ? ? The phone rang repeatedly, hung up after 3 minutes, and then rang again. Because I did not receive it, it rang 12 times and then hung up.? ? I¡¯m scared¡­? ? From Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s point of view, it would be absurd. He was abandoned by Omega, who fled after doing plenty of embarrassing things, including releasing the heat cycle. I should apologize later¡­? ? I can¡¯t do it now, because I¡¯m too ashamed.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Come to think of it, it was a strange one.? ? I¡¯m not the type of person who thinks about these things, regrets them, and feels ashamed of them.? ? I don¡¯t usually get injections, but I do drink alcohol when I¡¯m not feeling well. I¡¯ve also gotten drunk and called my ex-lovers to demonstrate how I overcome them.? ? But why was my face getting so hot again?? ? I thought my personality changed as I got older. CH 11 When I got home, I should have calmed down and apologized. Instead of apologizing, I fell asleep, and when I awoke, it was already Monday morning.? ? Even though the forgotten Sunday was disappointing, it was amazing because I hadn¡¯t gotten such a good night¡¯s sleep in a long time. Meanwhile, it was funny that I woke up just in time because I remember I was an office worker.? ? I still had a sore throat, shaky legs, and back pain. However, my high fever, which was a sign of a heat cycle, had gone away. It¡¯s completely gone.? ? Still, I need to fill out the annual leave for my heat cycle. I was working in the office this week, so I told the section chief that I would take days off on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday as soon as I arrived. An omega with extreme heat, such as myself, whose heat doesn¡¯t last only one day, was guaranteed three days off.? ? ¡°Your heat cycle, hmm?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t look at me like that. You pervert.¡±? ? ¡°Call me if it¡¯s urgent. I¡¯ll take good care of you.¡±? ? Anyway, that¡¯s why this jerk was still the section chief. He doesn¡¯t just hand it to me calmly. The annual leave plan was accepted only after the phone number for the Ministry of Labor showed up on my cell phone screen.? ? Today, when I returned to my seat, there were piles of documents piled up on the desk. I pretended not to notice it and reached for my phone first.? ? Won-jo [Hey what are you doing?]? ? Won-jo [Hey!?]? ? Won-jo [Are you okay?]? ? Won-jo [Are you dead?]? ? Won-jo [Reply to me, you sickly]? ? Won-jo was irritated because I had ignored his call all weekend.? ? [I¡¯m on my heat]? ? I briefly replied and went through the messages of my ex-lover.? ? There were two messages that stood out in particular. One was from Alpha man, who had broken up with me two years ago.? ? [I am getting married on December 20th. I hope Seo-yu will come¡­ (Attached Photo) For our memories¡­]? ? It was a wedding invitation.? ? I would be crazy if I go for the so called memories.? ? After deleting and blocking, I came across another message that caught my attention.? ? [How are you these days? I¡¯m going to your company soon]? ? It was Park Jin-cheol.? ? I definitely quit working for the client¡¯s company, but I don¡¯t know why he was coming to our company. Were there any new jobs at the company?? ? I was pondering what to reply when I sent an emoticon waving my hand and saying, ¡°See you that day~.¡± The 1 next to it disappeared immediately, but there was no response.? ? There were also many calls.? ? There were no more calls from Choi Sung-hoon, but Choi Sung-hyun called five times and left a message when I didn¡¯t answer.? ? Mapo Bridge High School Kid [Why is my Hyung so angry?]? ? He was angry¡­ Yeah¡­ That¡¯s understandable. I should call and apologize within today.? ? First of all, I had to say thank you to Choi Sung-hyun.? ? [Thank you for the gift card, I will use it well] ? ? The envelope that Choi Sung-hyun gave contained a gift card from a department store. When I first learned that there was a 10 million won gift card, I was taken aback because I suddenly found myself with a lot of money. I¡¯d like to buy a luxury sofa, but I¡¯m going to wait until I¡¯m married to do so.? ? It¡¯s valid for 5 years, but I¡¯m sure I¡¯ll get married within that time.? ? Mapo Bridge High School Kid [No, why is my Hyung so angry?]? ? [It¡¯s an adult¡¯s business, kid]? ? Mapo Bridge High School Kid [Shit] ? ? Then a call came shortly after the swear word. I answered the phone because there was no one in the office at the time.? ? ¨C Did you sleep with my brother? You did, aren¡¯t you?!? ? ¡°I told you it¡¯s not your business.¡±? ? ¨C Did you sleep with him? Really?? ? ¡°Do you brothers talk about this to each other?¡±? ? ¨C No, Uncle Dokki¡­ Oh, Hyung you are amazing too. How did you play with my brother? My uncles said that you both smell fishy and you walk like a newborn deer.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, surprisingly, was the type of person who flaunted his nightlife. On the surface, he appeared to be ascetic.? ? ¡°Can¡¯t you see that my voice has gone? I¡¯m about to die. I¡¯m working right now and I¡¯m in trouble.¡±? ? ¨C Wow, how can you go to work? It¡¯s normal to faint. ? ? ¡°This is what office workers are like.¡±? ? While speaking with Choi Sung-hyun, I stood up to get a print. However, there were no papers, and the last page was a report that was issued less frequently after newcomers were recruited. I was extremely irritated.? ? If you run out of paper while printing, you must refill it repeatedly. This wasn¡¯t the first time this has happened because of that newcomer. The strange thing was that this has to have been going on for the past week.? ? No one checked the printer before leaving work on Friday. I see¡­ They didn¡¯t even check the report after pressing the print button. I see¡­? ? If I win the lottery, I¡¯m going to quit. Damn it.? ? ¨C He¡¯s furious right now. He has been telling the uncles that they should die. Why do you ignore my call?? ? ¡°I was going to contact him later¡­ I¡¯ll call him later this evening.¡±? ? ¨C Be sure to do it! Surely!? ? Choi Sung-hyun hung up the phone after saying that. I sighed and opened the A4 box.? ? Argh, damn it. My back hutrs. My body hurts¡­? ? ***? ? After working overtime, my body worsened. I went to the cafe with my aching body. My muscle pain seemed to worsen if I didn¡¯t drink an Americano at this cafe.? ? ¡°Hello¡­ Oh, you¡¯re here.¡±? ? ¡°Hello.¡± ? ? The cafe owner smiled warmly as he greeted me. I was relieved to see the neat appearance and neat attire after seeing only the pervert section chief and frustrated staff.? ? I also liked how the interior was decorated for the Christmas season. Every year, this cafe decorates for Christmas, and it does not recycle but instead uses a variety of items.? ? I ordered an Americano and took a seat at a table near the counter. Aside from me, there were two other guests, a male couple who worked for a company in the same building.? ? ¡°Since I pay all of Dayoung¡¯s kindergarten expenses, is it really such a difficult request that you pay the electricity bill?¡±? ? ¡°Would I add $200 to our monthly living expenses if that¡¯s the case?¡±? ? ¡°Of course, because you make more money than me!¡±? ? The couple always has a heated conversation at the cafe. I¡¯m really envious. I¡¯d like to get married soon and quarrel with my husband about living expenses. And after becoming a regular at the cafe and became a famous parakeet couple, I want to fight over who pays for my kids¡¯ kindergarten and electricity bills.? ? ¡°If you¡¯re going to be this way, let¡¯s divorce!¡±? ? ¡°Go for it!¡± ? ? The couple quarreled with each other and stormed out of the cafe. As they were leaving, the owner came over with an Americano.? ? He came up slowly.? ? ¡°That couple always fight.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­ I¡¯m envious.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, yes?¡±? ? I was envious, but the boss tilted his head as if he didn¡¯t understand. He sat down with a bewildered smile, so I just smiled awkwardly.? ? I¡¯d also like to try a couple fight known as ¡®cutting water with a knife.¡¯ I wanted to have such an experience that barely calms my desire to divorce while thinking of the child. My parents never had a couple fight in front of me. Did they do it outside? It¡¯s possible they did it in front of my older brother. (T/N: ¡°Like a knife cutting through water¡± is the Korean ideal of relationships within a family. The idea is that love among family members should be like water. You can cut through it with the sharpest of knives, but you can¡¯t keep it apart.)? ? Now I can¡¯t ask anyone about it.? ? ¡°Did you get over your cold?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m all better after eating the porridge you gave me. Haha.¡±? ? Seeing him sitting across from me, he seemed to want to talk to me. As a result, I couldn¡¯t get up as soon as I got my order. In any case, I had to thank him at least once.? ? ¡°I was really grateful back then. Thanks to that, I got out of the crisis.¡±? ? When I smiled, the boss blushed and couldn¡¯t make eye contact.? ? ¡°No. It¡¯s only a bowl of porridge¡­¡±? ? ¡°And for telling me about the scent of roses.¡±? ? ¡°Roses scent?¡±? ? ¡°Because you told me that my pheromone was flowing out at the time, I was able to prevent the heat cycle in advance. It would have been disastrous if I hadn¡¯t known. Haha.¡±? ? I said it with a smile, but the boss¡¯s face hardened over time. The boss turned his head so hard that I heard a creaking sound as he looked at me.? ? I noticed it when I looked at his quivering eyes. This person was unaware that the scent of roses was the scent of omega pheromones.? ? I sighed inwardly. Actually, I don¡¯t look like an omega at all. Omega¡¯s appearance is similar to that of the cafe¡¯s owner. Tender, kind, and soft.? ? ¡°I guess you didn¡¯t know I¡¯m an Omega. I¡¯m a recessive Omega.¡±? ? ¡°..I didn¡¯t know¡­¡± ? ? It was unexpected, but I¡¯m not sure why he looks like the person who heard that the earth would be destroyed the next day. Seeing the hardened face and convulsive eyes made me worried.? ? ¡°Are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°¡­I didn¡¯t know¡­I really¡­¡± ? ? Was there a bad incident with another Omega?? ? The owner¡¯s face was full of more despair than disappointment. ? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi is also¡­ an Omega.¡±? ? The remark surprised me as well. Of course, I didn¡¯t tremble like the owner and feel as if the world had collapsed, but I was surprised enough.? ? He was an Omega as well.? ? Come to think of it, he wouldn¡¯t have been able to smell roses in the first place if it hadn¡¯t been for Omega or Alpha.? ? He does look like an Omega, but I don¡¯t detect any pheromones. I couldn¡¯t even guess because the girlfriend I¡¯ve previously seen was a small and compact plain style that does not appear to be an Alpha.? ? Perhaps this was the reason he took two days off a month on weekdays. How did he remove the pheromone scent so thoroughly?? ? The fact that the pheromone has been perfectly controlled so far means that he was a dominant Omega.? ? The emotion that followed the surprise was comparability as an Omega, but I quickly erased it once I felt a sense of connection. Because it was a feeling of pride and regret that recessive Omega feels comradeship to dominant Omega.? ? ¡°In any case, thank you. Thanks to you, I was able to take my medication ahead of time and spend the rest of the day safely.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s all right.¡±? ? When I got up with the coffee, the owner got up as well. His expression was still stiff. I guess he dislikes the fact that someone like me was an omega.? ? The owner¡¯s face didn¡¯t brighten until I said goodbye and walked away. One of the reasons I don¡¯t want to leave the company is the taste of the coffee at this cafe¡­ I just hope it won¡¯t be awkward when I come tomorrow.? ? ***? ? I stopped by a pharmacy on my way home to buy an after-effect contraceptive pill. It was difficult to get pregnant with a recessive omega like me unless the heat and rut overlaps, but I took four pills just in case.? ? Since I skipped it yesterday, I¡¯m taking four pills today and two pills for the next five days starting tomorrow.? ? Now I knew everything without reading the instruction.? ? Houses decorated with Christmas decorations and walls could be seen even in residential alleys on the way home.? ? Sigh¡­? ? My body aches and the cold wind hurts my bones. Maybe it snowed last night, which was why the floor was sopping wet. Damn, I don¡¯t know why the snow should exist. I became even more determined.? ? My resolution was¡­? ? I¡¯m determined not to be alone on Christmas, which was only two weeks away!? ? Even if I had to contact my former partner, or flirt with an older Alpha, or go to a club for one night stand, I will never, ever, ever be alone.? ? Does this make sense? Huh? How could I have no one to call on my way home from work?? ? Does it make sense that I don¡¯t have a lover to tell such a funny and unlucky story as receiving a wedding invitation from my ex-lover?? ? There was no one to talk to about the newcomer who didn¡¯t put paper in the printer when there wasn¡¯t any left, and I was the one who did, even though it wasn¡¯t my job. There was no one to talk to about the cafe I visit regularly, which was already decorated for Christmas, or the couple¡¯s fight inside the company building.? ? I have no one?? ? Does this make sense!? ? I can¡¯t live like this. I should have a boyfriend who would listen to every little things. I thought I needed to find a lover as I walked down this cold and lonely alleyway. I need a lover who will call me naturally after work or when he has time for dinner and would tell me about the events of the day before driving me home.? ? Fuck¡­ I¡¯m lonely.? ? It was very cold, but because of the cold, my steps on the way home slowed down gradually.? ? Because I know it was going to get colder when I got home.? ? I walked for 20 minutes for what was supposed to be an 8-minute walk from the bus stop.? ? This day had no significant meaning for me.? ? There¡¯s nothing I can do to pass the time at home.? ? With these thoughts in mind, I stopped in front of the familiar detached house. A man stood in front of the gate that led to the second floor.? ? He wasn¡¯t the owner grandfather.? ? It wasn¡¯t even the ex-lovers who occasionally came to make a fuss.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? The man who approached me and called my name in a calm voice was Choi Sung-hoon. CH 12 He was still dressed in a suit from head to toe, and despite being extremely sexy, he seemed to be scary.? ? After ignoring his phone call several times, the call was not followed again. Yet, he suddenly appeared in front of my house.? ? I approached him with a smile. He also had a smile on his face, as if he was going to die of happiness.? ? ¡°How did you find out about my house?¡±? ? ¡°Is this Seo-yu ssi¡¯s house? I didn¡¯t know.¡±? ? What a thing to say. ? ? ¡°You gave me this address while you were drunk. You said you¡¯d let me try ramen I¡¯d never had before.¡±? ? ¡°At that time-¡°? ? I unintentionally interrupted Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s words and paused. Choi Sung-hoon tilted his head, urging me to continue speaking.? ? ¡°At the time¡­ I didn¡¯t get an injection and drank too much because I had a cold and the heat from over drinking overlapped. So¡­ I¡¯m sorry.¡±? ? I was about to mention that I feel grateful to him for washing my clothes but I stopped because I didn¡¯t want to be reminded of that embarrassing night.? ? Choi Sung-hoon raised an eyebrow cynically.? ? ¡°Is that the only thing you¡¯re sorry about?¡±? ? ¡­ Was this person speaking informally now? Anyway, I was the one at fault, so I have to bend over, right?? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry for running away that day. I did that because I was so embarrassed.¡±? ? ¡°I know that you ran away.¡±? ? ¡°I couldn¡¯t see your face with my mind in a disarray.¡±? ? Even when I think about it now, it wasn¡¯t like me to act in such a way. I¡¯ve never felt ashamed about something in all my life.? ? ¡°If I hadn¡¯t come, when would you apologize?¡±? ? I was about 5m away from Choi Sung-hoon but it felt like we were too close. Shouldn¡¯t the safe distance be 1 km from a man standing like a gigantic beast chasing the prey that messed up his nest and escaped?? ? ¡°Tell me.¡±? ? My heart was pounding when I heard the low-pitched voice that sounded like a beast threatening his prey. That¡¯s the type of situation I¡¯m in right now.? ? ¡°It¡¯s really true that I was going to call you today.¡±? ? ¡°When you got home?¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? I suddenly realized what time it was. It had to be around 11 p.m. now and was a little late to make a call.? ? ¡°You are not sleeping at this hour anyway, right?¡± Choi Sung-hoon was not that good-natured young man.? ? I decided to go out a little brazenly. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s lips twitched with a subtle smile.? ? ¡°Yeah. I don¡¯t sleep at this hour.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°Is that all you have to say?¡±? ? I knew what he wanted to say.? ? Was there any other reason why Alpha came to Omega¡¯s house he had sex with once at 11 pm?? ? I took a step closer to him as he looked at me quietly. I was able to approach him after the scary feeling of pressure had subsided a little.? ? I smiled bashfully as I looked up at Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°That night was really good.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°It was fantastic.¡±? ? I took another one step closer. He was still standing like a stone statue, so I had to approach him. I got close enough to feel his breath, I raised my hand and touched his tie with my finger.? ? ¡°Did you come all the way here just to get an apology?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Or¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Because you want to eat delicious ramen that you¡¯ve never eaten before?¡±? ? I tilted my head and smiled.? ? I have to go to work tomorrow¡­? ? I¡¯m still very unwell¡­? ? I shouldn¡¯t be doing this¡­ ? ? A lot of thoughts passed through my mind, but my flirtatious hand was already twirling his blue tie.? ? ***? ? I was the one who rushed from the front door as soon as I entered the house. Choi Sung-hoon, who was holding me, locked the front door, which was as familiar to him as his own house, and I desperately clung to his neck.? ? ¡°My room¡­ over¡­there.¡±? ? My reasoning was already hazy because Choi Sung-hoon was emitting alpha pheromones, which Omega couldn¡¯t handle.? ? ¡°Kiss me¡­ Hmm?¡±? ? I rubbed my cheeks against his chin and neck, begging for a kiss. Choi Sung-hoon wrapped one hand around my waist and opened the door with the other. It made no difference how my room looked. Even if the lights had been turned on, there would have been insufficient time to look around the room.? ? I was laid on the bed.? ? Immediately, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s big body came up above me. He took off his suit coat, threw his already untied tie roughly, and unbuttoned his shirt.? ? We continued to make eye contact.? ? ¡°Kiss me¡­¡±? ? I stretched out my arms to him. He let out a short swear word and ripped off his buttoned shirt. I raised my upper body. In line with that, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand wrapped around the back of my head, and soon our lips met.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon wrapped his arms around my waist and the back of my head as I hung from his neck, exchanging hot breaths and saliva. A thick tongue rubbed my teeth and touched the roof of my mouth. The tongue, which roams the mouth as it pleases, was so large and thick that it resembled another genitalia. I kept trying to adjust the angle and kiss for a long time, but it kept getting harder and harder to breathe.? ? ¡°¡­Uh¡­Uhmm¡­ ¡°? ? I clutched his shoulder firmly. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s tongue on the other hand, was occupying my mouth and playing with my tongue, which had lost its strength. I tried to turn my head because I gradually had a hard time breathing, but I couldn¡¯t because of the hand holding the back of my head.? ? The hot saliva went down my throat.? ? My vision was blurry, and physiological tears were streaming down my cheeks. I could feel my face heating up.? ? Choi Sung-hoon finally let me go when the strength of my hand that held his shoulder had faded.? ? ¡°Haa, haa¡­uhm¡­¡±? ? He laid me on the pillow and began to unbuckle my pants. My heart was racing and I was breathing heavily.? ? My clothes were already in a mess. ? ? I stared fiercely at the Alpha, who wasn¡¯t panting at all. Then he laughed briefly.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t know how to breathe through your nose.¡±? ? ¡°Of course, I can breathe through my nose¡­ but there¡¯s a limit¡­¡±? ? ¡°Then your limit¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stripped down his underwear and pants.? ? ¡°Let me know from now on.¡±? ? In my accustomed eyes to the dark, his naked body was clearly visible. He had a black tattoo on his left shoulder, which was most likely connected to the back of his back. I expected him to have tight muscle even when he was dressed in a suit, but I didn¡¯t expect all the lines to be so tight.? ? ¡°Are you not going to take your clothes off?¡±? ? He asked when I just watched him. I smiled with my eyes after my steady breathing returned.? ? ¡°You take it off for me¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? He exhaled as if baffled, but then dashed over to me.? ? I expected him to take off my sweater, but it doesn¡¯t matter. It¡¯s also fine if he begins by removing my pants.? ? The firm and warm hand that touched my body directly without the clothes gave me a thrill.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s large hand brushed my bangs, and the other hand touched my thigh.? ? Waist. ? ? Chest.? ? Nape.? ? Everywhere he touched become hot and itchy. I couldn¡¯t help but frown as I felt the sensation. I know my face looks ugly when I frowned and Choi Sung-hoon doesn¡¯t take his eyes off me, so I struggled to manage my expression.? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? There was warmth in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes as he look at me.? ? ¡°Ehm..uhm...¡±? ? I closed my eyes as he kissed me again. I felt something hot and hard in my groin. I thought, ¡®It must have been because of the location, but how can it be this bulky¡­¡¯, but soon I couldn¡¯t think of anything because the tongue had infiltrated the inside of my mouth.? ? Even when I tried to pull my head back, it was blocked by the pillow, and he devoured my mouth carelessly. But this time, whenever I pressed my finger firmly against his forearm, he gave me a moment to breathe.? ? SQUEK¡­ ? ? The old bed was struggling to support the weight of the two of them. Hopefully, it won¡¯t fall down.? ? ¡°¡­Hmm¡­¡±? ? I quickly stopped paying attention to the bed. Choi Sung-hoon pressed his thick, firm palms against my chest. He rubbed my nipple around between his fingers. I tried to shake my head, but couldn¡¯t because his tongue was still in my mouth.? ? His other hand stroked my thigh and gradually came up. I slightly pushed his shoulder and lifted my back and lower body to make it easier for him to settle in.? ? ¡°Haa¡­haa¡­¡±? ? He wasn¡¯t pushed back, but he did give me a chance to catch my breath.? ? When the long kiss came to an end, he and I looked at each other at a distance between our noses.? ? Some of the neatly pushed-back hair had naturally become messy. He appeared much younger with his bangs down. His fierce and deep eyes as if was trying to pierce me seemed to turn redder.? ? ¡°The gel¡­¡±? ? His voice was husky and low.? ? ¡°Where is it?¡±? ? ¡°No need¡­ I¡¯m an Omega.¡±? ? I¡¯m an Omega, and you¡¯re exuding Alpha pheromone.? ? My bottom was already wet.? ? Choi Sung-hoon lifted the corner of his mouth and kissed me again. Fortunately, it wasn¡¯t as intense as before.? ? ¡°Aah¡­¡± ? ? When his finger went inside me, the hot breath I was holding came out. Because of his large build, his fingers were also large and thick, and I already felt full with just one finger.? ? I twisted my back and hugged him. A firm, muscular body with no fat at all¡­ Then I felt something on my fingertips. Was it a scar? Or a tattoo?? ? ¡°Eub¡­Uhm¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon inserted another finger. I shrugged my neck avoiding his lips. With just two fingers, it already felt very full. ? ? When I saw him move to add another, I grabbed his forearm.? ? ¡°Wait¡­ Wait¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked at me with scary black eyes. I grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand that touching my face. I folded his large and hard hand, which made my hand look like a child¡¯s hand, leaving his index, middle, and ring fingers behind.? ? Three fingers gathered in a circle were the size of a penis. They truly are the size of a penis. It was big, long, thick, and hard.? ? ¡°Heuk..¡±? ? Meanwhile, the fingers inside me pressed firmly against the inner wall, pleading for my attention. Choi Sung-hoon smiled briefly when I gave him a resentful look.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t have to¡­ put up to three¡­ Just put it in right¡­¡±? ? ¡°It would be difficult.¡±? ? ¡°Fuck¡­ I feel like there¡¯s already a dick inside me, so hurry up¡­ Hmm?¡±? ? I later regretted saying it. If I could, I wanted to take back my words¡­? ? Park Jin-cheol despised it when I cursed while we were having sex. Then he said that his desire would cool off, and he even slapped me from time to time. Of course, I wouldn¡¯t sit still if I got slapped.? ? ¡°-Ah.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon lightly bit my shoulder without hurting me when he noticed I was thinking about something else.? ? ¡°Everyone who wants to die is like this.¡±? ? ¡°Yes? What is?¡±? ? ¡°Nothing.¡±? ? Was it a threat to kill me if I think about something else?? ? Choi Sung-hoon blinked his eyes and settled down to make it easier for him to put it in. There was an embarrassing squeaky sound when Choi Sung-hoon pulled his finger inside me. The narrowly opened hole throbbed in the tickling heat.? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who was looking straight into my eyes even when kissing, was now staring at it. Omega¡¯s love fluid was dripping down to make Alpha¡¯s entrance easier, and he lifted my thighs.? ? ¡­?? ? I saw something strange in my blurry vision. Something of an unbelievable size¡­ ? ? The room was dark and I thought I couldn¡¯t see anything because I had lost my mind a little.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll put it in.¡±? ? ¡°Umm¡­¡±? ? I smiled bashfully at him, who had kindly informed me beforehand.? ? His tip brushed up against the damp, wet hole. He was completely erect.? ? Hot, hard, and big¡­? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? The size of the tip that touches was unusual.? ? ¡°Wait¡­¡±? ? I put my elbows on the bed and lifted my upper body. I could see it clearly in the dark.? ? I blinked.? ? What was that? ? ? I expected it to be big, and I¡¯ve seen it at least once. But seeing it sober¡­ It was too¡­? ? ¡°It¡¯s too much¡­¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t be afraid.¡±? ? His low voice was mixed with laughter.? ? ¡°It went in once.¡±? ? Yeah, and it hurts so much!? ? ¡°I¡¯ll put it in.¡±? ? ¡°Wait, argh-¡­!¡±? ? Something hot and hard started to open the entrance. I tilted my head back and bit my lower lip, bracing myself for pain.? ? A thick tip entered, and the hot rod pushed up the inner wall and broke through.? ? The pressure was intense. His rod pierced the walls much faster and went much deeper than I had ever experienced.? ? Ughh.? ? My chest was pounding because it was difficult to breathe.? ? It was too hot and thick.? ? I stammered and rubbed my lower abdomen. I had the sensation that my stomach was swollen.? ? It won¡¯t rip, right?? ? I simply lifted my head and looked down, then pondered.? ? There¡¯s still so much left¡­? ? ¡°It¡¯s too narrow.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re too big¡­¡±? ? I felt the pain I expected to feel. And there¡¯s also the tickling pleasure.? ? I couldn¡¯t help it that my entrance kept twitching.? ? ¡°The narrow hole is struggling.¡±? ? He said it strangely, and I felt hot in my face from embarrassment.? ? He stopped leaving a small portion of the part out because he didn¡¯t want to put it all in for the time being. He seemed to be giving me some time to get used to it.? ? You are surprisingly considerate. I felt relieved.? ? ¡°Haa¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll move.¡±? ? ¡°What? Not yet¡­ Hmph!¡±? ? Fuck considerate.? ? He started moving his waist before I could even relax my hole. It was taken aback by the size it hadn¡¯t grown accustomed to. Choi Sung-hoon lifted my thighs and waist, putting his weight on them.? ? His thigh hit my body and made a slapping sound.? ? ¡°Ughh¡­ ahhh¡­!¡±? ? The movement of pulling the waist back and deeply inserting it was repeated.? ? My reasoning was already clouded by the pheromone and my inside was itchy and hot. In the meantime, I couldn¡¯t help but go crazy when the beast-like dominant alpha looked straight at me as if he was about to eat me.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s penis that entered me was so big that there was no place it couldn¡¯t reach inside the inner wall. When I told him I couldn¡¯t do it, Choi Sung-hoon leaned his upper body and covered my mouth with his own.? ? ¡°¡­Hmph¡­¡±? ? His hot tongue wrapped around my tongue and touched the roof of my mouth. No, it would be more accurate to say I was imprisoned. His large hand pressed against my face, preventing me from moving my head. My pelvis was being held in place by the other hand. The entire side and back were caught due to his large hands.? ? In the meantime, he did not stop moving his waist, and I was pierced with his big penis and trembled. ? ? My upper and lower bodies were tightly intertwined.? ? From time to time, he gave me a chance to breathe, but he pounded me down there non-stop. A tingling heat spread from the hole to the tips of my head and toes.? ? I kept twisting my back, but it was difficult because I was trapped. Choi Sung-hoon stroked my face while letting go of my lips.? ? ¡°¡­ Ah, hah, haa¡­¡±? ? The moan came out like a scream.? ? the sight is blurry did not look good.? ? ¡°Please¡­ umm¡­ slowly, ah, hmph¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m doing it slowly.¡°? ? ¡°Aghh, aah, aah, uhm¡­ ¡°? ? He pounded nonstop at a constant speed. I couldn¡¯t pull myself together because of his hot and hard penis, which penetrated and pressed my inner wall with great force. I scratched his shoulders and back with my fingernails. He kissed my chin and neck. He seemed to bite my shoulder, but the pain was quickly forgotten due to the intense pleasure.? ? ¡°Ah, slo-slowly, ah, please¡­¡±? ? It was as if lightning struck in front of me. With my eyes wide open, I could see the face of a beast that was absorbed in sex. I was shaken helplessly when I saw Choi Sung-hoon, who was mercilessly pounding with dark eyes.? ? The creaking of the bed got worse, but there was no time to worry about it. I felt like I was going to break before the bed.? ? The pace was getting faster and faster.? ? I reached over my head and grabbed the blanket. He grabbed my wrists after detecting my intention to escape. Then he pressed it against my side, grabbing my arm and waist at the same time. I was immediately caught.? ? ¡°Uh, ah¡­ Don¡¯t do it.¡±? ? Feeling ominous, I begged while shaking. But he had no mercy.? ? Choi Sung-hoon moved more vigorously at a faster pace while holding my upper body with both hands.? ? ¡°Agh! Ahhh, that, haa, stop, ahh¡­!¡±? ? I screamed as I shook my head from side to side. However, it was only a short time before Choi Sung-hoon stirred my mouth again with his tongue as he liked.? ? My mind was a mess.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s penis was so big that it touched every single part of my inner wall. The pain was covered by another pleasure as he quickly lifted my waist.? ? Slap, Slap.? ? ¡°Ahhh¡­!¡±? ? My eyes turned white and I began to ooze ejaculate. Choi Sung-hoon, on the other hand, would have known I was ejaculating, but he didn¡¯t stop.? ? ¡°Umhh¡­!!¡±? ? All of my begging to stop for a moment was ignored.? ? The dominant alpha¡¯s pheromone has taken away my reasoning.? ? My entire body was tingling as if it had been electrocuted. Convulsions erupted from the tips of my toes. The inner wall penetrated and pressed by that big penis, in particular, was already convulsing with pleasure beyond endurance.? ? He didn¡¯t slow down as he filled his penis with force on every movement.? ? The merciless pleasure continued.? ? The inside and bottom of my hole were filled with twitching sensations, and my head went blank due to a lack of oxygen.? ? My semen was already leaking out as if I had incontinence.? ? I wanted this act to be over soon, but on the other hand, I wanted it to continue.? ? However, the brutal and violent movements continued on repeat. It was long after the huge penis churned inside me ejaculating in the depths that no one could reach. CH 13 When I woke up, Choi Sung-hoon wasn¡¯t there.? ? I woke up alone in my messed up room, and then I turned off the loud alarm. I needed to get up and get ready for work, but it was impossible for me to do so.? ? [Because my heat broke out a day early, I¡¯ll take my annual leave from Friday and return to work on Monday.] ? ? My hands were trembling and it took me 5 minutes to type a short message. I threw the phone away and went back to sleep without even looking at the section chief¡¯s response.? ? I was so tired both physically and mentally. After a while of sleeping like I was dead, I felt something touch my bangs.? ? It was big and warm¡­? ? After stroking my bangs a few times and patting my shoulder on the blanket, it went away.? ? I whined in regret, but the touch never returned.? ? ***? ? The time I woke up again was 8 PM.? ? I was astounded to see the hour hand pointing to eight.? ? When I sleep with Choi Sung Hoon, I become fishy and walk like a newborn deer? I¡¯m sure it was a dying deer!? ? Damn it, I can¡¯t do anything. My bottom was tingling and it felt like something was still in it. I really don¡¯t know what to do. I thought it was more difficult than the previous time. ? ? It doesn¡¯t seem like Choi Sung-hoon disappeared without a word, and he probably left a message, but I don¡¯t even dare to go pick up the cell phone that I threw out of bed.? ? My body was just a mess.? ? ¡°Ah¡­¡± ? ? When I tried to make a voice, I got the sound of scratching metal rather than a person. That was also a 50-year-old, worn-out iron.? ? It was the first time I was so excited. It¡¯s not like I¡¯d never slept with a dominant Alpha before¡­? ? Was it because of the penis that resembled a weapon? Or was it the never-ending desperation?? ? I touched my stomach. Fortunately, it was flat. Then I touched my hole with my finger. My precious base was pitifully swollen.? ? First, I should wash up, then apply some medicine, then eat¡­ and let¡¯s go back to sleep.? ? I woke up with great difficulty.? ? ¡°Ughhhh¡­¡±? ? Did I have a fight yesterday instead of having sex?? ? My legs were trembling, and my entire body was throbbing. ? ? ¡°Ughhhh¡­ Damn it.¡±? ? I groaned and got out of bed. It wasn¡¯t until I got out of bed that I realized the boiler was on in the house. It appears to have been running all day¡­? ? Damn it¡­ ? ? That¡¯s right. I¡¯m sick, so let¡¯s experience some extravagance, so I tried to erase the phrase ¡°Gas bill¡± from my mind.? ? I re-draped myself in the blanket and climbed out of bed. The phone¡¯s battery was running low.? ? There was a message from the section chief saying [Sure haha, call me in case of an emergency~~~], one from my uncle that said [Call me when you wake up], and three missed calls. Also from Won-jo [Let¡¯s drink after your heat is over.] Everything else was notifications of discounts from nearby marts and ex-lovers.? ? What¡­ there wasn¡¯t even a phone call or a message from Choi Sung-hoon?? ? I was irritated. I thought he was a dominant alpha with manners, but he was a jerk who ate Omega until he fainted and then left him in a dirty bed.? ? Sigh, I guess this was all my karma. Well, it was not like we are meeting each other.? ? Ring, ring, ring.? ? I leaned against the wall as I struggled to get up, and then the phone rang. It was my uncle.? ? ¡°Why?¡±? ? ¨C Uh-huh, why is your tone like this when an adult is calling?? ? ¡°I am not feeling well. What¡¯s wrong?¡±? ? Ughh¡­? ? I made my way to the living room in excruciating pain. I walked slowly because I felt like my body was about to collapse.? ? ¨C Let¡¯s move up a week. CEO Jin is busy at the beginning of the year.? ? ¡°A week? When exactly?¡±? ? Oh shit. The living room lights were on too. Sigh.? ? ¨C 24th? ? ¡°On the 24th? Christmas Eve?¡±? ? I took a look at the calendar that was hung on the wall in the living room. This year¡¯s Christmas Eve was on Saturday.? ? Ahh¡­ ? ? My legs were trembling and I couldn¡¯t stand for long, so I ended up sitting. But when I sat down, my back and buttocks hurt, so I just laid down.? ? ¨C In fact, the boss has already reserved a room. You know how difficult it is to find a room at that time, right? When else would you go to the ¡ð¡ð Hotel suite?? ? ¡°Hmm¡­¡±? ? I pretended to be concerned by pressing my stinging forehead down and responded.? ? ¡°Okay. On the 24th, ¡ð¡ð Hotel suite, right? What time?? ? ¨C It¡¯s 10 pm.? ? ¨C Click.? ? I snorted.? ? You¡¯re going to have a meeting in the suite room at 10 p.m? Both he and my uncle had an explicit intention for me.? ? When I hung up, the phone which had been running low on battery for some time was also turned off.? ? I lay down on the spot looking at the ceiling, put my hand on my forehead, and closed my eyes.? ? It was a little uncomfortable, but I made the appointment on Christmas Eve anyway.? ? I recalled he was a 45 year old wealthy dominant Alpha and the head of the Math academy that had commercial buildings in the countryside. Why was it in the countryside? Do I have to live in the countryside if I marry? It makes no difference if he insists on going. I just want to be a good person regardless of where I live. Someone who can have a peaceful marriage and raise two children.? ? ¡°You¡¯re so slow-witted.¡±? ? ¡°Waaaa!¡±? ? I screamed. When I jumped up and looked to the side where I could hear my voice, I noticed a huge man standing like a pillar in the kitchen.? ? It was Choi Sung-hoon. He was leaning against an old refrigerator with his arms folded, and a pitiful expression on his face as he looked at me.? ? ¡°What?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I said the truth.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon approached the cup of water on the table, then pointing his finger at the man dressed in a perfect suit and acting like a statue. Now that I saw it, there were three laptops on the table.? ? It looks like he was working with it. However, it was a strange sight that didn¡¯t fit in with the surroundings. I guess I¡¯ll just have to get used to it.? ? He bent his knees and sat in front of me.? ? ¡°Drink it first.¡±? ? I took the water and drank it in a daze. The water temperature was lukewarm.? ? Phew¡­? ? After drinking it all, I tapped my pounding chest and asked, ? ? ¡°What happened? Didn¡¯t you go?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ve been here the whole time.¡±? ? ¡°Your clothes are different from yesterday?¡±? ? ¡°I asked them to bring it.¡±? ? Wow¡­ Did he wash up, change, and get his hair done here?? ? He¡¯s a diligent person. I was both embarrassed and amazed at the same time.? ? ¡°How come you didn¡¯t wake me up?¡±? ? ¡°I had no idea you¡¯d sleep for so long. I was going to gradually wake you up.¡±? ? I was about to say that I fainted instead of sleeping.? ? Choi Sung-hoon helped me in getting up. He sat me on the sofa and carefully wrapped the blanket around my neck.? ? Then he knelt down and looked at me in the eyes.? ? There was no disorganized hair. Manly brows, a straight nose bridge, a firm chin, and even a scar on the cheeks.? ? Why was he getting more and more handsome? Was it because I slept with him twice?? ? Unlike him, who has a perfect figure, I was embarrassed to discover that I looked like a crucian carp.? ? ¡°Is your body okay?¡±? ? ¡°Is your conscience okay?¡°? ? He grinned when I retorted. When I asked about it, I was one hundred percent serious.? ? ¡°Why didn¡¯t you go?¡±? ? ¡°Because I have a good conscience.¡°? ? He stroked my bangs back as he replied. It was such a natural action, and I remained motionless because I wanted to be stroked more.? ? ¡°The meal is in the refrigerator, so you just have to heat it up. I also put the medicine on the table.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­thank you.¡±? ? ¡°Can you do it?¡±? ? ¡°Of course, I¡¯m not a child¡­ I¡¯m 27.¡±? ? He smiled briefly as I spoke grumpily. And he patted my head twice with his big hand as if he was amused with me.? ? My face felt like it was burning, so I drew the blanket over my eyes.? ? His tall figure strode to the table and cleared the messy table. He stuffed three laptops and a stack of documents into a large briefcase before pulling his coat from a hanger in the living room.? ? It was unbelievable to see a man walking around my house as if it were his own.? ? Choi Sung-hoon said as he tucked his arms into his coat,? ? ¡°Now that you¡¯re awake, I¡¯ll get going.¡±? ? ¡°¡­You really going?¡± ? ? Even when I heard it, the voice was filled with regret.? ? Choi Sung-hoon took a brief pause before crossing his arms and approaching me. Then he looked down at me with black eyes of unknown depth.? ? ¡°If we¡¯re going to do it again, I¡¯ll stay.¡±? ? The moment I heard the low voice, I came to my senses.? ? I hunched my shoulders and strengthened my grip on the blanket.? ? ¡± Goodbye!¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Take a rest,¡± he said after a brief laugh. He did not hesitate and walked straight out the front door, like a cold-hearted psycho.? ? The front door was soon shut and the door lock was heard. I was still perplexed, so I sat for a long time, blinking my eyes dazedly.? ? The house quickly fell silent, and all I could hear was the old refrigerator running.? ? ¡°Ah¡­¡±? ? Only then did I come to my senses and sighed deeply as I looked around the kitchen.? ? A gas stove full of grime, a cabinet with one door missing, an empty beer can in the dishwasher, an unwashed ramen pot in the trash bin¡­ The side dishes I bought at the market about a month ago were in the refrigerator. They must be producing mold¡­ and how much more¡­? ? ¡°Fuck¡­¡±? ? Yeah, anyway, I didn¡¯t have to protect my image from Choi Sung-hoon, did I? ? ? I¡¯ll just add one more embarrassing moment¡­? ? I staggered into the bathroom to wash up.? ? I almost fell backward when I saw myself in the bathroom mirror. Choi Sung-hoon, who did not laugh at this face, must be a psychopath.? ? I had a hard time in the shower and came out in a gown when I¡¯m done. I became increasingly hungry, so I opened the refrigerator and saw a white bag.? ? What was it?? ? There was no franchise logo, and it was served in a pricey-looking bowl. Choi Sung-hoon would not have made it himself, but it doesn¡¯t seem that he purchased it anywhere.? ? After warming up and tasting a spoonful, I gave Choi Sung-hoon great generosity and exclude the modifier ¡°psychopath.¡±? ? ***? ? The next morning, I put strawberries in an empty bowl and contemplated how to return them.? ? If it were possible, I¡¯d keep it. However it seemed to be very luxurious and expensive, so I thought I should return it.? ? After much deliberation, I picked up my cell phone and sent a message to Choi Sung-hoon.? ? [Thank you for the porridge. How should I return the bowl?]? ? As soon as I pressed send, I could hear the bell ringing.? ? Ding-dong? ? When I went out, I saw a man dressed in a black suit standing there. It was the gangster-looking brother who was tricked into playing hide and seek.? ? ¡°You¡¯re at home.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah¡­ did you come to pick up the bowl? Wait a minute.¡±? ? The timing was right and I didn¡¯t ask the stupid question about how he knew my house. I wrapped the bowl of strawberries in plastic wrap and put it in my shopping bag.? ? ¡°Here you go. I put some strawberries inside, so you should eat some too.¡±? ? ¡± ¡­. ¡°? ? He took the shopping bag and handed me another paper bag.? ? I received it without knowing what was inside, but it was quite heavy. When I looked inside, there were four large lunch boxes that looked like they had 8 tiers.? ? OMG?? ? ¡°I¡¯ll come at this time tomorrow.¡±? ? ¡°Yes? Wait!¡±? ? The gangster-looking brother gave me the paper bag with the lunch box and went down the stairs without looking back.? ? I brought it in dazedly.? ? Stir-fried squid jjolmyeon, eggplant with burdock root, vegetable pancakes, beef bulgogi, marinated crab¡­ There were also a variety of side dishes and yukgaejang soup, as well as fresh fruits in a round container.? ? I could eat three meals a day with this.? ? Vibrate, vibrate, vibrate? ? My phone vibrated while I was staring blankly at the colorful lunch box.? ? Choi Seong-hoon [I prepared it because I thought your body might not have gotten better yet. You have to eat it]? ? This man¡­ my heart, it was the perfect time to tell him¡­? ? I used a lot of emoticons to say thank you.? ? I didn¡¯t have any side dishes at home and I was tired, so I was going to cook ramen. The day passed by with three luxurious meals.? ? The same thing happened on Thursday.? ? ¡®Am I flirting with this guy?¡¯ I wondered as I looked down at the lunchbox containing the disheveled goose liver.? ? Ay, no way.? ? There was no way the wealthy, dominant Alpha Choi Sung-hoon would flirt with me, and he might be unaware that I am a recessive Omega. However, it was difficult to tell if he enjoyed our sex because I couldn¡¯t show my technique and was swayed and shaken by him. What was it?? ? Sympathy? Responsibility?? ? Was it compensation?? ? Whatever it was, it was not good for me.? ? This feather-light heart might have unreasonable expectations, so I¡¯ll have to crack down on it thoroughly.? ? So, on Friday morning, I said to the gangster-like brother, who had come for the third day in a row.? ? ¡°You can stop bringing me food now. My body has gotten better.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I will only give you today. Seo-yu ssi, please tell the director.¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? The gangster-like brother seemed very familiar with these errands, so I became curious. I asked while trying to receive the lunch box he had given me.? ? ¡°Does Choi Sung-hoon always take care of his one-night counterparts like this?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s the first time I¡¯ve seen someone like this. Usually, it¡¯s over after a one night-¡­¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t be mistaken.¡±? ? The gangster-like brother¡¯s eyes changed and filled with disgust. Even the polite honorifics also changed in an instant.? ? ¡°Because you are close to little boss Sung-hyun, the boss cares about you. However, he doesn¡¯t like you, so don¡¯t misunderstand. Our boss always has good manners, so it¡¯s not just one or two empty-headed omega kitties who misunderstand it. Even a rag like you was just one of them, so don¡¯t think you¡¯re special. Do you understand?¡±? ? I looked up at the angry gangster-like brother and smiled as hard as I could to seem helpless and harmless.? ? ¡°I know. Don¡¯t worry. I don¡¯t misunderstand that.¡°? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I am well aware that Choi Sung-hoon and I live in different worlds. I¡¯m not going to climb a tree that I can¡¯t even climb just because we had a few sexes. I know my fountain well.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°The question could have been so misleading. I¡¯m sorry. I was asking too rashly.¡±? ? It was difficult to smile because of my sense of shame. But I closed my eyes and smiled. The gangster-like brother was deafeningly quiet. He seemed to sense that something wasn¡¯t quite right, and he seemed surprised.? ? Were you not going to accept my apology? So you were going to tell the boss when you went back? Omega, with whom you¡¯ve slept a few times, acts as if he was something special.? ? I¡¯m not like that, and I didn¡¯t do it on purpose. I asked because I was really curious.? ? ¡°¡­You are not empty-headed.¡±? ? I was relieved by the answer that came out soon. Does this mean that you accept my apologies?? ? I apologized one after another when he handed me the lunch box.? ? He had a gloomy expression on his face the whole time.? ? ¡°Thank you for today as well. Goodbye~¡± ? ? When the door locked, I stood in front of it for a while, and I heard the sound of the gangster-like brother going down the stairs.? ? My head was dizzy.? ? I put down the lunch box calmly, grabbed my phone, and texted Choi Sung-hoon.? ? [You don¡¯t have to give me lunch boxes anymore~~~~ I¡¯m so sorry for troubling you~ Thank you for the past few days~ I¡¯ll buy you dinner later]? ? I instantly regretted sending it. I shouldn¡¯t have said that I would buy him a meal later¡­ It might seem to be a trick. But I couldn¡¯t help myself¡­? ? I picked up the lunch box and placed it on the table. Today¡¯s meal was also lavish. I opened it one step at a time and smiled in disappointment.? ? Who takes care of their one-night stand partner¡¯s meals for three days after having sex twice? Choi Sung-hoon was not an ordinary person either. This was why I shouldn¡¯t have misunderstood anything.? ? Thanks to the gangster-like brother¡¯s stinging reminder, I came to my senses.? ? Choi Sung-hoon has a good subordinate. Let¡¯s think of this as compensation.? ? The lunch box tastes bitter today. CH 14 I went out on Saturday because I had a drinking appointment with Won-jo.? ? I couldn¡¯t sleep and didn¡¯t want to be alone in such a big house, so I left early, despite the fact that I had plenty of time before the appointment.? ? I went into the bar first and ordered something. I texted Won-jo, whose house was nearby, to come over quickly. I had nothing to do, so I went online.? ? There have been many incidents and accidents today. A celebrity was getting married, a politician was wandering the market, an entrepreneur was filing a patent lawsuit, and¡­ ? ? There was an up-to-date article about a family car crashing down the river. ? ? ¡°¡­!!!¡± ? ? I got chills on the back of my neck.? ? I shook my head, rubbed my eyes, and returned my gaze to the screen.? ? There were only rumors of celebrity dating.? ? However, the chill didn¡¯t go away.? ? Damn it, I¡¯m starting to see things again because I didn¡¯t get enough sleep.? ? I moved my feet anxiously while pressing my temple hard, but my ankle became cold and I heard a sound.? ? I was taken aback and looked down at my feet.? ? It was black water.? ? The floor of the bar was filled with black and cold water.? ? ¡°¡­ Haa¡±? ? My heart was racing. I took a look around before putting my feet up on the chair.? ? People didn¡¯t seem to notice the cold water rising from their ankles to their calves.? ? Shit, I¡¯m so sick of this.? ? It was the point at which I couldn¡¯t take it any longer and got up from my seat.? ? Vibrate vibrate vibrate? ? I was surprised to hear the phone vibrate so loudly that my shoulders trembled.? ? A message was displayed on the screen.? ? Choi Sung-hoon [Have it]? ? ¡­? ? ? What was this? What¡­ What do I have¡­? ? After wondering about it for a while, I only realized after entering the chat window.? ? This wasn¡¯t Choi Sung-hoon suddenly asking me for a meal, but rather a reply to the message [How do I return the bowl of the lunches?] that I sent in the morning.? ? I hesitated and sat down.? ? The river had disappeared.? ? The black and cold river always appears unexpectedly and then disappears.? ? Fucking black river!? ? If I wasn¡¯t extra cautious, they would rush in to take and devour me.? ? It was difficult for me to calm my chaotic breathing. My hands and feet were less shaky.? ? The river grew and engulfed my waist. I¡¯m not going to be able to get out of it for the rest of my life¡­ Until I walk into the river¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon [Dinner]? ? A message popped up in the conversation window I left on.? ? Choi Sung-hoon [When?]? ? What does this mean again¡­ I scrolled up and saw my message promising to buy him dinner at some time.? ? [Tell me when you have time^^]? ? Choi Sung-oon. [It will be today]? ? [I¡¯m sorry TT I already have an appointment planned for today.]? ? Choi Sung Hoon. [Appointment? With your friends?]? ? [Yes, I have a drinking appointment]? ? Choi Sung Hoon. [Drinking?]? ? [I¡¯m planning on getting drunk today, why?]? ? Choi Sung-hoon read it but didn¡¯t respond. It reminded me of the other day when I was drunk and flirted with him.? ? [Haha, I¡¯m good at drinking and I don¡¯t have any drinking habits~~. What happened before was because I wasn¡¯t feeling well at the time.]? ? As soon as I sent it, 1 disappeared, but again there was no reply.? ? I understand why he can¡¯t believe it. Remembering that time makes me want to hide yet again. ? ? Argh, I remembered it again. I really want someone to hit me in the head and give me amnesia.? ? Choi Seong-hoon [I will contact you later]? ? Choi Sung-hoon made me feel embarrassed again and escaped alone.? ? I sent a wink rabbit emoticon saying okay. There was no reply.? ? Phew¡­ ? ? I¡¯m feeling overwhelmed.? ? When the river appears, I get swept away and can¡¯t do anything, but the brief conversation with Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t make me think about the river.? ? But I can¡¯t hope the same for the next time¡­? ? I didn¡¯t fall into the river because the timing was right.? ? The black and cold river was always coming for me, and all I could do was stand helplessly through it.? ? Vibrate vibrate vibrate? ? My phone rang again as I was deep in thought.? ? [My Hyung is so big, right?] ? ? The sender was [Mapo Bridge High School Kid].? ? These two brothers¡­ were they making fun of me?? ? It was so ridiculous to look at the seven letters that made my worries about the river go away.? ? No, I wasn¡¯t joking! I was really serious. The trauma of the cold river¡­? ? [My brother thing isn¡¯t for ordinary humans, haha.]? ? [Was it good to do it twice?]? ? [Did you read it?]? ? [Hyung, did you faint?]? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I also feel bad for the river because I can¡¯t think about it anymore because of this frank message.? ? I was constantly cursing when I got a phone call to see if I had exhausted my patience.? ? ¨C Why didn¡¯t you reply after seeing it?? ? ¡°Hey, if you suddenly ask me if he was big without any context¡­¡±? ? ¨C You know what it is!? ? Choi Sung-hyun¡¯s voice was full of playfulness. It made me laugh even though I wasn¡¯t aware of it.? ? ¨C ¡°Yeah, it¡¯s big and terrifying.¡±? ? ¨C Isn¡¯t it amazing? My dad is big, my uncle is big, and in our bloodlines are all big.? ? Choi Sung-hyun indirectly boasted that he was also big. It was adorable. Would this be how I felt if I had a younger brother?? ? ¨C Hyung, are you dating my older brother (T/N: Just reminder that Hyung is used to address older men by younger men both in blood relation or not. To avoid confusion I use older bro here to address his blood brother)? ? ¡°No. There¡¯s nothing like that.¡±? ? ¨C You slept with him twice. Why not?? ? ¡°Your brother¡­ it seems he doesn¡¯t have any secrets.¡±? ? I think I would have avoided my brother¡¯s sex history because it was so disgusting and embarrassing.? ? When I was in middle school, my older brother brought his girlfriend home and introduced her. I ran into that girlfriend by chance during summer vacation. While holding cigarettes from convenience stores, I saw her holding a condom. I couldn¡¯t bear the thought of my brother using a condom, so I didn¡¯t think about it again.? ? ¨C I don¡¯t know. The uncles tell me everything, even if I don¡¯t want to hear it. I heard my brother slept at your house.? ? ¡°Oh, it¡¯s embarrassing, so stop. Why did you call me?¡±? ? ¨C What do you mean why?? ? ¡°What is the reason for your call? I¡¯m sure you didn¡¯t call to talk about me sleeping with your brother.¡±? ? ¨C That¡¯s right¡­ I¡¯m upset, Hyung. Must there be a reason? Between us¡­? ? ¡°What¡¯s there between you and me.¡±? ? ¨C We¡¯re each other¡¯s lifesavers~. Hyung, why are you so cold? I¡¯m disappointed?? ? Choi Sung-hyun, who kept nagging because he was disappointed, didn¡¯t seem to have any other main point. He just called to say something really stupid. And it was because of him that I laughed. So I decided to go with the flow.? ? ¡°Do you think your brother is interested in me?¡±? ? ¨C I don¡¯t know, but it¡¯s the first time my brother slept somewhere according to Uncle Dokki.? ? ¡°Do you live with your brother?¡±? ? ¨C No, but I want to live together. We¡¯ve been living apart since we were kids. My brother was so cold that he doesn¡¯t even come to see his parents. He hasn¡¯t even read my message for days.? ? ¡°Really?¡±? ? I felt somewhat proud after exchanging messages with Choi Sung-hoon just now.? ? But I quickly shook my head.? ? Why should I feel proud? Ugh, I¡¯m going insane because my heart was as light as a feather.? ? ¨C However, the extremely dominant Alpha was usually more at ease living alone. It was also better for both me and my dad. If we stay together, I may develop into a recessive Alpha.? ? Wait, what did he just say?? ? ¡°Extremely dominant?¡±? ? ¨C Yeah, extremely dominant. Why?? ? ¡°Uh, Choi Sung-hoon is extremely dominant?¡±? ? ¨C Yeah, you didn¡¯t know?? ? ¡°Extremely dominant?¡±? ? I repeated these two words like a parrot.? ? Extremely dominant¡­ I thought that the extremely dominant Alpha only existed on TV¡­? ? It was much more intimidating than the dominant Alphas I¡¯d met so far. It¡¯s terrifying¡­ I could see why I was so disoriented that I completely forgot about our first sex. It was understandable given that he was an extremely dominant Alpha.? ? ¡°Wait, then I slept with an extremely dominant Alpha!¡±? ? When I realized what had happened, I opened my eyes wide and lifted my head.? ? ¡°¡­¡­¡±? ? When I raised my head, I saw Won-jo, who also had wide-eyed eyes and froze coldly. Won-jo had just arrived and intended to sit, but he was stiffened in an awkward posture.? ? Oh, shit¡­? ? ¨C How can you not know? Hyung, you¡¯re really slow. At first glance, my Hyung doesn¡¯t look like an ordinary dominant Alpha.? ? I don¡¯t know since when the modifier ¡®ordinary¡¯ could be added in front of the dominant alpha.? ? For now, I was more concerned about Won-jo who was in front of me than that.? ? ¡°Hey, I¡¯m busy. I¡¯m hanging up, I¡¯ll call you later.¡±? ? I hung up without listening to Sung-hyun¡¯s answer. Won-jo asked as soon as he sat down,? ? ¡°What was that phone call just now? Extremely dominant Alpha? What?¡±? ? ¡°Where did you hear that?¡±? ? ¡°Do you think your brother is interested in me?¡±? ? Fuck, he heard it all. I didn¡¯t want to tell him¡­? ? The atmosphere at the table did not improve even after the snacks and drinks we had ordered arrived and we had a drink.? ? Won-jo expression was very distorted. I¡¯m not sure if he¡¯d rather frown openly or not. I was trying to laugh it off, so he felt as if he was being mocked.? ? ¡°The alpha you talked about last time? The rich dominant alpha that lives in a different world from you?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, you have such a good memory.¡±? ? ¡°You had sex with an extremely dominant Alpha.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah.¡±? ? Won-jo was boiling now.? ? Envy, jealousy, and betrayal.? ? Those emotions were evident. But he smiled, attempting to conceal his unspoken emotions.? ? ¡°As expected, you are such a jerk. When did you plan to brag about it to me?¡±? ? ¡°There¡¯s nothing to brag about. I slept with him, and that was the end of it. It wasn¡¯t flirting, and it certainly wasn¡¯t dating.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t lie. I heard you asking if he is interested in you.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, damn you have clear ears¡­¡±? ? I laughed like an idiot, trying to stop the cold atmosphere.? ? ¡°Honestly, I had sex with him twice. Can¡¯t I expect anything? I know I don¡¯t fit his level, but just in case you know¡­¡±? ? ¡°How did you meet him? Tell me.¡±? ? Won-jo folded his arms as if he would give me time to tell him my story. I drank soju without snacks and spoke briefly.? ? ¡°I happened to see a car hit a power pole while attempting to avoid a cat, and the driver was an unlicensed high school student. The high school student asked that I speak with his older brother, and when I met him, I discovered that he was a sexy dominant alpha.¡±? ? I explained it by mixing lies and truths.? ? ¡°Wow, that¡¯s how you meet a man. The ability to entangle a man was surprisingly amazing.¡±? ? ¡°Damn you bastard, are you making fun of me now?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m saying this because I¡¯m really surprised.¡± Anyway, what about the call after that?¡±? ? ¡°He contacted me today. He slept at my house a few days ago and delivered me a lunch box, so I told him to stop.¡±? ? ¡°Lunch box? I seem to be missing a lot of things.¡±? ? Won-jo burst out laughing. He seems to be feeling better as he slowly rummages through the side dishes with chopsticks.? ? ¡°You mean you haven¡¯t made an appointment to meet again?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, he didn¡¯t ask me to meet him.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s strange. You¡¯re so well-behaved that not many people fall off after just one night¡¯s sleep.¡±? ? Won-jo ate three stir-fried sausages and vegetables as a side dish all at once, and it seemed to help him feel better.? ? ¡°What¡¯s so lacking in an extremely dominant Alpha that he would be interested in something like you? It¡¯s that simple.¡±? ? This¡¯s why I didn¡¯t want to tell you.? ? Won-jo is the type of person who wants to know my lover¡¯s wealth and then compares it to his own lover¡¯s wealth, gets jealous if I get an alpha lover, and worries about me meeting a bum, but he would laugh at the shit I¡¯ve been through.? ? Which boyfriend was it? Was it when I was 20 years older? He was a beta lover who was 20 years older than me, and when we argued or got too excited, he punched me in the face. One time, I got hit incorrectly and the bruise mark was formed from under my eyes to my cheeks, and when he saw my face, Won-jo burst out laughing.? ? ¡®Hey, are you getting beaten up? You look like a fucking panda.¡¯? ? I broke up with that boyfriend and had a brief fling with a customer while working part-time at a buffet. Won-jo, who was working with me at the time, noticed and showed him a picture of my bruises. ¡®He¡¯s a masochist. Will it be okay?¡¯? ? The flirting ended, and I fought Won-jo to the death that day.? ? They¡¯re saying that birds with the same feather flock together. He was a friend who¡¯s perfect for my level.? ? ¡°Seo-yu, you are pathetic as well. You should forget about the pointless one-night stand and get married. Nobody cares when a recessive Omega gets older.¡±? ? ¡°Fuck you, you¡¯re talking too much. You call yourself my friend.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m doing this because I¡¯m sincerely worried about you as a friend.¡±? ? Won-jo laughed and poured alcohol into my cup. I also refilled his glass.? ? What can I do? He¡¯s the only friend I have.? ? As rumors of my relationship spread during the school day, I lost all of my friends, and even those I had kept in touch with after graduation broke up and lost contact. I couldn¡¯t attend the graduation ceremony because I was working, and my phone number changed several times because I was dating a lot of men.? ? Because the clubs where I met Won-jo as an adult were the same, I had no choice but to stay in touch.? ? Just like me, Won-jo would look at me and think the same thing.? ? It¡¯s pathetic to have such a bastard as a friend. CH 15 The bottle on the table grew to five or six bottles as I drank one or two glasses. Won-jo became hazy and began smoking cigarettes while cursing the company. I was irritated because he kept recommending cigarettes to me, and now he was cursing at me.? ? He kept yelling at me, so I wanted to smoke as well, but I had already quit smoking 10 years ago¡­? ? ¡°This Hyung will treat you! Use this Hyung¡®s credit card to pay!¡±? ? ¡°Hyung¡­ you¡¯re sexy. Wow.¡±? ? Won-jo was the type of person who spent money when drunk. It was great to get money. As expected, I should be friends with this guy for the rest of my life.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll treat you to the second round as well!¡±? ? Won-jo proudly shouts, but I thought the second round would be difficult if I was already this drunk in the first. I¡¯ll take a taxi and bring us back.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go to the club! I¡¯m also going to eat dominant Alpha!¡±? ? ¡°Shut up and take out your wallet, idiot.¡±? ? Won-jo, who was drunk, shouted loudly. The inside of the bar was quiet, so I think everyone could have heard it. I¡¯m not sure why the bar, which was always loud, was suddenly quiet, but I need to get out of here quickly.? ? ¡°Wallet¡­ My wallet.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll find it for you.¡±? ? I stepped up on behalf of a friend who couldn¡¯t find his wallet. I went to Won-jo¡¯s next seat and looked in his coat pocket, but it was nowhere.? ? ¡°This guy probably didn¡¯t bring it¡­ ¡± ? ? It was time to doubt him, so I put my hand in the convex pocket of his trousers. The surroundings darkened suddenly. We were surrounded by a large shadow.? ? What¡­? ? When I raised my head, I was surprised to see an unexpected person.? ? ¡°What a coincidence. Were you drinking here?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon greeted me with a frown as he stood next to the table. The gangster-like brothers stood in the back, their faces expressionless. There was also the lunch box gangster brother. He avoided my gaze with a slight expression when he made eye contact with me.? ? I returned my gaze to Choi Sung-hoon. Still, he had a grim expression on his face, as if he was about to fight right away.? ? ¡°How did Choi Sung-hyung ssi get here?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ What?¡±? ? ¡°How did you get here¡­?¡±? ? ¡°My name.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyung?¡± ? ? That¡¯s right. Choi Sung-hoon. ? ? I blinked dazedly, unable to figure out what was wrong. Choi Sung-hoon, who was quietly watching, answered my question quickly.? ? ¡°I¡¯m here to drink.¡±? ? ¡°In a place like this?¡±? ? This is a cheap, poor quality, and noisy bar with snacks only for 4,900 won. It¡¯s not a place to wear that black suit. Both the staff and the customers glanced at this place at the visit of the unbecoming person.? ? ¡°I come to places like this, too. But what are you doing right now?¡±? ? ¡°Me? I¡¯m going to pay now¡­ my wallet.¡±? ? I slipped my wallet out of Won-jo pants pocket. Won-jo woke up with surprised eyes, looked at Choi Sung-hoon, and immediately began to hiccup.? ? ¡°T-the¡­ extremely dominant Alpha ¡­?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, that¡¯s right. How did you know at once? Is it because of the appearance? This jerk is my friend Won-jo. This is Choi Sung-hyung ssi. He¡¯s older than us.¡±? ? I introduced Won-jo and Choi Sung-hoon. Won-jo jumped up and bowed as if serving his elder brother, but Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t even bow his head. He only glanced at him once. Won-jo, who would normally make a scene, acted quietly and politely.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡­ Manner activator¡­? ? ¡°Are you going home now?¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? ¡°No!¡± ? ? Won-jo answer was different from mine. Won-jo asked me to go to the club, but I¡¯m thinking of going home.? ? ¡°Okay then, Seo-yu ssi, let¡¯s go together.¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°You, this bastard, this guy, he¡¯s going to the club with me¡­¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi seems to be already drunk, so I¡¯ll take you home.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stated, his gaze fixed on Won-jo rather than on me. His brow was furrowed, and the knife marks on his cheeks twitched. No matter how thoughtless Won-jo was, he was not stupid enough to make a fuss in front of a big and harsh-looking man, so he said, ¡°Yes, yes¡­¡± I could see him nodding his head.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon lightly grabbed my wrist.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not drunk at all¡­¡±? ? I tried to resist slightly by swinging my arm, but it was of no use. My resistance seemed to feel like cat hair on clothes.? ? Yeah¡­ When the extremely dominant Alpha says let¡¯s go, a recessive Omega like me wouldn¡¯t dare to refuse.? ? I was taken by him without hesitation.? ? ***? ? Choi Sung-hoon was driving a black limousine. The other gangster-like brothers rode separately in a black sedan.? ? I carefully stepped into the limousine. This is my first time on it. Because the interior was so spacious, I assumed I could not only stretch my legs but also roll around. Although there was a separate driver, the screen was closed. Choi Sung-hoon told him to drive through something resembling the intercom attached to the screen? ? Does the driver know my home address? Come to think of it, the dignified Alpha secretary was nowhere to be seen.? ? The car started smoothly.? ? ¡°Where are you going¡­?¡±? ? ¡°I am going to your house.¡±? ? ¡°Does the driver know my address? Why¡­? ¡±? ? ¡°¡­ How much did you drink?¡±? ? I was so surprised when I thought about it alone.? ? ¡°The two of us drank six bottles, but we¡¯re not so drunk.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°You said you come to drink. Why do you just go?¡±? ? ¡°Because it was a lie.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ I see. It was a lie. Ah¡­¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon took a glass from the wine bar next to his seat, opened the mini-fridge, and poured ice water. He handed it to me, but all I did was stare at it blankly.? ? ¡°Drink. You are drunk.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not drunk. I¡¯m a heavy drinker.¡±? ? ¡°Your alcohol intake is weak. Drink it first.¡±? ? ¡°What is this person saying¡­¡±? ? I complained on the inside, but I took and drank it calmly. It was cold and I felt refreshed.? ? In fact, I was still surprised.? ? If it¡¯s a lie that he came for a drink¡­ Does that mean he came to the bar to take me alone¡­ Isn¡¯t this a sign of affection?? ? Choi Sung-hoon would have been mistaken if he had not been an extremely dominant Alpha.? ? I don¡¯t know how to explain this to Won-jo later¡­ ? ? My mind was complicated. Choi Sung-hoon was still frowning a little. The inside of the limousine was spacious, but Choi Sung-hoon looked so big that he would fill the space.? ? ¡°It looks cold.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took the glass that was still in my hand.? ? Oh, that¡¯s why my hands were cold.? ? When I looked down, I noticed that the back of my hand had turned bright red. Because I have dry hands, I have to use hand cream and wear gloves in the winter.? ? I¡¯m going to buy fur gloves.? ? Every year, I buy cheap fur gloves and throw them away after a season.? ? I¡¯m going to get something for the item that I frequently touch. Because I¡¯m a cell phone addict, I¡¯d like to dress my phone warmly as well. Should I buy a new case? What I was currently using was a couple case with my ex-lover, but Park Jin-cheol was unaware of this at the time. I don¡¯t think I¡¯ve ever matched a couple item with Park Jin-cheol. Shit, that¡¯s a relief. I almost wasted my money. It¡¯s a good thing I¡¯m a cautious person. Should I say that it was lightness prudence? So, no matter how many times I run into dominant Alpha, I¡¯m not expecting anything¡­? ? ¡°Uh¡­¡±? ? I thought I was with the extremely dominant Alpha, so I raised my head. Choi Sung-hoon was leaning comfortably on the seat and looking at me with his arms folded. His expression reminded me of the time I went to a dog cafe with my lover to watch dogs playing.? ? When I looked at him quietly, Choi Sung-hoon raised his eyebrows.? ? ¡°Do it more.¡±? ? ¡°Do what more?¡±? ? ¡°Keep on mumbling.¡±? ? ¡°No, I didn¡¯t mumble, but I thought to myself¡­ ¡±? ? I pouted my lips and turned my body that was facing Choi Sung-hoon. However, Choi Sung-hoon gently turned me back with his strong hand.? ? Showing off your strength, huh¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m not bragging about my strength. So, what are you going to buy in addition to the fur gloves and phone case?¡±? ? Wow, mind reading!? ? No, I don¡¯t think so. I must have really mumbling.? ? My face was becoming hot. I wrapped my cold hands around my cheeks.? ? It seems that I did a lot of things that were impolite in front of Choi Sung-hoon. Despite the fact that my actions seem to be light, I am originally calm and reserved in everything, but it was strange.? ? A low laugh could be heard.? ? I unintentionally headed towards the direction where the sound was coming from.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s cold expression slowly loosened. The scene of the wrinkles on the forehead disappeared and the gentle warmth in the cold eyes was enough to give expectations to the recessive Omega who was filled with loneliness.? ? Choi Seong-hoon pressed his large hand against the back of my hand, which was covering my cheek. His palms were firm and warm with calluses on them.? ? But it was only a brief moment before he withdrew his hand again. I also blankly put my hands on my knees. The back of my still-warm hand was itchy, so I wrapped it around my other hand.? ? Choi Sung-hoon never took his gaze away from me.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t look at me like that¡­ At this rate, you¡¯ll bore a hole in my face¡­¡±? ? ¡°I want to take a picture and show Seo-yu ssi how red your face is right now.¡±? ? ¡°Mr¡­ don¡¯t make fun of me.¡±? ? I glanced at him. He would be the worst criminal in the world if he had no expression, but he was smiling¡­? ? Oh, no!? ? I shook my head. I need to repress the expectations that this feather-like heart had.? ? There was an old saying that if you enter the dominant Alpha Limousine, you can live a good life as long as you stay alert.? ? I tapped my cheek lightly with my palm.? ? Then Choi Sung-hoon looked at me as if he was wondering if I was finally going insane.? ? ¡°Are you trying to make your face redder?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s noisy¡­ I don¡¯t want to worry about your subordinates¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°¡­ My subordinate?¡±? ? ¡°I promised not to misunderstand your intention. So don¡¯t laugh.¡±? ? ¡°With whom did you make a promise?¡±? ? I was about to answer that it was the lunch box gangster-like brother, but I shut my mouth at the discomfort I felt in his voice.? ? The gentleness in Choi Seong-hoon¡¯s eyes disappeared in an instant. I quickly avoided his gaze as it became harsh as if he was about to wield a knife.? ? ¡°I¡¯m drunk. My head hurts¡­ ¡°? ? I was rational enough to admit that I was drunk, but I pretended to be weak. Choi Sung-hoon made an absurd expression when I placed my hand on my forehead and buried my back deep in the seat. I flinched as he raised his hand and closed my eyes.? ? You¡¯re going to hit me just because of this? A ferocious heart. As expected, a psychopath gangster!? ? The anticipated pain never arrived. Choi Sung-hoon stroked my bang with his large hand. The act of reaping the bar for a short stay of about 5 seconds reassured me, but it also made me feel more desperate.? ? The extremely dominant Alpha who carelessly touches the recessive Omega while not taking responsibility should be punished by the country.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face remained expressionless and cold. He seemed to be thinking about something. I¡¯m hoping he wasn¡¯t planning on pouring cement on me.? ? Choi Sung-hoon immediately paid attention to me as I sat close to the seat and my shoulders trembled.? ? ¡°Are you cold?¡±? ? ¡°Your face is cold.¡±? ? I trembled because that face was cold, but I just said it was a little chilly.? ? Choi Sung-hoon raised an eyebrow wondering if it was ridiculous to say it was cold in a car with a lot of heaters. For some reason, the atmosphere became even more unpleasant.? ? ¡°It¡¯s okay ¡­ Winter is usually cold. Like the nature of the four seasons¡­ It¡¯s a physiological phenomenon.¡±? ? ¡°It must be a natural phenomenon.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. It¡¯s like a natural physiological phenomenon that can¡¯t be resisted¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I need to buy gloves. I want to buy couple gloves¡­ .¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon clicked his tongue, saying why would he talk about something with a drunkard as I talked back and forth.? ? Where¡¯s the drunkard here? First of all, it¡¯s not me¡­? ? I felt the limousine moving smoothly and then it stopped. When I looked out the window, I noticed a familiar gate to a detached house. We¡¯ve already arrived from Guro to Hapjeong.? ? The limousine took up the entire alleyway of the narrow residential area. It¡¯s late, so I¡¯m glad no cars are passing by.? ? Neither Choi Sung-hoon nor I moved.? ? He lied to me about when he came for a drink, and I was afraid I wouldn¡¯t be able to ask him if he had come only to pick me up just now.? ? I had to ask him straightforwardly to tell me the exact reason so that I wouldn¡¯t misunderstand.? ? But I couldn¡¯t bring myself to ask it.? ? Because having such an assumption itself is arrogant¡­? ? ¡°Thank you for taking me home. Goodbye¡­¡±? ? I pressed the door handle, but it didn¡¯t open. When I saw Choi Sung-hoon in embarrassment, he pressed four numbers on the monitor. It only then did the door open.? ? Drivers usually open doors for cars like this or the secretary¡­ Now that I think about it¡­? ? ¡°Where did that dignified secretary go?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ He went to see his grandchildren.¡±? ? For some reason, he seemed to emphasize ¡®grandchildren.¡¯ ¡°Oh, I see,¡± I said as I got out of the car. Choi Sung-hoon followed him as well.? ? We faced each other in front of the house. He did not get back into the car or turn around.? ? Perhaps he has something to say.? ? The extremely dominant Alpha was like a beast with its prey, looking down at me while casting a huge shadow under the street lamp. I feel like he was watching to see if the prey was acting strangely. He seems to be waiting for the phrase ¡°Please eat me up.¡±? ? Oh¡­? ? Suddenly, a realization struck me.? ? There¡¯s only one reason¡­ The reason Choi Sung-hoon taking home the Omega he¡¯d slept with twice.? ? I smiled bitterly and opened my mouth.? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t this happen a few days ago? I can feel the homage¡­¡±? ? ¡°That would be a d¨¦j¨¤ vu.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Homage, d¨¦j¨¤ vu or whatever¡­ Did you come here to eat special ramen again?¡±? ? Should I twist his tie with my fingers like a few days ago?? ? I was a cheap omega who is easily swayed by temptation, and the night with him was so passionate and hot, but I didn¡¯t want to do it today. If I had started drinking earlier, I would have gotten drunk. I wanted to rest today. It was just that I wasn¡¯t in the mood to do it.? ? But it was difficult to tell him to leave after he had come all the way here.? ? I should at least suck it for him.? ? I smiled like a fool.? ? ¡°Come on in. Let¡¯s spend a long night together today, Choi Sung-Hyung.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon responded to the words I spit out with a bit of determination with a thin smile.? ? ¡°What are you going to do drunkard?¡± ? ? The wrinkled eyes and the corner of the raised mouth. The laughter that bloomed from his cold face was as warm as the spring sun.? ? ¡°Go up. I¡¯ll go after I see you go in.¡±? ? ¡°Really? What did you say you came here for, Choi Sung-hyung ssi?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Stop calling my name and go home.¡±? ? He was now holding back laughter almost with his whole face.? ? I don¡¯t know what¡¯s so funny¡­ I guess his subordinates didn¡¯t know that the psycho boss sometimes laughs at strange things.? ? Then I said goodbye and came up the stairs. I nodded again as I pressed the keypad on the front door of the house and opened it.? ? Choi Sung-hoon also nodded.? ? Click.? ? The door closed and I stood close to the living room window.? ? Looking only through the curtains, I could see Choi Sung-hoon getting into the limousine that was filling the alley. I squatted down as the car drove away.? ? You ate me up the last time I was drunk¡­ What¡¯s up with your behaviors right now?? ? It¡¯s not once or twice that Choi Sung-hoon suddenly appeared and picked me up.? ? Because he¡¯s a wealthy and extremely dominant Alpha¡­ It must be very entertaining to meet a cheap person like me after only meeting dominant Omega, who has always grown up preciously.? ? I¡¯ll dance on his palm or whatever, but if there¡¯s one thing I want¡­ Just¡­ I hope he plays with me well and leaves me in place when he got bored. That¡¯s all. CH 16 As soon as I arrived at work, that section chief bastard approached me and asked if I had a good time with my heat. Even when I told him to stop, he persisted, so I activated the recording function on my cell phone and pushed it to him. Only then did he stop. The other employees did not openly ask. That¡¯s right¡­ If you still want to work, you have to be polite.? ? Before lunch, the section chief came to my seat.? ? ¡°Last week, Park Jin-cheol, who was at ¡ð¡ð C&T, visited and he was looking for Seo-yu ssi. He moved to ¡÷¡÷ C&T.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, really? Who was Park Jin-cheol?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t you remember the tall guy who looked like a sheepdog?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, yeah, I think I know him.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s strange. He talked about where Seo-yu ssi went to as if you were close.¡±? ? We were close¡­ We were very close¡­ ? ? I prepared lunch after the confused section chief returned to his seat.? ? I was in good shape because I had rested at home all day on Sunday. However, due to the heavy workload, it was not expected to be good again. My lunch today is coffee.? ? ¡°Oh¡­ you came today.¡±? ? When the cafe owner noticed me, he greeted me warmly. It¡¯s been a week since we came out with each other last Monday. That was the last time the owner greeted me awkwardly because he exhibited a great deal of awkwardness.? ? I thought I should¡¯ve gone somewhere else, but I already came in here. He greeted me with a smile on the outside, so I responded with a bright smile.? ? ¡°It¡¯s been a while. I keep thinking of the coffee here while I¡¯m taking a break.¡±? ? ¡°Thank you, Seo-yu ssi. I kept thinking about Seo-yu ssi, too.¡± ? ? I don¡¯t know what the owner¡¯s name was, but he naturally called my name several times. It seems that he heard it when I came with other people. Besides, he smiled brightly and said that he thought of me. I would have misunderstood him if he hadn¡¯t been Omega.? ? ¡°It¡¯s Americano, right? Please wait a little bit.¡±? ? There was no time to reconcile and stay because the order line was so long. Because it was lunchtime, there were a lot of people in the cafe. It was crowded in the small cafe with only five tables. The owner took an order, and the part-timer hurriedly made a drink.? ? I sat in the first seat by the window when my phone vibrate. While waiting, I was accustomed to checking my phone.? ? Won-jo [Did he contact you today?]? ? Won-jo would ask about the contact between the dominant Alpha and me yesterday, today, and every day in the future. I simply sent a message saying [No].? ? Subsequently, I looked through the messages of my ex-lover.? ? [At my¡­wedding¡­ I wish I had you¡­]? ? Why the hell would I be at your wedding¡­? ? [I heard someone going to meet an attribution in ¡°Police station¡± this winter. Is it ¡°you¡± by any chance^ ^]? ? Maybe I should change my number¡­? ? [Seo-yu-ah~ What are you doing these days ~ It¡¯s Christmas soon]? ? [Hi¡­ It¡¯s Christmas soon. I contacted you because I thought of you.]? ? [For Christmas, I¡¯m going to go on a business trip to Seoul and stay at ¡ð¡ð hotel. What is Seo-yu doing?]? ? There was a lot of talk about Christmas, but I read and chewed them all.? ? I¡¯ve never spent Christmas alone. Of course, it¡¯s the same this year. ? ? Come to think of it, I haven¡¯t even seen my partner¡¯s pictures yet. ? ? He¡¯s most likely seen it. My uncle should have shown the other side a photo of me in high school. My Uncle probably said I¡¯ve grown taller and my skeleton has grown larger since then, but he has no choice but to lie because the other won¡¯t meet me if I send pictures of me these days.? ? Since earlier, a Christmas medley has been playing in the cafe. Brightly arranged songs ranging from ¡°Silent Night¡± to ¡°Jingle Bell.¡± The number of baby angel dolls has increased.? ? It would be great if there was a cafe like this near my house. A friendly owner, delicious coffee, and a cozy atmosphere¡­? ? Vibrate vibrate vibrate? ? I was awakened by a brief vibrating sound. While I was listening to the song, the number of customers decreased, leaving only table customers. He seemed to have purposefully delayed my order.? ? The owner sent the part-timer inside the kitchen and was waiting alone with a slightly aware expression on his face.? ? When I approached him, he smiled kindly, which relieved me. As expected, he¡¯s a nice person.? ? ¡°I was worried because you hadn¡¯t come the past few days¡­ When I asked the staff, they said that you had taken sick leave.¡±? ? ¡°Ah. yes. I took a heat vacation.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Wasn¡¯t it over then?¡±? ? After pausing a beat, the owner asked. This one beat seemed to indicate that the owner¡¯s disdain for me had not yet been completely suppressed.? ? ¡°I thought it was over at that time¡­ but it wasn¡¯t. It¡¯s completely over now.¡±? ? ¡°Who did you spend the heat cycle with?¡±? ? The owner¡¯s eyes sharpened quickly. His tone of voice rose by one tone. The guests at the table were taken aback and stopped talking.? ? ¡°With whom? Who did you spend the day with?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, that¡­¡±? ? ¡°Is he your lover?¡±? ? If I say he wasn¡¯t my lover here, it means I¡¯m only admitting to having a one-night stand.? ? Although I like the owner, ¡®who did you spend the heat with?¡¯ was a very personal question. So I responded generically.? ? ¡°Haha, well¡­ I¡¯ll just have a good drink.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? The owner didn¡¯t ask anymore. As expected, he was a person who has a personality.? ? ¡°Excuse me¡­ Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, yes.¡±? ? As I was about to turn around with an Americano, the owner called me.? ? ¡°That¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°So¡­ I¡­ that¡­¡±? ? I thought he was going to keep asking who my heat cycle partner was, but the owner hesitated to say it and had a guilty expression on his face.? ? Obviously, he had something to say to me.? ? I looked down at him as he was two fingers smaller than me and waited humbly.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? But the owner couldn¡¯t say what he was going to say in the end.? ? He just said, ¡°Come again tomorrow,¡± with eyes full of despair.? ? *** ? ? The daily life of work-home, work-home cycle has returned, but it was not completely the same as before. This was because the number of people who send me messages nonstop has increased.? ? Sung-hyun-i [(Photo) Played basketball today]? ? Sung-hyun-i [I crushed him, haha]? ? My daily life has shifted slightly from messages from a perv ex-lover to a lively message in which he tells me what sports he enjoyed today and what he ate.? ? Saying that he was just breathing at home. When I took a picture of a dried-up street tree on the way or a TV that was just left on and sent it to him, he would make a fuss about how boring my life was. He would send a message almost every day that my phone would ring noisily, but I liked the noise, so I changed his name from [Mapo Bridge High School Kid] to [Sung-hyun-i].? ? [You were amazing to be able to run in this cold weather.] ? ? Sung-hyun-i [It was cold outside for you. You should stay inside and wrap your arms around your shoulders.] ? ? Sung-hyun-i [You¡¯re short, so you wouldn¡¯t even be able to do it haha.] ? ? It was the first time I¡¯d heard that I¡¯m short. The average male omega height was 170-172, but I am 178.? ? Does this guy doesn¡¯t know I¡¯m an omega? I don¡¯t think so¡­ he should¡¯ve been aware of it.? ? Sung-hyun-i [What are you doing now?]? ? My fingers weren¡¯t slow either, but Sung-hyun was really fast because he sends the message without thinking about it.? ? [Getting ready to sleep early]? ? Sung-hyun-i [Ah, aren¡¯t you having an appointment with my Hyung tomorrow.]? ? [With your Hyung? He doesn¡¯t even contact me. What the hell haha]? ? Sung-hyun-i [??? Why????] ? ? Even if you ask me why¡­ It was a pity that he doesn¡¯t contact me.? ? I was not that worthy to contact the extremely dominant Alpha first.? ? Sung-hyun-i [Then, who was going to meet with my Hyung tomorrow???]? ? [Why are you asking me that¡­ Haha]? ? Perhaps he was embarrassed because his quick response stopped. I texted Sung-hyun to let him know I was going to bed first. I turned off the phone screen without waiting for his answer.? ? I sat on the sofa holding a sheet mask I kept in the refrigerator. Because the boiler was turned on loudly, it didn¡¯t matter if my hands were cold. I carefully turned on an entertainment program on TV and placed it on my face, and then I suddenly became sad.? ? It¡¯s the first time I¡¯ve ever worn a mask. To get ready for tomorrow¡¯s meeting¡­ My uncle had asked me to look after him, so I put it on.? ? Should I just ask my uncle to send him the current picture of me¡­? ? I felt sorry for that director of the math academy, who was looking forward to my bright and delicate appearance in high school. So I try using face masks, it would be nice if I could cover it with the amount of effort I put in.? ? I should have married the Alpha, who was my uncle introduced to me when I was younger.? ? I thought I was going to die this year.? ? I thought that there would be no life for me after twenty-eight.? ? Even now, I still don¡¯t know if this is the right choice.? ? Oh well, whatever. Just¡­ If I continue to live like this and my marriage fails, I would then die.? ? I¡¯m having trouble with this reality check.? ? I lay down on the sofa with the sheet mask on my face.? ? Vibrate vibrate vibrate? ? The phone vibrated one after another. I thought it was Sung-hyun, but it wasn¡¯t.? ? Won-jo [Did the Alpha contact you? haha]? ? [No]? ? Won-jo [As expected¡­]? ? Won-jo [Don¡¯t be fooled. I¡¯m just worried as a friend.]? ? [Hmm, don¡¯t worry haha. ??You should start dating and stop sticking your nose to my business.] ? ? If you want to end the conversation with Won-jo, you should talk about him. As expected, there was no reply. It was a good method to make him shut up.? ? My finger was hovering over the screens of several chat rooms.? ? While contemplating, I entered a quiet conversation window without a red light.? ? Choi Sung-hoon [I will contact you later]? ? There has been no contact since last Saturday¡¯s short message. Only the rabbit emoticon that I sent remained blank and winking.? ? But he was meeting someone tomorrow¡­? ? On Christmas Eve.? ? Damn it¡­ I let him play with me as long as he put me back in place when he was bored, but he never told me not to¡­ You can play with me¡­ Extremely dominant Alpha.? ? I should¡¯ve invited him into my home at the time. However, it must have seemed to be a cheap guy who only wanted to play in bed, so any remaining curiosity had cooled.? ? It was just as I was about to leave the room because my heart felt empty.? ? Choi Sung-hoon [Yellow or white. Which one do you like better?]? ? It was a message that had just arrived.? ? It was probably the last thing on my mind that the read mark would change from 1 to 2 immediately in Choi Sung-chat hoon¡¯s room.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Argh¡­ Why!? ? Why!! Why!! Why!! Why are you sending a message now!? ? It feels like I¡¯ve been waiting for his message in this chat room!? ? No! It¡¯s not wrong but no!? ? My face sheet mask was crumpled. I covered my cell phone, controlled my mind, and calmly managed my facial expressions. Why was the mask so hot even though I had cooled it in the refrigerator?? ? Huu-haa, Huu¡­ ? ? I took a deep breath and finally regained my composure.? ? So¡­ What? Which color do I like better, yellow or white?? ? [It¡¯s purple] ? ? I was a little grumpy. I was curious about the reaction, but I didn¡¯t get a reply even though the 1 mark was gone¡­? ? Three, five, and fifteen minutes passed and there was no answer.? ? I¡¯d been waiting for the reply the entire time when this thought occurred to me.? ? Maybe he sent me the wrong message that was meant for someone else¡­?? ? It was a plausible assumption.? ? It was similar to the last time I thought he was talking to me and asked if I liked salmon, but he was actually on the phone with someone else.? ? I felt goosebumps on my forearms and quickly exited the conversation room.? ? I put away the sloppy sheet mask and jumped into the bed.? ? I punched the pillow and kicked the blanket as I recalled embarrassing memories from my past. ? ? The thought of repeating the embarrassing things I did to Choi Sung-hoon made me feel ashamed.? ? Ughh, I¡¯ve done this several times already.? ? I think I should reconsider whether it was the right choice to live like this¡­ damn it. CH 17 I couldn¡¯t sleep and wake up late. The brunch was simply replaced with coffee. I was already late for the appointment, so I might get hungry later, but it would be better if I skipped a meal today.? ? I was standing in front of the mirror after putting on an ivory turtleneck, a wool coat, and a loafer.? ? Well¡­ ? ? I looked at myself from various angles, but I don¡¯t think this was it. I should change.? ? I wore a casual jacket that reached waist length and layered a light sky blue shirt with knitwear. I changed into jeans and put on shoes.? ? It was a desperate effort to appear even a year younger.? ? Phew¡­? ? The pale young man in the mirror stood with a troubled expression on his face.? ? I raised the corners of my mouth and closed my eyes.? ? ¡°I¡¯m conscious of the fact that I need to eat breakfast. I make the best soybean paste stew. If it¡¯s okay with you, I¡¯d like to have more than two children. I get along well with elders.¡±? ? And what else should I say¡­? ? There must be a reason why he chose a male Omega rather than female Omega. I¡¯ll have to find out while talking.? ? Let¡¯s become an excellent Omega who quickly grasps the other¡¯s needs.? ? I made up my mind and left the house.? ? ***? ? I arrived at the ¡ð¡ð hotel¡¯s main entrance. A strong wind blew as soon as I stepped out of the taxi, and my exposed ankle became cold.? ? However, when I consider the future children who will grow up in happy families, I can bear this much!? ? Even though it was late at night, there were a lot of people in the hotel lobby. There were a lot of couples and families.? ? Children laughed as they gathered around the large and colorful Christmas tree, and parents were busy taking pictures of the children with big smiles. My heart softened.? ? Uncle [¡ð¡ð Hotel 5001 Suite Room, please arrive on time]? ? I checked the message again and got on the elevator.? ? Aside from me, a group of men in black suits entered.? ? It was strange that they came to the hotel wearing such a suit on this date and time.? ? They look like a gangster and their faces seem so familiar for some reason, so I tried not to look at them anymore.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I walked out of the elevator when the doors opened on the floor I pressed. The gangster-like brother was also stopping on this floor.? ? My spine began to shiver.? ? I walked quickly. The gangster-like brother did not appear to be following me, but I got goosebumps because they were standing in front of the elevator as if blocking the exit.? ? Room 5001.? ? I ignored the tingly feeling in the back of my head and made my way to the promised room.? ? What will his reaction be when he sees me¡­? ? People even spit swear words at the appearance that differed from the picture. The majority of them laughed as they looked up and down.? ? I was also worried that he might be shorter than me. I should¡¯ve asked about the height.? ? I comforted my heart, which was tightened by fear and tension.? ? I¡¯m going to be one of those people who comes to the hotel on Christmas eve to spend time with my family.? ? Let¡¯s smile beautifully. Let¡¯s succeed.? ? I knocked on the door after tidying up and putting on a smiling face. The door soon opened with an electronic sound.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ??? ? ? I blinked my eyes.? ? I blinked and blinked again, but the face in front of me did not change.? ? I was so embarrassed that I just pursed my lips and backed away. I closed the door and checked the plat again.? ? Room 5001, suite room.? ? I was puzzled as to how this had happened, so I opened the door from the other side.? ? The man was dressed casually, with only one short-sleeved shirt over cotton pants, rather than in the formal suit.? ? I looked up at his angry forearm muscles and shoulders as if I were possessed. He looked younger than usual with his bangs down, and his face was expressionless as usual.? ? With his cold eyes and a scar on his cheek that no one else would have, this big man was definitely the real Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°I am¡­ I must have come to the wrong place. That¡¯s weird¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯ve come to the right place. It¡¯s right here, so please come on in.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon guided me inside. I didn¡¯t know what to say, and I couldn¡¯t even bring myself to look at the gorgeous suites.? ? Choi Sung-hoon sat me down at the round table and naturally took off my coat. ? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you put on a down jacket on this cold day? Your ankles are all exposed.¡±? ? A 45-year-old divorced man¡­ a dominant Alpha with a home in the countryside¡­? ? ¡°Did you change your suicide method with freezing to death?¡±? ? He has one child¡­ the director of a math academy¡­? ? ¡°I don¡¯t recommend drowning or freezing to death.¡±? ? There could only be one conclusion to this¡­? ? ¡°¡­ It¡¯s a fraud¡­¡±? ? ¡°No, It¡¯s not¡°? ? When I muttered quietly, Choi Sung-hoon denied it at once.? ? ¡°Why would you make your thoughts stand out?¡±? ? He roughly hung my coat over the chair after saying it ridiculously. I was even more speechless when I noticed him sitting naturally across from me.? ? ¡°What¡¯s going on? Why is Choi Sung-hoon ssi here? I¡¯m here to date.¡±? ? ¡°Date?¡±? ? A cold smirk crept across his lips.? ? ¡°What kind of date at ten o¡¯clock at night in a hotel room?¡±? ? It was a sentence that pricked my conscience. I felt my face heating up.? ? It was my only specialty at times like these to go out shamelessly.? ? ¡°It¡¯s because my partner and I are both extremely busy. There are no restaurants open at this time¡­ More importantly, why are you here?¡±? ? ¡°There¡¯s a phone call. Let¡¯s take it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon held out a cell phone to me. But it was actually my phone. I guess he took it from my coat pocket.? ? [Uncle] ? ? He saw the displayed name and touched the call button.? ? ¡°Uncle, what happened? Why¡­ ¡°? ? ¨C I¡¯m not sure. Suddenly, I received a phone call informing me that something had happened¡­ Mr. Lee was not like that, but his voice trembled as if he was frightened. It looks like something big happened to the house.? ? ¡°When did you got the call?¡± ? ? ¨C About 20 minutes ago?? ? I looked at Choi Sung-hoon. ? ? The more I hear about it, the more perplexed I become.? ? ¨C In any case, I¡¯ll reschedule the appointment for you later, so feel free to use the suite on your own today. Or should I contact another dominant Alpha I know?? ? ¡°You¡¯re trembling.¡±? ? The curse I was about to say, didn¡¯t come out of my mouth. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was low, but loud enough for my uncle to hear.? ? ¨C You bastard, What did you just say?? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, if you already know the reason, hang up now.¡±? ? ¨C What? Whose voice is this? Who are you with?? ? ¡°No, I don¡¯t understand what you¡¯re talking about.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll explain.¡±? ? -Who are you talking to? Seo-yu!? ? I hung up on my uncle. Choi Sung-hoon took the phone away from me. Meanwhile, blood vessels protruded on the back of his hand.? ? ¡°I heard the call the day I slept at your place. I knew the place and date, but I couldn¡¯t hear the time, so I waited since morning.¡±? ? ¡°When, ah¡­ ¡°? ? I think it was last week. Choi Sung-hoon was in the kitchen when we rescheduled our date with my uncle and apparently overheard all of our conversations.? ? ¡°I thought the date was canceled because I couldn¡¯t see you until the evening, but an Alpha came crawling in about 30 minutes ago. I persuaded him well and sent him back.¡±? ? Well persuaded.? ? I didn¡¯t ask how well he persuaded him to be that scared. I thought I¡¯d be scared as well if I heard it. ? ? ¡°I¡¯m speechless. Right now, you¡¯re planning a date with someone else. Why are you crossing your legs with such a confident look?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ve interrupted your date and saved you from perv Alpha. There was a very small hidden camera in his bag.¡±? ? What? Hidden camera?? ? Ah, uncle. Son of a bitch.? ? You said he was the head of a decent math academy!? ? He arrived 30 minutes before the scheduled time. I thought he was a man of manners but he was trying to install a hidden camera. I should remember this and use it the next time I want to curse my uncle. ? ? ¡°I¡¯m grateful for that. But why did you disturb me in the first place?¡±? ? ¡°Well.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon got out of his chair. He leaned against the round table and looked down at me. Tight muscles beneath the white shirt, as if stretched and ready to kill me.? ? Having a conversation was impossible in this situation. Either I cover my eyes or Choi Sung-hoon puts on his clothes.? ? ¡°Why am I doing this¡­ I don¡¯t know either.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I just wanted to disturb you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon ruffled my bangs with the other hand that was not on the table.? ? I was a little slow in understanding his lines because I was swallowing saliva.? ? You don¡¯t know why you disturbed my date?? ? Wasn¡¯t it because you didn¡¯t want me to be with someone else?? ? Because you were interested in me.? ? It didn¡¯t appear that he was doing it out of pride. He himself really didn¡¯t seem to know why.? ? I think my judgment on myself is quite rational and I don¡¯t have an overconfident disease, but I seem to be right about this.? ? Curiosity and interest that occurs on their own when meeting people for the first time.? ? As a recessive Omega, I developed this feeling to help me get through a difficult world.? ? It was difficult to keep the smile from spreading across my face.? ? ¡°Okay. I¡¯ll let it slide with that excuse.¡±? ? ¡°Thank you.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m thirsty, please give me some water. It¡¯s better if it¡¯s alcohol.¡°? ? ¡°Wait.¡±? ? I moved to the sofa and sat comfortably while Choi Sung-hoon went to get something to drink.? ? I couldn¡¯t see the suite before. ? ? While waiting for Choi Sung-hoon, I looked around. Because it was a duplex, the night view was spectacular, and the outdoor terrace was as large as the room.? ? I¡¯m going to take a lot of pictures and brag to Won-jo. If I went to see him and told him I met an extremely dominant Alpha that jerk would be so surprised. This would be a fantastic episode that I would remember for the rest of my life.? ? ¡®On the day of my date, I met the extremely dominant Alpha with whom I had sex a few times previously~.¡¯? ? The issue was that I didn¡¯t know many people that I could share this to? ? After imagining one or two things, I saw Choi Sung-hoon walking with a cup of water and let my mind go.? ? Phew¡­? ? I turned my body around and asked euphemistically as I was handed the cup.? ? ¡°How tall are you?¡±? ? Oh, damn it. Let¡¯s go through the brain and make a move!? ? ¡°I¡¯m 196 cm.¡±? ? ¡°Really¡­ you¡¯re tall. Is your weight three digits? What about your shoulder width?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know that much. Do you know your shoulder width, Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know¡­¡±? ? But if you told me yours, I think I¡¯ll be able to remember it.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi looks like 178cm tall.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, that¡¯s right. You got it accurately.¡±? ? ¡°My eye measurement is pretty accurate.¡±? ? He accurately guessed my weight and foot size, and it was so accurate that I was amazed.? ? So, was it done by doing something that scans or separates a person¡¯s body in his head? Was that right?? ? ¡°I have something to give you. Wait for a moment.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon turned around and rummaged through something next to the sofa.? ? I turned to look at him as a rustling sound was heard. And I noticed a black dragon ascending on his broad back.? ? I could see it just a little bit through the white shirt. It was a large tattoo that was slightly exposed to the top of the neck.? ? Gulp.? ? I¡¯m afraid he¡¯d notice the sound of swallowing. What exactly were you trying to take out?? ? ¡®I gulped down my saliva.¡¯? ? After a while, what Choi Sung-hoon gave me was a neatly packaged box rather than a separate 45-year-old divorced man¡¯s neck or blood-stained kitchen knife.? ? ¡°What is this? It looks just like a gift box.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a Christmas present.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took the cup from me and gave me the box.? ? It was in a simple gray wrapper that wasn¡¯t too small.? ? When I asked if I could open it now as a courtesy, he nodded and slightly smiled.? ? I carefully opened the wrapping paper. Cotton balls hopped out when I opened the box lid. I noticed fur gloves and a cell phone case wrapped in cotton wool.? ? The fur gloves were a light yellow color. As I was fiddling with it, Choi Sung-hoon said in a low voice.? ? ¡°Because purple doesn¡¯t suit you. Be satisfied with that.¡±? ? I fell silent when I heard that.? ? ¡­ Right, you asked me about it before¡­? ? Last night, I was so embarrassed¡­ Thinking back on my drinking habits¡­? ? I couldn¡¯t keep a straight face because I was so happy.? ? That someone gave me something I wanted as a gift¡­? ? It seems to be the first time¡­? ? ¡­ Since I lost my family.? ? A warmth rose in my heart in an instant. I haven¡¯t felt this way in a long time, so I don¡¯t know what to say.? ? I finally found the right word to express how much this touched my heart.? ? ¡°Oh, damn¡­ thank you. I¡¯m so happy.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Did you drink before coming here?¡°? ? ¡°What? I only drank water. Why?¡± ? ? ¡°Nothing. I¡¯m glad you like it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s lips twitched slightly.? ? ¡°I appreciate the gift.¡±? ? I¡¯ll try on the fur gloves later and the phone case.? ? A phone case that appears to be expensive at first glance was made of a material I had never used before. There was no discernible pattern, and it was quite thick. Choi Sung-hoon held out my cell phone. I did not refuse to express my intention to change the case at this time.? ? Crunch.? ? When I heard something crushing while replacing it, I noticed that Sung-Hoon Choi was smashing the original phone case with one hand. ? ? ¡°You don¡¯t need this anymore.¡±? ? When I looked at him, he explained casually and threw away the shredded case.? ? The memories with my ex-boyfriend were also shattered. ? ? I can¡¯t believe it was possible to break the phone case with one hand.? ? He was so powerful.? ? Why does he keep getting more handsome and cool?? ? The phone case was also a perfect match for the phone. I gave a big beaming smile.? ? ¡°Thank you for remembering it through my drinking habit and giving me this gift. I¡¯ll use it well¡­ I couldn¡¯t prepare a present for you, what should I do?¡±? ? ¡°If it had been prepared, it would have been for that pervert Alpha, not for me. It¡¯s okay without it.¡±? ? It was a good thing I didn¡¯t say anything about how the gift was my body and that I had a beauty bath.? ? There was a warm atmosphere. The spring breeze seemed to be blowing gently even though I was in a hotel room.? ? It wasn¡¯t even a particularly expensive gift, but the tickling excitement for my age amazed me.? ? ¡°Sung-hyun asked me if I had an appointment with you yesterday, did he know in advance?¡±? ? ¡°I never talked about it to him. He may have heard it from other members of my employee.¡±? ? ¡°The employee¡¯s mouth is a mess. Sung-hyun also knows how many times we slept.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll warn them, but when did you become so close with him?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon turned to face me and listened attentively to what I had to say. I remembered having a drink with him back in the day. He was definitely talking more than he used to back then. For some reason, it overlapped with the wild beasts who had relaxed their vigilance.? ? ¡°We¡¯re not close.¡±? ? ¡°You said you had a conversation yesterday.¡±? ? ¡°Will all 7 billion people in the world be friends if we all get close by exchanging a few messages?¡±? ? ¡°Then we wouldn¡¯t be friends either.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes had a subtle smile around them as if he was making fun of me.? ? I laughed out loud.? ? ¡°We¡¯ve been close friends since today. You gave me this as a gift¡­ I sincerely appreciate it. I¡¯ll return your favor with something good. How about a scarf?¡±? ? ¡°Is there a return?¡±? ? ¡°Of course. Choi Sung-hoon ssi, do you like white or yellow?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have a specific favorite color.¡±? ? ¡°Then what¡¯s your least favorite color?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have one.¡±? ? ¡°Okay, I¡¯ll pick one for you.¡±? ? I¡¯m going to give you a fluorescent yellow¡­? ? We sat on the couch and talked for almost an hour. I was a little hungry, so I kept drinking water. However, when I saw it, I realized Choi Sung-hoon was like a ghost on an empty stomach.? ? I managed to stop myself and we ordered food right away. Then, there was a talk of favorite food and food I hated, and then the topic shifted to a winter trip while talking about food at a travel destination. I¡¯m not speaking alone because Choi Sung-hoon responded assertively, although it was short.? ? When the hotel¡¯s congregate clock showed 11:30, I was the first to stop talking.? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to wash up. I wash up quickly¡±? ? ¡°Yes, there is a bathroom on the second floor.¡±? ? I hurriedly took a shower and changed into a gown.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was still looking at my cell phone in the same place.? ? ¡°Are you enjoying the case you gave me?¡±? ? When I approached with a smile, Choi Sung-hoon slowly put down the phone.? ? ¡°I¡¯m relieved that the model hasn¡¯t changed in the meantime. It¡¯s strong and won¡¯t break even if you drop it.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, thank you so much.¡±? ? I sat next to him, brushing my wet hair. The front of the gown was slightly open. The bare legs that were not wearing anything were crossed.? ? Christmas Eve, late at night, suite room, and a washed up Omega.? ? Even if I were an alpha, I wouldn¡¯t be able to let this feast got away.? ? I was giving him a sly look when Choi Sung-hoon inadvertently picked up the remote control from the table.? ? ¡°I need to turn up the temperature.¡±? ? Beep, beep, beep.? ? I became frustrated by the actions of increasing it by 3 degrees.? ? He¡¯s only been seeing dominant Omegas, so he won¡¯t be seduced by someone like me¡­?? ? I didn¡¯t show any special skills during either of our sexes¡­? ? But please give me another chance¡­? ? ¡°How about drying your hair properly. You¡¯re going to catch a cold.¡±? ? ¡°If you move quickly, my hair will dry naturally.¡±? ? I responded sulkily and sloppily. He quickly returned to his senses and raised the corners of his mouth again.? ? ¡°You know that, Choi Sung-hoon ssi¡­ Are we going to just keep talking?¡±? ? I stroked Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s forearm with my finger. It was as hard and warm as a wall. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s gaze shifted to my finger, then back to me. It was a look that was both cold and hot.? ? I knelt on the sofa and placed my hand on his shoulder. He smiled slightly when I kissed his sharp nose, which was a little lower than mine.? ? ¡°You¡¯ll get tired quickly and passed out, but you¡¯re always the one who seduced me first.¡±? ? ¡°So¡­ you don¡¯t like it?¡±? ? I don¡¯t know if it¡¯s the answer to the question, but Choi Sung Hoon¡¯s hand wrapped around my cheek. A solid and comfortable warmth filled my heart. I urged him by rubbing his hand.? ? ¡°Hurry up¡­ I mean, I¡¯ve never dressed for Christmas before.¡±? ? I planted a smile that worked countless times, but Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s reaction was different from others.? ? The hand that was stroking my cheek stopped.? ? I took a deep breath as I tilted my head in response to the unexpected arrival of Alpha pheromone.? ? It was a terrible sense of pressure.? ? Choi Sung-hoon pulled my frozen face and pressed his lips against mine. It was a violent kiss as if to devour everything from the start.? ? He sucked my breath and encircled it with his tongue. He hugged my waist with one hand. There was no place where Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thick and large tongue could not reach, including teeth, mouth ceilings, and gums.? ? ¡°Uhmmm¡­! Hhmmm¡­¡±? ? My body gradually fell behind, unable to overcome his weight and strength.? ? I¡¯ve never been pressed down by alpha pheromones.? ? Strong pheromones, a strong arm that clasped my waist, and a large hand holding my head so I couldn¡¯t escape. My entire body hair seemed to rise in a coercive gesture.? ? ¡°¡­Uhh¡­¡±? ? When the violent kiss was finally over, physiological tears welled up in the corners of my eyes. I blinked several times to achieve a blurry focus. But even before that, my body was lifted.? ? Surprised, I wrapped my arm around Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s neck. Choi Sung-hoon held me and walked up the stairs to the second floor. CH 18 On the second floor, there was only one king-size bed in the middle room, which was decorated with soft lighting, roses, and various artificial flowers.? ? I was carefully laid there.? ? I wasn¡¯t thrown onto the bed, but rather carefully laid down like a cotton doll¡­? ? The aggressive alpha pheromone faded gradually.? ? He stood on top of me and grabbed the bottom of the cotton tee with both hands and rolled it up. The lights were turned on, giving me a clear view of his upper body for the first time.? ? My eyes were greeted by sculptural muscles that were more sculptural than the sculpture itself, and there were no tattoos or scars. In fact, it appeared to be so hard that I doubted a knife could pierce it.? ? Choi Sung-hoon also looked down at me as I removed my bottoms. It was a heavy gaze.? ? I was about to remove the flowing gown when Choi Seong-hoon stopped me with one hand on my arm.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t take it off.¡±? ? ¡°What? But¡­ ¡± ? ? The large man¡¯s body overlapped with mine, casting a shadow over me. I knew he wasn¡¯t calm when his lips and hot breath struck again. He was just holding it in.? ? ¡°Ummm¡­¡±? ? I returned the kiss by holding his big hard back with my other hand. The large body, which was intimidating even when spread out to its fullest extent, was still unfamiliar. The object that had come into contact with my lower abdomen had hardened. Of course, mine only stood halfway up, and the liquid flowed out from the bottom.? ? Choi Sung-hoon kept kissing me and pressed my arm that he held to the side of my head.? ? ¡°Hmm¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s lips brushed against my chin, biting my lower lip, and then sliding down to my neck. My back trembled as he kissed the soft part near the collarbone. It tingled wherever his lips brushed.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes were intense as if he would destroy my body at any time, but his actions were soft and friendly, leaving me with a sense of detachment.? ? ¡°Ah¡­¡± ? ? A large hand encircled around my waist and reached for my thigh. I grabbed his forearm with the hand that rested on his back as he lifted the inside of my knee without hesitation. Choi Sung-hoon, who was biting my collarbone, looked perplexed when I grabbed his forearm, which was as hard and thick as a brick so tightly that it felt like I was restraining him.? ? ¡°Hold on¡­ I¡­¡±? ? I wriggled my right arm that was held by Choi Sung-hoon. I shifted my gaze to my helpless right arm, which was trapped in his grasp. I asked him to let go, but all he did was stare at me with his deep dark eyes.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll do it¡­ I¡¯ll climb on top¡­¡±? ? I hadn¡¯t been able to show my few charms so far, so I decided to serve him today. I smiled so hard that I looked vulnerable.? ? ¡°Let me go¡­ Choi Sung-hoon ssi¡­¡± ? ? Choi Sung-hoon relaxed his hands after staring at me for a moment. My wrists were aching, so I twisted them a few times and escaped his clutches.? ? I gently pushed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shoulder and pushed him onto the bed. I still couldn¡¯t read the expression on his face as he lay down.? ? I climbed on top of the huge Alpha.? ? I sat on top of his thighs with my hands on his hard abs. The gown I couldn¡¯t get off flowed down.? ? A straight-standing weapon stood directly in front of me. When I saw it in the bright light, it felt different. So¡­ I was afraid I¡¯d break after putting that in. I wonder how did he put it in so far¡­? ? I held the hard and huge thing in one hand and looked for my hole with the other hand.? ? ¡°Ugh¡­¡±? ? I put one finger in the love juice-covered hole and swayed my waist, scanning him from the bottom to the tip. It was so thick and long that holding it with one hand was difficult.? ? I didn¡¯t forget to look at Choi Sung-hoon with a faint beautiful smile.? ? ¡°¡­Heung¡­.¡±? ? I clutched the hot erection in my palm and leaned my upper body against his face. I rubbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s cheeks, nose, and eyelids then his lips.? ? I was a little worried because it wasn¡¯t the size of anything I¡¯ve done so far, but I couldn¡¯t back out now. It¡¯s been a while since my mouth was torn a little, and I put the tip in my mouth.? ? ¡°¡­Uhmm¡­¡± ? ? The ball popped out right away. I lubricated it with my saliva and swept it around with my tongue. When I squeezed his ball and sucked it, the weapon made a big jolt. My eyes frowned as it pressed the roof of my mouth and poked my throat.? ? I didn¡¯t lack deep throat experience, but I was concerned because it was my first time having this size. I opened my throat and swallowed a little more. It became more difficult for me to move my tongue as it became more difficult to breathe.? ? ¡°Ubbb¡­¡±? ? I was loosening the back with my fingers at the time, but it wasn¡¯t the appropriate time. I gripped the weapon¡¯s testicles with my hand and tickled it with my fingers. I put the tip in my throat slightly, then pulled my head back and put it back in my throat.? ? I just did it three or four times, but it felt like my mouth and throat were completely worn out. Cooper liquid from saliva and genitals was all over my mouth.? ? Eunghh, uhmmm¡­? ? The room was full of explicit and obscene sounds. My pheromones also flooded out as I was surrounded by alpha pheromones.? ? I moved my head quickly and tightened my throat. The more I squeezed it, the more Choi Sung-hoon thing wriggled in my throat and grew in size. I thought it couldn¡¯t get bigger.? ? I needed to get some oxygen, so I spit out what I had in my mouth.? ? Haaa, haaa¡­? ? While gasping and breathing, I continued to stroke Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s penis. His veins were bulging and his thing was entirely moist with saliva and cooper fluid. It was time to gather my thoughts and put it back in my mouth. ? ? Choi Sung-hoon grasped the back of my head with his big hand.? ? I closed my eyes and waited for the expected action. ? ? ¡°Let¡¯s stop¡­ With your mouth.¡± ? ? Choi Sung-hoon, on the other hand, said completely the opposite of what I expected.? ? ¡°I¡¯d rather not do it with your mouth.¡±? ? In a low-sinking voice, he said something I¡¯d never heard before.? ? You¡¯re lying¡­? ? I¡¯ve never seen a man who hates Fellatio. Even a meek human would hold the back of the head and shake their waist in a trance when someone opened their throats.? ? Perhaps he was dissatisfied¡­ Because I couldn¡¯t swallow the whole thing¡­? ? I looked up at him with my face on the upright rod. Choi Sung-hoon gently caressed my cheek and was about to straighten his upper body at an angle.? ? I swiftly placed my palm on his chest to indicate that he should not get up.? ? ¡°Lie down. I¡¯ll do it for you.¡±? ? ¡°Not with your mouth.¡±? ? ¡°Was it bad? I can do it well¡­ I¡¯ll swallow it all this time.¡±? ? ¡°Your mouth is too small.¡±? ? I looked into his eyes and was relieved.? ? He was brimming with intense excitement. To the point where I¡¯m baffled as to how he managed to stop it.? ? ¡°After you get used to it, then.¡±? ? I was a little embarrassed for some reason. As I nodded my head slightly, Choi Sung-hoon caressed my eyes and kissed my lips.? ? He leaned his back against the head of the bed. He seemed unwilling to change his position.? ? I straightened my back. Choi Sung-hoon rubbed his wet penis wrapped in my fingers. My back trembled while rubbing Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hot groin. Choi Seong-hoon slid his other hand across my back just as I thought I should have loosened it more with my fingers.? ? ¡°Heut¡­¡±? ? He ran his big finger down the spine, touched the hip bone, and rubbed down the tailbone. A finger was quickly inserted into the hole.? ? ¡°Mmm ¡­¡±? ? One was already very thick. There was a squeaky sound and Choi Sung-hoon put his second and third fingers in succession all the way to the end of his knuckle.? ? ¡°Ah¡­!¡±? ? I let out a gasp and leaned against Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s chest. Choi Sung-hoon started stroking my cheeks, forehead, and sweaty bangs. His finger dug deep into my hole, then repeatedly went in and out. The inner wall was stimulated by the thick joint. I took a deep breath and my back trembled in response.? ? ¡°Uhhh¡­ good¡­ It feels good.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took a deep breath and exhaled it rapidly. His pupils were dilated and his eyes were a deep shade of black.? ? I moved my ass up and down, tightening and loosening that held his finger. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s fingertips lightly caressed my lips as I smiled at him. I opened my lips and held his fingers.? ? ¡°Umm¡­ Umm¡­¡±? ? It was three fingers the same size as it entered the hole. As if rubbing genitals, I caressed each joint with my tongue, sucked it in, and squeezed it into my mouth.? ? He moved his wrist as he stared at me with black eyes.? ? ¡°Uhmm, Ubbb ¡­¡±? ? It passed through the throat and landed at the uvula once more. Well, I¡¯m not sure who told me that I shouldn¡¯t have done it with my mouth. My eyes welled up with tears as his hand was soaked with saliva.? ? Choi Sung-hoon moved his finger in the hole as well. He pushed it open from the inside, piercing the inner wall with great force.? ? I gripped Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s wrist, which was positioned below me when I was thoroughly wet and it seemed that I could accept both the top and the bottom. I spoke to him with my eyes because I couldn¡¯t speak due to the stuff in my mouth.? ? Put it in now.? ? Choi Sung-hoon seemed to have read the message.? ? He pulled out his finger without hesitation. I tried to relax the hole and move my butt so that his thing could be inserted properly. ? ? ¡°Uhm, ooh¡­!¡±? ? He pushed in slowly. It was so hard and hot. He held my back and went inside, little by little, just as my chest began to pant.? ? His breathing also deepened.? ? He stared intently at me as I was being devoured both top and bottom. I closed my eyes and smiled at him, even though it was difficult. Then the pheromone of the extremely dominant Alpha, which had been calm, attacked again.? ? I¡¯m jerked upright by that sudden pheromone attack.? ? ¡°Are you okay?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon asked in a low voice as if suppressing something. But I couldn¡¯t respond since his fingers were still in my mouth.? ? He slowly drew his finger back as I just blinked.? ? Ughh, cough, cough, cough.? ? I took a quick breath and coughed. Choi Seong-hoon rubbed my cheeks with his hands soaked in saliva, waiting for the coughing to stop.? ? ¡°Cough, haah¡­ haa¡­¡±? ? I exhale deeply and bury my face in his shoulder. I was concerned about my full lower abdomen. I hugged his neck and asked.? ? ¡°Are you all in¡­?¡±? ? ¡°No way.¡±? ? ¡°Please hurry up and put it in¡­¡±? ? He hasn¡¯t even started yet, and I¡¯m already exhausted. I kept blinking while resting my cheek on his rough shoulder. So that he is tickled by the movement of my eyelashes.? ? The movement that had been stroking my back had stopped.? ? Choi Sung-hoon wrapped both arms over my upper body. I couldn¡¯t move because his arms were wrapped around me.? ? It was at that point that I noticed something ominous about his coal-black eyes.? ? ¡°Ah, arghh¡­ !¡±? ? His thing went in at once. It felt as if it had penetrated all the way to the deepest part of my body. It felt like the intestines had been pushed out and the rod had gone to a strange place.? ? ¡°Wait, wait, ah, argh¡­ ? ? I tried to get away, but the arm that was squeezing my upper body would not let go.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, on the other hand, started hitting hard from the bottom up.? ? ¡°Argh! Ah, haa, ungh, argh¡­!¡±? ? He grabbed my trembling arms and moved mercilessly inside with his big thing.? ? I couldn¡¯t come to my senses. ? ? The bed made a creaking sound at the violent movement. ? ? The hard and hot weapon slammed against the inner wall. As if I were a toy, I went up and down only on his strength.? ? ¡°Ah, ah, uh, uh, shh!¡±? ? In the frequent slamming sounds, I could hear Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hard breathing. In the midst of the violent shaking, I barely opened my eyes.? ? ¡°Come on, wait, argh, ah¡­! Wait¡­ ah!¡±? ? I wanted to tell him to stop for a while, but I couldn¡¯t finish speaking because of the weapon that was constantly hitting me inside.? ? ¡°Aaah¡­!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s was so big that he pierced right into a spot that no one else could reach. I struggled with the pleasure that made my mind blank. My genital that was squeezed between Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s abs and my stomach were already on the verge of ejaculation.? ? ¡°Ugh, ah, argh, ah!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon slammed into the spot where I was moaning loudly. Even if it wasn¡¯t, the weapon stimulated every area of the inner wall. I trembled with my head tilted back.? ? ¡°Ah, ah, uh, ah! Heung¡­¡±? ? My mouth was open, and saliva trickled out. There was a moan followed by tears afterward. I was still powerless to do anything but push Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s upper body.? ? I didn¡¯t start the upper position for this.? ? I should have tightened and loosened the hole in time with the beat he was hitting, but I couldn¡¯t since my penis was fully filled till just before it ejaculated, and I was shaking helplessly because it was so strong and fast.? ? The obscene sounds of violent movements filled the room.? ? ¡°Ahh, haa¡­¡±? ? I shook my head with my mouth quivering.? ? I was losing my mind.? ? It would be difficult for him to move in and out in this posture, but he did it even stronger and faster.? ? Even if he let go of both of my arms, I thought I wouldn¡¯t be able to move.? ? It was such an excruciating pleasure.? ? ¡°Ah, that, but¡­ Ouch¡­ too fast, ah, feels good¡­ !¡±? ? Tears streamed down my cheeks. I had no idea what I was saying or what kind of scream I was letting out.? ? His face came closer.? ? My lips were quickly devoured by an aroused beast.? ? My tongue was being sucked out by a force that was far too strong.? ? Even when exchanging saliva, the forceful movement from below did not stop.? ? The object on my spread legs began to twitch. I couldn¡¯t stop myself from ejaculating.? ? I shook my head and escaped his lips.? ? ¡°Ah, let go, let me go, stop, ahh¡­ Heung¡­ ¡± ? ? He didn¡¯t slow down his movement even though he could feel I was ejaculating.? ? He was so ruthless.? ? I couldn¡¯t think of anything because my mind went blank.? ? My reasoning disappeared as if I were in the middle of a heat cycle.? ? My inner walls continued to twitch as if they had been electrocuted. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s penis seemed to be bigger than it had been previously. It was a powerful weapon that forced my internal organs out and took control of my lower abdomen.? ? ¡°Heung, ughh, hah¡­ aah!¡±? ? I screamed and wailed uncontrollably. The hands that were embracing me got much tighter, and his movement became more powerful.? ? I decided that I should just hope for him to ejaculate quickly.? ? I was shaking up and down relentlessly, crying, screaming, and begging.? ? ¡°Chae, Chae Sung-Hyu¡­ssi.¡± And that was when I trembled and barely uttered his name in an inaccurate pronunciation.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had been pounding me hard enough to make me scream, started ejaculating with a low moan. I hugged him so tightly that my ribs hurt. It seemed my inner wall had been bruised or torn.? ? ¡°Ahh¡­ haa¡­¡±? ? What was filling the space progressively reduced as something hot was discharged within. I relaxed my breathing with relief. But it was too early to let my guard down.? ? ¡°Ah, argh¡­ Ahh¡­!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon moved his waist to the end. The rough movement from bottom to top had me convulsing from head to toe while he was ejaculating.? ? This is the first time I¡¯ve ever screamed like this.? ? It was too much pleasure.? ? I gasped as the tingling spread from my toes to the top of my head.? ? It was clear that my lower abdomen had swollen.? ? ¡°Haa¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon soon let go of his grip on my arms.? ? I collapsed helplessly on his chest after regaining my freedom.? ? I was wondering if it was actually over at this point.? ? ¡°Ah, haa¡­¡±? ? I heard a low laugh above my head as I felt him still inside me and was squirming like a fish.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi¡­ You need to improve your stamina.¡±? ? The low-pitched laughter made the top of my head tingle. His voice bore no signs of being out of breath.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thing were still inside of me.? ? I kept convulsing because of the pleasure that still remained in my body, and each time the hole twitched along with it. I was anxious because I thought Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s genitals were regaining strength as a result of this. Despite the fact that he had clearly ejaculated, his thing was still hard.? ? I wanted to take out his thing, but I couldn¡¯t put any strength into my body.? ? Because I was just putting my face on his chest and executing tears, Choi Sung-hoon grabbed my chin and lifted it.? ? ¡°Did you cry?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t want to cry¡­ I don¡¯t want to even¡­ After doing it that way¡­¡±? ? I kept chattering while answering.? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked at me for a while as if appreciating my messy face.? ? ¡°Considering your physical strength¡­ it¡¯s not a good habit to cry¡±? ? It was not a habit. Except for my first sex experience, I¡¯ve never cried while having sex. However, I cried every time I had sex with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I didn¡¯t tell him that, for anyone¡¯s good.? ? ¡°Ah, why, ahhh¡­!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled and raised his upper body completely at that point. Then he rapidly shifted my position and placed me on the bed. I still have his thing inside of me.? ? ¡°Haa, hah¡­¡±? ? Even if he had already ejaculated, the size was still too big, and my inner wall was stimulated once again. I cried again.? ? Underneath a large beast, I looked up at him, terrified.? ? Choi Sung-hoon placed one arm on the side of my head and caressed my face with the other hand. ? ? He brushed my wet bangs away, rubbed the corners of my reddened eyes, then touched my swollen lips.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes were filled with warmth. His touch was ticklish on my face.? ? He tilted his head and kissed me lightly.? ? ¡°How much longer do you need to rest?¡±? ? ¡°You want to do it again¡­ ?¡±? ? ¡°Of course, I have to.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ That¡¯s right, we have to do it.¡±? ? To be honest, I thought that was a ridiculous question as well.? ? ¡°Would ten minutes be enough?¡±? ? ¡°Umm, how about 100 minutes¡­?¡±? ? I was serious about it, but Choi Sung-hoon just smiled.? ? That was such a great smile. To the point where even the scar on the cheek looks cool. CH 19 I had the sensation that my hair was faintly shaking.? ? Hmmm¡­? ? With a groaning sound, I turned my head. Then I felt warmth in my earlobe this time. Something was fiddling with my earlobe.? ? I opened my eyes with difficulty. ? ? The white ceiling and the large window with the curtains down.? ? There were colorful lamps with gems at each string¡¯s end. Choi Sung-hoon, who was only wearing a pair of shorts next to me, was fiddling with my earlobe.? ? ¡°Ah¡­What time is it?¡±? ? My voice had become hoarse. I couldn¡¯t help it because I screamed all night.? ? I knew my eyes were swollen even without looking in the mirror, but I couldn¡¯t help it because I had been crying all night.? ? ¡°We have to check out¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°I have extended it, so you can sleep more.¡±? ? ¡°Is that so¡­ Okay¡­¡± ? ? My throat and mouth were sore. My collarbone and the nape of my neck throbbed as well. My back hurts so much that I can¡¯t even stand up.? ? I cursed Choi Sung-hoon resentfully in my head.? ? However, when confronted with a sculptural semi-nude, I couldn¡¯t help but blush.? ? ¡°Put on some clothes¡­¡±? ? ¡°You are naked too.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s me¡­ It¡¯s¡­¡±? ? It isn¡¯t even worth seeing.? ? As I slurred out the end of my speech, Choi Sung-hoon pulled the blanket up to the end of my neck. He then moved his hand to the torn corner of my mouth, but unlike his harsh, rough skin, he was quite gentle.? ? ¡°Would you like to drink water?¡±? ? ¡°It can happen. I¡¯ll drink.¡±? ? I picked up my blanket. I woke up in a cold sweat. There wasn¡¯t a single part of my body that didn¡¯t hurt. I just wanted to lie down for the rest of my life and never get up.? ? ¡°Ahh¡­¡±? ? There was still a feeling of foreign thing in the hole that had been torn down completely torn down. I tried to move my feet but got a tingling sensation, so I gave up. I ended up lying down again.? ? ¡°Lie down. I¡¯ll bring it.¡±? ? ¡°Okay¡­¡±? ? We didn¡¯t do professional wrestling yesterday and we just had sex, but I¡¯m now the weakest in the world.? ? We did three more after I begged him to stop, and then I stopped counting.? ? The extremely dominant Alpha deliberately sent out pheromones to prevent me from falling asleep when I was exhausted. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s size and physical strength seem to be too much. I already feel sorry for Omega, who will marry him later.? ? I merely breathed out and fell asleep again after drinking the lukewarm water brought by Choi Sung-hoon.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was still stroking my hair next to me when I woke up. Unlike before, he was wearing a short-sleeved T-shirt and pants. It was different from what I saw yesterday.? ? ¡°Are you awake? It¡¯s time to eat.¡±? ? ¡°How about Choi Sung-hoon ssi¡­? What time is it now?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s five o¡¯clock.¡±? ? Five o¡¯clock¡­ Christmas¡­ Sunday went by in vain like this again. Starting tomorrow, I¡¯ll be working at night.? ? I had a hard time getting up. Choi Sung-hoon helped me by holding my arms and waist.? ? I was embarrassed even though my body was throbbing. I was like a patient after having sex a few times¡­? ? ¡°I can get up on my own.¡±? ? ¡°Will it be okay?¡±? ? ¡°Of course.¡±? ? I gently pulled out my arm from Choi Sung-hoon so that he wouldn¡¯t feel bad.? ? As I stood on my feet with difficulty, Choi Sung-hoon smiled as if he was proud.? ? ¡°You¡¯re strong.¡±? ? I was trembling like a newborn deer. Are you mocking me?? ? ¡°Phew¡­¡±? ? I sat down on the bed. When I rubbed my back with a frown, Choi Sung-hoon said that he would call a massager in the evening.? ? I rejected it by shaking my head. I can¡¯t receive a massage in this situation. Even if the massage was gentle, I will scream.? ? I¡¯m concerned about going to work tomorrow.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, you need to build up your stamina from now on.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, and you should tone it down,¡± I replied with annoyance and then added it again.? ? ¡°Still, it was really good. I thought I was going to die from pleasure. How about you Choi Sung-hoon ssi? Am I doing good?¡±? ? ¡°Of course¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon replied, then softly kissed my forehead.? ? ¡°It was very good.¡±? ? That¡¯s a relief. He was satisfied.? ? Choi Sung-hoon covered me who was sitting naked with a blanket. The white and fluffy cotton blanket seemed to have been just taken out today.? ? He then took a tray from beneath the bed. There were plates with lids on the tray.? ? ¡°I made it 20 minutes ago, so it¡¯ll still be warm.¡±? ? ¡°Thank you, did you eat Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¡°I ate while waiting for Seo-yu ssi to wake up. I¡¯ll be back after washing up, so enjoy the food.¡°? ? Oh, you haven¡¯t washed up yet¡­ ? ? Choi Sung-hoon suddenly pulled something from his pants pocket and turned around while I was looking at his back.? ? ¡°The phone kept ringing. I didn¡¯t pick it up.¡± ? ? What he handed me was my cell phone. All eight missed calls were from my uncle.? ? ¡°Did your uncle arrange this?¡±? ? ¡°Ah, yes¡­ He cares about me a lot.¡±? ? ¡°He arranged for you to meet a man who takes pictures with hidden cameras in a hotel room at 10 p.m.?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? For the first time today, Choi Sung-hoon laughed coldly.? ? My heart was racing, but I couldn¡¯t tell you the truth.? ? No matter how stupid I was, I know how a person who curses his family in front of others will be viewed.? ? ¡°Somehow, that¡¯s the only time I had¡­ Even my uncle was probably didn¡¯t know about the hidden camera. Perhaps it¡¯s a call to apologize.¡±? ? My voice trembled when I saw his cold eyes that looked down at me.? ? If he doesn¡¯t believe it, I¡¯m not sure what he¡¯ll do.? ? I swallowed my dry saliva.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll be back after washing up. Enjoy your meal.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had a cold expression on his face, left the room.? ? I let out a heavy sigh. Yeah, I almost forgot that the bastard of the academy principal was trying to take pictures with a hidden camera. It¡¯s not the right moment to eat.? ? Since Choi Sung-hoon entered the bathroom to wash up, I had to go down to the first floor so that he could not hear the call even if it was loud enough. I woke up wrapped in a blanket.? ? ¡°Ugh¡­¡±? ? I moved my feet in pain. I walked all the way to the stairs, leaning against the wall and relying on the railing and the corridor ornaments.? ? ¡°Ahhh¡­¡± ? ? Every step I took was followed by piercing pain. ? ? Aggh.? ? Even my teeth trembled.? ? I bit my lower lip and groaned my way down the stairs, enduring the pain.? ? I passed the corner next to the sofa where I received a gift from Choi Sung-hoon yesterday and there was a mirror.? ? Hi, carp. We¡¯re seeing each other again today.? ? I sat down, greeting my reflection in the mirror, which made me lose my appetite. When I dialed my uncle¡¯s number, he answered right away.? ? ¨C Seo-yu, you filthy bastard. You don¡¯t even answer the phone¡­!? ? ¡°Oh, fuck it. Uncle, did you hear about that bastard?¡±? ? ¨C What, bastard? You bastard, in front of whom do you think you¡¯re cursing right now?? ? ¡°That director was planning to install a hidden camera yesterday. That person didn¡¯t tell you?¡±? ? ¨C W-what? I¡¯ve never heard of it.? ? My uncle tried to be clueless, but I could tell by the tone of his voice that he had already heard from the perverted director. Did they plan this together?? ? ¨C Th-that, the director probably wants to keep it for the rest of his life¡­? ? ¡°Oh, I heard about that yesterday, and damn it, I was furious. Isn¡¯t it irritating that my own uncle is friends with a perverted jerk?¡±? ? ¨C Huh? That, that¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to slap that fucking bastard in the face. What a fucking bastard who must have looked like a bug. Crazy pervert bastard who will live the rest of his life ruined so badly. Make a terrible mess in your life, get your front cut off and 60 years of pain of the back hole, that fucking pervert.¡±? ? ¨C Th-thats¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to slice that kinky bastard into sashimi and wrap it in cement, so he wouldn¡¯t just messing around with someone. I had to grind him on asphalt.¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu, calm down a bit¡­? ? ¡°Uncle should curse that jerk as well. You should be enraged because he has deceived you.¡±? ? ¨C Yeah, I-I was deceived. I¡­? ? My uncle stuttered a lot and said, ¡°I-I should cut my ties with him, that perv, pervert.¡± He couldn¡¯t help but spit it out.? ? ¨C Eh-ehem. By the way, I¡¯ve got some work to do, so I¡¯ll call you back later. Seo-yu, get some rest.? ? My uncle didn¡¯t even bother to listen to my response. He spoke quickly and abruptly hung up the phone.? ? It was great to spit out all of the swearwords. I felt refreshed as if all of my muscle pain had disappeared.? ? Fufu.? ? I was smiling happily while looking in the mirror, but suddenly there was a sound. I noticed there was someone with a robe and wet hair.? ? A large man appeared.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Tug.? ? My cell phone fell. My smile faded and I asked carefully,? ? ¡°Why¡­ Is Choi Sung-hoon ssi coming out from there?¡±? ? ¡°There are two bathrooms. One on the second floor and one on the first floor.¡±? ? ¡± ¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°It looks like you still have a lot of energy, so wash up and come out. I¡¯m going to get dressed.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon strode around the corner. The steps were strangely fast and it seems his mouth was twitching.? ? He heard it all¡­ He heard it all¡­? ? Ah¡­ Shit.? ? I buried my face in the blanket and couldn¡¯t lift my head for a while. CH 20 Working at night was rather draining. You must continually transport items, but the routes are long and the boxes are heavy in most cases.? ? Sometimes I want to tell the boss. I applied for office work, but the manager put me in the shift work at his disposal. I¡¯m a recessive Omega, so it¡¯s better not to work hard. However, because the boss rarely leaves the office, making an appeal to him was difficult.? ? This week was a steamy Christmas with Choi Sung-hoon, which made it even harder because my whole body was in a mess. There were days when I went to work exhausted, went to bed without eating, and returned to work exhausted.? ? For several days, I¡¯ve been surviving on one line of gimbap on my way home from work, but I didn¡¯t feel particularly hungry, probably because I was so exhausted. As a result, I was concerned because I was taking birth control pills on an empty stomach. I should get an IV and a checkup this weekend.? ? It was when I spent a few days looking like wilted water parsley and went to work lifeless.? ? ¡°Hey, Seo-yu ssi¡­ Seo-yu ssi!¡±? ? Someone called my name. When I turned around, I noticed the cafe owner was rushing in.? ? ¡°Cafe owner?¡±? ? ¡°Haa, haa¡­ It¡¯s good to see you today¡­ It had to be your night shift.¡±? ? He was still dressed as a barista, so I checked the first floor and the light was still on.? ? ¡°Oh, you¡¯re not closed yet? It¡¯s already late.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m going to keep it open late for a while.¡±? ? When I got home from work in the morning, I noticed it was already open¡­ He is a genuine person.? ? The boss, who caught me when I was about to enter the building rubbed his hands on the apron and asked.? ? ¡°Would you like a cup of citron tea? If you have time¡­¡±? ? ¡°Of course, If I don¡¯t have time, I¡¯ll have to make it. Thank you.¡± ? ? If the closing time was delayed, I might be able to drink citron tea or coffee on my way to work next week. At the very least, it would be enjoyable. The cafe¡¯s interior was still warm and comforting. The light bulbs seemed to have been removed after Christmas, but the little angel statues remained. I sat down and read the sayings written on the wooden frame.? ? ? ? The saying change month to month, but there seems to be a lot of love-related saying lately.? ? Two glasses of citron tea were brewed and brought in by the owner. I tried to pay, but he refused and sat across from me. I calculated my spare time for work. I should be able to stay for around 10 minutes.? ? ¡°It¡¯s been a long time since I¡¯ve seen you. You¡¯ve lost a lot of weight.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, is that so?¡±? ? ¡°Did you have a good Christmas?¡±? ? ¡°Of course, haha. What about you, owner?¡±? ? ¡°I was watching a movie by myself¡­ Seo-yu ssi, you spent it with your family, right?¡±? ? I spent 2 days and 1 night passionately with my crush.? ? ¡°Yes, well¡­ ¡°? ? I drank the citron tea. There are two types of drugs permitted by the country: Americano and citron tea in this cafe.? ? ¡°You really like citron tea. Actually, it isn¡¯t selling well. I¡¯ll give you some citron syrup later.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, it¡¯s fine. It doesn¡¯t taste like this when I prepare it. It takes an expert¡¯s touch to make it taste delicious.¡±? ? The boss smiled shyly when I waved my hands.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not like that¡­ It¡¯s Seo-yu ssi, who drinks deliciously, is an expert¡­¡±? ? ¡°Haha..¡±? ? ¡°Shall we go to the expert training program together? Let us go together and become experts in drinking citron tea.¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°You drank it so deliciously that you might be listed in the Guinness Book of World Records. If you win the prize money, I¡¯ll make a lot for you. With the remaining money, we can go to a good place and have a meal together¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? The owner now seems to be saying anything without making sense. ? ? Even though it was late at night, he was a little excited and cute. Did something good happen?? ? I nodded and laughed at the owner when he said that if he won the Korean beef set instead of prize money, he would grill it himself. I don¡¯t think there will ever be a competition like that.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ By the way, did you put on pain reliever patches, Seo-yu ssi? Is there something wrong with you?¡±? ? ¡°You can smell it? I put on a few because I was feeling uncomfortable.¡±? ? There were only 10 sheets were attached, including the back neck, shoulders, wrists, and waist.? ? ¡°Oh no¡­ Are you in a lot of pain? It¡¯s hard to work at night.¡±? ? ¡°I had a hard time, but drinking your citron tea gives me strength.¡±? ? ¡°Drink a lot. Do you want some more?¡±? ? ¡°No, I have to go up now.¡±? ? I thought it was just the right time, so I took out my phone and stood up to check the time. The owner also got up and accompanied me to the door.? ? ¡°Please take it easy on yourself. Your complexion doesn¡¯t look good? ? ¡°Yes, the owner as well, go home safely.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, that.¡±? ? When I opened the door, the owner called and stopped me.? ? ¡°That¡­ Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°So¡­¡±? ? I glanced at the owner. With his head down, the young man, who had light brown hair and was two fingers smaller than me, was hesitating.? ? He seemed to have something to say the last time we met¡­ and he couldn¡¯t say it today either, I felt like he was simply going around in circles¡­? ? I think it¡¯s because he¡¯s too nice.? ? ¡°If you have something you want to say, feel free to say it, owner.¡±? ? I smiled so that the friendly owner could say it without hesitation.? ? You can feel free to tell me that you don¡¯t want a recessive Omega like me to come to your cafe.? ? Despite the fact that we were both omegas, he can be uncomfortable being around me as a dominant omega.? ? It¡¯s something you don¡¯t have to be so careful about.? ? It¡¯s a pity to lose his Americano and citron tea here, but there¡¯s nothing I can do about it. I should drink instant coffee until I find another cafe.? ? As if he¡¯d made up his mind, the owner raised his head.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi is an omega, and I am also an omega.¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have Omega around me¡­¡± ? ? After a while, the voice became smaller again. ? ? ¡°My¡­ F-fr¡­¡± ? ? F-fr?? ? I tilted my head because I had no idea what he was talking about, and then the owner¡¯s face turned bright red. I could see the twinkling light eyes. I blinked and waited.? ? After a brief moment of hesitation, the owner bit his tongue and asked, almost shouting.? ? ¡°C-can you be my friend?!¡±? ? ***? ? As a result, Omega was added to my contact list for the first time.? ? Park Ho-in [ I did it]? ? I¡¯m not sure what he did, but seeing his message with a heart emoticon made me happy.? ? The owner had a suitable name, ¡®Park Ho-in¡¯, and we were the same age. I expected it to be close, but I was startled since I didn¡¯t expect it to be the same, and the owner seemed to know us as being the same age.? ? He wrapped Americano and tiramisu cake with a really cheerful face when I stopped by the cafe on my way to work after what happened yesterday.? ? Because we are friends, there was no declared war for now.? ? I¡¯m so thankful, but¡­? ? Omega friend¡­? ? I didn¡¯t know that I would have an Omega friend, as my only friends were Won-jo. Because he was a dominant Omega, I naturally thought he would hate me¡­ however, he¡¯s a really sweet and kind person, unlike someone who¡¯s jealous of his friend hooking up with an extremely dominant Alpha.? ? Even though I was in excruciating pain, I boasted to Won-jo about my phone case and fur gloves last Monday.? ? [Huh? Isn¡¯t it cheaper than you think?]? ? [Don¡¯t play with an extremely dominant Alpha and get a hold of yourself]? ? He launched a jealous fact attack on me.? ? Would the owner, an omega who was gentle and friendly, react differently?? ? I hope to become close friends with him soon.? ? Few people have experience making friends in this way.? ? So¡­ I guess I¡¯ll have to tell someone about this strange occurrence.? ? To my crush!? ? I¡¯ll talk about it little by little.? ? Because I¡¯m a person with a crush, I set a cake and coffee on my desk and photographed it for lunch. For me, it¡¯s lunch, but for others, it¡¯s a 3 a.m. late-night snack. I quickly snapped a photo and repacked everything.? ? [Hehe, I got something like this]? ? I sent the pictures and message to Choi Sung-hoon without hesitation. The conversation window where we talked throughout this week has been getting longer. I usually send him a message first, but sometimes Choi Sung-hoon sends it first.? ? Sung-hoon ssi [Have you eaten?] ? ? Sung-hoon ssi [How about a meal?] ? ? Sung-hoon ssi [Dinner?]? ? It was mainly of this kind of message. I brought up trivial stories such as not being able to sit on the bus or missing the green light at the crosswalk, but Choi Sung-hoon seemed to be more interested in my three meals a day.? ? I was excited to that point.? ? He seemed to be concerned about my health.? ? It¡¯s convenient because it¡¯s something you can interpret for yourself as, ¡°I¡¯m worried about you.¡±? ? After sending a message, I waited for a while and got a reply. ? ? Sung-hoon ssi [Who gave it to you?]? ? [That¡¯s a long story]? ? [Are you curious?]? ? After 1 disappeared, a call came shortly after.? ? There were few people who could reply quickly and make phone calls late at night, but Choi Sung-hoon is a night owl who can talk on the phone every day.? ? ¨C Who gave it to you?? ? ¡°Are you curious enough to call right away?¡±? ? ¨C It can¡¯t be an ordinary person if he sees you heading to work.? ? ¡°The cafe owner who closing late often made it for me. It isn¡¯t listed on the cafe¡¯s menu. He made it especially for me.¡±? ? ¨C Is it a man?? ? I burst out laughing out loud at the low and cold voice.? ? ¡°This person is Omega. We greeted each other a while ago.¡±? ? ¨C Oh¡­ Okay, I see.? ? ¡°I was taken aback because I thought he was beta because he had a girlfriend as well. He has a lovely and gentle demeanor. He¡¯s a kind person. He¡¯s also a great coffee maker.¡±? ? ¨C I¡¯ll have to go sometimes.? ? ¡°Come here. I¡¯ll treat you.¡±? ? I really want to treat Choi Sung-hoon with fragrant Americano and citron tea.? ? The only lover I brought to the cafe was Park Jin-cheol. Park Jin-cheol disliked it when I accepted coupons, but he insisted that I pay. I thought it was a waste of money at the time, but I think I can buy a hundred cups for Choi Sung-hoon now.? ? ¨C So, because you¡¯re both Omega, is that why he gives you cake?? ? ¡°Listen, Ho-in. The owner¡¯s name is Park Ho-in. He has a shy personality. But he suddenly grabbed me yesterday and asked me to be friends after he hesitated to say something. He said that he did not have any omega friends. In my life, I¡¯ve never had an omega friend. It¡¯s the first time Omega approached me to make friends.¡±? ? ¨C That¡¯s great? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was so low that I thought he was saying, ¡°That¡¯s too bad.¡±? ? ¨C Is that why you decided to be friends?? ? ¡°Yes, isn¡¯t it amazing? It¡¯s amazing to have a friend at this age, and Ho-in mustered up the courage to-¡­¡±? ? ¨C You said that you had only become friends yesterday, but you¡¯re already calling him by his first name.? ? ¡°Well¡­ we¡¯re the same age.¡±? ? ¨C Until ¡®we¡¯re the same age¡¯. You¡¯re doing a great job.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi, I know it¡¯s definitely a compliment, but why do I feel like I¡¯m being scolded?¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s not a compliment.? ? Choi Sung-hoon answered briefly and added.? ? ¨C Still, that friend is better than Jang Won-jo.? ? Choi Sung-hoon hates Won-jo. I guess the first impression wasn¡¯t good. In fact, among my ex-lovers, there were very few people who liked Won-jo.? ? ¨C Don¡¯t get too close. Even after you get to know each other better.? ? The content was like giving advice to a child, but his voice was heavy, deep, and cool, so I laughed at the gap.? ? As I got to know Choi Sung-hoon, I realized he was different from my first impression.? ? He has the delicacy of remembering every word I say and taking care of everything I ignore. His appearance suggests that he would tenderly remove bones and flesh, but it is true that one should not judge a person just on the basis of their appearance.? ? ¨C Will you be home at 9:00 a.m. today?? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s a little before 9 o¡¯clock.¡±? ? ¨C You must be tired all the time.? ? ¡°It¡¯s fine~ I¡¯ve become accustomed to it. Choi Sung-hoon ssi, aren¡¯t you tired if you work late at night? It¡¯s every two weeks for me, but Choi Sung-hoon works at night all the time.¡±? ? ¨C Who said-¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon pauses for a moment and then continued.? ? ¨C I go to work at 9 am and leave at 5 pm. ? ? ¡°What? You start work at 9 p.m. and leave at 5 a.m.?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon had a slight chuckle in response to my question. I was perplexed.? ? ¨C I¡¯m not sure why you assumed I was working late at night.? ? That¡¯s¡­ ? ? ¡°We¡¯re talking on the phone right now. This week, continuously¡­ Early in the morning.¡±? ? ¨C Have you ever had the thought that I¡¯m awake especially to speak with you?? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Ah¡­ ? ? I was taken aback and clutched my chest. My heart suddenly began to race. In this very quiet pantry room, the sound of my beating heart seems to be very loud.? ? ¨C You just found out. As expected, you¡¯re really dense.? ? The sound of his laughter made my heart race. It was sweet¡­ charming¡­ and it felt so unfamiliar. I felt as if I could hear my own heart beating in my ear.? ? It was the first time I felt this way.? ? I shook my head, attempting to dismiss the unusual heartbeat.? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t know. You should¡¯ve told me¡­ Thank you, for telling me. I didn¡¯t even know that.¡±? ? ¨C No, it¡¯s okay. As long as I can hear your voice, it¡¯s worth getting up in the morning. I¡¯ll even stay up for a week.? ? I muted my phone for a moment because of the unbearable ticklish emotion.? ? I slammed my hands against the table and silently screamed. I¡¯m having a strange feeling¡­ I want to smash the table as well as my phone.? ? ¡°Hey, drink coffee¡­¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t want to work, I¡¯m dying-.¡±? ? I made eye contact with the crowd entering the pantry room at that point. When the logistics room personnel noticed my strange conduct and stopped their conversation, I hurriedly turned around, but they continued to stare at me with bewildered expressions. Their stare followed me till I quietly placed the cake in the refrigerator and walked out of the pantry room.? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi? ? ? ¨C Why are you so quiet? Are you dozing off?? ? ¡°No, no¡­ I was so embarrassed just now.¡±? ? ¨C What did you do this time?? ? I made a slight change and confessed what just happened. I didn¡¯t say that I was slamming the table because of him, but I was sitting in a strange position and ran into them.? ? Maybe because I did a lot of shameful things, now Choi Seong-hoon had no regrets anymore. Rather, he comforted me by saying that it was not that bad.? ? We talked on the phone through lunchtime.? ? I sighed deeply after hanging up the phone and holding my heated cell phone in my hand.? ? I don¡¯t know how to describe this feeling, my heart swells and beats quickly. I can¡¯t control my expression, and I can¡¯t help but feel a wide range of emotions.? ? [Seo-yu, don¡¯t call me late at night, even if you are my lover¡­ also, let¡¯s maintain the morality¡­]? ? [Don¡¯t text me early in the morning, are you crazy?]? ? [Another night shift..? Haa 2 weeks later¡­ we will see this pretty hole¡­]? ? None of the people I¡¯ve met have said something like Sunghoon Choi.? ? ¡®Have you ever thought that I¡¯m awake especially to speak with you?¡­ As long as I can hear your voice, it¡¯s worth getting up in the morning; I¡¯ll even stay up for a week.¡¯? ? How could he say this?? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡­ How could he say this?? ? I put my finger against the side of my mouth that was going to smile once more.? ? Everything that¡¯s going on in my life. I must have saved the Earth in my previous life to have a fling with someone like this.? ? I know I have to hold to my fluttering heart in order to return to where I was when everything is over.? ? But for now, I want to enjoy the feeling I have now.? ? How did I spend the past month without having a crush? I¡¯m amazed by myself.? ? As expected, a person must have a lover or a crush.? ? I don¡¯t know how solos live in this tough world. CH 21 Christmas fell on Sunday¡­ January 1st was also on Sunday¡­? ? After a meaningless first day of the new year, the night shift ends today. ? ? I was exhausted from going to work in the middle of the night and leaving early in the morning when the cold wind howled outside and my bones aches. Because there were few logistics employees, my body ached from the constant movement.? ? I had a nosebleed for the first time in almost a year on Monday, so I went to an oriental clinic in the afternoon for acupuncture. I made it through each day with the help of friends, painkillers, and flirting with my crush.? ? Coffee and desserts given by a new friend are also essential, although I haven¡¯t yet spoken with Park Ho-in informally.? ? Once, I asked, ¡®Should we speak informally?¡¯? ? ¡®Ah, that, then, Seo, Seo-yu ssi should start first.¡¯? ? I stopped because of that reaction. ? ? I felt guilty about eating it every day, so I went out and bought a set of nutritional tonics when I got home from work. Ho-in was so moved that I felt sorry for him. As he murmured thank you so much, his face seemed exhausted.? ? Ho-in offered me coffee and sandwiches with dark circles down to his chin when I arrived at work today. I was concerned about his bloodshot eyes and dry skin.? ? I generally get to work at 23:00 and leave at 8:00, but it was exhausting to see that the cafe was always open when I arrived.? ? ¡°Ho-in ssi, wouldn¡¯t it be better to have the closing time was earlier or the opening delayed? If this continues, you¡¯re going to faint.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s okay. Starting next week¡­ I can close it early¡­¡±? ? ¡°Is there any reason why you can¡¯t close earlier this week and last week?¡±? ? ¡°That, that, that¡¯s not it.¡±? ? Ho-in looked surprised at my question. His eyes shook, and his face turned bright red as he averted my gaze.? ? As I got close, I found out Ho-in had a chaotic atmosphere. He was easily embarrassed and his face flushed. I¡¯ve always thought of him as a calm and friendly person, but I think I need to learn more about him in order to get a better understanding of him.? ? ¡°Then take it easy. Have a good weekend.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, Seo-yu ssi that, on the weekend, an appointment. Of course, you have it, right?¡±? ? ¡°What¡¯s with the question? Haha, I¡¯m so tired that I¡¯m going to rest at home. Ho-in ssi, do you want to go on a date with your lover?? ? ¡°But I don¡¯t have a lover¡­¡±? ? Ah¡­ perhaps they¡¯ve already broken up.? ? I was too rash. As soon as I was about to apologize, Ho-in suddenly asked.? ? ¡°Do you have a lover, Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? ¡°Well, I don¡¯t have a lover.¡±? ? ¡°Really?¡±? ? ¡°There¡¯s someone I¡¯m slightly had a fling with.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, is that so¡­¡±? ? Ho-in¡¯s expression changed in an instant. It brightened up for a moment and then faded away again.? ? ¡°If it¡¯s a fling¡­ Was he the one you spent the last hit cycle with?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, we were together on my heat and we also spent Christmas together.¡±? ? It¡¯s a bit embarrassing, but there¡¯s nothing I can¡¯t share with my friends. However, Ho-in¡¯s expression had hardened slightly.? ? ¡°Did you spend Christmas together?¡±? ? ¡°Yes ¡­¡±? ? I don¡¯t know why, but his tone has changed. When he stared at me with his bloodshot eyes, I was a little scared. When the smile of the person who was always smiling was gone, they became as cold as ice.? ? He might have thought I was rubbing salt in his wounds because he was a solo.? ? I should tell him how empty this flirting was.? ? ¡°But my crush is an extremely dominant Alpha, and I¡¯m a recessive Omega. There¡¯s no way it¡¯ll go any farther than this, so we¡¯ll just meet casually. Would the extremely dominant Alpha be interested in something like me? Haha.¡±? ? ¡°No way¡­ You like each other, it doesn¡¯t matter if you¡¯re dominant or recessive and Seo-yu ssi is so charming.¡±? ? ¡°Thank you for your words, but there is a level, so we have to find someone who¡¯s within our means. I think I look good with a dominant Alpha.¡±? ? Ho-in bit his lower lip in response to my statements. His eyes look pained for some reason.? ? Did I say something wrong? I rarely talked to Omega, so I¡¯m not sure what to say.? ? ¡°No, Seo-yu ssi. Whether you¡¯re extremely dominant or recessive, it doesn¡¯t matter if you¡¯re in love. People like people.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°Even if it¡¯s not extremely dominant and extremely dominant, or if it¡¯s not Alpha and Omega¡­ If you¡¯re an Omega and love another Omega, it¡¯s love. Gender means nothing, nothing to human emotions.¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t open give my response easily. It was said that these days, the number of romantic relationships between people of the same gender has increased. However, this problem was not at that level.? ? Choi Sung-hoon and I¡­ were not at a level that can be overcome with new ethical standards and courage. This is a matter of reality.? ? It¡¯s not even a stage of such passionate love.? ? However, Ho-in¡¯s red eyes and the tip of his nose did not come off easily. He looked desperate. He¡¯s like someone who¡¯s been through that sort of thing.? ? I felt like he was going to shed tears at any moment.? ? I was curious and envious since I had never had such a desperate desire for love.? ? ***? ? I intended to spend my weekends resting at home, but I was ready to go out on Sunday morning. It was because I had something to do.? ? After brushing my teeth and washing my hair, I sent a message to Sung-hyun.? ? [What color do your older brother like?]? ? Sung-hyun-i [Why????]? ? Sung-hyun-i [I don¡¯t think my older brother likes any particular color?]? ? Sung-hyun-i [ Why?,?]? ? There were three messages in a row. In a cute way.? ? [To give him a scarf]? ? [Your brother gave me a lot of things, hehe]? ? Sung-hyun-i [If it suits my brother¡¯s eyes, it would be enough]? ? Sung-hyun-i [When are you going to buy it? Today?]? ? [Yeah, I¡¯m going to buy it today]? ? Sung-hyun-i [I want to go too]? ? Does this guy have nothing to do? I get a reply within a minute every day and able to schedule an appointment the same day.? ? I prepared myself after we planned to meet at a department store near Hapjeong. I took off the patch and took a few aspirins pills and contraceptives that I had been taking for over three weeks. I had planned to visit the hospital over the weekend, but something came up, so I¡¯ll have to wait until after work next week.? ? I wore a heavy long padded coat and a fur hat when I left the house. Of course, I didn¡¯t forget my fur gloves. I almost missed the stop because I was dozing off on the bus.? ? When I went to the cafe on the 8th floor of the department store where we were supposed to meet, Sung-hyun was already there. He was sitting arrogantly with his legs crossed in a black coat and looked like a perfect adult man at first glance, except for the baby fat and a young expression that had not yet faded.? ? When the person who was thoroughly enjoying his meal noticed me, he shouted to call me and pulled me to the restaurant. I¡¯ve never considered stepping in¡­ because one Yukgaejang was worth 80,000 won here.? ? Of course, I should treat him because I was older.? ? He brought me to a huge room while rubbing his full stomach through a door and down a specific path. The space is spacious, with only one table and mirrors on all sides.? ? There was calm piano music and subtle lighting. The staff took orders without a menu, so I asked for an Americano roughly, but it was too bitter for my taste. Sung-hyun ordered a cafe mocha, but when I frowned and looked for sugar, Sung-hyun clicked his tongue and exchanged it with mine.? ? As I was taking a couple of sips of cafe mocha, the employee came over and handed out the catalog.? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you say you were looking for a scarf? Take a look here.¡±? ? It was a collection of winter accessories like scarves, belts, and gloves. I carelessly glanced through the catalog.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t think I should be the one to view it. You¡¯re the one who knows what kind of style your older brother prefers.¡±? ? ¡°I have no idea what my older brother likes. He just doesn¡¯t like anything.¡±? ? ¡°As expected, a psychopath¡­¡±? ? ¡°Huh? What did you say?¡±? ? ¡°Isn¡¯t the weather really nice today?¡±? ? I pointed at something roughly, trying not to provoke this brocon.? ? ¡°How about this? I think gray would look good on him.¡±? ? ¡°Of course, my brother will look good in any color. But, Hyung have you looked at the prices?¡±? ? Of course, I am. The one I just pointed is 6 million won and the one next to it is 5 million won. The back page is 800 won.? ? ¡°What money are you going to use to buy it? Hyung, you¡¯re a poor person.¡±? ? ¡°Speak nicely.¡±? ? ¡°Do ordinary people spend this much on scarves these days? Is it something I don¡¯t know well?¡±? ? I took out my wallet as I looked at Sung-hyun, who was really curious. When he noticed the ten million won gift card he had given me, he exclaimed, ¡°Ah!¡± and then looked with a puzzled expression.? ? ¡°You¡¯re going to use a gift card? Isn¡¯t it a waste? It isn¡¯t available for purchase on the market. Are you really going to use it to buy my older brother a present instead of shopping for yourself? You know my older brother has a lot of money, right?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I¡¯ve received something from him, so I have to spend this much.¡±? ? ¡°What did you get?¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯ve got a lot of questions. Just let me know whether it will suit your brother.¡±? ? ¡°There¡¯s nothing that doesn¡¯t suit him.¡±? ? I shouldn¡¯t have taken him just because he was available.? ? I was staring at him, but Sung-hyun showed an unexpected reaction. He didn¡¯t come out blatantly or stare at me, but he did give me a worried look.? ? ¡°Hyung¡­ you¡¯re still like¡­ that?¡±? ? ¡°What? What did the youngest curious about?¡±? ? ¡°That¡­ you still want to die, don¡¯t you?¡±? ? He took my hand to see how I perceived it after I shut my mouth since I was speechless.? ? ¡°Does it make sense that the snob who shut up his mouth for 10 million won for an unlicensed high school student who got into an accident while driving is now attempting to give that money to a very wealthy person? Losing greed for money means that you have no will to live. Don¡¯t die. How many good things do you have when you have sex with people? Think carefully. I mean, go back to that memories.¡±? ? This kid¡­ Are you turning me around now?? ? I slapped his hand and gave him a pathetic look. I was tired and didn¡¯t have the energy to get angry, so I quietly said, ¡°Get out of here if you¡¯re not going to help me.¡± Sung-hyun just began to think seriously after that.? ? It was very convenient to shop in which the personnel presented it to me after I chose something from the catalog. I sat still and looked at scarves from five brands. In the end, there were two things I chose, and I spent 10 million won in a tight fit.? ? ¡°Why do you buy two? One of them is to hang yourself and commit suicide?? ? ¡°Stop it¡­¡±? ? I was the one who tried to commit suicide, but I think this guy is the one suffering from insanity.? ? The employee brought two packed shopping bags. I think I can stay longer in this quiet space when I see them leave their position to rest.? ? I opened the shopping bag and handed one of the scarves over to the person staring at it.? ? Sung-hyun was shocked and trembling after that.? ? ¡°What? What the fuck? Do you want me to die with you? No! There are so many things I haven¡¯t done in the world. Don¡¯t die!¡±? ? ¡°Oh, you crazy guy. It¡¯s a 20-year-old gift. Take it when I give it to you.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Gift?¡±? ? Sung-hyun took it with hesitation.? ? ¡°Congratulations on turning 20. As you said, this poor guy made a big decision, so use it well.¡±? ? Ten million won was his money anyway, but I used it to the fullest. I didn¡¯t think it was a waste at all.? ? I was planning on purchasing a nice sofa or something like that with the gift card, but there was no need for that now.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Really, what is this, Hyung? How can you make me feel so moved like this?¡±? ? Sung-hyun quickly smiled. He was really cute. I was also satisfied to see it carefully packed into his backpacks.? ? ¡°It¡¯s my first gift since I turned 20.¡±? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you get anything on the first day?¡±? ? ¡°I got it all in advance, so there was nothing. My dad and I were the only ones eating out that day, and the atmosphere was a mess.¡±? ? Sung-hyun had a cocky expression on his face, as though he remembered the atmosphere at that time. It was fascinating to watch how his expression changed as I grew older.? ? ¡°My dad, it must be some kind of middle-aged depression. I thought I was going to die of embarrassment because he was crying so much.¡±? ? ¡°Your father cried? Is it because you turned 20 years old?¡±? ? ¡°No, it¡¯s because my mom didn¡¯t show up on New Year¡¯s Day, and he cried because he couldn¡¯t see her face. Oh, and Mom knows that if she doesn¡¯t come, he¡¯ll cry.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? What with this family¡­? ? I thought I shouldn¡¯t know about it more, so I asked another question.? ? ¡°Why didn¡¯t you invite your older brother to join you for eating out? You must have been upset.¡±? ? ¡°Even if I call him, he won¡¯t come. The last time I saw him was almost a month ago. When I saw you with my brother. Hyung, Christmas is your last day seeing him, right?¡±? ? ¡°I meet him yesterday.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ What?!¡±? ? Sung-hyun jumped out of his seat. I was worried his eyes might pop out since he seemed so shocked. He asked me what time, where, and how I met his older brother, so I told him because there was nothing to hide.? ? In fact, it was for this reason that I spent a total of ten million won today.? ? When I returned home from work yesterday, there were two cars parked in a tight alleyway. The first was a black sedan, while the second was a ladder car.? ? As I approached, I was greeted by a huge man dressed in a suit that matched the sedan perfectly. Choi Sung-hoon frowned as he stood in the morning sun, which was dazzling.? ? He pointed to a ladder car, saying it was a New Year¡¯s gift. In my life, I never thought I would get a ladder car as a gift, but it wasn¡¯t, and the large furniture on it was the gift.? ? The owner¡¯s grandpa came out at the sound of moving items and returned with envy.? ? A leather sofa and massage chair entered the living room.? ? The uncles left after cleaning the living room? ? Choi Sung-hoon casually moved around the living room and kitchen, opening and checking the refrigerator. It was fortunate that the dishwasher was empty because I didn¡¯t eat anything.? ? Then, as soon as I awoke from my trance and tried to offer him coffee, he left, saying that he had to leave right away.? ? He appeared and then disappeared like the wind.? ? I had a lot of thoughts as I stared at the leather sofa and massage chair that didn¡¯t fit in the living room of the old detached house. I thought of my parents among them.? ? If my mother and father had seen it, they would have loved it. They would have bragged to my relatives that their son received this as a gift from an extremely dominant Alpha. How would my brother react? My brother, who was always worried because I was a recessive Omega.? ? After so many thoughts, I came to the conclusion that I should reciprocate Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s kindness.? ? I wanted to give him a present in return. Even if it wasn¡¯t half as much as I received.? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m so jealous. Good for you, Hyung. I also want to see my older brother¡¯s face, hear his voice, and talk to him.¡±? ? Oh, I understood just how Sung-hyun felt inside.? ? ¡°Try at least. If his little brother acts cute when asking him to meet, he won¡¯t be able to ignore it, right?¡±? ? ¡°What are you talking about. My older brother hasn¡¯t looked at my chat for over a month, damn it.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, do you chat with my older brother?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun leaped to his feet and slammed his fist against the table as soon as I nodded.? ? ¡°Show me! Show me! Show me quickly!¡±? ? He began begging like a child who couldn¡¯t go past the toy area. Of course, I¡¯m not going to give it to him. My message display was filled with filthy texts from ex-boyfriends. If I¡¯m caught by my crush¡¯s younger brother, I¡¯ll leave a dark history that will never be erased.? ? ¡°Oh, give it to me quickly, show me. I want to see it.¡±? ? ¡°Are you crazy? Absolutely not.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, why~~ I said I miss my older bro~~.¡± ? ? ¡°No. Don¡¯t make a cutesy sound and give up.¡±? ? Sung-hyun attacked using his younger brother¡¯s strategy (a younger brother¡¯s scheme that appeals with cuteness and acts pitiful), but I firmly refused.? ? Knowing that it would not work, Sung-hyun, who had given up his younger brother¡¯s strategy, held out his cell phone.? ? ¡°Then take a look, Hyung. Take a look at how mean my older brother can be! My older brother can compete in the Guinness World Record for the longest time spent not reading a message.¡±? ? A family chat room with four people was displayed on the screen.? ? I-.? ? ¡°Hey, even so, family chat rooms are too private¡­¡±? ? Despite what I had said, I still look at it.? ? Dad [Honey¡­ When are you coming back??]? ? Mommy [I already said before New Year¡¯s Eve.]? ? Dad [I miss you ? 0 ?] ? ? It goes back from the last conversation,? ? Dad [Let¡¯s eat out with family for Christmas>_0?< let¡¯s eat out to commemorate it]? ? [Yeah, sure. Where?]? ? Dad [Sung-hoon, where do you feel most comfortable?]? ? [Brother, please read the message ????]? ? It was full of such conversations.? ? I went way back to November but 1 still hasn¡¯t disappeared. ? ? It was a one-sided courtship in which the response was never given.? ? ¡°Hyung, you¡¯re chatting with someone like this¡­ Good for you, It¡¯s really¡­ an honor.¡±? ? At this point, I really should think it¡¯s an honor.? ? I returned the phone to Sung-hyun, who was envious and congratulated me for the special treatment.? ? ¡°Your brother is definitely interested in me.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re keeping it a secret while dating my brother, right?¡±? ? ¡°Crazy¡­ What process did you go through to come up with such a thought?¡±? ? ¡°Honestly, my older brother sent you a message and went to meet you. I¡¯ve never seen him treat anyone like this before. This is a romantic relationship. Are you trying to fool me? You met me through my introduction. That would be too much.¡±? ? In the end, Sung-hyun acted as if he had been the organizer of my relationship, but I narrowed my eyes and folded my arms.? ? ¡°Hey, high school kid, don¡¯t overreact. It¡¯s obvious that you want to see the message¡¯s contents.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Would you mind showing me some? I¡¯m curious how my older brother treats the person he likes.¡±? ? The person he likes?? ? A grin escaped my lips.? ? I found another fact.? ? Well¡­ Even if it¡¯s a shallow interest, I¡¯m sure it¡¯s a good feeling.? ? Choi Sung-hyun, who had been clinging to me the entire time to show him the message, had returned home.? ? I spent 10 million won in a day, but I couldn¡¯t think of anything about the money.? ? Instead, I was filled with other thoughts.? ? I lay for a long time on a leather sofa, thinking about the person who had given me this as a present.? ? He likes me.? ? Isn¡¯t it funny? What¡¯s there to like about me?? ? I was in an accident with his high school brother, attempted suicide, couldn¡¯t remember his name, he was on the phone, and I mistakenly responded, drunk, vomited, confused with all the words, my family was a mess, and I cursed out my uncle¡¯s boss¡­? ? Ah¡­ damn¡­ I don¡¯t have anything that would make someone fall in love with me¡­? ? On the other hand, Choi Sung-hoon.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was¡­? ? I slapped the flushed face with my palm without causing too much pain. ? ? It¡¯s only normal to improve thus much. He¡¯s always very kind to me.? ? Anyway, his shallow interest won¡¯t last long¡­? ? Let¡¯s do better this time.? ? I need to reflect on the flaws that have been pointed out about me thus far, date beautifully, and break up properly.? ? With that thought in mind, I immediately picked up my phone and sent a message to Choi Sung-hoon.? ? [Choi Sung-hoon ssi, when do you have time? I have something to give you]? ? I sent a message and was ready to send a photo of the scarf package when I suddenly stops.? ? Because the next 1 disappeared as soon as it was sent. CH 22 When I peeked out the window while working, I noticed that it was snowing.? ? I was going to meet Choi Sung-hoon after work this evening, but it felt so nice to imagine myself walking through the white snowy scenery.? ? I think it would be fun to make a snowman together. Blow the cold out of our red hands, pick up falling leaves, dress them up, build arms out of tree branches, and place them in the bus stop¡¯s corner.? ? I want to meet him soon, but it¡¯s still only two o¡¯clock. When do I get home from work¡­ ? ? The assistant approached me as I was sitting on my desk with a lack of motivation.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, ¡÷ ¡÷ C&T Mulsan was looking for you. Give him a call.? ? ¡°¡÷¡÷ C&T Mulsan? Why? Who?¡±? ? ¡°Park Jin-cheol kept looking for you. He called the company again, even though I gave him your phone number.¡±? ? Ah, I blocked it¡­? ? ¡°Yeah, I got it. I will call him later.¡±? ? The assistant gave me Park Jin-cheol¡¯s number. I looked over the message with the number on it before folding it and putting it in my wallet. If he had something to say, he would have called me with a different number. I don¡¯t want to get tangled up in this.? ? Sung-hoon ssi [Where exactly is the company?] ? ? At about 5 o¡¯clock, a message came from Choi Sung-hoon.? ? [You have to go further from Sindang Station, but why? haha]? ? Sung-hoon ssi [I¡¯m near Sindang Station now]? ? What!? ? I was surprised and hurried out into the hallway and make a phone call right away. The phone was answered by a cheerful voice.? ? ¨C I didn¡¯t mean to interrupt your work.? ? ¡°No, you¡¯re here to pick me up. Is work a problem?¡±? ? ¡°How did you come all the way here? Oh, there¡¯s still a little over an hour before work over. How are you going to wait? Are you done with work, Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¨C Yes, I couldn¡¯t wait to see you as soon as possible.? ? My ears are about to melt.? ? I told the location of the company and spun around in place. Even if I return right now, I won¡¯t be able to work. I¡¯m so excited that I¡¯m afraid my heart will burst.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, what are you doing here?¡±? ? When the section chief was passing through the corridor, he stopped when he saw me excitedly clinging to the wall.? ? ¡°I¡¯m cooling off. I was so excited to meet my lover today.¡±? ? ¡°Lover? Ha, as expected, you¡¯re fast. aren¡¯t we late for kindergarten?¡±? ? In truth, we¡¯re still flirting, but I claimed that he was my lover. With a sly smirk, the section chief approached and gently caressed my back before grabbing me.? ? ¡°Are you meeting him since Monday? You must be pretty desperate with this thin waist. Hmm? I¡¯m curious as well.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not as desperate as the section chief, so don¡¯t worry about it. Get your hands off me¡­ ugh.¡±? ? As I frowned and grabbed my wrist, the kinky bastard came and pressed me against the wall.? ? ¡°How does Seo-yu ssi know if I am desperate or not? You have never experienced it before.¡±? ? The kinky bastard pressed me against the wall and sniffed my neck.? ? It¡¯s disgusting. It¡¯s really disgusting.? ? ¡°Oh, don¡¯t you take it off quickly? Shall I give you a fuck like back then?¡±? ? ¡°Oh my gosh, so scary.¡±? ? I twisted my body and lifted my knees in an attempt to truly hit him, but he managed to get away.? ? Fucking pervert.? ? I scratched the back of my neck and locked my gaze on him. ? ? ¡°Don¡¯t give me that look. Because it makes me horny.¡±? ? ¡°Damn it, how many times do you want me to hit you with that attitude of yours?¡±? ? ¡°Because you say something like this, it makes me even hornier.¡±? ? Later in the day, I¡¯ll need a lot of drinks.? ? I was staring at him with hatred when an employee came out of the office. The employee returned after being stunned by the unpleasant and strange atmosphere here. Only then did the section chief bastard follow him into the office, saying, ¡°Have a good time with your lover.¡± He seemed to intend to join the team as soon as possible.? ? I went to the bathroom and rubbed my back neck.? ? I¡¯d like to tell Choi Sung-hoon about this. The section chief continues to exaggerate and sexually harass me, and it¡¯s driving me insane.? ? However, given my ex-boyfriends¡¯ reactions thus far, I think it¡¯s best not to tell him.? ? I washed my face with cold water and decided to erase what had just happened from my memory.? ? It¡¯s okay. Nothing happened. It wasn¡¯t a big deal.? ? Sigh¡­? ? I took a few deep breaths and looked in the mirror, and it was instantly forgotten. I¡¯m really good at forgetting stuff like this.? ? I returned to my seat and finished my job, then organized my desk as soon as it was 6 o¡¯clock. My heart sped up as I realized Choi Seong-Hoon was waiting downstairs.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, are you leaving on time today?¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu, have a date today.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, really? Good for you~!¡±? ? ¡°Haha, good work.¡±? ? I dashed out of the office, carrying a shopping bag and a muffler. It was a building without elevators, so I almost fell while running down the stairs.? ? A cup of coffee and a bouquet of red roses were laid in front of him.? ? I entered the cafe as if I were possessed. Ho-in ssi greeted me cheerfully, but I merely nodded as my gaze fixed on Choi Sung-hoon. He looked back at me while gazing at his phone, as though he was aware of my presence.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? When he saw me, his cold face warmed up like the spring sun. Choi Sung-hoon approached me holding a bouquet of roses and waving the hem of his coat.? ? He gave me a bouquet of roses.? ? ¡°As expected, it looks good on you. Roses.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ What day is it today?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s the day I met Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Ah¡­ This man was really good at saying things that make me feel ticklish. Really good.? ? ¡°So pretty. Thank you.¡±? ? I buried my face in the bouquet and smelled it.? ? When I heard that my pheromone was a wet rose petal scent, I hated roses since then. However, there are just two types of flowers from now on, not roses and roses. I wonder since when roses have been so pretty.? ? ¡°Here, please take this. It¡¯s a gift.¡±? ? I wasn¡¯t planning on giving it to him right now, but I was overjoyed and did it straight away. Choi Sung-hoon Choi, who got the shopping bag, immediately opened the wrapping paper with his big hand, took the muffler from the inside, and smiled brightly.? ? ¡°It¡¯s the perfect gift for me. Thank you.¡±? ? He wrapped it around his neck right away, and the charcoal gray cashmere scarf suited him so well that he looked like an advertising model.? ? ¡°I picked it with Sung-hyun. I thought this color would look best on you and I¡¯m right.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Seong-hyun? When did you meet again?¡±? ? ¡°The day before yesterday.¡±? ? I reached up and straightened the wrinkles of the scarf.? ? I can¡¯t believe he was showing his neck on such a cold snowy day. What would have happened if I hadn¡¯t given him a scarf?? ? I am pleased with my present. It was so perfect that it made me giggle.? ? When I looked up at him after cleaning up, Choi Sung-hoon was staring at me with the expression of looking at a baby cat lying down and rolling around at a cat cafe where I had previously visited.? ? I don¡¯t know if it¡¯s okay for me to say this, but he seems to be looking at something very cute and lovely.? ? Even the scars on his cheeks, which others could find disgusting, looked pleasant.? ? I was shy and avoided his gaze.? ? ¡°Please take a seat here and wait for me. I¡¯ll bring out the car.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon gently wrapped his arms around my shoulder and kissed me on the forehead. It was a very natural act.? ? I sat in the seat where Choi Sung-hoon sat and I suddenly came to my senses as I stared blankly at the rose bouquet. I hurriedly took out my phone and took a picture.? ? I took it at the prettiest angle and sent it to Won-jo.? ? [(photos)]? ? [Choi Sung-hoon gave me a bouquet of roses, haha] ? ? Won-jo [Ah, shit. How many days has it been since you contacted me?]? ? Won-jo [It looks expensive. Good for you.]? ? Won-jo [You happy?]? ? I immediately read it and faithfully filled my ego with it.? ? I would have been more proud if I had more friends. Won-jo is the only friend I have¡­ I¡¯m sad.? ? Then I turned it to my Messenger profile picture.? ? Ex-boyfriends, are you watching?? ? I¡¯m hoping that everyone in the world will see it. This gorgeous bouquet of roses.? ? When Sung-hyun kept trying to get me to use SNS, I should have done it sooner. Since I thought of it, I should tell Sung-hyun about it.? ? I should send the picture as well.? ? [(photos)]? ? [Your older brother gave it to me, haha]? ? Sung-hyun-i [?]? ? Sung-hyun-i [As if he would.]? ? Sung-hyun-i [No, but- Whose older brother are you having an affair with- What about my older brother? I¡¯m going to report you to my older brother!!]? ? [Hahahaha]? ? [Your older brother gave it to, haha.]? ? Sung-hyun¡¯s reaction was so hilarious that I actually burst out laughing. In the end, Sung-hyun called.? ? Someone from behind pushed out a take-out cup as I held my stomach and laughed. In the midst of the strong aroma of roses, there was a delicate scent of citron tea.? ? ¡°Have some citron tea¡­¡±? ? ¡°Ah, Ho-in ssi.¡±? ? I was startled to hear a familiar voice.? ? That¡¯s right. I completely forgot that this was a cafe.? ? It was really satisfying to think that Choi Seong-hoon and I would have attracted all of the guests. I took a quick look around and sure enough, everyone was staring at me.? ? You¡¯ve never seen such a big, intimidating, handsome man, right? Isn¡¯t he awesome? Fufu¡­? ? Aren¡¯t the people at the company, especially the section chief bastards, passing by? I wish he could see this magnificent bouquet.? ? ¡°Thank you. I¡¯ll drink well.¡±? ? I smiled and drank citron tea, but I soon stopped smiling.? ? Ho-in looked somewhat tired and had a stiff expression on his face. He asked with a gloomy expression and possibly unwell.? ? ¡°Did you decide to go out with that Alpha?¡±? ? ¡°No, no. We¡¯re still just flirting.¡±? ? ¡°But he gave you a bouquet and a kiss on the forehead.¡±? ? ¡°Oh¡­¡±? ? That¡¯s right? Even if we¡¯re at the flirting stage, kiss on the forehead¡­ It sounds weird.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not sure. There was no official talk of dating, but maybe we are dating¡­¡±? ? ¡°How can you not be sure about that? If you¡¯re not dating, you have to draw a line.¡±? ? Ho-in scolded me for being quite uncertain about this. That was very appropriate advice.? ? ¡°That person, he¡¯s quite big. Where is his workplace¡­ Is he an athlete?¡±? ? Ho-in mentioned a job or an athlete, but he probably wanted to ask if he was a gangster.? ? ¡°He is an office worker. He probably works in Nonhyeon. The meeting location for today is also Nonhyeon, but he came here to pick me up.¡±? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you say he is an Extremely dominant Alpha?¡±? ? The tone of Ho-in¡¯s voice was harsh. In truth, his gaze was fierce. Ho-in raised one eyebrow when I nodded.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, isn¡¯t this week your heat cycle? Are you planning to spend it with him again?¡±? ? I got goosebumps for a moment. If I wasn¡¯t a recessive Omega, it was right to have my heat this week.? ? I¡¯m not sure why Ho-in kept track of my heat period.? ? Perhaps he was worried that I would emit pheromones as I wandered around.? ? I put aside my uneasy thoughts and answered with a smile.? ? ¡°Because I¡¯m a recessive, my heat is still a long way off.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Oh, okay, that¡¯s a good thing.¡±? ? I don¡¯t know why he feels relieved.? ? Ho-in bit his lower lip. His dry lips looked like they were about to bleed.? ? ¡°On the weekend, did you go out to buy a scarf? You said you were going to rest at home.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, yes. I¡¯ve gotten so much from him, so I need to repay him. I spent some time with Sung-hoon¡¯s younger brother.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ You know his family¡­ ¡±? ? Ho-in¡¯s voice cracked low. It felt unfamiliar to me because he was always excited spoke in a higher tone.? ? ¡°Are you okay?¡±? ? I approached him because I was quite worried. When I tilted my head to look at his face, Ho-in¡¯s face turned pale.? ? ¡°Is something wrong? Your complexion doesn¡¯t look good.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ No, it¡¯s just¡­¡±? ? The horn sounded for a long time at that moment. Ho-in and I were startled, and when I looked out the window, I saw Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s car on the road.? ? Choi Sung-hoon hurriedly opened the driver¡¯s door and come out, as if he couldn¡¯t wait any longer. As he has long legs, he quickly walks in and opened the door¡­ The way he walked powerfully in the white snow was overly sexy.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯ll be there. I¡¯m leaving right now.¡±? ? With a bouquet of roses in my arms and a cup of citron tea in my hand, I bid Ho-in farewell.? ? ¡°If you¡¯re not feeling well, go home early. You¡¯re going to faint if you work like last week.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Thank you¡­ Have a good time, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Ho-in smiled, but it was so vague that he seemed to squeeze it with all the might he had left.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who I thought would go out right away, stopped and stared coldly at Ho-in. It was very cold eyes.? ? Should I introduce them?? ? Choi Sung-hoon had already taken my hand and left the cafe by the time I had finished thinking about it. It was a more relaxed gesture than when he first walked in. I walked into his car like I was being dragged.? ? Choi Sung-hoon placed my bouquet in the back seat.? ? I think I need to fasten the seat belt on it¡­ I¡¯ll be devastated if even one petal comes off. ? ? The inside of the car was warm. Choi Seong-hoon brushed off the snow that had accumulated in the meantime and fastened the seat belt. Then he asked,? ? ¡°Is that the Omega? He made you a cake that wasn¡¯t on the menu.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, that¡¯s right. He seems to be exhausted. Even when I was going to and from work that night, Ho-in ssi cafe was always open.¡±? ? ¡°It seems that he opens early and closes late.¡±? ? ¡°Thanks to that, I would stop by on my way to work every day, get some delicious drinks, and chat. I heard that it was only for two weeks for some reason, and they said they would return to normal business hours from this week.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m worried that he¡¯ll pass out shortly. As you can see, he¡¯s a bit of a delicate person.¡±? ? I was concerned and returned my gaze to the window. However, Ho-in was nowhere to be seen.? ? I hope he won¡¯t pass out while working.? ? As a fellow Omega, I was worried in many ways. He¡¯s the same age as me and has a smaller frame than I do. I was more concerned since he seemed to have a weak personality. His mind seems to be unstable just now¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had gripped my chin and made me look at him, kissed me as it was at that moment.? ? I thought it was a light and soft kiss, then the lips pressed together again. He wrapped his arms around the back of my head and kissed me deeply as if he was about to eat me. His thick tongue pressed against the roof of my mouth and wrapped around mine. I was distracted by the sensation of my tongue being caressed as he swung it around and sucked it in deeply.? ? The kiss continued until I was out of breath and gently pushed him on the shoulder.? ? I gasped to my chest and took a few breaths as his lips parted.? ? Haa, haa¡­? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon put his hands around my cheek and looked down with a deep and dark gaze without any distraction.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t worry too much about other people in front of me.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. I didn¡¯t know, but I guess I was a jealous person.¡±? ? ¡°Jealousy¡­ That¡¯s good¡­ You can do more¡­¡± ? ? Choi Sung-hoon caressed my lips with his finger and smiled slightly as I mumbled with a fuzzy mind.? ? It was at that point that my concerns about Ho-in slipped away. CH 23 5 days.? ? I counted the date by looking at the calendar. ? ? Choi Sung-hoon and I met this week. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and today, Friday.? ? Every time Choi Seong-hoon came home from work, he came to pick me up, ate at a nice place, and drove a short drive home. He was someone who live in Nonhyeon who drove from Sindang to Mapo and back to Nonhyeon every evening.? ? Thanks to this, my clothes became thicker and my heart grew richer. No, there was much more. Just up to two days.? ? Right now, it¡¯s making me feel a¡­ little pressured.? ? When I left the house this morning, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s car was parked in front of me. He took me to the company with a more strong and cooler demeanor than usual. The traffic jam on the way to work could not block Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s car.? ? ¡°Then I¡¯ll pick you up in the evening.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, thank you for taking me all the way here. See you later.¡±? ? I smiled bashfully and saw Choi Sung-hoon off. During rush hour, the car drove easily on the road as if it were not rush hour. I waited until he was out of sight before going inside.? ? I kept thinking about it as I went up the stairs to the fourth floor.? ? Why the hell was he doing this to me?? ? I get that we¡¯re flirting, and it seems that my status has progressed from one-night stand to sex partner, but I¡¯m not sure why he¡¯s treating me this way.? ? I experienced insomnia because I was both scared and happy. My tongue had sprained due to stress, and my mouth was a shambles.? ? I couldn¡¯t help but wonder why Choi Sung Hoon is so devoted to someone he doesn¡¯t even date. It should be prohibited by law.? ? Looking back on my memories, it seems like it was around Christmas time. I was doing exceptionally well at the moment.? ? ¡­Shall I just ask him out?? ? I¡¯ve tried dating before and know roughly when, how, and in what kind of atmosphere to ask him out.? ? But he was an extremely dominant Alpha.? ? There was one Alpha among my ex-lovers who said that when Beta confessed to him, it hurt his pride. Daring to look at Alpha like him and think of dating him was uncomfortable in itself.? ? Moreover, he was an extremely dominant Alpha, whereas I am a recessive Omega. How nice would it be if Choi Sung-hoon was a Beta?? ? I¡¯d like to ask him out, but he might think I¡¯m cocky if I confess.? ? ¡°Hello.¡±? ? ¡°Hello, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? I turned on the computer mechanically when I arrived at the office and thought that I still want to date Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I was under a lot of stress because I didn¡¯t know what his intentions were, but I guess I was also under a lot of stress because I wanted to date rather than just flirt with him. This was all the cause of my sore tongue.? ? I want to date him.? ? I want to be a couple with him.? ? Even if he has a crush on me, the fact that there was still no talk of dating indicates that there was no romantic feeling. I lost my heart to him on my own.? ? However, having a crush was great since it causes your heart to flutter.? ? It¡¯s a lot better than being bored because you don¡¯t have anything you like.? ? I opened a chat app to talk with Choi Sung-hoon before unpacking my bag.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? But I sighed again after seeing the multiple red lights.? ? After altering the messenger profile photo to a bouquet, messages were exploding.? ? It generated a stronger reaction than expected.? ? [¡­The basket is just as pretty as Seo-yu¡­ Did you get a job at a flower shop? ^^]? ? It was not a basket, but a bouquet.? ? [I don¡¯t think the profile photo is appropriate. I hope you¡¯ll think about your ex¡¯s position.] ? ? You and I broke up five years ago, yet now you want me to think about your position, which has no position.? ? [I got you a bouquet of flowers first¡­ Do you remember when I gave it to you? I liked you¡­]? ? I¡¯ll have to give you some replies here.? ? [It¡¯s the first time I¡¯ve received a bouquet since my middle school graduation. Hahaha]? ? [Oh, and how to write triple ?, press ? three times quickly] ? ? [Because I¡¯ve been worried about it for a long time hahahahaha]? ? I sent a message of ridicule to the fullest, yet I received a response very immediately.? ? Kim Kyung-chul ssi [Of course, even now I will give you a flower bouquet¡­ I want to see your face¡­~]? ? I should¡¯ve ignored it.? ? I don¡¯t always ignore and block messages from my ex-lover. The majority of them ended up in a nasty breakup, but every now and then I respond to a message from a lover who ended up in a clean breakup. When we¡¯re both single, we frequently spend the night together.? ? Kim Kyung-cheol was about forty now. This person should be blocked.? ? A few days after changing my profile picture, a new chat room continued to appear. Everyone seems to have been stimulated by a bouquet that they have never given.? ? It¡¯s common in dramas and movies, but giving bouquets on a day that isn¡¯t even an anniversary is uncommon in real life. Personally, I¡¯ve never considered sending flowers to my ex-lover.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s bouquet will remain in my memory even years later. Perhaps as a sparkling memory that brings a smile to your face every time you recall it for the rest of your life.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, what are you thinking about with a smiling face? Tell me too.¡±? ? Ah, who eats curry and smells like shit in the morning. ? ? The section chief sat down at my desk with a cheesy grin. I turned off my phone screen.? ? ¡°You must be annoyed at the thought of working now. You must have gained a lot of affection in recent days, so you should work with a smile on your face. You mentioned you got a flower bouquet on Monday and he drove you to work this morning?¡±? ? The uncle, who had enough belly and hadn¡¯t shaved properly, put his hand on my neck with a sullen expression.? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you wear this yesterday too? You must have spent the night together.¡±? ? ¡°You want to be sued for sexual harassment, really?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s Alpha, right? Rumor has it that he has a very good body. Am I a little too straightforward, huh?¡±? ? The section chief jerk swept my back neck.? ? This bastard, he got horny first thing in the morning.? ? The newcomer who was sitting across from me got up with an embarrassed expression and sneaked out of the office. So did the other staff.? ? He slowly stroked the back of my neck and trailed the sticky hand down my back. ? ? ¡°As the section chief said, my lover has a great body, so stop throwing those flirty eyes at me like this.¡±? ? ¡°What? Flirty?¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re a married man, I¡¯m not sure why you¡¯re acting like this. Are you perhaps in heat¡­¡± ? ? The section chief gave a long, pervy smirk and raised one eyebrow.? ? ¡°You¡¯re pretty, I guess there¡¯s nothing I can¡¯t see when I say you¡¯re pretty. You should be grateful enough if I touch your recessive Omega hips.¡±? ? The manager gave me a slap on the side of the head..? ? ¡°You¡¯re going to work the night shift from next week.¡±? ? I raised my head.? ? ¡°I beg your pardon? why! It¡¯s still my morning shift.¡±? ? ¡°Do whatever I tell you to do.¡±? ? ¡°I joined the company for office work with the morning shift. I¡¯m going to die of hardship every two weeks!¡±? ? ¡°Why are you talking back to your boss? Do I look like a pushover? I¡¯m your boss.¡±? ? The section chief grabbed a strand of my hair from my side. I bit my lips in a sense of humiliation and stared at the pervert.? ? ¡°Oh, never mind. Do it from today. Seo-yu ssi is so energetic that he meets his Alpha¡¯s lover with a good body every day and assists him every night. You can take today off and work later at night.¡±? ? Ah, you fucking bastard. You crazy perverted bastard.? ? ¡°You¡¯re not answering, huh? Go home now.¡±? ? He¡¯s not even as tall as I am, yet he is so mean.? ? ¡°Why? You don¡¯t want to do it? Then ask for it.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t be expensive only to me while you keep changing men like there¡¯s no tomorrow.¡± ? ? The section chief¡¯s hand brushed against my neck once more. While stroking my neck, he dug into my collar and rubbed my collarbone.? ? I immediately jumped from my seat.? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m leaving work right now and I¡¯ll go to work later. You¡¯re creeping me out.¡±? ? I forcefully bend the dirty hand from my neck. The section chief withdrew his hand as he screamed, ¡°Argh!¡±? ? I smirked at his expression of humiliation as if he hadn¡¯t expected it at all. I strode forward with my untied cross bag on.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? I was strolling down the corridor when I came across two employees and Kang Dae-ri. Their eyes widened as they stared at my bag and likely messed-up face.? ? ¡°Where are you going?¡±? ? ¡°Fuck the section chief bastard from today-.¡±? ? I quickly opened my mouth, but then lowered my gaze and gave a desperate expression.? ? ¡°He told me to work at night¡­ I¡¯m actually a recessive¡­ Working at night is dangerous¡­ It¡¯s not good for my body either and I originally applied for office work¡­¡±? ? My voice trembled a little. In fact, I trembled even when I tried not to. I¡¯m angry.? ? ¡°Oh my, I thought you were doing it because you wanted to. Because the salary is high.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m doing it because the section chief told me to do a night shift. He doesn¡¯t seem to like the fact that I have a lover¡­ He¡¯s even married¡­¡±? ? ¡°Oh my God, the section chief is too much. He¡¯s completely insane.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry, Seo-yu ssi. I didn¡¯t know. Something needs to be done about that section chief bastard.? ? As I heard the swear words from the staff to the section chief, I sighed pitifully and vulnerably.? ? ¡°I need to go¡­ I have to go to work tonight. I don¡¯t know when we¡¯ll see each other again. Work hard¡­ Remember to empty the printer paper after working in the office.¡±? ? As soon as I parted ways with the employees and entered the emergency exit stairs, I shouted ¡°Argh¡± and my heart pounded.? ? I¡¯m so angry.? ? I should¡¯ve dialed the boss¡¯s number right away. Oh, how I wish I had kicked that perverted bastard in the balls.? ? Haa, haa.? ? I exhaled deeply and walked out of the building. In a moment of anger, I chose a cab that was immediately in front of me over a bus stop.? ? ¡°Where shall we go?¡±? ? I kept my arms crossed and my eyes closed as I gave the taxi driver my address. ? ? I was so angry with myself.? ? The reason the section chief bastard openly sexually harassed me in the office was because I acted so cheaply.? ? The first company dinner I attended after joining the company was two days after I broke up with my ex, and the section chief was my age preference.? ? The section chief must have been surprised to see Omega taking off his clothes and taking him to the motel easily.? ? He continues to do so since the impression of the time has left a lasting impression on him.? ? I gave room for it.? ? That¡¯s why I¡¯m so angry.? ? Fuck¡­ I was supposed to meet Choi Sung-hoon tonight!? ? I miss him so much, I want to meet him, I want to hear his voice, ah, damn it. Life¡­? ? ¡°Young man, we¡¯re here.¡±? ? I arrived home while feeling angry. Taxi charges have been covered since the beginning. On the way home, the footsteps felt heavy.? ? To whom¡­ I want to lament¡­ Anyone is fine.? ? I didn¡¯t know what to do now, so I went to my room and took some pills from the medicine box.? ? Even then, I was still angry and pounded my chest.? ? Why did I do that then? Knowing I was in a relationship with a company employee was fucking stupid, I should have cut it and refused.? ? I don¡¯t know how to tell Choi Sung-hoon to cancel today¡¯s appointment.? ? First and foremost, the longer I wait to speak, the more I regret it, therefore I¡¯ll tell him now. If I talk like a snitch for too long, I¡¯ll lose my temper and I shouldn¡¯t swear.? ? I¡¯m not one for casually discussing other people¡¯s lovers or crushes. Gossip exhausts the listener as well. It¡¯s also childish to tell others about it now that you¡¯re older. Even if it does, it should be light, as though it is passing through.? ? The moment I picked up my phone, it vibrated for a long time.? ? [Sung-hoon ssi] ? ? His name appeared on the screen. It was a phone call. Isn¡¯t this timing almost like a past-life couple?? ? I answered the phone excitedly by myself.? ? ¡°Yes, Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi.? ? My heart was healed by the low sexy voice.? ? ¨C I was wondering what you were doing, so I called. I didn¡¯t interfere with your work, did I?? ? ¡°No, I am home now.¡±? ? ¨C Why did you go home?? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry, but I have to cancel our appointment today. Something really absurd happened today. There¡¯s an old-fashioned section chief at work, and he suddenly started a quarrel in the morning and told me to work the night shift.¡±? ? ¨C Does the section chief know that you¡¯re an Omega?? ? ¡°He knows. He knows that I¡¯m recessive Omega, and the section chief is Beta, but he¡¯s a damn pervert. He¡¯s also quite old. When I originally applied, I applied for a day shift, right? But the section chief told me to work night shifts every two weeks at his will. Isn¡¯t it ridiculous? Honestly, everyone hates it. Isn¡¯t he supposed to know whether I did a good job? Every day I play computer poker and pay lupine money. I protested when I was told that I should work at night starting next week, but then he said I should start now. So I said okay and ran away.¡±? ? ¨C I see.? ? I heard a snap sound over the phone. It sounded like a human footstep, and it felt like there were several people.? ? ¨C Why did you have to work the night shift?? ? ¡°Because the section chief and I don¡¯t get along, he was doing that in revenge. We¡¯re no longer teenagers. Isn¡¯t it ridiculously funny? Why is he simply abusing his power on me, without considering what he has done in the past? What a petty thinker he is.¡±? ? ¨C Revenge.? ? He murmured lowly. The coolness has been transmitted to me as well.? ? ¨C Revenge means returning the harm done to others. What is his revenge for?? ? I shut my mouth at the sharp question.? ? Oh, I see. I should have given a different answer instead of revenge.? ? Should I say it?? ? That he sexually harassed me. I made it obvious that I didn¡¯t like it.? ? It¡¯s not that I haven¡¯t talked about it to people I¡¯ve dated in the past. But the reason why I¡¯m hesitating was¡­? ? ¡®Looks like you looked pretty cheap.¡¯? ? ¡®How do you want me to act?¡¯? ? ¡®It¡¯s all because Seo-yu is pretty.¡¯? ? I can¡¯t help but think of my ex-lover response. In addition, my one and only friend¡¯s reaction was¡­? ? ¡®You may be sensitive, but do you suffer from delusions?¡¯? ? I asked him to be angry with me, but his response was different than I expected, so I didn¡¯t tell anyone at one point. To be honest, they were right about me being cheap.? ? ¨C ¡­? ? I don¡¯t know what to say to my crush who is waiting for an answer.? ? I don¡¯t want to break this relationship.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was the first to speak while I still contemplating.? ? He had a soft voice. ? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi, did you harm him? Have you done anything that deserves revenge?? ? ¡°No, no. If I had beaten him, I would have accepted his beating.¡±? ? ¨C I see.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. I canceled our appointment on the same day¡­¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s fine, I understand you¡¯re upset, but please take a rest. In the evening, I¡¯ll pick you up in front of your house.? ? ¡°Yes? You don¡¯t have to.¡±? ? I just said one thing because I was afraid you wouldn¡¯t come if I actively declined the offer. I really want to see your face.? ? We agreed to meet at 7 p.m. and agreed to go to work together after dinner. I then hung up the phone.? ? We have to eat together and work hard.? ? The aching in my heart and the headache had gone away.? ? As expected, one short call with your crush is much more effective than nerve stabilization.? ? I really want to go out with him.? ? Even now, we¡¯re doing so well. Will it be over if I ask him out?? ? Even though I have no idea who his future Omega is, I¡¯m extremely jealous. CH 24 I worked until late on Friday and was so exhausted that I didn¡¯t leave the house at all over the weekend. On Saturday evening, aside from Won-jo bringing over snacks and soju for us to eat and drink together, I spent the entire time rolling around on the sofa in the living room.? ? I lay on my side like a shrimp in the middle of the living room in a massage chair, and I messaged or called the person who gave it to me as a gift.? ? When I found out Choi Sung-hoon was driving, I hung up the phone first, but when I saw ¡¯38 minutes end¡¯ floating on the screen, I quickly captured it.? ? [(Picture)]? ? [Hahaha, we talked on the phone for almost 40 minutes, hahaha]? ? I sent it to Won-jo immediately [I didn¡¯t ask. Please stop sending me ????] ? ? I got a reply like this. Of course, I will continue to send it.? ? Monday, following the golden holiday.? ? I arrived in front of the company at 8:50 p.m. after dinner at a Portuguese restaurant in Apgujeong with Choi Sung-hoon. I hurriedly said goodbye to Choi Sung-hoon because I was running late. I dashed to the logistics room on the first basement floor, but the atmosphere was hectic.? ? ¡°Hello, what¡¯s going on?¡±? ? ¡°Ah, Seo-yu ssi!¡±? ? The staff, who were seriously conversing with one another, came to me running.? ? ¡°What happened? Seo-yu¡¯s rotation has been canceled.¡±? ? ¡°What?¡±? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you hear that? Section chief Kang of the office team.¡±? ? ¡°What¡¯s wrong with him?¡±? ? ¡°You didn¡¯t know. There was an accident. Following that, he resigned from the company.¡±? ? I blinked my eyes.? ? Accident?? ? Resigned?? ? ¡°We just got a call, too. And Seo-yu ssi, I think you will continue to work the morning shift in the future. The boss said that he would contact you.¡±? ? My phone rang as soon as the assistant finished speaking. It was the boss. The staff made a fuss that I should get it.? ? I left the logistics room and answered the phone.? ? ¡°Yes, sir.¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi, I heard the section chief assigned you to the night shift last Friday. Don¡¯t do it again in the future. I had no idea you worked in the rotation.? ? ¡°What do you mean that the section chief had an accident?¡±? ? ¨C I¡¯m not sure. He was absent from work without permission today, but he called me in the afternoon to say he was leaving the company. I was extremely irritated. In any case, Seo-yu ssi has been promoted to section chief Seo. I¡¯ll be at the office tomorrow, so let¡¯s plan a company dinner.? ? ¡°Sir, but¡­¡±? ? ¨C In any case, I¡¯ll see you tomorrow. Let¡¯s talk about the former section chief Kang.? ? The boss hung up the phone before I could respond. I stood there with my phone raised for a few moments before returning to the logistics room and bidding farewell.? ? I¡¯m not sure what happened, but I felt strange.? ? As I went up the stairs, I felt dizzy and stopped.? ? I had a lot of thoughts. I grabbed the railing, took a deep breath, and managed to go up.? ? The walls were distorted and the stairs wobbled.? ? I was surprised to see Choi Sung-hoon standing in the lobby as I struggled to open the door.? ? Why are you here? What about the car?? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? A big man strode over with his long legs.? ? ¡°Why did you come back?¡±? ? ¡°You didn¡¯t go?¡±? ? ¡°It is you.¡±? ? ¡°Work¡­ It¡¯s been canceled. They told me not to go to work.¡±? ? I was a little confused. He gently grabbed my arm as I stood still in my position.? ? ¡°Then I¡¯ll have to take you back.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon walked me out as if he were an escort. The car was apparently parked in front of the building and it hadn¡¯t been turned off yet.? ? I got into a car that I saw for the first time today and wondered how many other cars he had. As usual, he fastened his seat belt and asked.? ? ¡°What happened? You don¡¯t look good.¡±? ? ¡°I just got a call from the boss and asked me to see him tomorrow. The section chief has left the company. There was an accident¡­¡±? ? He was fine until last Friday.? ? ¡°Accident¡­¡±? ? ¡°It won¡¯t be a big accident. Don¡¯t worry.¡±? ? The car started smoothly. I¡¯m not sure where we¡¯re going. My heartbeat was becoming faster and faster.? ? ¡°It¡¯s late, so go to Seo-yu¡¯s ssi house¡­ Are you okay?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon asked as I seemed to be losing my mind. I bit my lower lip.? ? ¡°Wait. I need to make a phone call. I¡¯m worried.¡±? ? ¡°Worried?¡±? ? ¡°He was a newlywed. What if something big happened to him? How serious of an accident is causing resignation until retirement? What kind of an accident would that be?¡±? ? I took out my cell phone and hurriedly looked through my contacts when a long, thick finger appeared and pulled out my cell phone. Choi Sung-hoon stopped the car on the side of the road and raised one eyebrow.? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you hate the section chief?¡±? ? Our gazes locked. He had a slight frown in the middle of his brow. His lips were closed in a single line, his chin was hardened, and his gaze emitted cold air. He looked at me as if he didn¡¯t understand what I was doing right now.? ? ¡°I hate him, but this time is different. It¡¯s strange that someone who was fine even on Friday abruptly resigned. I¡¯m not sure what kind of accident it would have been. Accidents always happen suddenly. He was a newlywed, and he had a lovely wife who had recently married after a long separation. What happens if she is left alone, if my wife is left alone¡­¡±? ? My voice was trembling. I took a deep breath. I clenched my fists in fear of exposing my current unstable mental state.? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked at me softly and opened his mouth.? ? ¡°¡­ Wait for a bit-.¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°Wait a minute. I need to make a quick phone call. If no one is inside, the car will be towed, so please take a seat for a moment.¡±? ? ¡°Give me the pho-.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stood up and left before I could finish my sentence, most likely because it was urgent.? ? He made a phone call outside, attracting people¡¯s attention. His gaze was directed at me. He won¡¯t be able to see me very well because the car is tinted.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I waited about 30 seconds and got out of the car because I couldn¡¯t stand it.? ? ¡°¡­Yes, pass it on like that.¡±? ? He was commanding someone in a cold voice, and his gaze was drawn to me. I approached Choi Sung-hoon directly and pointed to the cell phone in his hand.? ? ¡®Please give it to me.¡¯? ? ¡°¡­I didn¡¯t know it would be sensitive and demanding.¡±? ? However, Choi Sung-hoon pretended not to know and continued the call.? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t know it would be like this¡­ No, it¡¯s very cute.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­It¡¯s always interesting to see a different reaction than expected¡­ It¡¯s definitely the first time.¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t say anything. I don¡¯t know what the conversation was about, but his eyes were intense as if he would chew me up while expressing it as fun.? ? The heavy sinking air and the stillness make me feel suffocated. Even though it wasn¡¯t an alpha pheromone, I was terrified. The eyes of the people watching us on the road were scattered.? ? ¡°¡­It¡¯s going to cry¡­ I¡¯ll call you later.¡±? ? The tension continued for a while, and then Choi Sung-hoon hung up the phone with a smile.? ? I could barely breathe.? ? I thought I was going to get eaten. What is it that makes me so sensitive and self-conscious?? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, why are you out here? It¡¯s cold.¡±? ? ¡°¡­my cell phone.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. In a hurry, I brought yours too.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon handed the cell phone gently.? ? I walked into the alley where I could see and left behind the persistent gaze.? ? I called the section chief who I had never contacted before while working at the company.? ? The section chief did not answer the phone.? ? My heart was beating hard.? ? The second time I called the section chief¡¯s wife. I¡¯m glad I didn¡¯t delete the number.? ? ¨C Hello.? ? A sharp voice answered the call.? ? ¡°Hello, my name is Seo-yu from the Sojin company. I called after hearing about the accident involving section chief Kang.¡±? ? ¨C Don¡¯t even talk about that bastard!? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¨C Please do not contact me because I am divorcing him. Did you notify the company that there had been an accident? Ha, what accident? When I discovered the truth, he fled with his girlfriend. That trashy bastard.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¨C Anyway, I¡¯m sick of it, and I don¡¯t want that jerk, so don¡¯t look for him again. Do you get it?? ? The section chief¡¯s wife shouted sharply and hung up the phone.? ? Whew¡­? ? I sighed and sat down. I lost strength in my body and fell to the ground.? ? It wasn¡¯t an accident.? ? He was a total jerk. He got married last year after a long relationship and was still on his honeymoon, but he quit the company because he ran away with his girlfriend. Was he insane? It was a waste of time to be concerned for even a moment.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? A soft call was heard from behind. I was frantically worried about that trash in front of Choi Sung-hoon, but somehow I became humble and looked back.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who stood like a pillar, bowed his knees so our gazes could meet.? ? ¡°What¡¯s wrong with your expression? Is it a big accident?¡±? ? ¡°No¡­ It was nothing to worry about.¡±? ? ¡°Then that¡¯s a relief.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon reached out and touched my bangs before wrapping his hands around my cheeks. I rubbed my cheeks against his palms despite his cold hands. Choi Sung-hoon then raised the corner of his mouth as if satisfied.? ? ¡°It¡¯s cold today. Let¡¯s go in.¡±? ? He gently pulled me up. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s attractive appearance drew a lot of attention. However, Choi Sung-hoon was unconcerned.? ? He fluttered his muffler and took me back to the car. Because the heater was turned on, the inside of the car was warm. I gradually tightened my seat belt.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry that I unintentionally heard your conversation.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s fine. There is no reason to hide it.¡±? ? ¡°Is the sensitive and demanding thing resolved?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon only smiled and did not respond to my question. He didn¡¯t even think to grab the steering wheel; instead, he caressed my cheek.? ? ¡°Do you have any pets?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes, it is similar to that. It will come in soon.¡±? ? I wondered if it was real.? ? Choi Sung-hoon and a little animal! That would be cute.? ? ¡°Have you raised a lot of animals?¡±? ? ¡°This is the first time.¡±? ? ¡°Wow, that must be exciting. I¡¯ve never raised one, but I think I know how excited you are. When I was young, my friend couldn¡¯t sleep and waited.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who would actually become the owner, was calm, but I felt excited.? ? In my house, my parents and my brother were very much against it, so we couldn¡¯t raise a dog.? ? It was back when I was younger. I used to think my friend¡¯s dog was so cute that I wanted to try raising it. Then I was scolded for whining about having to raise one, and I was told that when I become independent at the age of 20, I would be able to do so. My mother brought dinner to my room and fed me while I cried alone under a blanket. I also remember that it was soybean paste soup with spinach side dishes. My father gave me pocket money and my brother bought me a toy the next day.? ? It feels like a long time ago.? ? It disappears so quickly at once that it hurts to remember what happened when I was younger.? ? The section chief was trash, but I¡¯m glad it wasn¡¯t a major accident. Even if I never see him again¡­ I¡¯m glad he was okay? ? I closed my eyes and smiled.? ? ¡°Awesome. Even pets are out of the question for me. I¡¯ve heard that you should be in a calm environment. You must be mentally and physically prepared. You¡¯re going to have to spend the rest of your lives together.¡±? ? ¡°I expect that it will be different from the life I have had until now.¡±? ? ¡°I look forward to it.¡±? ? ¡°Yes. I am very much looking forward to it as well.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon wiped my eyes with his finger. There was warmth in his cold eyes, and his eyes were softly curved.? ? ¡°For the first time in my life¡­¡±? ? I didn¡¯t pay attention to Choi Sung-hoon until the very end. His face seemed to come close, he lifted my face slightly and kissed me. My lips twitched up in response to the light, feathery kiss. Choi Sung-hoon let go of his grip on my chin as if he was satisfied with just one kiss.? ? ¡°¡­Yes¡­¡±? ? I wrapped my arms around Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s neck, who was about to move away. Choi Sung-hoon grabbed my waist and responded violently after a brief pause after I kissed his cheek first. Our saliva blended together. His breathing was rough, and his hands were warm.? ? It was me who ended the long kiss first.? ? When I pushed his shoulder gently, it fell off reluctantly, but there was a heat that did not subside in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes.? ? I pat the back of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s large hand wrapped around my waist.? ? ¡°I can¡¯t because today is Monday.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m very sorry¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon flinched as he looked down with devouring eyes. He turned his head. The scar on his cheek twitched a little.? ? ¡°Yes, I know. I will leave.¡±? ? When the hand that was wrapped around my waist moved away, I was sad. It was very disappointing to see a 196cm tall, inverted triangle-shaped man sitting upright and holding the steering wheel¡­? ? As we arrived in front of my house, we kissed briefly again before getting out of the car.? ? To be honest, I¡¯ve never been a sexy person, so I don¡¯t know if they kiss each other this often. If Choi Sung-hoon has a lover, I will feel so empty. No¡­ I think it¡¯s going to be very painful.? ? ¡°Go in. I will come tomorrow morning.¡±? ? ¡°It must be difficult from Nonhyeon to here¡­ You are not overdoing it¡­right?¡±? ? He muddled his words in an attempt to respond that it wasn¡¯t too much. Choi Sung-hoon smiled leisurely and said, ¡°It¡¯s okay,¡± but his eyes showed that he knew exactly what my intentions were.? ? He sometimes looks at me as if I were an animal. To be more specific, he looked at me as if I were a dog or a cat. Every time, I felt embarrassed.? ? ¡°I think Choi Sung-hoon ssi will be good at raising any animal.¡±? ? ¡°Is that so.¡±? ? ¡°But what are you raising? If it¡¯s sensitive and demanding, it¡¯s not a puppy¡­ maybe a cat?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Fox.¡±? ? He thought for a moment and then answered.? ? ¡°Very lovely¡­It¡¯s a fox.¡±? ? It was a voice that couldn¡¯t hide its joy. CH 25 ? ? At the age of 28, I was appointed as a representative. It felt awkward and strange to be addressed as section chief Seo.? ? I guess I should still be called as a student. I¡¯m not an adult at all.? ? I couldn¡¯t be happy because I was promoted as a result of the resignation of the former section chief who had an affair, and I hope my family knows that their immature youngest was given the title of section chief.? ? So promotion was meaningless. Cause there was no one to be happy with anymore.? ? I roughly threw my business card holder in my bag. The boss came in while I was cleaning my desk.? ? ¡°Now, now. Everyone. Let¡¯s eat some beef and part right away. Have a good time.¡±? ? The boss, who had been in the office since Tuesday, was always relaxed. He would have been the perfect boss if he had been more interested in the company¡¯s internal affairs¡­? ? Speaking of bosses, it reminds me of Choi Sung-hoon¡­ I told him that I would let him know when he need to come to pick me up because I had a company dinner today. We didn¡¯t promise to meet on the weekend, but it was already set in stone, even if we don¡¯t tell each other. That¡¯s how it was been all along. I think we¡¯ll go to the hotel tonight as well.? ? ¡°This is my first time having a dinner with both the logistics team and the office team.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, is that so? After all, it¡¯s been a year for us.¡±? ? ¡°This is the first time I¡¯ve seen the boss come to work four days a week.¡±? ? ¡°He won¡¯t be here again from next week. It¡¯s good for us.¡±? ? The staff and the other section chief got up with their bags. I followed them as well.? ? The company dinner took place directly across the street from the company, at a meat restaurant. It¡¯s the best Korean beef restaurant, but I didn¡¯t eat much because I didn¡¯t have much of an appetite, possibly because my mouth was torn.? ? Food doesn¡¯t taste good these days. I don¡¯t think I¡¯ll have any appetite unless I have the extremely dominant Alpha with a scar on his cheek in front of me.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, why aren¡¯t you eating? Are you sick?¡±? ? ¡°No, it¡¯s just¡­¡±? ? ¡°What? Seo-yu ssi can¡¯t eat it? Shall we eat rib eye? I¡¯d like to have rib eye here.¡±? ? The boss ordered rib eye on his own.? ? The red glossy rib eye has arrived. I don¡¯t have much of an appetite, so I don¡¯t particularly crave the finest Korean beef rib eye. However, I feel bad if I don¡¯t eat it, so I¡¯ll have to eat a little of it.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, eat well. Eat a lot and gain some weight. Okay? I¡¯m sorry I couldn¡¯t take care of you before.¡±? ? I just nodded. My mouth was full of meat and it was difficult to speak.? ? ¡°Our office and logistics teams all worked very hard, and I apologize for the lack of company dinners and year-end parties due to our hectic workload. Let¡¯s have more of these events this year. Cheers, all together.¡±? ? This was something the boss always says, and it was a quarterly gathering. That¡¯s why it was enjoyable.? ? Today, we just ate and the company dinner was over. Without exaggeration, everyone smiled as they parted in a pleasant atmosphere. The boss, who has two kids, packed two sets of Korean beef for four people to give to the kids.? ? I called Choi Sung-hoon on the way back to work.? ? ¡°Sung-hyung, it¡¯s over now. Come pick me up.¡±? ? ¨C Have you been drinking?? ? ¡°I had a drink.¡±? ? ¨C I¡¯m leaving now. It¡¯ll take 20 minutes, so go inside somewhere warm place.? ? ¡°It¡¯s snowing, so drive safely.¡±? ? I hung up the phone and used the key to enter the dimly lit office. I crept around like a thief, taking out toothpaste and a toothbrush.? ? I wasn¡¯t planning on eating much, but the boss kept adding rib eye¡­ I don¡¯t eat garlic with beef, but he packed me a garlic wrap¡­. I¡¯ll meet my crush after brushing my teeth.? ? I brushed my teeth, sprayed perfume, and went down to the first floor. As I exited the lobby, I noticed Ho-in had noticed me in the cafe and beckoned. It was like a puppy waving its tail at its owner who was hiding behind a wall.? ? I left the building after showing my palm in the sense of ¡°Wait a minute.¡± In front of the company, there is an uncle who sells fish-shaped buns every winter. Last year, a thousand won was for four buns, but this year, thousand won was for three.? ? I entered the cafe with two envelopes in both hands.? ? Ho-in was just giving drinks to customers. I waited in the back and approached after the customer left.? ? ¡°Eat these fish-shaped buns. There are only two red beans and two custard cream, and they are delicious.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­¡±? ? Ho-in was overjoyed when he saw the envelope I was holding out.? ? He asked the staff to organize and came out of the counter. We sat at a table by the window.? ? ¡°Thank you so much¡­I¡¯ll eat well¡­¡±? ? Ho-in¡¯s eyes were teary and embarrassed after receiving an envelope containing fish-shaped buns. What is this¡­ ? ? ¡°It reminds me of the past. Four years ago¡­ Even then, you gave me fish-shaped buns.¡±? ? ¡°Am I?¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi may not remember because you were drunk.¡±? ? He smiled affectionately as he clutched the bag of fish-shaped buns. Then he started telling me about my dark past.? ? ¡°Probably¡­ It was also the day of the gathering. Seo-yu was also a new employee at the time, and I had just started my own business. I was finishing up by myself when a cute-looking young office worker entered, smelling of alcohol, and ordered a warm iced Americano. He was also requesting a large amount of whipped cream. When he finished paying, he left without waiting for the drink. I was really flustered because it was my first time experiencing it¡­¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­ I¡¯m flustered too¡­¡±? ? ¡°You also sound like a drunk, but you returned while I was debating whether I should keep making drinks. You¡¯re holding a white envelope. You were sitting at the table and kept nodding. When the drink arrived, you staggered, walked over, handed over the envelope, and said this. ¡°Fish-shaped buns sweet red bean paste and custard cream taste so good.¡± Then you left while I was staring at the steaming hot fish-shaped bun. I topped the hot Americano with whipped cream and served it with ice.¡±? ? Ho-in softly smiles, as if recalling a nostalgic and affectionate memory, but I am sober right now and want to leave.? ? ¡°From then on, I¡­¡±? ? His voice was so low that I couldn¡¯t hear it.? ? From then on, I¡­ what? From then on, I know that you were an idiot?? ? I shouldn¡¯t ask¡­? ? ¡°I am ashamed. I¡¯m usually a strong drinker, but I guess I was drunk then.¡±? ? ¡°You were cute. Really.¡±? ? Ho-in smiled with his eyes curved, but he looked lonely somehow. To be honest, it¡¯s been a long time since I¡¯ve seen him smile brightly. Was he having difficulties at work these days?? ? ¡°Are you meeting with that Alpha today as well?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I am waiting for him to come to pick me up.¡±? ? When I looked out the window, I noticed a familiar limousine approaching.? ? Arrived as soon as I thought about it. As expected, it¡¯s fate.? ? Limousine means that there was a separate driver today. I have to give the fish-shaped buns to the driver.? ? ¡°He has arrived just now. I¡¯ll get going. Ho-in ssi, hurry up and go home as well.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Tomorrow too¡­ You would spend it with him, right?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, maybe¡­¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s good to see you around these days, Seo-yu ssi. Until now¡­ You look like the best person I¡¯ve met in 4 years¡­ You seem to be the happiest I¡¯ve seen in the last four years¡­ And with that, I¡­¡±? ? Ho-in drew a sad smile as he gripped the bag of the fish-shaped buns.? ? I said my goodbyes and walked out, sweeping my goosebumps arm. I¡¯m not sure why I feel creeped out when he says he likes it because I look happy.? ? * * *? ? ¨C Exhibition? You?? ? I decided to go to the exhibition this Friday.? ? Choi Sung-hoon handed me a ticket while I was waiting for a room service meal on Sunday lunch. On Friday evening, I¡¯d like to attend an exhibition.? ? I¡¯ve been dating people who were 20 years older than me, but Choi Sung-hoon was the first to take me to an exhibition. Neither the professor nor the doctoral candidate has ever taken me to such a lofty place, but the person who looks the most distant from the exhibition has.? ? So, when I told Won-jo, this was his reaction.? ? ¨C What kind of exhibition is it? If it is a dildo exhibition, it is acceptable.? ? ¡°Are you kidding? It¡¯s a Picasso exhibition, you stupid bastard.¡±? ? ¡®Is it a human anatomy exhibition or a body organ exhibition?¡¯? ? ¡®¡­ It¡¯s a Picasso exhibition.¡¯? ? Choi Sung-hoon wriggled around his mouth when I asked a similar question. So I came home yesterday and spent an hour searching only about Picasso.? ? ¡°Do you know what Picasso drew? He¡¯s such a great painter. He is a 20th-century Spanish painter whose most famous work is .¡±? ? ¨C That sounds very obscene.? ? ¡°Ugh¡­ You ignorant bastard.¡±? ? ¨C Spain and whatever, calm down, you idiot. That bastard is playing with you. He just wants to see your reactions.? ? ¡°What¡¯s wrong with playing with me? As long as I¡¯m having fun and a good time as well.¡±? ? ¨C Yeah, if that¡¯s the case. Don¡¯t call me later while you¡¯re cursing at him.? ? ¡°I won¡¯t. Do you have any news about your relationship?¡±? ? ¨C I don¡¯t know, damn it. Have all high-quality men gone into hibernation?? ? ¡°When I get to meet Choi Sung-hoon, I¡¯ll ask him to introduce you to a friend.¡±? ? ¨C Don¡¯t say something scary.? ? Won-jo is a friend who would buy spicy tteokbokki when his friend¡¯s mouth is completely worn out. I considered it, but whenever I mentioned him, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice became cold, as if he truly despised Won-jo.? ? I had hung up by the time I got home. Choi Sung-hoon had been driving me home lately, but I was walking alone today, so it was very cold and lonely.? ? Choi Sung-hoon has something more important than a sex partner like me. He said he was going to India right now, then to China the day after tomorrow, and then to meet me on Friday.? ? I hope Friday comes soon¡­? ? When we meet this time, I should ask him out¡­? ? I¡¯m not sure he¡¯d want to go out with me.? ? Only good things have happened since meeting Choi Sung-hoon, and I am happy. However, I dislike it when I am unable to have sex as a result of a hasty confession.? ? He was the only extremely dominant Alpha in my life who invited me to the Picasso exhibition, and I think it would be very sad if the relationship ended in this way.? ? Even if we¡¯re actually dating¡­ that¡¯s another matter. Maybe I won¡¯t forget these days until I die. This winter will be a beautiful and warm memory for the rest of my life, so I don¡¯t want to rush the end.? ? But I want to go out with him. I want to proudly say that Choi Sung-hoon is my lover.? ? Wouldn¡¯t it be an amazing experience to burn love so short and thick¡­ To be honest, I¡¯m not even planning on getting married¡­? ? While thinking about dating, I got closer to my house and noticed a man walking around. For a brief moment, I mistook him for Choi Sung-hoon, but he was only half the size of Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Ah, Seo-yu. You just got home now.¡±? ? Park Jin-cheol was a muscular man half the size of Choi Sung-hoon. Park Jin-cheol approached me while smoking a cigarette. I furrowed my brow.? ? ¡°What? Why are you in front of my house?¡±? ? ¡°I came because I couldn¡¯t contact you at all.¡±? ? ¡°Why you are unable to contact me? Don¡¯t you get it?¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re still arrogant.¡±? ? Park Jin-cheol, who dyed his hair light brown when we were dating, now had a two-toned appearance because the roots had turned black. I used to like it because it was unusual to see a slightly flashy appearance, but now I can¡¯t stand looking at it.? ? It was the first time I met a lover my own age, so there were a lot of new experiences. Even though it ended with the conclusion that I needed a mature alpha who could embrace my flaws.? ? ¡°How was the memorial service?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s been a while since it ended. It was last year.¡±? ? ¡°Seeing you being so arrogant, you must have had a lover.¡±? ? ¡°Of course. Did you expect me to be alone while missing you up until now?¡±? ? While I was busy preparing for the memorial service, Park Jin-cheol broke up with me with the message [I don¡¯t think you and I are right, let¡¯s break up]. Although my frivolous behavior was the cause of the breakup, there was no reason not to be arrogant towards the ex-boyfriend who made the rude breakup.? ? ¡°Take a look at what you¡¯re saying. You¡¯re still choosing words that make you look cheap.¡±? ? I shuddered. I believe I simply said it normally, but some words were sounded problematic.? ? ¡°I told you to get rid of that habit. It bothers me. Do you want to stop seeing everyone you were seeing now?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ I didn¡¯t do anything. It¡¯s because you said it rudely.¡±? ? I think I was arrogant with Choi Sung-hoon from the beginning¡­? ? I was intimidated, and my voice grew smaller on its own.? ? Park Jin-cheol approached me with an arrogant expression after noticing my change.? ? ¡°There¡¯s nothing wrong with saying that only one fucker who¡¯s going to poke a hole in this shit..¡±? ? ¡°It has nothing to do with you who says or does what¡­ And if he¡¯s simply a fucker, then you¡¯re a fucking fucker. Go away if you don¡¯t have anything to say. It¡¯s a waste of time.¡±? ? ¡°Are you going to continue to be arrogant like that, even with that rose bouquet? Don¡¯t you know that we broke up because of that?¡±? ? Rose? He was looking at my profile picture.? ? ¡°Do you know that whenever you see alpha, you¡¯re an Omega that is ready to spread out your holes?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ What does that have to do with you?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t you get tired of trembling in front of a dickhead?¡±? ? ¡°Damn it, I don¡¯t care if I tremble or not. Are you checking to see if I¡¯ve found a new lover? Why do you keep changing the subject when you¡¯re only going to say the damn thing? Did your brain get ripped off?¡±? ? In a quiet alley, only my voice could be heard. Park Jin-cheol, who had been silent for some time, rubbed his cigarette roughly against the wall and laughed distortedly. It wasn¡¯t frightening; he was just like a bully.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t you have that video with me?¡±? ? ¡°What video?¡±? ? ¡°You swallowed my semen and coughed while sucking my dick. You were so cute.¡±? ? Haa, so this was what they referred to as revenge porn.? ? It was time for me to laugh. I looked the poor guy in the eyes and laughed out loud.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t you know I also have a video?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ What?¡±? ? ¡°Your dick fell out in three minutes when I turned my back from the top. At first, I thought you had a disease. I was very truly worried.¡±? ? I am a person who has mastered hidden camera threats. I¡¯ve been through it numerous times since I was a teen, so I know how to deal with it. I didn¡¯t actually record a hidden camera video, but if I say it like this, they¡¯ll believe it. They believe that because they actually filmed it, others will as well.? ? ¡°T-this rag doesn¡¯t even know anything!¡±? ? ¡°Why? You want to hit me? Hit me, you bastard!¡±? ? I didn¡¯t get scared and point out my right cheek. The guy in front of me raised his fist and punched me without hesitation.? ? Puck, I heard a sound and my head turned. The area under the eyes and around the cheekbones throbbed.? ? ¡°You are nothing more than a rag¡­¡±? ? I closed my eyes because I thought his fist would fly again. As expected, he slapped my other cheek.? ? This bastard put his ring on and punched me in the face¡­? ? ¡°We broke up because of you, so why are you making me a bad person, damn it.¡±? ? The things he said while beating were bullshit.? ? My right cheekbone and left temple were both hits. I was afraid the ring would scratch me and cause me to bleed.? ? My eyes were spinning. I managed to avoid the third fist, but it was aimed at my eyes, so I would have been in big trouble if I had been hit.? ? I kicked Park Jin-cheol¡¯s knee really hard. He screamed and looked at me.? ? I wasn¡¯t scared at all.? ? My shoulders were shaking not because I was afraid.? ? ¡°If you hit me again, I¡¯ll call the police right away. You know I¡¯m acting in self-defense because you lifted your hand first, right? That car has a black box.¡±? ? Park Jin-cheol breathed out vigorously.? ? ¡°As you said, we break up because of me. But fuck it, it¡¯s not necessarily my fault. What should I do when I see myself being controlled by pheromones because I am extremely recessive? If you¡¯re a lover, don¡¯t you think it¡¯s right that you should have read and comforted me in that situation?¡±? ? ¡°To who do you think you transferring the responsibility now¡­¡±? ? ¡°I think you came because you just wanted to hit Omega again. ¡­ Just go. Before I report it.¡±? ? I didn¡¯t look at Park Jin-cheol.? ? Park Jin-cheol would occasionally hit me during sex or when he was angry, but I never sat still and ripped off this jerk¡¯s thigh or punched him in the stomach. Park Jin-cheol has a better physique than me, but he¡¯s the same height as me, so hitting him quite a bit.? ? He probably thought I¡¯d retaliate right away even now. But, aside from kicking his knee, I didn¡¯t raise my hand.? ? He just lowered his head and looked away.? ? ¡°Go. I don¡¯t want to get attached to you anymore.¡±? ? The area where I had been hit was throbbing. I think I¡¯m going to get a black bruise tomorrow.? ? I suddenly realized that I might not be able to meet Choi Sung-hoon until Friday as a result of this.? ? As expected, it was also fate.? ? Laughter leaked out of the embarrassment.? ? ¡°You¡­¡±? ? Park Jin-cheol, who was struggling for breath, spoke up.? ? ¡°When we meet for work¡­¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t worry. Just pretend we don¡¯t know each other.¡±? ? ¡°Video too.¡±? ? ¡°If you don¡¯t spread it, I won¡¯t spread it either.¡±? ? Park Jin-chul¡¯s rough breathing calmed down, possibly because my response was reassuring.? ? He walked right past me.? ? I looked at the back of Park Jin-cheol as he walked down the dark alley.? ? After a while, I went home.? ? I left all of the lights on, and there was loud entertainment on TV, but the house was cold and quiet.? ? I glanced at the massage chair and entered the master bedroom.? ? I was lying in the big bed where my parents were sleeping. My father¡¯s magnifying glasses and my mother¡¯s Bible were by the bedside.? ? My parents and older brother left the youngest son, who was a recessive Omega with a bad brain and no railroad, too quickly. They suddenly made him independent while raising him with all kinds of love.? ? Even though I¡¯m 28 years old, whenever I want to eat, I still look for my parents and brother.? ? Everything has an end.? ? Love cools down.? ? I once considered marrying Park Jin-cheol. But it eventually comes to this. It¡¯s always my fault in the end.? ? It was repulsive enough to hit.? ? My face throbbed.? ? ¡°I told you to get rid of that habit. It bothers me. Do you want to stop seeing everyone you were seeing now?¡±? ? Park Jin-cheol¡¯s words lingered in my ears like tinnitus.? ? I mean, Park Jin-cheol showed up on the day Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t take me home, and when the bruises faded, Choi Sung-hoon cae back¡­ It was like a divine revelation. Don¡¯t be arrogant or overly enthusiastic by yourself¡­? ? To be honest, I want to tell Choi Sung-hoon a lot of things about how I was beaten by my ex-boyfriend. I want to send a picture of the bruise and tell him on the phone that something like this happened. Then I realized I was too old to be acting that way.? ? Even the timing was perfect¡­? ? I usually call before bed every day, but not today. Choi Sung-hoon was on his way to China at the time. It was perfect timing.? ? My face was burning, and my fever was rising.? ? First and foremost, the most serious issue was that my face would be a total mess the next day. I got up with a sigh and prepared an ice pack. CH 26 I went to work wearing thick horn-rimmed glasses and a mask, as well as a padded hat. I had everyone¡¯s attention from the bus stop.? ? The manager was taken aback and instructed me to go to the hospital. I¡¯ve gone to work with bruises before, but this time was especially bad.? ? In the morning, the insides of my cheeks burst and I spit blood, my eyes turned into chestnuts, and my entire face swelled.? ? The doctor just looked at it and noticed how many times I was hit. I couldn¡¯t raise my head because I was embarrassed. I¡¯m not sure why I¡¯m embarrassed.? ? I sat in the waiting room after receiving simple treatment, waiting for my prescription. Even on a weekday morning, there were a lot of people.? ? People who have been to the hospital since the morning due to illness. I¡¯m not sure if it¡¯s okay for me to be here.? ? My brother had been hospitalized for a week. Later, I discovered that the medical personnel had shaken their heads, indicating that my brother would not survive while being transported in an ambulance. My brother, on the other hand, was still alive for another week.? ? I am now twenty-eight years old. I grew up to be older than my brother, but I went to the hospital after being beaten by my ex.? ? Do I deserve to live in the ¡°tomorrow¡± that my brother was so adamant about?? ? As I sat down and thought about it, a vibration rang out.? ? I received a phone call from Choi Sung-hoon. I was embarrassed by the unexpected call because I had been texting rather than talking at work. Before I could figure out why, my finger was already touching the accept button.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi.? ? Choi Sung-hoon called my name in a somewhat subdued voice.? ? ¨C Sorry for calling during business hours. I just want to hear your voice.? ? ¡°It¡¯s a coincidence. I was hoping to hear your voice as well.¡±? ? ¨C There¡¯s a lot of noise around. Aren¡¯t you at the office?? ? It was a terrifying question. How did he find out?? ? ¡°I just went out for a little while. It¡¯s close to the office. Choi Sung-hoon, where are you? Are you doing well at work?¡±? ? I¡¯ll hide the fact that I went to the hospital and was hit. I thought about it all night yesterday and concluded that there was nothing good in telling him about it.? ? ¨C Are you eating something?? ? ¡°No, there¡¯s still a long way to go before lunch. Is Choi Sung-hoon ssi having lunch? The time difference between here and Beijing¡­¡±? ? ¨C Your pronunciation is strange unless you¡¯re putting something in your mouth.? ? I realized why he had asked for such a question. It¡¯s because my pronunciation was gradually deteriorating. Because my face was swollen and my teeth were throbbing, so my pronunciation was not good as if I were biting something.? ? ¡°I¡¯m munching on candy. To freshen my breath.¡±? ? -¡­Candy.? ? ¡°Yes, Sung-hoon ssi, how is your work going? I¡¯m sure you¡¯re exhausted from your trip abroad.¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi.? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? He paused for a beat, as if suppressing something, and then continued.? ? ¨C Is everything alright?? ? ¡°There¡¯s nothing? Nothing happened here, so everything is alright.¡±? ? ¨C Something you must tell me of. I¡­ something that I need to hear. Is there nothing at all?? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was so low that it was frightening. My heart was pounding.? ? Even though Choi Sung-hoon was in China and had no idea what had happened the day before or where I was, I was terrified. It was a tone that indicated he was already aware.? ? ¡°There is none. Everyday life is like a squirrel wheel. Just¡­ I¡¯d like to see you soon. I want to go to the Picasso exhibition as soon as possible with Choi Sung-hoon ssi. Nothing else.¡±? ? To be honest, I¡¯m not sure I¡¯ll be able to attend the exhibition on Friday with this face. I thought it would get better soon, but the doctor said the bruise would turn greener the next day.? ? I hope I¡¯ll be fine on Friday. I want to go even if I have to wear sunglasses and a mask. When I meet Choi Sung-hoon, it¡¯s usually in a restaurant or hotel, and we rarely go outside, so I¡¯ll definitely go there and fold my arms and show off that he¡¯s my crush.? ? When I think of going on a date with people¡¯s envious stares and spending time warming each other¡¯s arms, it motivates me to live hard today and for the future.? ? ¡°What about Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¨C ¡­It¡¯s the same? ? Choi Sung-hoon answered in a low voice.? ? ¨C Everyday life is like being on a treadmill. Except that right now, all I want to see is your face.? ? The content was sweet, but the voice was a little cold.? ? * * * ? ? The manager suggested leaving early, but because the number of employees had decreased, I refused because I felt bad to rest. My face was throbbing and it was unsightly, but it was not interfering with my work. That¡¯s what I thought, but when I got home from work, was half-dead.? ? I trembled as I walked down the stairs, knowing that all I had was the strength to get back home. I greeted Ho-in, who was snooping around the lobby. His innocent expression with round eyes turned into ¡°The Scream¡± drawn by Munch. Ho-in shook off the staff that was holding him and ran out to me, saying only, ¡°Oh my god.¡±? ? ¡°Is the gangster Alpha¡­¡±? ? ¡°No. Absolutely not.¡±? ? To Ho-in, who had suspicions about Choi Sung-hoon, I assured him that he was not and sent him in.? ? When I left the building, a large black Mercedes stood proudly in the parking lot, and when I passed by, someone got out.? ? I thought he was familiar with short hair and a square face, it turned out to be the gangster-like brother who had previously brought me a lunch box.? ? ¡°¡­Your face why, why¡­¡±? ? Just like Ho-in, the gangster-like brother ran over and said this repeatedly, ¡°Oh my God, what¡¯s going on?¡±? ? ¡°Tell me that our boss did it.¡±? ? ¡°No. Absolutely not.¡±? ? I calmed down the panic-stricken gangster-like brother and we boarded the Mercedes-Benz together. I need to convince him not to tell Choi Sung-hoon.? ? There was already a driver in the Benz. When he said he¡¯d take me home, the car started moving.? ? ¡°Damn, how did your face become like this?¡±? ? The gangster-like brother lamented with a shocked face. I don¡¯t think I used to use a dialect before, but I could feel the tone of the dialect.? ? He kept asking who made me into this shape, and if I was hit by a thug on my way home, ¡°There won¡¯t be a thug in my neighborhood.¡± I muttered¡­ Then he pulled out his phone and attempted to take a picture, which I desperately stopped. There was a click sound, but I¡¯m not sure if my face came out.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t send it to Choi Sung-hoon. It¡¯s embarrassing.¡±? ? ¡°He sent me, so he already knows. He told me to protect your commute in the future.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m so thankful, but why did he send you¡­¡±? ? ¡°I know your address, so you gave it to me. You don¡¯t want to have more people who know your company and home address.¡±? ? I wondered how did Choi Sung-hoon know I was injured. I don¡¯t think it was obvious that I got hurt just by my bad pronunciation. He may have thought I had fallen or hit something, but it was also amazing that he asked to ¡°protect¡± my commute.? ? I was contemplating whether or not to message Choi Sung-hoon, and then I just turned the screen off.? ? Because it was a narrow alley and a Benz couldn¡¯t enter if there was a parked car, the gangster-like brother was also dropping at the alley¡¯s entrance.? ? On a dark night, through the dim street lights, he didn¡¯t say anything until we got to the front of the housing complex, and then he spoke up when we got to the front door.? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t come here to do this, tsk.¡±? ? I was sorry at first, but I became angry when he looked at me and kicked his tongue.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t just leave, I¡¯ll tell Choi Sung-hoon. If I went alone, I went alone because I was also uncomfortable.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ The way you speak changes immediately because your status has improved since then.¡±? ? ¡°But, why are you talking down to me? Even your boss didn¡¯t speak informally.¡±? ? ¡°Let¡¯s see, let¡¯s see. Do you want me to make porridge on your face? You¡¯re nothing more than a rag. I guess you forgot about it because you are being loved these days. Yes, by any means, you are a boring male prostitute. Stop chasing him and figure out your place. I couldn¡¯t figure out how the boss could have chosen something like this¡­¡±? ? ¡°Are you disrespecting your boss now?¡±? ? I don¡¯t care about anything else, but I can¡¯t stand it when he dismisses Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s ability to discern himself.? ? I looked up at the gangster-like brother, who was one head taller than me and retorted.? ? ¡°How can a person live on only healthy foods? You can eat instant food. And even if I wanted to stop chasing him, your boss still wants to meet with me. How can I refuse?¡±? ? ¡°This bastard now¡­¡±? ? ¡°Just leave and fuck you. You as a subordinate and I should have known our places. Why are you so upset because the boss wants to play with some recessive Omega? Don¡¯t you trust your boss? Do you think Choi Sung-hoon is a fool to fall for something like me even if I seduce him?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not going to get tangled up just because Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s interest is getting lower, but will your boss be bothered even if it does get tangled up?¡± Do you think it¡¯s acceptable to be seduced by someone like me? What is it that you are concerned about? Do you believe I¡¯m attractive enough to seduce you?¡±? ? I even said something that would make me feel bad about myself. Because of my provocation, the gangster-like brother¡¯s face turned bright red, as if it were on fire. I was afraid I¡¯d be hit because even his neck was red and his veins were bulging, but he didn¡¯t raise his fist.? ? ¡°¡­What the fuck are you saying¡­¡±? ? He seems to be holding back his laughter, but he must be angry, right?? ? ¡°The pronunciation¡­¡±? ? He could be holding back his laughter¡­? ? Of course, because my pronunciation was not perfect, ¡°Is it attractive?¡± could have sounded like ¡°Charming bag.¡± If he laughs because of this, I will refer to him as a huge psycho in the future.? ? ¡°It¡¯s difficult to argue with that¡­¡±? ? The gangster-like brother stood alone, trembling, and only said that word at the end. I was relieved to know that I wouldn¡¯t be hit.? ? I got a call from Choi Sung-hoon while I was sitting on a massage chair and applying ice packs after I got home and washed up. At this time, we always talk on the phone. Naturally, he asks about my face.? ? ¨C Who did it?? ? He must have seen my photo, which had been sent by the gangster-like brother. In response to the question of who was responsible for my swollen face-.? ? ¡°A thug passing by¡­¡±? ? I had no choice but to answer.? ? ¨C Do you know him?? ? ¡°No, he was just a passing thug.¡±? ? ¨C Was he waiting for you?? ? ¡°It¡¯s just a thug who passed by¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was low in a certain tone, which caused me to get even more chills. When he said this, his cool, low voice became filled with emotion for the first time.? ? ¨C Why did you try to hide it from me?? ? ¡°Rather than trying to hide¡­ It¡¯s nothing to be proud of, rather, it¡¯s something to be ashamed of.¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s my first time in a relationship like this, but I know we can¡¯t keep our wounds hidden from each other. You should have informed me, especially if you had been assaulted. Was I not trustworthy?? ? Choi Sung-hoon scolded me.? ? I¡¯m not sure when the relationship began when I had to say that I was hurt when I was hurt. I found it strange that someone who was always charismatic and showed a lot of pressure appeared to be disappointed.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. It¡¯s not a good thing, and just thinking about it makes me sad¡­ So I didn¡¯t say anything about it, but I was wrong¡­¡±? ? First and foremost, I apologized to appease him, but Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t seem to like the apology.? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi, it¡¯s not something you should be sorry about. However, please promise not to hide it from now on. You will not be hurt again, and you will not keep anything from me.? ? ¡°Yes, I promise. As much as you want.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon let out a stuffy sigh when he heard the answer, but he probably noticed the suppleness of my response.? ? I told him I didn¡¯t need his subordinate¡¯s bodyguard before hanging up, but Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t even pretend to listen. Rather, he advised me to take a short break from the company. I also didn¡¯t even pretend to listen.? ? I shared an uncomfortable commute with the gangster-like brother the next day and the next day.? ? After I started clapping back at him, the gangster-like brother didn¡¯t tell me to get away from his boss. That didn¡¯t mean we got along; we both growled at each other. Despite the fact that the driver was paying attention, there was a lot of arguing.? ? ¡°Today is the last time I see your dog-like face.¡±? ? ¡°What about tomorrow morning? Do I go to work alone?¡±? ? ¡°Ah, tomorrow morning¡­¡±? ? ¡°What a fool.¡±? ? ¡°Shit, look at you¡­¡±? ? It was like this.? ? He kept saying he was going to hit me, but he never raised his fist. He appears to be afraid that I will report him to his psycho boss. As a result, I was relieved and teased him.? ? Anyway, I thought of it as an uncomfortable mode of transportation rather than a security guard, but I was surprised when the Benz arrived near my house on Thursday night.? ? Park Jin-cheol was standing under the street lamp in front of the house.? ? His hands were tucked inside his coat as if holding something.? ? He smiled coldly as he saw a Benz stop in front of my house.? ? ¡°What¡¯s wrong with that bastard? Do you know him?¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t answer his question.? ? My heart raced. My hands were shaking and I put them in my pocket.? ? My face was still bruised and black¡­ I¡¯m still puffy, and my pronunciation was sloppy. Park Jin-cheol seems to be fine¡­? ? Why did he come¡­ Why was he here again?? ? ¡°I¡¯ll get off first, so you stay inside.¡±? ? Park Jin-cheol, who was about to approach with his eyes raised, saw the gangster-like brother who seemed to advertise ¡®I¡¯m a gangster,¡¯ and he stopped and cautiously returned under the street lamp. When he saw the appearance, he was perplexed as to whether he was merely a local.? ? I hid my anxiety and got out of the car.? ? Park Jin-cheol, who had found me, looked me in the eyes.? ? His eyes were shaking a lot.? ? ¡°Do you know each other?¡±? ? Park Jin-cheol gently turned his head and entered the building opposite the villa as if he were a resident there as soon as the gangster-like brother asked me.? ? I couldn¡¯t even laugh because it was so ridiculous.? ? ¡°You bastard, I asked if you know each other. Are you deaf now?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know. I don¡¯t know that person. It must be someone who lives around here.¡±? ? He was unmistakably acting as a bodyguard.? ? First, I¡¯ll return home and¡­ I should try calling that bastard. Why did he come here?? ? I parted way with the gangster-like brother and went up the stairs. But, strangely, the gangster-like brother who had to return to the Mercedes-Benz was still standing in front of the gate as I ascended the stairs.? ? I called Park Jin-cheol as soon as I entered the house, but he didn¡¯t answer.? ? I moved my gaze to the living room window. I was on the second floor, so I had a good view of the alley and the inside of the villa across the street. I drew the curtain to the side, revealing only my face.? ? Ugh.? ? I made eye contact with the gangster-like brother who was looking up at me at the same time, and then I hid. When I looked outside again after a while, the gangster-like brother had disappeared. He was probably already in the Benz.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Strangely, the Benz did not move.? ? Park Jin-cheol, who was hiding in the villa across the street, felt the same way. He was glancing at Benz and he didn¡¯t look so good.? ? The standoff continued for about 10 minutes.? ? Why doesn¡¯t the Benz leave?? ? The phone rang just as I was about to go down again.? ? [Choi Sung-hoon ssi?] ? ? When I see the name on the screen, the corners of my lips slowly rise, unable to grasp the atmosphere.? ? ¡°Yes, Choi Sng-hoon ssi.¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi, have you arrived home?? ? ¡°Just now. What about you, Choi Sung-hoon ssi?? ? ¨C I¡¯m at the hotel. May I ask you a favor?? ? ¡°Sure. What is it?¡±? ? ¨C Please go to the kitchen now.? ? I went to the kitchen as he said.? ? ¨C Take out a frying pan and place it on the gas stove.? ? ¡°Yes, I did.¡±? ? ¨C Could you put cooking oil and cook two eggs?? ? I lit the gas stove and poured it with cooking oil. I cracked two eggs and dropped them in the pan. With the tapping sound, the savory smell immediately flowed out.? ? ¨C When you¡¯re done, put it on a plate, take a picture of it, and message it to me.? ? ¡°Okay.¡±? ? I did what he said.? ? ¡°I just sent you a picture.¡±? ? ¨C Yes, I got it. It looks delicious and good. Hurry up and eat now.? ? ¡°Eat it? Why? Why did you suddenly need a picture of a fried egg?¡±? ? ¨C Because I was out of the country, I craved fried eggs. I asked because I thought that if Seo-yu ssi ate it instead of me, my stomach would be full as well.? ? Oh, my.? ? I covered my mouth and smashed the table because it was so cute. I¡¯m going to tell Won-jo about it and share it on every social media platform I¡¯m aware of.? ? Choi Sung-hoon hung up the phone after listening to the sound of me eating fried eggs.? ? I was still fascinated after eating as to how he could be so cute. Such a cute extremely dominant Alpha will be the only one in history. It feels like my fatigue from the day was relieved.? ? Ah.? ? While putting the plate in the dishwashing bin, I remembered what I was doing before talking to Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I hurried to the living room window, and the Benz with the gangster-like brother, as well as Park Jin-cheol, who was leaning in the villa in front, had disappeared.? ? What was it?? ? I called Park Jin-cheol one more time, but he didn¡¯t answer.? ? Why the hell did he come?? ? I had been nervous all night and had tossed and turned all night. Then it was Friday morning. CH 27 When I got off work and went down to the first floor, Choi Sung-hoon was standing in the center of attention.? ? The man I hadn¡¯t seen in a long time was still dressed in a black suit that complemented his raised hair, and he was wearing the scarf I had given him. Choi Sung-hoon quickly found me and our gazes met.? ? I wanted to run up to him and hug him, but we weren¡¯t dating yet, so I put up with it.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon, you have a good trip-¡­¡±? ? He approached without hesitation. I was unable to finish my greetings with a sense of dreadful intimidation.? ? I could smell the cold wind and the subtle scent of Alpha pheromone.? ? He grabbed my chin and turned it to the right and left. The eyes that looked at me slowly were colder than a midwinter cold wave. It was difficult to communicate in the dark, sinking atmosphere.? ? ¡°Right cheekbones and left temple.¡±? ? He said exactly where I was hit.? ? ¡°The blood vessels in your eyes have ruptured. It looks like your teeth are also hurt.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°How much is your tooth shaking?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s just a little, but that¡¯s okay.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon has a terrifying face and a ferocious aura, and I became a little nervous around him.? ? Everyone on their way home from work was staring at us with their eyes wide open. There was also a famous couple in this building.? ? Did we look like lovers in their eyes?? ? A chuckle came out.? ? ¡°I guess you could now laugh.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon made a very scary impression.? ? He took off my horn-rimmed glasses and caressed my bruised eyes.? ? ¡°It must have hurt.¡±? ? ¡°¡­It¡¯s, it¡¯s okay. It¡¯s not as bad as it looks.¡±? ? My heart was fluttering. Just like a candlestick in front of the wind.? ? ¡°It must have hurt.¡±? ? It was only four words, but my eyes almost melted in an instant. It meant that tears were about to flow.? ? I had never cried other than physiological tears since the death of my family, but the word of concern on his lips made my nose stuffy and made me choked up. I bit the inside of my mouth and held it in.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry I wasn¡¯t next to you at that moment.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s all right¡­ On the contrary, I was relieved that Choi Sung-hoon wasn¡¯t with me at the time. What if you got caught up in the moment and hurt yourself? Let¡¯s stop talking about it and go see Picasso right away.¡±? ? I pulled on his arm. Choi Sung-hoon shifted his hand position when he grabbed my wrist. Everyone¡¯s gaze seemed to be drawn solely to the hands we were holding together. I smiled a lot.? ? The limousine was parked in front of the building. We got on the back seat together, but Choi Sung-hoon ordered the driver to go to ¡ð¡ð hospital.? ? ¡°Hospital? Why? Did you get hurt?¡±? ? Did you fight a Chinese organization?? ? I was so distracted by my pain that I couldn¡¯t look at it.? ? I checked on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s body. His chest was very tight as if it were a grater. I felt like I was touching a brick when I touched his forearm.? ? Choi Sung-hoon gently wrapped my hands that were touching him here and there at the time.? ? ¡°I had no idea it was this bad in the photos. Don¡¯t do anything until your face is healed.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ve already had treatment. The swelling and bruises make it look severe.¡±? ? ¡°There¡¯s a hospital that I often go to.¡±? ? ¡°What about Picasso? The exhibition was not held until late at night.¡±? ? ¡°We¡¯re not going to see it.¡±? ? Ah¡­? ? I swapped my padding jacket and arrived in leather boots to see Picasso¡­ It¡¯s an outdoor date¡­? ? ¡°We won¡¯t go even if you look at me like that.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was cold and I lost my energy. I pouted my lips and leaned as if digging into the sheet.? ? It was the first art exhibition in my life¡­ After all, I don¡¯t think this noble culture suits me.? ? I was just thinking about my position.? ? From the standpoint of the person I¡¯ll be going with, it¡¯s understandable that he doesn¡¯t like me, who draws attention with a bruised face.? ? ¡°I know it hurts even if you don¡¯t move. You¡¯re running a fever, and your eyes are bright red. Eating is difficult because your mouth is swollen. Let¡¯s rest go to the hospital this week.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon speaks politely. He responded as if he genuinely cared about me.? ? That¡¯s why I can¡¯t help but nod my head.? ? Choi Sung-hoon held my hand and asked.? ? ¡°Did you look forward to it a lot?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, a lot¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­Let¡¯s go next week.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s only available until the end of this week. I know everything.¡±? ? I know everything because I read the articles about it three times per day.? ? I¡¯m so sad. I even bragged about it to Won-jo.? ? ¡°¡­It has been extended by one week.¡±? ? ¡°Really? Articles say it¡¯s until this week.¡±? ? ¡°It was decided today, so the article is still in the process¡­ I heard it today because I know the director.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled softly and kissed my forehead.? ? It¡¯s an extension!? ? Since meeting Choi Sung-hoon, my life, which has always been unfortunate, seems to have only good things happen to it.? ? How is it possible for this person to have perfect personal connections?? ? I was so happy that I hugged Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s neck and kissed him. Choi Sung-hoon kissed me briefly, grabbed my face as I was about to fall, and responded passionately.? ? * * *? ? ¡°Is absenteeism trendy these days? What¡¯s the matter with everyone?¡±? ? The manager, who was on the phone with the customer, became nervous and hung up the phone. And he apologized right away, even though it was early in the morning. I handed the manager a piece of chocolate that Choi Sung-hoon had given me as a gift on a previous business trip.? ? ¡°What¡¯s wrong? Who has been absent from work again?? ? ¡°Uh, Do you know Park Jin-cheol? I heard you were close with him.¡±? ? ¡°I wasn¡¯t close, but I know him.¡±? ? ¡°He was absent without saying anything yesterday, but today he called and said he was leaving the company and asked me to throw away all his belongings.¡±? ? ¡°Why? That bastard, wasn¡¯t he just joined the company?¡±? ? ¡°That makes me even more upset. How many times does the person in charge change here?¡±? ? I remembered Park Jin-cheol was standing in front of my house not long ago. I also recall him putting his hands in his pockets while staring at me with a poisoned face.? ? He suddenly disappeared and didn¡¯t answer his phone, so did something happen? Any accident¡­? ? ¡°They said he won a lottery ticket. I¡¯ve always worked so hard on the lottery, but I¡¯ve never won.¡±? ? When I heard them, it quickly dispelled any concerns I had.? ? Lottery ticket? Isn¡¯t it a bit too much morally for such a bastard to win the lottery?? ? I doubt the guy who didn¡¯t take the coupon stamps will buy a lottery ticket. It¡¯s most likely just a rumor.? ? You should not believe rumors that circulate without supporting evidence. This was due to the fact that it could grow in size like a snowball as it was passed from mouth to mouth. When they talk about it, the phrase ¡®Well, he might have won a lottery¡¯ changed to ¡®He won a lottery¡¯ in an instant. That¡¯s why I despise rumors.? ? ¡°You know what, Manager Seo? There are two winners in the lottery this week. That¡¯s 6.2 billion won per person.¡±? ? I suddenly lost my desire to work. Because of bruises, I still wear horn-rimmed glasses, and I can¡¯t even eat the chocolate that my crush bought me. What exactly do you mean by winning a lottery? It¡¯s so unfair.? ? So I complained to Choi Sung-hoon on my way home from work that day.? ? ¡°There is an employee who is rude and unable to work. Initially, he quit his job two weeks after joining another company, then returned to the same industry and quit again in two months. Isn¡¯t it funny?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, that¡¯s funny.¡±? ? ¡°But the reason he left is that he won a lottery. He got 6.2 billion. I think it¡¯s really unfair. Of course, I¡¯m not obsessed with money. Does it make sense for such an irresponsible person to win 1st place in the lottery? 6.2 billion.¡±? ? ¡°¡­That¡¯s, I don¡¯t think so.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had paused for a moment, frowned and consoled me.? ? ¡°Who said that? He won the lottery.¡±? ? ¡°Rumors.¡±? ? ¡°Rumors should not be believed. He would have transferred to another industry of the same type. Is your mouth getting better?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon grabbed my chin and kissed me saying that he would check the inside, so my thoughts on Park Jin-cheol ended with that.? ? I haven¡¯t heard any rumors about Park Jin-cheol since then, and he¡¯s naturally faded from my memory. CH 28 The boss visited on Friday. He greeted me with a fuss after purchasing a pizza and was surprised to see my face.? ? It¡¯s greatly improved, but it¡¯s still not completely in good shape¡­ He was astounded to learn that I didn¡¯t even take a day off. He apologized for not telling the manager that he should have let me rest on my own.? ? Regardless, the entire company left work at 5 p.m. on the boss¡¯s special order. I decided to wait at Ho-cafe in¡¯s because I had an appointment with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Today¡­ You look great. Where are you going?¡±? ? Ho-in complimented me on the clothes I cared for. I dressed nicely rather than warmly because I was going to the Picasso exhibition today.? ? ¡°Thank you. I decided to meet Sung-hoon ssi today.¡±? ? ¡°There is not a day when you don¡¯t meet¡­¡±? ? ¡°Haha, That¡¯s true.¡±? ? I drank the citron tea while proudly smiling. I could drink the tea well even if it was hot because my mouth didn¡¯t swell a lot, but Ho-in purposely made it lukewarm for me.? ? ¡°What are you doing tomorrow?¡±? ? ¡°Um, maybe¡­ Wouldn¡¯t I just roll around?¡±? ? At the hotel.? ? ¡°If you¡¯re not going anywhere, I¡­ I got a ticket. That¡­Rembrandt Exhibition.¡±? ? ¡°Rembrandt?¡±? ? What? Was it a car?? ? ¡°If you have time¡­together¡­Would you like to go?¡±? ? Ho-in asked very carefully. I¡¯d already refused once, so I was very sorry to refuse again this time.? ? It was ambiguous to say that it was an appointment because it was not exactly a weekend appointment with Choi Sung-hoon, but because we stayed at a hotel on Friday night and continued. This means that even if Choi Sung-hoon suddenly says he has an appointment on Saturday morning and leaves, he can¡¯t help it. He¡¯s never done anything like that before, but¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. My previous appointment¡­¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­ as expected.¡±? ? Ho-in nodded as expected. He said brightly that he would sell it to his brother and went back inside.? ? I was truly sorry. If this occurs again, I should not refuse.? ? Tomorrow I must spend time with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? Because I can¡¯t have sex for more than two weeks.? ? I drank citron tea and sent a message to Choi Sung-hoon.? ? [I left work early today haha]? ? [I¡¯ll be at the cafe, so please come slowly]? ? Choi Sung-hoon? [I¡¯ll leave now] ? ? The reply came quickly. I took a screen capture and immediately shared it with Won-jo.? ? [Look at this hahaha]? ? [Because of the boss I can leave early today]? ? [It¡¯s only 5 o¡¯clock now hahaha]? ? After waiting for a while, I got a reply.? ? Won-jo [Please¡­]? ? Won-jo [Stop¡­]? ? Won-jo [I¡¯m not curious!!!!!!!!!!!!] ? ? Oh my. The reaction was already intense. I don¡¯t think I sent it that many times¡­? ? I looked through the phone book, but there was no one to brag to except for Won-jo. Ho-in was also a bit¡­ At least Sung-hyun was the only one who couldn¡¯t send a conversation message to his older brother.? ? There was a lot to brag about these days, but I could only brag to Won-jo and Sung-hyun, so it wasn¡¯t enough. While thinking about it, I remembered Sung-hyun talked about SNS in the past, so I decided to make it.? ? I quickly downloaded the app and created an ID. First of all, I sent it to Wo-jo and Sung-hyun.? ? [I made an ID hahaha]? ? Sung-hyun-i [Ohh, follow me]? ? I first took a picture of a citron tea and then posted it [I¡¯m going to see Picasso today hehe.] ? ? Sung-hyun called me right away.? ? ¨C Hyung, what Picasso?? ? ¡°Picasso is a 20th-century Spanish painter whose works are currently on display in Korea. I¡¯m going to see that.¡±? ? ¨C No wonder¡­ He suddenly looked for the director¡¯s contact information.? ? Sung-hyun said in a tone that seemed to understand.? ? ¡°What do you mean?¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s nothing. Have a good look and see you on New Year¡¯s Day!? ? Huh? Why would I see you on New Year¡¯s Day?? ? The phone hung up before I could even ask.? ? Sung-hyun pressed ¡°Like,¡± and a heart appeared.? ? The people I know were not a lot and most of them were my ex-boyfriends and no one else. I sighed. If I get married, I think I¡¯ll hire a guest part-time job.? ? * * *? ? Choi Sung-hoon got out of the car wearing a dark navy long coat and a gray muffler. He drew the attention of the people in the cafe once again by holding out a bouquet of flowers. A bouquet of red roses was surrounded by mist flowers.? ? I took a picture and posted it on SNS after getting in the car, and then I asked Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Does Choi Sung-hoon ssi also use SNS?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t, but¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon read my post with serious eyes.? ? ¡°It¡¯s not good to reveal your destination to an unspecified number of people.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s okay, I didn¡¯t have any enemies.¡±? ? As I dismissed it lightly, Choi Sung-hoon quietly frowned.? ? ¡°It¡¯s hard to say that you don¡¯t have any enemies¡­ so many of your ex¡­¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Nothing.¡±? ? While I was speaking, he grabbed my chin and kissed me. Nowadays, we kiss passionately without having sex.? ? ¡°Why did you leave work early today?¡±? ? ¡°The boss let us go home early. He¡¯s a good person who always lives young. He cares about me a lot because I¡¯m a recessive Omega. Oh, he¡¯s so cheerful that I keep forgetting that he¡¯s Alpha as well.¡±? ? Then, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes hardened.? ? ¡°How old is he?¡±? ? ¡°I think he is in his mid 50s?¡±? ? His expression, which was still not good, became even worse.? ? ¡°It¡¯s the age you like.¡±? ? Oh, cute! Really cute.? ? I leaned in close to Choi Sung-hoon and gently rubbed his wrinkled brow with my finger.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t think about it strangely. She¡¯s a married woman with children. My ideal partner is a 196-centimeter-tall man with a scar on his cheek.¡±? ? When I said that, his expression softened a little. Choi Sung-hoon put his hand on my armpit and gently lifted me up and placed me on his tight thigh.? ? I hugged him and rubbed my cheek against the back of his neck, pretending to be cute. A serious, calm, and powerful scent encircled the tip of my nose.? ? What kind of perfume is this? I¡¯d like to switch to the same perfume that he uses instead of the one that my ex-lover gave me.? ? We ate at the restaurant before heading to the exhibition hall. The fish dish was served, but I couldn¡¯t eat a lot of it because my stomach hurt. I felt really bad for Choi Seong-hoon, who was sitting in front of me. Choi Sung-hoon seemed to think it was because my mouth had not yet healed.? ? The exhibition hall was located in Gwanghwamun. Choi Sung-hoon had informed me in advance that the number of people attending would be limited due to the fact that it was a hidden opening outside of the scheduled time.? ? Actually, there were only about ten people including us. As soon as we entered the hall, they politely greeted Choi Sung-hoon as if everyone knew who he was. I also received a curious gaze and a polite greeting. Some of them were wearing dresses. Even though it¡¯s February, it¡¯s still a cold winter¡­? ? We followed after everyone else had entered. Choi Sung-hoon smiled softly when he saw my excitement.? ? ¡°You seem to be very interested in art.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s only natural that Picasso is regarded as a representative Spanish painter of the 20th century. Picasso learned to draw from his father, who taught him as a child. His most well-known works include and .¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked at me for a moment, as if surprised. I become more excited.? ? ¡°I like it better because he was an artist who tried an innovatively formative method of looking at the three-dimensional form from a three-dimensional perspective and dismantling and reconstructing it to fit the two-dimensional canvas.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Innovatively formative method¡­?¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? Of course, I have no idea what that means. It was written that way on the site, but it seemed that Choi Sung-hoon was hearing it for the first time as well. The corners of his lips twitched with delight. It felt good to work hard on my memorization.? ? ¡°Innovatively¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was thinking about something when he pulled out his phone. After a while, he showed me a screen from a portal site where he had searched for Picasso and said,? ? ¡°This seems to be a typo of ¡®innovative¡¯, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°There shouldn¡¯t be any good victims, so I¡¯ll report the typo.¡±? ? He pretended to be serious, but a smile crept out of his mouth. It seemed that the previously omitted ¡®like you¡¯ could be clearly heard.? ? My face heated up in an instant.? ? After looking around and confirming that there was no hole to hide in, I grabbed the muffler around Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s neck with my finger. I was going to hang this on a pillar. Choi Sung-hoon immediately stopped me¡­ CH 29 Instead of going to the hotel after seeing Picasso, we went home.? ? Not at my house, but at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house.? ? I thought it was in Nonhyeon-dong, but it was in Sinsa-dong apartment penthouse overlooking the Han River.? ? There were several of the gangster-like brothers in suits waiting at the front of the direct elevator leading from the parking lot. The lunch box gangster-like brother was among them who bent their backs 90 degrees and shouted, ¡°You¡¯ve arrived!¡±? ? They stood up with their upper bodies bowed, and the box lunch gangster-like brother turned to face me. I made a playful frown and pursed my lips. The face of the box lunch gangster brother, which should have been irritated, turned blue. ¡®What¡¯s wrong with him?¡¯ A big hand covered my mouth as I tilted my head.? ? ¡°Did you become friends with him?¡±? ? It was a low tone of voice. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand was so big it nearly covered my entire face. I met cold eyes when I looked up with only my eyes out.? ? ¡°W aren¡¯t close. We are a complete enemy.¡±? ? I replied with disgust. I thought I should.? ? He looked at the lunch box gangster-like brother for a moment, then kissed my forehead tenderly and said, ¡°Let¡¯s go.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon lives in this house. I was the first to enter the elevator, and I was excited. I thought I could wear short-sleeved clothe because it was warm in the elevator.? ? I struggled to keep my excitement under control as I stood next to Choi Sung-hoon, who pressed the number key and handed me the card. I grabbed the doorknob as soon as I heard the elevator door open.? ? ¡°I think it¡¯s open. Should I go in? Can I go in?¡±? ? ¡°Go in.¡±? ? He let me in with a happy voice.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house was very spacious and plain. There was no common umbrella stand in the hallway that the size of my room, only black shoes. There was no frame hanging on the white and clean wall. The living room has a black sofa, a table, and a television. And that was it.? ? There were no clothes hangers. There were no bookcases or showcases. There were no flower pots in sight. The dining room was larger than our house, but there was no room for eight people at the table. It was like a table made for display that had never been served a plate.? ? Choi Sung-hoon showed me the bedroom, explaining that because it was a two-story structure, there were three rooms on the top, but only one was used as a bedroom. There was a very large bed and, at the very least, a side table as furniture. A cell phone charger was plugged on the small table. There were quite a few clothes in the dressing room. My coat was also hung there.? ? We changed into comfortable clothes and chatted on the sofa in the living room. The clothes he had prepared fit me perfectly as if they were custom-made. Choi Sung-hoon was dressed in a short-sleeved tee. It felt like his forearm was going to burst.? ? ¡°I thought such a large house was only in the movie. It¡¯s really nice. Neat and clean.¡±? ? ¡°I haven¡¯t ordered furniture yet, so it¡¯s a bit empty.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, did you just move in?¡±? ? ¡°I intend to do so. I¡¯m building a single house with a garden in a quiet place. Until then, I plan to stay here.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s response exuded natural richness. My heart began to pound once more. He looked at me and said.? ? ¡°Although the house is large, living alone makes me feel lonely. The bed is too big for one person to sleep in¡­¡±? ? ¡°You raise a fox. I searched and it was hard to get permission. I guess it¡¯s sleeping right now. What breed is it? Fennec fox?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon responded with a hazy smile and a beat late.? ? ¡°I haven¡¯t gotten it yet. It takes a lot of preparation.¡±? ? ¡°As soon as I walked into the house, the lights and heating were turned on, so I assumed you did it to keep the fox warm.¡±? ? ¡°¡­It¡¯s half right.¡±? ? ¡°What?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m thinking about going home this Lunar New Year. What do you think?¡±? ? Suddenly, a random question came up.? ? Why did the fox topic change into this? Why are you asking what I think when you¡¯re going home?? ? Choi Sung-hoon wrapped his arms around me and looked at me, who was staring at him blankly at the time.? ? ¡°My parents want to meet Seo-yu ssi. I want to slowly introduce you.¡±? ? ¡°Me? You mean me?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, Sung-hyun seems to have talked a lot about you as well. They seem curious after hearing that the immature youngest saved someone¡¯s life. Since it is a rare relationship, They said they¡¯d like to meet you.¡±? ? Oh¡­ That¡¯s possible. It was natural for a parent to want to see the person whose life his son had saved.? ? I was almost misunderstood for a moment.? ? Of course, he can¡¯t introduce his sex partner to his parents¡­? ? Come to think of it, Sung-hyun also said e would see me on New Year¡¯s Day. I think it has already been discussed.? ? Choi Sung-hoon gently added his interpretation of my silence.? ? ¡°If you feel uncomfortable, you can refuse. If it¡¯s still too early¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Is it okay for me to join your family?¡±? ? ¡°Of course. It¡¯s okay for you to join in the gathering.¡±? ? Honestly, it was a lot of pressure. But seeing Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family¡­ It was so tempting to see the father and his blunt mother. Even if I know it was beyond my right, I can¡¯t resist it.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have anything planned for New Year¡¯s Day, but it¡¯s always nice to have an appointment.¡±? ? When I answered with a smile, Choi Sung-hoon also smiled. It was always sexy to see his cold face smiling at me.? ? ¡°Shall we go to bed?¡±? ? He asked me politely as he was waking up while holding me.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s wash up first.¡±? ? I whispered as I wrapped my hands around his neck.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s wash together¡­¡±? ? * * *? ? ¡°¡­ Ah¡­ ah¡­ !¡±? ? Every time I moaned, a mist of steam leaked out. I kept slipping because he keep biting me while holding the bathtub behind my back.? ? As soon as I entered the spacious bathroom, Choi Sung-hoon sat me in the bathtub and kissed me so deeply that I was confused. He turned on the hot water with one hand while holding my waist with the other to keep me still. Both of my thighs were spread helplessly by his knees. Choi Sung-hoon has been biting my neck and stroking my chest with his large hand while pressing his bulging penis against my bottom.? ? At the time, his penis had already risen horribly. I tried to caress the massive penis, but all I ended up doing was groaning and twisting my back as I touched it.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes were dark and deep. His gaze followed me tenaciously as if he didn¡¯t want to miss any of my squealings, squinting, groaning, or shaking my head.? ? The long caress ended with me begging for it to be put in. The water in the bathtub had already reached the level where I was sitting.? ? Choi Sung-hoon stretched my hand and put them on his back while we faced each other, then raised both my knees to place the angry penis. I ejaculated briefly when his penis came in past the glans because he was too big and I had already heated up. Choi Sung-hoon, as usual, was unconcerned about me, who had risen to an organism.? ? We began shaking like that and continued until the water in the bathtub overflowed.? ? ¡°Ah, ah, wa, the water, hah, ah.¡±? ? Warm water came in with Choi Sung-hoon every time he came in and out, which felt strange. There were times when the waves created by the movement came into the mouth. I thought of turning off the shower but at that moment.? ? ¡°Ah, ah, w-wait¡­huh, uh¡­!¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t take the force of his sudden thrust and slipped out of the bathtub as my hands grew weak. Choi Seong-hoon grabbed my waist and lifted me up as I struggled and swallowed some water.? ? ¡°Are you okay?¡±? ? He grabbed my waist with one hand and wiped my face with the other.? ? ¡°I¡¯m surprised¡­¡±? ? My heart was pounding. I rubbed my wet cheeks against Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hands. Choi Sung-hoon patted my back as I exhaled harshly and turned off the shower.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s change our posture.¡±? ? He moved right away. Choi Sung-hoon leaned on the bathtub and I sat on top of him facing each other. The thing inside was so big that it didn¡¯t fall out even when we changed positions, and it fit in tightly. He pierced the inner wall that he first touched as the angle changed gradually.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ aghh¡­ ¡°? ? ¡±¡­ ¡± ? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s dark eyes stared at me as I moaned. He didn¡¯t try to hide his enthusiasm. The scar on his cheek appeared to have darkened, and the tattoo¡¯s tip could be seen over his shoulder.? ? The pheromone of the extremely dominant Alpha has attacked me dangerously. I wrapped my arms around his neck.? ? ¡°Good¡­ Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? I shook my head slightly. His penis was so full in my stomach that there was no place he couldn¡¯t reach anywhere at any angle or in any position. I kept getting sidetracked by the penis, which reached places no one had ever reached before.? ? ¡°Are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°Ugh, y-yeah¡­go on¡­ It¡¯s getting bigger¡­ inside¡­ ¡°? ? I said this without knowing what I was on about. Then I placed my face on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shoulder and slowly raised and lowered my hip.? ? ¡°Ah, uh¡­ Uhm¡­ Ah¡­¡±? ? Pleasure arose everywhere he touched. Physiological tears flowed out one after the other every time it struck deep inside. Until I met Choi Sung-hoon, when I shook my back from above, it was the other side that cried¡­? ? I tried to tighten it while inhaling, but the stimulation of the inner wall was too much for me, and the strength was released.? ? ¡°¡­I don¡¯t think that would stimulate me.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand wrapped around my cheek. He slowly lifted my face up to face him.? ? His eyes were dark and deep. It was intense as if he would chew me up to the bone.? ? ¡°Ugh¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon started moving his lower body without saying anything. He wrapped one arm around my waist and slowly lifted my lower body upwards, his gaze fixed on my face.? ? Splash, splash.? ? The sound of water rang out.? ? ¡°ha¡­ ahh¡­¡±? ? I was more exhausted because the pleasure didn¡¯t hit me violently at once. I thought the hole was fully engaged, but the water kept coming in as he went deeper or shallower. I had no idea Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thing was coming with water.? ? ¡°¡­Wait¡­ Wa-water is¡­¡±? ? I grabbed his tight biceps. He didn¡¯t stop pushing his penis up, and our gazes locked as if we were talking.? ? ¡°Water is¡­ haah¡­ Water keeps coming¡­¡±? ? ¡°Is that so?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stared at me with dark eyes.? ? ¡°Anything other than me¡­ I can¡¯t let it go inside you.¡±? ? Having said that, he put one hand to make me wrap my legs around his waist and the other tightly grip my back.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ No¡­!¡±? ? I instinctively wrapped my arms around his neck as he moved to get up.? ? ¡°Arghh¡­! Haa, hah ahh¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Ha¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hot breath seeped into my ear. He got up holding me very easily. I¡¯ve had countless relationships, but this was the first time I¡¯ve been in this position.? ? ¡°Ahh, ugh, ah, ah, slo, slowly¡­!¡±? ? I¡¯m not short, but Choi Sung-hoon hit it hard and fast with no hesitation. The person who had been loosely provoking until recently became ferocious, and his reason faded.? ? My weight pushed his penis deeper. I moaned and tilted my head, buried my face in his shoulder, and twisted my back to try to get away, but I couldn¡¯t avoid the pleasure of being smacked directly against the inner wall.? ? Slam, slam.? ? Anyone could hear a loud banging sound and think it was violence. His movements were so fast that I didn¡¯t feel any weight at all. The scorching heat from below engulfed my entire body.? ? ¡°Ah, slo, slowly, haa¡­! Please take it slow¡­!¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t stand it anymore and pushed him on the shoulder. But Choi Sung-hoon did not even nod.? ? ¡°Ah, uhmm¡­!¡±? ? The pushing speed was excessively fast and powerful. My legs, which were wrapped around his waist, began to weaken. I placed my hand on his chest and exhaled a hot breath. The dangling legs trembled.? ? Choi Sung-hoon clicked his tongue saying that I should also improve my stamina.? ? ¡°Argh¡­¡±? ? He didn¡¯t give me any opportunity to rest. In a facing position, I attached my arms to my sides.? ? I felt nauseous. I open my mouth in fear and anticipation of the next action.? ? ¡°No¡­ Ugh¡­ ! Ah, heuk, heuk, ah!¡±? ? He restrained my upper body from moving, and in that state, he moved his waist at an unparalleled speed compared to before.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s rough breath brushed against my cheek. It sounded like a beast¡¯s purr. Drops of sweat were trickling down the hard jawline. In the air behind his back, my legs shook helplessly.? ? My mind gradually went blank as I was stuck hard without being able to move. My body was engulfed in the tingling heat. Everything about him was stimulating, from his low, rough breathing to the veins on his hard arms that bound me. My entire body was itchy, so I tried to twist my body somehow, but the strong force kept me tight.? ? ¡°Ah, me, Sung, Sung-hoon¡­ Ah¡­!¡±? ? I called out his name and tried to stop him, but his movements got stronger.? ? Finally, I cried and ejaculated. When his penis went all the way through and then came in, semen gushed out of my genitals.? ? Choi Sung-hoon hugged me tightly, so I couldn¡¯t run away and moaned in pleasure. He pounded so hard that it made a popping sound, and a flash of pleasure pierced from my toes to the top of my head.? ? ¡°Ah¡­!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s lips touched my ear, shaking violently and moaning.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi¡­¡±? ? ¡°Ah, ah¡­ ¡°? ? ¡±¡­Seo-yu.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Heung¡­ ¡°? ? Slam.? ? The voices in my ears, like the merciless pounding, were incredibly low-pitched. After a few more ruthless slaps, he ejaculated inside me.? ? ¡°Haa¡­ Haa¡­¡±? ? It was a long matter. It had taken a long time. He moved his waist occasionally while ejaculating. As if trying to reach the very depths of me.? ? ¡°Haa¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu.¡±? ? He kissed me after calling my name. It was a voice that conveyed a variety of emotions. I couldn¡¯t even resist and opened my mouth. CH 30 I couldn¡¯t do my part again this time¡­? ? It was the first thought that came to mind after I sat on a softer sofa than the one in the hotel, with a steam pack on my back.? ? I took a peek at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s back, who was preparing two more packs.? ? He was wearing a white cotton tee, so his back tattoo was exposed. His entire back was covered by a dragon with delicate claws. It was like a piece of a back that didn¡¯t seem to let a drop of blood escape even if stabbed.? ? It was a body worse than that of a beast, so I can¡¯t handle it¡­? ? I really need to exercise in order to keep the sex wave going in the future.? ? It was not just about shaking and moaning, it was also about giving pleasure.? ? ¡°It¡¯s done. If you put this on the inside of your leg, it will be more comfortable.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Thank you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon turned around and put the steam pack on my leg.? ? His upper body was really sculptural. He was muscular enough to look dangerous, without any flesh. Choi Sung-hoon sat next to me and asked, gently stroking my hair.? ? ¡°Are you okay? Your voice is weak.¡±? ? Are you okay? You mean it¡¯s hoarse?? ? We did it again, this time saying he was going to wash me in the bathroom, then he came to bed and did it again in the top position, hugging me from behind, and doing it twice more. He didn¡¯t let me go until it was time for me to struggle and shed saliva and tears.? ? I expected to wash up and go to bed after it was over, but he start caressing my hair and said.? ? ¡®The night view was nice because I could see the Han River right from my balcony. Do you want to see it?¡¯? ? I did.? ? So now I¡¯m sitting on the balcony sofa. It was a high-up sofa from which you could see the Han River.? ? ¡°Your eyes look bad.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon bowed his head, kissed my eyes, and smiled. He had the appearance of a beast and a sense of fullness.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll go easy next time.¡±? ? ¡°No¡­ I liked it, too.¡±? ? He was always rough when it came to sex.? ? If I see that the last time he put his hand in my mouth and bullied me tenaciously, or held my upper body so tightly that it couldn¡¯t move and beat me roughly¡­ He seems to have a sadistic tendency. So, I decided to take care of him as a sex partner.? ? ¡°You can hit me next time. I can do some light spanking.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡± ? ? The gentle stroke on my head came to an end. I rubbed my head against his palm so he would pat it again.? ? ¡°Spanking.¡±? ? This time my actions stopped.? ? It was a very cold voice.? ? Then I blinked and looked at his face. Choi Sung-hoon was staring at me with black eyes that had lost his smile.? ? The hairs on my body stood up. My sleepiness has subsided.? ? ¡°Have you ever had a relationship like that?¡±? ? It was definitely a question that ended in a question form, but I had an instinct that I shouldn¡¯t answer it right away.? ? ¡°No way. I¡¯ve never done it before, but it¡¯s a figurative expression of my mindset, which could come from Choi Sung-hoon.¡±? ? ¡°It was a brave statement, but it wouldn¡¯t have been light spanking if it had come from me.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯d better be careful in the future.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­ ¡°? ? I gave a firm nod. When I looked up at Choi Sung-hoon and blinked, his anger seemed to fade.? ? The balcony window was closed and the warmer was turned on, but there was still a slight chill. Choi Sung-hoon came with wine and blankets after asking me to wait a moment.? ? I thought that because there were two blankets, one would be for him and one for me, but one was wrapped around my shoulder and the other over my lap. I placed a blanket on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s lap, and he returned it to me, saying it was fine.? ? So I became a human blanket and went into his arms. I like it because Choi Seong-hoon was a much bigger person than average.? ? He naturally wrapped his hand around my waist and handed me a glass of wine. The smell was disgusting, but I accepted it with a smile. After hitting the glass lightly, I only put it around my mouth and put it down on the table. I leaned deeply into Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms, which smelled better than wine. Choi Sung-hoon gently stroked my stomach and said.? ? ¡°How is it. Everyone is aiming for this house to see the night view. Isn¡¯t it beautiful?¡°? ? He continued speaking quietly.? ? ¡°Because the house isn¡¯t due to be finished until the fall, I¡¯ll have to live here alone until then. It¡¯s a shame I have to see this beautiful night view alone.¡±? ? There was no trace of pity in his voice. I removed my slippers and stepped to the side.? ? And I bit the nape of his neck, which kept mentioning the night view.? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°What is it.¡±? ? My pronunciation sounded strange as I bit the nape of his neck. It was too sexy to watch the thick and strong neckline move.? ? I stick out my tongue a little bit and moisten my bite. I could feel Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thigh muscles were tensing up. A massive thing was eagerly announcing its presence on the lower body side.? ? Is he a real beast?? ? No, he was a savage beast.? ? I intended to slip away from him, but I couldn¡¯t get out of his arms at all because of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand holding me tightly.? ? Instead, I clumsily picked up the glass of wine.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s do cheers. Cheers.¡°? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? He let out a short sigh as if he were going easy on me, and then he let me go. The sound of clinking wine glasses resounded clearly.? ? I took a sip this time. I tend to like expensive alcohol, but I was confused as to why I felt this way.? ? ¡°Can I open the window if it¡¯s not too cold? The river breeze is refreshing. You can drink wine while looking down at the beautiful night view of the Han River if you live here.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t stand it and cut him off.? ? ¡°The Han River is not beautiful. There is no such thing as a beautiful Han River.¡±? ? The ripples that sparkle like the Milky Way are made up of cruel, miserable, and unfathomable tragedies.? ? The deep and cold river water should never be described as beautiful, but someone would spend a lot of money on a house just to see this night view.? ? It¡¯s nothing more than a cruel monster to me.? ? ¡°¡­I made a mistake. I¡¯m sorry.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face stiffened. He had a very frustrated expression on his face that I had never seen before.? ? ¡°I hadn¡¯t thought of that.¡±? ? ¡°No, I¡¯m sorry.¡±? ? I was worried that I might have hurt his feelings. However, I couldn¡¯t hear more praise for that cruel tomb.? ? I purposely smiled bashfully and rubbed my cheek on his shoulder.? ? ¡°Do you know this? I can feel the vibration whenever Choi Sung-hoon ssi speaks.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Is that so.¡±? ? ¡°This beat is stronger than the river¡¯s¡­ It¡¯s far more wonderful and beautiful.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Choi Seong-hoon ssi is¡­ a beautiful being.¡±? ? His heart was pounding as I listened quietly¡­ I could actually hear his heartbeat.? ? Choi Sung-hoon hugged me silently. A warm embrace comforted my cold heart. I leaned on his shoulder and closed my eyes.? ? * * *? ? Going to work has always been difficult, but I believe it has become more difficult in the latest days. Because of my lack of appetite, the number of meals I ate decreased, and I became easily tired as a result.? ? It was fortunate that my mouth did not swell, but I did develop a sore tongue. I also had a sty in my eye, so I wore horn-rimmed glasses all the time. I didn¡¯t eat lunch and slept all week.? ? No matter how much I sleep, I¡¯m sleepy and tired. The only time I felt energized was during my commute with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Business trip?¡±? ? However, I just heard a shocking story. It has been said that I will be unable to meet Choi Sung-hoon for three days, starting tomorrow until Friday.? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯ll be leaving early tomorrow morning. I was caught all of a sudden, so I couldn¡¯t tell you in the morning.¡±? ? ¡°I see¡­ Director Choi, you are so busy.¡±? ? ¡°After this business trip, I will be free for a while. I owe the director a debt and I have no choice but to go.¡±? ? Director? It was strange that even a rich person like Choi Sung-hoon has debts.? ? ¡°It is better to pay off debts quickly. Have a safe trip.¡±? ? Having said that I did not exit the car with sadness. Even if we part now, each of us will wash and call again before going to bed¡­ It was, however, upsetting.? ? I poked my mouth out and touched only the sleeve of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shirt with his hand. I pursed my lips and touched Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shirt sleeves with my hands. When Choi Sung-hoon saw me like that, he raised the corners of his mouth.? ? ¡°That¡¯s too bad. If we lived together, we would be able to spend more time together.¡±? ? ¡°Your house is too far away. I need to cross the river on the other side.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, I¡¯m thinking about moving to Itaewon.¡±? ? ¡°What? Again? That house hasn¡¯t been long either. You said you were going to build a new house¡­¡±? ? When I asked in surprise, Choi Sung-hoon stared at me with a slight smile on his face.? ? ¡°Because the fox didn¡¯t like it.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, Have you already brought the fox there?¡±? ? ¡°It went there for a while, but it didn¡¯t like it. I¡¯m thinking about Namsan.¡±? ? ¡°Well, you can run around in the mountains and breathe in the fresh air. I prefer the mountains to the rivers.¡±? ? ¡°Is that so.¡±? ? ¡°Still, Choi Sung-hoon ssi should live in a good place. You liked the night view.¡±? ? I feel sorry. I was wondering if it was because I talked about the Han River. In fact, Choi Sung-hoon is unconcerned by what I say, but I become self-conscious around him.? ? ¡°It doesn¡¯t matter if it¡¯s a river or a mountain.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon bowed his head and caressed my cheek.? ? ¡°It can¡¯t be said that I wasn¡¯t picky about where I lived up until now. However, anywhere is fine now.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon came closer and whispered as if kissing my ear.? ? ¡®As long as we¡¯re together, it doesn¡¯t matter where we are.¡¯? ? So, I was a little jealous, thinking, ¡®Choi Sung-hoon loves that fox very much.¡¯ CH 31 If Choi Sung-hoon sends another person to commute me to work, I expected it to be the lunch box gangster-like brother, but it was a different gangster-like brother. He was like a robot, greeting me and driving without making eye contact.? ? I felt helpless all day at the thought of not being able to meet Choi Sung-hoon. When I stopped by the cafe to wait for the gangster-like brother to pick me up after work, Ho-in asked why I had such a bad expression and if I was sick.? ? I¡¯ve become so selfish these days. I couldn¡¯t smile as I walked around, and my expression was so bad that people were worried about me¡­? ? ¡°I am perfectly healthy. Rather, I¡¯m worried about Ho-in ssi. It seems you are getting thinner.¡±? ? ¡°I am perfectly healthy as well¡­ He is late today. He was usually here before you left work.¡±? ? ¡°Are you talking about Choi Sung-hoon ssi? He went on a business trip and someone else decided to pick me up. He will return next week.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Really?¡±? ? Ho-in¡¯s expression brightened noticeably. He smiled and brewed a cup of citron tea. This cup of citron tea was my first meal of the day. I don¡¯t have an appetite, but only citron tea was palatable.? ? ¡°Excuse me, Seo-yu ssi, then tomorrow¡­ Can you make time for me?¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ ¡°? ? If I refuse Ho-in¡¯s request again, I will no longer be a human being.? ? ¡°Yes, of course. Where shall we meet?¡±? ? Ho-in was surprised at first when I readily accepted, but his face gradually transformed into joy.? ? I felt a little strange watching the change? ? If this person hadn¡¯t been Omega, I would have thought he liked me.? ? Ho-in made me feel embarrassed at first by asking to meet at 9 a.m., but it was eventually changed to 4 p.m. I couldn¡¯t do housework because I was spending every weekend day with Choi Sung-hoon, so I decided to do some cleanup tomorrow.? ? ¨C ¡­So, you¡¯re going home after dinner and watching a movie.? ? When I mentioned it during our regular phone call, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s response was very cool.? ? ¡°Should I say it will be a movie all night? There is an event with three consecutive movies at night, so I¡¯m going to watch it. I think I will come home on Sunday.¡±? ? ¨C Staying up all night is bad for your health.? ? ¡°I can doze off while watching a movie. And I don¡¯t sleep a lot, so it¡¯s okay.¡±? ? ¨C You don¡¯t sleep a lot¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon reacted as if he had heard the snowstorm was warm. I felt a little embarrassed.? ? I have actually prescribed sleeping pills for insomnia and fell asleep while taking them.? ? Strangely, I¡¯m sleeping a lot these days.? ? I fell asleep while on the phone with Choi Sung-hoon a few days ago. I dozed off while explaining that two new employees had joined the company and that the former new employees were training them.? ? My phone was in my hand when I woke up, and the talk time had been 5 hours and 3 minutes. He probably didn¡¯t pay attention to my breathing for hours, and Choi Sung-hoon seemed to have dozed off as well. When I mentioned that we must have fallen asleep together on our way to work in the morning, Choi Sung-hoon softly smiled and said, ¡°The sound of your breath was very steady.¡± I was so embarrassed that I wanted to slam the car door open.? ? I immediately posted a screenshot of the call time and a sleeping face emoticon on SNS, saying [I¡¯m embarrassed] that he was listening to the sound of my breathing. I was overjoyed when Sung-hyun commented.? ? Sung-hyun was cold to them, but to me, he was always jealous of his brother always kind to me, which felt good because it made me feel special every time.? ? There were numerous other responses, but I don¡¯t want to remember them all. Except when I¡¯m posting, I don¡¯t open my SNS. I was terrified because even people I had passed by once were on my friend list. I didn¡¯t delete the photos because I needed to upload them, but I didn¡¯t log in other than to upload photos.? ? ¨C It seems that the dominant Omega is very interested in Seo-yu ssi.? ? Why was Choi Sung-hoon doesn¡¯t like Ho-in for so long? My suspicion was that He was jealous¡­? ? ¡°Because I¡¯m his first omega friend¡­ the same goes with me. If I refuse to see him today and tomorrow, he may end our friendship.¡±? ? ¨C ¡­What time are you going to wake up tomorrow?? ? ¡°I¡¯m thinking about cleaning up, so I¡¯ll get up around eight.¡±? ? ¨C It would be hard to clean that house¡­ Do you want me to call someone to clean up for you?? ? I was about to say that I was fine with the seemingly indifferent kind words, but then I stopped.? ? ¡°Did you make fun of me because my house was a mess?¡±? ? ¨C Oh, did you notice?? ? Choi Sung-hoon laughed lowly. It was absurd, but then we were laughing. When this person pulls pranks like this, it tickles my heart and makes me laugh.? ? I rolled the bed over and discussed where and how to clean it. The bathroom would be lacquered, spoiled food in the refrigerator would be thrown away, the closet would be organized, and spring clothes would be brought out, among other things. Choi Sung-hoon listened intently to every detail of my story. He responded and teased me a lot more than before.? ? After hanging up, I stared at the screen of my phone and fell asleep for a long time, wondering how such a person and I could be intertwined.? ? * * *? ? I woke up to the sound of the alarm and started stretching when I heard the sound of the bell.? ? Who would come this morning?? ? I went out in pajamas because I thought it was the owner¡¯s grandfather.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Surprisingly, Choi Sung-hoon was standing in front of me. He was dressed in a black suit, as usual, but his hair was down.? ? As soon as I saw him, I slammed the door. I dashed to the bathroom, checked my face, and quickly changed out of my pajama top with a stretched neck into a knit tee. Then I turned to face the man who was standing quietly outside the door.? ? As I carefully opened the door, Choi Sung-hoon, who was looking at his phone slowly, tilted his head.? ? ¡°Good morning.¡±? ? ¡°Uh¡­ What happened? You were going on a business trip¡­ You said you¡¯d come next week¡­¡±? ? ¡°I came by because I had some free time. I have another appointment in the afternoon.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon spoke as if he were on a business trip in a Korean province. It was definitely Dubai, according to what I¡¯ve heard.? ? I sat on the sofa next to Choi Seong-hoon, who seemed bigger today, after hurriedly making two cups of coffee.? ? ¡°It¡¯s nice to see your face like this.¡±? ? I was just thinking about that, so I thought I said it.? ? Surprisingly, Choi Seong-hoon was the one who spoke. He had a warm look in his eyes as he looked at me. My heart was racing, and I couldn¡¯t make eye contact with him. However, I didn¡¯t turn my gaze away because I thought it would be a waste not to look at him.? ? ¡°You must be exhausted to come in the early morning¡­ You should have stayed in the hotel and rested. How did you end up here?¡±? ? ¡°I think I¡¯ll be more tired if I don¡¯t see Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°There is also a video call¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°I also wanted to help with the cleaning. Because I know you won¡¯t be able to do it on your own.¡±? ? ¡°I know you¡¯re just making fun of me¡­¡±? ? I laughed even though I was being teased.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not going to do any cleaning today. What kind of cleaning is cleaning with someone who flew in from Dubai to see me?¡±? ? I rested my face on his shoulder, carefully pulling the coffee away from him so it didn¡¯t spill. Choi Sung-hoon smiled contentedly.? ? ¡°Are you wearing pajamas?¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Yes¡­ this is my brother¡¯s. I have been wearing it for over 10 years.¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t change my pants because I was in a hurry. It was navy fleece pajama pants, but I shouldn¡¯t show my back to Choi Sung-hoon because the hips are stretched.? ? ¡°Do you want to wear pajamas as well, Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¡°No. I¡¯m going to take it off anyway.¡±? ? Why would you take it off¡­?? ? I wondered, but as I notice Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thick and long fingers slowly unbuttoning the button of his suit, my confusion disappeared.? ? Choi Sung-hoon placed his vest on the sofa¡¯s armrest and unbuttoned his shirt sleeve. His attention remained fixed on me. I clutched my coffee cup like it was a lifeline.? ? Someone who just returned from a business trip and wants to have sex?? ? I drank my coffee, wondering if it was my dream.? ? ¡°Ah, it¡¯s hot.¡±? ? Cough, cough.? ? I coughed as my tongue throbbed. Choi Sung-hoon looked at me as he was doing unbuttoning his shirt.? ? ¡°Excuse me, Chae Sung-hung ssi.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Breakfast! We have to eat it! Choi Seong-hung ssi, did you have breakfast? I mean, I haven¡¯t eaten it yet.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Did you burn your tongue?¡±? ? His long and thick fingers reached for my lips. He opened my lips and looked at my tongue as if he expected it. The coffee burn had most likely turned pink. Choi Sung-hoon, who was still watching, frowned.? ? ¡°Where is the ointment?¡±? ? ¡°Ah, even if I don¡¯t apply ointment, I¡¯ll be fine in 5 minutes.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stared at me with frightening eyes. I went to the TV cabinet and opened the drawer quietly. Choi Sung-hoon, who followed, discovered the ointment in the messy medicine box.? ? He washed his hands and approached me as I sat still in front of the drawers. Then he squeezed the white ointment as little as baby bird feed on his long and thick fingers, and I opened my lips. I wondered if the cold ointment was followed by a warm finger.? ? After carefully spreading the ointment, he grabbed my chin and kissed me. It was a tickling kiss that only touched my lips.? ? ¡°Be careful. You may have suffered serious burns.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡±? ? My heart melted at his series of actions. It makes me want to get a bigger burn¡­? ? I took a deep breath and smiled.? ? ¡°I¡¯m hungry. Choi Sung-hoon ssi didn¡¯t have breakfast, did he?¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t eat.¡±? ? ¡°You must be tired, so take a seat in that massage chair over there for a moment. I¡¯ll prepare something delicious for you.¡±? ? I got up first and pulled Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arm (this was possible because he got up on his own) and sat him on the massage chair.? ? ¡°Sir, please sit here. This was very good. It will make you feel relaxed.¡±? ? ¡°Who gave you this present?¡±? ? I really enjoy it when Choi Sung-hoon plays this kind of prank with his eyes that look cold because he doesn¡¯t have double eyelids.? ? ¡°Yes, the extremely dominant Alpha I met recently gave it to me.¡±? ? ¡°You had a lover.¡±? ? ¡°He is not my lover. He¡¯s a very nice person.¡±? ? I spoke happily and turned on the massage chair.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who I had expected to respond, fell silent. I was flustered. The spring-like atmosphere appears to have vanished in an instant, replaced by a midwinter blizzard.? ? Was he caught off guard by the massage chair¡¯s superior performance? If he asks for it, I won¡¯t give it to him, but I will tell him to come here whenever he needs a massage.? ? ¡°I am not your lover.¡±? ? The cold voice startled me, and I shuddered to my shoulders. Choi Sung-hoon raised one eyebrow and looked at me, but his eyes seemed to be asking for an explanation.? ? Why was he suddenly angry? Of course, I¡¯d like you to be my lover, but what if you aren¡¯t¡­? ? ¡°Why aren¡¯t we lovers?¡±? ? ¡°Sir, if I had a lover, it would be you¡­¡± ? ? I said and smiled bashfully, and then his cold expression softened a little.? ? Choi Sung-hoon stroked my neck while telling me not to make him misunderstand.? ? I wondered what kind of misunderstanding I had made. After Choi Sung-hoon leaves, I¡¯ll have to rethink it.? ? ¡°Then wait a moment. I¡¯ll make you something delicious.¡±? ? ¡°Why is Seo-yu ssi cooking? I¡¯m going to ask them to bring your meal now¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Excuse me, sir. As the homeowner, I want to treat you something. Please wait a little bit.¡±? ? As Choi Sung-hoon was about to take out his phone, I blocked him by putting my index finger to his lips and then releasing it. Choi Sung-hoon gave a brief smile and said he was looking forward to it.? ? Kinda wondering what should I cook, I made my way to the kitchen.? ? But when I looked inside the refrigerator, I was disappointed. There were only a few side dishes left, but everything had gone bad except for the kimchi, and the only thing left was ramen. As I looked at the various types of ramen bags, I sighed.? ? Ha¡­ I felt like I was going to cry because I couldn¡¯t even make a fried egg for someone who asked me to take a picture and send it to him while he was on a business trip.? ? I want to feed him the most delicious food in the world. Perhaps I should go out and buy it right now.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, do you have any ramen? I have been wanting to eat ramen for a long time.¡±? ? ¡°Ramen? I only have the instant one¡­¡±? ? ¡°There are times when instants ramen was more delicious because I can¡¯t eat when I went abroad.¡±? ? ¡°All right. Then I¡¯ll make ramen for you.¡±? ? In the living room, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was like a savior. He wants to eat ramen as if he can see I¡¯m in a bad situation. It was totally fate. This is why I can¡¯t seem to make up my mind about anything.? ? I took three bags of ramen to Choi Seong-hoon, who was sitting on the massage chair.? ? ¡°O ramen, S ramen, and J ramen. Which one should I cook?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Is this the only ramen?¡±? ? ¡°There are five.¡±? ? ¡°Then everything,¡± he replied. He was so cool that he made my heart race again.? ? The ramen was boiling in a large pot. It looked delicious because it had been a while. The smell wasn¡¯t overbearing at all and it was refreshing. The quantity seems a bit large, but five would not be enough to keep his massive figure.? ? There was no rice in this house, so we couldn¡¯t even eat rice; there was no rice cake, no cheese, no eggs¡­ Oh, there was one thing.? ? I rummaged through the cupboard and asked,? ? ¡°Cho Sung-hoon ssi, if you like spicy food, would you like to add cyanide?¡±? ? ¡°¡­I¡¯d be happy to die with you, but I¡¯ll decline today.¡±? ? ¡°Yes? ¡­Ah.¡±? ? I blinked at the sudden answer and soon realized my mistake.? ? ¡°Cheongyang pepper¡­ Cheongyang pepper¡­¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t put it in. It¡¯s not good for your stomach if you eat it for breakfast.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡±? ? Should I eat all of this and die?? ? ¡°Don¡¯t think about dying by eating all of it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon spoke as if he had read my mind. The voice was filled with laughter.? ? I cooked ramen in embarrassment.? ? ***? ? ¡°Hmm¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon grabbed my waist and pulled me towards him as I was about to run away from exhaustion.? ? I was confused by the interaction that had developed since the morning.? ? After I finished eating to my stomach¡¯s content without feeling nauseous¡­ Our gazes locked as we brushed our teeth.? ? Standing next to Choi Sung-hoon, who was wearing only a white t-shirt and had veins on his arms, it was impossible not to feel anything of him as a young and healthy Omega.? ? I kissed him first, and Choi Sung-hoon wrapped his arms around my waist.? ? At one point, I was laid on the bed in the room¡­? ? And¡­? ? What time is it now¡­?? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi¡­¡±? ? My voice was hoarse, like water parsley that had been soaked in rain.? ? ¡°I have to go¡­ I have an appointment¡­¡±? ? ¡°I know.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon answered by kissing my eyelids, bridge of the nose, and lips.? ? ¡°Before that, I will take you there. I have to go in the afternoon anyway.¡±? ? ¡°Now¡­ What time is it now¡­ ?¡±? ? He extended his arm and showed me his phone¡¯s screen.? ? Surprisingly, it was 10 a.m.? ? I thought it had been a long time¡­? ? ¡°You still have plenty of time.¡±? ? ¡°Ugh¡­ !¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon resumed moving his waist, which had stopped.? ? I was soon lost again under his large body.? ? * * *? ? Disaster hit not long after we were having a good time.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s phone started receiving calls one after the other. Choi Sung-hoon, who had initially ignored them, finally answered the phone with a frown on the fifth call.? ? His face became serious while talking on the phone, and he said after hanging up? ? ¡°It wasn¡¯t Korean time.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes?¡±? ? ¡°It was based on Dubai time. There¡¯s a five-hour difference. It¡¯s 6 o¡¯clock in Korean time.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I need to contact the captain. Seo-yu ssi, please contact that Omega as well.¡±? ? When Choi Sung-hoon left, I remained silent for a few moments before frantically searching for my cell phone. My back, legs, and holes were all sore, but there was no time to worry about it.? ? My cell phone was under the bed.? ? Maybe its got legs, why was it here¡­ Oh, I¡¯m fucked.? ? I had 12 missed calls from Ho-in. When I called, he answered even before the phone rang once.? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi! Is everything okay? Are you sick? What¡¯s going on? I can¡¯t even contact you¡­? ? ¡°Ho-in ssi, I¡¯m sorry¡­ You¡¯re not still waiting, are you?¡±? ? ¨C I¡¯m back now. Did something happen?? ? ¡°I am¡­ that is¡­ ¡°? ? ¨C Your throat wasn¡¯t in a good condition. A cold?? ? My voice was completely gone in the meantime. t wasn¡¯t unreasonable to think it was a cold.? ? Cough.? ? I coughed in time. Swallowing Choi Seong-hoon¡¯s stuff was too much¡­? ? ¨C If you¡¯re sick, take a break, Seo-yu ssi. If I knew your house, I would at least visit you¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m really sorry. I¡¯ll buy a meal later. I¡¯ll also treat you to watch movies. I¡¯m really sorry.¡±? ? ¨C Don¡¯t think about it and rest. You have to get better on the weekend.? ? Ho-in¡¯s voice was full of worries until the end, so it broke my conscience.? ? Choi Sung-hoon entered the room after hanging up the phone, pulling his hair out in shame and guilt.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, I¡¯m sorry. How did your appointment go?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to treat him to a meal later. How about yours, Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¡°¡­You said that if you refused one more time, you would lose your friendship. He didn¡¯t cut it off.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I told you. He is a good person.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon approached me with cold eyes.? ? Did things go wrong?? ? It was difficult to ask because of his scary expression.? ? Choi Sung-hoon apologized once more, kissed me, and rolled me into the blanket.? ? With only my face exposed, I was able to watch Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s dressing process. It felt even more raunchy as that fibrous clothes were layered on top of his hard, large muscles, making me feel even more embarrassed.? ? * * * ? ? Over the weekend, I went shopping and purchased a small angel-shaped doll. Throughout the weekend, I worried about whether this would cover up or not, but Ho-in was pretty happy with it.? ? ¡°You purposefully bought it for me¡­ I think I¡¯ll always want you to be late for an appointment if you¡¯re always like this.¡±? ? I was relieved to say that I was not offended by what he said as a joke.? ? ¡°I guess your cold is all better now. What a relief. I was very worried.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ It was not a cold.¡±? ? ¡°Then¡­?¡±? ? ¡°Actually, Choi Sung-hoon came over on Saturday. The extremely dominant Alpha.¡±? ? The hand that was stroking the little angel doll stopped as I spoke.? ? ¡°I thought he was going on a business trip¡­ You said he was coming back this week.¡±? ? ¡°I thought the same thing, but he showed up in the morning. I had some time before my appointment, so we watched a movie¡­ Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s phone was set to Dubai time. We didn¡¯t know, and the day flew by just like that.¡±? ? ¡°¡­The time setting will change automatically.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. I was wondering if his phone had broken. I¡¯m really sorry. It won¡¯t happen again.¡±? ? I sincerely apologized once more. Ho-in made a stern expression as if he was upset.? ? He sighed, tapped the table, and opened his mouth as he pressed his fingers to his forehead.? ? ¡°Do you really need to tell me the truth? I would understand if you said you were sick¡­¡±? ? He was right. It was a comfortable way to convince. However, when I arrived at the cafe and saw Ho-in¡¯s pale face, I made the decision to tell the truth.? ? ¡°I think Ho-in was too worried.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°I understand how emotionally draining such worries can be. Worried about a person who is in pain¡­ I couldn¡¯t lie like that because I knew it would make things worse for you. I sincerely apologize.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? Ho-in, who was listening quietly, blinked.? ? He didn¡¯t say anything for a long time, and it wasn¡¯t until the cafe staff snooped around the table that he muttered in low voices.? ? ¡°¡­ It makes me impossible¡­to do it.¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°No, nothing.¡±? ? And, despite barely closing his eyes and raising the corners of his mouth, his expression was neither crying nor smiling. CH 32 From that day on, Ho-in did not appear at the cafe. I sent a text message because I was worried, and I have gotten a reply saying he was in his heat cycle.? ? Heat cycle¡­? ? After hearing the word I¡¯d forgotten, I realized it was time for mine to arrive. It was initially irregular, but this time it seems to be extremely late.? ? Could it be because of the contraceptive pill?? ? I forgot to take the contraceptive pills for a few days last time and I am taking them again this time. So far, it was the first time I¡¯d met an extremely dominant Alpha after only meeting dominant alphas or betas and taking the pills constantly like this. The reason why I don¡¯t have much appetite these days maybe because of the contraceptives. I couldn¡¯t help but take it and I don¡¯t dare to ask Choi Sung-hoon to use a condom. I¡¯m a recessive Omega, so my chances of getting pregnant were low, should I just skip the pills?? ? ¡°What are you thinking about?¡±? ? I come to my senses after hearing his low voice. Choi Sung-hoon was in front, holding popcorn and a soda. I ordered the largest size, but because Choi Sung-hoon was holding it, it seems to be a child¡¯s size.? ? ¡°I¡¯m wondering if I¡¯ll fall asleep or not. Please wake me up if I fall asleep.¡±? ? ¡°If you are sleepy, you should sleep.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled and sat down next to me.? ? We came to the cinema to watch the movie all night.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was dressed casually in gray knitwear layered over a black shirt, black jeans, and black loafers. Of course, he didn¡¯t forget the charcoal gray scarf that goes with it.? ? He caught the attention of others because he was so big and magnificent among the people alone. People would turn their heads away because they were afraid, they have no choice but to look again then avoid him again because they were afraid, and finally notice me.? ? They must be thinking that I don¡¯t look good with him. How can something like me be next to someone like this?? ? I smiled and leaned on Choi Sung-hoon.? ? So what if I¡¯m not good for him? I¡¯m the one standing next to him. Wasn¡¯t he a big guy? Wasn¡¯t his shoulder incredibly broad? Look at his forearms, which were as big as my head. Could you see that he got me popcorn and drinks? He was an extremely dominant Alpha. He was more than just an alpha.? ? Everyone who looked at us turned red and turned their heads as I was filled with such thoughts.? ? ¡°You must be having a good time. You smiled a lot.¡±? ? A big hand covered my face. Choi Sung-hoon was frowning when I looked up. He looks sexy like a dangerous beast¡­? ? ¡°It¡¯s my first time staying up all night watching a movie, so I¡¯m looking forward to it. Choi Sung-hoon ssi, are you confident you won¡¯t doze off? It¡¯s until six in the morning.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m confident. Shall we go in now?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stood up first. He also picked up popcorn and drinks. My heart swelled again at the little consideration. My ex-lover used to give me money to buy it on my own or let me carry it. I¡¯m in trouble these days because I enjoy comparing my crush to ex-lovers.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was so big that he chose the last couple¡¯s seat. Choi Sung-hoon and I were holding hands the whole time.? ? The first movie was sad. There was just an explosion, gunshots, and riots, but it was so sad that I felt like crying.? ? I was just sad.? ? Someday, the new crush will become the old ones¡­ I hope that when I return to my original situation, this will be a beautiful memory rather than a sad one¡­ Is it possible?? ? I couldn¡¯t concentrate on the movie because of that thought.? ? I¡¯m not sure how long has it been.? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? I woke up to the voice calling me.? ? ¡°The movie is over.¡±? ? The surroundings were noisy. Choi Sung-hoon was tapping my mouth with a soft tissue.? ? ¡°Oh, it¡¯s over? What happened to the main character?¡±? ? ¡°If it¡¯s the first movie, he runs away from the organization successfully.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? His answer made me have an ominous feeling. Choi Sung-hoon looked at my churning pupil and showed me the screen of his phone.? ? 5:45 in the morning.? ? ¡°Why?¡±? ? It was time for the third movie to come to an end. I was so embarrassed that I asked as to why it had come to this.? ? ¡°You slept well.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go now. We have to eat breakfast. Wake up.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was smiling, and my face was flushed.? ? * * *? ? Choi Sung-hoon invited me to his new house in Hannam-dong. It was an apartment with a swimming pool in the complex and a terrace with a view of Namsan Mountain. It was amazing how he got it in such a short time.? ? I spent the entire weekend at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house and commuted to work from there on Mondays.? ? It was the first time we had spent the night together and went to work together, so it felt new.? ? Because our working hours were similar, when I buttoned my shirt, Choi Sung-hoon put his arm on the shirt as well. It felt strange because it felt like we were living in the same house together.? ? As I was getting ready to leave for work, I heard the bell ring, and then Choi Sung-hoon show up, but he was carrying a familiar lunch box. We used to eat breakfast together on weekends, but this was the first time we had breakfast together before going to work on a weekday. Because I was constantly starved at home.? ? I don¡¯t have an appetite these days and can¡¯t eat well because I keep getting sick, but when Choi Sung-hoon was by my side, I ate like a person who hasn¡¯t eaten in two days. So I sat down at the table knowing that was going to be the case, but I was disappointed.? ? The smell was so disgusting and unpleasant. I kept getting nauseated and I covered my mouth.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, are you okay? You don¡¯t look good.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m fine¡­ But, since I usually don¡¯t eat breakfast¡­ I am not very hungry.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯ve eaten well so far. If there¡¯s anything else you want, I¡¯ll ask him to bring another dish.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have time to wait. I have to leave for work. I¡¯ll be watching you eat. Please eat my portion.¡±? ? ¡°Can¡¯t you even take a bite? If you don¡¯t feel well, you should go to the hospital.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s because I don¡¯t have a habit of eating breakfast.¡±? ? I smiled softly in a sense of reassurance. Choi Sung-hoon seemed dissatisfied.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s make it a habit to eat breakfast from now on. Anything else in our lives that is not coordinated is unacceptable.¡±? ? Coordinating our life¡­? ? Talking as if we¡¯d be meeting for a long time made my heart flutter and hurt at the same time.? ? As usual, Choi Sung-hoon drove me to the company. I would see him again when I get home from work today, but it was upsetting to say goodbye for the time being.? ? The atmosphere in the office ahead of the Lunar New Year holiday was very chaotic. After receiving gifts for the Lunar New Year, everyone found it difficult to concentrate on their work. Of course, so do I.? ? I was nervous because tomorrow was the Lunar New Year holiday, and I had decided to go to Choi Seong-hoon¡¯s house. Especially since Sung-hyun had been sending messages since the morning.? ? Sung-hyun-i [Hyung Hyung Hyung Hyuuuung hyung hyung hyung Hyuung]? ? [Why are you so loud?]? ? Sung-hyun-i [Hyung, can you come today????? Mom wants to see you]? ? [Why does your mother want to see me so much ??]? ? Sung-hyun-i [Hahaha, she got curious at the rumor that Director Choi is unable to live without you]? ? Sung-hyun-i [Oh, that¡¯s right, even my dad quarrels with mom because of you]? ? [Why? Does your dad says he doesn¡¯t like me?]? ? Sung-hyun-i [He was jealous because my mother wants to see you more than him. He wasn¡¯t even that young anymore, but he was still so immature.]? ? I wondered why the hell his mother wanted to see me so much, and how envious his father was.? ? Sung-hyun-i [But he can¡¯t even say anything, so he can¡¯t pick a fight hahaha]? ? Sung-hyun-i [Can¡¯t you really come today?]? ? Sung-hyun tried to use his younger brother¡¯s strategy by acting cute again. I told him I¡¯d see him tomorrow and ignored the next message.? ? I skipped lunch because I was so nervous. I¡¯m not sure how they¡¯d react if they discovered that the person their son was said to be unable to live without was just a sex partner and the person who gave up their youngest son¡¯s driving privileges who was still a minor.? ? I felt like I was going to vomit because of the excitement and tension of meeting the people who gave birth to and raised Choi Sung-hoon.? ? So I called Won-jo to vent this excitement and tension. He had sent me a message in the morning asking me to meet him tomorrow.? ? ¨C Hey, shall we meet tonight? Club, go?? ? ¡°No. I decided to see Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s parents tomorrow. I¡¯m invited to his house.¡±? ? -¡­His house?? ? ¡°Yeah, his mother, who was on a trip abroad, also came to see me.¡±? ? ¨C No, why would you spend the holidays with his family if you have nothing to do with him? You¡¯re also a real scoundrel.? ? As expected, Won-jo hit me with reality.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon invited me first, damn it. There are things that their younger son and I are intertwined with, and they must want to see me because I get along well with their blunt eldest son.¡±? ? ¨C You must have said ¡®yes¡¯ in a hurry when he invites you, you bastard.? ? This bastard knows me all too well.? ? ¡°Well, why not? Maybe his parents will like me.¡±? ? ¨C Then what? What¡¯s the difference?? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to tell you first. Wouldn¡¯t he date me?? ? ¨C Your nonsense is driving me insane.? ? ¡°Love has nothing to do with being dominant or recessive, you punk. Please show your support for me as a friend.¡±? ? ¨C Stop it. You¡¯ll have an upset stomach when you eat.? ? I told Won-jo who didn¡¯t support me until the end about what I¡¯ve done so far. Choi Sung-hoon always drove me to work, invited me to his house, and wiped my drool at the cinema.? ? Who, who initially struggled to understand the subject, eventually became quiet and said, ¡°Okay, give it a try.¡± Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s actions were so kind to his sex friend that Won-jo became confused.? ? I worked hard again after I hung up the phone. My enthusiasm was soaring. Maybe the sky recognized my sincerity, because around 4 p.m., we received a call from the boss telling us to leave work immediately. The manager and staff all cheered.? ? Originally, the company did not have a gift for New Year¡¯s Day and only gave more money, but gifts were distributed this year. It was a high-quality Korean beef set, so I decided to take it to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family. ? ? [I¡¯m done now^^~]? ? Choi Sung-hoon? [I¡¯ll go now]? ? Choi Sung-hoon immediately sent a message of departure. The S&S, which shares the same name as a big company, appears to be a good company that offers free commuting.? ? I went to a cafe while waiting for Choi Sung-hoon, and Ho-in was there. After not seeing him for a few days, Ho-in¡¯s face had become slightly sharper.? ? Was the heat cycle difficult?? ? He looked at me and told me to sit with my eyes beautifully curved. He eventually sat in front of me with two cups of citron tea.? ? ¡°I haven¡¯t seen you in a week, but it feels like a very long time.¡±? ? ¡°I know, right. Ho-in ssi, you¡¯re not sick, are you? Why are you becoming paler?¡±? ? ¡°Well¡­ I was sick for a few days.¡±? ? I was surprised and asked as to where it was and how much it hurt. Ho-in smiled quietly, but his eyes were not smiling at all, so he appeared cold.? ? Ho-in, who would have brought the topic first, was deafeningly quiet. I felt a little unfamiliar, so I only drank citron tea.? ? Come to think of it, the cafe¡¯s atmosphere seemed to have changed as well.? ? The cute baby angel dolls and the warm and cute decorations also disappeared, making it a little bleak. Everything was gone except for the doll I gave him. It was there until last Friday¡­? ? ¡°The dolls over there are gone. It was cute¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I got rid of all the useless stuff.¡±? ? The answer was strangely cold.? ? ¡°Did you get rid of that phrase too? There were good things written about love. It was very good. ¡®Love is patience.¡¯ ¡­ What was it?¡±? ? As I traced back my memory, Ho-in spoke up.? ? ¡°¡­ ¡®Love is patience and endurance; Love blooms in the waiting; Love always heads to a place with a gentle heart.¡¯.¡±? ? Ho-in, who was reciting the phrase with his eyes down, raised one corner of his mouth and laughed coldly.? ? ¡°I threw it all away.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°It didn¡¯t mean anything. It was all useless.¡±? ? In the cold atmosphere, I said, ¡°Yes¡­¡± I answered quietly and continued to sip my citron tea.? ? And there was silence. I don¡¯t think I¡¯ve ever been as uncomfortable as today while I was with Ho-in. I also realized how caring he was. Meanwhile, Ho-in had been talking to me first to alleviate the awkwardness, and he kept bringing up the subject. I think he¡¯s in a bad mood, so I¡¯ll have to try this time.? ? ¡°We should definitely go watch the movie all night later. It was nice. It was a different experience.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ You must have been with that Alpha.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, he liked it too. It was a good experience thanks to Ho-in ssi.¡±? ? ¡°You said you weren¡¯t a couple, right?¡±? ? His voice was sharp. I shuddered as I nodded.? ? Ho-in¡¯s eyes were filled with ferocious energy.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, I¡¯m really worried. He is an extremely dominant Alpha while Seo-yu ssi is a recessive Omega. You don¡¯t think he¡¯s sincere, do you?? ? Ho-in leaned his upper body toward me. I was taken aback by his abrasive demeanor. With a smile on his lips, he continued to speak.? ? ¡°You may feel a connection now, but to that person, Seo-yu is just a joke for the time being. He was not only an Alpha but an extremely dominant one. They each have their own area. You are not a kid, you have to face the reality.¡±? ? Thump, thump, thump. My heart began to beat faster.? ? It was something I¡¯d always heard from Won-jo, but hearing it from Ho-in was even more excruciatingly painful. The pain was similar to being scratched on the chest with a knife.? ? ¡°Last time¡­ You said it doesn¡¯t matter. Love¡­ have nothing to do with dominant and recessive¡­¡±? ? ¡°No.¡±? ? Ho-in had a beautiful smile with his eyes bent, but it was so cold that I shivered. It¡¯s like a cold wind in the dead of winter.? ? ¡°The extremely dominant Alpha cannot be together with the recessive Omega, Seo-yu ssi. Just as Omega cannot be together with another Omega.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Stop now¡­ Get a hold of yourself.¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t respond to the sharp voice that seemed to come straight at my heart and pierce it.? ? I quickly said my goodbyes and stood from my seat. I hurried out without hearing Ho-In¡¯s farewell and stood on the road where Choi Sung-hoon always picks me up.? ? The air outside was so cold that it cooled down my complicated head in an instant.? ? I was just confirming what I knew.? ? I don¡¯t think Choi Sung-hoon likes me. He has a crush on me right now, but I am not under the impression that it will last forever.? ? As Ho-in said, I know that it would be the curiosity of a bored extremely dominant Alpha who has everything.? ? However¡­ We were adult Alpha and Omega¡­ Choi Sung-hoon was so kind to me¡­ Because I was introduced to his family for the first time¡­ I guess I was expecting a lot more.? ? It¡¯s as if someone has scratched my heart with something sharp. I don¡¯t have anyone. There was no one to share the pain. I lost them all a long time ago.? ? My stomach was throbbing.? ? I covered my stomach and squatted down.? ? People glanced at me and passed by.? ? The cold February wind blew at me, bringing me back to reality in an instant. As if to tell me¡­ The bitter winter wind reminded me that it was not yet spring. CH 33.1 Chapter 33.1? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? I put on the suit I had left to dry and neatly touched my hair. The Korean beef set I received yesterday, as well as the gift I prepared separately, were both nicely prepared.? ? I had some time before Choi Sung-hoon arrived, so I sat in the living room, and my eyes became dizzy from the headache. My stomach hurts as well¡­ I poured both pain relievers and tranquilizers at the same time.? ? While I was cleaning my chest, I received a loud phone call from my uncle, who asked when I was going to come. I couldn¡¯t go because I was busy, so when I offered to give him some pocket money, he became quiet. It was always like this.? ? I was spacing out with a broken cell phone in my hand and got up when Choi Sung-hoon arrived.? ? I raised the corners of my mouth in front of the mirror in front of the door. I tried to lift the subdued mood, but it was not easy.? ? I was looking forward to meeting Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family¡­ I¡¯m afraid now.? ? I must smile though. I made a wide smile and went outside.? ? The previous day¡¯s bitter cold was overshadowed by the spring-like weather.? ? So I was a little lonely.? ? A familiar sedan soon arrived. Choi Sung-hoon stepped out of the sedan, which had come to a gentle stop. I approached in amazement.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t have to come out. I can get it by myself¡­¡± ? ? ¡°Why didn¡¯t you wait inside?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took the luggage from both of my hands and put it in the back seat. Then he opens the passenger door and waits for me to get on¡­ The sequence of actions was so natural.? ? His home was in Bucheon. There had several houses in Seoul, but they said they would gather at Bucheon¡¯s house during the holidays. How rich was he? I¡¯m afraid my gift will be shabby.? ? As we left the busy road on the first day of the holiday and entered a quiet road, we came to a cluster of rural houses.? ? ¡°We¡¯ll be arriving soon.¡±? ? ¡°Let¡¯s stop by the pharmacy for a moment.¡±? ? Squeak.? ? The car stopped before I could even finish my words.? ? ¡°Why? Are you sick?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to buy some relaxing pills. I should eat about three.¡±? ? I was sincere, but Choi Sung-hoon loosened his stiff expression and smiled briefly.? ? ¡°Maybe the chairman has already eaten five.¡±? ? ¡°Chairman?¡±? ? ¡°There is no need to be nervous. It¡¯s those people who have to fit your mood¡­ If it bothers you, we will come back immediately.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon started the car again. As I pondered what he had said, I asked.? ? ¡°Did you just call your parents ¡°those people¡±?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°No, that¡¯s possible. I told my parents that they were the people¡­¡±? ? How could that be? Even when I was in the midst of rebellion in my mid-teens, I didn¡¯t use the title ¡®Those people¡¯.? ? But each house has a different culture, so it could be¡­ right? Maybe it¡¯s a bad relationship?? ? I was a little worried.? ? * * * ? ? We arrived at a country house surrounded by a high wall. The gate opened, and the car drove through the yard or even the garden, followed by two white Jindo dogs.? ? ¡°I can¡¯t believe there¡¯s a dog. You didn¡¯t tell me you had a dog!¡±? ? ¡°¡­I didn¡¯t know either.¡±? ? I wanted to get out of the car as soon as possible, so I unbuckled my seat belt before we even came to a complete stop. The Jindo dog¡¯s tail was rapidly wagging from side to side.? ? I put my face to the window and looked around when I heard low laughter and turned around. Choi Sung-hoon put his palm to the corner of his mouth and looked at me.? ? ¡°It wags its tail.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, it¡¯s really cute. It seems to follow people well.¡±? ? ¡°I guess so.¡±? ? I opened the door and got out as soon as he finished parking in the garden. The puppies ran up to me and attempted to hug me as they jumped, waved their tails, licked their feet, and went crazy. I squatted in place, hugged and stroked them.? ? It seems they like people so much. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s large palm covered my face as the puppies were about to lick it.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go in. They are waiting for you.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon lifted me up. He took the load I had in both of my hands with one hand and took my hand with the other. As we walked, dogs barked and followed us.? ? Except for the road, the gardens and houses covered in white snow were beautiful. It was like a different world.? ? At the front door, Choi Sung-hoon looked at me and told me to ring the doorbell. I gulped, and as soon as I placed my finger on the doorbell, it swung open.? ? ¡°Brother, you are here!¡±? ? It happened so quickly that I heard a ding-dong and a ringtone after the door opened.? ? ¡°Give me your luggage. Please come in.¡±? ? After receiving the luggage with a smile on his face, Sung-hyun looked at me and rebuked me for taking 5 minutes to get here from the main gate. Choi Sung-hoon took off his shoes first.? ? There were several pairs of shoes in the corridor. Men¡¯s and women¡¯s shoes, as well as sneakers that roll next to an angled and tidy loafer.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? Ah.? ? Get a hold of yourself.? ? ¡°I¡¯m nervous¡­ haha.¡±? ? ¡°They would have been more nervous.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled as if I was cute.? ? It was not good for my heart.? ? I moved my shoes to the corner and wore indoor slippers that had been left for me. Following Choi Sung-hoon, I entered the living room after passing through a short porch.? ? A big man stood vaguely in the middle of the living room. After a brief glance at Choi Sung-hoon, his father found me and opened his eyes wide.? ? ¡°Are you Seo-yu?¡±? ? ¡°Ah, hello. Nice to meet you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s father was very different from what I had imagined.? ? He was shorter than Choi Sung-hoon, but he was bigger. He was tough, like a wrestler, and his beard was growing wildly. He was dressed in a black short-sleeved t-shirt, and the tattoos on the back of his arm drew my attention.? ? Gangster? He must be a gangster, right? Is he a fucking gangster or just an intimidating looking man?? ? ¡°Hmm¡­ Are you a celebrity by profession?¡±? ? ¡°Yes? No, I work for ordinary company.¡±? ? ¡°How old are you?¡±? ? ¡°I am twenty-eight this year.¡±? ? ¡°Hmm¡­¡±? ? Every time Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s father asked me a question, I felt compelled to bow my head and apologize.? ? ¡°Get out of here. I can¡¯t see him because of you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s mother appeared after beating his father in the back of the head.? ? His father said, ¡°I¡¯m sorry¡­ ¡± and stepped away¡­? ? ¡°Welcome, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Hello, Mother.¡±? ? His mother had a pale face and wore thin silver-rimmed glasses. It was a cold impression, but the eye level was almost close to mine. They were a male Alpha and a female omega couple.? ? ¡°We welcome you very much.¡±? ? ¡­ Was she from a foreign country?? ? ¡°Thank you. Please speak comfortably, mother.¡±? ? ¡°Okay. come sit here. Sung-hyun-ah, take their clothes.¡±? ? ¡°Yep.¡±? ? Even the mother did not greet her eldest son with enthusiasm. As far as I know, it must have been a very long time.? ? Sung-hyun took our coats and the gift set I had brought. One was a Korean beef set, and the other was a Western drink and Japanese confectionery. His mother thanked me as well, but his father only stared at me.? ? As I moved, I whispered to Choi Seong-hoon.? ? ¡°Your mother must have come from abroad.¡±? ? ¡°She was born in Suncheon, Jeollanam-do.¡±? ? ¡°What? But why her talking¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°She has never used honorifics before. And I told you. I¡¯m sure these people were more nervous.¡±? ? After hearing the answer, I felt that his parents was ittle cute.? ? We sat in a circle in the living room because it was early for dinner. It was a sitting table with a fireplace beside it. The front of the living room had a window that looked out onto the snow-covered garden.? ? Despite the fact that it was a holiday, a housekeeper was present and served refreshments and tea. My stomach churned from the smell of herbal medicine and tea.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t like herbal medicine?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, no. I like it.¡±? ? ¡°If you don¡¯t like it, don¡¯t eat it.¡±? ? I wanted to cry because his father¡¯s tone was so harsh. I raised my fork to eat mustard. Choi Sung-hoon opened his mouth as if he was trying to say something to me, but before that, his mother put down the fork.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t misunderstand him; that¡¯s how he talks. Would you like me to bring you rice cakes or Korean sweets if you don¡¯t like herbal medicine? What about the Japanese sweets you brought?¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ It¡¯s fine. If mother and father want Japanese sweets, I¡¯ll go and bring them.¡±? ? ¡°You should speak comfortably as well. What do you mean mother and father.¡±? ? ¡­ Wasn¡¯t that a commonly used title? Was it ironic that I don¡¯t dare use it?? ? ¡°I want to eat! Mom, I want some Japanese sweets?¡±? ? ¡°Okay. Kim Jeong-hee, please bring out something this child brought.¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? His mother had a cold expressionless face most of the time, but when she looked at Sung-hyun, she had a faint smile on her lips.? ? The helper brought the Japanese sweets on a pretty plate. Sung-hyun and his father both took out their cell phones before eating. Sung-hyun planned to share it on social media, but why was his father¡­? ? ¡°Seo-yu, do you have any social media account?¡±? ? ¡°I have an ID.¡±? ? His father then told me to follow him and gave me his ID. I quickly turned on my phone and immediately regretted it. It was because I remembered my ex-boyfriends¡¯ traces. I was worried for a while that I would simply say no, but then the thought faded away.? ? It doesn¡¯t matter Choi Sung-hoon and I are just sex friends.? ? ¡°Hmm, 34 followers¡­ By the way, I have 340.¡±? ? ¡°Wow, that¡¯s a lot. I¡¯m envious.¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, I have 3,400 people.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, that¡¯s a lot¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun, however, doesn¡¯t notice¡­? ? While Sung-hyun was speaking, his father flicked the screen of his phone, came to a halt and showed it to his mother.? ? ¡°Honey, I guess this is the bouquet that Director Choi gave him.¡±? ? ¡°I know because Sung-hyun showed me.¡±? ? ¡°I envy you¡­ I think I¡¯ll be happy if I receive flowers as a gift. I¡¯ll also brag about it on social media. I wish I could get a bouquet of red roses like this. At the very least one rose. It is not the number that is important. What matters is the giver.¡±? ? His father strongly expressed his desire to receive flowers. Mother raised her glasses once as if she was tired.? ? ¡°Ask your son to buy it for you. Don¡¯t say something like that in front of your guests.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, Dad. I¡¯ll buy it for you. Seo-yu hyung will be disheartened.¡±? ? His father then pouted his lips. He was clearly unhappy, but neither his mother, Sung-hyun, nor Choi Sung-hoon were concerned about his father¡¯s feelings.? ? ¡°Director Choi. It¡¯s been a while since I saw you. Please let me hear your voice.¡°? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s been a while.¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t know you¡¯d bring someone for the first time in 15 years.¡±? ? ¡°I introduced them. Seo-yu hyung and hyung, met because of me. Did I do well?¡±? ? ¡°Good job, our youngest.¡±? ? Certainly, their mother became infinitely gentle with Sung-hyun. The gaze was different. That doesn¡¯t mean that she was cold to Choi Sung-hoon. Her pride in her eldest son stayed unchanged. Rather, Choi Sung-hoon was blunt and cold. Compared to when he looked at me¡­ His gaze was different.? ? ¡°Please scold Choi Sung-hyun for driving without a license properly. Don¡¯t just wrap it around.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s fine as long as he doesn¡¯t get into any more trouble. It¡¯s in the past.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. Thanks to me, you met your lover¡­¡±? ? Sung-hyun timidly protested.? ? What exactly do you mean lover? I¡¯ve been having an absurd misunderstanding. Uh¡­ Wait a minute. ? ? I blinked my eyes. I just realized during the conversation that Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s parents were aware that I was going to die that day.? ? He brought me here because his parents wanted to see the person who had been saved by his immature younger brother.? ? I had a very complicated feeling.? ? ¡°This is delicious. The sweets just melt in my mouth¡­ Mom, try it, too.¡±? ? When Sung-hyun realized his mistake, he changed the subject to Japanese sweets. Father occupied mother¡¯s mouth at lightning speed before she picked up one. His mother accepted it very naturally with only her mouth open.? ? The two of them must be turning 60¡­ The atmosphere around them was wonderful.? ? It was such a harmonious family.? ? ¡°It¡¯s delicious? How is it, honey?¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu-gun has a good eye. I like it. But, why don¡¯t you eat it?¡°? ? ¡°Please call me comfortably, mother. ?Because my name is only one letter, everyone refers to me by my surname. At your convenience¡­¡±? ? ¡°Sure, then. Yu-ya.¡±? ? My heart sank in an instant. I smiled and bit the inside of my cheek.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, you should eat as well.¡±? ? Next to me, Choi Sung-hoon held my hand and handed me a Japanese sweet.? ? Strangely, it didn¡¯t bother me at all. A short while ago, the smell was nauseating¡­? ? I couldn¡¯t just open my mouth and eat it like his mother, so I took it carefully and ate it with my hands. I gave one to Choi Sung-hoon, but he just opened his mouth and ate it on my hand.? ? It was so cute. So my heart fluttered.? ? In the meantime, Sung-hyun pushed his cell phone and told his brother to feed me the flower snack one more time, but a voice notification saying, ¡°This is a video,¡± came out and was criticized by Choi Sung-hoon. His mother and father said that it was the first time they had eaten something with a look of dismay since they gave baby food.? ? The tension was relieved a bit.? ? I could see what I couldn¡¯t see after my stiff body relaxed. Things like the golden shell of the sweets that fell under the table or the two dogs in the living room corner.? ? I asked, pointing to the dogs who were biting each other¡¯s ears in the garden.? ? ¡°How old are the dogs? I heard that Choi Sung-hoon ssi saw them for the first time today.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s been over 10 years, maybe.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, honey. The eldest is thirteen and the younger is ten years old.¡±? ? I looked at Choi Sung-hoon. How could you not know when they have been raised for so long?? ? ¡°It¡¯s been quite a while¡­ since I left home, so I didn¡¯t know.¡±? ? Yeah, that¡¯s possible. Choi Sung-hoon could be unaware or insensitive. I guess he wasn¡¯t aware of his parents¡¯ dogs.? ? Of course, if it had been someone else who didn¡¯t know, like Sung-hyun or Won-jo, I would have cursed him for being insensitive.? ? But it¡¯s okay because it¡¯s Choi Sung-hoon. CH 33.2 Chapter 33.2? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? ¡°I adopted them when I was in elementary school. Aren¡¯t they cute? Their names are yachae and chaeso. The big one is yachae. Should I bring him? Do you want to pet them?¡±? ? ¡°No, let them play.¡±? ? Come to think of it, I think their photos were sometimes uploaded on Sung-hyun¡¯s SNS. I¡¯ll go home later and take a look.? ? We talked a lot while eating Japanese sweets.? ? Sung-hyun said his mother graduated from physical education after his father graduated from business administration. His father was the one who proposed. Sung-hyun recently purchased a home close to the university. His father was disappointed that he only ate out with his family 13 times last year, and his mother asked Choi Sung-hoon to respond occasionally.? ? He even blew out about our good night call every day before I fell asleep. I was worried that I might have ruined the image of a lone beast in the family, but there was no sign of anger from Choi Sung-hoon, who sat silently next to me.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s parents rarely asked me about my personal life. Except for Choi Sung-hoon¡­ As for my family, they didn¡¯t even ask a simple question about whether he had seen my parents even though it was a holiday.? ? After a few hours, the housekeeper asked as to whether she could prepare a meal. However, the Japanese sweets made me feel full, and the smell of rice made me nauseated. His mother then responded that she should prepare it right away. If I can¡¯t eat it, I¡¯ll have to ask for help from Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Oh, Kim Jung-hee. Please bring me some German bacon. I need to feed Seo-yu because he is so thin.¡±? ? ¡°Oh¡­ Thank you very much.¡±? ? I thanked mother for taking care of me, but I doubted if I could eat it.? ? People rushed out from somewhere when the helper, Kim Jeong-hee, said, ¡°I will prepare a meal.¡± There were two of them and both dressed in aprons. There had to be three housekeepers in total.? ? ¡°Mom, did you buy bacon? Why didn¡¯t you tell me?¡±? ? ¡°Did you have time to talk with me when I came in yesterday? Germany is great. I should go again in the summer.¡±? ? ¡°What?¡±? ? His father jumped to his feet and exclaimed, ¡°What?¡± He looked like a bear standing alone, with a rough appearance and a rugged body.? ? ¡°Where else are you going? No more going abroad.¡±? ? ¡°Then I¡¯ll go around Asia, not Germany.¡±? ? ¡°But I can¡¯t wait any longer. I miss you so much and I want to hear your voice.¡±? ? ¡°You do video calls all the time. You¡¯re overreacting, just sit down.¡±? ? ¡°Mom¡­ Why did you say that? Dad is going to cry again.¡±? ? Sung-hyun stopped her late because his father was already crying.? ? Is it a sitcom?? ? Choi Sung-hoon wrapped his arm around my shoulder as I stared there with my mouth open and whispered.? ? ¡°That¡¯s why I left home early.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡±? ? I nodded.? ? ¡°I decide where and when I¡¯m going.¡±? ? ¡°We are a couple. You have to respect my opinion.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s why you put up with it for ten years until last year. I write a travel column¡­¡±? ? It was a sitcom with a twist.? ? ¡°You can¡¯t go! Take me if you want to go. I don¡¯t know anymore. I¡¯m full!¡±? ? His father ended up lying down in the living room. Mother raised her glasses and opened her mouth as she looked at her pathetic husband, who was lying with his arms crossed and a body the size of a house.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun. Bring a knife.¡±? ? ¡°Huh?¡±? ? ¡°Bring it to me quickly so she can¡¯t leave me again. Look at me! If I am hospitalized, you won¡¯t be able to leave! Bring it quickly. That¡¯s just¡­ ¡±? ? I sat next to Choi Sung-hoon and watched while eating virtual popcorn. Sung-hyun rolled his eyes as his mother stood up and said she would bring the knife with her own hands. At the same time, Choi Sung-hoon and I both stood up.? ? I thought he was trying to stop them, but Choi Sung-hoon grabbed my hand and led me into the living room. He showed me the stairs and took me up there.? ? ¡°It¡¯s noisy, can you come in for a while? The room on the right is my old room.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯ll be inside. Please tell me the ending later.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes, I understand.¡±? ? I was curious about the ending of the sitcom, but I also wondered about Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s old room.? ? I went up the stairs while listening to his father¡¯s screeching and carefully opened the door.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? It was disappointing¡­? ? It seems that the furniture was removed after Choi Sung-hoon left. There was only one bed and an empty desk in the room.? ? I sat on the bed.? ? It seems to be well-kept because there was no dust.? ? Outside the window, white snow-covered branches could be seen.? ? Choi Sung-hoon grew up here.? ? In a home with friendly and open parents and a charming younger brother, with a view of the garden from the window.? ? He must have lived a harmonious life since he was a child.? ? I think he would have thought it was distracting when he had to study. Distracted¡­ I think he¡¯ll be shy to see others.? ? He must have suffered a bit because he was alone with such a reticent personality.? ? The older brother was always cool and cold, so maybe that¡¯s why the younger brother was more lively.? ? The father and eldest brother addressed their mother formally, while the youngest son addressed her informally.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? No¡­ It was not weird.? ? It was due to the fact that the youngest son was so adorable. Because she loves the younger son who has a big age gap with the eldest.? ? An older brother who protects his younger brother from being scolded by his parents? ? I had one as well.? ? I also had a family like that.? ? I smiled sadly and at the same time felt a warm feeling on my cheeks.? ? It was tears.? ? Ever since I lost my family¡­ I¡¯ve never shed anything other than physiological tears¡­ I cried during my first relationship, but it was only for a short time.? ? But now I can¡¯t contain my tears.? ? Ah, ah, why am I crying? I must be crazy. This is Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s home!? ? Shit, if I get caught, I¡¯ll be screwed.? ? I hurriedly wiped my tears with my sleeves, but they didn¡¯t stop flowing.? ? I hit my chest hard because I didn¡¯t want to cry.? ? But I kept thinking only sad and regretful thoughts.? ? Would I be okay once I left this crazy, distracting house and returned to my quiet home?? ? A drawer where one of the kitchen doors had fallen off¡­ The refrigerator that making noise.? ? The dusty bed in the master bedroom, the clothes that my brother left behind.? ? Too much cutlery for a single person, dirty toothbrushes, and shoes that no one wears on the porch.? ? The shopping cart carrier that my mother always brought to work.? ? The fur hat that my father used to make fun of for looking like a roasted chestnut seller after wearing it.? ? A laptop that my brother passed on to me to study.? ? Would I be okay in the midst of countless silent objects?? ? I don¡¯t want to cry, but I keep thinking about it.? ? When I was playing on my cell phone in my small room and smelled delicious, my mother would laugh and say, ¡®I knew this would happen¡¯.? ? ¡®Our youngest. Did you come out knowing that the meal was ready?¡¯? ? ¡®It¡¯s amazing timing every day. Don¡¯t leave any beans today.¡¯? ? ¡®Yu-ya, don¡¯t use your phone while eating.¡¯? ? I had it too.? ? Mom, dad, and brother.? ? I had one as well.? ? Why not now?? ? They had gone. Everyone left me alone.? ? It felt like my heart had burst.? ? I couldn¡¯t stop crying once it broke out, so I couldn¡¯t hear it. The sound of someone coming up the stairs.? ? ¡°OMG¡­¡± ? ? Someone yelped as I continued to wipe my eyes with my sleeve while crying.? ? Choi Sung-hyun was standing outside the open door in the hallway. He opened his eyes wide and made a strange expression that was difficult to put into words.? ? ¡°Hyung, are you crying?¡±? ? ¡°Oh no, I¡¯m not crying. There¡¯s pepper in my eyes-.¡±? ? I shook my head quickly as I groaned in the rising anxiety.? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung, are you crying?¡±? ? ¡°Hey, be quiet, I¡¯m not crying.¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung is crying!¡±? ? ¡°Hey¡­!¡±? ? ¡°Mom, dad. Seo-yu hyung is crying!¡±? ? Ah¡­? ? ¡°Sung-hoon hyung, Seo-yu hyung is crying! He is crying his eyes out!¡±? ? Looking at the back of Choi Sung-hyun, who disappeared shouting, ¡°Seo-yu hyung is crying,¡± I swore that I would sprinkle pepper on his eyes one day.? ? Did Sung-hyun have no sense when he was born?? ? Should I jump out of that window now?? ? When I was thinking about it, I heard a heavy yet hasty step. Soon after, the person I was expecting appeared.? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Our eyes met, and I felt a little embarrassed, so I hid my face behind my hair. Choi Sung-hoon hurriedly closed the door and walked over.? ? ¡°Are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°No¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m so embarrassed¡­¡±? ? There was no smile on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face. He sat with his legs bent in front of me. Then he took my chin in his hands, looked around, and wiped my tears away with a soft tissue. Because I was still crying, the tissue quickly became wet.? ? He asked softly, but he seemed to have made the most affectionate and warmest voice he could make.? ? ¡°What happened?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know. I just suddenly burst into tears.¡±? ? ¡°I am upset.¡±? ? I¡¯m also upset. I¡¯m not even 18, I¡¯m a 28-year-old grown-up, and I cried so much in my sex partner¡¯s house.? ? Haa¡­ Choi Sung-hyun, I¡¯m going to sprinkle pepper on your eyes. How should I look at his parents¡¯ faces? I¡¯m going insane because I¡¯m embarrassed.? ? ¡°Your tears are¡­ like this¡­ It¡¯s upsetting.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was like a very deep cave. It¡¯s as if you can hear it with your heart rather than your ears. He threw away tissues and hugged me as I was crying, mumbling that he knew what he didn¡¯t know so far.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? He hugged me tightly without saying a word and patted my back.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s expensive shirt was wet with my tears.? ? I also gave up on my tears, which would not stop but only made them flow even more.? ? I wanted to cry, and Choi Sung-hoon patted my back as if telling me it was okay to cry.? ? So I cried. The tears flowed endlessly, I barely managed to hold back my sobbing.? ? After crying so hard, I couldn¡¯t lift my head for a long time.? ? Because I¡¯m embarrassed.? ? When Choi Sung-hoon realized that I had stopped crying, he gently patted my back and asked me to drink some water.? ? I asked, putting my face on his shoulder. If we could climb down the tree through the window and go back. CH 34 Chapter 34? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? I didn¡¯t want to move because I was so embarrassed, so Choi Sung-hoon got up to bring me water.? ? ¡°I¡¯m really sorry, but please bring pepper with you when you come.¡±? ? ¡°Pepper?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to spray it on my eyes. I¡¯m crying because of the pepper, okay? There was pepper in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s room. You have to secretly bring it.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Yes, I understand.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon turned his gaze and left.? ? I waited for Choi Sung-hoon while hesitating from time to time. Choi Sung-hoon appeared after a while, holding a glass of water in one hand and a toy in the other. When I asked about the toy, he says that it was a pepper shaker.? ? ¡°Drink water first. Seo-yu ssi, you cried so much.¡±? ? I drank water first because, as he said, I cried so much. The water was lukewarm.? ? After drinking it all at once, he took the empty cup. As if he was concerned about me holding a glass cup in my hand.? ? ¡°Give me that pepper. I¡¯ll take it down with me.¡±? ? ¡°I will hold it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was wary of the pepper bottle as if it were a grenade. He explained the reason when I squinted my tired eyelids.? ? ¡°I thought you would really spray it.¡±? ? What kind of image do I have in this person¡¯s mind?? ? I¡¯m not going to spray it, I just tried to put some on my eyelids.? ? Anyway, the plan failed, so I hid behind Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s big body and left the room.? ? Choi Sung-hoon and Choi Sung-hyun were the only ones who saw me crying, and Choi Sung-hoon agreed to keep it quiet, so I was going to say that the pepper had gotten into my eyes and was stinging.? ? In the living room, his parents and Choi Sung-hyun sat side by side. Mother sat in the center with a strict and serious expression on her face, while the father and the immature and tactless youngest sat on either side.? ? ¡°¡­You here?¡±? ? His mother noticed me and spoke to me a beat late. I also opened my mouth a beat too slowly.? ? ¡°¡­Pepper.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I was having trouble because pepper got into my eyes and caused me to cry for a while, haha. This is the one.¡±? ? I held out the dumbbell-like pepper shaker to his mother. His mother said quietly as she looked at me.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know why there was pepper in the empty room.¡±? ? What about pepper in an empty room¡­ There could be¡­? ? ¡°It was in the room. Seo-yu ssi cried because of the pepper.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon supported me heavily. His words had a threatening tone to them.? ? ¡°Yeah, I see. Sung-hyun made a lot of fuss.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. Seo-yu hyung never cried so much. I was overreacting. I was never drenched in tears with a face that was saddened by the world.¡±? ? ¡°And what if you cry? There are people here who are still crying in their sixties.¡±? ? ¡°Honey? Are you talking about me?¡±? ? ¡°Kim Jung-hee said she had prepared a meal in the dining room. Yu-ya, you might not have an appetite because of the pepper, but would you like to join us?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, of course.¡±? ? I followed mother when she got up. I was relieved that they didn¡¯t ask about or pay attention to the reason for my crying as much as I had expected.? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung, the bathroom is over there.¡±? ? Sung-hyun abruptly informed me of the location of the bathroom. I quickly covered my face with both hands and bowed my head.? ? Haa¡­ Just how miserable was my face.? ? ¡°There is no other reason, and you have pepper in your eyes, so you must rinse them with water.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right, Yu-ya. You should wash the pepper with water.¡±? ? ¡°If pepper gets into your eyes, it will sting again, so wash your face.¡±? ? My hands trembled at the consideration of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family, who emphasized pepper.? ? As I entered the bathroom, Choi Sung-hoon followed me in.? ? ¡°Why¡­ Will you take a look?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll just stand here. Do what you have to do.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stood with his back to me.? ? The bathroom had a window on the front. It has a structure where you can soak in the bathtub while gazing out the window at the garden. Because it was a sliding window, so I thought it would be perfect if I opened it like this and ran away. But I gave up and turned on the sink¡¯s water.? ? When I looked in the mirror, I noticed that my nose and eyes were red and swollen.? ? No, damn it¡­ Is there any crucian carp in my ancestors, which explains why my face swells all the time?? ? It wasn¡¯t just a swollen face with stinging tears from the pepper spray. My lips were protruding and I looked mean and ugly.? ? Was this really the face of a 28-year-old adult?? ? Choi Sung-hoon offered me a towel as soon as I have done washing my face with lukewarm water. While rubbing my face with a soft white towel, I said.? ? ¡°I¡¯m extremely embarrassed. You might be wondering if I¡¯m really 28 years old.¡±? ? ¡°What¡¯s embarrassing about it? Even at the age of sixty, some people can still cry as much as they want.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s different from that. I don¡¯t usually cry this much, so it¡¯s strange. I¡¯ve lived well without crying¡­ so childish.¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took the towel from me. Then, he gently and delicately wiped away the moisture on my face as if I was a baby.? ? ¡°Will Seo-yu ssi think I¡¯m childish if I cry right now?¡±? ? ¡°No way. You can cry when you are sad.¡±? ? ¡°But why is there a standard only for yourself.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s different for me. Because the reasons for crying are different¡­ you shouldn¡¯t cry over such trivial matters at this age. You¡¯ll think I don¡¯t act like 28 years old.¡±? ? And even complaining to Choi Sung-hoon like this.? ? I couldn¡¯t shake the feeling that my actions were now childish.? ? ¡°Sorrow doesn¡¯t only come at a certain age.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not like we set the criteria for crying out for each situation.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°You can cry when you are sad. As you say.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon kissed my forehead after he finished speaking. As a result, my eyes became warm again, and I had to wash my face once more.? ? When I walked in awkwardly, his parents and Sung-hyun rushed me in as if nothing had happened. They said they were going to eat and walked down the long hallway towards the kitchen. I was bewildered by the sight of him changing into outdoor slippers, so I asked Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Is there a dining room outside? Or are you talking about an eating place outside?¡±? ? ¡°The dining room is in a separate house. It is connected to the hallway, so you can walk along it.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ For some reason, it was strange that there was no smell of food at all.¡±? ? ¡°When we had kids, my sweetheart had severe morning sickness and she ripped off my hair just by smelling it. It was fortunate that the building was finished before I became bald.¡±? ? Father added an explanation.? ? Morning sickness¡­? ? I hope that someday when I have a child, my morning sickness will not be severe. I don¡¯t think there will be any because I eat everything well except soondae or something like that.? ? ¡°It will be difficult if you have severe morning sickness. I¡¯m not sure if our director Choi will have his hair gently ripped off.¡±? ? His mother casually said hurtful things to me.? ? I thought of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hair being grabbed by another Omega, who was annoyed by morning sickness.? ? I wish he never met such an Omega.? ? If it were me, I would never be angry.? ? As I walked down the hallway with that thought, the smell of food began to overwhelm me. The various smells that poked my nose made me feel nauseated. I tried to walk as if nothing had happened, but my pace slowed down.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who was walking alongside me, called out to me, and my attention was drawn to him.? ? ¡°Are you unwell?¡±? ? ¡°No? Let¡¯s go. Go quickly.¡±? ? I deliberately grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arm and walked forward.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t look good.¡±? ? But Choi Sung-hoon stopped me and looked me in the eyes as we stood face to face. Sung-hyun snooped around and asked about my condition. His parents were also wondering.? ? The restaurant¡¯s entrance was visible behind Choi Sung-hoon. I didn¡¯t want to go because the smells were so disgusting that it was difficult to swallow my saliva.? ? Is everyone okay? It smells so bad. Or am I the only one who¡¯s weird?? ? His mother¡¯s eyes narrowed when I covered my nose with my hands.? ? ¡°Yu-ya, does it smell disgusting?¡±? ? I immediately lowered my hand.? ? ¡°It¡¯s not that, but maybe I¡¯m not hungry because I just cried. I apologize.¡±? ? ¡°Even if you don¡¯t have an appetite, you should eat something. Your stomach must be empty.¡±? ? ¡°My aunts set it up more lavishly than a banquet. Your appetite will come back if you go there.¡±? ? No¡­ I might vomit if I go there.? ? I grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arm. I meant to ask for help. Choi Sung-hoon frowned and said quietly.? ? ¡°You keep doing this these days. Avoid foods that you used to eat well.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Are you talking about these days?¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was not helpful.? ? ¡°No way ¡± ? ? His mother muttered with a suspicious expression, and then she panicked.? ? ¡°Uh, first of all, Seo-yu and Sung Hoon go back. I¡¯m going to ask them to make it as a non-smelling food.¡±? ? I think I was surprised because Choi Sung-hoon has been called ¡°Director Choi¡± by his mother so far, and suddenly she called his name in a gentle tone.? ? ¡°And Sung-hoon, let¡¯s stay for a while and talk.¡±? ? Furthermore, she told Choi Sung-hoon to accompany me to the room but then asked him to stay for a while.? ? I purposely put strength on the hand that held Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arm. I wanted to be together. My stomach nausea seemed to subside when I smelled his pheromone.? ? ¡°I will be with Seo-yu. You don¡¯t have to bring mine, but please bring something for Seo-yu ssi to eat.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, sure. Go quickly.¡±? ? I walked back the way I came with Choi Sung-hoon, with his mother¡¯s permission. Choi Sung-hoon encircled my shoulders with his arms. Just the touch of his firm and warm arm made me feel better.? ? When I returned to the living room and sat on the sofa, Choi Sung-hoon brought a blanket and put it on my lap. I¡¯m not even sick right now.? ? ¡°I¡¯m really sorry. What if your parents lost their appetite because of me?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t mind those people.¡±? ? He says those people again¡­? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go to the hospital together on Friday. I¡¯m worried that you still don¡¯t have an appetite and are feeling sick.¡±? ? ¡°Hey, there¡¯s no one who goes to the hospital for something like this.¡±? ? ¡°I will make a reservation in the evening.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was adamant. He checked the temperature of my forehead or checked my complexion as if I had a fever.? ? I tilted my head pretending to be weak while not being sick. Acting like a child wasn¡¯t all bad.? ? ¡°Your parents are very sweet. They got along so well that I think I would have become independent sooner as well.¡±? ? As I smiled briefly, Choi Sung-hoon wrapped my cheeks.? ? ¡°I¡¯m glad if Seo-yu ssi like it.¡±? ? ¡°It makes me want to be the second son.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s¡­ would be difficult.¡±? ? That¡¯s right. It would be difficult. Being a recessive Omega in an extremely dominant¡¯s family.? ? ¡°To your parents¡­¡±? ? I opened my mouth and then closed it again.? ? I couldn¡¯t tell him that he should be nice to his family.? ? You never know when it will disappear, so take care of them. It could disappear the moment you turn around.? ? ¡®Don¡¯t be arrogant. I told you to change that habit. The people around you were losing interest in you.¡¯? ? Recalling the advice of the person who was once closest to me in the world, I buried my face in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shoulder instead of saying it.? ? Choi Sung-hoon changed his posture and hugged me. The hand hugging me with moderate force gave me a sense of relief, and the muscles all over my body relaxed. I want to smell his pheromone more, but it would be disrespectful to the house¡¯s alpha father and son. I closed my eyes and smelled his scent.? ? ***? ? The housekeeper soon brought food of different kinds. Among them, I chose bread and jam. Choi Sung-hoon and I spread jam on each other¡¯s bread and shared it. It was funny to visit his parents¡¯ house and eat separately with his parents.? ? About an hour later, his parents and Sung-hyun came back, and the three of them looked somehow different from before. They kept smiling strangely when they saw Choi Sung-hoon and told me no need to get up.? ? Choi Sung-hoon also raised one eyebrow as if he felt the atmosphere had changed. But he didn¡¯t ask why, so I couldn¡¯t figure it out either.? ? Various fruits were constantly coming up on the round table. His father shaped the fruits into rabbits, flowers, and even waves¡­ If he said he was a chef, I¡¯d believe him. Because I could eat the fruit, I constantly picked it up and ate it, resulting in a full stomach later.? ? While having a snack, his father proudly told me that his sweetheart had majored in the College of Physical Education. Although his mother was tall, it was surprising that she was thin and pale overall. As I listened to my mother¡¯s travel stories and Sung-hyun¡¯s current tidbit story, it was time to go back.? ? Were we going to see each other again? Will there ever be another chance to see each other?? ? That thought bothered me, but his father and mother were as light as if I could see them tomorrow.? ? ¡°Give me your number here.¡±? ? Even his father asked for my phone number-.? ? [Choi Jin-goo invited Seo-yu]? ? And he also invited me to a family chat room.? ? ¡°Fufu¡­ There is no chance that Sung-hoon will not read the message now.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Next to his wickedly smiling father, Choi Sung-hoon only frowned.? ? ¡°Yu-ya, give me your address.¡±? ? Meanwhile, his mother asked for my home address¡­? ? Fruits, rice, and various fruit juices were also packed in a variety, filling the trunk and rear seats. Sung-hyun also brought the bread and jam that I ate earlier with Choi Sung-hoon, saying that I eat bread well.? ? ¡°Hyung, eat a lot and gain weight. You must gain twice as much weight as you currently do. Gaining weight will also improve your stamina.¡±? ? Father and mother nodded behind Choi Seong-hyun, who spoke brightly.? ? His father and mother called up Choi Sung-hoon, who climbed into the passenger seat and fastened my seat belt first.? ? Then he walked away from me and back to his house. I suppose they have something to discuss quietly.? ? When Sung-hyun and I were left alone, I smiled softly and said to Sung-hyun.? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-ah, could you bring me that pepper shaker?¡±? ? ¡°Pepper? Why?¡±? ? Why? I¡¯m going to spray it on you.? ? ¡°That was good. I¡¯d like to buy it as well.¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean buy? Take it from here. Wait for a moment.¡±? ? Sung-hyun went back to the house without saying much.? ? Fufu. I have to make Choi Sung-hyun cry and bounce off.? ? Two puppies appeared in front of my eyes, both smiling mischievously. It was a snow-white Jindo dog. They were adult puppies, but they were very energetic and bright as they have a lot of stamina.? ? I unbuckled my seat belt and got out of the car.? ? ¡°You are chaeso and you are yachae, right? How cute.¡±? ? Woof woof.? ? The puppies were hovering around my feet. I stroked it because it was so cute, and it licked my hand and went crazy. The puppies played and ran toward the house with their tails wagging. I followed the puppies as they ran around the house.? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu, that child¡­¡±? ? Oh.? ? I stuck to the wall.? ? It was connected like this here.? ? I was startled by the sudden mention of my name. The puppies ran into the garden on their own, without waiting for me to follow. I clutched my chest, afraid that the pounding of my heart would escape.? ? Because eavesdropping was not good¡­? ? I have to hide and listen.? ? ¡°It doesn¡¯t go well with you¡­¡±? ? ¡±¡­How did you end up like that¡­¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t hear them well because their voices were small, but it was clear that Choi Sung-hoon and I were not a good match. He appeared to be blaming him for how he met such a person.? ? I felt so bad that I felt like throwing up.? ? ¡°¡­When are you going to get married?¡±? ? A quiet question struck me like a thunderbolt.? ? ¡°It¡¯s going to be summer.¡±? ? ¡°Go to the hospital and get tested. You may have children.¡±? ? His mother¡¯s voice was very sweet.? ? ¡°That would be great. Because I want to make a family quickly.¡±? ? ¡°Have you not told Seo-yu about the marriage yet?¡±? ? To his father¡¯s question, Choi Sung-hoon said he had no intention of talking about it yet.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi doesn¡¯t seem to be mentally ready, so I¡¯m going to talk about it slowly.¡±? ? I listened to it and quietly walked out.? ? Sung-hyun brought pepper as soon as I sat with the belt on as if nothing had happened. My desire to sprinkle pepper on Sung-hyun, who arrived with pepper in a large side dish container, didn¡¯t even make it to my fingernails. CH 35.1 Chapter 35.1? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? Trigger warning: Anxiety/Panic Attack? ? ¡°Go in. I will come on Friday morning.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, see you then.¡±? ? ¡°¡­You¡¯ve been feeling weak since before.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon wrinkled his brow as if worried about me and looked at my face carefully. I tried to smile brightly and keep talking a while ago, but I¡¯m not sure how it came out.? ? ¡°But I¡¯m full of energy? Maybe it¡¯s because I¡¯m a little sleepy.¡±? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go to the hospital on Friday.¡±? ? ¡°Even if you¡¯re healthy. Choi Sung Hoon, you should go. People who don¡¯t usually go to the hospital and are in good health are suddenly struck down by a major illness.¡±? ? ¡°We can go together.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon bowed his head and kissed my lips.? ? I clenched my fists and tried not to hug him as our rough, warm lips met and parted.? ? After sending Choi Sung-hoon, I sat down in front of the front door.? ? Choi Sung-hoon delicately arranged the things his parents took care of in the refrigerator and various places in the kitchen.? ? I didn¡¯t know it when I first met him. He was such a kind and sweet person.? ? I thought he was just a psychopath gangster who was angry about his brother¡¯s accident.? ? He¡¯s such a sweet person, so I¡¯m sure an Omega will be happy to marry him.? ? I scratched my cold chest as I exhaled harshly.? ? ¡®To that person, Seo-yu si is just a joke for a moment. Not just a dominant, especially if it¡¯s extremely dominant. Each has its own territory.¡¯? ? I would have been misunderstood if Ho-in hadn¡¯t advised me before. Maybe it was about me.? ? I¡¯m glad to hear about this today.? ? A dry and sad laugh kept leaking out.? ? Marriage.? ? He was getting married? ? ¡­After making me fall in love with you.? ? After cratching my chest, I realized my mind was unstable and jumped to my feet. I found a tranquilizer in the drawer next to my bed and ate whatever I could get my hands on.? ? My counselor advised me to take a tranquilizer as soon as possible when I was extremely unstable. Because I¡¯m not sure what I¡¯m going to do.? ? But I didn¡¯t seem to get better even after eating it.? ? There were many things I wanted to ask him.? ? That person must be a good Omega, right?? ? You already have a baby?? ? When were you going to tell me?? ? When my heart ready?? ? Were you saying that you could break up with me at any time because I¡¯m just a sex partner?? ? Ah¡­ Shit.? ? Life was so crazy that I couldn¡¯t bear it.? ? My head hurts, my chest hurts, and my stomach hurts as well. It hurt as if someone was ripping my intestines, I wrapped my arms around my stomach and leaned against the bed. I took a deep breath and thought.? ? I couldn¡¯t help but love.? ? It was irresistible.? ? It was his fault for being too kind to someone like me while he had someone to marry.? ? It was the first time someone was so kind to me¡­ I was so lonely.? ? Even today, he was a person who told me that I could cry while hugging me tightly, and I couldn¡¯t help but fall in love.? ? I¡¯d never felt such pain before. I had always met lightly, fallen in love lightly, and then broken up, but I had no idea that love was like this.? ? There was nothing I could do about it.? ? I was so miserable that I reached out to the open drawer and took out a can of sleeping pills. I tried to eat as much as I could, but there was only one pill left inside.? ? I swallowed the sleeping pill and closed my eyes while clutching my aching stomach, which felt like it was being torn apart¡­ Something cold caught my foot.? ? I opened my eyes with difficulty.? ? It was a black river.? ? Black and cold water covered the floor and invaded the room.? ? I struggled to climb onto the bed. The floor of the room was already obscured by the river.? ? Just as fate tells you to know your situation at the happiest moment.? ? A cold wave came from afar, expanding its territory. To swallow me up without a second thought¡­? ? * * *? ? I woke up in a cold sweat. I couldn¡¯t sleep because my stomach hurt so much. I struggled to get up, knowing that a single injection given by the hospital could completely eliminate the pain, as opposed to the pain reliever available at the pharmacy.? ? I washed up and was getting ready to leave when I received a call from Choi Sung-hoon. After some thought, I responded¡­? ? ¡°Hello.¡±? ? ¨C Did you just wake up? Your voice is hoarse.? ? ¡°Yes¡­ just now.¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s eleven o¡¯clock. Have you left yet?? ? I wondered how he knew I was going to the hospital, and then I remembered that I had told him I would meet my relatives on the second and third days of the holiday. Choi Sung-hoon said he couldn¡¯t come with me because he was going to meet his relative as well.? ? ¡°I am going in the afternoon. My relative¡¯s house is also in Seoul.¡±? ? ¨C Well¡­ I¡¯m off this morning.? ? ¡°Rest well. It¡¯s also difficult to deal with relatives and adults.¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s not particularly difficult, but¡­ May I take you?? ? ¡°What? No, no. You said it was you were in Busan.¡±? ? ¨C It doesn¡¯t matter. There¡¯s plenty of time until the afternoon.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry, I can¡¯t.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stopped asking after I repeatedly refused. He said he was bored because he didn¡¯t have anything to do until the afternoon. I resisted the urge to ask if he was going to marry the person he was dating or the person chosen by his family? ? ¡°What are your hobbies, Choi Sung-hoon ssi? It¡¯s a long holiday, so enjoy your hobbies.¡±? ? ¨C I don¡¯t know. Hobby¡­? ? ¡°Something you usually do during your free time. Like watching a movie, reading, or playing an instrument.¡±? ? After reciting it, it seemed that Choi Sung-hoon was 10 billion light-years away. But now I understand. He appears to be capable of playing people¡¯s screams, but he may actually be someone who was capable of playing romantic instruments such as the violin.? ? ¨C What¡¯s your hobby, Seo-yu ssi? I want to try what you do.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t answer. I¡¯m always interested in what other people do in their spare time. What on earth was I doing with my time¡­ I think dating was my favorite hobby.? ? ¡°If it were me, I think I would just sleep. Sleep is the best medicine.¡±? ? ¨C That¡¯s right. Are you feeling okay today? I didn¡¯t want to talk about it because I thought you might not be ready, but my mother told me the reason why Seo-yu ssi was upset¡­? ? ¨C Director.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was called by someone next to him to talk.? ? He wasn¡¯t alone. Was he with the Omega he was going to marry? I hear him address Choi Sung-hoon by his rank, he must be a subordinate. You said you were bored at home alone.? ? ¡°You seem busy, so I¡¯ll hang up.¡±? ? ¨C Oh, Seo-yu ssi. Just a second-.? ? The inside of my stomach tingled again. I hung up the phone before he finished speaking.? ? Then I sat still.? ? I couldn¡¯t think of anything.? ? I was just sitting there when the vibration of my phone startled me awake. At first glance, I thought the phone¡¯s screen was broken.? ? 6:30 p.m.? ? I had been sitting blankly for nearly seven hours. I¡¯ve often been blacked out like this since 10 or 11 years ago, but I think this was the first time this winter.? ? The source of the vibration that woke me up was the chat room of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family. I did not enter it so that the ¡®unread¡¯ mark does not disappear.? ? I left the house with a sore back. I brought the owner¡¯s grandfather a holiday gift, the house was buzzing with the arrival of his grandchildren, and the grandfather had a bright smile on his face.? ? The owner¡¯s grandfather then gave me a Korean beef set.? ? I was going to grill the Korean beef, but I got nauseated and decided to put it away.? ? The fruits brought from Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s home were edible. I ate five apples bigger than my fist in one sitting. Then I got an upset stomach and couldn¡¯t sleep properly.? ? On the last day of the holiday, I felt even more down.? ? I¡¯d been feeling uncomfortable since the morning and there was some blood coming out from my bottom. I found a nearby hospital, made a reservation, and then left the house.? ? I got a call from Choi Sung-hoon, but I didn¡¯t answer it.? ? I haven¡¯t received it for the seventh time since last night.? ? Shit, I should¡¯ve told him to contact the Omega, who will marry him instead. They said you had a child.? ? I can chew on Choi Sung-hoon.? ? Because I was broken hearted.? ? The broken heart wasn¡¯t as miserable and sad as I thought. All the breakup songs that just flow out were like my story. It seemed like the sky was crying, all of a sudden my body began to ache here and there. I could see a black river or hear the sound of the river¡¯s ripples, and I just lose the will to live.? ? I became so helpless that it was hard to believe that it had only been two days.? ? I got on the bus to the hospital and looked out the window blankly. The phone kept vibrating. Choi Sung-hoon kept sending messages when I didn¡¯t answer the phone.? ? Ha¡­ I told you to call your Omega. I should change the saved name as well. Because it would be rude to his spouse.? ? My lower stomach continued to hurt, so I wrapped my arms around it. When I picked up my phone to turn off the annoying vibration, there was a message from Won-jo on it.? ? Won-jo [It¡¯s good today for alcohol, go? My treat]? ? There was nothing good about today. It was so gloomy.? ? [I broke up¡­]? ? Won-jo [Hahahaha]? ? Won-jo [It went pretty long]? ? Won-jo [Hahaha]? ? Won-jo [Let¡¯s have a drink]? ? Fuck you bastard¡­ Won-jo laughed and giggled looked like he was in a good mood, but when I reject his invitation, he got sulky and cursed me.? ? The ¡ð¡ð psychiatric clinic was quite far from the bus stop. The first place I went to was convenient because it was close to the subway station, but it was closed since it was a holiday.? ? The parking lot near the building¡¯s entrance was completely full. This was due to a lack of psychiatric clinics open during the Lunar New Year holiday. Despite the fact that my arrival was delayed, I arrived earlier than expected. I intended to go to internal medicine after receiving sleeping pills, but I should have gone to internal medicine first.? ? I walked on a nearby well-kept walkway because I had nothing better to do. But my back began to hurt so badly that I had to stop. My stomach ached so badly that my hands trembled and I couldn¡¯t catch my breath. While trying to sit on the ground, I managed to sit on the bench and take a deep breath.? ? I rubbed my stomach and took out my phone. Ex-boyfriends¡¯ holiday messages sparkled. Seeing a lot of red lights at a time when my heart was empty, I¡¯m glad I didn¡¯t block them. I also responded one by one, wishing them a Happy New Year.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family chat room was also on fire. The last message was [Meatball].? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? I suddenly wanted to eat a meatball, so I immediately started walking. There was a market near the hospital, but only one stand opened. I sat at the inner table and ordered meatballs and a variety of pancakes.? ? ¡°A bottle of soju, please.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, my. Student. Do you drink in the middle of the day?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m craving for a little drink today.¡±? ? The boss brought me makgeolli. It was the first time I went to the stand in broad daylight on the last day of the Lunar New Year holiday to drink makgeolli and eat meatballs as a snack.? ? It was doable to break up with a heart. Except for the constant tingling pain in my lower abdomen.? ? I thought, tearing the pancake into pieces.? ? But why am I here today?? ? I was doing something and all of a sudden came to buy meatballs.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Ah, I¡¯m finally crazy¡­ Hospital.? ? I sighed and called the hospital. When the staff learned that I was canceling the reservation, they were delighted and quickly hung up. I stared blankly at the disconnected screen.? ? Can I still go to the doctor if I drank alcohol? I can go, right? CH 35.2 Chapter 35.2? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? However, after going to the hospital and getting injections, and taking medicine¡­ What will change?? ? Just what would change as a result of this.? ? I drank the rest of the makgeolli all at once and exited the stand. The boss asked if I wanted to wrap the rest of the pancake, but I declined. The boss and his wife, who looked like a couple, kicked their tongues and patted each other on the shoulder saying they knew this would happen because I left too much behind.? ? In an instant, my eyes widened.? ? My nose was pricked by the smell of meatballs. Earlier, I thought it would be delicious, but now I¡¯m feeling nauseous.? ? I ran out of the market.? ? Not knowing where to go, I sat at the bus stop and watched the street.? ? People appeared and disappeared.? ? What was everyone doing? What was everyone doing to pass their time? What was a person who has no family, no lover, no friends do¡­? ? I know my future.? ? I¡¯ll go through the motions of falling in love with a cheap person like me and then breaking up. Then I¡¯d marry a divorced dominant Alpha introduced by my uncle.? ? It will be a constant reminder to me throughout my life. I¡¯ll remember having a relationship with an undeserving person named Choi Sung-hoon for a while until the day I die.? ? When spring comes, a gentle and beautiful dominant Omega will be standing next to Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I would remain as a thing of the past, and would occasionally be used as a point of comparison to praise the dominant Omega. As to how I constantly compare Choi Sung-hoon to my ex. He¡¯d discover that his wife was not the same as the recessive Omega he¡¯d met briefly.? ? This was a very natural phenomenon.? ? I need to talk to Choi Sung-hoon.? ? Don¡¯t waste your time on me anymore. Be faithful to your lover during this precious time.? ? Just then, I got a call from Choi Sung-hoon. I accepted it right away without any hesitation. When I rechieved the call after the 23rd missed call, Choi Sung-hoon called my name one beat later.? ? -¡­ Seo-yu ssi, is that right?? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s me.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took a deep breath in response to my peaceful answer and then exhaled.? ? ¨C Where are you right now?? ? His voice seemed to suppress his excitement and was so cold.? ? ¡°I¡¯m just at home.¡±? ? ¨C I have confirmed that your house is empty.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¨C I came from Busan. Now, where are you?? ? ¡°I¡¯m at my relative¡¯s house¡­¡±? ? I want to tell the damn soon-to-be-married person not to confuse me like this, but his cold tone makes me nervous.? ? ¨C It¡¯s a relative¡¯s house.? ? Choi Sung-hoon laughed coldly. As if he knew it wasn¡¯t.? ? ¨C Why didn¡¯t you answer your phone?? ? ¡°I¡¯ve been sleeping. How is Choi Seong-hoon doing? It¡¯s the last day of the holidays.¡±? ? ¨C My lover didn¡¯t meet me, so I couldn¡¯t spend it well.? ? ¡­What was this man saying now?? ? I eventually thought I was hearing hallucinations in addition to the river¡¯s sound.? ? ¨C You didn¡¯t answer your phone. I¡¯m not sure if your hobby is to make me worried.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? That was so cruel of him to me.? ? Officially, I¡¯m still unaware that you have a lover whom you have promised to marry¡­ Of course, I was going to reveal what I knew first.? ? My heart flared up with a ferocious rage.? ? He was so mean. From his perspective, there isn¡¯t anything too difficult to do. I¡¯m not sure why I¡¯m so sad. I must be insane.? ? ¨C When are you going home?? ? ¡°I¡¯m not going home. I¡¯m going to go to work from my relative¡¯s house tomorrow, so don¡¯t come to pick me up.¡±? ? ¨C ¡­? ? ¡°From now on, I think it¡¯s time to reduce contact. I¡¯m originally a moral person, but Choi Sung-hoon shouldn¡¯t be like this. Don¡¯t you feel sorry for that person?¡±? ? ¨C Did you drink¡­ No, what are you talking about now?? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice sounded as if he was suppressing his anger. The low voice that sounded like a threatening beast was no longer frightening.? ? My stomach ached and throbbed. The headache also worsened.? ? ¡°I heard everything that day. You¡¯re getting married.¡±? ? ¨C ¡­Did you hear me talking to my parents?? ? ¡°Yes, I overheard everything.¡±? ? ¨C So that¡¯s why¡­ I don¡¯t know if you¡¯re angry. Why did you drink?? ? Choi Sung-hoon exhaled a stuffy breath as if he did not understand.? ? ¨C Are you upset that I went ahead without telling you?? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. I know I don¡¯t have the right to be angry, but my personality is basically trash. I didn¡¯t mean to say things like this. I was trying to tell you not to waste your time. But I¡¯m really curious, when did you plan to talk to me?¡±? ? My voice kept shaking. I felt resentful and sorry as I said it.? ? How ridiculous would it be from Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s point of view, when he found out that the sex partner he was comfortable meeting with had his own feelings, married him, and then criticized him as if he had been betrayed? I was fed up with my ugly appearance.? ? ¨C There seems to be a misunderstanding, Seo-yu ssi. I thought I would surprise you. Then you make such a special proposal-.? ? ¡°You know what? Marriage is crazy.¡±? ? ¨C ¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. I was about to go insane, but I¡¯m really insane. I can¡¯t do this to you.¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi, where are you now?? ? ¡°I just wanted to tell you to be happy. To be honest, I thought you were a gangster when I first saw you. You¡¯re too tall, so shouldn¡¯t you meet a taller Omega? The average height of the dominant Omega these days is 173cm, isn¡¯t it too much of a difference? Shouldn¡¯t it be 178 cm tall?¡±? ? ¨C ¡­? ? ¡°I guess I¡¯m drunk right now. I¡¯ll hang up.¡±? ? ¨C Don¡¯t hang up.? ? Choi Sung-hoon said urgently.? ? I crouched down and encircled my stomach with my arm.? ? My stomach hurts so much, what should I do? ¡°Ugh¡­¡± A groan comes out.? ? ¨C Where are you now?? ? ¡°My relative¡¯s house.¡±? ? ¨C What do you see around you?? ? ¡°It¡¯s a trash can. It smells like shit¡­¡±? ? I don¡¯t know why I am doing this.? ? In my ears, Choi Sung-hoon told me to stay still and not hang up the phone. I could have hung up by moving my fingers, but I didn¡¯t.? ? I couldn¡¯t move even if I wanted to.? ? It hurt as if my back was breaking. My head was also throbbing. I needed medicine. I need to take medicine.? ? A car came in front of me and stopped. It should be a bus. Several people came up to me while I was still wrapping my stomach and bending my upper body.? ? ¡°¡­ Are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°Where is the pain¡­¡±? ? The voices of the kind people could be heard from time to time. I shook my head. One of them snatched my phone from my hand. ¡°A thief¡­¡± I muttered helplessly. My stomach hurt so much.? ? ¡°¡­Yes¡­ an ambulance¡­ It¡¯s a place where you can¡¯t catch a taxi¡­ Are you nearby?¡­¡±? ? A good-looking thief talked to Choi Sung-hoon on the phone. Could this person be the Omega who would marry Choi Sung-hoon?? ? ¡°¡­What? What¡­do you mean?¡±? ? The others were shocked when the thief spewed out in utter shock. Someone took off their coat to cover me and asked as to why I was dressed so thinly. I reached out to the thief.? ? Lastly, I wanted to talk to Choi Sung-hoon for the last time.? ? ¡°He said he would come soon. Please wait a little bit.¡±? ? The thief took my hand.? ? No¡­ damn it¡­ Give me the phone, not your hand.? ? I was so sad that I couldn¡¯t even say goodbye to Choi Sung-hoon.? ? But I held back my tears.? ? Someday it will pass. It will be a passing pain. Don¡¯t cry so that you don¡¯t feel ashamed when you think of it later.? ? I bit my lip and endured it, but the thief shoved something hard into my hand.? ? I raised my head. I slowly brought the cell phone in my hand to my ear.? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi, don¡¯t lose your consciousness. I¡¯m nearly there.? ? It was an urgent voice. He shouted something more, but I couldn¡¯t hear it. He seemed to be speaking from a very distant place.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi¡­ You can¡¯t ask me to come on your wedding day. I don¡¯t think you would ask me anyway.¡°? ? He probably couldn¡¯t hear me, but I just said it.? ? ¡°No, actually¡­ You can give me a wedding invitation. I¡¯m going to wear a white customized dress suit.¡±? ? It breaks my heart to think of Choi Sung-hoon standing next to dominant Omega in the coolest outfit in the world, a white suit or white dress.? ? After muttering a few more words, my head was so dizzy that I couldn¡¯t even sit straight, so I sat with my phone barely to my ear.? ? The noise of people talking around me gradually decreased.? ? Kiiiit.? ? The creaking of tires as torn apart could be heard in the distance.? ? Maybe there was an accident. I hope there¡¯s no accident. I should¡¯ve left with you then.? ? ¡°Seo-yu!¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu!? ? The two voices in my ears overlapped.? ? It was the voice I wanted to hear the most right now, but at the same time, I didn¡¯t want to hear it.? ? Someone shook my shoulder and I was immediately lifted up in the air. I barely lifted my eyelids in firm and familiar arms.? ? He had the same face as Choi Sung-hoon, but he was a man I had never seen before. Worry and anxiety¡­ A person whose face was contorted with nervousness.? ? It was the first time I¡¯d seen such an unusual expression.? ? Was it really Choi Sung-hoon? Did he come because he was worried about me? If that¡¯s the case, how much trouble am I?? ? I wanted to apologize to him. The pain in my stomach, however, made me want to close my eyes, and the memory ended there. CH 36 Chapter 36? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? When I woke up, I was lying down in a place I had never seen before.? ? I blinked my eyes and thought about where I was, then slowly got up.? ? It was a big room. There was a television, a refrigerator, and an additional bed. I would have assumed it was a hotel room if I hadn¡¯t noticed the plaque ¡°Omega Center¡± on the wall.? ? As I went through my memories, I remembered that the last thing I saw was Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face, which had been distorted by anxiety and nervousness. And I remembered all the nonsense I¡¯d told him.? ? Perhaps I should jump off now. What floor is this?? ? It was uncomfortable to move because of the IV stuck in my arm. When I looked at it, I noticed something strange.? ? It was an IV. But what was the significance of the test line on my stomach? It was linked to a large machine, and on the machine¡¯s screen was something resembling a heartbeat curve graph.? ? What was it?? ? Wouldn¡¯t I be dying if that was my heartbeat graph?? ? I blinked and felt my lower abdomen.? ? At that moment, there was a commotion outside the door.? ? ¡°¡­So, just in case don¡¯t give it any affection, ah¡­¡± ? ? The doctor looked at me and stopped talking with a bewildered look on his face. Choi Sung-hoon, who looks bigger and more vicious today, appeared behind him.? ? ¡°You woke up.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon approached me right away. He sat down on the chair next to the bed and gently pushed my shoulder to make me lie down again.? ? ¡°You woke up earlier than expected.¡±? ? ¡°What time is it now¡­?¡±? ? ¡°About three hours have passed.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked angry. He wasn¡¯t even emitting pheromones, but a vicious and terrifying energy arose. A middle-aged doctor with glasses and a nurse with several carts could not approach.? ? Now that I look at it, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s chin was rough. The hair that had always been neatly raised was also down. He wasn¡¯t wearing a suit or shoes, and the scar on his cheek seemed to have turned a brighter red. Choi Sung-hoon covered my hand with heavy energy.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, do you remember the last call?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I guess I was a little drunk and drunk. I¡¯m always doing embarrassing things in front of Choi Sung-hoon ssi¡­¡±? ? ¡°Do you know who I am marrying?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I don¡¯t know. It must be a dominant Omega, right?? ? I pouted my lips.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know who it is, but congratulations. I heard you¡¯re expecting, so I wish you a happy family. I¡¯m not going to hold you back.¡±? ? ¡°It is you.¡±? ? ¡°You? His name is a bit unique.¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, it¡¯s you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon flexed his tangled fingers. The black eyes were staring at me. His eyes appeared to be filled with pain.? ? I asked blankly.? ? ¡°What do you mean?¡±? ? ¡°I had no idea you¡¯d think that while I¡¯m doing something unusual for me just because you requested a unique marriage proposal.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was rough. He swept his hair roughly.? ? ¡°Do your best.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°How the hell do you operate that little head to think of me as such an asshole?¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t understand. What he¡¯s talking about¡­? ? Was he teasing me? Maybe it was a dream.? ? It sounds like you were going to marry me.? ? I muttered timidly.? ? ¡°What did I do¡­ It¡¯s more foolish to think that your sex partner might propose to you¡­¡± ? ? ¡°¡­ A sex partner?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took a deep breath and repeated his words, ¡°Sex partner?¡± Meanwhile, he was clutching my hand like it was the last rope.? ? ¡°I just¡­ thought I had no idea where this relationship was going to go.¡±? ? The scarred cheeks twitched. He glared at me like a raging fire.? ? ¡°I was having a crush on you.¡±? ? He then cursed lowly.? ? Shit, it was truly mind-blowing.? ? He was cursing, oh my god. He cursed at me. The sexy curse came into my ear first and followed by the recognition of the content.? ? You had a crush on someone?? ? One-sided love?? ? My heart was pounding. The doctor who was looking at the screen inside the machine came quickly.? ? ¡°Sir, don¡¯t get too excited. I understand the frustration, but it¡¯s not good for your pregnant body.¡±? ? The doctor pointed to the screen and stopped it. I blinked at the doctor.? ? ¡°You have to be careful. Even when choosing a word, you should refrain from cursing¡­¡± ? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon frowned without answering.? ? He didn¡¯t even look at the charts the doctor push in. He was just looking at me.? ? He seemed to be attempting to calm my excitement in some way. My big heart swelled and then subsided.? ? I slowly drove the excitement away. I tried to find a reason.? ? I think the doctor just said pregnant.? ? What the hell was going on?? ? I could only come to one conclusion.? ? ¡°Choi Seong-hoon ssi¡­ Are you pregnant?¡±? ? ¡°How¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice rose.? ? ¡°How do you come up with ideas like that?¡±? ? As his voice grew louder, the doctor approached him and said, ¡°No, Director. Please calm down,¡± he advised. Choi Sung-hoon spits out curse words. The nurse next to me informed me.? ? ¡°Seo-yu, pregnant, it seems to have been about 11 weeks. The placenta is very small, so you need to do a detailed examination at the exact time.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m pregnant?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, you¡¯re pregnant.¡±? ? ¡°No way¡­ I don¡¯t think so.¡±? ? I put my hand on my belly and explained that there had been a misunderstanding. Choi Sung-hoon looked at me, intent on hearing what I was trying to say again.? ? ¡°I¡¯ve been taking contraceptives regularly, so I won¡¯t be able to get pregnant.¡±? ? ¡°Contraceptives pills?¡±? ? ¡°Contraceptives pills?¡±? ? The doctor and Choi Sung-hoon both spoke at the same time. They made eye contact. Choi Sung-hoon exhaled ¡°Haa,¡± as if disheartened.? ? ¡°You were taking contraceptives? You said you want to have a family. But you take contraceptives?¡±? ? ¡°When did I?¡±? ? I stroked my lower abdomen. My belly was flat without any bulging. It was so flat that I didn¡¯t even think there would be a life here.? ? The doctor approached me in disbelief. He handed the chart to me. When I flipped over the paper with the complicated English written on it, a piece of paper with a black background appeared.? ? It was an ultrasound picture.? ? The doctor asked Choi Sung-hoon and me for permission before applying something to my stomach. Then he took one of the numerous mechanical devices besides the bed and placed it on my stomach.? ? ¡°Look at the screen.¡±? ? On the large monitor that had been turned on, something flashed. In the black background, there was something resembling white noise.? ? ¡°This is the head and this is the leg. It¡¯s crouching down. I¡¯d estimate 11 to 13 weeks for growth alone, but it could be less.¡±? ? It was too small to be called life. It was huddled and crouching. Just as someone who has only experienced painful things hides under a blanket and refuses to open his eyes again.? ? ¡°I am a recessive. I also took the contraceptive pill regularly. There was no sign.¡±? ? ¡°Director Choi is extremely dominant. I heard that Director did not use any contraceptives, but it is difficult to prevent pregnancy with only post- contraceptives. May I know what kind of contraceptive pill you are taking?¡±? ? The doctor spoke softly like warm milk. He took notes after I told him what kind of contraceptive pills I was taking. Colorful pens hung in the front pocket of the white robe.? ? ¡°Are you really a doctor?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m the Choi family doctor.¡±? ? ¡°Am I really pregnant?¡±? ? When I asked, Choi Sung-hoon next to him exhaled heavily as if disheartened again. The doctor told him not to sigh in front of a prospective mother and responded to my question.? ? ¡°Yes, you¡¯re pregnant. You have a child. You¡¯re pregnant.¡±? ? ¡°But, I took too much medicine. I took tranquilizers and sleeping pills.¡±? ? When I told him, the doctor, who had been trying so hard to keep his composure, also frowned. When he asked for the name of the tranquilizer, I gave him the counselor¡¯s contact information. I couldn¡¯t remember because the name was complicated and there were a lot of prescription drugs involved. Choi Sung-hoon was concerned, and the sound of his breathing became rougher. I also confessed to drinking because I shouldn¡¯t hide it anyway.? ? ¡°I also drank today. Makgeolli.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a relief if it¡¯s makgeolli¡­ Were you sick up until now? It appears that you are suffering from morning sickness.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I vomited everything I ate, and there was blood coming out of the bottom a few times, but I had no idea it was bleeding.¡±? ? ¡°Blood come out?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes flashed. I was holding Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand with one hand and stroking my stomach with the other. Choi Sung-hoon then covered the back of my hand that was stroking my stomach.? ? ¡°Why didn¡¯t you tell me?¡±? ? ¡°Yours is so damn big. I thought it was torn.¡±? ? ¡°Of course, you should have told me, even if it was torn and bleeding. You also should have told me right away when you vomited.¡±? ? ¡°There¡¯s nothing to be proud of when it comes to dirty stories. If I said something like that, you would be offended.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was almost emitting his pheromone now.? ? ¡°Very¡­ It¡¯s very easy to make a fool out of a person.¡±? ? ¡°Director, good words. I fully understand your feelings, but you have to use good words.¡±? ? ¡°You played with me like a dog.¡±? ? ¡°Good words. Director, good words.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon frowned fiercely and told the doctor to shut up when he kept trying to stop him. After a brief moment of thought, the doctor immediately stopped speaking.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was frustrated by himself, saying, ¡°Shit, is a dog a curse word?¡± as if his anger had not gone away. Of course, I didn¡¯t think it was a curse either, and Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s ¡®Shit¡¯ was sexy, but I pretended to agree with the doctor and nodded my head.? ? ¡°It¡¯s a curse word. You have to say good things in front of the fetus. And I¡¯ve never played with it. Every night, I prayed that Choi Sung-hoon would play with me and let me stay where I am.¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon looked at me with a strange expression on his face. My conscience was pricked because I was not religious, but I looked at Choi Sung-hoon with daring and innocent eyes.? ? Funny enough, he held my hands tightly even at this moment.? ? ¡°Professor Chae, go now. I have a lot to talk about with this person.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked at me and ordered the doctors and nurses to leave. They touched several mechanical devices and adjusted the IV once.? ? I asked him to give me the ultrasound picture. The doctor, who was called Professor Chae, handed it to me with an ambiguous expression and spoke to Choi Sung-hoon a little before leaving.? ? ¡°You must remember, Director. Don¡¯t give it any affection¡­¡± ? ? ¡°¡­ Go out.¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon drove the doctor away. When he came in here, the doctor also said something like don¡¯t give it any affection. I pondered the sentence¡¯s meaning.? ? Choi Sung-hoon and I were the only ones left in the big hospital room. The temperature in the hospital room was mild, and I was wrapped in the world¡¯s warmest blanket. And I had just heard such a miraculous story that my heart continued to pound.? ? I placed my hand on my flat stomach.? ? I got pregnant. I¡¯m really pregnant.? ? It¡¯s a miracle to have a baby.? ? Although I forgot for a few days, I took the contraceptive pill quite regularly and lived on sleeping pills and tranquilizers. The baby must have been in pain and sick, but it persisted and made me know its existence.? ? The baby must have been screaming its existence all this time. Its presence was announced by many signals, but I didn¡¯t notice any of it.? ? Now that I know it, I want to feed it only good things so that it can be born in blessing and love and grow up in a happy family.? ? I raised my head and looked at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s expression. ? ? Choi Sung-hoon was constantly making wrinkles on his brow.? ? He held my hand tightly.? ? He sent out the doctor saying he had a lot to talk about, but somehow I could figure out why he didn¡¯t say anything. Perhaps he¡¯s holding on because he¡¯s afraid he¡¯ll swear at me again and get angry.? ? If I summarize it¡­? ? The Omega that Choi Seong-hoon was talking about with his parents that day was me¡­? ? I honestly couldn¡¯t believe it. I just found out that I was pregnant, but how can they notice it first, and what was Choi Sung-hoon lacking that made him want to marry someone like me?? ? I regarded him with suspicion. When our gazes met, Choi Sung-hoon tried to relax his expression. I wanted to touch his beard, which rose sharply on his chin. I reached out my hand, but Choi Sung-hoon raised one eyebrow and stopped me.? ? He must have been very angry, but he didn¡¯t know how or what to say.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, I have never loved anyone, and I have never been in a relationship.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s the first time I¡¯ve ever experienced a change in person¡¯s actions and words, so there are a lot of things I¡¯m not very good at.¡±? ? He confessed his flaws to me first. He soon continued slowly.? ? ¡°I thought we were lovers. You want to get married¡­ You said you wanted to have a child before you got older, and I haven¡¯t used contraception since the first time-.¡±? ? ¡°Did I say that? When?¡±? ? I didn¡¯t have any memories, so I interrupted him and asked.? ? ¡°You was drunk when you said that.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m a good drinker. Don¡¯t make it up because I don¡¯t get drunk easily and remember everything.¡±? ? ¡°You said you wanted to get married before you turned 30. If you want to have another child, they should be at least three years apart. If there is too much age difference, the eldest child will have more responsibility. You also said that you wanted the first child to be a son and the second child to be a girl.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a thought that anyone can have.¡±? ? ¡°You said that you wanted to go to a regular cafe and argue about the children¡¯s tuition and utility bills there during the evening hours when the crowds are the biggest. You ¡®ll take family photos at the local photo studio every year, and each time the owner says it¡¯s the first time he¡¯s seen such a close family and asks if it¡¯s okay to display your photo in front of the studio, Seo-yu ssi will answer as much as he wants¡­¡±? ? ¡°You are right. You can stop talking.¡±? ? I bowed my face that was flushed with embarrassment.? ? What was I talking about when I was drunk, and how much did I say¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon caressed my cheek and I looked at him. One of his hands was still softly and firmly holding my hand.? ? ¡°December 11, do you remember?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon said the exact date. It was my heat cycle period.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t remember very well what happened when I was in heat.¡±? ? ¡°I know. I knew you couldn¡¯t remember, but I thought it would be fine, and I thought it wouldn¡¯t matter if you didn¡¯t.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon grabbed my hand and brought it to his lips. My hands, held in his big brown hands, looked very thin and fragile.? ? ¡°I have been since then.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s expression as he kissed the back of my hand while saying that was so complicated that I couldn¡¯t guess what he was thinking.? ? ¡°Did you think we were lovers since that day?¡±? ? ¡°I misunderstood that, but I know that you don¡¯t remember because you went on a blind date.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stopped talking. The atmosphere turned cold in an instant.? ? It must have been a bit absurd to him. His lover was looking for his blind date¡­? ? On Christmas Eve, I remembered Choi Sung-hoon at the place where I was meeting the so called blind date.? ? If it had been such a meticulously planned meeting¡­ Wasn¡¯t it cute?? ? ¡°Then you thought it was the first day from Christmas day?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Around that time.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who responded bluntly, was very cute. But I didn¡¯t laugh.? ? I was hurt by myself, so I shut down my heart and took medicine that I shouldn¡¯t have taken on my own because I misunderstood.? ? What the hell happened to my personality as I grew older¡­? ? Even now, I still couldn¡¯t believe Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s words.? ? ¡°I love you.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I definitely felt that Seo-yu liked me as well. Am I mistaken?¡±? ? Did you mistaken?? ? Choi Sung-hoon was angry enough to swear, but only his pheromone was completely displayed. From the first time I saw him¡­ Unlike others, he did not use his pheromones to apply pressure on me.? ? Perhaps the seed was already planted in my heart at that point.? ? I have to trample hard on this feeling that has grown high..? ? ¡°It doesn¡¯t matter how I feel, Choi Sung-hoon.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Fortunately, we weren¡¯t lovers, so you don¡¯t have to take responsibility for me. I have no intention of holding you back just because I have your child.¡±? ? I smiled as much as I could.? ? I could deceive this feeling that he was experiencing for the first time as love. I could get married like this now that I knew I was pregnant and make the rich family¡¯s extremely dominant Alpha responsible for me and my child for the rest of my life.? ? But I couldn¡¯t let his life go to waste that way.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s feeling is not love. It¡¯s just a curiosity and shallow liking for types that you haven¡¯t experienced. It¡¯s not a good idea to marry with this feeling.¡±? ? Because I love you¡­? ? I love you so much.? ? I tried to invoke the truth and withdraw my hand, but Choi Sung-hoon strengthened the hand he was holding. His gaze was unwavering.? ? ¡°I love that point of you.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Now that I know you, it¡¯s fine. As I change, so will you. Now that I know what you need, slowly¡­¡±? ? He kissed the back of my hand again. Then he stood up and approached me.? ? Choi Sung-hoon leaned in closer with a body that felt even bigger today. He looked me straight in the eye and said, holding me in the middle with his arms at the head of the bed.? ? ¡°I¡¯m in a one-sided love with you right now, and I¡¯m determined to work had to court you in order to win your heart.¡±? ? Unlike his sweet words, his eyes were so scary that I thought I had misheard phrases like, ¡°I¡¯m in a crush right now, and I¡¯ll threaten you hard to win your heart, so be prepared.¡±? ? ¡°No, Choi Sung-hoon ssi¡­¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi is pregnant, and I am the father of the fetus. Think about it one more time. Don¡¯t make decisions right now.¡±? ? My lips were closed again at the sweet and warm words were uttered as if he was determined. And the handsome man right in front of me, asking me to think about it for a reasonable reason.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s lips fell over my closed lips.? ? I closed my eyes after the rough lips, cheeks, and rough chin collided.? ? The miracle baby needed a father. Maybe I¡¯ll be able to start the family I¡¯ve always dreamed of.? ? I should have refused firmly for Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s sake, but no word of rejection came out. Even though I know his feelings were genuine at the time, they will eventually fade in the blink of an eye in his life¡­? ? I closed my eyes, turning a blind eye to everything, with the warm lips on my lips and the hard touch on my cheeks. CH 37 Until today, I was a person with no appetite due to indigestion, but by the evening, I had become an early pregnant person with morning sickness.? ? As I continue to look at the ultrasound images, Choi Sung-hoon has been talking to me.? ? ¡°Because you are in the early stages of your pregnancy, you need to be well rested and fully stable. I hope you don¡¯t go to work from now on.¡±? ? ¡°I won¡¯t be able to request a vacation right away, so I¡¯ll call the boss tomorrow and tell him I¡¯ll be taking a break.¡±? ? I sympathized with Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s words because I am a recessive Omega who has been taking all kinds of drugs. The truth is that I¡¯m considering leaving the company, but I didn¡¯t say anything because I was afraid of burdening Choi Seong-hoon.? ? He left the hospital room, saying he would adjust his business trip schedule. When I was alone, I looked at the ultrasound image and took the photos.? ? First, I sent a picture to the boss and made a phone call. The boss congratulated me and told me to take a break tomorrow and return on Monday. He asked about the hospital¡¯s location and said that he would pay me a visit later.? ? After that, I sent it to Won-jo and shared it on social media. I attached an ultrasound picture, a baby emoticon wrapped in a swaddling bag, and a heart emoticon. Immediately there were several comments and my phone rang.? ? The names of my ex-boyfriends on the screen bothered me a little.? ? While I was refusing to answer each phone call, Won-jo sent a message.? ? Won-jo [???]? ? I replied right away.? ? [Hey, I¡¯m pregnant with Choi Seong-hoon¡¯s child. Choi Seong-hoon is going to marry me]? ? Won-jo [¡­;]? ? Won-jo [Are you filming a morning drama? ]? ? Won-jo [It¡¯s only been 7 hours since you broke up¡­ ] ? ? Only seven hours? Unbelievable.? ? The day felt too long.? ? As I remembered things from this morning to this evening, my body became tired in an instant.? ? I lay down on the bed with the ultrasound picture in my hands. As I alternated between looking at the drop of sap and the bean-like fetus in the ultrasound picture, the door to the hospital room opened.? ? Choi Sung-hoon entered the room with a frown on his face.? ? ¡°We moved up the entry, but we couldn¡¯t delay the departure date. While I am away, the writer will be by your side.¡±? ? ¡°The writer?¡±? ? ¡°My mother.¡±? ? ¡°No, no. Don¡¯t do that.¡±? ? I became contemplative and shook my head quickly in response to his words.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s parents think I¡¯m not a good fit for their son¡­ I couldn¡¯t meet them because I¡¯m pregnant now and need to avoid stress.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t need to be worried about me here. They¡¯re probably tired from their trip, so tell them to rest. I¡¯ll tell Won-jo to come. He¡¯ll probably come because he¡¯s unemployed.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon frowned openly.? ? ¡°Should I call Sung-hyun?¡±? ? ¡°No, He said he¡¯d be busy with college.¡±? ? ¡°If I tell him to come, he will come.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who hates Won-jo, decided to sacrifice his younger brother. I didn¡¯t stop Choi Sung-hoon because it was fine if it was Sung-hyun.? ? Choi Sung-hoon sat on the bed and gazed down at me with warm eyes. I liked the person who was angry like fire before, but I also liked Choi Seong-hoon, who was now as warm as the spring sun.? ? Choi Sung-hoon tried to help me as soon as I got up. I sat across from him.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s decide the names of the fetus first. Do you have anything in mind?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Isn¡¯t it too early to decide on a name?¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean. I need a name to call it. I couldn¡¯t just call it the fetus every time it did something.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s warm eyes fell again. I avoided that complicated gaze by looking down at the ultrasound image. The fetus, who was white against a black background, was so cute and lovely.? ? ¡°Cute.¡±? ? Sigh¡­? ? I was trembling with the ultrasound picture.? ? ¡°You look so cute. You look like a bean. I¡¯ll call you Kongkongi (beans).¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Look at the buried face. So cute¡­ Shall I change the name to Gyomdaengi (cutie)? Which one do you like, Kongkongi or Gyomdaengi, Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t look at the ultrasound image; instead, he fixated on my face.? ? ¡°Anything Seo-yu ssi wants. I like anything.¡±? ? ¡°We have to decide together. Choi Sung-hoon ssi will also call it with the name.¡±? ? ¡°¡­I see.¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon pondered two candidates for the fetus name. It appears that making a decision is difficult for someone who was as sharp as a knife like him.? ? ¡°What about another name? In an ordinary name.¡±? ? ¡°Um, if it¡¯s hard to choose, shall we go with Gyomdaengi (cutie)? Because it¡¯s so cute. Gyomdaengi (cutie), try saying it.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ I like Kongkongi (beans).¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I like it too. Kongkongi.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon made a wrinkle on the forehead and chose it. I also liked Kongkongi, so I decided to give it this nickname. I immediately sent a message to Won-jo.? ? [My name is Kongkongi~~~~]? ? And I uploaded it on social media and edited my profile to be [Kongkongi]. I know it was decided too quickly, but it seemed that my heart wouldn¡¯t be restless if this was the case.? ? I changed my profile picture to the ultrasound image, but I kept getting calls and had to reject them in an inconvenient manner.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who was watching my actions, held out his hand. I handed him the phone after he pointed it out with his eyes. Choi Sung-hoon naturally rejected the incoming call and blocked it right away. Then he went into the call log and rejected each call one by one. For a brief moment, I was taken aback by the absurdity.? ? ¡°What are you doing now?¡±? ? ¡°Blocking out the trash that Seo-yu ssi had encountered in the past. It¡¯s a lot more than I expected.¡±? ? ¡°No, excuse me.¡±? ? ¡°I have endured this for a long time. Please bear with me even if I don¡¯t have the right to do so. I¡¯m going to block them all and return the phone to you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon shamelessly continued to block.? ? I rolled my eyes because I was dumbfounded next to him. What was ridiculous was that my heart was pounding at this shameless behavior.? ? Haa¡­ So¡­? ? Overbearing¡­? ? If Choi Sung-hoon returns my phone, I¡¯ll look into when I can begin having sex while pregnant¡­? ? * * *? ? Sex seems to be possible only after a while.? ? Professor Chae, the doctor, returned in the evening and told me that I would have to stay in the hospital for at least another month. I wanted to ask if it was really that serious, but I didn¡¯t because I was afraid it was.? ? The doctor predicted that various tests would continue for several days. There was a test that require me to take a medicine today in order to be able to do a test a few days later, so I ate some medicines after eating.? ? ¡°We¡¯ll do a few more tests as the number of weeks of the fetus increases. I¡¯ll do my best, but-.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not the fetus. It¡¯s Kongkongi.¡±? ? I cut off the doctor¡¯s words. And he rested his face on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hard forearm, who was listening with a stiff face.? ? ¡°We decided together. It¡¯s Kongkongi.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ So you already named¡­ the fetus.¡±? ? The doctor was so surprised that he couldn¡¯t speak properly. The doctor¡¯s eyes looking at Choi Sung-hoon were shaking as if an earthquake had occurred. Choi Sung-hoon had his usual blunt eyes.? ? ¡°The fetus name, don¡¯t you feel it¡¯s too early?¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t even know it existed until now. It¡¯s already been at least 11 weeks, but it¡¯s rather late.¡±? ? ¡°However, in this situation, we don¡¯t know what will happen.¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean you don¡¯t know? Kongkongi goes well with both girls and boys.¡±? ? I answered, but the doctor was only looking at Choi Sung-hoon. I really didn¡¯t like him in many ways.? ? Choi Sung-hoon put his finger on my lips as I clenched them. As if I had been blunt, he looked at me with a warm gaze and said.? ? ¡°You need a name to call it. Because every time it did something, I can¡¯t call it a fetus.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s expression, which was exactly what I said earlier, was warm and gentle.? ? ¡°¡­ Director.¡±? ? However, my anxious heart was not comforted. Because the doctor¡¯s face froze even more when he heard that answer.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s talk for a moment.¡±? ? The doctor called only Choi Sung-hoon outside. I didn¡¯t like it and hoped Choi Sung-hoon would reject it, but Choi Sung-hoon stood up without saying anything.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll be right back.¡±? ? He went out with the doctor and caressed me with his finger in my mouth.? ? I had to suffer from anxiety and ominous thoughts when I was left alone.? ? ¡®So, just in case don¡¯t give it any affection.¡¯? ? ¡®You must remember, Director. Don¡¯t give it any affection¡­¡¯ ? ? The doctor arrived and started saying things that made me nervous right away. It was a word that bothered me so much.? ? What does it mean to not give affection? Does it have nothing to do with me? A work story that only they know. If this was not the case¡­? ? I bit my lip.? ? After stroking my lower abdomen and looking at the ultrasound picture once, I couldn¡¯t stand it and got up.? ? I put on my slippers and slowly pushed the IV stand toward the door. When I put my ear close to the closed door, I could hear a voice, but it was too small to understand.? ? They¡¯ll notice if I open the door, but I¡¯m curious about the contents¡­? ? I whined after hitting my head against the door, but I eventually gave up and turned around because all I could hear was whispering.? ? ¡°Ordinary people are different from you, Director!¡±? ? But then I heard the doctor outside the door shouting. I simply stopped.? ? ¡°You usually become attached quickly and are devastated when it is taken away.¡± The director should be aware of this, especially for people who experience severe emotional ups and downs.¡±? ? I put my hand over my mouth to keep even my breathing from leaking out.? ? ¡­ After a while, Choi Sung-hoon answered.? ? ¡°I know. I know¡­¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon¡¯s voice was muffled. As if speaking from the depths of the abyss.? ? I walked over to the bed. I lay down carefully and covered my neck with a blanket.? ? I searched for ¡®drugs I took without knowing I was pregnant¡¯ and ¡®contraceptives while pregnant¡¯ on my cell phone, but I soon stopped.? ? I remembered a heartbeat graph that was barely moving in a silent hospital room.? ? Even if I wanted to know what the doctor and Choi Sung-hoon were talking about, I couldn¡¯t.? ? I put my hand on my lower abdomen. It was too flat to have a life inside. I didn¡¯t realize I was pregnant because I¡¯ve been using contraception regularly and never paid attention to the signs. I would have felt something strange if my stomach had been showing a little more, but I never imagined it.? ? But I should have known.? ? I should have known if no one else did. He must have been furious at me for tormenting Kongkongi so badly.? ? It was all my fault.? ? I wiped away the stinging tears as quickly as I could. Choi Sung-hoon has a lot of money, so he would go to any length to use the best medical technology. I was sorry to hold him accountable for what had occurred as a result of my fault, but there was nothing I could do but hope. CH 38 Choi Sung-hoon was next to me 24 hours a day while being examined all day as the doctor announced on Friday. We were still together on Saturdays.? ? I walked along the promenade built on the site of the hospital during the day and watched a movie in the evening. And now, on Sunday, Choi Sung-hoon was preparing to leave my side.? ? ¡°I will be back as soon as possible. Make sure to eat well and pick up right away when I call.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, Choi Sung-hoon ssi as well.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who dressed perfectly in a suit with his hair swept back for the first time in a long time, said his goodbyes to me.? ? His appearance has not changed since the first time we met except for the fact that he has become more handsome and has a halo, but the look in his eyes filled with regret and laughter came out for some reason. I gave him a very nice charcoal gray scarf that matched perfectly.? ? ¡°Have a safe trip. I¡¯ll be waiting here, eating well and sleeping well. What time did you say the plane crashed on Thursday?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ It wouldn¡¯t crash. Because I have to see Seo-yu ssi again.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Instead, we will land safely at 3:20 PM.¡±? ? I understood his answer a bit late.? ? Haa¡­ Damn¡­ How many floors was this¡­? ? ¡°Stop thinking about jumping.¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon kissed me with his eyes full of laughter.? ? A hot, thick tongue pierced my lips, rammed the roof of my mouth, and wrapped around mine.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s strong arms encircled my waist. I hung up by wrapping my arms around his neck. My bottom was trying to respond to the deep kiss after a long time because we¡¯d only been kissing lightly these days.? ? Knock, knock.? ? Then someone knocked on the hospital door.? ? Naturally, I thought the door was locked, and I kept tangling my tongue with him, then suddenly the door opened.? ? ¡°Brother! I¡¯m here!¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun, who entered with a cheerful greeting, froze. Sung-hyun, whose face turned red and blue before turning pale, said into the air about 30cm away from us, ¡°I¡¯ll be back in five minutes¡­¡± And then he left.? ? Choi Sung-hoon and I kissed for another five minutes before opening the door.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry, Hyung¡­ I act rashly¡­¡±? ? Sung-hyun entered after apologizing to Choi Sung-hoon. Choi Sung-hoon frowned slightly but said nothing.? ? Five or six gangster like brothers lined up behind Sung-hyun. They greeted Choi Sung-hoon and me at a 90 degree angle. Then, as if he had already told them in advance, they stood like a pillar in all directions of the hospital room.? ? I pulled Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s clothes. Choi Sung-hoon gave a light smile when I asked who those people were.? ? ¡°You don¡¯t have to care about it, Seo-yu ssi. Just think they don¡¯t exist.¡±? ? How could I not care¡­ There were huge gangsters like people all around that looked so horrendous.? ? ¡°Tell me properly. What is it?¡±? ? ¡°No, there isn¡¯t anything. It¡¯s because my father is keeping an eye on me to see if I¡¯m up to no good, so don¡¯t worry about it, Seo-yu Hyung.¡±? ? ¡°You?¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? Sung-hyun lamented that he was being monitored after an unlicensed driving accident last year.? ? Wow¡­ That was a few months ago, but still¡­ I would just run away from home right away.? ? A gangster-like brother handed Sung-hyun the luggage he was holding. It was a large shopping bag from which game packs and game consoles appeared one after the other.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll begin by installing the game console. I bring everything I own from home. Let¡¯s spend the day killing zombie bastards.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon wrinkled his brow and softly called out Sung-hyun¡¯s name. Sung-hyun, who was looking forward to unpacking, flinched.? ? ¡°Th-that¡¯s right. You have to be careful with what you say. Because the fetus is listening. So, Seo-yu Hyung, should we kill the zombies together¡­?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon sighed as he looked at his younger brother, who was not using his words carefully. I laughed out loud for a really long time. And I told Sung-hyun a new fact that he didn¡¯t seem to know.? ? ¡°Hey, it¡¯s not a fetus. We have named it.¡±? ? ¡°Huh, really? What is it?¡±? ? ¡°I posted it on social media, but didn¡¯t you see it? Choi Sung-hoon, please tell your younger brother our fetus name.¡±? ? I wanted to tell him as soon as possible, so I smiled and looked up at Choi Sung-hoon. Choi Sung-hoon, whose eyes seemed to shake for a moment as I looked at him, opened his mouth.? ? ¡°¡­Kongkongi.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? For a brief moment, even breathing could not be heard in the room. The eyes of Sung-hyun and the gangster-like brother who came in under the guise of security were shaking.? ? ¡°¡­Hyung, what did you say? The fetus name, I can¡¯t hear you well. Kongkongi?¡±? ? ¡°Then I¡¯ll get going because it¡¯s almost departure time. I¡¯ll call you when I arrive at the airport, so make sure to answer.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon politely ignored his brother¡¯s question and bid me goodbye. I was saddened to say goodbye to him, but I smiled brightly so as not to show it.? ? ¡°Yes, be careful. Please work hard and stay healthy.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who raised the corner of his mouth and smiled nicely, kissed my lips once more.? ? I saw him off in the hospital room because I couldn¡¯t even open the window due to the cold weather today.? ? I returned to the hospital room after waving to Choi Sung-hoon, who had disappeared into the elevator. Sung-hyun and the gangster-looking brothers were still out of their minds at the time.? ? I returned to bed with my hands on my lower abdomen and went inside the blanket, but Sung-hyun made a strange noise and fell on the bed.? ? ¡°Oh man, I was so surprised. What¡¯s wrong with you?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s Kongkongi¡­! I can¡¯t believe he said that.¡­ What the heck. What did you do with my older brother?¡±? ? Sigh¡­? ? Sung-hyun squealed as he slammed the blanket down. I positioned myself far away from him, I¡¯m glad the bed was wide.? ? ¡°No, what¡¯s wrong with Choi Sung-hoon saying Kongkongi? Your brother is so cute, but you still don¡¯t know anything.¡±? ? ¡°Stop it, damn it. Don¡¯t tell my older brother that he¡¯s cute. My older brother would never say something like that. He¡¯s not cute at all!¡±? ? Sung-hyun couldn¡¯t get away from the shock for a while after that. I don¡¯t know what this kid has been thinking about his brother.? ? ¡®My older brother has no emotions at all, doesn¡¯t laugh well, was reticent and cruel, and he¡¯s tired of coming and going.¡¯ I chose a game pack to play later after hearing his wailing sounds as if the world was collapsing.? ? * * *? ? Sung-hyun came with a lot of games and just talked. He stated that he entered the business administration department and asked about my major, to which I replied that I did not graduate from college.? ? Originally, I intended to attend university. My parents and older brother created separate bankbooks for my college tuition and worked hard to collect them, but my uncle stole the bankbook and I¡¯m not sure what happened after that.? ? On a Monday evening, I was having dinner with Sung-hyun when the boss and other company employees arrived. Those who came in immediately said that the big Alpha has a great sperm power, but when they saw the gangster-like brother, they left with pale faces. And when Sung-hyun brought them back, they became the world¡¯s most shy and calm people.? ? I conveyed my intention to resign, and the boss, who had witnessed the difficulty recessive Omega had in giving birth to a child, did not hold me back. The manager decided to discuss the document inspection work I was doing.? ? When I said I would stop by to organize my luggage, Sung-hyun cut me off saying that I could send one of the uncles instead. I was worried about the people at work for a while because it was clear that the uncle was one of the gangster-like brothers, but I pretended not to know. When I reach a stable period, I should also pay a visit to the logistics room to say goodbye.? ? That night, before I went to sleep, I got a message from Ho-in.? ? [I heard you¡¯re pregnant]? ? [Are you going to marry the extremely dominant Alpha?]? ? [Do you really think the marriage could happen?]? ? I didn¡¯t reply.? ? On Tuesday, I stopped by at home with Sung-hyun. I came to clean up the house because I would stay at the hospital for a while, but Sung-hyun, who came to help, just stood there looking around.? ? Sung-hyun stayed with me in the hospital until the day before the semester began. Even after observing his brother and me for a few days, he was still amazed until the end. I tried to take a picture every time Choi Sung-hoon called or sent a message, and he was annoyed.? ? Choi Sung-hoon frequently contacted me, so he made ten calls a day on average, and the conversation continued throughout the day. When Choi Sung-hoon sent me a picture of what he ate, I took a picture of the meal for that day as well.? ? Sung-hyun used to sigh alone as he watched his older brother take care of my three meals a day, make video calls, and say goodnight farewell like, ¡®I will dream of Seo-yu ssi.¡¯? ? Even today, Choi Sung-hoon called me right after I finished dinner, despite the fact that the time difference was significant. As I was waiting, I received it right away, and Sung-hyun, who was lying on the hospital bed as comfortably as he was in his own bed at home, stopped his fingers and listened to our call.? ? ¡°Yes¡­I took another medicine because I heard there was still a test left. I¡¯m starting to feel like a drug addict. What if Kongkong is born completely soaked in medicine?¡±? ? I circled around the hospital room while talking to Choi Sung-hoon on the phone.? ? ¨C How about you. Aren¡¯t you sick because of the medicine?? ? ¡°I¡¯m fine. I¡¯m worried about Kongkongi.¡±? ? ¨C Did you eat all three meals today?? ? ¡°Of course. I haven¡¯t vomited all week. The morning sickness seems to be going away.¡±? ? ¨C If there is something you want to eat, just say it. Because that¡¯s why Choi Sung-hyun is there.? ? I smiled and looked at Sung-hyun. A question mark appeared on Sung-hyun¡¯s face.? ? As soon as I hung up the phone for the last time to say goodbye, Sung-hyun threw out his cell phone and asked.? ? ¡°What did you talk about, Hyung? Were you talking about me?¡±? ? ¡°No, he just said he¡¯d return as soon as possible. He¡¯s going to get the captain to fly as quickly as possible.¡±? ? ¡°Okay¡­¡±? ? The corners of his eyes drooped in disappointment.? ? Wouldn¡¯t it be worse if I told him that Choi Sung-hoon asked him to run an errand?? ? Bad thoughts slowly crept in, but Sung-hyun continued.? ? ¡°I never thought the day would come when my older brother would fall in love with someone.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I mean, he¡¯s never cared or cherished anything in his life. Objects, animals, or people. As a result, I was scared a lot of the time. Is it because his expectations are too high?¡±? ? At first, he denied it, but today he seemed to admit it. I don¡¯t need him to admit it.? ? ¡°My brother was also human. After all, you only know life when you live it.¡±? ? Said 20-year-old Choi Sung-hyun.? ? I sat beside Sung-hyun and patted his head. Then, Sung-hyun jumped up with a blush on his face.? ? ¡°Ah, shi-. What are you doing. I am not a child, I¡¯m a college student, you know?¡±? ? ¡°How did you become a college student? When I first met you, you were such an immature high schooler.¡±? ? ¡°How long has it been¡­¡±? ? It¡¯s only been a few months, but he¡¯s lost a lot of his baby fat since the last time I saw him, and he now looks like an adult. He slimmed down and became very good looking. I was proud that I expected him to monopolize on popularity while in college.? ? ¡°I have a lot of thoughts now that the situation has changed like this. I¡¯ll have to accept that I¡¯m getting older as well. Haa¡­¡±? ? Twenty years old.? ? He was so cute that I messed up his hair again.? ? ¡°Go home now. You said the class starts tomorrow.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I¡¯m going now. I¡¯ll be busy when school starts, but I¡¯ll come often to see Kongkongi.¡±? ? Sung-hyun said farewell to my flat lower abdomen.? ? ¡°Hyung will go now, keep growing healthily.¡±? ? It could be a girl, and it¡¯s appropriate for him to be referred to as an uncle, but I let it slide because it was cute.? ? When Sung-hyun left, the gangster-like brothers said their goodbyes and left as well. I would only leave the room and stand in the corridor. That has been the case for several days. It was difficult to have a guard on the first day, but Choi Sung-hoon told me to put up with it until he returned because I didn¡¯t know when or what would happen.? ? It seems to be a two-shift, with three people standing by all day, including a wooden tattooed gangster like brother, a bald gangster like brother, and a gold tooth gangster like brother (I named it as I wanted because they didn¡¯t introduce themselves). I had no idea where the lunchbox gangster brother had gone.? ? Did he follow Choi Sung-hoon? If possible, I hope we don¡¯t meet again in the future. He would be terrified if he found out someone like me was having a child with Choi Seong-hoon.? ? I have to see only pretty things and hear only good things now, so if I hear anything bad from the lunchbox gangster like brother, I will immediately inform Choi Sung-hoon. CH 39 I skipped breakfast. When I ate with Sung-hyun for a few days, I didn¡¯t feel stuffy and was fine, but today, my stomach was not feeling well from the moment I woke up.? ? Ugh.? ? As soon as I covered my mouth and became nauseated, the gangster-like brother dashed out to the hallway and called the doctor. The doctor tried several times to change the menu, but I still couldn¡¯t eat anything. I eventually left with only the fruit because it was worse to force myself to eat. I ate a piece of apple and lied down because I couldn¡¯t eat anymore.? ? Originally, the company should be busy checking documents at this time¡­? ? Now I¡¯m unemployed. I couldn¡¯t believe I was leaving the company.? ? My mind was complicated.? ? It seemed that I had resigned hastily, but there was no other way. Now was the time to be completely stable.? ? Even if Kongkongi goes wrong, I have no intention of looking for work again.? ? My belly was still flat.? ? If you search for ¡¯13 weeks belly size¡¯, it definitely came out bigger than this. I have to keep eating¡­? ? I thought I should eat something, so I stood up and ate the apple. I took a bite and murmured to myself, thinking of Choi Sung-hoon.? ? He said he would come today at 4 o¡¯clock. There were still ten hours left. It seems a bit too much.? ? You said you liked me. You said you wanted to get married. Could you have left your position for this long because you were getting ready to propose? How long has it been? You went out on Sunday, and now¡­ How can you abandon me for 5 days, rather than 5 hours?? ? I chewed on Choi Sung-hoon while eating an apple.? ? Vibrate vibrate.? ? Just then, I got a call from Choi Sung-hoon. The timing pleasantly surprised me. I used to believe that even if I grumbled a lot on the inside, I should never complain on the outside. Even if it doesn¡¯t cheer up the hard worker on the weekend, a jobless person who was lying in bed all day shouldn¡¯t make the hard worker feel tired.? ? I cleared my voice and answered the call in a bright voice.? ? ¡°Yes, Choi Sung-hoon ssi. You haven¡¯t left yet?¡±? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi, I heard you skipped breakfast this morning.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ No, I¡¯m not. I¡¯m currently eating an apple. Choi Sung-hoon ssi, have you eaten?¡±? ? ¨C Do you have a stomach ache? If you feel pain, tell me right away. You must never hide it.? ? My stomach continued to hurt. I even woke up because of the pain. Choi Sung-hoon told me to call the doctor right away if I felt even the slightest pain, so I always press the nurse call button right away. Nonetheless, the nurses showed no signs of annoyance.? ? ¡°It¡¯s just a natural symptom of morning sickness. Guess you haven¡¯t boarded the plane yet? When are you coming?¡±? ? ¨C We¡¯ll be leaving soon. I am sorry for being late.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t be sorry. I¡¯m worried that you¡¯re cramming too much into your schedule for no reason. You can take a little more time to rest. Since you¡¯ve traveled so far, why not go sightseeing? Relieve your fatigue in other countries and enjoy yourself slowly and leisurely.¡±? ? ¨C ¡­ Does that mean it¡¯s okay to be late?? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m okay. For about 30 minutes.¡±? ? ¨C ¡­? ? ¡°You¡¯ve come a long way, and it¡¯s a shame you only go there to work. If there¡¯s a festival, go see it, buy something delicious, and so on.¡±? ? ¨C 30 minutes.? ? ¡°I can give you five more minutes if you want.¡±? ? In fact, I was going to give him 20 minutes, but I wrote it with my heart open. To be honest, he could see and buy everything he needed to see.? ? When I said it shamelessly, Choi Sung-hoon chuckled and hung up the phone, saying I¡¯ll see you at the hospital. I also smiled as I hung up the phone and made eye contact with one of the gangster-like brothers.? ? He had a strange expression on his face. It was a strange expression, neither smiling nor crying, as if the television had suddenly said, ¡®Hello, I¡¯m your TV,¡¯ which I could understand. Because I had the call volume set to maximum, he most likely heard both his psycho boss and my call. Choi Sung-hoon, who was not human, drips with honey when he treats me, so he might be surprised.? ? Feeling better, I ate an apple at once. I also ate dinner while I was at it. It was clear beef radish soup, dried radish, grilled mackerel, and mixed grain rice. I couldn¡¯t eat the dried radish or the grilled mackerel, but the beef radish soup was delicious and went well with the mixed grain rice.? ? After eating so excitedly, I threw it up not long after. The gangster-like brother with a neck tattoo patted my back, but it was too soft to be of any additional help. I thought it was a drop of water.? ? When I became sluggish and lay down on the bed, the gold-toothed gangster-like brother came with a nurse. The nurse went out after adjusting the IV.? ? I covered myself with a blanket to the end of my head and stroked my flat stomach. This was the reason I was concerned about how to gain weight.? ? I felt sorry for Kongkongi. Because of me. It happened by chance to me, and it hadn¡¯t even been born yet, but I only made it suffer.? ? It was all my fault.? ? I¡¯d like to be alone. I don¡¯t like the gangster-like brother watching me. I couldn¡¯t do anything because I was aware that I was being watched. I must inform Choi Sing-hoon when he arrives¡­? ? I looked at the time, and it was still 11 am.? ? That¡¯s too much. The time doesn¡¯t seem to go by.? ? I was so annoyed that I throw my phone.? ? ¡°Seo-yu-nim, are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, it¡¯s nothing.¡±? ? I answered with the blanket covered.? ? I want to be alone.? ? I went to the internet and searched ¡®I want to be alone¡¯. After reading a few blog posts, I also searched for ¡®My stomach is too flat¡¯.? ? When does the fetal development period begin? I¡¯m hoping Kongkongi will move quickly. Then I think I could realize that I was not alone. I don¡¯t like being alone.? ? I was stroking my stomach and thinking dazedly when someone knocked on the door of the hospital room.? ? I jumped up.? ? Was it Choi Sung-hoon?? ? ¡°Who is it.¡±? ? The gangster-like brother opened the door. I glanced at the open door.? ? ¡°Are you staying here?¡±? ? A tall woman came in. I and the gangster-like brothers were surprised.? ? ¡°Hello, writer.¡±? ? ¡°When I thought there was no one outside, it turned out that everyone was inside. Take good care of the child.¡±? ? The gangster-like brothers bowed down at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s mother. Mother naturally ordered the gangster-like brothers to go out for a while. I almost left with them because it felt so natural. Mother took off her glasses and put them in the glasses case and asked me.? ? ¡°I heard you fainted. Are you all right?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m fine now. Please sit down.¡±? ? I got up and tried to go down the bed, but mother told me to just lie down. I couldn¡¯t lie down, so I just sat up with my upper body up. Mother was wearing a thick coat, but she didn¡¯t take it off or sit in the chair.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll be leaving soon, so don¡¯t feel pressured. I came for a regular checkup and stopped by.¡±? ? ¡°A checkup? Where are you hurting?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ve been stopping by once a year since the third miscarriage because it¡¯s been getting worse here and there.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­¡±? ? I don¡¯t know how to react. I bowed my head and said sorry.? ? Knowing that mother hates me makes me feel like I¡¯m sitting on a thorny cushion. I wondered if she had brought up the subject of miscarriage on purpose.? ? ¡°It¡¯s time for Director Choi to come, so I¡¯m leaving soon. I don¡¯t want to run into him.¡±? ? ¡°He said he wouldn¡¯t arrive at the hospital until four o¡¯clock¡­¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, only 20 minutes left.¡±? ? I was taken aback when I heard that. When I looked at the clock on the wall, and it was 3.40 p.m. I thought the watch on my phone was broken, so I looked again and it was 3.40 p.m. Wasn¡¯t it just 11 a.m a moment ago?? ? These symptoms were not good.? ? ¡°Yu-ya, your lips are bleeding. ¡®m not trying to scold you, so don¡¯t worry. Was I too fierce?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m sorry. It¡¯s a habit.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a bad habit. Yous should fix it.¡±? ? I¡¯ve lived like this for 28 years, how can I fix it? She doesn¡¯t like me, so I¡¯m guessing she doesn¡¯t like me biting my lips for a few moments.? ? ¡°Yes, I will try.¡±? ? ¡°Is Director Choi good to you?¡±? ? ¡°Of course. To the point, I think it¡¯s a bit too much.¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun said that. You are busy exchanging messages, making video calls, and chattering day and night.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s mostly right, but we don¡¯t make a fuss.¡±? ? ¡°I see what you mean. Sung-hyun has a tendency to exaggerate.¡±? ? The look on mother¡¯s face that show she knew it, made me want to talk to Choi Sung-hoon on the phone right away.? ? ¡°Is it true that you are exchanging messages? Video calls too? I¡¯ve heard your fetus¡¯s name is Kongkongi but does Director Choi really call it Kongkongi?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s all true.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t lie. I won¡¯t believe it until I see it with my own eyes.¡±? ? Mother glanced at the phone in my hand. She obviously wants to see it so much.? ? ¡°I¡¯m telling the truth. Would you like to see it?¡±? ? Mother tilted her head and her eyes twinkling, as I opened the message window with Choi Sung-hoon. I smiled when I noticed how much she resembled Sung-hyun.? ? Sung-hoon ssi? [Rather than Kongkongi, I¡¯ll buy something you¡¯ll enjoy eating.] ? ? Sung-hoon ssi? [Can I make a video call?]? ? Sung-hoon ssi? [Call me when you¡¯re done washing up.]? ? Mother glanced down once with an expressionless face.? ? ¡°Did Director Choi also save your name with a heart on it?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not sure what he saved me as. I¡¯m curious as well.¡±? ? I¡¯ve never thought about it, but I¡¯m really curious. I¡¯ll have to take a look when he arrives.? ? ¡°It¡¯s good to see Director Choi trying very hard to become a person in front of you. I never imagined this day would come.¡±? ? Mother handed me back the phone and looked at the wall clock. She seemed anxious about running into Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°As you know, Director Choi has an insensitive side. He hasn¡¯t acted like a normal human since he was a child. I also have an indifferent personality, but Director Choi was even worse. I suggested counseling, but he didn¡¯t listen. He appears to be trying hard to be a good person in front of you, but you¡¯ve probably felt the same way. There are some aspects of him that are not human.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? I did not answer hastily. I couldn¡¯t nod or shake my head. All I could do was listen.? ? I would have agreed in the past. But now I¡¯m not sure I could cry when I was sad because he was the only person who comforted me with kindness and warmth¡­? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t know the day would come when Director Choi loved someone.¡±? ? I had heard it several times, but the weight was so different.? ? ¡°Sadness, suffering, fear, anger and hate, joy and happiness. I¡¯m also worried about knowing love in the first place without knowing such basic emotions. But love will eventually teach you all that emotions.¡±? ? ¡°I think you¡¯re overestimating it. There is no guarantee that it will last forever.¡±? ? ¡°From the start, director Choi chose a difficult subject.¡±? ? Mother smiled while I couldn¡¯t. Choi Sung-hoon appears to have feelings for likes, but those around him gave it too much meaning.? ? When it was 3.50 p.m, mother grabbed the doorknob without hesitation.? ? ¡°I have to go before we run into each other. Take good care of yourself, and don¡¯t tell him I was here.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, goodbye.¡±? ? ¡°Oh.¡±? ? Mother paused before opening the door and leaving.? ? ¡°Seo-yu, you don¡¯t read group chat rooms like Director Choi?¡±? ? ¡°No, I read it. I check it often.¡±? ? ¡°Then why are you so quiet? He¡¯s upset, so even if it annoys you, give him an answer now and then.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes.¡±? ? I haven¡¯t said a word since I was invited to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family chat room, but father must have been very offended.? ? After telling me to be healthy, Mother hurriedly left. A loud greeting could be heard outside the door. Mother sternly ordered the gangster-like brothers to keep the fact that she had visited today a secret.? ? I was lying in bed, blinking, and then I picked up my cell phone. In the family chat room, only the names of father and Sung-hyun were visible. Mother would sometimes respond as well. The most recent conversation was five minutes ago.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s father [Sung-hoon is coming back today?]? ? Sung-hyun [Hyung said he would arrive around four o¡¯clock]? ? Choi Seong-hoon¡¯s father [Shall we eat out to celebrate? >.0<] ? ? Choi Seong-hoon was the only one who didn¡¯t read the message while his mother checked it on the way out.? ? Father was looking for a link similar to this [#Omega Center Restaurant] and found one. He also searched for menus that early pregnant person could eat. Seeing him contemplating alone on which menu would be good, I answered without even consulting with the doctor Choi Sung-hoon had assigned, and without considering my symptoms of morning sickness.? ? [Wow, it looks delicious. I¡¯ll make sure to eat with Choi Sung-hoon ssi! Hehehe.] ? ? The chat window appeared after I sent that message. When I saw my father¡¯s message that he would make a reservation right away by sending a character emoticon to play the tambourine, a realization came to me.? ? ¡®I wonder if this was the purpose of mother¡¯s visit today¡¯¡­ CH 40 After Choi Sung-hoon returned, I did a few more tests.? ? My back and stomach continued to hurt despite the fact that I was taking several medications. The doctor¡¯s expression still wasn¡¯t good.? ? I just finished the test and came back to the hospital room alone.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was called by the doctor, it was Professor Chae or something, and they went to talk to each other. The doctor¡¯s expression was not good during the examination, so I cursed to myself, but I was annoyed because he didn¡¯t tell me the results and only call out Choi Sung-hoon.? ? How can I get him to stop calling out only Choi Sung-hoon?? ? From the time Choi Sung-hoon returned, the gangster-like brothers had disappeared, so I was the only one in the hospital room. Instead, there was a vase on top of the drawers next to the bed.? ? Choi Sung-hoon returned from a business trip with a rose bouquet. The flowers were carefully placed in the vase by the bald gangster-like brother. I stroked my lower stomach while looking at the rose.? ? I took out the ultrasound picture from the drawer. It was the first picture I received the day I found out I was pregnant.? ? After a long time looking at the too small Kongkongi with my fingers, the door finally opened. Choi Sung-hoon entered the room with a few documents.? ? ¡°You haven¡¯t changed clothes yet. It¡¯s cold, so hurry up and change.¡°? ? I was only dressed in a gown for the exam, but the room was so warm that I couldn¡¯t feel it. Choi Sung-hoon personally handed me my maternity clothes. He asked me to take off my gown.? ? ¡°What does the doctor say? It¡¯s really funny. Why didn¡¯t he talk to me and only whisper to Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¡°Are you angry?¡±? ? ¡°No, I am not angry. Why would I be angry?¡±? ? I understand what the doctor was trying to hide from me. I¡¯m not stupid. Perhaps Choi Sung-hoon mentioned that I had attempted suicide and that the doctor would be cautious with me now that Kongkongi¡¯s situation was not good. And I¡¯m not the kind of person who gets angry with this person and then vents on that person. Of course, I wasn¡¯t angry.? ? ¡°Tell me how bad things are right now in person. He doesn¡¯t say anything, but his face is filled with worry and concern. I¡¯m at a loss for what to do. But I¡¯m not angry.¡±? ? ¡°But you are angry.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not, really. What¡¯s the matter with you? I¡¯m not angry. Choi Sung-hoon ssi also needs to speak with me. How bad is Kongkongi¡­¡±? ? I stopped talking.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was looking down at my body while taking off my gown. It seems that the dark eyes were gradually going down from my collarbone to the protruding part of my chest, isn¡¯t it?? ? ¡°What are you doing?¡±? ? ¡°Looking at Seo-yu¡¯s body.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon swept his hand down my shoulders, neck, collarbone, and chest. At first, I thought he was checking my health, but his eyes weren¡¯t that way.? ? It was black, dark, and ferocious.? ? It was like a beast savoring the scent before eating a well-prepared supper.? ? It¡¯s been a long time since we met bare skin, but in such a serious situation, how¡­? ? I gulped and swallowed my saliva.? ? His eyes made me nervous as well. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s big hand on my shoulder was tense. If the big, hard hand between the thin gown touches my bare skin¡­? ? Sex in the hospital room, how great would it be¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon bowed his upper body. He grabbed my chin and kissed my lips. I wrapped my arm around his neck, feeling sorry for the short kiss that fell after only touching my lips. Choi Sung-hoon then kissed me while wrapping his thick arms around my waist.? ? A big, hot tongue entered my mouth and knocked on the roof of my mouth. We exchanged saliva while wrapping our tongues around each other. My body gradually leaned back. My mouth was filled with a tongue as big as Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s size, making it difficult to breathe.? ? ¡°Eung¡­¡±? ? Flop.? ? A soft blanket touched the back of my head. Suddenly, I lay down on the bed. Choi Sung-hoon, who seems to weigh more than three digits, placed his thick arm on the bed and kissed me without putting any weight on me.? ? It was like a hot fire. My mouth was full because his tongue was too big. My back side was becoming increasingly hot. I arched my back and rested my hand on his shoulder.? ? At that moment, Choi Sung-hoon got away from me.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? He raised his upper body and looked down at me with excitement still on his face. As I exhaled a hot breath, I reached out to him, who still had a dark, black gaze fixed on me.? ? ¡°Hurry up¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­change your clothes.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, on the other hand, acted harshly when he opened my gown and handed me the maternity clothes.? ? At such a horrible sight, my heart was pounding faster than I could cool down.? ? It was obvious that the big man standing by the window with his back to the window was looking after my health. He was suppressing his lust. The extremely dominant Alpha who claims to have the world at his feet¡­ Even though there were many ways without having to put it in.? ? The memories from the past merged.? ? Our first relationship took place when I was drunk in a heat cycle, but after a few days of our first relationship, Choi Sung-hoon did not fall for the same drunken temptation. He asked what he was going to do with a drunkard and walked away with his back as he does now.? ? I knew we were sex partners from the start, while Choi Sung-hoon thought we were lovers. I was never a sex partner to him in the first place.? ? I changed into maternity clothes and thought that I wanted to go back to the past. Those nights would have meant something different to me if I had known it was sex with a lover rather than a sex partner.? ? How overwhelming and happy it must have been day by day.? ? I was so sad about that.? ? * * * ? ? After dinner, while watching TV in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms, Choi Sung-hoon said he had something to give me and moved while holding me. A large, bulky, and slightly hard object was rubbed against my tailbone.? ? Shit¡­ Was he doing this on purpose when he¡¯s holding it in?? ? Choi Sung-hoon handed me the binder he had placed on the drawer as I shed my eyes. A number of documents were embedded.? ? [Marriage Registration Form]? ? One column was left blank, while the other was completely filled in.? ? ¡°It¡¯s a marriage certificate.¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi, your handwriting is very mature. Really handsome.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m also curious about Seo-yu¡¯s ssi handwriting.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon put a pen in my hand.? ? ¡°I heard you were planning a special marriage proposal¡­¡±? ? ¡°I want to register our marriage first.¡±? ? ¡°You say you¡¯re going to work hard on courtship.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll register our marriage first.¡±? ? He hugged me from behind and kissed the top of my head. I leaned on his hard chest and pondered as I looked at the marriage certificate.? ? I will marry Choi Sung-hoon. Apart from how I don¡¯t regard his feelings as eternal love, I will marry him. Because I won¡¯t be able to raise Kongkongi without a father. And I want to do it again.? ? But¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon whispered in my ear in a very sexy and low voice to me who was pondering.? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t you want to live your life the way it was?¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s it¡­ It was.¡±? ? ¡°Or am I not good enough as a spouse?¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re brimming¡­¡±? ? ¡°Do you not like me?¡±? ? ¡°¡­I like you.¡±? ? ¡°Then what¡¯s the problem?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was an idiot.? ? That¡¯s the problem.? ? That I like you. That I fell in love with you.? ? Even if I hadn¡¯t loved him, I would have mentioned how thrilled I was to have captured the extremely dominant Alpha, who was wealthy, handsome, and physically fit.? ? But when I fell in love with him, everything changed.? ? Now that I know Kongkongi was bound to go wrong, Choi Sung-hoon doesn¡¯t have to take responsibility for me.? ? ¡°I never thought you would be so worried. Because you resigned, I assumed you had made a decision.¡±? ? As I stared at the marriage registration certificate that was left blank, Choi Sung-hoon said softly.? ? I did not resign to marry Choi Sung-hoon. What I thought was¡­? ? ¡°Once again, I was mistaken for my own good.¡±? ? As if reading my mind, he increased the strength of the arm that was holding me.? ? I bowed my head and felt sorry for him. Then Choi Sung-hoon muttered in a low voice saying that he also had a lot to learn.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not telling you to fill it right away. I¡¯ll put it here first, so think about it slowly.¡±? ? He placed the marriage certificate on top of the bedside drawer. Next to the vase of roses.? ? I grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thick arm as he slowly began to stand.? ? ¡°Where are you going?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to spread the bed.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon got up and spread the bed next to my bed after I let him go. It was originally a sofa, but when you lay it down, it transforms into a bed. The bed was long enough to accommodate Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s size.? ? There was another bed on the other side of the wall, but Choi Sung-hoon slept here every night. To be close to me.? ? He opened the bed and hugged me, then said,? ? ¡°After I leave for work tomorrow, some people will come. It was just like when I was on a business trip.¡±? ? ¡°Is it the gangster-like brother?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes, the gangster-like brother.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll just be by myself. I feel like I¡¯m being monitored. It¡¯s really uncomfortable.¡±? ? ¡°I cannot leave you alone.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t like it, Choi Sung-hoon ssi. I just want to be alone.¡±? ? I pushed him away and looked straight at him.? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked down at me as if he was sighing inside.? ? ¡°All right. If I call, be sure to pick it up on time.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll go into the bathroom with my phone.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t be late to reply to messages.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Oh right. Choi Sung-hoon.¡±? ? I suddenly remembered because the message talk came up. I jumped. I raised my upper body in such a hurry that my head was spinning.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, are you okay? Please lean back slowly.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon quickly supported me.? ? I realized I had drooped in front of him. Choi Sung-hoon supported me with one arm and held the cushion in place with the other. I told him the situation while leaning on his back and following his strength.? ? ¡°Give me your cell phone. Hurry up. It¡¯s urgent.¡±? ? ¡°¡­My cell phone.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, quickly.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon paused for a moment before standing. I¡¯ll never forget how he agonized over it for 5 seconds.? ? Choi Sung-hoon handed me his phone, which was kept in his coat. There were three missed calls, but none were from a saved number.? ? I went into the phone book and looked up my number.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? When I saw the saved name, I was shocked.? ? [Seo-yu]? ? How could this be? How could you just write two words so blandly¡­? ? ¡°Is there a problem?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, there¡¯s a big problem.¡±? ? I gave him my cell phone. Put the name [Sung-hoon ssi?] on the screen. And I put it next to him to compare his desolate [Seo-yu].? ? ¡°Look at this. What¡¯s this. You said you liked me.¡±? ? ¡°¡­It¡¯s cute.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled proudly while looking at his own name.? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to change it to [Choi Sung-hoon]. Take away all the hearts.¡±? ? ¡°You can¡¯t do that. Can I put it on your name too?¡±? ? ¡°Of course you should.¡±? ? He kissed my forehead with a full smile as if I was so cute when I was dissatisfied.? ? I watched Choi Sung-hoon add ¡®?¡¯ after my name with his hard fingers. After he was done, I took a picture with my camera.? ? ¡°Are you going to post it on social media?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to post it on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family chat room.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I never said I wouldn¡¯t post it if you didn¡¯t like it. I was worried you¡¯d say no.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had a lot to say and a complicated face, sat there and watched me post [Seo-yu?] pictures in the family chat room. But he didn¡¯t stop me until the end.? ? That day, I slept with great satisfaction and had a dream in which I was wearing a nametag that read ¡®Seo-yu ?¡¯ at a meeting with Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family.? ? * * *? ? Choi Seong-hoon went to work, and Won-jo came to play in the empty hospital room. I didn¡¯t announce the visit on purpose because Choi Sung-hoon would be upset, but when Won-jo entered the hospital room, he asked, ¡°Why are there so many gangsters here? Are they all your lover¡¯s subordinates?¡± If you see it, he may have already heard it.? ? ¡°It¡¯s so small. Is it a boy or a girl?¡±? ? Won-jo looked at the ultrasound picture while eating a banana. He brought drinks and fruits as a gift, but he was the one who eat them all.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know the gender yet. Originally, I shouldn¡¯t have told you.¡±? ? ¡°Still, you tell me everything.¡±? ? ¡°The gender doesn¡¯t matter. I just wish it was born healthy and well.¡±? ? ¡°Why? Do you have a miscarriage?¡±? ? ¡°No, you fucking bastard. Aren¡¯t your words too blatant?¡±? ? ¡°A pregnant person is swearing. I¡¯m still good enough, tsk.¡±? ? Won-jo clicked his tongue. I pouted my lips out of dissatisfaction.? ? What do you mean ¡®you fucking bastard¡¯ is swearing¡­? ? I showed the marriage certificate on top of the drawer to Won-jo who was eating a banana in front of a pregnant person suffering from morning sickness.? ? ¡°Look at this. Choi Sung-hoon wants to marry me.¡±? ? ¡°You have a child together, so of course, you should get married.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon said he thought he was dating me from the beginning. He said he likes me. Does that make sense?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s such a unique taste. You don¡¯t even look like an Omega.¡±? ? ¡°I am debating whether to get married or not. Also this morning he said, ¡®I¡¯d be happy if Seo-yu¡¯s name was written on it when I came back.¡¯ and left.¡±? ? My heart warmed as I remembered the morning atmosphere. Choi Sung-hoon looked down at me with a loving gaze and kissed me as I tied his tie. If we get married, we¡¯ll always have mornings like that.? ? ¡°Should I get married¡­¡±? ? ¡°You really should. You said that you had resigned from your job. The extremely dominant Alpha also likes you. If you get divorced, alimony will be full. Alimony will be paid in full if you divorce. What¡¯s the point of hesitating? If I were you, I¡¯d marry him right away. First and foremost, you must keep hold of him.¡±? ? ¡°Anyway, I can¡¯t communicate with a bastard who doesn¡¯t know love.¡±? ? ¡°What the hell, you fucking bastard.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t curse in front of a pregnant person.¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean ¡®you fucking bastard¡¯ is swearing¡­¡±? ? Won-jo mumbled timidly. I lay down on the bed holding the marriage certificate. Looking at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hard and neat handwriting, I thought about the future.? ? How dangerous was Kongkongi¡¯s situation? I¡¯d like someone to tell me for certain. I should ask Choi Sung-hoon when he will arrive today. I¡¯ll have to make a decision after I hear it clearly. Things concerning my future¡­? ? However, I don¡¯t think I could really ask¡­? ? That¡¯s how it¡¯s been all along. I could strongly question what the doctor said only to Choi Sung-hoon, and Choi Sung-hoon would respond.? ? But I didn¡¯t ask. I¡¯m afraid of the response that will be given back¡­ Choi Sung-hoon may not have said it exactly because he was aware of my complicated mind.? ? My feelings were complicated as I listened to Won-jo speak while eating bananas that flowed through one ear. CH 41 Choi Sung-hoon, who left work at 3 pm, said softly as he hung his coat on a hanger.? ? ¡°They said a friend was visiting.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­ Won-jo.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t mean to stop you from seeing your friends just because I don¡¯t like them. But I don¡¯t want you to keep trash as a friend.¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean trash. He is my friend.¡±? ? Crack.? ? There was a sound of something breaking. Choi Sung-hoon broke the hanger and threw it in the trash.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. I can¡¯t control my power.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡± ? ? Choi Sung-hoon approached me in the blink of an eye with one hand pulling his tie. That was a sexy scene.? ? ¡°I would like to create a place to formally greet Jang Won-jo ssi.¡±? ? ¡°¡­It¡¯s Jung Won-jo.¡±? ? ¡°If it¡¯s possible tonight.¡±? ? I nodded in amazement as I looked at his chest which was about to burst under his white shirt.? ? ¡°Let me ask you¡­¡± ? ? ¡°Oh, and your uncle as well.¡±? ? ¡°My uncle?¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? I was distracted by the word uncle, but when I saw Choi Sung-hoon, who began opening the button after loosening his tie, I lost my mind again.? ? ¡°The uncle who introduced a 40-year-old divorced Alpha to you in a hotel on December 24th at 10 p.m.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was displaying a handsome appearance at the time, and I was at a loss for words.? ? I nodded and moved my gaze to the angry biceps and shoulder muscles that were about to burst.? ? Were you going to take your shirt off? Would you take it off?? ? ¡°Try calling him right now. You¡¯re going to introduce someone you¡¯re going to marry, but when would be a good time to meet?¡±? ? ¡°It hasn¡¯t even been confirmed marriage yet¡­¡±? ? ¡°Tell him that you¡¯re going to introduce Kongkongi¡¯s father.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon handed the cell phone that was lying on the bed in my hand. I called my uncle in front of Choi Sung-hoon.? ? [Small Uncle]? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°There was a typo while saving it, haha¡­¡±? ? I laughed awkwardly, but I don¡¯t know if Choi Sung-hoon would believe it.? ? My uncle asked if Kongkongi¡¯s father had a lot of money and said he would meet him over the weekend. However, he asked Choi Sung-hoon to come down because he lives in a rural area. The words made me so angry.? ? ¡°Why does our Choi Sung-hoon have to go down? Uncle, come up.¡±? ? ¨C Why do I have to go up? I¡¯m your second father, so tell the person you want to marry to come down!? ? ¡°Wow, uncle, did you become a comedian? Second father. So funny. You should audition for a comedian.¡±? ? ¨C The way you talk is really¡­? ? While arguing with him in front of Choi Sung-hoon, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s big hand intervened and he naturally took my cell phone.? ? ¡°This is Choi Sung-hoon. Is this Seo-yu¡¯s ssi uncle?¡±? ? ¨C ¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon continued the conversation with my uncle in a heavy and low voice.? ? ¡°Yes, we can¡¯t get the elderly to come up. I will go. However, Seo-yu ssi needs to rest, so he won¡¯t be able to accompany me¡­ This is exactly what I was hoping for.¡±? ? ¡°Why is Choi Sung-hoon ssi going down? It¡¯s a waste of time. To be honest, I don¡¯t even have to introduce my uncle.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon wrapped one arm around me and patted me softly.? ? He set an appointment time and place in a low voice from beginning to end and hung up the phone.? ? I was filled with dissatisfaction and kicked the blanket. Choi Sung-hoon comforted me by telling me not to be upset.? ? ¡°My uncle is not like family to me. Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t have to make the effort to travel down to meet him.¡±? ? ¡°I know. That¡¯s why I¡¯m going to meet him.¡±? ? ¡°I told you, you don¡¯t need to meet him?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯d like to meet him right now because we don¡¯t need to meet later. Seo-yu ssi, when you get married, you have to acknowledge your uncle as a member of your family¡­¡±? ? ¡°No, I told you we¡¯re not family! It¡¯s frustrating. If I get married, I will cut ties with my uncle. You don¡¯t have to treat me like an adult.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Is that so.¡±? ? I tried to explain to Choi Sung-hoon what my uncle had done to me. It felt like I was digging my own grave when I talked about these things. How can I tell you that I¡¯ve been rolling so dirty?? ? ¡°But since we made an appointment, let¡¯s meet him.¡±? ? ¡°Do whatever you want!¡±? ? I put on a blanket and lay down. Choi Sung-hoon hugged me from behind and continued to comfort me.? ? When I saw Choi Sung-hoon treat trash like my uncle as my family, I felt as if my clothes were going to be turned inside out. It was a relief that I wasn¡¯t present at the meeting.? ? At Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s urging, I also contacted Won-jo, but he declined with various excuses. In any case, they¡¯ll have to meet someday.? ? Two days later, the day Choi Sung-hoon and my uncle decided to meet, I was standing up from the morning.? ? I was so worried that my uncle would say useless things to Choi Sung-hoon, so I sent a separate message.? ? [Don¡¯t talk too much to Choi Sung-hoon, especially about the past.]? ? Small Uncle [I see what you¡¯re doing.]? ? [If you don¡¯t want to end someone else¡¯s marriage, please do me a favor]? ? Small Uncle [Well, if you¡¯re getting married, he needs to know everything about your past.]? ? I wondered if I should deposit even pocket money.? ? Choi Sung-hoon arrived in Yeosu 10 minutes before the scheduled time of 7 p.m., and I received a call. It was a phone call in which he stated that he was close to the meeting location, that he would have a good conversation, and said he would return to me today.? ? I was so anxious that I called my uncle as soon as I hung up with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon is near. Uncle, where are you?¡±? ? ¨C I¡¯m almost there too. Why are there so many gangsters going around today?? ? ¡°A gangster?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡­ I hope there won¡¯t be a fight with the Yeosu gangster. It¡¯s just that this was not his domain¡­? ? ¡°Anyway, please be careful with what you say. Choi Sung-hoon is also a scary person, so you shouldn¡¯t say things like I¡¯ve met someone in the past. Please do me a favor.¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s scary. However, knowing someone who likes people on your level is worthwhile.? ? My uncle laughed at me, but perhaps seeing Choi Sung-hoon in person would change his mind.? ? ¨C By the way, I should reschedule the meeting. There are a lot of gangsters. There are some people who are very big and scary.? ? ¡°Very big and scary.?¡±? ? ¨C There¡¯s a gangster leader. It was terrifying to see everyone bowed at 90 degrees. The scar on his face is very¡­? ? He¡¯s very big, he looks scary, and he has a scar on his face?? ? I wasn¡¯t expecting it, so I just kept listening.? ? ¨C Hey, they¡¯re coming this way. Seo-yu ya, call your Alpha and ask him to change the appointment.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¨C What, what¡­ Why are they heading this way¡­? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¨C They foll, followed me. Hiik.? ? After that ¡®hiik¡¯, a low voice was heard from the other side of the phone saying, ¡°Are you Seo-yu¡¯s uncle?¡± And the phone hung up.? ? I was lying in bed, clutching my cell phone, waiting to hear from either of them. About 20 minutes later, a message came from Choi Sung-hoon.? ? [It was nice to see your uncle. I¡¯ll go back now.]? ? I immediately called my uncle, but he didn¡¯t answer.? ? Then, about an hour later, my phone rang, and it was a trembling voice like a sheep in a storm.? ? ¨C Seo-yu ya, will you please stop talking about me to your lover? What I¡¯ve done to you in the past.? ? ¡°¡­I see what my uncle trying to do.¡±? ? ¨C If you don¡¯t want to end my life, let it slide. Please do it like this. Okay?? ? ¡°Well. He¡¯s the one I¡¯m going to marry, so shouldn¡¯t he know everything that happened in my past?¡±? ? I had no intention of speaking, but I answered crookedly for no reason, and my uncle trembled the entire phone call. He kept apologizing for doing things he shouldn¡¯t have done up until now.? ? I was so relieved. To some extent, I felt relieved because the stone that had been weighing on my mind for more than a decade had been shattered and disappeared completely.? ? So, when Choi Sung-hoon returned home late at night, I jumped into his arms, lifted my feet, and poured kisses on him. Choi Sung-hoon wrapped his arms around my waist and accepted the kiss.? ? The only blemish of the day was the fact that our progress ended with hugs and kisses.? ? * * *? ? Sung-hoon ssi? [Are you going to post it on social media again?]? ? [Yes]? ? [Aren¡¯t you addicted?]? ? [I only post five a day. I didn¡¯t post it anywhere else.]? ? I rolled around after lunch and texted Choi Sung-hoon. It was a critical message about whether or not I could post a picture of roses surrounded by baby¡¯s breaths he bought yesterday on social media.? ? Originally, I planned to delete my social media, but Choi Sung-hoon told me to keep it after removing my ex-boyfriend from the list of followers. It became easier to post because the only people who followed me were Won-jo, Sung-hyun, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s father, and the company employees.? ? Sung-hoon ssi? [Do whatever you want. If you want to upload it, you can do it.]? ? [I¡¯ll upload it] ? ? It was the moment I got permission from Choi Seong-hoon to upload the photo.? ? The screen changed at the same time as the vibration sounded.? ? I jumped out of bed when I saw the name [Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s mother]. ? ? ¡°Yes, mother.¡±? ? ¨C Good, you pick up quickly. Did you eat your lunch?? ? ¡°Yes, did mother eat?¡±? ? ¨C I¡¯m going to eat now. He¡¯s grumbling and setting it up.? ? We had an appointment to eat together a week ago, but Choi Sung-hoon canceled it because his flight was delayed (the first time I knew that the private plane was also delayed). Sung-hyun told me that father was very upset that day, so there was no talk of eating out these days.? ? After a short greeting, my mother talked about the main topic.? ? ¨C Did you recommend that Director Choi seek consultation?? ? ¡°Consultation?¡±? ? ¨C ¡­You didn¡¯t know?? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know what you¡¯re talking about. I¡¯ve never even mentioned the word counseling to Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? When I answered with certainty, mother let out a long sigh of embarrassment.? ? ¨C I¡¯m sorry. Please forget about this. If you don¡¯t know, that¡¯s fine.? ? ¡°Yes, mother. If you say something you shouldn¡¯t tell me, please let me know. I will forget it too.¡±? ? -¡­ Aren¡¯t you giving up too quickly?? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¨C Aren¡¯t you curious?? ? It¡¯s not that I was not curious, but I¡¯m not sure if I have the right to be, and if there was something I needed to know, wouldn¡¯t Choi Sung-hoon tell me? But mother seemed to want to talk.? ? When I hesitated to answer, mother spoke up a little faster.? ? ¨C Actually, I called Director Choi separately yesterday and advised him to seek psychiatric counseling. I¡¯m concerned about what will happen if a cold-blooded person like Director Choi meets a kind and tearful person like you.? ? I don¡¯t cry often¡­ It seems that crying once at that time had a significant impact on my image.? ? Mother kept talking without waiting for my response.? ? ¨C Until now, I pretended not to notice Director Choi¡¯s personality, but now he will become someone¡¯s lifelong partner, and moreover, that partner is a tearful and fragile person who doesn¡¯t fit in with an inhuman and mean person like Sung-hoon. I feel the last responsibility as a parent. I¡¯m not sure how a guy who didn¡¯t do anything good ended up with a good boy like you.? ? Those words reminded me of something I¡¯d heard before. I remembered the words I secretly heard when I went to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house during the Lunar New Year holiday.? ? ¡®It doesn¡¯t suit you¡­ ¡®? ? ¡®¡­ How did you end up with that¡­ ¡®? ? Did the conversation, which I misunderstood after hearing only fragments, actually mean this? Was it just me who misunderstood what his parents¡¯ thoughts about me?? ? I stroked my pounding heart, which had been overwhelmed by the newly realized fact.? ? ¨C So we found a few people who could consult with us, and we called yesterday to discuss it, but Sung-hoon has already accepted it. He only recently began counseling.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¨C I thought you advised him to accept it after hearing what I was worried about last time.? ? ¡°I had no idea. I¡¯ve never thought of that.¡±? ? My voice was dazed like a fool even when I heard it. Mother paused for a long moment before saying, ¡°Ummm,¡± and then she spoke again.? ? ¨C Sung-hoon decided to consult on his own. Even if I told him before, he wouldn¡¯t listen.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? It was a light voice as if it¡¯d had a good experience. My attention was drawn to the vase of roses and then to the marriage certificate next to it.? ? A thin sheet of paper that I left to write on at any time.? ? If Choi Sung-hoon really started counseling because of me¡­? ? It means that his thoughts while filling out the marriage certificate was not done lightly.? ? It was never a lighthearted one.? ? ¨C It¡¯s a bit clich¨¦, but love is great. Right, Yu-ya?? ? When mother asked a playful question, I pressed my throbbing chest down and said, ¡°I guess so,¡± in a very small voice. CH 42 The following chapter contains topics that might be uncomfortable to people, including abortion and miscarriage.? ? On a weekend morning, while I was eating lunch in the arms of Choi Sung-hoon, who was not going to work, the door opened without a knock.? ? ¡°Pregnant Seo-yu ssi, you have a delivery¡­¡±? ? A familiar nurse entered the room, but when she saw our condition, she slowly shut the door. I blinked and escaped from Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms.? ? What would the nurse think as she looked at the giant Alpha hugging his Omega?? ? Just imagining it made me feel better. Well, when I opened the door to the hospital room, I would like to hear from the people in the hospital that the two of us were very loving and that Alpha was holding and feeding his Omega.? ? Choi Sung-hoon went out and received a package from the nurse.? ? ¡°What is this?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was holding was a small box.? ? ¡°Ah, this¡­¡±? ? I was excited to hear his answer, but I shut my mouth due to the discomfort I felt below. My body became cold in an instant.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? Looking at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s confused expression, I bit my lips and went into the bathroom.? ? I guess this is what it¡¯s like to fly through heaven and then fall into hell.? ? Contrary to my heart, which was becoming more and more inflated, the reality was cold.? ? It was not just a drop of blood, but rather complete downstream blood.? ? It was unexpected.? ? No, me, the doctor, and possibly even Choi Sung-hoon all expected it¡­ It was such a big deal that I had to say it was unexpected, despite the fact that I expected it.? ? I had been bleeding before being admitted to the hospital, but this was the first time I had bled after being admitted.? ? The hospital turned upside down. Doctors and nurses hurriedly prepared for the examination, and Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face hardened as if he were about to murder someone.? ? After the first examination, the doctor spoke carefully.? ? ¡°The heart is not beating. The sound of the fetus¡¯s heart¡­¡±? ? The doctor was very concerned and cautious.? ? I needed to do a blood test to be sure, so they set the time right away. It took about 40 minutes to get ready, which was the longest 40 minutes of my life.? ? After the second examination, the doctor called only Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I stayed alone in the spacious hospital room, waiting for them to return.? ? This was not something unexpected, but it was so terrifying that I wanted to slap my cheeks.? ? Because I knew.? ? I definitely knew. I¡¯m sure I¡¯d know more than the doctor who examined my body.? ? Kongkongi were probably¡­? ? I¡¯ve definitely known it all this time, but I don¡¯t know why I¡¯m afraid now. I don¡¯t know why I become a coward when something that I¡¯m aware of was about to become a reality.? ? I bit my lower lip because I was afraid a sob would leak out.? ? I should be fine.? ? The belly that didn¡¯t come out, the doctor¡¯s words not to give it affection, and the nurses¡¯ regretful expressions every time they saw me.? ? Now that I know everything, I don¡¯t have to suffer anymore.? ? I got up to wash my face with cold water and looked back at the sound of someone opening the door.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon came in with a heavy face.? ? ¡°Why are you already¡­ It¡¯s only been a while?¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°The doctor called Choi Seong-hoon separately. Why are you already back when you just left? Do you want to hear the results together?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who was silent as he looked at me, showed me his watch.? ? It had been an hour since he had left.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t think it¡¯s even been five minutes¡­¡± ? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I said something strange. I¡¯m sorry¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face was distorted once more as I muttered blankly at the time that disappeared in an instant. He approached me with a wide stride, his eyes full of pain as if he had been through a very painful and difficult experience.? ? He wrapped his arms around my back and hugged me.? ? I leaned against his warm arms. I was completely relaxed in his large and solid arms.? ? * * *? ? Originally, you have to pass through the hallway one floor down to hear a doctor¡¯s diagnosis. In the hallway, there were pregnant Omega and their families who were about to give birth, laughing and chatting while stroking their bulging stomachs.? ? I don¡¯t know if it was because of that or because of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s privilege, but the doctor came directly to my room.? ? The doctor pronounced the words ¡®Delayed Misscariage¡¯ with great difficulty.? ? There were still Kongkongi on the ultrasound screen.? ? The doctor said it was not uncommon for recessive Omega. It was also stated that it was unusual for the womb and fetus to remain intact like this.? ? It doesn¡¯t matter whether Kongkongi¡¯s situation was rare or not. Nothing will comfort Kongkongi.? ? The doctor cautiously recommended surgery, stating that it would be hard to accomplish with only drugs.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was holding my hand the whole time I was listening.? ? A date was set in a week and the doctor returned. I stared at the ultrasound screen that turned off and showed nothing.? ? Choi Sung-hoon seemed worried about me for not saying anything. He grabbed my shoulders and made me to look him in the eyes.? ? ¡°Seo-yu¡­¡± ? ? ¡°Wait a minute.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to go to the bathroom. Wait a minute.¡±? ? I jumped up. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thick and strong arms fell off.? ? I closed the bathroom door and took a deep breath while looking at the pale Omega in the mirror.? ? I¡¯m fine. It¡¯s fine.? ? I knew about it. It¡¯s nothing.? ? If I take a few deep breaths while looking in the mirror, I will quickly forget the most painful things.? ? Kongkongi would have gone to a good place. It was just a brief transition to being born into a happier family and from a better person.? ? In any case, even if Kongkongi had been born, I would not have been able to properly fulfill the role of a parent. For me right now.? ? I turned on the water in the sink and washed my face.? ? Get a hold of yourself.? ? As I wet my cheeks with cold water and slap them lightly with my palms, Choi Sung-hoon knocked on the door.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m fine. I¡¯ll just wash my face and come out.¡±? ? ¡°Please open the door.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m just washing my face.¡±? ? I was afraid that water would flow from my eyes, so I simply replied, but then I heard a loud noise.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? And when I heard a voice very close by, I turned around and saw Choi Sung-hoon laying down the bathroom door next to him. I thought the door was made of some kind of cotton. Choi Sung-hoon looked at me, his eyes distorted with worry and anxiety.? ? ¡°Did you cry?¡±? ? ¡°I washed my face, wash my face. It isn¡¯t tears, but water.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m washing my face.¡±? ? ¡°Then you should wash your face. I thought you were doing something.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Please continue.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon then crossed his arms and stood there watching me wash my face. I felt like I was going to suffocate while I was washing my face.? ? When I turned off the sink faucet, he immediately wiped the water off with a soft towel and even supported me to the bed even though I wasn¡¯t very sick.? ? Come to think of it, I was diagnosed with pregnancy on this bed, and then I was also diagnosed with miscarriage.? ? Choi Sung-hoon sat in front of me with despair on his face. I spread my finger across Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s forehead, which was stained with anxiety and worry. Choi Sung-hoon then grabbed my hand and brought it to his lips, kissed it, and began talking.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry I didn¡¯t tell you earlier. It wasn¡¯t in good shape at first, but I was going to talk about it after I watched the progress a little longer.¡±? ? ¡°I know. Don¡¯t apologize, Choi Sung-hoon. I discovered it as well.¡±? ? Aside from the recessive Omega case, the fetus¡¯s heartbeat was inherently faint, so many tests are required. That¡¯s why it only took another week.? ? And I have to apologize. I¡¯m the one who gave Kongkongi a hard time.? ? ¡°It¡¯s too small, there¡¯s no movement, and it keeps burying its face. The doctor said that it would constantly wiggle during the ultrasound, but Kongkong was so docile. So I knew.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Kongkongi must have had a hard time. I gave it a hard time. I¡¯m also sorry to Choi Sung-hoon ssi. You had to go through this because of me.¡±? ? ¡°I couldn¡¯t tell you because I was afraid this would happen.¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon raised my face as my gaze fell to the floor. And made me look at him. Over the large scar drawn with diagonal lines, his gaze was directed at me with very human emotion.? ? ¡°I¡¯m afraid you¡¯re blaming yourself.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? ¡°So I couldn¡¯t say it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes were shaking. His hands¡­ shook slightly as well.? ? Surprisingly, he acted as if he was afraid.? ? I was at a loss. I¡¯m really fine.? ? I grabbed his arm and drew him to sit beside me. Choi Sung-hoon, who pulled off the bathroom door, followed me even if I put a little force. I hugged his clumsy wide back as he sat next to me.? ? ¡°Choi Seong-hoon ssi, let¡¯s not blame each other on any of us. I feel sorry for Kongkongi, but it¡¯s not anyone¡¯s fault. I¡¯m perfectly fine. More than I thought¡­ Rather¡­¡±? ? I hesitated because I couldn¡¯t find the words to express my feelings. As I shortened my words, Choi Sung-hoon looked at my expression with eyes full of anxiety to see if there was another misunderstanding.? ? I¡¯m not sure if he realizes he¡¯s shaking more than I am right now.? ? I sighed inwardly and turned my gaze to see the tip of a small box buried in the blanket.? ? ¡°That¡­¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon reached out and took the box after noticing my gaze was fixed on it.? ? ¡°The timing is really weird. I was wondering when it would come, but today¡­¡±? ? I muttered as I ripped the tape off. Because my nails were too short to tear the tape properly, Choi Sung-hoon took the box. He ripped the box and tore it apart with his hand. When he saw the contents, he exhaled heavily.? ? ¡°This¡­ ¡±? ? Sigh¡­ I wonder why does it happen to come today when our hearts are flustered.? ? I ordered this when Choi Sung-hoon went on a business trip a while ago. I really did pick one and only one.? ? It was a shoe with a white polka dot pattern on a navy blue background and a soft material teddy bear face doll on the top of the straps.? ? ¡°Is it like a toy, right? It¡¯s really small.¡±? ? It was half the size of my palm. It was so small and cute.? ? It would be so cute to see a child walking around in these. How pretty would it be¡­ How¡­ lovely it must have been.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon was speechless. I grabbed his clenched fist. When I tried to open it with my fingers, he relaxed and unfolded it. I put Kongkonggi shoes on his big hands.? ? ¡°I just ordered one of these. I think a pair of shoes would be fine. I don¡¯t know why it came today.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked like he was revealing his complex thoughts. A slightly frowned forehead, eyes that shake with various thoughts, and a firm mouth.? ? I patted the tiny baby shoes on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s palm. I could feel his gaze following my hand.? ? The baby¡¯s shoes fell on the bed.? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon clapped his lips several times while holding my hand. I didn¡¯t ask as to what hesitating words he was holding.? ? I could see his big shoulders shaking a little.? ? As I put my hand on his shoulder, Choi Sung-hoon embraced me.? ? ¡°I¡¯d rather you cry.¡±? ? No¡­ I¡¯m not sad, I¡¯m fine.? ? ¡°Now I realize that it was about to die a while ago. How should¡­ how should I comfort you?¡±? ? His voice was too low and he was trembling with fear.? ? ¡°I¡¯m really fine¡­ It¡¯s nothing.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t say you¡¯re fine.¡±? ? The words that came out of his teeth sounded like an animal growl.? ? ¡°Let me comfort you.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°To comfort you¡­¡±? ? Choi Seong-hoon, the one who said it, seemed to be the one in need of comfort.? ? He was feeling anxious. He was afraid.? ? I raised my arm and stroked his trembling back. tapped him slowly, as Choi Sung-hoon had done for me, but Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s trembling did not stop for long.? ? It hadn¡¯t been long since I¡¯d met him, but it was his first time expressing this emotion.? ? It was the first time I¡¯d seen him, who was usually cold and restrained, so openly express his emotions.? ? I¡¯m really fine.? ? It was really really fine¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s reaction was so serious that I wonder if I¡¯m actually fine¡­ That¡¯s what I thought.? ? Perhaps it was fine to not be fine.? ? I should have been fine until now¡­ Choi Sung-hoon wants to comfort me while trembling like this, so I don¡¯t have to be fine just for today.? ? I don¡¯t want to say it was fine. Because it¡¯s not really fine.? ? When I thought of that, the tears I had suppressed leaked out.? ? ¡°¡­ Oh¡­ Ugh¡­ ¡± ? ? It flowed down uncontrollably and quickly soaked Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s chest.? ? I grabbed his clothes and burst into tears. Choi Sung-hoon would tell me the same thing he had told me the last time I cried like this.? ? It¡¯s okay to cry. Sadness was never limited to a specific situation.? ? Choi Sung-hoon tightly hugged my sobbing shoulders.? ? In fact, as long as I have this warm and firm embrace, I could cry anytime.? ? If I decided to cry, I could cry before I even blink.? ? Because I always wanted to cry.? ? As long as I had these wide arms that allowed me to cry with peace of mind. CH 43 I received a lot more consolation than I expected.? ? Won-jo bought a drink gift and then left without drinking any of them. It was the first time I¡¯d seen him looking so sorry. Sung-hyun brought seaweed soup from don¡¯t know where the young man picked it up. There were five days until surgery.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s mother comforted me by telling her story, but it wasn¡¯t helplessness like Won-jo or Sung- hyun¡¯s, but rather a way of comforting me to let it go.? ? The most embarrassing thing for me was when I got a phone call from Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s father.? ? ¨C Kong, Kongkongi, kkeuk, huheu, must have gone, heung-.? ? ¡®Kongkongi must have gone to a good place and there is no need to worry,¡¯ and he continued to comfort me, but I may have misunderstood because he stuttered. He was a very emotional person.? ? It should have been me who was sad, but I wasn¡¯t.? ? After crying endlessly in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms, it felt like the foggy front had become clearer.? ? To have someone who hugs you tightly when you cry¡­ It was really great.? ? Despite my refreshed mind, I continued to have trouble sleeping until the day of surgery, and Choi Sung-hoon seemed to think this was because of fear. He made an effort not to leave me alone in the hospital room, even when I called the Won-jo he despised.? ? In fact, I spent more time thinking about the possibility of starting a new life in the arms of Choi Sung-hoon and his warm family than I did thinking about the surgery.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family was so welcoming and lively that I wanted to stay with them for a long time. We made plans to eat together today after I was discharged from the hospital.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t worry. I¡¯ll be by your side.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon misunderstood and held my hand while whispering. I felt as if I was about to be brainwashed. Whatever happens, Choi Sung-hoon will be by my side, so everything will be fine.? ? The surgery preparations went well, but only one unusual thing. It was unexpectedly to take place in the delivery room.? ? I entered the delivery room, listening to a newborn baby¡¯s cry and laughter full of joy and happiness over the wall, where I had a miscarriage surgery.? ? When I opened my eyes again, everything was over.? ? I felt like I woke up from a long sleep.? ? * * * ? ? It was not an operation that required hospitalization, so I went through the discharge procedures as soon as it was completed. I felt their gaze on us as I sat in the lobby waiting for Choi Sung-hoon. A mother and her husband, who were holding a baby, and a nurse who was holding a chart were watching Choi Sung-hoon with me.? ? We may have become famous at this center. To begin with, Choi Sung-hoon was an extremely dominant Alpha, and he¡¯s very big, and people followed him wherever he went around the hospital. I spent a few weeks in a very expensive special room¡­? ? I smiled mischievously because I was proud of myself for some reason. My smile was quickly erased by the newborn baby¡¯s cry.? ? Perhaps the facts of the miscarriage were also widely spread. He made such a fuss and had a miscarriage. Or even if he makes such a fuss, he still has a miscarriage.? ? The Omega holding a newborn baby over there would think so. The unfamiliar nurse, as well as an Alpha man who seems to be conversing with his Omega, may have similar thoughts. There¡¯s a recessive Omega who had a miscarriage today¡­? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, why are you making such a face?¡±? ? Just then, Choi Sung-hoon came over after completing the procedure. Rather, I wanted to ask as to why he was making that expression. It was a ferocious and angry expression.? ? ¡°What happened? Has any other trash approached you in the meantime?¡±? ? ¡°Nothing happened. Choi Sung-hoon ssi please relax your expression.¡±? ? But Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes were gradually sinking black.? ? ¡°Come on, tell me. Who is it. No, was there a phone call. That trash relative?¡±? ? ¡°Why would my uncle be here? Let¡¯s hurry up and get going. We are late.¡±? ? ¡°We¡¯re not late, so for some reason¡­¡±? ? There was no sensitive boss other than him. He was so cute that he reacted sensitively, so he lifted his heel and kissed his lips. He paused for a moment, then responded softly.? ? I was very satisfied with the act of affection in the lobby where everyone could see, and Choi Sung-hoon, who became sensitive to one of my expressions, was so cute that I burst out laughing.? ? I parted my lips and hung my hands on his forearm.? ? ¡°The appointment is at five o¡¯clock, but it is now half-past five. Family time is up to 30 minutes. Go quickly.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ I parked the car in front. Move slowly.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, whose expression was relaxed, walked in sync with my stride. The center was built with great care.? ? I kept smiling in the car because I remembered Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s sensitive reaction.? ? My reaction was also overly sensitive, but Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s appears to have been more so. Really cute¡­? ? Perhaps the mother holding her newborn baby was only thinking about how cute the baby was in her arms. The nurse in charge of the chart must have mentioned that one less task had been completed. Alpha, who was talking to his Omega, could have been on the phone discussing today¡¯s meal menu.? ? Choi Sung-hoon and I seem to be Omega and Alpha that go really well together.? ? * * *? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family and I came to eat a meal that we couldn¡¯t have before, but everyone had already arrived and taken their seats. Our father¡¯s first greeting to us, who was 45 minutes late, was as like this.? ? ¡°Look at the time now, Seo-yu gun. I thought Director Choi was being honest on time, but I am very disappointed.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°No matter how big the surgery, we have to keep the basic promises between people.¡±? ? While talking, father poured cassia seed tea into my cup and requested three more fluffy cushions from an employee.? ? Choi Sung-hoon who was constantly scolded for being late wrapped his arms around my shoulders and said to me.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, if you don¡¯t like the food, why don¡¯t we just go home? I¡¯ll tell them to set it up now.¡±? ? It appears that a good opportunity has arisen. His father¡¯s stare became more ferocious.? ? ¡°Director Choi, no matter how much you say you¡¯re a spouse, you have to say it clearly¡­¡±? ? ¡°Dad, stop it. Seo-yu Hyung still has a lot of tears, so don¡¯t scare him.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? What? What do I have a lot? There¡¯s a lot of tears?? ? ¡°Okay, stop it. What if the child cries like that again? Something bad happened today.¡±? ? ¡°No, you can scold me more. I don¡¯t cry that much.¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu Hyung, you¡¯re already teary-eyed. Your eyes are moist.¡±? ? ¡°No, shi-¡­ What are you talking about, Sung-hyun-ah? Hyung has dry eye syndrome.¡±? ? ¡°Hmm, yes. I can¡¯t make you cry on a day like this, so I¡¯ll stop here. Come on, sit down. The food will be out soon.¡±? ? So far as I know, the most tearful person advised me not to cry and to sit down.? ? I was dumbfounded, so I looked up at the only person on my side here with expressions full of injustice. Choi Sung-hoon stroked my face with worried eyes.? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t know you had dry eyes. You should¡¯ve told me. Please let me know in advance what else you have.¡±? ? Ha¡­ It wasn¡¯t helpful, but it was so cute.? ? The feast was served (the main menu was salmon), and I ate a lot. I ate a lot until my stomach was about to burst, but the problem was that the ¡°a lot¡± was only 1/3 of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family¡¯s stomach.? ? ¡°Yu-ya, why do you eat so little? Should I have ordered you seaweed soup?¡±? ? ¡°I ate a lot, mother. I felt like my stomach is going to explode.¡±? ? ¡°What are you talking about after eating as much as a bird? It was more than this the last time you came home.¡±? ? ¡°Please understand, Mom and Dad. It¡¯s because Seo-yu Hyung doesn¡¯t have an appetite. He¡¯s soft-hearted. And he has a lot of tears.¡±? ? When Choi Sung-hyun said that, mother and father said, ¡®Oh¡­ ¡® became the expression. It was the expression on their face that they were convinced that I don¡¯t have apetite.? ? ¡°Yeah, Seo-yu gun has a lot of tears and is soft-hearted.¡±? ? ¡°How many times have I cried? I¡¯m sorry for our lack of consideration, sweetheart.¡±? ? I ate three bowls of damn rice, but I became a person with no appetite, and my whole family died and I cried only three times so far, but I became a crybaby in the world. It¡¯s all because of Choi Sung-hyun.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t cry that much, haha. It¡¯s because something went into my eyes.¡±? ? ¡°Really? Director Choi, Seo-yu, haven¡¯t been crying lately, has he been strong?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Just because he doesn¡¯t cry doesn¡¯t mean he is strong. Let him cry as much as he wants.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s words were nice, but they didn¡¯t help either.? ? I¡¯d eaten so much by the time the dessert arrived after the main course that I¡¯d turned into a faint-hearted animal, barely breathing. I grabbed my stomach and looked up at Choi Sung-hoon. Choi Sunghoon, who was listening to the reason for his mother and father¡¯s most recent fight, felt my gaze and looked down.? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to¡­ ¡±? ? He expressed ¡®restroom¡¯ with the shape of his mouth. Choi Sung-hoon nodded with a smile on his lips.? ? I got up and told his parents I was going out for a while. The employee who was standing outside the door approached me and asked as to what I was doing. I mentioned that I needed to use the restroom, and he said it was at the end of the hallway. I was so full that it was difficult to walk.? ? I managed to get to the restroom and checked the mirror first. It was to make sure my eyes were really moist, but I was surprised that my face in the mirror was so unfamiliar.? ? I was smiling.? ? I was smiling¡­ I didn¡¯t know either.? ? I had a strange feeling.? ? Even after I finished my business and washed my hands, I couldn¡¯t take my gaze away from the mirror. In the mirror, a young man with a haggard appearance was always standing with a tired and bored expression¡­ I¡¯m smiling like this now¡­ It was really nice to see. The man in the mirror had a really nice face.? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m sorry.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon entered the restroom because he was concerned that I hadn¡¯t returned in a long time.? ? ¡°What happened? Are you okay? You don¡¯t feel well?? ? ¡°Why are there so many questions? I¡¯m fine. Just¡­ standing here for a moment.¡±? ? I pulled Choi Sung-hoon to the side. The extremely dominant Alpha with a strong impression of wearing a neat scarf that I chose, with every hair pulled back to reveal dark eyebrows and hard forehead. It must be a huge blessing to have this person by my side.? ? Feeling fuzzy, I put my face on his shoulder. Choi Sung-hoon then wrapped his arm around my back.? ? ¡°If you are tired, let¡¯s stop here. Let¡¯s not overdo it today and go to bed early.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a pity to go to sleep already. It¡¯s not even dinner yet.¡±? ? ¡°If you go home and doze off by the fireplace, I will lay you down on the bed.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have a fireplace in my house¡­¡± ? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m kidding. I have to go to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house.¡±? ? While in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s slightly strengthened arm, a smile appeared on my face. I rubbed my cheeks against his broad chest and lifted my head. I should go in because his parents will be waiting.? ? ¡°Ah.¡±? ? I was about to go out holding Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand, but I stopped. I was about to go out holding Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand, but I stopped. The stinging in my eyes felt like knitted fluff had gotten into them.? ? ¡°That, Choi Sung-hoon ssi, wait a minute.¡±? ? ¡°What happened?¡±? ? ¡°There¡¯s something in my eyes¡­¡± ? ? ¡°¡­ !¡±? ? My right eye was stinging so badly that tears began to flow as soon as I blinked a few times. Choi Sung-hoon looked at me in tears and had an expression as if the world had collapsed around him. I was taken aback by that expression and quickly waved my hand.? ? ¡°It¡¯s not like that. The lint got in my eye. I¡¯m not crying, so don¡¯t get me wrong.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ I¡­if there¡¯s something I haven¡¯t aware of.¡±? ? ¡°Did, didn¡¯t I tell you it isn¡¯t like that? The lint¡­ Choi Sung-hoon ssi? Look at my eyes. There was a lint in my eyes here, so take a look.¡±? ? ¡°What made you cry?¡±? ? ¡°Excuse me, it¡¯s the lint of your scarf!¡±? ? Even in the midst of all of this, tears streamed down my cheeks. Choi Sung-hoon had a planet-like expression as if he was about to explode. The atmosphere quickly cooled, and it was about to sink into the deep sea as he trying to find what caused me to cry.? ? I grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s wrist with my hand that was rubbing my eyes. I couldn¡¯t fully catch it because it was thick and big.? ? ¡°I am not crying. Let¡¯s calm down.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Seo-yu Hyung¡­ ¡±? ? But I heard an unexpected voice.? ? I got goosebumps and I tilted my head to the side of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s big body, and Choi Sung-hyun was looking at me with big eyes at the entrance to the restroom.? ? ¡°Seo-yu Hyung is crying again¡­¡± ? ? ¡°Hey, you shut up!¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu Hyung, is crying! Mom, dad. Seo-yu Hyung is crying~~!¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu Hyung is crying~~~~!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hyun yelled this and dashed down the hallway. Everyone in the building seemed to be able to hear it, not just Mom and Dad.? ? Choi Sung-hoon eventually discovered the lint and blew it out of my eye. When I returned to my seat, his father was wiping my eyes with a handkerchief and his mother was comforting me. ¡®Yeah¡­ I know your heart,¡¯ they said when they come up to me. They smiled and nodded kindly.? ? That¡¯s how my image has settled perfectly into a teary and soft Omega¡­ CH 44 When I arrived at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house, I changed into comfortable clothes and went out to the living room. I found the owner of the house sitting on a chair in front of the fireplace, cautiously looking at the tablet PC. He was so handsome with his hair down and casual attire that I was taken aback and my heart was pounding hard.? ? Even though the house was warm as spring, I sat in front of the fireplace. It was reminiscent of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s home in Bucheon.? ? On the table in front of the fireplace lay the marriage certificate. When did he bring it¡­ A pen was neatly placed next to it.? ? When I pretended not to notice, Choi Sung-hoon said,? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, aren¡¯t you tired? It¡¯s going to hurt a lot, so how about sleeping?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not even 9 o¡¯clock yet. I don¡¯t want to sleep yet because I don¡¯t want to waste my time.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Then let¡¯s read a book together.¡±? ? Heh, reading a book. He read a book with such a scar on his cheek.? ? Choi Sung-hoon dragged his chair over to me and sat. And I used a tablet or something to open the book file. When I saw the title, I laughed to myself.? ? It was a book that was recommended to me when I first started seeing a psychiatric counselor. This was a book that would aid in the healing of your wounds. I hadn¡¯t expected to see it after ten years.? ? ¡°I read it and it was very good. You should read it as well, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°I stopped reading books and smoking when I graduated from high school, but Choi Sung-hoon recommended it, so I¡¯ll read it.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡± ? ? A worry-filled wrinkle appeared again between Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s brows, and I assumed he didn¡¯t like something I said. Something must have bothered him because he was sensitive about me.? ? We put our heads together and began reading.? ? Warm, drowsy, and peaceful¡­ I felt like I was going to get drunk in the atmosphere.? ? I raised my head after a long period of reading because I had a stiff neck.? ? ¡°Should I give you a paper book if you can¡¯t concentrate?¡±? ? ¡°Whoa¡­ Look. I read three lines. You¡¯ll get a headache if you read for too long, so let¡¯s take a break.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled and looked at me with loving eyes. Another thing he adored about me¡­? ? In fact, it was also true that I couldn¡¯t concentrate. I have one thing to ask him.? ? I¡¯ve wanted to ask since I heard the story, but something big happened and I couldn¡¯t.? ? I put down what I was holding and looked at Choi Sung-hoon. Just in time, I made eye contact with Choi Sung-hoon, who was staring at me. Choi Sung-hoon was always paying attention to me, so when I looked at him, our gazes quickly met.? ? ¡°I heard it from mother¡­ When did you start counseling?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon raised one eyebrow and then relaxed his mouth. He seemed surprised to hear the unexpected words, but soon he spoke for me, who was waiting for a response.? ? ¡°It hasn¡¯t been long. Since you were admitted to the hospital and after learning that the fetus¡¯s life was in danger.¡±? ? ¡°Did you start getting counseling so that you don¡¯t feel sad after losing Kongkongi?¡±? ? ¡°No, to be sad.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s gaze was very warm as he looked at me.? ? I made sure he wouldn¡¯t be offended if I asked him something very private, and, as expected, he was as gentle as warm milk.? ? ¡°When I first heard about it, I thought you¡¯d be sad if the fetus ended up gone, but I wouldn¡¯t be.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I was afraid I wouldn¡¯t be able to comfort you. So I received counseling to be sad and to sympathize with your sadness. So that I¡¯ll be able to comfort you.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Of course, I¡¯m learning a lot of other things as well. As Seo-yu ssi knows, I¡¯m not good with emotions, so I may inadvertently hurt and made you misunderstand in the future. I don¡¯t want it to happen again, so I try to do my best.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Someday¡­ so that you can trust me.¡±? ? After saying that Choi Sung-hoon turned his gaze to the paper on the table.? ? A marriage certificate with one blank side.? ? As if that side would be filled if he had my trust.? ? ¡°I have to talk to her separately. So that Seo-yu ssi doesn¡¯t have to worry about something like that.¡±? ? ¡°Mother? Don¡¯t¡­ Then it would be obvious I said it. And mother said it by mistake as well. She mistook me for the person who persuaded Choi Sung-hoon ssi to get counseling. I can¡¯t be that nosy.¡±? ? ¡°Of course, if Seo-yu ssi advised me to go, I would have gotten it immediately. It can¡¯t be classified as nosy.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Do you think counseling is effective?¡±? ? ¡°Well. What do you think, Seo-yu ssi?¡±? ? I stood up and placed the tablet on the table. And when I was about to sat in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms, he opened his arms and hugged me. It was a good thing because he was a big guy who could easily embrace the 178cm Omega.? ? I hugged him, he hugged me and looked into my eyes. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes were overflowing with warmth.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know. If it¡¯s effective¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Oh¡­ I¡¯ll try my best.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not like that, Choi Sung-hoon was already a warm person before the consultation. Because you¡¯ve always been warm to me¡­ I don¡¯t know.¡±? ? Whether he liked or disliked my answer, Choi Sung-hoon made a mysterious expression.? ? We approached each other while still staring at each other and kissing, regardless of who went first.? ? That night, I cried again while sleeping on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arm pillow. Choi Sung-hoon, who I thought was sleeping, immediately woke up and turned on the stand light, and hugged me.? ? As I felt the pat on my back, I thought of many things.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was making an effort. Someone who was as clumsy as that.? ? For my own sake.? ? So far, I¡¯ve never read a book recommended by my counselor. I¡¯ve never been serious about counseling, and if I was given medicine, I just ate it.? ? He didn¡¯t even ask me to go to counseling because he was skeptical of it. As if he knows I¡¯ve already counseled myself to the point of exhaustion.? ? But now I thought about getting counseling.? ? It was a night filled with many thoughts.? ? * * *? ? After spending a few days luxuriously at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house, I went to the center for a post-surgery check-up.? ? Choi Sung-hoon tried to make time somehow, but he couldn¡¯t accompany me to the hospital because he was too busy. At the same time, a light spring rain was falling, so he was very sorry. Instead, I went to the hospital while being guarded by the gangster-like brother.? ? The test results were very good, and the doctor said there was no need to come again. However, the mustached gangster-like brother was very solemn-.? ? ¡°Can I tell Director Choi that Professor Chae said he doesn¡¯t need to come again?¡±? ? When asked, the doctor reversed his words.? ? ¡°After all, it¡¯s not enough to get tested once¡­ I could be doing it carelessly¡­ Let¡¯s come one more time. Yes¡­ Let¡¯s do that.¡±? ? I wondered for a moment that I wouldn¡¯t have to attend the examination after today.? ? The doctor said that my nutritional status was not good, so I went up to the special room where I had been staying for three weeks and was given an IV.? ? I slept while drooling.? ? It was 5 p.m. when I drove back to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s house in the car driven by the gangster-like brother. Choi Sung-hoon usually leaves work at 3 p.m., but something appears to have happened at the company today.? ? ¨C I¡¯m sorry. Something happened at the factory in Yangju. I won¡¯t be home late.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t worry about me. If you¡¯re really sorry, please take selfies from time to time and send them to me.¡±? ? ¨C A¡­selfie.? ? ¡°Yes! I¡®ll be waiting for you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon sent a selfie five minutes after hanging up the phone. As I looked at the tightly closed mouth and blunt eyes, I burst out laughing.? ? While I was waiting, I ate a meal prepared by the chef, read some books, and jumped into bed. The marriage certificate, which waiting to be filled on one side, was still on the bed. I was amazed again as I looked over the personal information of Choi Sung-hoon that I had read and memorized.? ? How could such a person like me¡­ It seems that the world must also live to know.? ? As I smiled, I realized that one of my hands was on my lower abdomen. It became a habit in two weeks.? ? Kongkongi stayed like a dream for two weeks and then disappeared.? ? Now it was time for me to make up my mind.? ? Then my phone vibrated. I thought it was Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s selfie, but it was actually a phone call. It was from Ho-in.? ? ¡°Hello.¡±? ? ¨C Oh, it¡¯s me, Seo-yu ssi. This is Park Ho-in.? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s been a while.¡±? ? ¨C Yeah, I just¡­ I heard from your co-workers¡­ Really¡­ I¡¯m sorry¡­? ? It was clear that he had only just heard it. He was shocked and didn¡¯t know what to do. The same as Won-jo and Sung-hyun.? ? He was a person who was friendly and warm. I was surprised at times by his change, but he was a warm person in the end. Always consistently.? ? ¡°Kongkonggi must have gone to a good place. Thank you, Ho-in ssi.¡±? ? -¡­Did your Alpha give you a lot of comforts?? ? ¡°Yes, a lot. He comforted me more than my sorrow. I wouldn¡¯t have endured it without him.¡±? ? I was so comforted that I wondered if I should act even sadder. I was so comforted that my eyes transformed into crucian carp.? ? ¨C Seo-yu¡¯s ssi voice is so warm.? ? Ho-in¡¯s voice had a little cold tone to it.? ? -¡­ He¡¯s an extremely dominant Alpha, it¡¯s like he¡¯s really in love.? ? ¡°That¡¯s right, Ho-in ssi. He also loves me.¡±? ? The sound of breathing in my ensuing words came over the phone. I said it while looking at the three words ¡®Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s¡¯ in the marriage certificate.? ? ¡°An extremely dominant Alpha and a recessive Omega, maybe an Omega and an Omega. I suppose it doesn¡¯t matter in the face of love. As Ho-in said before. I found out too late.¡±? ? -¡­You have changed, Seo-yu ssi. You¡¯ve changed a lot.? ? ¡°I¡¯ve changed?¡±? ? ¨C Yes, you¡¯ve changed. For the better¡­ I guess that person changed Seo-yu ssi.? ? Ho-in¡¯s voice cracked.? ? I could see it now with my eyes open. The reason for Park Ho-in¡¯s strange behavior.? ? This was the reason why such a gentle and kind person spoke harshly to me. I think I¡¯ve figured it out.? ? At the same time, I realized that I should pretend I didn¡¯t know what I had just noticed for the rest of my life.? ? ¨C I¡¯m glad you¡¯re happy. Are you planning to return to work now?? ? ¡°No, I left the company altogether.¡±? ? ¨C So what are you going to do now?? ? That was the problem that kept me locked up.? ? What to do now and what to do next.? ? ¡­ I kept thinking.? ? ¨C Even if it is impossible to return to work, please drop by at least once¡­ I really want to apologize. In the meantime, about my words.? ? ¡°Of course. I¡¯ll stop by later, so please make some delicious citron tea. At that time, I will go with Choi Sung-hoon.¡±? ? -¡­Yes, Seo-yu ssi.? ? He was the one who sent me a bad message while I was in the hospital, but now that I found out the reason, I could understand him.? ? I wanted to tell Choi Sung-hoon that I could now understand what I would not have understood for the rest of my life if I hadn¡¯t changed, but I¡¯ll have to put up with it.? ? After I hung up the phone, I closed my eyes and placed my hand on my chest to feel my heartbeat.? ? I¡¯ve made my decision.? ? ¡®You have changed, Seo-yu ssi. You¡¯ve changed a lot.¡¯? ? Because I¡¯ve changed.? ? I called Choi Sung-hoon. He picked it up as soon as it rang twice.? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi.? ? ¡°Where are you now?¡±? ? ¨C I¡¯m still in Yangju. I¡¯ll be arriving after midnight because I¡¯m traveling by car.? ? ¡°What time is it at midnight? Where are you coming from? What kind of car did you drive?¡±? ? -¡­ If you intend to pick me up, please wait at home because it is raining and cold.? ? ¡°Ah.¡±? ? I hadn¡¯t considered picking him up, but I was surprised because Choi Sung-hoon was making such significant progress. It was so adorable that I thought I was going to die. I wanted to record every conversation because it was so lovely.? ? My heart was racing. I was overwhelmed as the tip of my nose turned sour with such vigor. I wasn¡¯t a crybaby.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi, do you know this?¡±? ? ¨C This?? ? ¡°I think I like Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? -¡­Did you realize it now?? ? He pretends to respond calmly, but I know he paused for a moment. Choi Sung-hoon responded that he had known for a long time and that I still had a long way to go before I could follow him.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was so stupid that he has no idea how much I love him. I love him enough to make a decision.? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to say goodbye now, Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? What?? ? ¡°Thank you so much for everything you¡¯ve done so far. When you¡¯re at your happiest, it¡¯s easy to get into an accident, so drive carefully. Okay?? ? ¨C What do you mean? What do you mean goodbye?? ? I told him I loved him and then hung up because he was busy. I received a call right away, but I was in a rush and did not answer.? ? I was ready to go out right away.? ? After putting on clothes, I packed Kongkongi¡¯s shoes and moved the marriage certificate onto the table. So that Choi Sung-hoon could see it as soon as he comes back.? ? I ran through the residential area in Hannam-dong with an umbrella. By the time I arrived by the road, a black car ran at a tremendous speed from afar and almost got into an accident. It dashed to a nearby building¡¯s parking lot and escaped the crisis.? ? Choi Sung-hoon must drive safely.? ? I was going to stop by my house, but I got on the bus as soon as I got off. The area was surrounded by familiar gangster-like brothers. If they found me, they would immediately seize me and bring me back home to Hannam-dong.? ? I hopped back on the bus and left the neighborhood. I¡¯d been alive far too long, so I had a lot of memories of my mother, father, and older brother in many places.? ? A two-story chartered house where I couldn¡¯t throw away a toothbrush or a spoon, a sushi restaurant where my father insisted on eating out occasionally, a PC room where I was with my older brother during his rebellious days, and the market entrance where my mother asked me to pick her up saying she had a lot of luggage.? ? I was sad just passing by, and I was sad just being there, so I never went to a sushi restaurant, PC room, or market. I haven¡¯t been anywhere in the neighborhood in ten years. It was time to say goodbye to places I tried to erase from my mind but couldn¡¯t.? ? The bus goes around the neighborhood and arrived at its destination after a while.? ? It was a dark and audacious night, but there were a lot of people waiting at the train station for the last train. I was the only one who got off.? ? The rain was falling heavily. I considered opening an umbrella, but it didn¡¯t come very often, so I just walked in the rain.? ? As I walked slowly there, I looked around the scenery with regret.? ? My heart has changed since last year, but the scenery I could see has not.? ? The river was flowing under the bridge.? ? The surface of the black water, swaying in the rain, resembled the night sky.? ? I gripped the railing firmly.? ? Many thoughts raced through my mind, but that was all I did. CH 45 It must be cold.? ? It would be cold.? ? I knew it all too well because I¡¯ve been through it.? ? After looking at the black river for a long time, I took a step back.? ? I slowly took off my shoes and the rain-soaked ground touched my feet.? ? I also put very small baby shoes next to mine.? ? Raindrops kept falling on my face.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I looked down at the two pairs of shoes and the black river that ran beneath them.? ? That river was cold and dark. To think that the dead would be at peace was only a way for me to justify my pain. Because that river would remain dark indefinitely.? ? ¡°Dad, Mom, Seo-yeon hyung.¡±? ? My voice was so awkward when I called them. It was unfamiliar because it had been so long since I spoke out the words father, mother, and brother¡¯s name.? ? Now just¡­ I tried to imagine that they would be at ease. I would imagine that they wished for my future to be pleasant and happy.? ? It took me too long to make this decision.? ? I took one step forward. I straightened my back and held two pairs of shoes in my hands.? ? ¡­Goodbye.? ? First, I dropped my shoes into the cold river. There was no sound because of the rain.? ? Then, when it was the turn of the baby shoes that were as small as the palm of my hand, I couldn¡¯t stop the tears from flowing.? ? All I could do was say goodbye to Kongkongi, who came to me unprepared and left after suffering.? ? Goodbye.? ? Small shoes also fell silently and disappeared into the black river.? ? I put my hand on the railing and looked down for a long time.? ? Wavy black water¡­ The black river that always came suddenly and bothered me.? ? It was ridiculously far from here.? ? And¡­sometimes it was as close as it was right in front of me.? ? It was then.? ? Squeak!? ? I heard the sound of a car slipping. It was the sound of an engine that was full of urgency.? ? I turned to the side where the sound came from to see if there had been an accident in the rain. A black car was sliding and speeding.? ? My heart sank coldly the moment I realized it was similar to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s car. ? ? My eyes followed the car with anxiety. The car slid and collided with a guard rail 200 to 300 meters ahead. It was loud enough to sound like an explosion to my ears.? ? I hurriedly ran barefoot.? ? The car was the same model as Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s.? ? The person in Yangju would not be passing through here at this time, but the person in that car must be someone¡¯s family.? ? As I ran in the rain, my face became increasingly distorted.? ? It was a familiar license plate.? ? No¡­ Please no.? ? My heart was on the verge of stopping.? ? When I approached, the front part was completely distorted, and smoke rose from the damaged part.? ? ¡°Please¡­¡±? ? It was darkly tinted and the inside was invisible. While knocking on the driver¡¯s window by calling Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s name, I pulled the handle just in case, and the door opened. Choi Sung-hoon was groaning between the exploding airbag and the seat.? ? ¡°Hey, get a hold of yourself. Wake up!¡±? ? I patted him on the shoulder. I wanted to get him out of the car, but I couldn¡¯t move him carelessly because I was afraid he was injured somewhere.? ? Choi Sung-hoon couldn¡¯t come to his senses.? ? I didn¡¯t bring my phone, so I reached into Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s pocket and took out his cell phone. I urgently called for help, and Choi Sung-hoon awoke with a groan. Choi Sung-hoon tightened his grip on my wrist as soon as I met his black eyes met.? ? ¡°Seo-yu.¡±? ? ¡°Choi, Choi Sung-hoon ssi. Are you all right? Are you awake?¡±? ? ¡°¡­You.¡±? ? ¡°Are you crazy¡­ How can you drive so fast on a rainy day? You almost died. I thought you were going to die!¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon escaped between the airbag and the seat on his own, and he kept holding my wrist. He hugged me as soon as he got out of the car.? ? Choi Sung-hoon must have been surprised a lot. But he wouldn¡¯t have been as surprised as I was.? ? The guardrail had crumpled completely. Without the guardrail, the car could have fallen right over into a cold black river.? ? I rested my head on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shoulder and hugged him tightly.? ? Even I couldn¡¯t tell if the stream of water running down my cheeks was rain or tears.? ? I took a deep breath to calm myself down.? ? When I got out of his arms, Choi Sung-hoon looked at me with anxious eyes. He didn¡¯t let go of my wrist. I couldn¡¯t tell him to let go because he was holding me like a lost child.? ? ¡°You have to look around to see if there¡¯s anything strange or hurtful. You crashed so hard¡­¡±? ? ¡°I think I hurt my ankle.¡±? ? ¡°Stay still. An ambulance will be here soon.¡±? ? I looked around his body. There was no external bleeding. I felt Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s gaze was chasing mine. When our gazes locked, I noticed that the emotions swirling in his eyes were not those of anxiety, but of anger.? ? Why¡­ Why were you angry?? ? I should be the one who was angry right now.? ? ¡°What¡¯s the reason?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who was staring at me silently, spit out anger in the form of a series of questions.? ? ¡°Why?¡±? ? ¡°What was lacking? Speak so I can fix it.¡±? ? ¡°What are you talking about? Explain it so that I can understand!¡±? ? ¡°¡­You said you were going to say goodbye.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s why I came here to say my final goodbye. What¡¯s wrong with you? Why are you driving so erratically in the rain? Did you go insane and want to die?¡±? ? My heart screamed as it beat violently after yet another accident on the bridge. I also wanted to scream out loud. But I was barely holding back my anger and frustration for someone who would have been more embarrassed than I was.? ? ¡°That¡¯s why you¡¯ve come here.¡±? ? Cold rainwater ran down Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hard forehead. I stood there watching the stream of water run over his scarred cheek.? ? ¡°By the time I safely stopped the car and ran down, you¡¯d already jump off and be gone. You would not have come if I hadn¡¯t done this.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? It took me a while to understand what he was saying.? ? I lost my strength in despair. Choi Sung-hoon said he had a coat in his car and went to get it and told me to sit on it as I sank down on the floor. Nonetheless, he did not let go of my wrist. The wrist in his hand complained of pain.? ? ¡°What kind of misunderstanding did you have¡­¡±? ? I lowered my head. Choi Sung-hoon breathed violently, ¡°Is it a misunderstanding?¡±? ? An ambulance siren could be heard from a distance at that time. Choi Sung-hoon and I remained silent until the rescuers arrived.? ? * * *? ? Choi Sung-hoon requested to see Professor Chae, the doctor, so the ambulance diverted from the hospital he was supposed to visit.? ? I couldn¡¯t trust a traffic accident patient to go to an obstetrician working at an Omega center, but Choi Sung-hoon insisted on Professor Chae, so I couldn¡¯t say no.? ? After midnight, the doctor rushed to see Choi Sung-hoon and stated that no injuries had occurred. I didn¡¯t like it because it seemed hastily diagnosed because there was no blood on the outside and everything was fine.? ? I looked at the doctor, who told me that I should stay in the hospital room for a while because I was fine.? ? ¡°Excuse me, please take a look properly. It was an accident that completely destroyed the front of the car.¡±? ? ¡°Really? You¡¯re so strong¡­¡±? ? ¡°You hurt your ankle, right Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¡°Ankle¡­?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, his ankle-.¡±? ? ¡°I was hurt.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon strongly continued my words.? ? ¡°I hurt my right ankle. It¡¯s hard to move around.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Yes¡­ Ankle, yes¡­ Looking back, it looks like it¡¯s swollen¡­¡±? ? It was said to be throbbing and difficult to move, but the quack doctor¡¯s reaction remained dull. I really don¡¯t like this person. After a cursory examination, he suspected a fracture and ordered an X-ray before diagnosing it with a half cast.? ? Choi Sung-hoon told me to look check myself before taking an X-ray. I refused because I was not injured and was fine, but Choi Sung-hoon asked me to roll up my sleeve.? ? ¡°Oh, my. Did you bump into something big? There¡¯s a big bruise.¡±? ? My wrist was swollen with a dark bruise. It was because Choi Sung-hoon held it too tightly. There was a huge handprint, but the doctor pretended not to know.? ? While Choi Sung-hoon was wearing a cast after an X-ray examination, I showered briefly and entered the hospital room first. Then I lay down on the bed, waiting for Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I could see what misunderstanding he had.? ? It was expected that he would drive so fast in shock.? ? I placed a hand on my chest.? ? My heart, which was still pounding furiously, accurately expressed my emotions. If Choi Sung-hoon had a serious accident¡­ I wouldn¡¯t have been able to bear it any longer.? ? I was relieved that it ended with only his ankle injury. I was glad.? ? Aside from his misunderstanding, I should scold him. So he never ever did that again¡­ Really¡­ Never did that again. CH 46 I slowly opened my eyes to the gentle hand brushing my hair.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was sitting with his back against the bright lights. He gave me a harsh look when our eyes met.? ? ¡°Isn¡¯t there a misunderstanding we need to clear up? You can¡¯t wait for that and fall asleep?¡±? ? ¡°It seems I have dozed off for a while¡­ ¡°? ? ¡°It is now past one o¡¯clock in the afternoon.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon expressed his dissatisfaction.? ? No¡­ If a person was too relieved, he might fall asleep¡­ About twelve hours¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon gently wrapped his hands around my cheeks as I pouted my lips in embarrassment.? ? ¡°It¡¯s just a joke. I would have been more worried if you couldn¡¯t sleep. Let¡¯s eat first.¡±? ? Before we started talking, Choi Sung-hoon filled my stomach first. After we had a full meal, he folded his arms as if to begin. And twisting his cast feet.? ? ¡°So, it¡¯s all a misunderstanding?¡±? ? Weren¡¯t you the only one who misunderstood?? ? I crossed my legs as if I wasn¡¯t going to lose. While exposing the bruise marks on the wrists made by Choi Sung-hoon.? ? Choi Sung-hoon raised one of his eyebrows at me. I pretended I didn¡¯t know and spoke up.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know where the misunderstanding came from, but it wasn¡¯t saying goodbye to Choi Sung-hoon ssi, it was just saying goodbye to my various pasts. You would not have been misunderstood if you had thought of me normally.¡±? ? ¡°You mean you said goodbye to your past, not to me.¡±? ? ¡°Yes. Have you returned home? I left something for Choi Sung-hoon ssi to see there. You¡¯re going to believe that I didn¡¯t manipulate it because I¡¯ve been with you since then, right?¡±? ? ¡°Why were you taking your shoes off?¡±? ? ¡°I dropped it in the river. In the sense of saying goodbye.¡±? ? ¡°Why did you leave your phone behind?¡±? ? ¡°Why can¡¯t you trust people? I didn¡¯t want to die. Do you think I¡¯m a crazy person who is obsessed to die?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s hard to believe because you have a record.¡±? ? ¡°Well. I can¡¯t open my heart and show you, so what should I do?¡±? ? ¡°You really want to live?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I want to live now. I want to live my life to the fullest. I¡¯m going crazy.¡±? ? It was an incredible situation in which I had to explain that I really wanted to live.? ? I never imagined that there would be a situation where I had to appeal to my desire to live. As I said that I wanted to continue living in frustration, I suddenly felt a sense of d¨¦j¨¤ vu. Looks like something similar happened before¡­? ? ¡­ Ah¡­? ? That¡¯s right. I couldn¡¯t believe I tried to commit suicide last year, so that was why he kept asking. I burst out laughing when I remembered that time.? ? ¡°¡­Why are you laughing?¡±? ? When I suddenly laughed out loud, Choi Sung-hoon asked. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face was showing much more emotion than then. Not long ago, he was someone who didn¡¯t even understand the feeling of wanting to die, but now he¡­? ? He was worried I¡¯d die¡­ So he stomps on the gas pedal as hard as he can and rushes with his legs.? ? Risking his own life.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? I put my hand on the back of his big hand.? ? ¡°Come to that bridge with me. I have something to tell you.¡±? ? * * *? ? It was a warm spring day as if it had never rained. Even though I wanted to be depressed, a warm spring breeze gently swept through my hair.? ? Only traces of tire slip and white paint remained on the road after the crushed guardrail was replaced. It would disappear in a matter of days¡­? ? It was a close call accident, but many cars continued on their way as if nothing had happened.? ? Choi Sung-hoon had sprained his ankle, so we walked slowly.? ? ¡°It is said that because there were so many accidents at Mapo Bridge, the railing was repaired to be stronger.¡±? ? ¡°I see.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon grabbed my hand gently.? ? ¡°This wasn¡¯t always a double guardrail. It was only about knee-high, and the screw was missing due to its age.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Because of a family car crash 11 years ago, they installed a double guardrail on the sidewalk side.¡±? ? We walked slowly until we arrived at the location.? ? Choi Sung-hoon stopped when I did. He held my hand tightly.? ? ¡°It was a moment.¡±? ? I spoke up slowly.? ? The sight of that day¡­ I remembered how it was even when I closed my eyes.? ? The night when the rain was pouring. I was drooling and dozing off as I returned from eating out with my family.? ? It was a moment when I could hear my father¡¯s voice and my mother¡¯s sharp scream. The car slammed into the river. In the dark, where I couldn¡¯t see anything, my parents and older brother called out my name.? ? ¡°When the car was submerged in the black river and I couldn¡¯t do anything but hang on to my older brother, he broke the rear glass. And he pushed me out first.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°My brother pushed me away with all his might, desperately enough to bruise my back¡­ After some time had passed, I got out. Maybe he was late to get out because he was trying to save our parents.¡±? ? The car drowned endlessly, and my parents left the world. My older brother barely escaped and did not regain consciousness until the very end.? ? So I survived alone.? ? The feeling of the hand pushing my back was still fresh in my mind.? ? ¡°My parents and older brother were cremated and placed in an ossuary, but I keep thinking they¡¯re still in that river. It¡¯s strange.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not strange.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon denied it right away. He was looking in the same direction as I was.? ? ¡°I have to greet them. Your older brother and parents who saved you.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s profile, looking at the Han River seriously, was very human and revealed the most vivid emotions in the world.? ? It was the first time I wasn¡¯t crying when I talked about my family.? ? To the point where it was not scary even though I was on the Han River bridge¡­ It was cozy and light.? ? ¡°Last year, I said that Sung-hyun saved me to cover up the accident he caused while driving without a license, but he really saved me.¡±? ? ¡°When we first met-.¡±? ? As I talked about my past, Choi Sung-hoon looked at me. The warm gaze that seemed to affirm anything I said made me courageous.? ? ¡°I was about to jump that day, but I saw a high school student getting out of a car that had hit the guardrail while swearing¡­ When I saw the accident that killed my parents and saved your brother, I went insane. I attempted suicide¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon listened to me seriously.? ? ¡°I see.¡±? ? ¡°Do you know what I¡¯m saying?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I think I know. And the guardrail saved my life yesterday.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, that¡¯s right.¡±? ? That was what I wanted to say.? ? I felt complicated. It was complicated and overwhelming. I wanted to cry and laugh at the same time. A relationship formed as a result of death was¡­? ? ¡°I¡¯m so glad that I met Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? His expression changed as a result of what I said. The expression, which appeared to shed tears quickly and resembled a smile, clearly revealed the feeling of being overwhelmed.? ? ¡°I¡¯m glad I had the opportunity to meet you.¡±? ? My heart was filled with joy when I heard his response.? ? Choi Sung-hoon came up to me and hugged me. His embrace was comfortable and warm.? ? I was glad I fell in love with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I really have the opportunity to love¡­ That was a relief.? ? This feeling, which I would never have felt if I hadn¡¯t chosen my life that day, was so beautiful that I decided I wanted to remember it in the future.? ? When a person was unexpectedly surprised, they become flustered and withdrawn. If you hear a loud noise, something falls right in front of you, or something unexpected happens, you would freeze in place.? ? My family suddenly left at once, and I spent the next 11 years in a dazed and withdrawn state.? ? I was going to slowly stretch my shoulders. And I would live.? ? Along with Choi Sung-hoon. With this beautiful feeling.? ? Saying goodbye to everything and moving on to a new life. CH 47 Side Story 1-1? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? The terrace where the white sunlight shines on was a special place in our home. My counselor advised me that exposure to sunlight or fresh air was beneficial to my treatment, so I began to do it, but it has now become a natural habit.? ? Today, I sat on a rocking chair on the terrace and tried to read while admiring the green garden in the sunlight, but I couldn¡¯t focus, so I read and closed three pages.? ? ¡°Koong-ah, you have to be a person who reads a lot.¡±? ? I sighed softly as I stroked my round, swollen stomach. The movements continued under my hand as if understanding and responding to my words.? ? It had been six months since I had had a dream. Koongi became its fetus name after going through a lot of things, and I liked it because it was cute and sturdy.? ? These days, I was living a very happy life. I was not sure if it was okay for me to be this happy. Except for the fact that Koongi was a honeymoon baby, and the last time we had sex was six months ago.? ? There was a dangerous period in the beginning, but now it has entered a stable period, but Choi Sung-hoon does not touch me because Professor Chae, that quack, said that it was better to be patient.? ? Just yesterday¡­? ? It happened while I was lying in bed, shifting my posture so that my round belly touched Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s firm abs, and gently bringing my hands under my waist. Choi Sung-hoon abruptly got up and looked down at me as I was getting ready to hug him, then left, saying he needed to use the bathroom. It wasn¡¯t a bedroom bathroom, but rather a first-floor bathroom.? ? It was always like that when we had a little skinship. Occasionally, when I toss and turn in bed, it grows so magnificently that I was surprised, but I don¡¯t know how he could tolerate it. I guess that was what patience was for.? ? Except for those minor details, my daily life was perfect. My heart was always overflowing with joy because I have a caring Alpha who loves me and a baby who was growing strong.? ? I noticed two gray-colored birds flying over while I was repeating myself. The birds flew and sat on the branches of a large maple tree in the garden, rubbing their beaks and wings and making a racket. Then it soon took on a mating position.? ? Shi-¡­ Why did they have to mate here?? ? ¡°Ah, Koong. I¡¯m not cursing, I was going to say punishment it wasn¡¯t a curse word.¡±? ? I quickly made an excuse because Koongi was a genius and could hear it.? ? In any case, this was what was important.? ? That my heart was as joyful and sunny as the weather.? ? I was extremely happy these days.? ? To be so extremely happy that no shadow could fall on it.? ? But strangely, there were times when I had chest pains. Krit, like electricity.? ? I was so happy¡­ It was really weird.? ? * * *? ? The weather was nice today, so I decided to go on an outing that I had been putting off for a while.? ? I packed my cross bag, informed the driver that I was leaving, and then pressed the intercom on the annex¡¯s side.? ? ¡°Yes, Seo-yu-nim. Is there anything you need?¡±? ? ¡°You don¡¯t have to come because I will not be having dinner tonight.¡±? ? ¡°You don¡¯t have an appetite? Please let me know if there is anything else you want to eat.¡±? ? On the intercom screen, the housekeeper begged with expressions that looked like he was about to cry. I assured him that I would meet Choi Sung-hoon for dinner. I haven¡¯t yet spoken with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? I showed the driver the map I found on the internet and directed him in this direction. The driver made an odd expression for a moment before taking the wheel as if he didn¡¯t know what he was doing.? ? Inside the Benz, there was now a mustached gangster-like brother with whom I talked occasionally. Even if he died, he wouldn¡¯t tell me his name, but I was closer to him than the other gangster-like brother. When I went out, the gangster-like brother always followed me, so I was used to it by this point.? ? I took the colorful folder from my bag after a few words of greeting. I inserted an ultrasound image of Koong that I had just received yesterday.? ? Fu fu fu.? ? I smiled and flipped over the ultrasound picture.? ? I could feel the gangster-like brother glancing.? ? Look at this. Look. It was an ultrasound picture of our Koongi. It has five toes and five fingers. You were curious, right? You want to see it up close, right? It was so cute, right?? ? I flapped my ultrasound pictures loudly to show generosity.? ? ¡°That¡­ Is that young master Koong¡¯s new ultrasound picture?¡±? ? Finally, the gangster-like brother, unable to suppress his curiosity, spoke up. I quickly showed him the picture.? ? ¡°I got a new one yesterday. It¡¯s so cute. It looks exactly like Choi Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes, its look alike. The straight forehead here is very similar.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s the soles of its feet.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°This is sucking its finger, this is chewing its mouth, and this is its yawning.¡±? ? I explained, page by page. After visiting the hospital yesterday, it took a long time to explain everything to another gangster-like brother.? ? Haa¡­ It was annoying, but I couldn¡¯t help myself because everyone was curious. What could I do about Koongi¡¯s adorable and cuteness? I¡¯d have to work hard for anyone who might want to see this before I get a new ultrasound picture next week. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s mother, father, Sung-hyun, and Won-jo, I have to show them all. I was annoyed, but everyone wanted to see it.? ? ¡°It has vertebrae as well. It¡¯s adorable. Because he resembles Choi Sung-hoon, it is already powerful. It would be the world¡¯s strongest six-month fetus.¡±? ? ¡°Oh¡­ I see¡­¡±? ? I arrived at my destination while showing an ultrasound picture of my fetus.? ? As I had searched for, it was an open and transparent place, unlike an adult product store. Originally, the gangster-like brother followed up to the inside of the store, but today they waited in front of it.? ? I chose two boxes of flavored condoms. Anyway, Choi Sung-hoon would have known I was here, so I took a picture and texted it to him.? ? [(Photo)]? ? [Do you like this? Or]? ? [(Photo)]? ? [This one]? ? Sung-hoon? [I don¡¯t like the second one]? ? [Why not]? ? Sung-hoon? [There was no size]? ? How did he know that there was no size¡­? ? For a moment, my heart was pounding again.? ? I replied [Hahaha, okay, then I¡¯ll just buy the first one] However, no laughter came out of my mouth.? ? After leaving the store, I headed to a nearby department store. It was a store where I frequently bought Koongi¡¯s clothes, and every time I went in, the staff greeted me with a bright smile.? ? ¡°Oh, you¡¯re here? It seems like a long time ago. Isn¡¯t it been 6 months?? ? ¡°Yes, I went to get a new ultrasound picture yesterday.¡±? ? It was annoying when they wanted to see it, but I wanted to show them at the same time, so when I mentioned it, the staff said they wanted to see it as well.? ? I felt much better after speaking with the friendly staff, so I purchased more than usual. All household items were already available up to the age of five, but I just bought them all. It was said that every time I swipe the card, the receipt was being sent to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s phone, but I swiped even more for his enjoyment.? ? I used to keep it in the trunk of my car, but I decided to deliver it today because I purchased a desk for Koong¡¯s second year of elementary school. When I finished all of the calculations and exited the store, I noticed a shelf in front of my eyes.? ? To be more specific, I looked at the palm-sized baby shoes that were displayed on the shelf.? ? A picture of a baby bear was drawn on the blue stripes.? ? The mustached gangster-like brother came up to me, who stopped in my position and looked at me.? ? ¡°Seo-yu-nim, let¡¯s go. You have been standing for too long.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ Yes, I¡¯ll go. Let¡¯s go.¡±? ? I barely took my eyes off the shoes.? ? I got into the car with my hands on my swollen stomach.? ? ¡°Please go to Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s ssi company. We will meet and eat together.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, please fasten your seat belt.¡±? ? I fastened my seat belt on my round stomach and rubbed his calves.? ? My stomach swelled noticeably at six months, and my feet swelled and hurt immediately after standing for even a few minutes longer. I did a search and discovered that every other pregnant person was the same, but the quack doctor said I was on the weak side.? ? If the quack doctor hadn¡¯t mentioned it, I might still be able to have a happy married life with Choi Sung-hoon¡­? ? What was the point of buying a condom if I wasn¡¯t going to use it.? ? As my dissatisfaction with desires grew, I went out every few days to buy a condom box, and Choi Sung-hoon simply kept the box I purchased on the bedside. We wouldn¡¯t even consider using it. When I asked him what type he prefers, he gave a consistent response. But he had no intention of using it.? ? I think I would forget how to have sex at this rate.? ? * * * ? ? I told the driver to leave work early, and the only two people left in the parking lot were the gangster-like brother and me. With my seat tilted back, I fiddled with my phone. Choi Sung-hoon probably doesn¡¯t know I came here because I told the gangster-like brother not to tell him. It was 2:20 p.m., and Choi Sung-hoon still had an hour before he had to leave work.? ? Choi Sung-hoon would be on leave beginning next week. Originally, the Alpha side should have had four more weeks of maternity leave, but Choi Sung-hoon resigned and broke the rules, according to father.? ? I kept thinking about whether to send him a message or not, so I only went in and out of the message chat window with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? My profile picture was Koong¡¯s ultrasound picture, and Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s profile picture was our wedding picture.? ? I was very nervous at the time, as the wedding date approached day by day. Choi Sung-hoon would undoubtedly receive congratulations from a large number of guests, but no matter how much I gathered, there were fewer than ten with Won-jo, Ho-in, and former coworkers. My uncle¡¯s family abruptly left because they were emigrating after I registered my marriage with Choi Sung-hoon, so there was no family on my side.? ? When Choi Sung-hoon asked if I knew that my face was getting darker as the date approached, I replied that I should look for a part-timer who works as a guest.? ? ¡®Because I don¡¯t have many friends, the seat on the Omega side will be empty. I don¡¯t have a family. I found out on the Internet that there is a specialized company.¡¯? ? Then, Choi Sung-hoon told me not to worry about it. I had the expression of someone who had heard the earth was flat when I heard his response.? ? In fact, the guest seats were full. There were celebrities, as well as many people from politics and business who appeared on the news. Won-jo, Ho-in, and the people of Sojin company were gathered in a corner because the gangster-like brothers were lined up from the hotel entrance.? ? The grandfather of the owner of the house I lived in took the seat where my parents should have sat.? ? Grandpa was in tears throughout the ceremony.? ? I held back my tears throughout the ceremony, but Won-jo suddenly stood up to sing (only the host and Choi Sung-hoon knew) and I cried in the end because he embarrassed me with his toad-like voice. I sent the video to tease Won-jo, and I also posted it on social media to see if Won-jo liked it. That day, I discovered that my friend was tone-deaf.? ? ¡°Seo-yu-nim, have you told the director yet?¡±? ? The mustached gangster-like brother woke me up from my thoughts. I groaned, wrapping my stomach, and got up.? ? ¡°He still has a long time at work. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s car is here, so he¡¯ll come if I wait.¡±? ? ¡°I just got a call from Secretary Kim, and he says the director won¡¯t be able to come because of a sudden appointment.¡±? ? ¡°What appointment? Doesn¡¯t Choi Sung-hoon know that I¡¯m here?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a meeting with the ¡ð¡ð group¡¯s child¡­¡±? ? ¡±¡­Wait. Get out of the way.¡±? ? I saw two people passing by through the window behind the mustached gangster-like brother. I pushed him aside and stuck close to the window.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was walking alongside a slender beauty. Even when I awoke from a deep sleep and looked at it with my eyes open, it was Omega. The two boarded a previously seen company vehicle, with Choi Sung-hoon in the driver¡¯s seat and Omega in the passenger seat.? ? My heart was throbbing again.? ? ¡°Seo-yu-nim, that person has a fiance.¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t say anything. Choi Sung-hoon has a spouse.¡±? ? I turned my head. I turned off my phone¡¯s screen. Because I hadn¡¯t heard from him that he was late, I assumed he¡¯d be able to wrap up his meeting with that beautiful Omega quickly and get home on time.? ? ¡°I told the driver to go home. I¡¯m sorry, but please drive.¡±? ? ¡°Where should we go?¡±? ? Where.? ? I don¡¯t know where else I could go.? ? I replied in frustration to go home. CH 48 Side Story 1-2? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? I told the housekeepers not to prepare dinner, but it was a bit difficult to reverse it, so I had Choi Sung-hoon run an errand.? ? Choi Sung-hoon arrived after I had changed my clothes and was walking in the garden. People stood in two rows and said, ¡°Welcome.¡±? ? When the landlord arrives, everyone in the house comes out to greet him, but I was still not used to it.? ? Choi Sung-hoon had two bags full of ingredients in each hand. With so many ingredients in the fridge, there must be some overlap. The security guard moved quickly, took the bags, and then left.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, did you enjoy your outing?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled as he approached me. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders and kissed the top of my head.? ? ¡°You bought a lot of stuff.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I bought another baby bottle today.¡±? ? ¡°Good job.¡±? ? ¡°Say hi to Koong as well.¡±? ? I put Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s big hand on my swollen stomach. Whether it was sleeping or not, there was no movement. It would still feel its father¡¯s touch. Choi Sung-hoon immediately bent down and kissed my stomach after I urged him with a wink of my eyes.? ? ¡°¡­ Koong, how have you been? You have to stay healthy in the future.¡±? ? Even after doing this for three months, the tone of his voice was still awkward. But if he keep doing it, he would get used to it, and I believe it would become natural by the time Koongi was born.? ? * * *? ? Choi Sung-hoon prepared the meals because I gave the housekeepers a break at will.? ? I tend to sleep early and wake up early because I sleep a lot after I have a dreamgot pregnant. I usually eat dinner around 5 p.m. and go to bed around 9 p.m. And Choi Sung-hoon gets up at 5 a.m. to exercise, and I get up at 7 a.m. to have breakfast with Choi Sung-hoon Choi, then fall asleep and wake up around 10 a.m. And taking another nap¡­ Well¡­? ? According to Professor Chae, it was natural for pregnant women to sleep a lot. How authoritative would Professor Chae be to work at the Omega Center? It means reliable.? ? After dinner, we ate fruit in the living room, which overlooked the garden. I feel unfamiliar when I see Choi Sung-hoon holding a knife and peeling an apple. The knife looked like a cutter knife in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s big hand, and he handled it so well that I sometimes think I should disclose him on a broadcast program as an apple peeling master.? ? ¡°This time, cut it into a heart shape.¡±? ? ¡°Are you going to post it on social media again?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, can¡¯t I?¡±? ? ¡°¡­There¡¯s no way you can¡¯t. Post it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon made a heart-shaped sheath on the sliced ??apple. I snapped a photo and uploaded it on social media right away.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll post it in the family chat room as well.¡±? ? ¡°Even if you only post it on social media, they will be able to see it.¡±? ? ¡°Nevertheless~, I want to upload it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon gave up the resistance saying if you want to upload it, upload it. It felt good because the reactions were varied when I post a picture of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s peeled fruit in the family chat room. It has been repeated for a year already, but Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s family reacted strongly every time.? ? ¡°Eat one while you do it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon put an apple into my mouth. I took a bite and finished sending the photo, then gave Choi Sung-hoon a bite as well.? ? Choi Sung-hoon ate the apple I gave him and looked at me with the sweetest eyes. We exchanged kisses. It fell with a squeaky sound after a light kiss. I moved slowly and crawled into Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms. Choi Sung-hoon wrapped his arms around my stomach.? ? I felt extremely secure. A smile flowed from the sweet happiness.? ? But it soon got boring.? ? A light kiss was nice, but I¡¯d like to give it a deeper kiss as well.? ? I don¡¯t know why I should be dissatisfied when I had the extremely dominant Alpha with an inverted triangle shoulder and a big, hard, hot muscle on the verge of exploding as a spouse.? ? There were still 4 months left before Koong was born, how could he hold it in? Anyway, it was because of that quack Professor Chae¡­? ? Even now, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thing was touching my ass.? ? This was a fucking waste of talent.? ? I watched television to divert my attention. They were broadcasting exciting summer sports just in time.? ? It was very satisfying to imagine semi-nude Choi Sung-hoon riding on the rough waves on the surfboard.? ? ¡°If Koong was born, let¡¯s go do that as well. Do you know how to ride a surfboard? Please let me know.¡±? ? ¡°You can¡¯t do that because it¡¯s dangerous.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s all safe, that¡¯s why it¡¯s broadcasted. And when you enjoy thrilling sports, you produce organism, a hormone that makes you feel good.¡±? ? ¡°¡­What organism?¡±? ? ¡­Ah.? ? What did I just say.? ? ¡°¡­Are you talking about endorphins?¡±? ? I shook my head silently.? ? ¡°Adrenaline?¡±? ? I nodded.? ? I felt a low vibration behind my back. I saw Choi Sung-hoon covering his mouth and turning his head when I looked behind me.? ? Haa¡­ I was so embarrassed.? ? I escaped from Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms and went up on the other sofa. I couldn¡¯t sit with my knees up and a cushion over my face because of my stomach.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, please give me a cushion. Let¡¯s go later. Let¡¯s go to an island in the South Pacific and enjoy it together.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took out the cushion in a soft tone to soothe me. I stared at Choi Sung-hoon with a heated face. I looked around with sharp eyes to see if there was any more laughter, but it was the same as before, with a hard and soft expression.? ? ¡°Eat more apple. You haven¡¯t eaten a lot today.¡±? ? When I didn¡¯t respond,Choi Sung-hoon took a slice of apple from with fork and touched my lips. Like knocking. Choi Sung-hoon was so cute that I opened my lips.? ? However, it was not the apple that came in, but Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s tounge.? ? The back of my head was pressed against the soft sofa. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s thick tongue invaded my mouth. He evenly brushed my teeth and tapped the roof of my mouth before wrapping my tongue around it. My mouth was filled with hot breath and heat. Choi Sung-hoon wrapped one of his hands around the nape of my neck.? ? ¡°¡­Uh¡­¡±? ? We hadn¡¯t kissed so passionately in a long time.? ? I reacted passionately and touched Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s tongue. It was so big that there was actually nowhere in my mouth he couldn¡¯t reach. Choi Sung-hoon, noticing that I had lost my strength, came to a halt first after the kiss had progressed to the point where my eyes were dazed.? ? ¡°Haa¡­ continue¡­ Keep going. Hmm?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Hurry up¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon only looked down at me with eyes full of lust. I grabbed him by the arm. And I tried to hug his neck, but I couldn¡¯t because he took a step back.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll go wash up. Seo-yu ssi, take a rest.¡±? ? He got up saying that in a very subdued low voice.? ? I exhaled excitedly and cooled down. He was also the first to leave his seat. I smacked the innocent cushion without looking at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s back.? ? I¡¯ve always avoided sitting in this kind of atmosphere, but now I don¡¯t know.? ? I wasn¡¯t sure if Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s refusal to touch me was solely because he was concerned about my pregnancy.? ? Or maybe there¡¯s another reason.? ? My heart was racing.? ? I probably shouldn¡¯t have gone out today. I kept having strange thoughts after seeing that beautiful Omega.? ? So I made a decision.? ? I couldn¡¯t take it anymore until Koong was born. I knew that all of my doubts would pile up and cause me heartache.? ? When I married Choi Sung-hoon, I made a promise to him.? ? If something happen, I would inform him immediately.? ? I have no choice. Even if other people could handle it, I couldn¡¯t and it would made me be sick. Kongkongi hinted me of the situation and then left because I couldn¡¯t understand it.? ? I would tell him as soon as he finished washing up.? ? That was when I made my decision.? ? I heard footsteps from the second floor, where Choi Sung-hoon went to wash up. Choi Sung-hoon, whose hair was damp, came down with a towel wrapped around him after a strong motion. I opened my eyes wide.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Why don¡¯t you wipe it all off, and don¡¯t you know how scary is the summer cold?¡±? ? ¡°Did anything happen today?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°As I was about to wash up, I suddenly realized that you are different from usual. Of course, you were always behaving differently, but¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon quickly approached me. He covered the water dripping down with a towel so it wouldn¡¯t touch me. He was sitting on one knee in front of me, carefully examining my expression.? ? ¡°Would you mind telling me what happened?¡±? ? I noticed his change.? ? He was changing for me.? ? A feeling of great satisfaction spread in my heart.? ? * * *? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had heard everything I had said, swept his bangs roughly and asked.? ? ¡°Then, will you feel safe if I hold you?¡±? ? ¡°I will, but it¡¯s fine now. I know that you and I are changing for each other, so this is reassuring enough.¡±? ? I smiled with an open mind.? ? It was my sincere feelings. He was also holding on to his lust for the sake of me and Koongi, I needed to be more patient. I felt so much better and happier now.? ? ¡°I shouldn¡¯t have endured it.¡±? ? However, Choi Sung-hoon spoke coldly with his eyes full of lust.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry for making you uneasy until now. I will not hold it any longer.¡±? ? ¡°No, it¡¯s really okay now. You can hold it in.¡±? ? ¡°Did you buy the condom you mentioned today?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Where did you put it?¡±? ? I gulped and swallowed my saliva.? ? Looking at Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s deep and dark lustful eyes, I¡­ I replied timidly that it was in a crossbag I frequently carried. CH 49 Haa¡­? ? I let out a hot breath and held back the tickling sensation. Choi Sung-hoon took off his shirt and climbed on top of me, who was already naked. His large palms passed over my bulging stomach and grabbed my chest.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ It tickles¡­¡±? ? I shook my head and grabbed the blanket. Choi Sung-hoon said quietly as he bent his upper body and kissed my neck.? ? ¡°I¡¯ve been patient for as long as I can, and I couldn¡¯t think properly now.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re always unexpected. With this little head¡­ ¡±? ? His lips moved from my neck to my chin and then to my ears. He bit my ear and kissed my temple. He kept rubbing my thick breasts with his fingers the whole time.? ? I grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s forearm with one hand. I climbed up on his thick forearm and tried to hug him, but he was too big to hold. Choi Sung-hoon took my wrist and pressed it against the side of my head.? ? I opened my blurry eyes and looked at him. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face came closer. He opened my lips as easily as a toy and then broke in, but this time it was a more intense kiss. Everything in my mouth was wrapped around or sucked in, as if he was trying to ensure that no part of my mouth was not in contact with him. It was a kiss that was long enough to make me out of breath.? ? ¡°Uhm¡­!¡±? ? He gave me time to breathe when I wriggled my hands with a confused mind.? ? ¡°Haa¡­ Slowly¡­ Take it slow. It¡¯s been a while.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? There was no answer. I blinked a few times to focus.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes burned like fire, and they were dark and dangerous as if his reason would be cut off at any moment.? ? Cold sweat flowed down the back of my neck.? ? ¡°We¡­ You know that I¡¯m pregnant, right? Professor Chae said we should be careful. He¡¯s a really talented professor.¡±? ? ¡°I know. So don¡¯t talk about others¡­¡±? ? ¡°Stay still.¡± He said softly and kissed me again.? ? He kissed me so hard that I couldn¡¯t think straight, and while I took a moment to catch my breath, he put his hands under both of my thighs and opened them wide. My underside was already wet and my genitals stood erect.? ? My cheeks flushed from embarrassment. Choi Sung-hoon lingered over my lower abdomen as if savoring the table setting before diving into the feast.? ? ¡°¡­Why are you looking at me like that¡­ ¡±? ? I tried to cover it with the blanket, but it was only to cover the round stomach. He leaned the inside of my knees with his hands and placed his standing upright penis in the center of me. Choi Sung-hoon was wearing a new condom today, but because of his alpha pheromone, I couldn¡¯t smell the flavor.? ? ¡°Ah, heh¡­ Euh¡­!¡±? ? A big penis like a weapon made contact with mine. Choi Sung-hoon held his and my penis together. His penis was too big, hard, and hot. I grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s forearms with both hands to stop him from rubbing it with his large hands, but he refused to budge.? ? His forearms with bulging veins were as hard as bricks. I was mesmerized as I watched Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shoulder muscles twitch, his brows wrinkle, and he moaned lowly.? ? ¡°Ah, haa, huh.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s gaze was also fixed on me as I moaned. My penis, which had been stimulated by his enormous pillar, had quickly reached its limit. I trembled my legs to let him know I¡¯d reached my limit, but Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t stop.? ? ¡°Ha, Heuk, Su, Sung¨Choon, uh¡­!¡±? ? I groaned as I ejaculated in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand with the tip of my fingernail in his forearm.? ? Even though I was convulsing, Choi Sung-hoon groaned lowly and rubbed vigorously.? ? ¡°Ahhh!¡±? ? He didn¡¯t wait for me to calm down. He squeezed it harder while holding it in his hand. I slobbered despite the fact that it wasn¡¯t even penetration sex.? ? I was exhausted from stimulation and excitement after pouring out without leaving a drop of semen, and my limbs had no strength. Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s posture changed as my arms were spread across the bedside and my lifted knees were also laid down.? ? ¡°Wha, what are you doing¡­¡±? ? ¡°Stay still. I am not done yet.¡±? ? He pressed my legs together and lifted them straight up.? ? Then he rubbed my buttocks with his big pillar and stabbed the inside of my soft thigh.? ? ¡°Ah¡­!¡±? ? I knew what he was going to do.? ? Choi Sung-hoon kissed my ankles bone with his tongue while holding my legs with both hands.? ? ¡°Hey, I hate that¡­ hah¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon bit my ankle bone with his teeth as if he knew my words of dislike were a lie. The itching spread throughout my body.? ? Choi Sung-hoon tightened his grip on my thigh and pressed his hard penis against the wet lower abdomen and thigh.? ? ¡°Haa¡­¡±? ? His low moans were too provocative for me. Choi Sung-hoon quickly began to rub between them. A solid pillar was also in contact with mine.? ? ¡°Ugh, uh¡­! Ahh¡­!¡±? ? I shook my head and struggled as I had just ejaculated, but Choi Sung-hoon put both my legs together with one hand and pressed my arm next to my head with the other hand to lightly suppress me. His movements became increasingly fast.? ? ¡°Huh, uh, ah!¡±? ? His big penis pierced my inner thighs and brushed up against my anus. Every time, I felt as if I were being penetrated.? ? My thoughts became entangled. Choi Sung-hoon kissed my ankle bone and exhaled a hot breath to appease me, but his lower body movement became more rough.? ? I just shook my head and moaned. He should have stopped by now, but he didn¡¯t. My back twitched at the thought of him accidentally going inside. He¡¯d be withholding what he wanted to put into me.? ? ¡°Ah, ah, ah, huh!¡±? ? I was starting to lose my mind. I was even concerned that I wouldn¡¯t be able to remember anything because the pleasure had lasted so long.? ? ¡°Ah, ah!¡±? ? ¡°Ugh¡­!¡±? ? He moved his lower body quickly as if it were the last time. A big, hot penis brushed against the entrance of my lower abdomen and pierced between my thighs as if it were actually stuck inside me.? ? Choi Sung-hoon reached its climax with my ankle bone in his mouth after a few big moves.? ? Mine was spitting out a thin liquid as well.? ? Choi Sung-hoon helped me lower my convulsive legs to the bed, but I couldn¡¯t give them any strength, so they remained wide open.? ? ¡°Ha, ha¡­¡±? ? I breathed heavily, my chest pounding frantically. Choi Sung-hoon found me reaching out towards him while pouring a kiss on my ankle, and bent over, being careful not to touch my stomach. He kissed me affectionately as if I had worked hard.? ? I don¡¯t know long has the kissing sound been going on. Choi Sung-hoon began rubbing the inside of my thigh again.? ? ¡°Oh, wait a minute. Now¡­¡±? ? ¡°I won¡¯t overdo it. You just have to lie still like before.¡±? ? Even if I laid still, I felt like I was having penetration sex with a blast from all the stimulation¡­? ? ¡°Ugh¡­ Let¡¯s stop for today and go to sleep¡­ Do it again tomorrow.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ I¡¯ll stop if you want, but you can¡¯t even have sex like this when your stomach is getting bigger, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Then the story was wrong.? ? I narrowed my eyes. And I licked his lips as a sign of all consent to his future actions.? ? * * *? ? I stroked my stomach as soon as I opened my eyes. I said good morning to Koong and checked where I am. It was the bed in the bedroom on the first floor. We had sex in a bedroom on the second floor yesterday, but it appeared that he moved me to a clean place while sleeping.? ? When I remembered yesterday, my face heated up in an instant.? ? We went about five times, and later I remember shaking my limbs and spewing pheromones at him, begging him to put it in because I was itchy on the inside. It would have been disastrous if Choi Sung-hoon had lost his reason at that time.? ? It didn¡¯t involve any penetration sex, but it was just as pleasurable. I moved my back and attempted to get up, but my physical condition was not as bad as it had been after sex. My thighs were a little sore, but that was fine.? ? It was good sex that didn¡¯t weigh Koong down. I hope to continue in the future.? ? ¡°A, a. Ehem.¡±? ? I¡¯d like to get some water, but where has Choi Sung-hoon gone?? ? As soon as I thought of that, the bedroom door opened.? ? ¡°Did you sleep well? You can sleep more.¡±? ? Contrary to the saying that I could sleep more, he was holding a tray of food. First, he made me drink water and sat next to me while I ate. Choi Sung-hoon wore his bangs down and was dressed casually.? ? It was Friday. I was wondering if he didn¡¯t go to the company.? ? I was about to ask, but I stopped.? ? Yesterday was really good. I was satisfied with having a hot night after a long time, so I didn¡¯t want to talk about the company.? ? ¡°Have you eaten, Choi Sung-hoon ssi?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I ate while waiting. The Omega I met yesterday is the head of the ¡ð¡ð group and is getting married soon. I met his Alpha and there were the three of us.¡±? ? Cough, cough, cough.? ? I choked on the meal as I chewed it.? ? Choi Sung-hoon handed me a cup of water with deep eyes. While I was drinking water, he swept down my back and looked at me with eyes that I was absolutely lovely.? ? ¡°Did the mustached gangster-like brother say it?¡±? ? ¡°It doesn¡¯t matter who said it.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m really embarrassed¡­ I was not really jealous.¡±? ? ¡°It would a shame if it wasn¡¯t jealousy. But in the future, I won¡¯t meet that Omega alone.¡±? ? You could meet him while at work. So it was okay.? ? I had to say this, but my voice didn¡¯t come out.? ? Yeah, it was better for Choi Sung-hoon not to meet such a noble-looking beauty, Omega, too often.? ? I nodded my head. I also extended my finger to obtain a fingerprint right away. Choi Sung-hoon raised the corners of his mouth as if he enjoyed watching my reaction.? ? The two little fingers were tangled.? ? He thought it was adorable of me to make such a childish promise. I thought we were a great couple. CH 50 ***Choi Sung-hoon POV? ? ¨C Seo-yu-nim went to meet a friend. He said he would contact Director separately.? ? He got a call from the bodyguard while he was working. Choi Sung-hoon quietly read the message in his cell phone, which had Seo-yu¡¯s number stored in it.? ? Seo-yu? [Jae-hoon is sleeping hehe. What time are you coming home today??]? ? [I will go before 7 o¡¯clock]? ? Seo-yu? [(Emoji) Be careful]? ? He hasn¡¯t heard from him since the last message.? ? He was already aware that Jang Won-jo was unemployed. Even if he did meet him, Choi Sung-hoon expected him to call him home because of Jae-hoon but he didn¡¯t expect him to go see Won-jo in person.? ? Seo-yu loved the baby he had a hard time giving birth to. Despite the fact that five babysitters were assigned, he increased his housework because he tried to do most of the things himself.? ? It was the second day of my return to work, and he scheduled a meeting with a friend he didn¡¯t like.? ? He was wondering why he asked him about the time to leave work, turn out so he could plan ahead of time to go out.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face lit up when he saw the message.? ? He expected him to be predictable by now, but he wasn¡¯t.? ? To think about it, he was always an unexpected person from the start.? ? * * *? ? Even when they first talked on the phone, he was quite angry when he heard the news that his younger brother had had a major accident.? ? The person that Choi Sung-hyun saved has a nasal voice, and he repeated only the words that he had a great younger brother in a very light tone. Shortly after they decided on a meeting place and hung up the phone, Choi Sung-hyun¡¯s cell phone rang.? ? ¨C Hey, high school kid. I got a call from your older brother and he wants to meet me tomorrow?? ? It was a light feeling that would blow with his own mouth, but he quickly noticed that the other side was the other person.? ? After the first call, the first meeting the next day also left a strong impression.? ? ¡®Hello, Sang-hyun older brother. You came early.¡¯? ? So far, no one has been able to say ¡®brother¡¯ in front of him in a friendly way with smiling eyes. However, adding to his nasal voice, he sat while coughing, the name of my younger brother, who was the reason for the meeting, was wrong, and drank a drink on the table that no one had ever said was his at the once.? ? ¡®You really don¡¯t trust people. Because I didn¡¯t take any money from him.¡¯? ? ¡®You drooped the formal speech first, so I¡¯m doing the same.¡¯? ? Choi Sung-hoon couldn¡¯t say anything when he saw the Omega talking informally.? ? He has never seen anyone like this before. Nobody had ever acted like that in front of him before. Even the dominant Alpha, who has been cared for by his subordinates, was discouraged and chooses a low stance, but only this recessive Omega¡­? ? The person he saw for the first time throughout the day. Choi Sung-hoon saw something he had never seen in anyone before.? ? The first meeting stayed with him for a long time. He wanted to meet up again and look into it.? ? After scolding him moderately, Choi Sung-hyun bought a new car. Choi Sung-hoon found a reason to meet him despite the fact that he knew they didn¡¯t have to meet again in person, even though it would be over with just one word not to contact Omega, who attempted suicide.? ? That was how he got to the CCTV.? ? On the CCTV, the Omega was walking alone in the rain. He walked slowly and stopped at the scene of the accident, holding the railing and looking down at the river. Without looking up at the sky or at the night view. It took him less than a minute to take his shoes off and look down at the river. It was a very short time to make a decision about death.? ? If Choi Sung-hyun had not caused an accident, the moment he took a step back wouldn¡¯t happen.? ? Choi Sung-hoon made an appointment again.? ? The Omega still had a bad cold, and Choi Sung-hyun¡¯s name was wrong again while making excuses. At that moment, Choi Sung-hoon asked a question that he would never ask.? ? ¡®Do you know my name?¡¯? ? ¡®¡­Sung¡­ Hyuyuing.¡¯? ? The response was something other than a person¡¯s name. Looking at him, who was attempting to conflate in a moderation, he began to spit out any name he could think of.? ? Choi Sung-hoon had to hold up a cup of coffee to hold back his laughter.? ? He couldn¡¯t believe that this Omega had attempted suicide. He has no idea what the story was about him being on the Han River bridge in the early morning when it rained, but how could such a light person plan to commit suicide?? ? As if ridiculing Choi Sung-hoon, the Omega showed the will written on his cell phone.? ? The will was very short, and it was delivered in a frighteningly light tone, with no regrets.? ? ¡®Was there any reason for you to die?¡¯? ? ¡®This and that¡­ Didn¡¯t you ever think you wanted to die sometimes?¡¯? ? Choi Sung-hoon was unable to respond to the lightly posed question with anything other than the answer that he did not know. Because he never thought about it.? ? * * * ? ? At 2:30 pm, Seo-yu sent a message asking if he could make a call. Choi Sung-hoon called right away and Seo-yu answered quickly as if he already waiting for it.? ? ¨C Do you have time? I hope I didn¡¯t interrupt your work.? ? ¡°Of course. How are you doing with Jang Won-jo?¡±? ? ¨C Oh¡­ As expected, you know. Who said it? Mustache?? ? ¡°Is that important?¡±? ? ¨C I was going to go back before you go home¡­ I¡¯ll be a little late. It¡¯s okay, right? Hurry up and say it¡¯s okay.? ? ¡°How late are you? We should eat dinner together.¡±? ? ¨C Of course. I¡¯ll take care of Jae-hoon¡¯s food. I¡¯ll go back around 5 o¡¯clock? ? ¡°Hmm.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon pretended not to be worried and turned the tablet PC on again. No matter how old he was, didn¡¯t want to go into a house without his family, so he thought he would work a little more.? ? ¡°All right. Don¡¯t be too late. Because I¡¯m worried.¡±? ? ¨C Yes, Choi Sung-hoon ssi, don¡¯t work overtime just because I¡¯m not there, and go home quickly. Hey, order gopchang. Then I¡¯ll hang up.? ? ¡°Wait, Seo-yu ssi, have you been drinking?¡±? ? ¨C Yes, I had a drink. Don¡¯t worry! I¡¯m not going to drink too much, and I didn¡¯t get any injections today.? ? As soon as he heard his light voice, Choi Sung-hoon turned off the tablet again and covered it like throwing it away.? ? And he immediately called Seo-yu¡¯s bodyguard.? ? ¨C Yes, sir.? ? ¡°Where are you? How much has he been drinking?¡±? ? ¨C This is ¡ð¡ð in Guro-dong. Alcohol¡­ He drank about half a sip, but he said he just got permission, and he ordered more. Shall I stop him?? ? ¡°No, let him drink.¡±? ? ¨C Will you come here?? ? ¡°Yeah, I¡¯m leaving now, so watch him closely.¡±? ? ¨C Yes, sir.? ? No one saw him leave the office immediately after hanging up the phone.? ? Most of them would have assumed he was too preoccupied with work to leave his seats.? ? The Choi family and S&S have been closely related since their ancestors. They had to work only in the dark due to the nature of the work, which required them to solve problems that were obstructed by laws and regulations without anyone knowing. Then, Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s grandfather started a new company, and after Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s reign, he externally claimed the title of managing director.? ? Still, Choi Sung-hoon was clearly aware that he was a villain.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who was born with no empathy for human emotions, thought this was the best job for him.? ? As a result, it took a long time to understand his depression. It took a lot of effort for him to realize that his outlandish words and actions were the result of depression and that his eyes were sometimes empty.? ? The relationship was formed hastily at first. Drunk Omega succumbed to temptation beyond his control, and Alpha, who was already intrigued, embraced the Omega.? ? Seo-yu continued to be drunk while being caressed and unable to give strength to his whole body.? ? ¡®I want to date¡­ Damn¡­ The person who made this blanket here would be in a relationship, and the person who made this pillow would be in a relationship as well, so why am I the only one¡­ I want to get married too¡­¡¯? ? Choi Sung-hoon asked him if he would be in a relationship with him, while he lamented so much in a state of insensitivity.? ? ¡®With you? How¡­ You have to be in love to date¡­¡¯? ? ¡®I love you.¡¯? ? ¡®Really¡­?¡¯? ? When he nodded lightly again, Seo-yu blinked a couple of times and soon smiled broadly.? ? ¡°Okay, then I love you too¡­ Let¡¯s date. Then got married. And have a special proposal to each other¡­ Have a pretty child¡­ There must be at least two children¡­¡¯? ? They had a relationship just like that and Seo-yu kept mumbling to himself.? ? After that, Choi Sung-hoon did his best to become a person who was faithful to his relationship. He enjoyed it every time he met him, and he had forgotten about his depression because he was so engrossed in the unfamiliar happiness he had never felt in his life.? ? The other person attempted suicide, lost a family all at once in an accident, and talks about loneliness while drunk.? ? He also overlooked the fact that he was unfamiliar with people¡¯s sensitive emotions.? ? After realizing that it was his only relationship and that he was his only love, he began receiving psychological counseling.? ? Even the counselor and himself realized that no matter how long he received counseling, he would never develop the empathy he never had. Instead, Choi Sung-hoon learned how to react.? ? The fetus was certain to miscarry, and Choi Sung-hoon felt no sadness or regret for it, but he had to comfort Seo-yu, who was sad. If it was a mechanically injected comfort, Seo-yu would have had it by now, so he had to find a way to reach his heart.? ? Choi Sung-hoon needed Seo-yu¡¯s reaction but at the same time, he was terrified of it.? ? If the loneliness of losing his family and surviving alone drove him to attempt suicide¡­ When he miscarried the fetus¡­? ? Even if he lost his parents and younger brother right now, he wouldn¡¯t feel such loneliness and sadness, but when he thought about losing Seo-yu¡­ Choi Sung-hoon felt as if he were being sucked into endless darkness.? ? In the depths of the abyss, where there was no light at all. He was terrified just by the thought of a world without him. CH 51 Side Story 2-2? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? [¡ð¡ð Gopchang]? ? Choi Sung-hoon frowned as he looked at the shop sign. Because Seo-yu dislikes gopchang, it must be a place that Jang Won-jo chose on his own. He once took a drunken Seo-yu from this place.? ? He returned the subordinate who was guarding the store¡¯s entrance and opened the door. For a brief moment, the raucous interior became silent as he entered. Because Choi Sung-hoon possessed such a strong sense of intimidation.? ? However, the drunken people continued to talk, oblivious to the atmosphere, and Seo-yu was one of them.? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to stop drinking. My counselor told me not to drink too much.¡±? ? ¡°What counselor?¡±? ? ¡°My counselor.¡±? ? Three bottles of soju were rolling around on the table where the two were sitting.? ? ¡°Hey, the way I see you, I think you¡¯re pretending to be depressed. You said you had a concern today, but you came out seriously. What? You¡¯re worried that Jae-hoon is a genius? Does that sound like something a depressed person would say?¡±? ? ¡°Then fuck, if I have depression, should my aura be so damn heavy? Is it set by law? There are so many people in the world who had it, you¡¯re so narrow-mindedly¡­¡±? ? ¡°Do you know the word narrow-minded?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ve been reading some books lately.¡±? ? Seo-yu was engrossed in a book. He had purchased this classic book for prenatal education, but he was now on the 50th page after Jae-hoon was born.? ? ¡°No way, fuck it. What are you going to do now that you¡¯ve read a book? You¡¯re getting older.¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean by ¡®old? Why did I get old?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s over if you¡¯re 30, you punk.¡±? ? ¡°What¡¯s the big deal about being 30? Age is just a number, you jerk.¡±? ? ¡°¡­You¡¯ve changed.¡±? ? ¡°Of course, I¡¯ve changed. Choi Sung-hoo made me change. Our Sung-Hu Woong¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who wanted to hear more but knew Seo-yu was already drunk, stepped in front of them.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Seo-yu, who was tilting his head, raised his face when he quietly called his name. Choi Sung-hoon hugged his shoulder as he looked at his red cheeks and eyes.? ? ¡°Sung Hueng ssi! How did you get here? Wow, nice to meet you¡­¡±? ? When Seo-yu was drunk and talking, his tone of voice became softer. Even that point was so cute that Choi Sung-hoon flipped over his bangs and kissed his lips.? ? ¡°You drank quite a lot. Let¡¯s go now.¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t drink much¡­¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯ll have to see Jae-hoon. Don¡¯t you miss him?¡±? ? ¡°I have to see Jae-hoon-i! Our Jae-hoon-i¡­ Where¡¯s our Jae-hoon-i?¡±? ? Seo-yu turned his head around as if looking for the child. Choi Sung-hoon consoled him and urged him to stand. Jang Won-jo, who had been frozen in blue, awoke as soon as Choi Sung-hoon glanced at him.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? A glance was all that was needed to greet Seo-yu¡¯s friend. Jang Won-jo had his eyes down and couldn¡¯t even open his mouth, as if he were a criminal. He only reacted slightly when Seo-yu waved his hand to call him later.? ? Jang Won-jo was also aware that his friend¡¯s terrifying spouse hated him. He was scared whenever he saw him, but he would call out Seo-yu or come to play while Choi Sung-hoon was away.? ? That was due to the fact that the two were friends.? ? Choi Sung-hoon placed trash that had no human value next to Seo-yu because he was Seo-yu¡¯s only friend.? ? Few people could be considered friends or acquaintances for Seo-yu, who lost his family when he was young and was unable to attend his high school graduation ceremony. Ties were further strained when his uncle was sent away before the wedding.? ? When his husband presented him with a bouquet of flowers, he needed someone to be proud of. His baby was a genius, so he needed someone who he could tell if it was a problem. He needed someone to be honest with him while spitting out vulgar swear words.? ? It cannot be said that Won-jo was the right person for him, but he did not end their relationship because he was the only one who stayed by Seo-yu¡¯s side. ? ? ¡°Sung Hew-woong ssi¡­¡±? ? ¡°Yes, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Hyuung¡­¡±? ? They got into the car and Seo-yu tried to wrap his arms around his neck while he was fastening his seat belt.? ? Seo-yu rubbed his cheek against his shoulder as he bowed his head and did as he pleased.? ? ¡°Whistle¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? He didn¡¯t know where this whistle thing came from, but Choi Sung-hoon kept an eye on his spouse because he was so cute and lovely.? ? The cheeky flesh beneath the reddened eyes, the plump lips, and the moist eyes under the influence of alcohol made him the world¡¯s most rare beauty.? ? It was always a miracle to be able to hold him in his arms.? ? * * *? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who left his wife at home with a headache from a hangover and went to work in the provinces, didn¡¯t put down his cell phone all morning.? ? After 1 p.m., he was contacted by an assistant who had been assigned as a housekeeper.? ? ¨C I believe he¡¯s come to his senses. I think he remembers what happened yesterday. The babysitters are now in chaos because he went into the kitchen saying that he should feed the young master.? ? ¡°Let him do as he pleases.¡±? ? ¨C Yes, sir.? ? Shortly after hanging up, he got a message.? ? Seo-yu? [Choi Sung-hoon ssi, what time are you coming today?]? ? [Are you awake? I leave work at 3 o¡¯clock]? ? Seo-yu? [I woke up earlier, what time do you think now? Haha]? ? Seo-yu? [You worked hard to bring me home yesterday]? ? [I say it again, but you can¡¯t drink too much. Drink moderately]? ? Seo-yu was a person who believed that his drinking capacity was strong enough to empty ten bottles of soju and that he could keep a strong memory even when drunk. Someday, Choi Sung-hoon would have to seriously correct the cute thoughts.? ? Seo-yu? [I remember everything about yesterday hahaha]? ? Another light reply. Today, when he gets home, he has to sit down with him and point it out.? ? Choi Sung-hoon thought so and handed the cell phone to the secretary. The secretary placed the cell phone in the document case and offered Choi Sung-hoon a glove politely. Choi Sung-hoon while wearing gloves, decided to let Seo-yu know that he had a low drinking capacity today.? ? His phone kept vibrating on his way home from work. The family chat room notification sparkled nonstop. It was mainly Sung-hyun and his father, but he occasionally saw Seo-yu¡¯s name, so he went in.? ? Seo-yu has sent five videos and twenty photos of Jae-hoon in an hour. The baby already resembled Seo-yu, his eyes were round and beautiful, and he laughed a lot, so he was well loved by the family.? ? Choi Sung-hoon arrived home while watching the video.? ? Seo-yu was seen holding Jae-hoon in one of the videos. The older baby was still light, but he had to gradually stop holding him on his own.? ? It was difficult childbirth, and his health suffered greatly as a result. Even if he overdid it slightly, he would quickly tire, but he believed he had recovered his health. Choi Sung-hoon was also concerned about how he would persuade him.? ? The smell of burnt oil filled the house as soon as he walked in. Seo-yu announced that the meal was ready and led him to the table. Hotpot of beef bulgogi, egg rolls, japchae, and mixed grain rice? ? Choi Sung-hoon sat down after taking a slow look around the table.? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? A subordinate who should have left his position remained at the door. He wiggled his mustache and signaled again. Choi Sung-hoon moved his brows once to indicate comprehension.? ? Seo-yu, who sat across from Jae-hoon that was held by his babysitter, observed Choi Sung-hoon take his first bite.? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who took a bite of the hotpot and said indifferently.? ? ¡°Um, Seo-yu ssi. Hurry up and eat. It turned out well today¡±? ? ¡°Really? Try the egg rolls too.¡±? ? ¡°It also suits my taste. Japchae is also delicious. I have to call Chef Park and praise him.¡±? ? ¡°Actually, I made all of this.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon made a hard surprised expression.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi? All of this?¡±? ? ¡°Yes! I made all of this. It¡¯s been a while since I rolled up my sleeves.¡±? ? ¡°I had no idea you had this talent.¡± It must have taken a long time and been difficult, but I will eat well.¡±? ? Perhaps it was a sign of regret and gratitude for picking up his drunken self the day before.? ? Was he gradually realized he was drunk?? ? It was regrettable to think that he might stop being drunk. CH 52 Side Story 2-3? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? In the evening, they had to go out for a walk with Jae-hoon according to Seo-yu wishes. When Seo-yu dressed Jae-hoon, Choi Sung-hoon dressed him in a hoodie and a thin coat. The sun was shining brightly because it was summer, but if he let his guard down for a moment, he¡¯d catch a cold.? ? ¡°Should Jae-hoon wear gloves? Young children get cold when they let their guard down for a while.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s midsummer right now.¡±? ? ¡°I know that¡­¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu, why don¡¯t you put on a scarf? Even if it¡¯s thin, wrapping your neck around it keeps you warm.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s midsummer right now, Sung-hoon ssi.¡±? ? After exchanging with each other like that, they decided to leave their gloves and muffler behind.? ? Seo-yu asked as Choi Sung-hoon put Jae-hoon in the stroller.? ? ¡°Did you see the video I posted in the chat room? Our Jae-hoon seems like a genius.¡±? ? ¡°Are you referring to the babbling video?¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean babbling? His pronunciation was so precise. Jae-hoon, do you want to do it like before? Hmm?¡±? ? When Seo-yu sat on his knees in front of the baby and said peekaboo, Jae-hoon laughed.? ? ¡°Dada dadayo.¡±? ? ¡°Look at this. Look at this. Even just now!¡±? ? ¡°Dadayo.¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon is so cute. He says it accurately. I¡¯m sure he¡¯s a genius. What should I do? When should I send my baby to the gifted center? It¡¯s enough for Jae-hoon to be born normal, he doesn¡¯t need to be a genius. Sigh~¡°? ? The babbling was nothing more than that for Choi Sung-hoon, but it sounded a little different to Seo-yu.? ? Choi Sung-hoon silently pushed the stroller while listening to the endlessly lovely conversation between the talkative baby and the person who gave birth to him.? ? In the Hannam-dong area, a high-end residential complex, there was one playroom where only Alpha and Omega babies could enter. Jae-hoon made a lot of new friends there. There were a lot of Omegas who talked to Seo-yu on occasion, but when Choi Sung-hoon came together with him like this, no one spoke to him.? ? Perhaps because it was midsummer and the sun had not yet set, so many parents were out with their children. There were more people who came together as a couple, such as Choi Sung-hoon and Seo-yu, rather than alone.? ? When Jae-hoon discovered his friend, he stumbled and ran frantically. Seo-yu told him not to run, but he didn¡¯t respond well and continued to run. Choi Sung-hoon sat Seo-yu in a chair and calmed him down when he saw how worried he was.? ? The two sat close to each other and watched the scenery of the playroom.? ? The children played without worry and the parents looked at them like they were so adorable. Couples who talk to each other but do not take their eyes off the child.? ? ¡°Mom¡­¡±? ? ¡°Minwoo, your brother is crying. Take your little brother with you.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, seriously. Hey, follow me.¡±? ? When the mother called for her child, the eldest dashed back to the slide, holding his younger brother¡¯s hand tightly. While watching the scene, Seo-yu opened his mouth.? ? ¡°If our Jae-hoon has a younger brother as well-.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t even think about it.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Never. I¡¯m not going through that again.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I understand. Relax your facial expression.¡±? ? Seo-yu gave birth to Jae-hoon after a very difficult childbirth and was unconscious for two days.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s entire body became cold just thinking about it. If Seo-yu knew what he was thinking during those two days, he would never be able to bring up the words related to the second child.? ? Seo-yu placed his face on his shoulder, as if to relieve the tense atmosphere, and displayed his cuteness. Choi Sung-hoon couldn¡¯t help but fall for that cuteness.? ? Choi Sung-hoon shifted his posture and wrapped his arms around Seo-yu. When he buried his nose in his soft hair and felt the weight of being completely reliant on him, it was the happiest moment of his life.? ? He never expected this to happen when he first met this person. As he was born without emotions from the beginning, he had no idea that he would experience fear, happiness, and love¡­? ? ¡°That brothers get along well.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had been soaked in satisfaction, was brought to his senses by Seo-yu¡¯s words. ? ? Following Seo-yu¡¯s gaze, there was a brother who raised his fallen younger brother and cleaned his knees.? ? Perhaps he was thinking about his family. His brother died while he was desperately saving him.? ? The appearance of a person who chose death without hesitation on the rainy Han River bridge in CCTV would never be forgotten.? ? Even now, there were times when he was afraid. He was afraid Seo-yu would continue to think about death. He was afraid of the day when Seo-yu would take off his shoes and hold an unstable railing in his hand without looking up at the sky once.? ? He smiles beautifully as if he hasn¡¯t thought about death now, but Choi Sung-hoon does not believe it.? ? Seo-yu left his phone that day. There was no reason to leave the cell phone behind when bidding farewell to the past.? ? Even then, Seo-yu was unable to answer the question of why he had left his phone.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­?¡±? ? Se-yu¡¯s gaze followed the brother and turned to the young parents watching the brother.? ? Choi Sung-hoon asked, hiding his tension.? ? ¡°¡­What are you thinking now?¡±? ? ¡°What am I thinking? Hohoho.¡±? ? Suddenly, Seo-yu smiled suspiciously.? ? Seo-yu changed his posture in his arms and whispered into Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s ear.? ? ¡°Look at them. Everyone talks about their child as if they are the most beautiful and handsome, but even if no one says anything, they all know that our Jae-hoon is the most handsome.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Even if they don¡¯t say anything, I know my child is the most handsome~~. He¡¯s so handsome, right~? How can there be such a handsome baby? I know everything. I know everyone gets surprised every time they see him. Fufufu~~.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? It was a bright smile devoid of deception.? ? The worries and tensions that had been weighing on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s mind vanished in an instant.? ? Even though Seo-yu was always acting unexpectedly, he still surprise him with words and actions that he would never have thought of in such an unexpected moment¡­ He couldn¡¯t help but fall in love. It was impossible not to fall in love at every moment.? ? The mind, which no emotion could invade, was now dominated by one person.? ? He was certain that this feeling was present because of the person in his heart.? ? A smile appeared on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s face. It was a smile that reminded him of the only person he loved. CH 53 Side Story 3-1? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? Even before I opened the window, the sound of cool waves lingered in my ears. I came to play in the sea as soon as I opened my eyes, where I could see the white waves crashing and the beautiful white sandy beach.? ? I begged Choi Sung-hoon because I wanted Jae-hoon to experience the sea as soon as possible. It was our first trip after our honeymoon. Sung-hyun, who was on vacation from university, also joined us.? ? I couldn¡¯t refuse when he opened his teary eyes wide wanting to go with us and said that he was our younger brother. Even if Sung-hyun wasn¡¯t, it was a trip with three babysitters.? ? We were supposed to go to an island owned by Choi Sung-hoon, but I ended up at a domestic beach thinking of Jae-hoon. It was scheduled for 10 nights and 11 days, and instead of using a hotel, I booked a villa near the beach, which was a beautiful and peaceful place.? ? When we first arrived and I praised it, Choi Sung-hoon said he would buy it if I wanted to because it was a villa owned by an acquaintance. He appeared to own only a few villas in Korea. Most of his villas were abroad¡­ One day, I would check on all his villas abroad.? ? I ate at the villa in the morning and went down to the beach. Jae-hoon trembled in Sung-hyun¡¯s arms, perhaps because he was scared of the scenery he saw for the first time.? ? ¡°Are you scared? Hey, you¡¯re an Alpha, you shouldn¡¯t be scared of things like this.¡±? ? ¡°Hyung-ah, dad.¡±? ? ¡°Why are you acting cute? Just who do you look like for having so much cuteness.¡±? ? That¡¯s right. I wonder who he looks like.? ? Sung-hyun took Jae-hoon to the beach to play, and Choi Sung-hoon laid down under a parasol. Both of us were dressed in black T-shirts and shorts. Choi Sung-hoon, of course, gave me a T-shirt in the morning when I was about to take off my top.? ? Choi Sung-hoon has a big tattoo on his back, so it was understandable that he wears a black cotton shirt that wasn¡¯t transparent, but when I asked him why he gave me a black shirt as well, he naturally said.? ? ¡°It¡¯s a couple t-shirt. We have to brag about being a couple in front of so many people.¡±? ? I was convinced by the answer.? ? I was having a good time with Choi Sung-hoon and Jae-hoon under the parasol, playing with the sand, dipping our feet in the sea, and picking up shells. Until it started to make me hungry.? ? Jae-hoon was sent back to the villa to sleep early, and Sung-hyun was arguing with a friend he was dating today, so I ended up having dinner alone with Choi Sung-hoon.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go to that hotel. The view of the restaurant was nice.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon recommended a white hotel on the cliff, so we went there, and when I entered the restaurant, I was discouraged.? ? The interior was clean and the scenery was as good as a movie, but¡­ The waiter was a middle-aged Westerner with platinum blonde hair, and the menu was in a foreign language as well. The menu was even written in an unusual cursive style.? ? I looked down at the menu and said with as normal an expression as possible.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon ssi, I¡¯ll act like I¡¯m choosing a menu, so Choi Sung-hoon ssi, please take care of the order. If you order steak then that¡¯s it.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡°? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled lowly while covering his mouth for a moment before speaking to the waiter who was standing right next to him.? ? ¡°Vincent, did you hear that? Please take care of it.¡±? ? ¡°How well do you want to grill it?¡±? ? ¡°Medium rare.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, director. Please wait a moment.¡±? ? He seemed to be more fluent in his Korean pronunciation than I was.? ? What¡­ What?? ? When I asked with my eyes, Choi Sung-hoon explained.? ? ¡°He was my father¡¯s secretary. Vincent is the restaurant manager as well as the owner of the villa where we stay.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ You should have told me in advance¡­¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s okay. He is used to it.¡±? ? Yeah¡­ I was used to it by this point. I was always doing something embarrassing in front of Choi Sung-hoon.? ? The serving was also done by the manager named Vincent himself. He seemed to want to talk to me, so I bowed my head or pretended to be on my phone whenever he approached. But by the time we finished our dessert, he had come and we had a conversation.? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t know you were such a lovely person because I couldn¡¯t attend the wedding. Please accept my apologies for the late greeting.¡±? ? ¡°Oh¡­ well, I¡¯m sorry for being rude earlier.¡±? ? ¡°What rude thing did you do to me? Oh, was it that you¡¯re so beautiful that made me blind for a while?? ? Wow, that was cheesy, but it felt great.? ? I felt shy and happy when a middle-aged man with gray hair naturally gave praise with warm eyes.? ? I smiled as I folded my eyes.? ? ¡°Thank you very much, Vincent¡­ May I address you as such?¡±? ? ¡°If you refer to me as that¡­¡±? ? Clang!? ? Oh, my goodness, that surprised me.? ? I was surprised and looked at Choi Sung-hoon. The force with which he lowered his knife was such that even far away table guests were surprised and looked this way.? ? ¡°What are you trying to do in front of me?¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon grumbled angrily, while Vincent took three steps back.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know what do you mean. I can¡¯t speak Korean. Enjoy your meal.¡±? ? Vincent suddenly uttered an extremely poor Korean language and disappeared into the distance.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s eyes were burning, and I had to deal with them on my own.? ? ¡°That jerk divorced three times and is currently living with the friend of his second wife.¡±? ? ¡°Really? He¡¯s a bad person. I¡¯m not even going to be able to get along with him.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who suddenly reveals Vincent¡¯s marriage history without even me asking him, was so cute, and the back of his hand with the veins in his tightly clenched fist was too sexy.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s eat quickly and leave. I miss Jae-hoon.¡±? ? ¡°If you don¡¯t mind, let¡¯s go now.¡±? ? As a result, we stood up without having eaten dessert. Vincent didn¡¯t even show up to see us off.? ? When I returned to the villa, the babysitters were also eating, so the air was filled with delicious smells. I gave them money so they could buy food here, but it would be more delicious if they cooked it themselves.? ? Jae-hoon was playing with a dog toy that made a barking sound. When he saw us, he threw away the toy and ran over. It was so cute to see a child wearing a bib with a teddy bear picture on it and posing to hug me across the chest with his arms open. However, Choi Sung-hoon stopped me from trying to hug him right away.? ? ¡°You can¡¯t carry him around for a long time. He is all grown up now.¡±? ? ¡°He is only two years old now.¡±? ? ¡°He is big and heavy.¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-i is still young. Still a baby.¡± (This is Jae-hoon speaking)? ? Jae-hoon looked at the atmosphere and immediately opened his eyes and spoke. I covered my mouth and quickly grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s forearms.? ? ¡°If he is not a genius, then what is it?¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon, go and organize your toys. Your dad said he¡¯ll hug you.¡±? ? ¡°Yes!¡±? ? Jae-hoon returned quickly after tossing his toy into the box. Then he spread his arms and grabbed Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s calves, rubbing his cheeks.? ? ¡°Hug me, hug me.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Someday I will stop you from acting spoiled¡­¡± ? ? ¡°He is a baby. Hug him quickly.¡±? ? At my urging, Choi Sung-hoon hugged Jae-hoon. Because of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s awkward posture, Jae-hoon took a comfortable posture. I thought the baby rubbing his round cheeks on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s wide chest was so adorable that I told him to stand still and took a photo of them. Choi Sung-hoon was so big, but Jae-hoon was so small that he seemed to be holding a doll tightly. I gently pressed Jae-hoon¡¯s soft cheeks.? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-i, did you eat?¡±? ? ¡°I did, mamma!¡±? ? ¡°Choi Jae-hoon, say it again properly. You can¡¯t speak informally.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Mamma, Jae-hoon-i has eaten.¡±? ? Jae-hoon fixed his words while holding Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s shirt with his cute hands tightly.? ? Choi Sung-hoon was not such a kind father to his son. I have no intention of attempting to change his natural personality. Because Jae-hoon was good at expressing himself and was growing up quickly.? ? We went to our rooms, turned on the TV, and sat in bed together to play. Jae-hoon brought a children¡¯s book for Choi Sung-hoon to read to him. It was a story about a fox who couldn¡¯t eat grapes, but Jae-hoon, who was reading a book in Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s arms, said this out of nowhere.? ? ¡°That¡¯s sour grapes. Let¡¯s stop now and play.¡±? ? OMG!? ? I got up hastily.? ? He just read the text! I never taught him! He was only two years old!? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, calm down. Look at me.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took my excited hand and gently comforted me.? ? ¡°He didn¡¯t read the writing, but he remembered and followed what I had read before. I¡¯ve read it to him a few times.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Still. Isn¡¯t he a real genius? How does he remember all this? He is only two years old!¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon looked at me. It was a deep gaze as if contemplating something.? ? He sighed lightly when Jae-hoon tilted his head and said, ¡°Is Jae-hoon-i a genius?¡±? ? ¡°Go and play for a while.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon stood up with Jae-hoon in his arms. Choi Sung-hoon patted Jae-hoon on the back, who was whining. When he looked at him like that, he looks like a real dad. He was a real dad, but¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon, who had returned from leaving Jae-hoon with the babysitter, drew down the blanket and made eye contact with me, who was hiding. He had a soft and gentle expression on his face.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, do you want Jae-hoon to be a genius?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t want him to be a genius¡­ It¡¯s because he really seems like a genius.¡±? ? ¡°Even if he is not a genius, Jae-hoon is our lovely and precious child.¡±? ? ¡°I know¡­¡±? ? I pulled up the blanket again and covered my nose. With a thin summer blanket in between, Choi Sung-hoon put his lips to the bridge of my nose.? ? I was scolded because of this issue a while ago. He says he never scolded me, but he did.? ? I was afraid of Choi Sung-hoon would be disappointed if Jae-hoon was not a genius. Or would he be disappointed if Jae-hoon grew up to be normal, even if he was a genius now? He was our only child in the world, even if he wasn¡¯t a genius.? ? I had been persuaded to speak quietly, so I refrained from becoming overly excited after that. But what can I do when he appears to be a genius at times?? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon pulled down the blanket and smiled at me.? ? ¡°Your mouth is sticking out again.¡±? ? ¡°I think Choi Sung-hoon lost his objectivity by trying to be too objective. I couldn¡¯t find any two-year-old babies like this anywhere in the world, no matter how hard I looked. He speaks very well, his pronunciation is accurate, his comprehension is quick, and his memory is great¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon kept making eye contact and softening his eyes while I was speaking. I had no choice but to mumble and carry it in when I saw that lovely smile.? ? ¡°All right. I will be more careful in the future.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, thank you for your understanding.¡±? ? He stroked my lips with his hard finger.? ? ¡°Shall we go wash up?¡±? ? He asked, kissing my cheek and the corner of my mouth. I nodded my head while still sticking my mouth out. Choi Sung-hoon grabbed me and gently patted my back, as he had done before with Jae-hoon, before moving on. To the comfortable bedroom where we will spend the entire vacation. CH 54 Side story 3-2? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? The body clashed roughly, and the old bed in the villa creaked and struggled to hold on. A large hand grabbed my waist and I felt a hot moan on the back of my neck.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ hah¡­¡±? ? He grabbed my waist with one hand and moved my hips wildly, squeezing my frantic arm over the bed with the other.? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s was particularly big, and if he put it back in, it became even deeper and I couldn¡¯t stand the moan. Furthermore, if the current pattern of putting in and taking out continues¡­? ? ¡°Ahh¡­ Ah¡­ Oh¡­!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon bit the back of my neck as I shook my head as if I was telling him that I couldn¡¯t take it any longer.? ? ¡°No, you can¡¯t. Hang in there. Today¡­ I¡¯m going to do it until the end.¡±? ? ¡°Hah¡­ Haa¡­¡±? ? Because I knew what he meant by ¡®to the end,¡¯ anticipation prickled my brain like an itch, and I was too embarrassed to ask myself to be more patient, so a moan leaked out like a cry.? ? ¡°Ah, heuk, heuk, please¡­ Ah! Slo, slowly¡­!¡±? ? I twisted my back in his arms, but to no avail. He moved so deeply that something large that had pierced inside me was about to pop out of my stomach.? ? ¡°Su, Sung-hoon, Sung-hoon ssi¡­ Slow-, ah, heuk!¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry, but I said I won¡¯t hold it in today.¡°? ? ¡°Ugh, heuk, ah¡­ Heuk¡­!¡±? ? My plea to take it slow was passed lightly as if it was cute, but the beating deepened even more.? ? My plea to take it slowly was passed off lightly as if it were a cute plea, and he went even deeper.? ? It filled the inner wall that came deep into the womb and then moved out roughly, so I wet the pillow with saliva and tears and continued to groan. I tried to tear off Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand, which he was holding with one free hand, but he wouldn¡¯t budge.? ? ¡°Heuk, ah, hah, ah¡­!¡±? ? It sounded too harsh for a skin-to-flesh clash. Failing to remove Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s hand from my waist, I moved it to my lower abdomen.? ? ¡°Sung-, Sung-hoon, haa, I, my stomach¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­What¡¯s wrong with your stomach?¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Heuk, my stomach is full¡­ Ah¡­!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon gave me a low smile and bit the back of my neck. Even with a hazy memory, I could tell that there would be severe marks tomorrow.? ? ¡°It¡¯ll be fuller now.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, no¡­ Good¡­ it feels good¡­ Ugh, heuk¡­¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon did not comfort me when I burst into tears. Instead, he accelerated even faster, as if he were going to make his words come true.? ? ¡°Haa¡­¡±? ? ¡°Haa, a, ah¡­ Heuk!¡±? ? I moaned and drooled at the intense movement of pulling it all the way out and then driving it in at once. My vision became blurry, and I couldn¡¯t think of anything.? ? Haa¡­? ? I could hear a low groan like a beast in my ear, and I could no longer overcome the pleasure when he once again drove it all the way in.? ? ¡°Ahh¡­!¡±? ? Semen leaked from mine at the same time that what had entered inside me had filled the inner wall, which had now become greatly inflated my stomach.? ? ¡°Your stomach is full.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s voice was immersed in satisfaction.? ? I couldn¡¯t believe it, so I opened my eyes wide and groped my stomach. Choi Sung-hoon took my hand in his and clasped it.? ? I fell on the bed as I was exhausted, and I was stuck between Choi Sung-hoon and the bed. Choi Sung-hoon attempted to make room for me, who was weighed down by more than three digits, but it was more of an act of stimulation.? ? ¡°No¡­ Ah¡­ Ugh! Don¡¯t move¡­ Ah¡­!¡±? ? My lower body also went up because he grabbed my waist and the inner wall. My limbs trembled.? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Haa¡­haa¡­¡±? ? I wanted to shout to him not to apologize, but all that came out was a moan mixed with crying.? ? ¡°Seo-yu¡­ ¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon continued to call my name while kissing the back of my neck, biting my ear, and turning my chin to kiss me. Until long after the knotting had been untied. I felt his emotions all over my body as I was entangled in him, kissed, and he called me over and over again.? ? * * *? ? The effects of knotting were great. I couldn¡¯t get out of bed the next day, and Choi Sung-hoon seemed pleased with my appearance. He apologized with a smile on his face. It was only then that he said there would be no more knotting during this vacation, and I stiffened.? ? Of course, it was all a lie not to do knotting. I couldn¡¯t help myself from doing something this good again. The main purpose of this vacation was to have a hot night like hellfire.? ? The days at the beach were relaxing.? ? I thought the mountains were better than the sea, but the sea was equally as good. It was nice to drink coffee on the villa¡¯s terrace while watching the blue waves glisten in the sunlight, listening to the sound of waves crashing in the wind with Choi Sung-Hoon, and it was nice to overlap bodies softly and sometimes violently. It was also fun to watch Jae-hoon play in the water.? ? All my worries vanished when I saw Sung-hyun, who plays with Jae-hoon, and Choi Sung-hoon, who rolls up his sleeves and supports Jae-hoon so he doesn¡¯t fall.? ? Even today, when the date to go back to Seoul was only a day away, I woke up listening to the sound of the waves. As soon as I opened my eyes, I made eye contact with Choi Sung-hoon, who was holding Jae-hoon in his arms.? ? ¡°Are you awake? I got up early.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­ What time is it?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s one o¡¯clock.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon got up while holding Jae-hoon and said he was going to bring me a meal. I haven¡¯t even said good morning to Jae-hoon yet¡­ And Jae-hoon also whined about wanting to hug me, so Choi Sung-hoon reluctantly placed Jae-hoon in my arms.? ? I finished my meal slowly on the bed and prepared to leave. Choi Sung-hoon patted Jae-hoon¡¯s chest to put him to sleep, but I kept kissing his soft cheeks, making the child laugh.? ? Choi Sung-hoon finally said something.? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi, if you¡¯re not going to put Jae-hoon to sleep, let¡¯s spend the last day of our vacation on the bed.¡±? ? As a result, I quietly sang a lullaby. The day was already too bright and sunny to spend hot time in bed.? ? After Jae-hoon fell asleep, we quietly left the villa.? ? The path down to the beach was a trail of dense evergreen trees, and it was even more gleaming and lovely today. A squirrel also greeted me on a large rock, and I took a selfie with Choi Sung-hoon. Almost all five of my social media pages were filled with sea photos.? ? ¡°It¡¯s a good thing you came. I¡¯m glad you appear to have improved your mood.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon took my excited hand in his and said so. It was a light tone that passed by, but it struck me hard.? ? I was so happy these days that I was weighed down with guilt.? ? I had the impression that I was living my life to the fullest. Even though I don¡¯t think I should be living this well without my mother, father, and older brother, I was wondering if I could be this happy.? ? When I said goodbye on the Mapo Bridge that day, I promised to live my own life without thinking about them, but there were times when I couldn¡¯t help but think that way. Choi Sung-hoon seems to have noticed.? ? I was sorry but grateful, so I stopped walking and stepped up. Choi Sung-hoon hugged and kissed me when our gazes met. I had planned to spend the last day of the vacation in bed, but Sung-hyun, who had been waiting, came up and barely found a reason.? ? ***? ? Sung-hyun tanned completely in ten days. He said he was tanning on purpose, but it was clear he dozed off in the sun. Even so, it was pretty cool that the muscle line didn¡¯t disappear.? ? Along with Choi Sung-hoon, Sung-hyun, who has short sports hair and a confident demeanor, was a beach celebrity. It was natural for the two brothers to draw attention because they appear to be dominant Alphas with good looks and money. The beach¡¯s exclusive advertising model offer was bound to come sooner or later.? ? Ah, but what can I do? He was already married to me. We got married.? ? I was sitting on the beach cafe terrace and swept my bangs with my ringed hand toward people who looked this way, but suddenly a shadow fell in front of my eyes.? ? ¡°I¡¯m getting sunburnt, so I¡¯m using it.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled softly and hid his face behind a black parasol.? ? You couldn¡¯t see if you did this¡­? ? ¡°What about Sung-hyun?¡±? ? ¡°He is coming.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m thinking about tanning as well. With a healthy color like Sung-hyun.¡±? ? ¡°If Seo-yu ssi wants it, you can do it. I will bring the machine into the house.¡±? ? ¡°I can do it here. Why are you going to buy a machine? I¡¯ll get tanned if I go out right now and lay down with oil for two or three hours.¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? ¡°Yes?¡±? ? ¡°I have no intention of showing your body to these people, and I¡¯m still holding on to wanting to lock you up in a villa, so don¡¯t provoke me any more.¡±? ? ¡°Yes¡­¡±? ? His mouth was smiling, but his eyes were so cold that I gave up tanning right away. Despite my response, Choi Sung-hoon murmured lowly while caressing my cheek with a dark gaze.? ? ¡°Should I lock you up now?¡±? ? What the.? ? I squinted my eyes fiercely.? ? ¡°Just try to lock me somewhere. It¡¯s going to be a war.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m kidding.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t make me laugh. You were so serious. I have a good sense.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hoon should be careful when taking pets. Isn¡¯t it stressful to confine your pets, especially foxes?¡±? ? I recalled that Choi Sung-hoon tried to raise foxes in the past.? ? There was no discussion of getting a pet because Jae-hoon was born shortly after we married, but I¡¯d like to have a couple of them. In any case, all of the care would be provided by those who assist with housework¡­? ? ¡°Because your house has a big yard, even the foxes will enjoy running around in it.¡±? ? ¡°Hmm¡­ Well. I don¡¯t think there will be any need for a fox in the future.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon smiled suspiciously and touched my eyes for some reason.? ? Ha, damn¡­ What did I do when I was single?? ? Hiding and kissing a black parasol on a turquoise beach under a blue sky seems to be the most important thing in life after filial piety and charity. CH 55 Side Story 3-3? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? Choi Sung-hoon decided to buy the villa. Because I said I want to come here again next year. He went to the grumpy manager and promised to finish the contract as soon as possible. Sung-hyun and I waved from the cliff-side hotel.? ? Could he see us? I hope he could see us.? ? Sung-hyun and I were going to ride in an ATV along the sandy beach. It was a two-seater, so Sung-hyun was in charge of the steering wheel.? ? I was waiting because I couldn¡¯t leave until the previous team had left and returned, but people kept looking to this side. This was because our Sung-hyun was naked, and his body was very good, with veins protruding.? ? I urged him to go get a shirt as soon as possible. Sung-hyun grumbled and eventually went to get it.? ? Meanwhile, I moved to a location under the shade of a tree to avoid attention, but a gangster that looked like Bettas approached me and began arguing. Foreigners with yellow hair kept grabbing their arms and stroking their shoulders while speaking in a foreign language.? ? As I was doing all the English swear words I knew because I was in a bad mood, Sung-hyun appeared in a shirt with the sea on it. He punched the chin of the foreign guy who was holding my wrist and shouted in very fluent English, causing the foreigners to back away.? ? ¡°What¡¯s the deal with those cretins? Seo-yu hyung, are you okay?¡±? ? When Sung-hyun noticed the red handprints on my wrists, he cursed them in English. Why were you swearing in English when it just makes me feel isolated?? ? ¡°You should show this to my brother. Get your phone out as soon as possible. I¡¯ll take a photo.¡±? ? ¡°Are you insane? Your brother will be charged with murder.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s fine. There is nothing that can¡¯t be done with only three people.¡±? ? What was this kid talking about¡­? ? I broke out in a cold sweat at the terrifying joke.? ? It was our turn after arguing about whether or not to take a picture. Initially, the course ran on the sandy beach and returned after passing through an unpaved slope.? ? I couldn¡¯t smile when the ATV began to move and ran on the sandy beach in the cool wind and entered the unpaved slope.? ? Damn, what was I thinking when I said I was going to ride this?? ? It was a rough slope with only one rusty guardrail holding out. If we slip a little, we¡¯ll go straight to the sea¡­? ? ¡°Hey, be careful! Slowly!¡±? ? ¡°Wahaha, Hyung. It¡¯s so much fun. Right!¡±? ? ¡°You punk, go slowly!¡±? ? ¡°Huh? Go faster? Okay!¡±? ? I shouted loudly, but this crazy bastard Choi Sung-hyun screamed back and stepped on the accelerator even more.? ? I would never ride an ATV if this bastard drives again.? ? It was a time when I hoped that time would pass quickly while holding on to the safety bar. Suddenly, something popped out of the grass on the left. It seemed to be a wild animal, but Sung-hyun was surprised and lost his grip on the steering wheel.? ? ¡°Uh, uh¡­¡±? ? Kiiik.? ? There was a sharp sound of tires sliding. After colliding with a rock hidden in the grass on the corner, the ATV car jumped over a low guardrail. Then it collided with a rock in the middle of the ocean.? ? With the sound of crashing waves, water splashed all over the body.? ? Cough.? ? I had a cough and a dizzy feeling in my head.? ? I blinked my eyes open.? ? The ATV was submerged in the sea from the front with one rear wheel hanging on a rock.? ? I couldn¡¯t believe if this was really real.? ? The fact that my entire body was wet and the ATV was hanging was like a nightmare that would fade as soon as I closed and opened my eyes. The sea was directly in front of me, and I could hear the waves crashing.? ? ¡°Uh, Seo, Seo-yu Hyung.¡±? ? However, the moment I heard that voice, my distant mind was jolted awake.? ? Sung-hyun was terrified and called me. Sung-hyun was looking for his family. I bit down hard on the inside of my mouth.? ? I have to come to my senses? ? It was never an illusion. It was now stopped by rocks, but the ATV was about to fall into a rough sea of unknown depth, and we¡¯d soon be unable to breathe.? ? Unlike back then, it was fortunate that the ATV had no windows or doors.? ? First of all, I unfastened Sung-hyun¡¯s seat belt, which was he struggling with, and then untied mine. I clearly remember hearing the description of the life jacket, and when I looked it up, one was caught on the protruding part of the ATV and was torn, while the other was in good condition.? ? Sung-hyun must have been terrified, but he spread his arms and put on a life vest as I instructed. I was so proud of his appearance.? ? ¡°Would you like to take it out from the foot slowly? Support it with a rock in a location where you can reach it.¡±? ? ¡°O, okay.¡±? ? The moment Sung-hyun moved his right foot, the ATV shook violently. Sung-hyun screamed and shrugged again.? ? ¡°I think I¡¯m going to fall. I can¡¯t move.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun, you are wearing a life jacket. You can swim. You can ride a surfboard as well. Right?¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, hyung¡­¡±? ? ¡°Let¡¯s move slowly again. Take your feet off and put your hands on the rocks. I will support you.¡±? ? I calmed Sung-hyun, who was crying, and made him move again. Sung-hyun moved as slowly and cautiously as he could, but the ATV creaked.? ? The ATV, which was tangled on a rock, continued to sink into the sea. The longer we waited in fear, the worse it got for us. I wanted to persuade him to do it soon as possible.? ? ¡°It¡¯s okay. Slowly, slowly. You are doing well.¡±? ? However, the opposite words came out of my mouth. I wasn¡¯t aware of it either. Sung-hyun kept crying, and I bit my lips until blood came out.? ? Finally, when Sung-hyun placed both arms on the protruding rock, I used all of my strength to push Sunghyun from bottom to top. He was much bigger and heavier than me, and I have no idea where such strength came from.? ? The ATV slipped down as soon as Sung-hyun climbed up the rock as if it had been waiting for this moment.? ? I was wondering if I could get out of this raging wave.? ? I closed my eyes as I gazed at the approaching blue sea.? ? I wished Choi Sung-hoon was next to me but at the same time, I felt fortunate that he was not next to me. There were so many things I wanted to say to him. I love you, I want you to live the happiest life with Jae-hoon, don¡¯t blame Sung-hyun, I was so happy to have you¡­? ? It would be nice if I could say it one last time.? ? I lost my consciousness at the end of that thought.? ? Then when I opened my eyes, there was a familiar image in a blurry view.? ? Water was dripping from his hair, and his lips trembled with fear. His eyes were filled with all kinds of emotions.? ? I tried to call out Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s name, but my lips were stiff.? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu¡­!¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon hurriedly grabbed my shoulder. I lost my consciousness again, and I was not sure if I lost consciousness after telling him I love him or not.? ? * * * ? ? It was the fishermen passing by in the plump boat who rescued me, and Choi Sung-hoon was the person who performed CPR and artificial respiration on me for 40 minutes without stopping before the rescuers arrived, although I had already drunk too much water and was not breathing.? ? When we got into the accident, he said he had just arrived at the ATV departure point after purchasing the villa. If Choi Sung-hoon arrived a little late, I would most likely¡­? ? As a result, I survived unharmed with the exception of a sprained ankle (which I was unaware of) caused by the ATV slipping and a rib that broke as a result of the CPR, but he was so furious. He was about to annihilate almost all ATVs in the world. The part that made him particularly angry was why I gave my life jackets to others.? ? Sung-hyun wasn¡¯t even any other person¡­? ? Choi Sung-hoon seemed to think that I did not desperately try to live. In the end, seeing him so angry, I burst into tears because I felt wronged and saddened. Choi Sung-hoon saw my tears and hugged me.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t want to live in this world without you. Always keep in mind that you must live. Don¡¯t even consider making a sacrifice for someone else. You must be alive, Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? It was like making a promise to oneself.? ? Sung-hyun paid a visit only after Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s anger had subsided. Sung-hyun entered the room sniffling. He sobbed so hard that his once-healthy and confident eyes turned into crucian carp.? ? I looked at Sung-hyun¡¯s swollen eyes and then stared at Choi Sung-hoon. I was going to scold Choi Sung-hoon until I cried if Sung-hyun was crying because he was scolding him. I wasn¡¯t sure why an older brother couldn¡¯t comfort his younger brother who was only 23 years old maturely¡­? ? When I asked firmly if he had scolded Sung-hyun, Choi Sung-hoon answered no with an expressionless face. I asked Sung-hyun again when Choi Sung-hoon wasn¡¯t around, but he shook his head as he widened his eyes and said no as well. He seems to have cried simply because he was sad and going through a difficult time.? ? I comforted Sung-hyun by patting him on the back like an adult. But right after that, when Choi Sung-hoon arrived with Jae-hoon in his arms, who was crying sadly, I cried as well. As soon as I saw Jae-hoon crying, I wanted to beat myself for thinking of dying and leaving this child.? ? When I was crying so hard, I got a video call from Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s parents, and it was unfortunate that the image of a tearful Omega had hardened¡­? ? I was hospitalized in the city for one day and then transferred to a hospital in Seoul the next day.? ? We returned to the beach where we had spent ten days before going back. Choi Sung-hoon didn¡¯t like it, but I begged him to change his mind.? ? The sea was still blue and beautiful as if nothing had happened.? ? As I gazed at the sparkling blue waves reflected in the sunlight, I suddenly realized.? ? If I didn¡¯t get out of that sea¡­ There would be no such thing as a ¡®beautiful sea¡¯ for Choi Sung-hoon in the future.? ? He would have taken the beautiful sea away from him forever.? ? I was relieved that didn¡¯t happen.? ? ¡°This vacation would never be forgotten.¡±? ? I whispered to Choi Sung-hoon, who was pushing the wheelchair, but he was blunt and sarcastic.? ? ¡°It would be. It would be a vacation I want to forget.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s not what I meant. I was talking about that time¡­ At that time¡­¡±? ? When I fell into the sea¡­ I thought I wanted to see Jae-hoon and Choi Sung-hoon one more time. I wanted to die after seeing Choi Sung-hoon once more.? ? I wanted to talk to him. Don¡¯t be too sad even if I die, forget about me and live happily. That was something I wanted to say.? ? And I thought of my older brother.? ? ¡­Seo-yeon Hyung.? ? When I pushed Sung-hyun. When I pushed Sung-hyun up with a force that even I couldn¡¯t comprehend¡­? ? ¡°I pushed his back and thought a little bit of what my brother had done¡­ I thought I had figured it out.¡±? ? He was able to get out right away after pushing me out, but he didn¡¯t come out for a long time. Was he attempting to save our parents, or was his final goodbye too long¡­ I couldn¡¯t ask now, but¡­? ? I complained a lot to my brother, who had his eyes closed, about why he forced me to live alone and why he saved me.? ? Now I understand.? ? That was my older brother¡¯s thought when he pushed me out at the time.? ? At the very least, vaguely¡­ I could understand.? ? ¡°¡­Seo-yu ssi.¡±? ? Choi Sung-hoon walked in front of me. He sat on one knee on the sand and looked me in the eyes without hesitation. His face was filled with a range of emotions, and the love in his eyes was unmistakable.? ? Because I came back to life then. Thanks to my older brother for saving me, thanks for pushing me on the back with all his might.? ? I became to be able to love, and he became to be able to love me as well.? ? I was able to live a happy life with this person.? ? At that time¡­ He saved me and I could live my life the way my older brother wished.? ? ¡°I love you,¡± he whispered. I whispered to him that I loved him as well.? ? We kissed against the beautiful view of the sea. CH 56 **From now on it would be Choi Sung-hyun POV till the end of the series? ? I¡¯ve been having nightmares since that day. It was such a terrifying dream that I became afraid to dream for the first time in my life.? ? ¡®Choi Sung-hyun, you¡¯re wearing a life jacket. You can swim as well. You also can ride a surfboard. right?¡¯? ? ¡®Let¡¯s move slowly again. Take your feet off and put your hands on the rocks. I will support you.¡¯? ? ¡®It¡¯s okay. Slowly, slowly. You¡¯re doing well.¡¯? ? Don¡¯t do that, hyung.? ? Push me up and don¡¯t fall.? ? I begged even though I knew it was a dream, and I was eventually pushed up. However, Seo-yu hyung, who pushed me up, has drowned in the black sea.? ? My body was drenched in a cold sweat when I awoke from the endless horrors.? ? He was much smaller than me, and his wrist was only half the size of my older brother¡¯s, so I wondered where and how did he get such strength.? ? The experience at sea was terrible. Even now, just thinking about it chills my spine and makes my heart race like it¡¯s bursting through my chest.? ? Seo-yu hyung, who almost died after pushing me like that, only woke up one day later. Actually, I wanted to pour out my resentment. I tried to shout angrily at the person who was staring blankly with a white face.? ? Never do that again. I was not happy to live like that.? ? What would the meaning of such a life be if I only survived because of my brother¡¯s sacrifice?? ? However, it never came out of my mouth.? ? Because Seo-yu hyung survived ¡®that way¡¯.? ? There was nothing I could say or do in front of the person who had survived in that way. I could only cry in front of him.? ? * * *? ? Oh¡­ this, shit.? ? I once again missed my own classes. The sun had already risen in the middle of the sky when I awoke thirstily.? ? My head was pounding in the aftermath of the all-morning drinking party. I was such a great and perfect dominant Alpha that it was difficult for me to get drunk, but about two weeks ago, one of my classmates brought and told me about a new drink that could make a dominant Alpha drunk. It¡¯s been like this ever since.? ? The smell of alcohol was terrible in the living room. Looking at the alarm clock and batteries rolling on the floor, I could see why the alarm didn¡¯t go off.? ? We all got together to do our homework, but it turned into a drinking party. It hasn¡¯t been a couple of days.? ? ¡°Snoore, snoore.¡±? ? ¡°Shut up, you little.¡±? ? Then I kicked the snorer¡¯s buttocks, thinking he was going to die soon. I stepped on the bodies scattered throughout the living room and discovered my cell phone in a corner. When I plugged in my phone, which was dead due to a dead battery, the number 12:30 appeared on the screen.? ? I was only a hair¡¯s breadth away from missing the afternoon lecture, so I dashed to my bedroom. The living room and other rooms were allowed to be dirty, but only the bedroom and dressing room were forbidden from entering, so the housekeeper cleaned it and left it clean.? ? As I took a shower in my bedroom bathroom, I looked in the mirror at my perfect body, which was becoming more and more perfect by the day. I even got a tattoo from my shoulder to my forearm without my mother¡¯s knowledge.? ? A turtle tattoo engulfed by a lion¡¯s head. My father introduced me to this place, so if my mother finds out about this tattoo, my father would be the first to die.? ? Haa¡­ Why was I looking so good even on my forearms?? ? This was an objective assessment, not a haphazard one. At the very least, even the tattooist praised him, saying he had never seen such a perfect mitral muscle before.? ? I used wax to hold my hair up, reflecting my wet and sexy appearance in the mirror.? ? I have to leave for my afternoon lecture.? ? This semester marks the fifth time I¡¯ve skipped class. I even skipped the required business administration major five times. My brother and mother might kill me if I was caught. Dad would explain that it was a good experience for me to take a break on my own, but Mom would come over and tell me that she didn¡¯t buy me another car like this and put it out right away. Above all, if my brother knows¡­? ? Goosebumps¡­? ? Feeling the chill, I hurriedly finished trimming my hair.? ? Let¡¯s hide behind Seo-yu hyung if that happens.? ? ¡­? ? No, I can¡¯t. Then he would be even more pissed off.? ? The only way was to stop skipping classes on my own.? ? First of all, from the 1 o¡¯clock class. This was also a required course for business administration credits that could not be missed, so it had to be taken. Being late would be fine.? ? The phone was 80% charged during that time.? ? I grabbed my phone and went to the dressing room, where I was met by a handsome god who appeared to have just descended from the sky.? ? Oh, it was just me in the mirror.? ? It was already been 25 years, and I was still surprised. With this radiant appearance.? ? ¡°Oh, that scared me.¡±? ? I was surprised to see the dried squid that appeared unexpectedly after turning around.? ? ¡°Puuu.¡±? ? ¡°Puhuu.¡±? ? Oh, they were my colleagues sleeping all over the place. I was baffled as to how they could look like a different race than me.? ? They took a leave of absence at the same time as me and returned to school together, so I have to attend the same lecture. I thought about whether to wake up or not and then I just came out.? ? The moment in front of the closet did not last long. I had just left the house wearing a clean, dandy, modern casual outfit that had been hanging out in the closet.? ? It was sunny. The sun was quite dazzling. Not as much as I do though.? ? Naturally, as soon as I entered the university, students passing by stopped and looked at me or chatted with my friends.? ? ¡°Isn¡¯t that Choi Sung-hyun?¡±? ? ¡°The business department¡¯s dominant Alpha¡­¡±? ? Yes, that was me. You were right. It was me.? ? I never ran. I walked gracefully across the university.? ? I expected to be late, but I arrived in the classroom before the professor. I avoided being late even when he was just walking because my legs were so long.? ? ¡°Hey, you come just now? I just called you.¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun Oppa, sit here.¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, I thought you weren¡¯t coming.¡±? ? My followers waved their hands as soon as they saw my face. I sat down at the seat they had reserved for me with a chic and cool smile.? ? ¡°Oh, screw it. I¡¯ve been feeling crappy since the morning. Come home later and pick up some of the guys. They were so drunk that they slept only in their panties.¡±? ? Then the followers laughed vaguely.? ? ¡°¡­As long as you don¡¯t say anything, you look fine¡­¡±? ? ¡°What about me?¡±? ? ¡°No, nothing.¡±? ? The professor soon arrived. It was perfect timing. Even if I walked slowly, this was enough to keep me from being late.? ? Everything was perfect for me!? ? * * *? ? ¡°What are your plans for today, Hyung? I¡¯ve heard there¡¯s a good restaurant close by.¡±? ? ¡°Senior, go on a drive with me. I got a new car.¡±? ? ¡°Seung-hyun-ah, have a drink with me. I¡¯m having some trouble¡­¡±? ? ¡°No, I¡¯m busy.¡±? ? As soon as the lecture was over, the followers cling to me every day. I refused and turned on the cell phone screen with my long legs crossed.? ? [Where?? hahaha]? ? The unread mark disappeared, but there was no reply. Perhaps he¡¯s still typing.? ? ¡°Why, with whom do you have an appointment? Who is it.¡±? ? ¡°Senior, where are you going? Please play with us.¡±? ? ¡°Fuck it, you irritate me. I told you I was busy today.¡±? ? ¡°Oh¡­¡±? ? My followers were immediately intrigued by my words.? ? ¡°Right. You said you were doing a job related to the family business.¡±? ? I was sorry for the followers who wanted to play with me even more, but I couldn¡¯t help it. Because this was an important task that my older brother had specifically asked. A tremendous mission awaits me that would have a profound impact on my family and even the company in which my family works.? ? I exited the classroom with the followers who refused to leave even though I had an appointment. On a sunny day with summer approaching, many students were walking in front of me wearing revealing clothes.? ? They weren¡¯t even embarrassed in front of a perfect body like me.? ? In the morning, I wore a dandy and casual style, a short-sleeved V-neck shirt that fits my upper body to some extent and scratched black jeans that rolled around the closet, but even if I wear it roughly, the piece was so good that it doesn¡¯t look rough. It was unfair because I was afraid they¡¯d think I¡¯d put in too much effort.? ? Everyone would be staring at my forearm even now. In front of me, no one exudes Alpha pheromones. Because I was one of only three dominant Alphas at my university, and I was also stunningly handsome. I have 10,000 followers on my social media. Beyond universities, it was mentioned occasionally on the Internet, and representatives from the entertainment industry paid visits from time to time.? ? Haa¡­ It was troublesome to be popular.? ? ¡°Are you working with your older brother, Director Choi of S&S?¡±? ? ¡°Will you join S&S as a team leader after graduating?¡±? ? ¡°Senior, is it true that you have been helping S&S since high school?¡±? ? My followers have assumed that my appointments were related to S&S and then asked.? ? Of course, they would have a lot of questions for me. I answered half-heartedly and headed toward the main gate of the university.? ? At that time, a new message appeared in the chat window, which was still open.? ? Yuyuyu [I think I will be late hahaha]? ? Yuyuyu [I have 1 km left] ? ? Before heading to the main gate, I sat down on a bench under a fairly fresh cedar tree, though not as fresh as myself. My followers also sat around and started talking to each other. There were those who left when it was time for the next lecture, and those who stayed after the lecture, so the number of followers remained constant.? ? ¡°Today¡¯s lecture is over, right? Let¡¯s eat together. I¡¯ll buy it for you.¡±? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun, do you want to go to a club? I know where to get a good drink.¡±? ? ¡°What kind of club is this during the day? Leave Sung-hyun alone.¡±? ? ¡°You don¡¯t know anything. The club is always good to talk about.¡±? ? Especially these days, these two guys were chasing me a lot. They were the sons of S&S¡¯s vice president and managing director, both of whom graduated from abroad and moved to Korea at the age of 20. He¡¯s been worried for the past five years because he hasn¡¯t been close to him, hovering around the most perfect person he can see and being told to somehow catch his gaze.? ? ¡°You¡¯re so noisy. Don¡¯t you have any lectures?¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re sitting here saying you¡¯re going to an appointment as well. Let¡¯s eat together if there¡¯s still time before the appointment, okay?¡±? ? I answered the managing director¡¯s son¡¯s question who was asking with his eyes wide open.? ? ¡°No. There¡¯s someone coming.¡±? ? ¡°Who?¡±? ? His courage to ask right away was quite imaginary. The vice president¡¯s son narrowed his eyes and placed his shoulders on him subtly.? ? ¡°Friend?¡±? ? ¡°No, it¡¯s a family.¡±? ? ¡°If it¡¯s your family, introduce me. We¡¯re best friends.¡±? ? ¡°Me, introduce me as well. Is it Choi Sung-hoon, by any chance?¡±? ? ¡°My older brother is on a business trip. The one I¡¯m going to meet is an Omega, so don¡¯t even think about taking a look.¡±? ? Because they¡¯re both Alpha, I said it bluntly. They squinted their eyes and pondered who the Omega was in my family.? ? ¡°Who is it? You don¡¯t even have a fianc¨¦.¡±? ? I wondered if there was anyone out of these two that could be my true friends. Someone as good as me, as handsome, fit, and perfect as me, should be my friend.? ? ¡°I know what I do. Don¡¯t regret it later, just go and study.¡±? ? I didn¡¯t want to be bothered. There was no way that popular people from well-to-do families wouldn¡¯t be interested in getting to know me, but it doesn¡¯t feel right. However, the two of them became gloomy when I deliberately showed signs of annoyance.? ? ¡°You should be the one that studying¡­¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. Our grades are pretty good¡­ By the way, Sung-hyun-ah.¡±? ? The vice president¡¯s son, who had been gloomy for a moment, quickly regained his energy and his eyes twinkled.? ? ¡°What is your ideal type? Omega who is good at studying?¡±? ? ¡°Why all of a sudden?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to introduce you to someone. It¡¯s been a while since you broke up.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. Didn¡¯t you break up last year? You look like a flirt, but you¡¯re quite innocent.¡±? ? When I meet someone, I must take them seriously. These guys were just plain stupid. Guys nowadays take relationships far too lightly. It takes me about a half-year to a year to really know what kind of person the other person was.? ? ¡°No. I have no intention of dating anyone yet.¡±? ? ¡°Why? Haha, don¡¯t tell me you still haven¡¯t forgotten your ex?¡±? ? ¡°I can¡¯t forget? What kind of bullshit is that. He wasn¡¯t the right one. Everyone I¡¯ve met so far wasn¡¯t the right one. Next time I¡¯m going to meet someone who truly loves me, not my family and property.¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ That¡¯s right. However, it¡¯s not easy to find someone like that.¡±? ? They had their own family and property, so they nodded to show if they sympathized with me.? ? ¡°Isn¡¯t it a bit difficult for people like us to have such a sincere partner?¡±? ? ¡°Since my older brother met one, I believe I can as well. The real me with my skin peeled off, there must be someone out there who looks at my looks before my family.¡±? ? ¡°Is that¡­ so?¡±? ? ¡°What.¡±? ? ¡°No, I was wondering that it¡¯s usually because of the looks¡­¡±? ? When the managing director¡¯s son hesitated to speak, the vice president¡¯s son confidently stepped in.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun is the type of person who cares a lot about looks. Right?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I tend to look at their faces.¡±? ? ¡°What kind of appearance do you like? Tell me specifically.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯ll know when you see who I¡¯ve been with.¡±? ? ¡°Hey, they all looked different! It¡¯s simply too diverse.¡±? ? I suppose they did. I narrowed it down to the vice president¡¯s son and the managing director¡¯s son and briefly described my ideal type.? ? ¡°It¡¯s nothing much. I just want someone with a small face, light brown hair, slightly raised brows, sexy, white skin, red lips, a white forehead, a cute and quirky personality, but there¡¯s something pitiful about them, I wish they were taller than average, I don¡¯t mind if they can¡¯t study, and they should have a good heart. This should be good.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Well, it¡¯s not that hard.¡±? ? I pointed out the minimum requirements to fit in the perfect me, but their eyes became salty for some reason.? ? ¡°Oh, okay¡­¡±? ? Perhaps they thought the requirements were too simple. I opened my mouth to say something more specific, but I could hear a murmur around me.? ? ¡°Hey, did you see it? At the front door?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, yeah. Who was that, was it a celebrity? I think I saw it on TV.¡±? ? ¡°Such a beauty. The atmosphere around was also amazing.¡±? ? ¡°Hello? Hey, come quickly to the main gate. There¡¯s filming going on here. Celebrities are here.¡±? ? The students coming in through the main gate were all talking about it, their faces filled with curiosity. Some people made phone calls to friends.? ? ¡°Wow. I guess a celebrity is here.¡±? ? ¡°Wow, who is it? There is no other famous person in our school other than Sung-hyun.¡±? ? My followers snooped around in the murmur as well. Because our university was well-landscaped, dramas were occasionally filmed there.? ? It must be a rookie celebrity who was filming, but I should take a look when I had time. I was planning to join the company right after finishing the first semester of my fourth year, so I doubt I¡¯d be able to see it in the future.? ? ¡°Awesome. So pretty. Maybe it¡¯s Beta.¡±? ? ¡°Hey, Kim Hak-soo.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah? Oh, Sung-hyun hyung, Lee Rang sunbae also here.¡±? ? Among those foolish and curious students, there was a junior who didn¡¯t recognize me and passed by while talking on the phone with someone (Just how distracted were they that they couldn¡¯t even see me). The managing director¡¯s son grabbed his junior and asked.? ? ¡°What does he look like?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s no joke. He is so beautiful and he has such a strange aura.¡±? ? ¡°So, how does he look? Explain in detail.¡±? ? In response to the tenacious question, the junior said with an ecstatic expression.? ? ¡°He has a very small face, light brown hair, slightly raised brows, sexy, white skin, red lips, white forehead, very slim, a little idiotic, but he so beautiful with pitiful kind of beauty and a kind heart.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? My followers looked at me in unison, and at the same time I jumped out of my seat and stood up. No way?? ? You said you were going to be late!? ? You said you had 1 km to go!? ? As I walked towards the main gate, he was there.? ? On a bench near the main gate, I saw Seo-yu hyung, who was being looked at by young men and women in their early twenties. Seo-yu hyung, who was dressed casually in a T-shirt and jeans looked just like a college student. He was ten years older than those guys who were sneaking around now. He was also a father.? ? ¡°Oh, Sung-hyun-ah.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung, who had just picked up his cell phone, saw me. Everyone around him exclaimed in delight as he smiled brightly. I sighed inwardly as I approached.? ? ¡°I told you to call me when you arrive, so what are you doing here alone?¡±? ? ¡°I just arrived. Your college is so crowded.¡±? ? ¡°You came earlier than expected. Isn¡¯t the road in front of here really blocked? ¡±? ? ¡°I told the driver to take me to your parents¡¯ house and then he could go home right away, so he hit the accelerator a lot. I guess he wants to get home as soon as possible.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I was glad that Sung-hoon hyung wasn¡¯t here right now. If he was, the news would be ambiguous right away.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s go. Let¡¯s hurry up and go home.¡±? ? I felt like I had to get out of the university for now, so I grabbed Seo-yu¡¯s hyung arm and dragged him. Seo-yu hyung came along lightly.? ? Everyone was staring at us because I, who was always attracting people¡¯s attention, was now with my brother, who was also attracting people¡¯s attention. It was as if they were watching a drama being filmed. Seo-yu hyung also kept looking around, as if he sensed the gaze.? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-ah, wait a minute.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung stopped walking and asked quietly into my ear.? ? ¡°I heard that a celebrity is here. Did you see it?¡±? ? ¡°¡­Celebrity?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, they¡¯re still talking about it right now. I heard they were shooting a commercial.¡±? ? I was a little dumbfounded, so I just stared at his face. His brown hair was slightly stretched out, indicating that he had slept the entire trip in the car. Seo-yu hyung, who piqued the people¡¯s interest, was like a red rose blooming alone in an unseen field. My followers were also staring blankly nearby.? ? I walked as if I wasn¡¯t interested.? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know. Whether a celebrity comes or not, let¡¯s just go home.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯d like to see the filming.¡±? ? ¡°The filming is not a big deal. Our school university is famous, so many people come from all over the place to shoot.¡±? ? ¡°It deserves to be famous. This is my first time at university, but other universities aren¡¯t this big, right?¡±? ? Ah.? ? Ah, I see.? ? I stopped walking and turned around.? ? ¡°Do you want to take a look around the university while you¡¯re here? There¡¯s even a fountain in the lake.¡±? ? ¡°No. I am an outsider.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung refused but he still took a look inside.? ? ¡°Universities are like neighborhood parks. There are many outsiders.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s really fine. Jae-hoon is also waiting in the car, so we should leave for Bucheon soon. I¡¯m sure your mother and father are waiting.¡±? ? His eyes were filled with regret, but he did not enter. I should have dragged him in from the start, but I couldn¡¯t do it because my eyes were so focused.? ? ¡°Come back later. I¡¯ll take you to look around.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, there would have been no celebrities then. But what kind of shooting was it?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung said silly things until the end. I was a little speechless.? ? This hyung still didn¡¯t realize that he was pretty.? ? Even if my older brother told him he was beautiful, I doubt Seo-yu hyung would believe him. It was once said that people who did not receive enough compliments when they were young needed to be praised tenfold before they could believe it. When I was younger, even if they said I was as pretty as a ten-year-old, I was like, ¡°Yeah, I¡¯m pretty,¡± but as I grew older, all I could say was, ¡°Really?¡±? ? I thought that my older brother and my parents needed to put in more effort.? ? Because I couldn¡¯t be the one to tell Seo-yu hyung that he was pretty. CH 57 ? ? Chapter 57? ? AD? ? Translated by Springlila Edited by Springlila? ? The car was illegally parked near the main gate. There were many obstacles to getting to the car. ¡°Choi Sung-hyun!¡± My friends called me, but I went straight to the car, avoiding the people who were eager to speak with Seo-yu hyung.? ? ¡°Didn¡¯t someone call you?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know, it¡¯s not me. Hurry up and go in.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung took a seat right away.? ? This was the most important task I had been assigned.? ? I¡¯ve decided to play with Seo-yu hyung for the next two days. While his husband was away on a business trip, I decided to play with Seo-yu hyung, who would only play with his only friend, Jang Won-jo.? ? My older brother despises Jang Won-jo, but he never told Seo-yu hyung not to meet him. Do whatever you want, and I¡¯ll take care of the rest. It felt like this, but it was actually strange. I wasn¡¯t sure how he managed to suppress his instincts as an extremely dominant Alpha.? ? I opened the other door of the car and instructed the driver who wanted to leave work quickly to leave right away.? ? Jae-hoon was sleeping peacefully in the back seat. The sleeping figure resembled a baby angel poised to fly into the sky at any moment. He was dressed in yellow overalls and a striped T-shirt, and it appeared that it would sell out faster if they used Jae-hoon¡¯s picture rather than a picture of a children¡¯s clothing model.? ? ¡°Shit, you¡¯re so cute.¡±? ? ¡°I warned you not to curse in front of the child.¡±? ? ¡°The kid is sleeping, so it¡¯s not a problem.¡±? ? I buried my lips in the baby¡¯s soft skin. Jae-hoon tossed and turned before gradually opening his eyes. My face was reflected in his large and clear eyes.? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-i hyung!¡±? ? ¡°How old are you that you still speak with a short tongue?¡±? ? ¡°I missed you, hyung.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re still slurring your speech like a kid.¡±? ? ¡°Hmph¡­ Jae-hoon-i is still a baby¡­¡±? ? The four-year-old nephew, who resembles the person who gave birth to him and has a lot of cuteness, pouted his lips. As if I had no choice but to spread my arms out, Jae-hoon shouted, ¡°Hyung!¡± and gave me a big hug.? ? Ah¡­ Shit¡­so cute.? ? Looking at Jae-hoon, I believe the Alpha could love the same Alpha (Even though his second gender hasn¡¯t been revealed yet, but I think he will be an Alpha). When you have a lovely nephew, it appears that Alpha¡¯s instinct fades.? ? Seo-yu hyung, who was smiling at him from the side, clicked and took a picture.? ? ¡°Let¡¯s take a picture together.¡±? ? ¡°Okay.¡±? ? I responded as if I had been waiting for it. We sat in the backseat of the Mercedes-Benz and took a selfie with Jae-hoon. I shared the photos we took together in the group chat room and only posted photos with Jae-hoon on social media. My older brother would be furious if his Omega face was plastered all over the internet. I know it well because we¡¯re both Alpha.? ? There was one more reason as well.? ? Seo-yu hyung also has social media, but he doesn¡¯t post his own photos, and most of them were bouquets or Jae-hoon¡¯s photos. Despite this, he had over 500 followers, but it was now locked, so only followers could see them.? ? I wasn¡¯t sure why it was locked at first, but I figured it out later. It was because Seo-yu hyung¡¯s ex-boyfriends showed up and left trashy comments. Now, the only people who had commented on Seo-yu hyung¡¯s photo were me, my dad, and Jang Won-jo.? ? Seo-yu hyung was very relieved by such a comment. At the same time, Seo-yu hyung never stopped using social media.? ? * * *? ? Woof Woof Woof!? ? Yachae and Chaeso ran around happily barking. Jae-hoon jumped out of the car as soon as we stops.? ? ¡°Baby, come here. Yachae-ya, Chaeso-ya.¡±? ? Woof Woof Woof!? ? The puppies snuggled into Jae-hoon¡¯s arms. It seems that I could see Jae-hoon¡¯s tail behind him. It was actually three dogs.? ? ¡°Haa.¡±? ? I heard a small sigh next to me. Seo-yu hyung was nervously adjusting his clothes. His lips trembled slightly as he smiled.? ? Seo-yu hyung was still so nervous. My parents were so casual. I think I was more nervous because I was going to stay overnight.? ? When I opened the door first and got off, Seo-yu hyung immediately followed me. Mom and Dad were waiting for us at the front door. They were wagging their non-existent tails like Yachae and Chaeso but pretending to be chic while greeting him.? ? AD? ? My mom tapped my dad¡¯s arm as I and Seo-yu hyung approached, carrying the gifts he had prepared. My mom used to be a shot putter. Dad cried, ¡°Ugh!¡± And while rubbing his elbow after letting out a strange sound, he approached and took the gifts.? ? ¡°Seo-yu-gun, give it to me quickly. What else did you bring?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s nothing. Red ginseng and¡­¡±? ? ¡°Red ginseng, turned out it¡¯s red ginseng. Last time, it was red ginseng as well.¡±? ? ¡°We had red ginseng today.¡±? ? ¡°I see¡­¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, my dad prefers a hand-knitted scarf to such an expensive gift.¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t help but intervene in my dad¡¯s gloomy expression, so when I said that, my dad coughed, and Seo-yu hyung¡¯s face turned blue.? ? AD? ? ¡°I¡¯ll bring a scarf next time.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re a beginner, so it¡¯s okay to be short.¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? ¡°About 2m is enough.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Yes¡­¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung¡¯s face became as blue as the summer sky.? ? ¡°Yu-ya and Sung-hyun, hurry up and bring the kids inside. I¡¯ve heard the fine dust is particularly bad today.¡±? ? AD? ? ¡°Yes. Jae-hoon-a! Hurry up and come here. You should greet Grandpa and Grandma.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung, who still had a blue face, called Jae-hoon, who was playing with the puppies. Jae-hoon ran back. It was so cute and lovely to see him running back and forth with the dogs.? ? I moved the gifts my dad was holding to the front door (here Seo-yu hyung flinched) and he opened his arms to Jae-hoon. Jae-hoon ran up to him and hugged him.? ? ¡°Grandpa!¡±? ? ¡°Ung ung, our Jae-hoon-i is here? Do you want to kiss your grandpa? Jae-hoon-i, kiss granpa on the cheeks.¡±? ? ¡°Kiss kiss.¡±? ? I feel like throwing up. Seriously, you were too much¡­? ? ¡°Jae-hoon, go and wash your hands first.¡±? ? AD? ? ¡°Let¡¯s kiss grandma as well.¡±? ? ¡°I told you to wash your hands.¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? It was a good thing that Mom didn¡¯t show a dual personality like Dad. Jae-hoon also stopped slurring his speech because he knew talking to his grandma like that was pointless. Actually, my dad was the only one who could speak in that manner.? ? I shut the front door to keep the fine dust from blowing in. Even without the air conditioner, the inside was cool and smelled delicious. I entered the living room and took a look around.? ? ¡°Oh, a dream catcher. Since when has this been here?¡±? ? ¡°I bought it the last time I was on vacation. I¡¯m not sure because it¡¯s been a while.¡±? ? AD? ? ¡°Why don¡¯t you give it to me?¡±? ? ¡°I bought a lot. I was going to give it to you when you come home, but you didn¡¯t come. Even if I told you to, you wouldn¡¯t come.¡±? ? Dad, who spoke as if sulking, quickly turned his head toward Seo-yu hyung and spoke bluntly.? ? ¡°I bought it for you and Director Choi as well. Take it.¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m sorry¡­ Thank you.¡±? ? ¡°Grandpa, what about Jae-hoon-i?¡±? ? ¡°Ung ung, we have one for Jae-hoon-i as well~ Did you think grandpa wouldn¡¯t buy one for our lovely Jae-hoon-i?¡±? ? I feel like throwing up¡­ Two faced¡­? ? AD? ? Dad lifted Jae-hoon and put him on his shoulder. Jae-hoon laughed and seemed to enjoy it. His personality usually becomes a little more like an Alpha after expressing himself as an Alpha, but I wish Jae-hoon was still like this.? ? There must have been a time when I was like that as well. Haa¡­ Everything was a memory now that I was old enough. I had no idea I was getting this old. I was already in my mid-20s, so all the good times had passed me by.? ? ¡°Great job coming here. Let¡¯s eat first.¡±? ? My mom was the first to sit down at the table, and she seemed to be very hungry.? ? The home-cooked meal went well despite my stomach ache thanks to my father, who made Jae-hoon sit down and play cutesy games. Aunt Jeong-hee¡¯s food was also the best. Seo-yu hyung hadn¡¯t even finished half of his bowl when I already finished two. Was it because he was nervous?? ? ¡°Yu-ya, I¡¯ll look after Jae-hoon, so hurry up and eat as well. It¡¯s going to get cold.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s alright. I¡¯ll take care of it, mother.¡±? ? AD? ? ¡°I¡¯ll eat by myself, Dad!¡±? ? Jae-hoon took the fork in his cute hand and stabbed the rice hard. The rice was splattered all over the place. My dad quickly covered my mom¡¯s face. The back of my dad¡¯s hand was covered in rice as a result of his desperate sacrifice.? ? ¡°Honey, are you okay?¡±? ? ¡°¡­You didn¡¯t have that. The back of your hand is messed up.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯d rather get my hands dirty than it splashes on you.¡±? ? ¡°What are you talking about while looking like this? Give me your hand.¡±? ? ¡°You¡­¡±? ? ¡°I really can¡¯t leave you alone.¡±? ? I could feel a hot flame burn between them. If you only listen to the conversation, you might think he got burned, but it was just a splash of rice.? ? I was glad I left the house¡­? ? ¡°It¡¯s a big problem. He needs to learn how to use spoons and chopsticks right away. He is good at everything, but he has a hard time with chopsticks.¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-i will do well soon.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s all over your face.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung was wiping away the grains of rice that Jae-hoon had splattered on his face when I turned my head.? ? He must be slow because he was feeding Jae-hoon.? ? There was a warm loveliness like dew between his long eyelashes and brown eyes. Jae-hoon pouted his lips and acted cutely, and Seo-yu hyung smiled while rubbing Jae-hoon¡¯s soft and chubby cheeks.? ? I also smiled.? ? It was obvious that he gave birth to him.? ? Anyone could see that Jae-hoon was born from this person.? ? At first, I thought that Seo-yu hyung would not be able to take good care of Jae-hoon. I heard that there were six babysitters, and Seo-yu hyung couldn¡¯t take care of himself either.? ? So when I first saw Seo-yu hyung holding a newborn baby, I was a little surprised. He was very good at holding and comforting a baby. I thought he was still a little clumsy and nervous, but he was an excellent father in my opinion.? ? Even now, scooping rice with a baby spoon and blowing up bulgogi seemed natural. I had hoped to see this scene for a long time, but Jae-hoon would grow up soon.? ? When I thought about that, I feel a little¡­ sad.? ? CH 58 We sat in the living room after dinner. My parents were already pulling out their parenting diaries and photo albums. This was the purpose of coming here.? ? Showing the parenting diary to Seo-yu hyung while Sung-hoon hyung was away.? ? It wasn¡¯t an easy opportunity because my older brother was almost always next to Seo-yu hyung. In fact, I was seeing it for the first time as well.? ? I¡¯ve never seen a picture of my older brother when he was young.? ? S&S Director Choi¡¯s! Photos from when he was a kid!? ? My older brother who was the most perfect, big, and handsome in the world when he was young!? ? Gasp, I was out of breath.? ? The parenting diary had ten books in total, and it was quite thick because it was also an album.? ? ¡îJin-goo and Mia¡¯s parenting diary¡î? ? Click, I quickly snapped the cover photo. Despite the fact that my mother¡¯s name was Kim Mi-ja, she was never addressed as Mi-ja. She didn¡¯t even change her name though.? ? ¡°Ah, Hyung. I¡¯ll hug him.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung was trying to put Jae-hoon on his lap, so I quickly grabbed him, but my father grabbed him back to hug him again. Instead of attempting to express his desire to be held in his father¡¯s arms, Jae-hoon softly smiled and remained in his grandfather¡¯s arms.? ? ¡°Is it when Huung dad was only as old as Jae-hoon-i?¡±? ? ¡°No, it¡¯s not Huung dad, but when Sung-hyun hyung was only as old as Jae-hoon-i.¡±? ? What?? ? Who?? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-i hyung!¡±? ? Jae-hoon laughed and jumped back into my arms, so I missed the opportunity to turn the table over.? ? ¡°What! Why me? Wasn¡¯t this Sung-hoon hyung?¡±? ? ¡°I never ever said anything about it being your older brother¡¯s. Even if I tell you to stop by, you never come so you must be mistaken.¡±? ? ¡°What does it matter¡­ hyung? Of course, you came to see Sung-hoon hyung¡¯s album!¡±? ? ¡°No, I came to see yours.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, shit¡­¡± ? ? ¡°What did you just say?¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t say anything, Mom.¡±? ? So I was in a position to witness my own perfect and flawless black history.? ? ¡°You¡¯ve looked a lot like me since you were a kid.¡±? ? ¡°I know, right. You have the same ears.¡±? ? It was the voice of looking at an ultrasound picture.? ? ¡°He looks good in everything, so he can handle any kind of clothes well.¡±? ? ¡°Right. They fit so well.¡±? ? He was wearing a badge.? ? ¡°I pondered whether or not to send him to the gifted class because he is so smart that he reminds me of myself.¡±? ? ¡°Oh my God, how can you be so clever.¡±? ? The round hole was filled with a round brick.? ? My face flushed as I listened to the story, which was becoming increasingly embarrassing. Jae-hoon was listening intently to the conversations of his father, grandmother, and grandfather, but I had the impression from his glittering eyes and quivering lips that he understood everything. Jae-hoon would have made fun of me if he had been a year older.? ? ¡°This is Sung-hyun¡¯s 16th baby picture.¡±? ? ¡°He was eight months old when this was taken.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I remember. Honey, you ripped my hair out because of the severe pain that day.¡±? ? Except for me, it was a pleasant time.? ? Ultrasound photos took up one and a half volumes out of ten, and after that, one album per year until the first grade of primary school. I had no idea my house would have such a frightening and terrifying collection of my dark history. Of course, I was cute when I was younger, but it was just my dark history, regardless of whether I was cute or not.? ? ¡°Ah, this. No way.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung abruptly and hurriedly took out his cellphone. I caught a glimpse of an extremely attractive and adorable young man peering intently at the camera.? ? Haha, was this Sung-hoon hyung?? ? ¡°Is this Choi Sung-hoon?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, this is the sole photograph that Sung-hoon and Sung-hyun had taken together.¡±? ? ¡°Did we take it together? It¡¯s merely a photo of hyung by himself.¡±? ? ¡°You are there too. Here.¡±? ? Mom pointed to the bundle of handkerchiefs in the right-hand corner of the photo. When I looked closely, I saw a very small newborn baby sleeping with his mouth open. I was so small that I simply resembled a cotton ball.? ? ¡°Cute¡­¡±? ? Did you say cute when you saw me? Or your spouse?? ? Click, click.? ? Seo-yu hyung was taking pictures from various angles to avoid light reflections, but then my mother pulled the photos out of the album. My mother delivered the picture to Seo-yu hyung as he gazed at her with big eyes of surprise.? ? ¡°You can keep it.¡±? ? ¡°But you said it¡¯s the only picture. Are you sure?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s also a picture of your spouse when he was young. I have a lot of pictures of my spouse when they were young, but you don¡¯t.¡±? ? ¡°But¡­¡±? ? I was silently watching Seo-yu hyung to see if he would decline the picture. After some consideration, Seo-yu hyung expressed gratitude and accepted the picture. He had a really joyful expression on his face as if he had been given a precious jewel. A beautiful smile spread across his face.? ? I had an idea and decided to offer Seo-yu hyung all of my older brother¡¯s pictures, the most gorgeous and perfect extremely domineering Alpha in the world.? ? ¡°Mom, is that the only picture you took of Hyung when he was young? I¡¯m sure there must be a picture of himself.¡±? ? ¡°He has been living separately since he was young, so I don¡¯t have any. But, there¡¯s still his graduation albums.¡±? ? ¡°Where is his graduation album?¡±? ? ¡°It hadn¡¯t been home at some point. Did he bring it while moving?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung, who was listening with his eyes twinkling, made a sad face. I quickly picked up my phone.? ? ¡°I should ask Kyung-min hyung. Since he¡¯s abroad, I¡¯ll tell him to bring it as soon as he comes back.¡±? ? My older brother and Kim Kyung-min, who was a classmate in elementary school, live close to the school. He¡¯s a hyung that really wants to fit in in our place, so if I called, he¡¯d come with the album and a gift.? ? ¡°Can you do that?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung smiled again with his eyes full of anticipation. I then told him to trust me. At the same time, I feel a little more at ease¡­ I felt as giddy as I had been the day before the picnic. I wished Kyung-min hyung would come soon.? ? Seo-yu hyung smiled as he looked at my black history parenting diary. Everything from my childhood was retained by my parents. The crooked calligraphy practice book, as well as the designs that looked to be done with the left foot. When Sung-hoon¡¯s hyung drawing of Superman was discovered, the entire family took a picture.? ? Seo-yu hyung couldn¡¯t stop smiling the entire time he was seeing it.? ? Well, it wasn¡¯t too horrible that my amazing and perfect black history made Seo-yu hyung smile.? ? * * *? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hyun, don¡¯t you come to your home often?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung asked a question as soon as we walked in to put Jae-hoon to sleep. I was expecting it because my father had mentioned that I didn¡¯t come home very frequently.? ? ¡®It¡¯s dinnertime now, I¡¯ll have to tell them to bring in Yachae and Chaeso.¡¯? ? ¡®As the days become longer, the dogs become more excited to play. You have no idea since you don¡¯t come home.¡¯? ? ¡®The robot vacuum cleaner has changed. You originally used Uncle Grey¡¯s brand.¡¯? ? ¡®It was broken, so I had to replace it. You never come home, so you don¡¯t know.¡¯? ? ¡®What¡¯s this? A deer statue? When did you travel again?¡¯? ? ¡®It¡¯s been a long time since I bought it in Dubai. You don¡¯t come home very often, and you¡¯ve forgotten what¡¯s in the house.¡¯? ? Dad responded that way to everything I said. It was like a parent who blamed everything on video games. As he made it clear in that way, Seo-yu hyung would have been seeking an opportunity to ask.? ? ¡°Dad is weird. I got my own place as I became older and more self-sufficient, so how often does he expect me to visit?¡±? ? ¡°Hey, you must not have returned for long enough to make your parents sad.¡±? ? ¡°Not so long. It¡¯s only two-¡±? ? ¡°Even if it¡¯s only for two months, it can be frustrating for parents.¡±? ? ¡°No, only two¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-ah.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung called my name and lowered his gaze. The shadows cast by the lengthy eyelashes were very pitiful.? ? ¡°You have to be good while they are around. You have no idea when¡­ or what will happen to people.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Okay. I will come often.¡±? ? It was so unfair.? ? It had only been two weeks since I came, damn it.? ? But I couldn¡¯t tell him. I was terrified Seo-yu hyung would cry at any moment because he was so soft and cried so much.? ? If it had been my older brother, he would have been much more disappointed because Mom and Dad were both upset that they hadn¡¯t seen each other in almost two weeks. He was the type of person who would do something like that.? ? ¡°Dad¡­ Sleep¡­¡± ? ? ¡°Okay, let¡¯s go to sleep.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung smiled as he patted Jae-hoon¡¯s chest. ? ? ¡°But it¡¯s definitely nice to have a parenting diary. I should write as well.¡±? ? ¡°You haven¡¯t written it yet? You should have written it since Jae-hoon was in your stomach.¡±? ? ¡°I was trying to write it. I attached a few ultrasound pictures and wrote a diary, but it was difficult to keep up. Choi Sung-hoon told me not to write it if I was having a hard time, so I stopped.¡±? ? ¡°From now on, work hard on your writing. Don¡¯t overdo it like my mom and write ten books at a time.¡±? ? ¡°What do you mean overdo it? What¡¯s wrong with your way of talking?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t you have a parenting diary of yourself?¡±? ? I asked with anticipation, but Seo-yu hyung shook his head.? ? ¡°No. I just have photo albums from my childhood.¡±? ? I¡¯d like to see it.? ? I¡¯d like to see it!? ? Seo-yu hyung¡¯s childhood photo!? ? ¡°Is the album at home now?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, Sung-hoon took my elementary school graduation photo and made a frame for it with good quality¡­ Technology these days is amazing.¡±? ? ¡°Show me too! Why don¡¯t you show me? Hyung, you¡¯re so mean. Aren¡¯t I family?¡±? ? ¡°What is this nonsense? Shut up. You will wake Jae-hoon up.¡±? ? ¡°How can you not show me your elementary, middle, and high school graduation photos? It¡¯s really disappointing. I thought we were close. How can you only show it to my older brother?¡±? ? ¡°Hey, you didn¡¯t show me yours either.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll show you now.¡±? ? I hurriedly left and brought my four yearbooks from my room. From kindergarten to high school. After looking at the album, Seo-yu hyung admired my shining appearance. It was fortunate that Jae-hoon sleeps well even in noisy places.? ? ¡°Wow, you look really young. You look like a middle school student.¡±? ? ¡°It was in middle school.¡±? ? ¡°You went to a foreign school.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, until middle school. You have to show yours now. Even if my elder brother warns you not to, show me. All three elementary, middle, and high schools. You promised.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have a graduation album from high school¡­ Anyway, I¡¯ll show you when I get home. It¡¯s not that hard. And it didn¡¯t come out so shameful that Choi Sung-hoon told me not to show it. He thought it was cute.¡±? ? I was speechless for a moment, but then I came to my senses.? ? ¡°Lie, my older brother would never say the word cute!¡±? ? ¡°Of course, he didn¡¯t say it was cute, but his eyes said that. We¡¯ve been living together for so long, so sometimes I can barely read through his eyes. Surprisingly, he even put it in a frame. I¡¯m afraid I¡¯ll make a frame with Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s graduation photo.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung made a strange noise and laughed. The corners of his lips curled and his brown eyes twinkled with joy.? ? He was a capricious older brother who doesn¡¯t know that he was pretty, but at other times he showed it like this. I looked at him, who had become prettier because he was loved so much, and he asked me to leave cause he would put Jae-hoon to sleep.? ? Of course, he would¡¯ve been cute. He was so cute, pretty, and lovely.? ? So, I was disappointed to know that there was no picture of his high school graduation.? ? For a brief minute, it felt as if my floating heart had sunk. When I came out of the living room with a gloomy heart, I noticed Mom and Dad playing with Yachae and Chaeso.? ? ¡°What about Seo-yu?¡±? ? ¡°Put Jae-hoon to sleep.¡±? ? I sat down next to my mom. Dad picked up an apple with a fork and held it out.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not going to eat. I¡¯m full.¡±? ? ¡°You don¡¯t even come home often, so you¡¯ll get full quickly.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, stop it Seo-yu hyung will misunderstand. He heard what you¡¯ve been saying.¡±? ? ¡°Then will you come home often?¡±? ? Damn it, every two weeks was often. I wondered if he wanted me to come once every two days.? ? I tangled my mother¡¯s arm without answering.? ? ¡°If you have anything to say, say it quickly. Don¡¯t whine like a child.¡±? ? As expected, my mother was quick-witted.? ? ¡°Hey, mom. Seo-yu hyung, does he have any thoughts of going to college?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? Mom raised her head. I continued speaking while facing the calmly repressed gaze.? ? ¡°When I met him in university earlier, he was very amazed. It¡¯s his first time going to university. I offered to show him around, but he declined. He remained standing at the front gate. It¡¯s like he¡¯s in a place he shouldn¡¯t be.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°I guess he didn¡¯t even graduate from high school¡­ There are a lot of older students these days. Some of my classmates are twenty years older than me¡ª¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-ah.¡±? ? My mother stopped me and smiled. It was a calm smile.? ? ¡°Are you feeling sorry for Seo-yu?¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I honestly had no idea why, but I didn¡¯t give an answer.? ? I didn¡¯t even know why I couldn¡¯t answer, but my mother rubbed my head as if it were usual for me to not give an answer.? ? Mom didn¡¯t say anything after that. She threw a stone in my head and left me alone to be confused.? ? ¡®Are you feeling sorry for Seo-yu?¡¯? ? I seemed to get motion sickness at the heavy question thrown lightly.? ? Shouldn¡¯t I feel sorry?? ? It may be deceptive to take pity on someone who was happy right now.? ? But.? ? I felt sorry for him.? ? I felt really sorry for him.? ? No matter how much I thought about it, Seo-yu hyung was pitiful.? ? I mean, I witnessed him taking off his shoes and approaching the railing on Mapo Bridge on a rainy morning. No matter how brightly Seo-yu hyung smiled now, his appearance would overlap with the one I saw before.? ? I, I couldn¡¯t imagine that¡­ CH 59 Sometimes I imagine the future in which my brother, mother, and father disappeared.? ? I was thinking about how would it feel if the person you took for granted suddenly disappeared.? ? If I couldn¡¯t see my mom and dad¡¯s cheesy flirting when I came home.? ? If I didn¡¯t have an older brother who scolded me, no matter how many times I missed my own classes.? ? In fact, no matter how hard I tried, nothing came to mind. But there was one thing that was certain.? ? It would be sad. It would be very hard. The feeling of loss and emptiness, the longing¡­? ? Ah, shit.? ? To be honest, I didn¡¯t even know what to think. Because it was so unrealistic. I could never imagine it.? ? I wiped my face with a towel after washing it with cold water.? ? I used toners and lotions generously on the vanity in front of the bathroom for my flawless skin. Dad used very expensive things. An LED mask was also placed next to it. It had only been two weeks, yet there had already been a lot of changes.? ? I was wondering what it was because there was only Jae-hoon in the living room, then I noticed Seo-yu hyung talking on the phone outside the balcony when he was half asleep. He was having a conversation with someone while rubbing his closed eyelids. He said something and soon smiled brightly.? ? It was my older brother.? ? Seo-yu¡¯s hyung caller was either my older brother or Jang Won-jo, but no one else could make Seo-yu hyung smile like that except for my older brother.? ? Breakfast was served while I sat on the sofa with Jae-hoon waiting. I called my mom and dad in the garden first and then Seo-yu hyung. Seo-yu hyung hung up the phone with a regretful expression on his face.? ? The aroma of freshly cooked rice whetted my appetite as soon as I walked into the dining room. Water parsley, bean sprouts, garlic seeds, lotus root pancake, black rice with soybean paste stew, grilled flounder, vegetable bulgogi, soy sauce crab, water parsley, bean sprouts, garlic¡­ I was continually spooning over a magnificent lunch shared on the table.? ? ¡°Dad, this is delicious. Try it!¡±? ? Jae-hoon was never one of those kids who refused to eat breakfast. Rather, he was encouraging his father, who was having trouble getting out of bed in the morning, to eat a scoop of rice with a baby spoon (rice was all over the place) and top it with flounder meat. Children were meant to be reflections of their parents, but it was clear who in the house was doing so. Seo-yu hyung ate it with a comforting smile.? ? The father and son duo was adorable.? ? Seo-yu hyung moved the spoon diligently so as not to show it, but he ate slowly. It was 7 in the morning now, and hyung usually gets up about 11 a.m¡­ Furthermore, eating breakfast while half-awake was always a slow process. Maybe he¡¯ll have indigestion.? ? ¡°You are leaving too fast. Stay a little longer.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m sorry. Next time, I will definitely come with Sung-hoon.¡±? ? ¡°You don¡¯t have to come with him¡­¡±? ? My mother without her realizing was making the heavy table heavier for Seo-yu hyung. Still, Seo-yu hyung was able to finish the rice bowl that was given to him. I was sure he would get digestion. I was going to message the driver to buy digestive medicine when he came, but I stopped. I was sure it would reach Seo-yu hyung ear, therefore I¡¯ll have to purchase it myself.? ? The parting scene at the front door could not be more dramatic.? ? ¡°My Jae-hoon-i, eat well at home, remember to call your grandpa via video call, okay? You know how much grandpa loves you right?¡±? ? ¡°Ung, Grandpa also eat well. Jae-hoon-i loves you too.¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-a!¡±? ? ¡°Grandpa!¡±? ? I thought as I watched the grandfather and grandchildren pair hugging each other tightly. I should buy two digestive medicine.? ? My father, who was whining with a shorter pronunciation than Jae-hoon, insisted on me coming more often. At this rate, he whined that he would forget my face if things continued like this, convincing Seo-yu hyung that I was a bad son.? ? My mom packed me some side dishes from home. Seo-yu hyung has a housekeeper, so I got everything she gave me because I didn¡¯t have any other housekeepers. I hugged Yachae and Chaeso once more before getting inside the car. Seo-yu hyung and Jae-hoon sat in the back seat.? ? Seo-yu hyung seemed very nervous, so as soon as he left his house in Bucheon, he even breathed a small sigh of relief. Well, it was unusual to spend the night at the spouse¡¯s parents¡¯ house without a spouse.? ? I felt bad for some reason, so I drove on the road as slowly as possible..? ? * * *? ? I took Seo-yu hyung and Jae-hoon to my house first. When I woke Seo-yu hyung, who was sleeping with Jae-hoon as a pillow, got up while rubbing his eyes, and looked around.? ? ¡°Where are we?¡±? ? ¡°My house. Let¡¯s stop by before we meet Won-jo hyung. I have to put the side dishes inside.¡±? ? ¡°You just have to take me to Guro.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m coming with you. It¡¯s been a long time since I met Won-jo hyung.¡±? ? Actually, I didn¡¯t want to see him even after he woke up from death, but I couldn¡¯t leave Seo-yu hyung alone. Jang Won-jo will surely be late, and Seo-yu hyung will be alone until then. My brother trusted me and withdrew all the guards, so I have to do my part.? ? ¡°Then¡­ I¡­ Shall I call someone?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung got out of the car, handed me the side dish box, and glanced at Jae-hoon. It was quite refreshing to see Jae-hoon, who was very clever, not mentioning his name because he thought his dad was talking about himself. Seo-yu hyung, who used to make a lot of mistakes, has changed now.? ? ¡°Dad, are you meeting friends?¡±? ? But again, Jae-hoon quickly noticed.? ? ¡°Yeah, I¡¯m going to see him now.¡±? ? ¡°What about Jae-hoon-i?¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-i will play with Sung-hyun hyung at home.¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon wants to play with you as well.¡±? ? Jae-hoon-a, you just pronounced your name too directly. Seo-yu hyung pretended not to know about his son¡¯s mistake.? ? Seo-yu hyung said while tilting his head as if he was feeling sorry.? ? ¡°You can¡¯t go because I¡¯m going to drink alcohol.¡±? ? Growth was bullshit¡­? ? ¡°But dad, I need to pee.¡±? ? ¡°What? Now?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, right now.¡±? ? ¡°Pee in my house. I¡¯ll bring Jae-hoon as well as the side dishes, so wait here.¡±? ? Jae-hoon jumped into my arms as soon as I opened my arms. I hastily picked the side dishes and went upstairs before Seoyu-hyung could say anything.? ? Jae-hoon hugged me and smiled like an angel in the elevator.? ? ¡°It¡¯s my first time going to Sung-hyun¡¯s hyung house. Yuu¡¯s dad might want to see it too.¡±? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung have been here before. He also bought me a TV. Something really expensive.¡±? ? ¡°When? What was Jae-hoon-i doing then?¡±? ? ¡°You must have gone on a picnic in the Sunshine class.¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, it¡¯s Descartes. Kant, Descartes, and Nietzschean class.¡±? ? His class name was damn awesome.? ? Jae-hoon goes to a kindergarten that was very sophisticated. It wasn¡¯t like a gifted kindergarten, but rather a highly expensive kindergarten that gathers the children of domestic political figures like Jae-hoon, who would grow up to be S&S¡¯s successor. I urged that Jae-hoon attend a gifted kindergarten, but even Seo-yu hyung, whom I trusted, only brought him to such a kindergarten. I was really dissatisfied.? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-ah, what about 8¡Á6?¡±? ? ¡°48. Next time, be sure to bring Jae-hoon-i as well.¡±? ? ¡°Okay, okay. What about 9¡Á7?¡±? ? ¡°63. Be sure to take me with you when you meet Won-jo uncle today.¡±? ? ¡°Yes.¡±? ? You were only four years old, and you could memorize multiplication tables up to 9.? ? I didn¡¯t know what to call this if it wasn¡¯t genius¡­? ? The elevator arrived, and I assured Jae-hoon that he could come with his father next time. I pressed the number key to open the door.? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Shi-.¡±? ? I put up with the swearing since Jae-hoon was in front of me.? ? It was not because the house was dirty. Unlike in the morning, it was cleaned, but not completely.? ? ¡°Oh, it¡¯s Choi Sung-hyun!¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-a, you¡¯re here?¡±? ? ¡°What the heck. You guys haven¡¯t left yet? Get out of here.¡±? ? My followers and friends had gathered in the living room and were about to begin a drinking party. The managing director¡¯s and vice president¡¯s sons ran up to me without even taking off their shoes.? ? ¡°It¡¯s too much. We just got here.¡±? ? ¡°Is this a gang room? Huh? Why are you meeting at my house?¡±? ? ¡°You were out yesterday. What are you doing without contact?¡±? ? The son of the managing director opened his eyes wide while talking as if he was disappointed. It was because the world¡¯s cutest young boy grabbed my leg and showed the world¡¯s most beautiful face.? ? ¡°Hello, I¡¯m Jae-hoon-i. I¡¯m four years old.¡±? ? ¡°Wow¡­ Hi¡­ Jae-hoon? Choi Jae-hoon¡­?¡±? ? ¡°Yes!¡±? ? My friends and followers all know the name of Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s angel-like child. Everyone paused, praising Jae-hoon with phrases like ¡°cute,¡± ¡°exactly like rumored,¡± and ¡°like a baby angel.¡± Jae-hoon gave a big smile and did some fan service. Thanks for the short tongue, everyone was taken aback by his voice.? ? ¡°Brothers and sisters, Jae-hoon-i will be back later.¡±? ? Jae-hoon kept his baby angel-like expression until the end and went into the bedroom bathroom. He was the perfect celebrity. Wow¡­ What the hell did Seo-yu hyung give birth to?? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-ah, what are these?¡±? ? It was only after Jae-hoon disappeared that the followers paid attention to the luggage I was carrying.? ? ¡°Home side dish.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, you just came home. Then that person cooks¡­!¡±? ? ¡°Of course, my aunt did it. Here you go.¡±? ? I passed the side dishes to the vice president¡¯s son and the managing director¡¯s son. The two received them in a hurry and opened their eyes wide.? ? ¡°Put them neatly in the refrigerator. I¡¯ll come tonight, so make sure you clean up before I arrive.¡±? ? ¡°Are you giving it to us?¡±? ? ¡°Oh, where are you going again?¡±? ? ¡°Well, Seo-yu hyung is waiting downstairs.¡±? ? ¡°Ohhh.¡±? ? After returning from school yesterday, there was a fire in the group message window. They asked me who he was, if he had a lover, and when he was going to break up. In the end, I replied that he was my older brother¡¯s spouse, and the chat window became quiet in an instant.? ? It was a natural reaction. How dare they lightly comment on Choi Sung-hoon¡¯s Omega. Then came the messages apologizing for the careless one-on-one talk. All I answered with [Yes].? ? ¡°Oh, I¡¯m sorry about yesterday. I didn¡¯t know it was him¡­ I¡¯ve only seen him once at a wedding.¡±? ? ¡°Me too. I¡¯m so sorry, can I apologize to him now?¡±? ? ¡°Are you kidding? No way.¡±? ? Heh, I could see the intention of trying to form a connection with Seo-yu hyung even once with the excuse of an apology.? ? ¡°Put the side dishes quickly. If you slacking off, you¡¯ll all die.¡±? ? ¡°Hey, can we take a bite?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t touch anything, and order food quietly for yourself.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s too much. I also want to eat homemade food.¡±? ? ¡°Ask your kitchen lady to do it for you.¡±? ? The door to the bedroom opened when I was making an iron wall defense against those who kept nagging me. Jae-hoon rushed in after opening the door with both hands.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t run. You¡¯re going to fall. Did you wash your hands?¡±? ? ¡°I washed it clean.¡±? ? ¡°Well done.¡±? ? Oh, that was really cute. Jae-hoon smiled and hugged me when I opened my arms. I blinked at my followers to pick up Jae-hoon¡¯s shoes as I kissed his gentle cheeks. The son of the managing director and the son of the vice president quickly picked up the shoes.? ? ¡°Clean up and get out.¡±? ? ¡°Yes!¡±? ? ¡°Trust us!¡±? ? I couldn¡¯t trust you at all¡­ They were eager to attract my attention, so they would clean up.? ? I held a small shoe in my hand and hugged Jae-hoon. As I passed the hallway and got into the elevator, Jae-hoon raised his head and asked.? ? ¡°Hyung, are you all friends?¡±? ? ¡°Some are friends, and there are people I just know. Why?¡±? ? ¡°Among them, the hyung who only dyed his bangs is a bit strange¡­¡±? ? ¡°Why?¡±? ? ¡°He didn¡¯t say that Jae-hoon-i was cute¡­¡±? ? Jae-hoon blinked his big eyes and added,? ? ¡°All of the other hyungs and noonas reacted normally, but only that hyung didn¡¯t¡­ How can he not call Jae-hoon-i cute? He is a strange person¡­¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, he¡¯s really weird. I will take note.¡±? ? It was not normal not to say that Jae-hoon was cute. Among them, the person who only dyed his bangs was the vice president¡¯s son. I bid you farewell, bastard.? ? When we arrived at the lobby on the first floor, Seo-yu hyung was wandering in front of the front gate. I thought he would stay in the car.? ? ¡°Hyung, what are you doing?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung looked around in surprise when I spoke from behind.? ? ¡°Hey! What if you park in front of the main gate and stay for a long time? What if the landlord gets angry?¡±? ? It seemed he didn¡¯t know that I was the owner of the building¡­ My older brother gave it to me as a gift.? ? Originally, the person who planned the wedding would have a suit tailored to them, but my elder brother had a building tailored to him. I didn¡¯t think that was something we discussed with Seo-yu hyung. I have to be careful what I say since Seo-yu hyung may know that he merely bought me clothes as a gift.? ? ¡°The landlord never gets angry, so get in the car.¡±? ? To be honest, I wasn¡¯t really gone for a long time, but it appeared like it to Seo-yu hyung. I understand. Because he was alone. Moreover, it was parked illegally.? ? Seo-yu hyung went to the back seat and put on Jae-hoon¡¯s shoes. Jae-hoon casually mentioned that he had met my friends as well as older brothers and sisters who were not friends. Seo-yu hyung nags at me while he was listening.? ? ¡°If you own a new building like this in front of of the university, regardless of the contract period, you can send it out instantly if you don¡¯t like it. Be mindful of your actions. Do not park in illegal areas.¡±? ? ¡°Okay. Fasten your seat belt.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not sure because I¡¯ve never lived alone, but there was a disagreement between the renter and the landlord on TV every day. Be careful.¡±? ? At that moment, I stopped wearing the seat belt because I didn¡¯t know how to react.? ? Hyung, you¡¯ve been living alone for ten years.? ? I sighed and closed my mouth just as I was about to say anything. I would have told him right away in the past, but now that I was old enough, I was afraid to say anything in this kind of situation.? ? ¡°All right, fasten your seatbelt so I can get out of this illegal parking lot.¡±? ? I started the car after double-checking that Seo-yu hyung and Jae-hoon were wearing their seat belts. And on the way to the destination, I asked slowly.? ? ¡°Hyung, what do you mean by never living alone? You¡¯ve been living alone for almost ten years.¡±? ? Well, that was a very thoughtful question.? ? ¡°Ah, I mean, I have never rented a house on my own other than the one I lived before. The grandfather, who was the owner of the house, was a really nice person. He didn¡¯t even raise my rent.¡±? ? ¡°The grandfather who came to the wedding. Then you didn¡¯t pay any utility bills?¡±? ? ¡°Of course, I paid for it.¡±? ? ¡°You were in high school at the time. With what money did you pay it?¡±? ? ¡°Ah¡­ Well, I work part-time as well, and my uncle has been quite helpful.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung responded in a gloomy tone.? ? That was a lie. Not only me but my whole family know how trashy Seo-yu hyung¡¯s uncle was. But Seo-yu hyung never swears at him in front of me, mom or dad. Rather, he was busy making stories as if they had been doing well. Like how he took great care of his Omega nephew, who lost his family in an instant.? ? He would honestly curse them in front of my older brother or Jang Won-jo.? ? I hope that someday he would be honest with me as well.? ? ¡°Come to think of it, I haven¡¯t heard from my uncle¡¯s family since he went abroad. I wonder how they are doing.¡±? ? ¡°Cough, cough, cough.¡±? ? ¡°Why are you coughing all of sudden? Did you get a cold night¡¯s sleep yesterday?¡±? ? ¡°No, I choked.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung was saying it casually, yet it caught me off guard.? ? Really, Sung-hoon hyung¡­ What would you do if Seo-yu hyung found that trash? wasn¡¯t sure how he was going to tell Seo-yu hyung that he would never see his uncle again.? ? Although Seo-yu hyung didn¡¯t want to see him again¡­ If there was any doubt that there was no contact¡­ Oh, whatever. Shit. I don¡¯t care. My older brother was perfect, so he would be thoroughly prepared for any situation.? ? ¡°If they live so happily there, they wouldn¡¯t bother to contact you. If you bother them, I think they will dislike it.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah¡­¡±? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-ah, you enjoy living overseas as well?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know, it was when I was young, so I don¡¯t really remember¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Dad, Jae-hoon-i is hungry. When are we going to eat?¡±? ? While I was contemplating whether I should say I liked it or I didn¡¯t like it, Jae-hoon intervened.? ? Finally, I chose to accompany Jae-hoon to the appointment with Won-jo hyung. Seo-yu hyung sought to entrust Jae-hoon to the babysitter, but I insisted on spending more time with Jae-hoon. Finally, we were able to get the babysitter to leave work, and we were able to carry out our plan.? ? ¡°Hold on. Let¡¯s eat delicious meat.¡±? ? ¡°Yes!¡±? ? The topic of Seo-yu hyung¡¯s trashy relative was able to pass thanks to Jae-hoon. Seo-yu hyung took a picture of Jae-hoon, who was smiling cutely and then typed on his phone. And he was sending it to his spouse.? ? It had already been two hours since I had breakfast in Bucheon, so I was getting hungry as well. I would speed up if I were the only one on board, but because the baby was on board as well, I drove at a safe speed.? ? A nursery rhyme, which was popular among young children these days, could be heard from the back seat. Seo-yu hyung also added exclamation to the beat.? ? My older brother must have seen and heard it every day.? ? It would be very difficult to leave these lovely people at home and went to work. As expected, I¡¯d stay a wealthy jobless man and hand over the company to Jae-hoon. It was a story of when you found someone you loved. CH 60 ¡°Oh, you already here.¡±? ? ¡°Hurry up, bastard¡­¡±? ? Jang Won-jo was already waiting in the room. He came early because I said I¡¯d come today, despite the fact that he was always late when he met Seo-yu hyung alone.? ? Jang Won-jo was Seo-yu hyung¡¯s only friend. There were only seven acquaintances of Seo-yu hyung who came to the wedding. Four former co-workers whom he didn¡¯t even meet anymore, Omega who looked at Seo-yu hyung vaguely, the grandfather who sat at his parents¡¯ seat, and Jang Won-jo.? ? They gathered at one table were holding their breath with anxious faces in fear that they might even make eye contact with those in black suits at the event. Jang Won-jo was so scared that he sang the congratulations song in a cracked voice to the end.? ? I thought he was a good friend, but I was puzzled because they said he was trash. But now I understand why he was such a bad friend.? ? This was because, after hearing the story of Seo-yu hyung falling into the sea to save me, he sent a message saying [Hahahaha, give your insurance money to me this time].? ? I complained to the head of the bodyguard department about Seo-yu hyung¡¯s friend because I didn¡¯t understand why my elder brother didn¡¯t clean up such trash next to Seo-yu hyung, but he stated there was nothing he could do about it. He couldn¡¯t do anything because he was Seo-yu hyung only friend.? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-ah, let¡¯s say hello to Won-jo uncle. Sung-hyun as well.¡±? ? ¡°Hello, Uncle!¡±? ? ¡°Oh, Jae-hoon is still cute.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°Su, Sung-hyun it¡¯s been a long time.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? When I didn¡¯t say anything, Jang Won-jo was very upset.? ? ¡°Hello.¡±? ? ¡°Uh yeah.¡±? ? I didn¡¯t want Seo-yu hyung to look at me, so I had no choice but to say hello.? ? Jang Won-jo hates my brother and me, was terrified of us, and was awkward. However, whenever he has spare time, he meets Seo-yu hyung like this. Seo-yu hyung may have been his only friend as well.? ? The meat was soon brought out, and the staff skillfully placed it on the grill.? ? Originally, Seo-yu hyung and Jang Won-jo planned to meet at a bar, but with the addition of me and Jae-hoon, we switched to a meat restaurant, which I moved to a meat restaurant we frequent once more.? ? Sizzling.? ? My mouth watered when I saw the meat was cooked with a delicious smell. Because it is Korean beef, it cooks quickly.? ? ¡°Do you also eat meat?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯ll cut it.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ll cut it for you.¡±? ? The staff selected the meat and cut it into small pieces.? ? ¡°Does Jae-hoon-i eat meat too?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, of course. I¡¯ll have to chew it thoroughly.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung placed the cooked beef, which had been chopped into little pieces on Jae-hoon¡¯s spoon. Huu, huu, huu, he blew it out and Jae-hoon opened his mouth wide, ¡°Ah,¡± and ate it. It was so cute that his plump cheeks were soft and mushy.? ? I also grabbed one.? ? ¡°Oh, it¡¯s delicious. It melts inside.¡±? ? ¡°Has it been cooked properly?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, it¡¯s delicious.¡±? ? I ate it as quickly as the staff grilled it. At times like this, I learned that I had to eat quickly and touch the baton with Seo-yu hyung.? ? ¡°Wow, did you apply honey? It¡¯s so delicious.¡±? ? Jang Won-jo ate quickly as well. He¡¯s been amazed and eating nonstop.? ? Jang Won-jo may have been a jerk, but he has a generous heart.? ? Seo-yu hyung never said what he wanted to eat when he had morning sickness and just suffered from it alone. He was meant to put on weight, but he didn¡¯t, and he ended up in the hospital. He was pregnant with the child of the extremely dominant Alpha with the body of the recessive Omega, and everyone was concerned about his weight, which was continuing to drop.? ? Sung-hoon hyung contacted Jang Won-jo directly at the moment. Jang Won-jo figured out what Seo-yu hyung wanted to eat in no time. Seo-yu hyung was openly discussing his food preferences with his one and only friend who could see everything. My older brother has since assigned Jang Won-jo to the position of head of the department in order to indirectly discover what Seo-yu hyung wanted.? ? I heard from my dad that the first thing Seo-yu hyung said he wanted to eat at the urging of Jang Won-jo was soybean paste soup and bossam kimchi made by Seo-yu hyung¡¯s mother. It was difficult to console my dad because he was crying a lot while saying that.? ? Anyway, since Won-jo helped us back then, I¡¯ll treat him today. Seo-yu hyung and he were special friends, so of course, I¡¯ll treat them.? ? After filling my stomach to some extent, I wiped my lips.? ? ¡°Hyung, I¡¯m done eating. You can eat now. I¡¯ll take care of Jae-hoon.¡±? ? ¡°Already? Did you even chew the meat properly? You¡¯re going to get indigestion.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not going to get indigestion just because of this.¡±? ? ¡°Eat the dessert as well. I am not hungry yet.¡±? ? ¡°Eat even if you are not hungry.¡±? ? I mean, this was really expensive Korean beef. You couldn¡¯t just feed Jang Won-jo!? ? I stopped talking and took the baby spoon from Seo-yu hyung.? ? ¡°I can eat on my own¡­¡±? ? Jae-hoon muttered in a hoarse tone. Actually, that was correct. Jae-hoon, a four-year-old genius, was not only able to eat alone, he probably could even cook. However, because he had not yet been accustomed to handling utensils, it would be spilled here and there.? ? ¡°Hyung wants to feed you. Didn¡¯t you like it, Jae-hoon-a?¡±? ? ¡°¡­No, feed me. Look. Jae-hoon-i opened his mouth ¡®ahh¡¯.¡±? ? Jae-hoon made a momentary expression of irritation, then quickly returned to the innocent childish face.? ? I had the impression that he felt obligated to help me in this way.? ? Was it what he was thinking?? ? Who did you really resemble?? ? * * *? ? Injeolmi and chocolate biscuits were presented for dessert, followed by rose-shaped gelato ice cream.? ? Only Jang Won-jo had previously taken pictures, but this time Seo-yu hyung also took out his phone. Everything didn¡¯t live up to my expectations.? ? ¡°I ordered this on purpose. Hyung, do you like roses?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, it¡¯s pretty. I wish Sung-hoon were also here.¡±? ? When asked if he liked roses, Seo-yu hyung, who was looking for his Alpha softly pushed the ice cream scoop in.? ? Seo-yu hyung put down his phone and picked up a spoon so that the shape of the rose would not be disturbed, and naturally put it out in front of Jae-hoon¡¯s mouth.? ? Oh, Jae-hoon really came first in everything.? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-a, how is it? Tasty?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s cold.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a little cold for a baby to eat.¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon is not a baby. I¡¯m already four years old. I¡¯m all grown up.¡±? ? Jae-hoon puffed up his cheeks. Jae-hoon was so fickle. There were times when he asked me to hug him, carry him, and act cute because he say he was still a baby, and then he said don¡¯t treat him like a baby because he wasn¡¯t a baby anymore.? ? He really resembles the person who gave birth to him.? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung, you should eat too.¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t want to eat it, it¡¯s such a waste to break the roses down. Of all the flowers, I like roses the best.¡±? ? Then Jang Won-jo, who had already broken down and eaten the roses, opened his eyes and realized how absurd it was.? ? ¡°What a load of nonsense¡­ Since when did you like roses?¡±? ? ¡°I always like roses.¡±? ? ¡°You¡¯re kidding, right? You hated roses. When you see a rose while walking down the street, you frown and try to avoid it.¡±? ? ¡°Me? Why? I love it so much.¡±? ? ¡°Wow, you punk. You hated the smell of roses so much!¡±? ? Jang Won-jo was so frustrated. This may be true according to Jang Won-jo.? ? When it comes to the smell of roses, I knew one.? ? I couldn¡¯t sense Seo-yu hyung¡¯s pheromone scent now that he was married to the extremely dominant Alpha (I could only smell my older brother¡¯s very terrifying and ferocious pheromone), but I could smell Seo-yu hyung¡¯s pheromone scent once before they got married.? ? A scent was so strong that it could not be described as light.? ? On a rainy day, the brilliant red roses flourish lavishly over the fence as you enter the dark gray lane. The scent of roses causes your eyes to turn blazing crimson.? ? So I was a little taken aback when Seo-yu hyung revealed that he was a recessive Omega. Living as an Omega who couldn¡¯t regulate this level of pheromone must have been quite tough for him. It would normally be alright because it was so light, but hiding it during the heat cycle must have been difficult.? ? That must have been the reason if Seo-yu hyung hated roses.? ? ¡°That¡¯s so funny. I love roses so much. Sung-hoon ssi always mixes roses whenever he gives me flowers.¡±? ? ¡°Shi¡­ Stop mentioning your Alpha. I¡¯m going to get scabs in my ears.¡±? ? Jang Won-jo endured saying all kinds of vulgar and harsh words because Jae-hoon and I were here. They fought a couple more times. What do you want to say, you¡¯re so fickle? Don¡¯t you get bored of clothes quickly and overspend on them all the time? I wasn¡¯t overspending, because I was a fashionista. I didn¡¯t know if you¡¯re a fashion terrorist.? ? ¡°I¡¯m not a fashion terrorist!¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung, who dressed in a light blue shirt, sky blue cardigan, and jeans, with a face full of pitiful splendor like a rose soaked in rain, was unhappy. These were the clothing that he brought with him to his spouse¡¯s parents¡¯ house for a night¡¯s sleep. He looked at me and asked if his clothing were strange, to which I replied kindly.? ? ¡°It¡¯s okay, Seo-yu hyung. The completion of fashion is the face.¡±? ? ¡°Did you just make fun of me?¡±? ? ¡°No, I¡¯m totally serious.¡±? ? I answered while wiping the ice cream that had been smeared on Jae-hoon¡¯s lips with a tissue. He emptied a cup of ice cream. A four-year-old eats well. ¡­Wasn¡¯t this going to upset his stomach?? ? ¡°Tell me if my clothes are weird. I was going to wear it like this when I went to an exhibition this weekend.¡±? ? ¡°Are you going again?¡±? ? Jang Won-jo frowned at once.? ? ¡°That exhibition¡­ What kind of fun does such a place offer? What¡¯s the topic this time?? ? ¡°Reno¡­ Ren¡­ Renaissance European culture.¡±? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? Jang Won-jo had a pitiful expression on his face as he stared at Seo-yu hyung.? ? ¡°If you go there, what do you understand?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t have to understand. I just like going to exhibitions.¡±? ? ¡°Wake up. People have to live in their own place. What are you going to do about it later? If crow tit walks like a stork¡­¡±If crow tit walks like a stork...? ? Jang Won-jo spoke as if frustrated, but shut his mouth soon because of me and Jae-hoon. Jang Won-jo was ignoring his only friend so much and was a little worried at the same time. How would you like to live if you were accustomed to a lavish lifestyle and then divorced?? ? At the same time, if Seo-yu hyung mentions the ¡°div¡± of divorce to my older brother, it was obvious that he would send Jang Won-jo the same way as Seo-yu hyung relative, regardless of whether he¡¯s his only friend. It was over if he get caught by Seo-yu hyung¡¯s security department head when he keep talking about that.? ? But, well, there will be no need for anyone else to step up. After all¡­? ? ¡°I really liked it when I went to Europe a while ago. The weather was nice and the relaxed atmosphere was nice. I¡¯m interested in Europe, so I think I¡¯ll be there for about a month when Sung-hoon ssi returns.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung knew it anyway.? ? ¡°Oh, yeah.¡±? ? Jang Won-jo ate only ice cream with a rotten expression. He smiled bitterly.? ? Seo-yu hyung started talking about Europe in front of his rotten-looking friend. He was said to have taken an interest in Europe out of nowhere, but I had no idea how long that interest would last.? ? Seo-yu hyung was the same. He was consistently capricious.? ? Seo-yu hyung used to talk a lot about Picasso. He didn¡¯t know much about other painters (not even Rembrandt), but he knew a lot about Picasso, so I assumed Seo-yu hyung admired Picasso a lot.? ? And then, when Jae-hoon was two years old, I went on a trip to the Picasso Museum and paid a lot of money for a legitimate picture frame. As I was still staying in Bucheon at the time, I hung it in my room and told Seo-yu hyung about it.? ? ¡®Hyung, look at this. I bought this while traveling.¡¯? ? ¡®¡­? Yes, it¡¯s a pretty picture.¡¯? ? Seo-yu hyung just glanced at it as if he was looking at an ordinary interior frame, then spewed soulless compliments and Jae-hoon moved on to the conversation. He said that he started memorizing the multiplication table now.? ? And after a while, there was a lot of talk about Van Gogh and Gauguin, but it turned out that his interest in them only piqued for a short time after he decided to visit the artist¡¯s exhibition. The information comes out smoothly once he brings it up, but it quickly disappears after he goes to the exhibition.? ? ¡°Can I have your ice cream?¡±? ? ¡°Yes, of course, of course.¡±? ? In the midst of this, Jae-hoon coveted my ice cream, so I quickly gave it to him. Because Jae-hoon couldn¡¯t finish it, I didn¡¯t order another. Was I making him eat too much?? ? However, it would be nice to see Seo-yu hyung glancing at Jae-hoon eating ice cream and continuing the story without stopping him. CH 61 The meeting came to an end when Jae-hoon fell asleep. I was proud that I did my part because I interfered with the conversation between Jang Won-jo and Seo-yu hyung.? ? The afternoon sunlight pouring through the car window on the way to Seo-yu¡¯s residence was comforting. Seo-yu hyung patted Jae-hoon, who was asleep while singing a lullaby in a low voice.? ? A warm breeze blew when I lowered the window. This was what a great afternoon might feel like. It was a moment when I enjoyed the relaxation.? ? ¡°It would be nice to have a sibling.¡±? ? I almost hit the brake for a moment at Seo-yu hyung¡¯s muttering.? ? All of a sudden? As expected, I couldn¡¯t let my guard down.? ? ¡°What are you talking about? What do you mean sibling?¡±? ? ¡°Jae-hoon also needs a younger sibling. He¡¯d be lonely if he were alone. It¡¯d be lovely to have younger siblings, whether it¡¯s a younger sister or a younger brother.¡±? ? His voice was gentle and quiet, much as when he put Jae-hoon to sleep. He had a relaxed face as if he was alone in a white field full of spring sunshine, but I felt cold as if I had fallen in the North Pole.? ? ¡®When Seoyu talks about the second child, oppose it.¡¯? ? My older brother made a definite statement to Mom, Dad, and myself. He hasn¡¯t given up on the second one yet, so oppose it if he brings it up.? ? Seo-yu hyung was a person who barely crossed the crisis of death when gave birth to Jae-hoon. Seo-yu hyung, who was lying down with a relaxed face, looked like someone who would never open his eyes again.? ? ¡°Sung-hyun-ah, it¡¯s good that you have an older brother, right? Don¡¯t you think being the only child would have been lonely?¡±? ? ¡°No, not at all. These days, it¡¯s hard to have one and raise it well.¡±? ? To be honest, who wouldn¡¯t want to see the daughter Seo-yu hyung gave birth to? However, if I sympathize, he may tell his spouse that my argument encouraged him. A second child was never allowed.? ? ¡°You feel like you¡¯re losing your parents¡¯ affection when you have a younger sibling, then you become jealous. Even if you love them equally, it¡¯s difficult to make them feel the same way.¡±? ? ¡°When I was younger, I just felt fair.¡±? ? ¡°Hyung and I don¡¯t feel it because we are the younger brothers, and our older brothers may have been jealous.¡±? ? ¡°Is that so¡­¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung, who was in distress, stopped talking. Only the occasional sound of Jae-hoon¡¯s breathing could be heard in the car, as he slept quietly.? ? I thought maybe I made a mistake. Maybe I shouldn¡¯t have brought up Seo-yu hyung¡¯s older brother.? ? I¡¯ve never experienced pain like Seo-yu hyung¡¯s. So I wasn¡¯t sure how much thought was required or how cautious I needed to be.? ? When I looked in the room mirror and saw Seo-yu hyung, I was taken aback. He was gently sweeping his eyes with his hands!? ? Kiik-? ? I hurriedly pulled over to the side of the road.? ? ¡°Huh? Why did you stop¡­¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, are you crying?¡±? ? ¡°What?¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t cry. I¡¯m sorry for bringing up your older brother. Why are you crying over such little matters?¡±? ? ¡°What are you talking about? I didn¡¯t cry!¡±? ? ¡°You just wiped your tears. I saw it all!¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s a yawn, don¡¯t shout! Jae-hoon is going to wake up!¡±? ? After tossing and turning, Jae-hoon woke up as soon as Seo-yu hyung shouted.? ? ¡°Waa, Daddy cried¡­?¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t cry!¡±? ? ¡°Yu Dad, you cry every day. Dad, I¡¯ll pat you on the back.¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t cry!¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung¡¯s voice quiver at the end. I guess he just wants to cry some more. I couldn¡¯t stop staring back and being restless. I was at a loss for what to do. Tissue, I need a tissue.? ? Vibrate-? ? Then I got a video call from my mother. I received it quickly.? ? ¡°Mom!¡±? ? ¨C Can you talk on the phone? Are you not driving?? ? ¡°I stopped for a moment. Seo-yu hyung is crying again.¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t cry! I didn¡¯t cry!¡±? ? ¨C Oh no, what happened?? ? ¨C Why? What did he say?? ? ¨C Well, Seo-yu cried again.? ? ¨C Oh, he¡¯s so soft-hearted and cries a lot¡­? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t cry. I yawned. I don¡¯t cry at all!? ? ¨C Please comfort him well. We¡¯ll call you back later.? ? ¡°Yes, Mom.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t ever tell Choi Sung-hoon!¡±? ? The phone hung up on Seo-yu hyung even before he mentioned ¡®Choi Seong-hoon-¡®. Meanwhile, I came upon a handkerchief and gave it to Seo-yu hyung. Seo-yu hyung¡¯s face flushed and he just stared at me, but Jae-hoon grabbed the handkerchief and wiped his father¡¯s face. Seo-yu hyung then hugged Jaehoon.? ? ¡°Jae-hoon-ah¡­ ¡±? ? ¡°Oh, Dad. Don¡¯t cry.¡±? ? ¡°I didn¡¯t cry¡­¡± ? ? ¡°Yes, don¡¯t cry.¡±? ? I was glad they had a good relationship. I started the car again, hoping that Jae-hoon would calm Seo-yu hyung¡¯s heart.? ? Sung-hoon hyung must be flying by now. After hearing that Seo-yu hyung was crying, he¡­ Ugh, it¡¯s terrifying. I need to get Seo-yu hyung home as soon as possible, and then I need to escape to a safe place.? ? * * *? ? The lights were turned off at Seo-yu hyung¡¯s house. The house where all the babysitters and housekeepers were on vacation seemed too spacious for Seo-yu hyung and Jae-hoon to be alone. Of course, there were guards guarding the front door 24 hours a day, but there was no one inside the house.? ? That¡¯s why I didn¡¯t say no to Seo-yu hyung¡¯s offer of a can of beer. I put Jae-hoon to sleep and sat in the living room while Seo-yu hyung was preparing snacks.? ? A wedding picture was hanging larger than the TV next to the already large, dimly illuminated wall-mounted TV. Seo-yu hyung smiling happily while looking at the camera, while Sung-hoon hyung smile at Seo-yu hyung.? ? There was also a picture of Jae-hoon next to him, a picture of three family members together with Jae-hoon, a picture taken last year with my mom, dad, and me, as well as a picture of Seo-yu hyung¡¯s elementary school graduation and Seo-yu hyung¡¯s family picture, were displayed side by side.? ? A picture of my older brother when he was little will now be added next to this. When Sung-hoon hyung sees a photo of himself as a child, he would frown openly but does not take it down. Because Seo-yu hyung liked it.? ? I looked at Seo-yu hyung¡¯s family photo. A little chubby mother, a father who wears glasses, Seo Yeon, who has a neat appearance, and Seo-yu hyung, a third-year middle school student who looks like a baby.? ? The four of them had a noticeable resemblance. Among them, Seo-yu hyung was so pretty and small that tears welled up in my eyes the first time I saw this picture.? ? How difficult it must have been to leave such a lovely and small youngest child behind. He was still quite small. He was too young to be alone.? ? On the anniversary of Seo-yu hyung¡¯s parents, my mother and father always pay a visit to the memorial to greet them. Please continue to keep an eye on your adorable youngest son, who has now become our great second son. I went with them the first time and haven¡¯t gone since. I felt so weird.? ? My parents would also pass away at some point.? ? There were times when I feel like trash when I see them who only exist in Seo-yu hyung¡¯s family photos that were not in the world now.? ? I sat on the sofa and turned on the TV for no reason and put on a calm look.? ? ¡°Here, it¡¯s done.¡±? ? Just then, Seo-yu hyung came with a tray. I thought he didn¡¯t cook at home, but he has been making a variety of side dishes right away. From grilled chicken wings to squid ink butter to corn salad.? ? ¡°That¡¯s awesome. I eat all the snacks. How do you do this?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s very simple.¡±? ? ¡°Hyung, you¡¯ve cooked a lot. Who did you learn from?¡±? ? ¡°I watched on TV and browsed the Internet. And everyone can do this.¡±? ? I imagined a young Seo-yu hyung, who has not yet lost his baby fat, searching the internet to make foods by himself, making various side dishes, and boiling stew. Perhaps he prepared more side dishes. Seo-yu hyung might always eat and drink alone as well.? ? ¡°Sung-hoon ssi, probably still on the plane, right? After all, I have to make dinner today. When Sung-hoon first came to my old house, the only thing I had was ramen, so I could only give him that.¡±? ? ¡°I want to eat too.¡±? ? ¡°Then stay for the meal.¡±? ? ¡°I can¡¯t¡­¡±? ? My older brother hasn¡¯t seen Seo-yu hyung in two days, so his patience must have fallen to the lowest level, but if I stay here, he may not leave me alone.? ? I ate the appetizers prepared by Seo-yu hyung one by one while drinking a cool can of beer, and the slightly sweet ones were really good.? ? ¡°Awesome. I wasn¡¯t expecting this, but it¡¯s so delicious.¡±? ? ¡°Why don¡¯t you expect it?¡±? ? ¡°Do you know how to cook things like soup? Something like seafood soup.¡±? ? ¡°The soup is for soju.¡±? ? ¡°You just don¡¯t know how to do it.¡±? ? ¡°Even if I looked for it on the Internet, I wouldn¡¯t be able to do it on my own. Unless someone teaches me.¡±? ? That¡¯s what I thought. Seo-yu hyung was unlikely to have had anyone teach him how to cook.? ? I held out my beer can to Seo-yu hyung. Seo-yu hyung smiled brightly and tapped my beer can. The first beer can was quickly empty, and the second beer was served. I kept checking the time as I drank and ate. It was time for Sung-hoon hyung to be still on the flight.? ? ¡°What are you going to cook for my older brother?¡±? ? ¡°Well, I¡¯m going to make some meat side dishes.¡±? ? ¡°Do you have any ingredients at home?¡±? ? ¡°There are six refrigerators. Everything must be there.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung drank a bottle of beer after becoming arrogant. Seo-yu hyung told me not to drink too much alcohol with a somewhat reddish face.? ? ¡°Why? I¡¯m going to call the driver anyway.¡±? ? ¡°Don¡¯t drink too much. I looked on the internet and they said there was a food alley right next to your university. College students who drank a lot there got their wallets stolen when they were stretched out on the roadside.¡±? ? I knew, I knew it. I didn¡¯t drink in places like that.? ? ¡°And it¡¯s rumored that when you live alone near the school, people just use it as their hideout. Be careful.¡±? ? My house had already turned into a hideout. There would still be a dozen or so people there right now.? ? ¡°If you¡¯re dating someone on campus, the rumor will spread out. So, date in moderation.¡±? ? Rumors were spreading at the constituency level.? ? Seo-yu hyung should have realized I was in my fourth year. I said it just in case.? ? ¡°Hyung, I will graduate next semester.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. It¡¯s difficult to find work these days, so don¡¯t get too worked up about it.¡±? ? I stared at Seo-yu hyung¡¯s reddish face.? ? Being so drunk on a can and a bottle of beer.? ? I couldn¡¯t believe it.? ? Seo-yu hyung always wanted to be my older brother.? ? ¡°It was an exam period not long ago. Did you get your report card?¡±? ? ¡°Report card?¡±? ? ¡°I was very good at fixing it. When I was in middle school, my friends were almost beaten up because of their grades, but I saved them.¡±? ? ¡°¡­Hyung, you were a skilled person. You didn¡¯t get caught?¡±? ? ¡°Nope. If you think you¡¯re going to be beaten, call me.¡±? ? ¡°Okay. Hyung, eat some snacks while you drink.¡±? ? I gave Seo-yu hyung a squid leg and was shocked when he took it with his mouth rather than his hand. I almost leaped out of my seat when I saw the red lips slightly open.? ? ¡°It¡¯s delicious. Who grilled it?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung mumbled and smiled mischievously.? ? Wow, fuck it. That wasn¡¯t good for my heart.? ? I opened my third beer and drank it. After drinking it in, I put it down, and Seo-yu hyung held out a squid leg to me as if he was waiting. I cautiously took it in two fingers and chewed it.? ? ¡°Anyway, don¡¯t worry about my grades. For 4th graders, my grade is enough.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s a relief. Your parents will like it. Go home more often. So that your parents don¡¯t get upset.¡±? ? Laughter erupted as a result of the stream of emotions.? ? ¡°Don¡¯t worry. I¡¯m very nice to my mom and dad. I haven¡¯t met anyone among my friends who is more filial than myself.¡±? ? ¡°Really?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I¡¯m on the side of growing up early. My older brother has been away since I was little, and my mom and dad were always busy, so I grew up alone.¡±? ? ¡°Really?¡±? ? ¡°Besides, I wasn¡¯t too bad at the time, so I was a decent student who had nice manners when I was a child. I¡¯ve been maturing for some time now. As a result, I sometimes wonder when my friends will grow up when I see them.¡±? ? ¡°I see.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung stared at me with the eyes when he saw Jae-hoon do cute things. Like I said seeing something cute. His eyes were red and watery. Feeling somewhat embarrassed, I changed the topic.? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung, are you crying again? I think you¡¯re crying.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung closed his mouth and stared at me as soon as I finished speaking.? ? ¡°No, I¡¯m not. I try not to cry. Stop talking about that. You made my image weird.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯ve met a lot of Omegas, but I¡¯ve never met one who is as tearful and soft as you.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m not going to cry. Hey, honestly, when did I ever cry?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung raised his voice as if he was embarrassed. I remember exactly when Seo-yu hyung cried.? ? ¡°Hyung, you cried when you first came to our house.¡±? ? ¡°That¡­ I admit it, is there any other time besides that?¡±? ? ¡°At that time, before you got married, you were hospitalized and cried when you were discharged.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s because of the lint¡­!¡±? ? ¡°You cried again when you woke up after we went to the sea and Hyung almost died.¡±? ? ¡°That¡­¡±? ? ¡°And you cried on the way here today.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m seriously yawning today. Sung-hyung-ah, I swear to you.¡±? ? ¡­I think the pronunciation sounded strange at the time, but his tongue was most likely twisted.? ? Seo-yu hyung drank a can of beer because he was ashamed of crying too often. I missed the timing to stop him.? ? He wiped his lips and looked at me with misty eyes.? ? ¡°Hey, but to be honest, you cry a lot as well. At my wedding, you cried a lot. I thought there was a flood. Honestly, you were kind of embarrassed, right?? ? ¡°That¡¯s it. I cried then. Of course, I would cry. My older brother has a new family¡­ I also thought that Seo-yu hyung, who had gone through a difficult time was now happy, and tears came out naturally. I¡¯m not embarrassed at all.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? ¡°My dad cried more than me.¡±? ? At the wedding and gatherings of all kinds of political and financial figures, my dad cried profusely. I was afraid he¡¯d embarrass himself. Of course, it was not embarrassing that I cried.? ? Seo-yu hyung couldn¡¯t make fun of me any longer when I mentioned my dad, so he just rummaged through the chicken wings.? ? ¡°Be nice to Mom and Dad. Go home often so that they don¡¯t feel sad.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? You were definitely drunk.? ? This wasn¡¯t even soju, it was just beer. A sense of crisis came later. Wasn¡¯t Sung-hoon hyung going to kill me at this point¡­?? ? ¡°Hyung, stop drinking. I think you¡¯re very drunk right now.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to eat this and get drunk. I¡¯m not a kid.¡±? ? ¡°No matter how you look at it, you seem like you¡¯re already drunk. Just eat a lot of snacks.¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m full since I¡¯ve been eating too much since this morning.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung placed his cheeks on the table and played with the chicken wings with chopsticks.? ? ¡°I should probably go to the cooking class. I heard a lot of people going these days. I should also learn to cook.¡±? ? ¡±¡­¡±? ? I didn¡¯t know that I¡¯d heard about learning something from Seo-yu hyung.? ? I kept contemplating whether to talk about this or not, but I have to say it since he mentioned it.? ? ¡°Hyung, don¡¯t you want to study other than cooking?¡±? ? ¡°What kind of study?¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s just studying at school. Getting a diploma¡­ Don¡¯t you want to go to university?¡±? ? ¡°I¡¯m so stupid that it¡¯s no use trying. And what kind of university would accept me at this age?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung laughed as if he heard something meaningless. He hadn¡¯t even thought about it at all.? ? No. Why did you think so?? ? You might be able to do it well.? ? Age didn¡¯t matter.? ? I mean, we have classmates in their 40s at our school.? ? Seo-yu hyung¡¯s phone, which he had placed on the table, rang while I was pondering which words to spit out of the thoughts rushing through my mind.? ? [Sung-hoon?]? ? I was completely taken aback when I saw the name. It was almost time to land. It was even a video call.? ? My older brother made a video call¡­? ? At this rate, he¡¯d be sending emoticons as well.? ? ¡°Ugh, I guess he is already in Korea.¡±? ? With his arms outstretched, Seo-yu hyung immediately picked up his phone and smiled warmly at the person who appeared on the screen.? ? ¡°Choi Sung-hong ssi, are you in Korea?¡±? ? ¨C ¡­Have you been drinking?? ? ¡°Yes, I¡¯m drinking beer at home with Sung-hyun.¡±? ? ¨C At this hour? It¡¯s too early. The sun hasn¡¯t set yet.? ? ¡°I¡¯m going to stop drinking now. It¡¯s nice to see Sung-hyong¡¯s face after a long time. I think I lost some weight.¡±? ? What do you mean after a long time. It had been barely two days.? ? ¨C Seo-yu ssi¡­ You¡¯ve become more beautiful.? ? His voice was dripping with honey. Obviously, he¡¯d have a gentle and loving expression.? ? ¡°I really want to see your face. When are you going to arrive?¡±? ? ¨C It takes about 30 minutes. Jae-hoon must be asleep.? ? ¡°He was dozing off because he was full. Hold on. I¡¯ll show you right away.¡±? ? I lightly stopped Seo-yu hyung as he was ready to stand up. Don¡¯t wake him up if he¡¯s sleeping.? ? ¨C I¡¯ll be right there. Please put Sung-hyun on the phone.? ? ¡°Okay!¡±? ? There was no face on the screen when Seo-yu hyung, who replied brightly, handed me the phone. My brother switched to voice call mode.? ? ¡°Hyu¡­ hyung.¡±? ? ¨C How much did you drink?? ? His voice was scary as he spoke. I counted how many bottles and cans there were on the table. I drank most of them.? ? ¡°Hyung, about two cans and a half-bottle¡­¡±? ? ¨C He cried today?? ? It wasn¡¯t a given word, but I quickly understood it.? ? ¡°On our way home earlier.¡±? ? I grabbed my phone and slowly got up. Seo-yu hyung didn¡¯t care as he cleared the seat with a bright face.? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung said it would be good for Jae-hoon to have a younger brother, so I just objected. When the first child has a younger sibling, the first child will be jealous. We might not have realized it because we were the younger brothers. Then I brought up his older brother¡­¡±? ? ¨C ¡­? ? ¡°I meant to make him give up the second child¡­¡±? ? A low sigh was heard.? ? My brother didn¡¯t say much to me. He just sighed and hung up the phone after telling me to stop drinking and go home.? ? ¡°Seo-yu hyung, I¡¯m leaving. I had a nice time today.¡±? ? ¡°We merely got together after a time, stay a little longer.¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung, who had just finished cleaning, had a sad expression on his face. It was unfortunate, but I had no choice but to leave now because I only have one life.? ? ¡°I have to do my graduation assignment. I won¡¯t have time to do it next semester, so I¡¯ll do it now.¡±? ? ¡°Ah, the assignment¡­ Is it very difficult?¡±? ? ¡°I don¡¯t know. I¡¯m so annoyed. I don¡¯t even know what the letters are, so I Gestaltfall.¡±? ? ¡°Huh, what kind of fall is it? Is it an accident-related topic?¡±? ? ¡°No, no, no. It¡¯s just a term. It¡¯s too difficult.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s a phrase you use when you feel dizzy because it¡¯s too difficult.¡±? ? ¡°Is that so¡­¡±? ? I resisted wanting to stroke Seo-yu hyung¡¯s hair.? ? ¡°Tell Jae-hoon to listen to his father and be healthy.¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, he¡¯ll be sad when he wakes up and see his brother is not here.¡±? ? I really hope so. I called driver Oh while taking care of the car key. The driver who was already nearby answered the phone quickly.? ? ¡°Ah!¡± said Seo-yu hyung as he unlocked the front door and put on his shoes to walk to the yard. He rushed into the house after that. I was concerned that he would fall because he was drunk. Soon after, Seo-yu hyung reappeared, holding something in his hand.? ? ¡°I forgot about this and didn¡¯t take it yesterday, so I couldn¡¯t give it to you.¡±? ? ¡°What¡¯s this¡­ Whistle?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, it¡¯s dangerous at night, so take it with you.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? I was 193 cm tall and was an expert in a variety of sports and self-defense skills. I took it very bluntly.? ? ¡°I¡¯ll use it well. Thank you. When did you buy this?¡±? ? ¡°I bought it a while ago while drinking. There¡¯s nothing wrong with having it, so I bought it when I was buying it for your elder brother as well.¡±? ? ¡°You got one for my older brother¡­ What¡­ What did he say?¡±? ? ¡°He just said thank you. He hangs it on his cell phone. Do you want to as well? You can hang it on the case.¡±? ? A man who was 196 cm tall, weighs over 100 kg and has a muscular body¡­ Even the world¡¯s extremely dominant Alpha, who could do any martial art and was stronger than his bodyguards, was given a whistle since the road was dangerous at night.? ? I was sure the only person who cared about my older brother¡¯s nightlife was Seo-yu hyung. From when he was a child the size of Jae-hoon until now, Seo-yu hyung would be the only one.? ? That was why I was going to die.? ? This was why my older brother was crazy over him.? ? ¡°What¡¯s the matter? Are you getting drunk?¡±? ? Seo-yu hyung was concerned when I laughed out loud. I told him it was nothing and thanked him again while raising the whistle to my eyes. It was a bright yellow color. Seo-yu hyung proudly said that it was a fluorescent material that was visible even at night.? ? All right.? ? I pondered how could people not adore him if his nature that popped out of his mind after drinking alcohol was a concern for his loved one.? ? It was such an understandable loveliness. CH 62 I arrived home only after the sun had set. When I pressed the password and opened the front door, the guys who were still drinking came running towards me like a swarm of zombies. Some people ask about Seo-yu hyung, some say it wasn¡¯t fun without me, and some people want to go out and play.? ? I was not in the mood to make a lot of noise, so I kicked them all out. Of course, I cleaned up everything.? ? I should call the Vice President¡¯s psychotic son, who did not say cute to Jae-hoon, separately and tell him not to approach me any longer. The managing director¡¯s son was¡­ I have to slowly acknowledge him.? ? My friends would accept him as a friend if I acknowledge him as one, and he will become a full member of our group. It was entirely natural. Because I was a superior person who they could aspire to be like.? ? After I got out of the shower and turned on the TV, I looked at the time and saw that it was 9 pm. The first thing that came to my mind was Seo-yu hyung. My older brothers were probably having a good time by now.? ? This was not the time. Let¡¯s just do the assignment.? ? This would be the final assignment in fourth grade. Because I have to go to the company right immediately next semester to learn how to work, my attendance for this semester was basically over. It was only going to be replaced by assignments, so it was convenient to do it in advance.? ? I turned on the laptop and went straight to the document file. I thought of my older brothers as I tried to open one after stacking the documents I had given for reference in drafting the thesis.? ? I wondered if I would ever be able to love like that.? ? Like my older brothers, as well as my mom and dad.? ? Shit, I was lonely.? ? I wondered if my followers were kicked out for nothing. I rummaged around the Messages app, leaving a message in a number of conversation windows. Calls began to stream in, asking if I was bored or if I wanted to meet. It was a problem because I have so many friends. I¡¯d like to give Seo-yu hyung half of it.? ? As I scrolled down, the three-person family chat room was also lit. Sung-hoon hyung and Seo-yu hyung don¡¯t have a chat window with me, mom, and dad. I made it last year as a surprise gift for their wedding anniversary, but now we hardly use it.? ? Dad [Did you get home safely? ?_?] ? ? For some reason, my dad was crying and asking for attention.? ? I called right away.? ? ¨C Yes, Sung-hyun-ah.? ? ¡°I saw the message just now. Why are you crying?¡±? ? ¨C We have caught a cold¡­? ? ¡°Oh my, really? I heard that the summer cold is bad. Go to Doctor Chae tomorrow.¡±? ? ¨C Come back home often. We catch a cold because you don¡¯t come home very often.? ? It was driving me crazy. Just how often do you want me to go home.? ? ¡°All right, don¡¯t say that to Seo-yu hyung anymore. Seo-yu hyung thought I really don¡¯t care about my parents.¡±? ? ¨C That¡¯s right. It¡¯s been two weeks since you¡¯ve returned home. Dad will be upset!? ? That was something I couldn¡¯t think a big man over 190 cm would say. To be honest, if it were the old days, he would be dubbed a grandfather at this age. Oh, I felt nauseous.? ? ¡°What is mom doing? Pass the phone.¡±? ? ¨C She¡¯s taking medicine and sleeping now. Did you take Seo-yu home safely?? ? ¡°Yeah, I stayed at his house for a drink.¡±? ? ¨C Your mother was very worried that Seo-yu cried again. I think it¡¯s because he saw our family picture at home. Even if he pretended not to, he would have thought of his family a lot from the moment he saw the family picture.? ? ¡°¡­I¡¯m sure it was.¡±? ? Without even realizing it, I just told him that our older brothers might have been jealous of us the younger brothers.? ? It was really hard to deal with Seo-yu hyung.? ? Seo-yu hyung was a gentle and easygoing person in general, but sometimes, it was more difficult because he was soft and easygoing.? ? ¡°Now, he must have forgotten that he cried because Sung-hoon hyung had come home. Tell mom not to worry. Please get well soon.¡±? ? ¨C You call your mom tomorrow morning.? ? ¡°Okay.¡±? ? ¨C Don¡¯t forget. It¡¯s sad when your mother gets sick after her 60th birthday, but since the first son doesn¡¯t call, you should call her.? ? ¡°Yeah, if I talk to Seo-yu hyung, the first son will also call.¡±? ? ¨C It¡¯s a secret especially for Seo-yu¡­ We¡¯ll be even more regretful if we cause him too much worry.? ? I guess you weren¡¯t sorry for causing me to be worried.? ? My dad hung up the phone only after I had promised that I would call in the morning.? ? My mum was not in the best of health. Her grasp and strength were great, but her basic physical strength was weak. It was said that it happened after going through two miscarriages. ? ? Dad and Mom were both in their sixties.? ? 60 years old was still considered middle-aged nowadays. They weren¡¯t that old, but why were they acting so¡­ I never thought they were getting old.? ? * * *? ? Assignments¡­ A daunting Assignments¡­ Fucking business administration¡­? ? ¡°Ugh, the assignment is really hard. I won¡¯t be able to graduate.¡±? ? A friend of mine next to me fell over, saying exactly what I was thinking.? ? ¡°Me too, what the heck. I can¡¯t do this anymore. Let¡¯s take a break.¡±? ? ¡°Hey, can we have a drink or something? It might go well with a drink.¡±? ? ¡°Stop saying nonsense, you crazy bastard.¡±? ? We came together today to do the assignment, and when one of them started swearing, the guys who were focused on their studies collapsed like dominoes.? ? It was difficult for a perfect student like me who could study well, but how hard must it be for guys with ordinary brains. I felt pity for them.? ? ¡°Ah, Choi Sung-hyun, it was just like you said. That bastard is not good enough to hang out with us.¡±? ? ¡°That bastard?¡±? ? ¡°Your company¡¯s vice president¡¯s son. He was a bully in middle school, and they said he beat up on the students on daily. If they had brought that up in our meeting, I would have felt ashamed.¡±? ? ¡°Oh, that¡¯s right. I told you he¡¯s brutal.¡±? ? I invited the sons of the vice president and the managing director to our meeting. And the vice president¡¯s son was a real jerk who talked behind my back in numerous meetings, but I could hear everything. I was thinking of mentioning that at some point. No one will accept him somewhere else because he¡¯d changed so drastically in just one day.? ? ¡°You have an unexpectedly keen eye for people.¡±? ? ¡°It¡¯s not unexpected. My perspective is always right.¡±? ? ¡°I can¡¯t deny it.¡±? ? My friends giggled and laughed. Actually, it was not my perspective, it was Jae-hoon¡¯s. I was less worried because it seems certain that Jae-hoon would be careful in making friends because he¡¯s different from his father.? ? ¡°You guys saw my nephew, right? How was it?¡±? ? ¡°How was it? He is really cute though. I felt like he grew up only receiving love.¡±? ? After all, they were the ones that passed my test because they say Jae-hoon was cute.? ? ¡°He looked just like his dad. Not your older brother, but the Omega.¡±? ? ¡°He¡¯s completely similar to Seo-yu hyung. ¡­Do you recall seeing Seo-yu hyung for the first time on the wedding day?¡±? ? ¡°He had just been at our university for a little while before. I remember him because he smiles like a prince every time I see him.¡±? ? ¡°What kind of smile is a prince¡¯s smile?¡±? ? When I asked if it was possible that he looked as noble as a royal family, the friend answered without delay.? ? ¡°A smile that makes you look happy as if you have lived without any worries.¡±? ? I was speechless for a moment and blinked.? ? ¡°¡­Does Seo-yu hyung look like that?¡±? ? ¡°Yeah, I know his parents had passed away. I saw only one grandfather sitting at the wedding that day. Still, he was smiling very happily, so it didn¡¯t seem like he was living a lonely life.¡±? ? ¡°That¡¯s right. He looked so happy that it seemed he couldn¡¯t wait to get married. It doesn¡¯t seem like there¡¯s even a speck of worry.¡±? ? ¡°Does he like that in real life? I think he is very positive and bright.¡±? ? ¡°¡­¡±? ? My friends looked at me with pure curiosity, but I couldn¡¯t say yes or no.? ? If you think about it, that¡¯s right. Seo-yu hyung would have been happy that day. Of course. He must have been smiling like the happiest person in the world. My dad and I were the only ones in the audience who cried so much during the ceremony that day.? ? But I wondered why I just realized that now.? ? ¡®He was smiling very happily, so it didn¡¯t look like he was living a lonely life.¡¯? ? ¡®Do you feel sorry for Seo-yu?¡¯? ? Following my friend¡¯s statements, I was reminded of a question my mother had given to me.? ? My friends called my name and shook my body, then asked why I suddenly lost my mind, but I was spaced out for a while like a person who was beaten by a giant bell.? ? * * *? ? In the afternoon, my friends all went home, and I woke up staring blankly at the laptop screen. I couldn¡¯t decide between the side dishes I packed from home and the delivery pig¡¯s feet. In the end, I decided to have pig¡¯s feet.? ? Something touched my wallet as I was taking it from the pocket of my hanger-hung trousers.? ? Whistle.? ? My mind became dizzy again the moment I saw it.? ? After thinking about it, I decided to eat the pig¡¯s feet later and eat the side dishes my mom and dad had prepared for me first. Maybe the aunt made it to my liking because it was even better than I expected, so I ate two bowls.? ? I sat back down in front of the laptop after putting the empty plate in the dishwasher. I took out my phone after typing down a couple of lines for the assignments.? ? Seo-yu hyung¡¯s name was displayed on the screen, but I didn¡¯t touch the contact.? ? I sent a message instead of calling.? ? [Wake up? Hahaha]? ? Yuyuyu [Of course, I am.] ? ? I got a reply right away. When I first messaged Hyung, I thought I was chatting with my dad. It was because Seo-yu hyung only talked to the old men before and got influenced, but that was not the case anymore.? ? Yuyuyu [Did you get home safely?]? ? [Yeah]? ? [Jae-hoon must have cried looking for me]? ? Yuyuyu [He didn¡¯t cry. He¡¯s all grown up~~~] ? ? [Did you and Sung-hoon hyung have fun last night? Ha ha ha]? ? ¡°¡­ ¡±? ? He read it but received no response. My face flushed, and I felt embarrassed. I waited for a while, but when I didn¡¯t hear anything, I assumed I was going to get chewed, so I turned off the screen. The smiling face reflected on the black screen of the cell phone looked like something out of a cartoon.? ? I couldn¡¯t come up with anything to say.? ? Hey. Mom said she had a cold. I think it would be better not to tell hyung because you worried a lot. I got drunk and turned into a dried pollack. What was with the whistle, it was not even a chicken or a game console?? ? My friends¡­? ? They said you looked happy.? ? You don¡¯t seem to have lived a lonely life.? ? I wondered if Seo-yu hyung will like it if I said this. I didn¡¯t know.? ? Having someone in my life who has lost his family has caused me to reflect on myself. I didn¡¯t want to think about Seo-yu hyung¡¯s misfortune.? ? A person who survived at the expense of his beloved family. A pitiful person who had no choice but to survive that way.? ? I didn¡¯t want to think of Seo-yu hyung that way¡­? ? Seo-yu hyung, who has a happy smile that doesn¡¯t seem like he has lived a lonely life, doesn¡¯t exist within me. No matter how happy Seo-yu hyung was now, he has already become that kind of person to me.? ? I would never understand the feelings of a person standing on the Mapo Bridge in the early morning on a rainy day. I could know when my parents die in a few decades, but it didn¡¯t feel the same as dying all at once in an accident and passing away comfortably when they were elderly.? ? Therefore¡­ I felt sorry for Seo-yu hyung. That was unavoidable. I didn¡¯t know why I shouldn¡¯t be sorry.? ? I was glad I passed there at that time that day. I was really glad that Seo-yu hyung met me.? ? I wasn¡¯t in the mood to do any assignment. I closed my laptop and lay down on the sofa. I was convinced that I would have a nightmare if I fell asleep like this, but I did not want to go to bed because I was just tired. I closed my eyes.? ? In conclusion, my dream was not a nightmare.? ? The scene unfolding before my eyes was not a black sea with waves crashing.? ? Under the clear sky, I was passing through an ordinary alleyway, which I would have never entered before.? ? A friendly looking family walked towards me from the opposite side. It looked very similar to the family photo I saw at Seo-yu hyung¡¯s house. As I passed the cute and young boy whose baby fat hadn¡¯t yet gone, I unknowingly called him ¡®Seo-yu-hyung¡¯.? ? ¡®¡­?¡¯? ? The pretty boy glanced at me indifferently. This was a dream. While he hesitated because he didn¡¯t sure how to respond, a young adult yelled out to the boy, saying, ¡°Hurry up.¡± The pretty boy ran to his mother who was on the phone with his father holding a shopping basket and his older brother waiting for him.? ? I glanced at the little boy running away with a wide smile.? ? And I didn¡¯t do anything but close my eyes.? ? To ensure that the back view of the young middle school student running to his home was never forgotten.? ? My nightmare would come to an end one day.? ? There would come a time when looking out at the water would no longer be a nightmare, but a miracle.? ? Because I know. What happened that day was a gift given to me by someone who had survived in the same way.? ? So, I hope that such a day would come to Seo-yu hyung as well. A day when a nightmare turns into a miracle by accumulating happiness one by one.? ? I need to work harder by his side. So that Seo-yu hyung could be happier. It would take some time, but that was fine. Because we have a lot of time given to us. And I was the type of guy who could do anything properly no matter how difficult it was, and I would try, so it was not a problem.? ? It was like a miracle that Seo-yu hyung met me on the Mapo bridge over the Han River on a rainy morning that day. No matter how much I thought about it¡­ As expected¡­ My existence was perfect!? ?