Chapter 39. I have endured a lot (1)


    Although Kalyan is there, there are times when Jan is not by my side.


    There were many reasons for Yan’s absence, but in such situations, people around Calian often found it difficult. And there is only one thing that could be the reason for the difficulty.


    It was because Kalyan wasughing.


    To be more precise, it’s because I can’t tell the truth of theughter.


    When Kalian smiles without Jan, it’s really impossible to tell whether he’s smiling because he’s happy, because he’s angry, because he’s in a bad mood, or because he’s in pain.


    But not this time.


    Although Hina didn’t know, ntz found out the reason why Calian burst outughing.


    Right now, Calian wasughing because he felt like he had been hit hard somewhere.


    “Ah… Hina. I see. You were the one involved. It was your job.”


    Calian, who wasughing quietly while covering his face, opened his mouth.


    “Yes. I’m sorry for making you into a weak person, trying to protect you as I want, and assuming that you can’t do anything without me. I’m really sorry. I won’t do that again.”


    And I apologized for being the first to reflect on this.


    ntz, who was feeling simr feelings, nodded slightly and ced one hand on Calian’s apple. If you were to interpret that action in words, it would probably be something along the lines of ‘me too’. Of course, I never treated Hina as someone younger than me, but it was true that I implicitly regarded her as a weak person who couldn’t do anything.


    As Hina said, not being able to fight didn’t mean being too weak to say anything.


    “And… I misunderstood. I’m sorry about that too, Hina.”


    Calian, who apologized a second time, turned his head to look at ntz and smiled again.


    ntz frowned, realizing that the smile had a different meaning than before. This was because I noticed the second reason why Calian was smiling.


    ‘Our Hina brother said you were a child.’


    That’s what I’m thinking.


    To be precise, it was ‘To our Hina, who is always lovely because she is as cozy as a nket dried in the spring sun and as peaceful as a winter night while reading a book, you are just a brat guarding the house, nts’, but the context is the same.


    Who would look at someone they like and call them a child? And that’s only one year older than ntz. ntz thought that even the Sispanians, who had been living since the beginning of time, had literally never called the young Hatsuara a child.


    – Did you misunderstand something?


    “Yeah. Something like that happened. Anyway, I’m sorry.”


    Kalian, who said that, burst intoughter again.


    From the beginning, no one, not even ntz himself, had ever misunderstood the meaning of the word. Of course, Kirie, her real brother, is left out of the discussion. Even after looking at this situation, Kirie is the type of person who should be misunderstood by picking out all kinds of things, so we should just think about it without thinking about it.


    Anyway, Kalian burst outughing because now he knew exactly what Hina’s ‘good prince’ meant. Let me point out one thing: Ipletely forgot that I had heard the same thing.


    “stop.”


    Anyway, that guy probably doesn’t know how many times I’ve taken out my anger on myself because I misunderstood and got angry. So, shouldn’t the apology now be made to me instead of to Hina? And on a cloudy day, nz, who had an irritated face because of the thought of the back of his neck throbbing as if Gray’s back was in pain, spoke to Kalian and then turned his head towards Hina. It wasn’t because I had something special to say, but because I was wondering if I might say something else.


    Kalian, who barely stoppedughing at ntz’s words, opened his mouth to Hina.


    “Okay. I understand what you mean.”


    It meant that I understood, but it didn’t mean that I understood. So Hina pursed her lips. Then, in front of the princes, Hina, who was looking at the two with an air as if she would put her hand on their waist, moved her hand.


    – I promise I won’t go.


    Then Calian shook his head.


    As Hina’s face turned stern, Kalian opened his mouth as if tofort her.


    “Hina. Can’t you promise me something else besides that?”


    Then, with a more kind face than anyone else, he continued speaking in a voice asking for a favor.


    “I was going to go. I was going to go somehow, but you and my brother tried to stop me like this. I promise you something else, Hina.”


    He nodded as if asking me to talk.


    “We, you and you, will think of a way so that no one has to go to Secretia. If there is no way, I will listen to you then. I will definitely listen.”


    nz, who was watching this, curled one corner of his mouth.


    There was no need for the cat box, sour tangerines, nightmares, etc. Now I know that I don’t need anything, I just need Hina and that guy’s stubbornness can be broken so easily and quickly.


    So, now, if something happens that you don’t have an answer for, you can tell it to Hina, not that guy’s dad.


    Kalian looked up at Hina, who was standing next to him, without knowing that the smart older brother sitting across from him had learned something new.


    “Huh? Hina.”


    Is there anyone in Kairis who knows how to use his face better than Kalyan? If there were people who could ignore what was being said while looking up with round, innocent eyes like Raven in front of Calian, it would probably be Demirea and ntz. The weakest is, of course, n.


    – It’s not a lie, right?


    “I can’t lie. You’d be surprised at how bad I am.”


    Serenti is probably surprised every day.


    If you had known in advance that I was this kind of person who gets caught easily, you wouldn’t have asked me to do something like this, but that’s a bit unfortunate.


    – all right. I’ll believe it.


    Still, Kalian wasn’t lying, so Hina nodded after hearing the answer she wanted.


    Even though he can’t lie, he’s good at acting, isn’t he?


    So, it was only nz who was anxious because he couldn’t guess what ns were in Kalyan’s mind, who was smiling brightly as if he was grateful.


    * * *


    This time, Kalian did not contact me first.


    No, I couldn’t do it.


    – I’m both curious and worried.


    So Chase has no choice but to contact me first and ask about the situation.


    Iughed again at the soft voice that seemed to contain nothing other than concern for Calian.


    I couldn’t help feeling sorry, so I startedughing.


    – The more I try not to worry, the more people around me worry, and I don’t know what to do.


    Calian, who felt good about receiving the worry was only Yan’s and Chase’s worry was just sorry, answered like this. As Hina said, if you stay inside and don’t do anything, no one will worry, but isn’t that impossible?


    – I am okay.


    So I had to think of a good way to avoid worrying about Hina, Chase, and the boiled peas that came around all the time. While I was wrapping my head like that, I was so happy to hear Chase’s voice.


    Kairis’s rain is fierce and you can’t avoid it, and it always ends up getting your clothes wet. Chase’s voice was like sweet rain. I was d to see it, looked forward to it, and always missed it.


    – Arianne says she will never believe me when I say that I am okay. I think we should listen to Prince Calian’s words with a grain of salt. What about it?


    – It’s really okay this time. It’s okay. There are hands that stop and pat you.


    I was fine, but because of me, another guy got caught in an unexpected rain. I’m sorry about that.


    I feel sorry that I cannot express this to nts. I felt sorry for reminding me of something I had forgotten and for making me notice something I didn’t need to know. I couldn’t even tell Chase about it, so I kept thinking about it to myself.


    I didn’t know that the sword had that meaning.


    – I think I’m the only one feeling better. Only me.


    Because I learned something I didn’t need to know, the peas that were already boiled fell into the water again, and Chase is also walking through a dream-like dream and a nightmare-like reality.


    – It doesn’t matter. are you okay.


    Chase, who at least understood the story about himself from the hidden words, said this. Then, as if changing the subject, he immediately started talking about something else.


    – Because I couldn’t finish the story yesterday. I contacted you to ask if you had any further questions. It’s a bit of an awkward time, but I also have ns today.


    It was a strange thing to ask if he had any questions for me when he contacted me first, but Kalyan did notugh. This was because Calian knew that if he didn’t do that, he wouldn’t be able to ask Chase anything first.


    – I’d like to know if there’s anything left to say. Prince Calian.


    The day before, we had a conversation in the forest, but the conversation ended quickly because nts arrived. After that, I couldn’t continue the conversation because I was splitting my time between meeting Gray, dealing with nts, and meeting Hina.


    “Aww.”


    I reached out my hand to Lucy, who was at my feet, and she ced her head on her own. Is it really possible that I like people this much?


    I stroked the small, round, hard-looking head a few times, but it seemed like he didn’t like it. He let out a dissatisfied cry and went straight to the in guy across from him.


    – yes. Anyway, I still have one thing to tell you.


    Calian, who was watching ntz, who was sitting with his eyes closed with a face that was hard to tell whether he was sleeping or dead, stroking Lucy on hisp, answered Chase and stood up.


    It looked like he had a lot to think about, and Calian needed to talk, so he was just going down.


    “Just stay here.”


    Then ntz said this.


    Calian looked at nz with a surprised face, just like the day he heard him say ‘Wee’ when he finished Rosellita.


    I guess there was something I didn’t like among the food I ate earlier.


    Unless he did something wrong, there’s no way he would do that. Why are they telling me not to kick them out?


    “rain.”


    It was raining and I probably had something to say, but it meant that I should just stay and not get caught in the rain as I had to go down and talk to Chase and thene back up to say the rest.


    “yes.”


    Calian, who answered just as calmly, sat back down. And then he spoke to Chase.


    – I don’t know if it’s something to interfere with, but… I wanted to ask you not to try to pry into His Majesty the King of Secretia. This person is more dangerous than you think, so don’t be hasty in touching him. So, for now, I wanted to ask you to act like you don’t know anything and move as usual.


    There was no answer to those words for a long time.


    Calian, who had be anxious because there was no answer for a long time, was about to call Chase when he heard words from Chase.


    – Actually, I’ve already tried it once. I couldn’t tell if I really remembered it or if I came to that conclusion after hearing something from someone, so I had a conversation to confirm it.


    Chase and nz thought the same thing, so I stopped by Den. The name ‘Bern’ was mentioned and Den checked to see if he remembered the name. Of course, he couldn’t tell Calian the method, but he had to tell him about the results, so Chase spoke while hiding the content of the conversation as much as possible.


    – I confirmed that I don’t remember anything, and nothing serious happened, so don’t worry. Because it’s okay.


    – Don’t jump to conclusions easily. Don’t ever do that. You should not trust it easily. You shouldn’t ignore it just because nothing happened.


    Calian, feeling worried, quickly gave a warning, and Chase, who remembered Den’s eyes turning cloudy and then returning, responded.


    – yes. I won’t feel at ease. So don’t worry about that either.


    – But how did you confirm it and what kind of conversation did you have? I’m curious.


    But Calian happened to ask this.


    I asked just because I was curious about how they confirmed it, or in other words, what questions they asked to find out what Den was thinking.


    – that.


    However, Chase’s answer did not flow properly.


    To Calian, it was just a mindless curiosity, but to Chase, it was something he wanted to avoid as much as possible, so he couldn’t give him any answer.


    When there was no answer even after waiting for a while, Calian raised his head and looked at ntz. Calian asked nz, who was still slightly closing his eyes.


    “Crown Prince Chase spoke with the King of Secretia to find out whether he found his memories or whether it was because he heard about them through rumors. When he checked, he said he did not find his memories.”


    The corners of nz’s eyes furrow.


    It means you know what you’re talking about. It’s a face that says he knows, but doesn’t want Calian to know.


    Calian opened his mouth in a quiet voice.


    “What is it? How to do it.”


    My mindless curiosity turned into suspicion.


    Surely these two are hiding something? Of course, the intention was for Calian’s sake, but if the opponent was Den, Calian also had to know.


    – I would like you to let that go without asking. Prince Calian.


    The answer that came back from Chase was this.


    “Don’t ask.”


    ntz also said the same thing. While swallowing all kinds of insults about Chase, who is really good at revealing secrets.


    “older brother.”


    Calian’s red eyes stared at ntz.


    “Please tell me. It’s okay.”


    I’m not sure if those red eyes are really red or another color.


    nz suddenly had this thought.