Chapter 187 Cao Cao’s transformation
Cao Cao actually envied Fei Qian, a bit like he envied Yuan Shao before.
?Although Cao Cao is reluctant to admit it, this kind of mentality is like his own shadow under the sun. No matter how bright the sun is, there is always a small area that is still a shadow.
Ordinary people may think that Cao Cao''s starting point is quite high, but he knows that in fact, he has always been labeled as a **** in the minds of the nobles, and this feeling has been tormenting him.
Sometimes in the middle of the night, Cao Cao even felt an inexplicable feeling of loneliness, as if he was the only one left in the world, and everything and everyone seemed far away from him.
??Cao Cao didn’t know when this inexplicable feeling of loneliness began to appear. Maybe it started when he watched his best friend being killed in front of him...
Cao Cao''s real friend is not Yuan Shao, but Song Qi.
? Sometimes Cao Cao would also think that if Song Qi had not died, there would have been no further progress, let alone Dong Zhuo...
One peck and one drink is like destiny.
?When Emperor Ling of the Han Dynasty ordered the execution of the Song family, did you ever think that one day the Han Dynasty would reach this point?
In the fourth year of Jianning, Song Qi''s sister Song became the queen, so En and the Song family became the new in-laws. Song Qi''s father, Song Feng, was appointed as Zhijinwu, and he was not granted the title of Marquis of his hometown. Song Qi himself was also named Jian Qianghou.
The next year, the first year of Xiping, Song Qi married the Cao family and married the daughter of Cao Chi, the official of Pei State, a minister in charge of Changshui. It was precisely because of this marriage that Cao Cao met Song Qi.
They are of similar age and status. One is a relative and the other is a eunuch. The eldest does not laugh at the second, and they are related by marriage, so they get to know each other and become close friends.
Unfortunately, good times did not last long, beauties age quickly, and beauties age slowly. Five or six years later, Queen Song''s appearance gradually declined and she was no longer favored. Not only did the other concubines in the harem frame her, but Wang Fu, the official at the time, killed Song Dynasty. The queen''s aunt was also afraid of being punished, so she also slandered Emperor Ling of the Han Dynasty, and the Emperor Ling of the Han Dynasty believed it.
Soon after, she was deposed as the empress of the Song family and relegated to the cold palace. The empress of Song died of illness due to sadness. The Song family was also implicated. Song Qi, his father and brothers were killed together and their bodies were abandoned outside the city.
??Now Cao Cao can no longer remember Song Qi''s appearance, but he still remembers the look in Song Qi''s eyes before that moment, the look of helplessness and injustice...
From then on, the image of the Han Dynasty emperor, who was originally a wise, powerful and noble emperor, began to have cracks in Cao Cao''s heart.
Sometimes Cao Cao would also think that if he was not born into a family of eunuchs, but into a family of Qingliu nobles like Yuan Shao, or even an ordinary noble family without being as prominent as Yuan Shao, he would definitely do better than Yuan Shao. The better!
But there are no ifs in life.
In the first year of Zhongping, Wang Fen and Chen Yi, Xiang Kai, Xu You, Zhou Jing and others, sons of the late Grand Tutor Chen Fan, planned to establish the Marquis of Hefei and depose the Ling Emperor due to the ban of the party, and found Cao Cao. After thinking it over, I refused.
From then on, a once passionate young man died, and Cao Cao truly entered adulthood through obscurity and patience. Although he was somewhat disappointed with the Emperor of Han, he still chose to maintain the authority of the Emperor of Han as much as possible...
But now the emperor and the court that Cao Cao served before seem to be on the verge of being destroyed, and it is Yuan Shao, whom he envies, or the Yuan family who destroys them all...
Cao Cao was defeated again.
The things he was devoted to safeguarding, the integrity in his heart, and the majesty of the court, all no longer existed. The statue of the Han Emperor fell from the high altar and shattered to pieces on the ground.
?But what really broke Cao Cao''s heart was Lu Boshe''s death.
It''s not that Cao Cao has never killed people. He has been on the battlefield, killed the Yellow Turbans, administered counties and counties, and killed powerful people. But before that, those he fought and killed were all robbers, robbers, and lawless powerful people. Cao Cao has a clear conscience.
But everything changed from that night.
??What a **** night it was. Cao Cao will never forget Lu Boshe''s wide eyes and the complicated and indescribable emotions before his death...
??Lu Boshe''s hot blood still seems to remain on his hands and can never be washed away.
A big mistake has been made that is irreversible and cannot be turned back.
Cao Cao knew that he was no longer an innocent person, and he could no longer say that he was upright, because his hands were stained with the blood of innocent people, and the corpses of innocent people lay under his feet. …
?This sometimes made him wake up from his dreams and find that he was sweating profusely...
??Cao Cao really envied Fei Qian. At least Fei Qian had a status as a member of the Qingliu noble family, and he also had a pair of hands that were not stained with the blood of innocent people. Fei Qian even had a sharper inference ability than him...
Cao Cao felt that if he wanted to achieve a great career in the future, he would definitely recruit people like Fei Qian, but now that he had no power and no territory, speaking out rashly might be a bit unsightly, so Cao Cao has been patient with it. , did not discuss this matter with Fei Qian.
???Cao Cao wanted to wait until the end of the discussion. If he succeeded, he would naturally be rewarded, at least as a county guard. It would be a better reason and time to invite Fei Qian then.
?Recalling what Fei Qian said that day, Cao Cao was still very distressed, because the scene that happened during the oath of alliance really made him feel a little chilled. This was a group of so-called elites of the Han Dynasty who received the salary of the Han Dynasty!
Fortunately, there is still Bao Xin.
As long as there are more people like Bao Xin, there will still be hope for the big Han!
Although Cao Cao himself also had a speculative mentality and brought a group of newly recruited soldiers who had not yet fought in battle and had little training, the others were different. Most of the county guards brought these two soldiers. The county soldiers who suppressed the Yellow Turbans for many years have combat experience. As long as everyone works together, they still have a certain advantage in numbers. Moreover, as long as the Yuan brothers act faster and send troops in time to cut off Dong Zhuo''s retreat to Chang''an, this crusade will be a success. In Dong Zhuo''s battle, the hope of victory is still very high.
So Cao Cao wrote a letter yesterday and asked Yuan Shao to rush it. Cao Cao hoped that Yuan Shao could use his identity as the leader of the alliance to dispatch the soldiers and horses in Suanzao, and suggested that Yuan Shao lead the troops from Hedong and along the On the north bank of the Yellow River, the weather is still quite cold and it is in the dry season. We can go straight to Tongguan and cut off Dong Zhuo''s return.
I hope Yuan Shao can receive the letter soon and take action soon...
It''s getting late now. I wonder what happened when Bao Xin went to discuss with Qiao Mao and Yuan Yi, the two prefects?
Just as Cao Cao was muttering, he saw Bao Xin walking into the tent from the outside with his eyebrows furrowed and his mouth tightly pursed, and his heart sank...
Cao Cao actually almost accepted Guan Yu... At that time, Guan Er said, "Hey, Duke Cao, I will help you attack the city. If the city is broken, then Mrs. Lang will be mine..." Cao Cao said: "Oh, na..."... Guan Er works very hard. The city was broken, and Guan Er was worried about it. As a result, Cao Cao said: "I was the one who said that I would accept it!"... Guan Er gave up his job...
(End of this chapter)