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76 I know who I am .
I know what I want …
Cassidy
The room spun .
.
My fingers dug into the wooden table , my knuckles turning white as the blood drained from my face .
For a moment , I couldn’t breathe , couldn’t think , couldn’t move .
Then the emotions hit me in rapid session shock that froze my lungs , fear that turned my blood to ice and finally , anger that coursed through my veins , spreading to every part of my body , pooling hatred in my heart .
Four years .
For four years I’d had to rebuild everything after that deviant disappeared .
Four years of imagining myself as the future Luna , of trying to make Ramsey forget and now …
My mother’s words echoed in my mind : ‘ If a man loves you , he will do everything possible to be with you ‘
After a long pause , I drew in a shaky breath and turned to the guard , my face void of the emotions boiling inside me .
“When ? Where did you see her ? ”
“ I overhead Beta Lenny informing the Lycan Leader of her arrival this morning with the Alpha Heir of Blue Ridge pack .
Apparently , she came for her father’s funeral , the guard said .
“ And what did Alpha Ramsey say ? ” I asked , fighting the rage boiling in my heart .
“ Nothing ! ” the guard said .
“ He just nodded and went back to what he was doing .
”
“ Thank you for telling me ,” I nodded , “ You may go now.
”
As soon as the guard left , I rose from my chair , my tears drying on my cheeks as a smile curved my lips .
I walked to the window , watching the sun sink toward the horizon of the White
Mountains it would be dark .
Soon , the moon would rise .
I would make sure that L’s return was her final mistake .
It was almost midnight when I returned to White Moon Pack brimming with anger .
As soon as I stepped inside the pack house , I made a beeline for Ramsey’s room hoping for his sake he wasn’t with L .
When I reached his bedroom , I knocked softly before pushing the door open .
The room was empty , the bed still made – clearly , it hadn’t been slept on .
But his scent was in the room .
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“ Where are you ? ” I whispered to myself , turning on my heels and starting towards his office .
The pack house was quiet at this hour , most of its staff had retired for the night , so I didn’t see who to ask where Ramsey was .
As I rounded the corner , I nearly collided with Seth , the pack housekeeper , who had an armload of Linens in his arms .
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“ Luna Cassidy , ” he bowed curtly to me .
“ I didn’t think you’de back today .
How was your trip to your pack ? ” he asked .
“ Fine ! ” I nodded .
“ Where is Ramsey ? He’s not in his room .
”
“ Have
you checked his office ? He didn’t eat dinner in the dining room but asked us to bring it up to his office .
I’m sure he’d still be there .
”
“ Oh ! ” I nodded , trying to bring up L without sounding too obvious .
Seth was not like the other domestic staff in the pack house .
He rarely shows emotions and never goes out of character .
“ It seems Ramsey’s schedule is booked full for the week .
Do you know if he has any uing ns or … departures ? ” I tried to keep my tone casual but my eyes searched his nk eyes , looking for any hint of information .
“ Nothing I am aware of , Luna Cassidy , ” he shook his head .
“ I know he’s been trying to focus on hist duties which he seems to begging in .
But I could inquire if you’d like .
”
“ No ! ” I shook my head quickly .
“ That will not be necessary .
Are we expecting any guests from any of the werewolf packs ? What’s the name of that Alpha who died ? ”
“ Alpha Logan ? ” Seth supplied , barely reacting .
“ Yes , that’s the one ! ” I nodded .
“ Do you know what the ns for his burial are ? Is someone from the packing to visit us or something or is Ramsey going anywhere ? Maybe Blue Ridge Pack ? He hasn’t gone to pay them his condolences right ? Or will he go anytime soon ? ”
Seth stared at me for a long time before he exhaled deeply .
“ Luna Cassidy , if you are asking about Miss L , I don’t think you should worry about her .
The Lycan Leader shuttles between the Pack hospital and his office daily .
I’m not sure he’s going to visit her anytime soon .
”
“ You don’t know him as much as I do , Seth ,” I shook my head .
“ He might be making ns .
He went there thest time .
I just need to know if you’ve heard anything .
Any mentions of travel ns or visitors ? ”
“ No ! ” he shook his head quietly and for a moment I saw him give me a pityingly nce before he looked away .
“ I forced a smile .
“ Thank you so much , Seth and I know this is a lot to ask but can you give me updates if he changes his mind or something ”
He shook his head .
“ I’m afraid , I cannot .
I have sworn loyalty to the Lycan Leader , except there’s a directmand from him to share his schedules , I’m afraid , I cannot do that and you have to ask him yourself .
”
“ Okay ! ” I nodded , trying not to feel dejected .
“ Is there anything else you need assistance with , Luna ? ” he asked .
“ No ! T
That will be all , ” I shook my head and watched as he bowed curtly before continuing down the hallway while I continued to Ramsey’s office .
I stopped at the front of the door , cing my ears to see if I could pick off any sound but it was silent .
Steeling myself , I knocked quietly before pushing the door open and ushering myself in .
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I paused at the entrance when I saw him buried in a mountain of paperwork .
His jacket was draped over a nearby chair , his sleeves rolled up to his elbows as he worked .
Sensing my presence , he looked up, his piercing gaze meeting with mine in an unexpected warmth .
“ Where have you been ?” he asked .
“ I’ve been looking for you .
His question caught me off – guardpletely .
I came here to fight not this .
“ Oh , I … I was just … I went to White Lake , to my pack .
My parents wanted to see me .
”
I stammered suddenly feeling like I’d been caught doing something wrong , though I knew I
hadn’t .
He nodded slowly setting down his pen , looking at me fully now .
“ Good .
I needed to talk to you about something important ”
I shifted with unease .
“ Oh ?”
“ Yes ,” he nodded , clearing a part of his desk , then gesturing for me toe closer .
He rose from his seat , then sat on the space he made a few seconds ago and then indicated I sit on his chair .
I took the seat , my heart pounding wildly at the nice gestures .
Seeing that I was seated , he took a deep breath .
“ I wanted us to discuss our wedding , he began and my breath caught , my pulse thundering in my ears .
“ I need you to choose a date ”
“ A date ? ” I repeated , confused .
–
“ For our Joining Ceremony official wedding ” he rified .
“ I spoke with the Moon Priest earlier and he confirmed we can go ahead with it .
Usually , the woman needs to provide a date and then the Moon Priest will check if it’s suitable for the ceremony and if it’s not , he will suggest a
suitable day .
”
I blinked , struggling to process what he was saying .
“ Our … wedding ? ” the word sounded strange in my mouth as though it was spoken in a dream .
“ Yes ,” he replied smoothly .
“ I’ve done a lot of thinking and I think we shouldn’t wait any longer .
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There’s no reason for it .
”
I narrowed my eyes at him again , trying to process his words .
This wasn’t how I’d expected the conversation to go .
“ What … what is this about ? Did something happen ?”
His brows furrowed slightly .
“ What do you mean ? ”
“ Why are you being so … nice about this ? And to me too .
You’ve never allowed me to sit on your chair or stay this long in your office before you start acting like you want me gone .
”
Amusement shed in his eyes .
“ I’m always nice to you , Cass .
” He said gently .
“ And I think it’s time too , as simple as that .
You’ve been waiting and you’ve been … patient .
”
“ Patient ? ” I regarded him warily .
“ Is this because of what I said ? About going after L if you so much as look in her direction .
You’re doing this because you want to protect her ? ”
His expression sobered .
“ No , your threats mean nothing to me .
I just want to do the right thing .
that’s all .
”
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He stood , gathering some documents and stacking them on the table as if the conversation was done .
But I wasn’t .
Rising to my feet , I moved and blocked his path .
* Is it true ? ” I asked , my heart hammering in my chest now .
“ About L being back ? ”
His face remained calm .
“ Yes .
”
“ And ? ” I pressed hating how vulnerable I sounded and felt .
“ Are you going to … will you … ”
“ Will I what ? ” he asked .
“ Rekindle things with her ? You want to keep me as your dutiful wife and y all day with your deviant mate .
”
He studied my face for several seconds , his amber eyes looking at me intensely .
Finally , he shook
his head .
“ I’ve already made my position clear on that matter .
I rejected her then and nothing has changed .
I’m not going back on that .
“ Are you sure ? I mean … you’ve always … she’s always been there , between us Ramsey .
Are you telling me that you’ll give her up ? ”
He bent , lowering himself in front of me .
He lifted a hand , brushing a loose strand of hair behind my ear .
His touch was unexpectedly gentle .
“ Cass , he murmured “ I know who I am .
I know what I want .
”