100 Lavender and rain …


    Ramsey


    The moment I saw L standing at the entrance of the funeral hall that morning , it had taken every ounce of self – control not to reach for her and for once … I was grateful for the bourgeois nature of the ceremonial Lycan Leader attire I was wearing as it helped to cover my erection .


    The frightened , wide – eyed girl from four years ago had transformed into a woman with perky but full presses that were outlined on the mourning dress she had on .


    Her once narrow hips had widened , framing a perfect butt , that made me envision riding her from back and pping those cheeks .


    And gods … her neck ! Slender , graceful … reminded me of the way she had arched it ; the day I had marked her in the garden .


    Lax , was practically howling at the sight of her , urging me to im what was rightfully ours to hold her , kiss her and mark her as our mate once more .


    But I couldn’t .


    Not with the entire Werewolves and Lycans watching .


    Not with Cassidy clinging possessively to my arm like a serpent waiting to strike .


    I had barely registered the other guests milling about .


    My eyes were glued to L .


    Every movement , every nce , she cast toward the ground or at the visitors epting their condolences triggered a memory in me too .


    This had been me , 19 years ago at White Moon Pack receiving condolences when I had lost my parents .


    I was 8 years old at that time .


    I could see the pain behind her eyes as she smiled at each guest , making me wonder if she missed her father .


    The years had sharpened her beauty and had added an allure I couldn’t


    ignore .


    She was no longer the fragile L I’d once known ; she was a woman now … a woman I’ve missed terribly .


    I tried to stayposed as I walked toward her , Cassidy beside me .


    But when she finally looked up .


    and our gazes locked , I felt an uncontroble urge to reach for her , bring her closer , and erase the years that had kept us apart .


    Lax was going around in wild circles now that we were close enough to her .


    He was wing at my insides , demanding to break through and im his mate .


    But I managed to hold her hand , nodding in her direction and thankfully , I said their first words that popped into my head before moving to her mother .


    I moved away from her quickly , a minute more , I would be tearing through thoseyers of clothes and sticking myself deep into her .


    Lax was furious and was already snarling at me , urging me to throw caution to the wind , to take L in my arms .


    “ Not here ! I reminded him .


    “ Not with Cassidy standing beside us , her presence is a constant reminder of theplication we would face if I go out of character .


    ”


    Now with her sitting next to me and our thighs rubbing … I was struggling .


    Holding onto thest shred of my sanity … reminding myself that everyone in this room today was looking up to me .


    When she went on stone .


    Tuateb?d her ofronder .


    My heart twister nainfully at the eight of her


    100 Lavender and rain .


    standing there , paper in hand deciding if to perform her duties as her father’s daughter or let gopletely .


    “ My father … ” She started , her voice trembling with emotion .


    I could see how difficult this was for her- trying to paint a perfect picture of her father when the only memories she had were filled with rejection and istion .


    I’d learned the truth about her through Lenny .


    How they had deserted her and treated her like an outcast .


    Learnt about all the whispers , the sideways nces , the barely concealed disgust – all because she was different .


    Because she hadn’t shifted .


    Because she wasn’t what they expected her to be .


    When she could no longer pretend and fled the hall , I instinctively rose to my feet to go after her but before I could rise properly , Cassidy’s hand rested on my arm , pulling me back to the chair with surprising strength with her perfectly manicured nails digging into my flesh .


    “ Where do you think you’re going ? ” she hissed , loud enough for only me to hear .


    I didn’t bother replying , my eyes were fixed in the direction I had seen L run to .


    “ Don’t tell me you were actually going to chase after that deviant if I hadn’t stopped you ? ” She asked with disbelief in her voice .


    “ Have you forgotten where you are ? Who you are ? Your position as the Lycan Leader … all the people here are your subjects … is this the way you want to show yourself to them ? ”


    “ I’m sure my people would understand that I just as ordinary as they are .


    I only want to talk to her , I replied .


    “ Why ? ” she fired “ I won’t let you do this to me , Ramsey .


    If you move an inch from your seat , I


    will … ”


    I didn’t wait to hear the rest .


    I wrenched my arm from her grip and rose to my feet .


    Lax leading me now .


    He was tired of pretending to be fine .


    He needed his mate .


    As 1 strode out of the hall , I ignored the whisperes from the people that followed in my wake .


    Nathan had taken control of the stage and was saying few words about Alpha Logan and I could feel Cassidy’s furious gaze boring into my back .


    Let her watch , I didn’t care .


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    Four years of separation had done nothing to diminish the bond I still felt for her .


    If anything , seeing her again only strengthened it , pulling me tighter to her than ever .


    The note I had slipped into her hand carlier suddenly felt like it would do nothing to convey my feelings – there were so many things I needed to tell h


    With each step , Lax’s agitation grew as memories of the first time I met L pushed into my mind .


    The way she had managed a smile at me , the way her eyes had lit up when sheughter , the feel of her in my arms and the taste of her kiss .


    1 finally came out of the hall and immediately caught her scent –vender and rain … only L


    had that scent .