103 Your worst nightmare , yet to happen …
Ramsey .
She led me deeper into the garden until we were amid well – cut shrubs and flowers .
Then she backed me against a giant oak tree .
I was about to exin that I’ve missed her so much when she lowered herself to her knees in front of me , parted theyers of my heavy ceremonial attire and reached for my belt .
I was too shocked to understand what was going on .
I had expected that she wanted to give me an ear full but she was acting out of character , so unlike L .
In no time , my arousal sprang out of the confines of my trousers .
“ Remove the outeryers of your clothes , so it’ll be easier , I don’t want anything getting in the
way .
”
I did as she instructed , albeit … slowly as I was trying to understand how she was taking the lead in this .
I’ve never had a woman lead me into lovemaking .
I watched as she reached underneath her gown and rolled down ckcey panties which she kept carefully on a flower bed nearby .
“ Hurry , she urged .
“ We don’t have time .
”
Another shocker .
“ Not to be a killjoy here , L … but what are you doing right now ? What’s going on ? ”
She pursed her lips , rolling her eyes .
“ Isn’t this what you want ? ” she sighed .
“ Fine … I didn’t think the myth about meeting your ex and wanting to fuck them again was true until today .
I am horny – it’s been a while for me and you want me too … so why not ? And shouldn’t we get this out of the way already ? I’ll be leaving after my father’s funeral , so this is our only chance .
”
I turnedid immediately as it dawned on me what she meant .
“ Y – you think I just wanted to meet you for this ? To sleep with you ?” I asked .
She shrugged .
“ What else would there be ? You said so yourself back then that sex with your
mate is … ”
“ Can you just stop being vulgar ? ” I raised my hands , interrupting her .
“ It’s so unlike you to use raw words .
Not to mention it’s cringy and you’re a woman .
”
* But you can use it ? ” she retorted , giving me an amused smile .
“ I’m sorry , I guess staying with the humans so long has rubbed off on me .
Anyways , are you in or out ? ”
She bunched her gown to her waist , revealing her womanliness , I felt my arousal stiffen immediately but for the first time , I didn’t want this .
I wanted L … fair enough … in every way possible but not with the mindset she was already riding on .
She came closer to me , reaching for my arousal – stroking it and kissing me at the same time .
I allowed my baser instincts to take the lead .
We kissed and touched each other for a while , until she broke the kiss sounding breathless as she turned , and reared my length at the opening of
her wet slit .
103 Your worst nightmare , yet to happen .
“ L … ”
“ Hold on … ” she turned to me abruptly .
“ Do you have protection ? I don’t want to deal with a baby .
after this .
”
What the hell was happening ?
I just stood there , staring at her .
When I didn’t answer her , she backed away , reaching for her panties which she gingerly slipped back on .
Then came up to me with a sigh again .
“ I guess we would not fulfil your fantasy .
If I had known this would happen , I have sometex in my purse , I would have brought them with me .
Anyways ,” she grinned at me … “ We better head back to the hall before your vicious fiancéees looking for you .
”
any … we
The only word I heard wastex .
“ You walk around with condoms ? ” I heard myself ask .
“ Why ? ”
Arching her brows , she gave me a funny look .
“ Just in case the man doesn’te with any wouldn’t want something as little as that to get in the way of our fun , would we ? ”
“ You… you were having sex ? I mean … you’ve been having sex … all this while ? ”
“ Have you not ? ” she narrowed her eyes at me .
“ I … I have but I just didn’t expect you to want to be with another man .
You had my mark and … ”
“ I cleaned it off the day I left Blue Ridge ,” she pointed at her neck .
“ It’s still faint but it’s no longer there .
Besides , did you think I spent four years of my life waiting like a dutiful mate for you toe find me ? ”
“ Well … ” I swallowed hard .
Sheughed , folding her hands as she came to stand in front of me .
“ Something inside me died , the day I crossed our world to the human world finally .
I didn’t realize it immediately but when I did … I knew you didn’t deserve me , Ramsey .
I was only 19 … I was younger , more stupid , vulnerable … and in desperate need of a mate to help me out … ”
“ L … ”
* Wait , let me finish , she raised her hand to stop me .
“ Something inside me has broken and I don’t give a damn about my identity anymore .
These days , I try to live my life as drama free as possible , fuck the hell out of my brains with my vibrator every month when I get my heat .
But for my father’s death , I was never going toe back … and just so you know , I’ll be leaving as soon all of this is over .
“ You can’t … ” Lax coiled within me .
“ I need you here , L … please .
I know I hurt you but if you give me the chance , I’ll make amends .
”
“ I stopped giving second chances a long time ago … ”
“ But you gave me some conditions a while ago .
You said if I fulfilled it , then you might consider , ” I pressed .
be
“ Would you do any of those things ? ” she sneered .
“ You and I know the answer to that .
Also , it’ll
meaningless because I don’t n to stay , and neither do I n on getting back with you .
You don’t deserve me , Ramsey .
I know what it means to love truly and you don’t deserve me .
”
103 Your worst nightmare , yet to happen …
My heart pumped with fear fear was an alien feeling to me but the thought of letting her slip through my grasp again , scared me .
“ Is there someone else ? ” I heard myself ask .
“ Even if there is … do I need a reason to go back to my life ? ”
“ I’m afraid , L … but I won’t let you go , not again .
I know you might think I’m selfish but so be it .
I’ve been misjudged a lot of times than I could count by the way and I need you here for my
sanity .
I don’t know how it’ll happen but we belong together .
”
“ Are you nning to call off your engagement to Cassidy ? ”
I gritted my teeth in frustration .
“ It’splicated , yes but … I’ll show you what I am capable of doing .
So please … ” I reached for her hand … “ Don’t let me be unkind .
I want to show you that I cherish you … that I love you … so much … but if you try to leave … ”
She removed her hands from my grasp … an amused smile ying on her lips .
“ You don’t scare me anymore , Ramsey Kincaid and this time … I’ll do things my way .
I am not something you can buy or own … I own myself … I make decisions about my life and I won’t let you interfere in it this time around .
She moved backwards , brushing an imaginary lint from her dress .
“ I held out hope that you’ve changed from the bully you are into something nicer but again … you’ve always managed to surprise me .
If you try to stop me from leaving … I’ll be your worst nightmare yet to happen .
See
you around .
”
104 A man’s tool …
L
My eyes simmered with tears as I walked away from Ramsey .
The moment he touched my body I was reminded of the first day I had been with him .
It wasn’t the most tender of lovemaking but up until now , I still craved to be wanted like that .
The pure lust , the ecstasy on his face when he had pushed against me … and truly , I wanted him .
Just his body … nothing else .
Though there had been a certain longing that tangled with my emotion , I didn’t want to dwell on it or think about It , so I pushed it down and made my way to one of the rooms adjoining the funeral hall .
There , I found Nathan
Cing restlessly , his brow furrowed with anger mixed with concern .
As soon as I entered , he stopped in his tracks and turned to face me , his jaw clenched .
His eyes filled with worry and something else .
He walked up to me our gaze locked onto each other .
“ Do I mean so little to you , L ? ” he asked , his voice filled with frustration and hurt .
“ Are you so tied to him that you cannot see he’s only trying to manipte you for his selfish heart like he did before ? Can’t you … ”
gain , break your
I held up my hand silencing him .
“ Take a breather , Nathan , ” I sighed softly .
“ If this is about me going off with him , I had my reasons.
Ramsey and I have a history one that warrants a conversation .
So , I needed to speak with him to let him know that he shouldn’t harbour any hope of us getting back together .
Not now , not ever .
”
–
“ Oh ! ” relief shed in Nathan’s eyes as he came towards me , the tension on his shoulders ebbing away .
He opened his arms and I didn’t hesitate , stepping into them as he wrapped me in a hug .
I gave him a gentle squeeze before pulling back , a warm smile on my face .
“ Why did you act that way , Nath ? It felt like you were going to kill him .
”
He hesitated , lowering his gaze .
“ I … I saw him kissing you – like reaching out to you for a kiss and I thought he was forcing himself on you .
I couldn’t just stand by and let that happen .
”
I shook my head biting my lip , looking down for a moment before meeting his eyes .
“ At first … it I was like that .
But then ….
” I paused , feeling a faint blush creeping across my cheeks .
T-
well , I began to enjoy it .
I got carried away for a moment , I chuckled .
“ But the truth is , I’ve been celibate for a while and my body reacted to him .
”
Nathan’s eyes darkened slightly and I could tell he wasn’t happy with my statement .
“ I see ,” he finally said looking away .
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I stepped closer to him , reaching up to run my fingers gently along the shallow part of his cheek .
“ Nath , I know you’re worried about me and I appreciate you always looking out for me … I really do .
But you need to understand that I’m not the same L I was before .
I am stronger now and I can handle people like Ramsey .
I promise .
”
“ I know ,” he murmured .
“ I just … I worry about you .
You’ve been through so much at his hands
A man’s tool …
and I may have overreacted .
Not just that .
, I … ” he broke off , shaking his head slightly .
“ You’re a good friend , Nathan ,” I offered him a small smile .
“ But you should really stop working yourself over anything now , I promise .
I am in control of my choices and I alone should bear the consequences if I make bad ones ”
“ I’m not your friend , L … ” I heard him murmur but he didn’t say anything else so I let it go .
“ And you deserve so much better , more than he can ever g
give you .
My heart ached at his sincere words .
He reached up to touch my face , brushing against a
a strand of hair that hade loose .
His thumb grazed my check gently with a warm andforting touch .
“ Thank you , Nath ….
” I whispered .
We stood there infortable silence for a moment until my eyes drifted to the small scratch near his cheekbones .
I raised my hand to his face , allowing my fingers to brush lightly against the red mark left from his fight with Ramsey .
“ You didn’t have to fight him , you know , ” I murmured , using my thumb to gently trace the scratch as I reached for my handerkerchief to dab it clean .
“ You’re not his enemy .
”
He held my gaze , a wryly smile ying on his lips .
“ I became one from the first day he made you cry .
No one has the right to do that to you .
The way he said it made my heart skip a beat .
“ Hold still , I said softly , dabbing at the scratch as carefully as I could , though the tenderness in his gaze was making me suddenly ufortable .
He has never looked at me like that .
He chuckled , wincing slightly as I applied a bit more pressure than intended .
“ I think I’d rather take a hit from Ramsey than sit still while you y healer .
”
I rolled my eyes , unable to stop myself fromughing .
“ Didn’t I tell you to go to the healers to get it treated ? Besides , for someone so tough , you’re surprisingly sensitive to a little cleaning .
”
He grid .
“ Only for you , L ”
I finished tending to the scratch and our eyes met again , afortable silencing filling the void in the room .
Then Nathan reached out for me , his fingers gently intecing with mine .
The warmth of his hands in mine feltforting , reminding me of his unwavering support .
“ So … you don’t see me as a man ? ” he broke the silence .
“ What ? ” “ What ? ” I frowned .
“ What are you talking about ? ”
“ You clearly enjoyed the kiss Ramsey gave you but you didn’t enjoy mine .
I have a man’s tool too … do you want me to show you ? ”
I blushed to my roots , immediately removing my hands from hs as I stepped away .
“ Why are you suddenly saying that ? We’re friends , Nath … best friends .
Have you forgotten .
The kiss felt like a
“ A hug ? ” he scoffed .
“ Maybe I should try Ramsey’s method next .
I’m a man too .
”
“ Stop with this nonsense already , I red at him .
“ C’mon hurry up , we’ve been long gone from the Funeral hall , they’ll begin to talk if we don’t join them soon .
”