159 My child is not a mistake ! High Priestess Liora No ! Miriam shrieked .


    We cant let her know .


    She said frantically .


    Shes so tender hearted , Mother .


    Shes suffered so much already , spent her entire teenage age dealing with her pheromones , and now that she has her life figured out a bit , I wouldnt want to wear her out by telling her that shes abnormal again ! Then what do you suggest we do , Miriam ? We have to stop her wolf from manifesting Miriam replied , pushing herself to her feet , her fists clenched .


    Im going to stop it .


    What do you mean ? I rose to my feet .


    Im going to mp her wolf , she replied , her voice shaking from desperation .


    Theres a way I could use those pearls I once had .


    Itll suppress the wolf and would stop her from manifesting , and she wont even know .


    Restricting a two tailed wolf with a pearl has always ended in disaster .


    When confined , their power bes uncontroble .


    Is that what you want for L ? Its the only way to protect her , Miriam shouted , her voice cracking .


    If the Lycans discover what she is , theyll kill her without considering her powers as a Moonsinger .


    Do you understand me ? Theyll kill her , Mother Liora ! I shook my head , trying to calm her down .


    Things may change , Miriam .


    Right now , shes doing good , helping the warriors , and Im sure her wolf has been the one responsible for everything she has done so far because her powers as a Moonsinger were taken away .


    Its no longer there .


    Perhaps … No ! Miriam interrupted me , her face flushed with anger .


    You dont understand .


    Shes my daughter ! My child ! I know whats best for her not you , not anyone else .


    I sighed .


    Its fine , do whatever you want .


    Youve always been this way This way ? she huffed .


    Yes , Miriam … I was growing annoyed .


    Youre being reckless again .


    You always have been headstrong .


    This isnt a choice you can make for her ! Miriam scoffed bitterly , her lips curling into a hollow smile .


    Reckless ? Yes .


    Maybe I am , and I dont regret it .


    It is my recklessness that got me reunited with my child … youre not a mother ; you cannot know what it means to stay powerless , knowing your child is within your grasp , watching her call another woman mother and knowing you have limitations , but I choose this life .


    Better this than ving away at the temple doing nothing .


    Miriam , watch your words ! I chided her .


    Leaving the temple leaving all of this behind was the best thing I ever did .


    You dont get to 1/3 159 My child is not a mistaket Your carelessness , your curiosity , caused all of this .


    Because of you , I snapped , my voice rising .


    You released something into this world that should never have been .


    You birthed a power far worse than the Dark One .


    Miriam froze , her breath catching as new tears rolled down her face .


    This time , her expression .


    was more broken than angry .


    How dare you ? She whispered hoarsely .


    Do you think I wanted this ? That I chose this ? I fell in love , Mother Liora .


    I fell in love with a man who loved me back .


    Oh , please ! I scoffed .


    He rejected you ; he wanted nothing to do with you and your child .


    You broke his family .


    * HE LOVED ME ! She yelled , poking her chest with her index finger .


    And so dearly .


    He loved our child , too .


    Thats not what the stories say , I returned , meeting her gaze .


    This illusion you have created about love , Miriam … you think because the women at the temple dont have mates nor ever became mothers , we do not know what it means to love ? Do you know how many nights I spent berating myself for everything that happened to you ? How hard was it for us to continue our duties after you left ? How difficult it was to go against our oaths … we lied for you , Miriam … seven women , including myself … paid the penance by lying because we couldnt afford to


    let one mistake define you .


    My child is not a mistake ! she retorted fiercely .


    She is ! I fired back .


    You should never have slept with him .


    This is a punishment from the goddess , and you must bear it .


    You must ept that your child … I will not ept anything , she cut me short .


    If the Moon Goddess wanted me to serve her , why did she give me these feelings ? Why did she give us the ability to love ? Why did she make me love him ? She sits there , folds her hands and does nothing .


    My child is the Moonsinger and not what she wants it to be .


    You had the silver mark , Miriam , and you met with another man that had the mark of the sun .


    What were you expecting ? The moon goddess is not to be med .


    She doesnt make Two tailed wolves .


    That is the product of your indiscretions .


    Youre supposed to be hers and hers alone … but failed .


    Let her deal with it then ! Miriam shouted back .


    If she wants to punish me , let her punish me and leave my child alone .


    I am at fault … she didnt beg to be born .


    Let here on to me like a woman to woman , and well settle .


    Stop , Miriam , I yelled .


    Stop saying vain words .


    I will … she said coldly .


    And I hope shes not deaf and hears everything I will say .


    I will never be a High Priestess … Miriam ! I would never serve her .


    Ill do as I please .


    Let men touch me as they want , desecrate this body 11:56 (2 159 My child is not a mistake ! I would never serve her .


    Ill do as I please .


    Let men touch me as they want , desecrate this body .


    to my pleasure .


    If she touches my child … if she makes her suffer once more from her ridiculous experiments , then Ill make sure I use the powers inside me for my pleasure .


    Ill dly do so , even if it means joining hands with the Dark One .


    Ill take revenge ! I trembled .


    Miriam … take back your words ! She ignored me , and came to where I was , her eyes were glittering with rage .


    Well , Mother Liora … I will not sit back and watch her mistreat my baby again .


    Ill fight back With that , she stormed towards the door .


    With one hand on the handle , she looked back over her shoulder , pure defiance in her gaze .


    Dont expect me for evening devotion , and you can ask the moon goddess to bring your food , make your bathe and change your sheets because I wont .


    Goodnight ! she spat before mming the door behind her .


    I stood still for a long moment , staring at the closed door .


    The conversation I just had now pressing into me like an invisible stone on my chest .


    With a deep breath , I sank back into my chair , rubbing my temples as though trying to ward off an impending headache .


    chair , rubbing my temples as though trying to Moon Goddess , I whispered under my breath .


    Forgive her , guide me ; this path is dark indeed .