164 Voice in my head … Nathan I stormed out of the living room towards the entrance of the Alpha building and I shoved the door open , barely restraining myself from mming the door .
Anger pure rage coursed through my veins like molten , making my hands shake at my sides and my jaw tighten .
The audacity .
I growled under my breath .
Luna Vanessas presumptuous suggestion that I marry rissa still rang in my cars .
Even though it was being reechoed in my mind , each word sounded like an insult .
How dare she ? How dare Luna Vanessa suggest I marry rissa ? Reminding me of my status as a Beta Wolf like Im somemon Omega she canmand at will ! Ragnar rumbled in disagreement .
Luna Vanessa didnt mean it that way .
Im sure she only wants you to marry risis to strengthen your title and the pack .
Having an Alpha wife has a lot of advantages and it would mean that your children … Can you stop the nonsense youre going on about ? What about L ? Shes agreed to marry us , Ragnar .
Did you forget ? Shes also the daughter of the Alpha … what are worrying about now ? Is she really ? Ragnar sighed .
I just feel strange these days , Nathan .
I feel that L may not be the one for us , and maybe were forcing things .
I wish youd just sit back and think things through .
That would do so much for us than blindly epting everything , dont you think ? I know she confessed she wants to marry us , but … it feels like shes doing it out ofpulsion .
e given Shut up , Ragnar ! I bristled , feeling my anger heightening .
And no talks about that .
Ive everything for this pack .
My loyalty , my strength , my life everything ! And now , you all want to deny me of the one thing I want the most and barter me off like a prize ? I raked my hand through my hair , tugging at my strands .
Does anyone care to consider my feelings ? I love L … so fucking much , and I want to be with her .
No one is disputing that , Nathan , Ragnar sighed .
A few years ago , I could see the passion , the intensity of the love you had for L , but … maybe things have changed .
A slight pause … ..
What if you no longer love her like before and youre doing this to teach Ramsey a lesson or maybe its something else … infatuation or a feeling of indebtedness because of how she helped you through your mothers death ? Maybe if you look closely enough , youd discover that … you dont really love L like you think , and youre doing this because you feel responsible for her .
Rubbish ! I thundered .
Shut up this moment , Ragnar ! How dare you question my feelings ? I am your wolf .
I am a part of you , Nathan … I can tell what you feel about someone .
I really can .
You cant ! I retorted , Because if you did , youd be able to know that I love L dearly and not give me this nonsense excuse and you want me to choose rissa ? There was a momentary pause on Ragnars end before he said , Yes , nothing is wrong with her and she loves you dearly .
rissa ? my voice dripped with disdain .
Of all people .
Just because shes the Alphas daughter ten in my head .
164 Voice in rissa ? my voice dripped with disdain .
Of all people .
Just because shes the Alphas daughter doesnt mean Ill fall in line .
This is pure maniption .
Using my position against me .
Reminding me that … No one is manipting you , Ragnar interrupted .
There was no ill intentioning from Luna Vanessa .
Stop interpreting it as that .
Besides , the seven core Alphas have been able to preserve their power and true blood by marrying each others children all these years .
None of them marry lower than their rank .
L is not lower than my tank ! Shes Alpha Logans daughter … I screamed .
My feet had taken me to the edge of the forest now .
She is his bastard .
Maybe if she had been a man , she would have stood a better chance , but you know werewolves are intentional about things like this .
No one would ever recognize L as his legitimate child .
Luna Vanessa was kind enough to … ENOUGH !!! I screamed … Im done listening to you .
Youre making everything worse .
And youre running away from the truth .
You have been running away for the longest time .
You want to make yourself a scapegoat and sacrifice everything youve been through .
Look at Ramsey ….
he knows what his duties are , and he chooses his duties , knowing that the lives of thousands of people depend on his decision .
He loves L , but hes not driven by it .
He has remained logical and sane through it all … Ragnar , dont you think treating her like shit is illogical ? I fired back .
He picked a side .
Hes a great leader , Nathan .
Putting your feelings first before your people … Ragnar sighed .
Its a bad call and a sign of weakness .
I am not weak ! I shot back , hating where this conversation was going Staying in a dungeon for four years doesnt mean youre strong .
It shows youre indecisive and unsure about what you want out of life .
A focused man would know that to love a woman , he shouldnt make himself a scapegoat in easily avoidable situations .
He continued … You strife to protect her and secure her , things which you could not do because you were in the dungeon .
Ragnar sighed .
Tve allowed you to do what you want all these years because youre my owner , but its time to open your eyes … its not toote to make amends .
So , you want me to leave L for Ramsey ? The same man that mistreated her ? The same man that knows if he makes her his mate now , she wouldnt need to endure the tauntings she would have from years ago if he had caved in to his desires and dered her his mate .
The people wille for his head and not just that … for Ls , too .
Itll make her more depressed , kill her inside slowly … but he waited and you all think he did that because he was ashamed of her .
I paused , considering Ragnars words .
A true man protects what he wants dearly , even if it means keeping her like a secret .
Even if it meant L crying and feeling like he hated her .
Come to think of it … who she is now is solely because of her and not because he influenced or aided her .
If ever they get mated in the future .
164 Voice in my head …… ..
A true man protects what he wants dearly , even if it means keeping her like a secret .
Even if it meant L crying and feeling like he hated her .
Come to think of it … who she is now is solely because of her and not because he influenced or aided her .
If ever they get mated in the future , people would see her as the Moonsinger , the saviour of our world , and not some defect with uncontroble pheromones .
Id rather die alone than be shackled to someone I feel nothing for , I vented .
If you marry L … youd feel something disgust .
I let out a frustrated snarl and began stripping off my shirt .
My muscles were taut with pent up .
energy .
It was no use talking to Ragnar .
I need to run .
You need to listen to me , Ragnar sighed .
Stop running away from the truth .
Without responding , I shut him out and broke into a sprint , taking off into the woods , my legs pumping as I tore through the dense forest in my human form .
The forest blurred around me as I ran faster and faster , my lungs were burning with each breath , the cool wind biting at my exposed skin .
I didnt slow down .
I wanted to outrun the anger , the frustration , the suffocating weight of expectations and , most of all , the Truth .
I didnt stop until my muscles were screaming in protest , finally , I copsed at the base of an oak tree .
Swe dripped down my face as I panted , trying to catch my breath .
The bark was rough against my bare back , grounding me as I tilted my head back and closed my eyes .
For a while , there was only the sound of my breathing and the rustling of leaves in the wind .
Then a faint crunch of twigs snapped me to attention .
My head snapped up , my eyes narrowing as I whipped around , ring at the figure approaching .
Dont you dare ! I growled , rising to my feet and brushing the dirt from my pants .
Im not in the mood .