183 New beginnings … L Ill miss you , I murmured to Nanny who had a quiet smile on her face as she patted my backfortingly .
I must have hugged her a thousand times already .
We were leaving White Moon Pack back to Blue Ridge today and I was feeling nostalgic .
For one , Nanny was noting with me since she was going back with the priestesses to the Moon Temple Colden Gates pack .
Mother Liora was still sick and seemed to prefer Nanny to any of the other priestesses .
Though she had promised that as soon as Mother Liora recovered , shed join me at Blue Ridge .
I knew that was next to impossible .
After all , she didnte to visit all the while I was there .
To think its been three months already since I arrived but it already felt like a decade .
After we said our goodbyes , we started moving .
Now , as the car sped toward Blue Ridge Pack , the silence between me and Nathan felt heavy .
Nathan has been unusually quiet since the incident three days ago .
Although he had managed to maintain normal conversation with me , I still couldnt help but worry that the incident three days ago , had changed things in ways I couldnt see .
My thoughts drifted to Cassidy .
The events of that night still lingered in my mind , a puzzle with too many missing pieces .
I had gone to Ramsey to ask if Cassidy had said anything about what happened , though Id avoided mentioning my wolf was the two tailed wolf that the warriors of White Moon Pack were still hunting or that Xander had shown up there suddenly .
That had been a surprise to me though .
Not just that , I couldnt help but wonder what connection Cassidy had with Xander .
How did they meet ? Why was he even there that night ? I knew Xander hadnte because Cassidy had merely requested , he should kill me .
There should be more .
Like what agreement had both of them entered for him to have followed her to the pack house ? No matter how I thought of it , there seemed to be more .
Although I was relieved that Cassidy had survived , Xanders blow , I couldnt help wondering if she would evere clean about what truly happened .
Would she confess , or would she weave another story , one that would paint me in a negative light ? As my mind wandered about it , I dozed off .
A few hourster , I awoke to the sensation of being carried .
Blinking my eyes open , I saw Nathans face above mine .
His expression was tender but tired .
He was carrying me in his arms .
Gently , heid me on his bed , smoothing my hair .
Youre awake ? he murmured when he saw me .
I nodded , managing a sleepy smile but he didnt say anything after that .
For a moment , the room was silent , except for the faint rustle of trees outside the window .
Before Nathan finally spoke .
Im sorry about the other night , he said softly , I wasnt thinking strange .
I let my desires get the best of me .
Please forgive me .
Nathan … nothing I exhaled , relieved too .
Im sorry too .
I promise you , going on between me and Ramsey .
All those days I was at his pack , the only time we were in very close proximity was one of the mornings at the training arena and he joined me .
Else that , nothing else .
I trust you , L … so much .
I know , he muttered ,ing to lie beside me on the bed .
Our eyes met and the tension melted away as we leaned into each other .
He captured my lips pulling me closer to him in a passionate kiss .
We kissed for a while , until he pulled back , breathing unevenly .
We should stop , he said quietly .
I nodded , lowering my flushed cheeks .
Then , he cupped my face and brushed his thumb against my cheek .
Ive been thinking .
he said .
We need to do this right , L .
We should get married as soon as possible .
My eyes widened in surprise .
Married ? Yes , he nodded .
That way , you can decide what you want to do about your life back in the human world .
I dont want you to feel torn between this life and the human world .
Whatever you decide , Ill support you .
But I want us to be official before you make any big decisions .
I blinked in surprise , thenughed .
Id almost forgotten about that world , to say the truth .
He smiled back .
Well , I havent .
And Ill wait as long as it takes , but I dont want to wait any longer than I have to .
Im worried that if Paul should see you again … he trailed off , drawing a quietugh from me .
Youre overreacting as usual and you dont have to worry about Paul either .
Hes probably lost .
interest by now .
Ive left him on read too many times and , this weekend , I paused .
Lets get married this weekend .
Nathan blinked in astonishment , as he stood and started pacing the room .
He broke into a grin after a few seconds .
This weekend ? Thats only four days away ! Theres so much to prepare … Iughed .
We dont need anything borate .
Ill ask my mother if I can use her wedding gown .
We can keep it simple .
Nathan stopped pacing and turned to face me with excitement on his face .
Dont worry about at thing .
Ill take care of everything .
I best go started preparing .
He leaned down to kiss my forehead before leaving the room .
That evening aft after I was done resting , I decided to go to the Alpha house .
When I arrived , I met rissa rxing on the porch .
What are you doing here ? rissa asked when she saw me .
to a 163 New bogatungs Im looking for mom , I replied , ignoring the rudeness in her voice .
Shes in the garden , rissa said , jerking her head toward the back of the house .
You might want to catch her before she gets too engrossed .
I thanked her and made my way to the garden .
I found her kneeling in front of a flower bed , wearing garden boots , gloves and a wide brimmed hat as she pulled the weeds .
I hesitated , unsure if I should disturb her .
Just as I turned to leave , she called out to me .
Dont just stand there .
Come and help .
Smiling despite myself , I joined her , kneeling beside her and pulling weeds from the flower beds .
The work was calming and for the first time in years , I felt a sense of connection with my mom .
How are you feeling ? she asked after a while .
I heard you were sick .
My hands stilled as tears welled in my eyes at the unexpected show of concern the first in what felt like forever .
To others , it might be such a simple question , buting from my mother , it carried so much weight .
Im better now , I said softly .
Thats good , she paused and looked at me .
I heard you did so well during the festivals too .
We continued to chat , talking about several things at the same time .
Finally , she straightened and rose to her feet , wiping her hands on the garden apron she was wearing .
rissa mentioned that Natahn proposed to you , I looked up , surprised .
I was just here thinking of how I would raise the topic .
Yes , he did .
Her lips curved into a smile .
Congrattions , my dear .
Its about time we had something to celebrate .
We have a wedding to n .
I hesitated , before admitting .
Were nning to do it this weekend .
We just want something small .
She paused , removing her garden gloves .
Why the rush ? You could say were impatient , I blushed , hiding my face .
And it seems like the right thing .
Okay ! she shrugged .
Lets make it happen .
We stayed silent for a few minutes before I ventured again .
Mom , would it be okay if I wore your wedding gown ? Her eyes softened .
It would be my pleasure .
And , she added softly .
Id be honoured if youd let me walk you down the aisle .
The offer caught me off guard , and tears spilt down my cheeks .
Id love that , Mom .
Its going to be the best day of my life .
She nodded , her eyes going cold for a second before she nodded and said .
You have no idea.