187 The truth of her birth I L Ive been called wolfless , a deviant , and every other thing all my life but never a murderer ! The word rang a hateful echo that refused to fade .


    My hands trembled as I clenched them into fists at my sides .


    Ive had enough ! I cried out .


    My tears were flowing freely now , streaking down my calling me a murderer .


    I havent killed anyone .


    I am not a monster mother or the Woman face .


    Stop I gazed at Luna Vanessa , my who I had always believed was my mother .


    Her expression was concealed with disdain , and her lips were pressed into a thin line .


    But I wanted to try onest time .


    Maybe she had been so angry and had spoken out of it .


    Are you even my mother ? Youve hated me for as long as I can remember .


    Why ? What did I ever do to you to deserve this ? Nathan stiffened , his hand immediately reaching for me .


    This isnt the time or ce , L .


    We just need to get the joining ceremony back on track , thats all .


    No ! I shouted , shaking his hand off mine , as my voice rose with desperation .


    Were going to talk about this now .


    Tell me the truth , I turned to Luna Vanessa again .


    She rose from her seat and sauntered to where I was .


    Despite her unbelievably big stomach , she moved with the gait and speed of a wild cat .


    No ! she spat when she reached me .


    I never wanted you in the first ce .


    I am not your mother .


    I never was and I never wanted to be .


    Her words hit me like physical blows , each one stealing my breath .


    I staggered backwards , my wedding dress rustling against the ground .


    What are you saying ? I whispered .


    Youre lying … you must be lying Your father , she continued , her voice dripping with bitterness , Was on a mission when he met her met her , Sheughed , but the sound held no warmth .


    He couldnt keep it in his pants , and you were the result of that affair .


    Thats not true , tears seeped into my mouth .


    I turned to face Nathan .


    Shes lying right ? Nathan avoided my gaze , looking elsewhere but at me .


    I turned and scanned the faces of the Alphas in the room , all of them had their gazes elsewhere but me .


    They all knew .


    Wow ! Iughed , hysterics already teasing at the edge of my sanity .


    You all knew ? Even you , Nathan .


    You knew I was Alpha Logans bastard and no one was kind enough to tell me .


    All these years , Ive thought something was wrong With me , that I was the problem , that it was my i but to think my existence has been a lie in itself .


    I kept quiet all these years because of your father .


    She showed up at our door one day , barely a TL LIJ .


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    I did it to keep my marriage , my home and my mate because I loved Logan so much that I was willing to raise another womans child and let you call me mother .


    You could have refused ! I screeched as my chest heaved with tears .


    You could have insisted .


    Why did you make it lifes mission to punish me all these years ? Two adults came together and acted recklessly , why do I have to suffer for it , tell me ? Because you killed my son ! her eyes turned into hot coals as she neared me .


    You killed my son , L Woond , a tear rolled down her check .


    You took my joy away .


    How can I spare you ? Vanessa ! Beta Jeremy sighed .


    It was a mistake .


    None of it was her fault .


    She just had her wolf , she was out of control .


    I turned to him , my eyes darting between thein as I tried to understand what they were talking about .


    I had a wolf ? I walked to Beta Jeremy .


    I dont understand , who did I kill ? Why hasnt anyone told the girl ? Its been nine years already .


    This is so pathetic , one of the strange looking men huffed .


    Then snapped his fingers at me , riveting my attention to him .


    Listen here , Le … when you were 14 , you got your wolf and went on a rage .


    You attacked the Omegas in the pack house , chased the warriors and then stomped on baby Todd , your brother … What ! the blood drained from my face .


    L … I cant remember .


    Of course , you wont ! Luna Vanessa snickered .


    Your witch of a mother took your memories away that is why you have no recollection .


    * Please ! Nathan rose to his feet .


    Thats enough , you guys .


    Youre confusing her all the more .


    Please … let her go , we can cross examine her another day Im afraid we do not have that luxury , Alpha Nathan , one of the men said with a satisfied smirk .


    Nine years ago , when L killed the Alpha heir and the rightful heir to the throne .


    Logan was devasted , and so was his wife , our sister .


    As stated in ourws , she was to be killed and sentenced to death … The man paused and the other man picked up from where he stopped .


    But Ls mother begged and managed to convince Logan somehow to spare his daughters life .


    Of course , he loved L … was his favourite child back then … Always ignoring rissa ! Luna Vanessa pitched in .


    So , he refused to allow L to be killed.


    A petition was raised against him , and taken to the Alpha Council which is presided by the packs of the West .


    The presiding Alpha back then was lenient and decided to find a fair and easier means to satisfy both grieving couples .


    L would not have an inheritance in her fathers house , plus since there was no heir and no sign of another oneing because , after Todds birth , the pack doctors instructed her never to get pregnant again due toplications , an Alpha heir was chosen … In return , after seven years , the Alpha heir would wed , rissa , in other to ensure the 187 The truth of her birth i continuity of Alpha Logans bloodline and to keep the Alpha title in the family .


    Seven years passed and the treaty was not talked about or discussed .


    All attempts to connect with Alpha Logan proved abortive , he ignored us .


    I dont know whatever treaty you signed with Alpha Logan , and respectfully , I wasnt informed .


    I have no intentions of marrying a woman I dont love .


    You dont understand , I love L … I want to be with her .


    My mother , my voice cracked , as I forced the words out ignoring Nathan .


    Do you have any information about her ? Is she still alive ? A cruel smile twisted her lips as she nodded .


    Your mother has been with you all this time , L , she paused as if waiting for the words to sink into my brain .


    Its Miriam .


    Miriam ? I repeated .


    She nodded .


    Or is it Nanny ? Shes your mother , L … the slut Sigma who tried to steal my from me .


    My knees gave out , and this time I sank to the floor , unable to hold myself up any longer.


    Nanny the woman who had raised me , cared for me , loved me when no one else had was my real mother .


    How could you ? I wailed as my heart kept breaking with equal parts heartbreak and rage .


    How could you let me live in this house , thinking I didnt belong when she was right there ? Because I didnt want you to know .


    It was easier this way .


    She agreed to stay quiet , to be your disrupt our lives .


    She gave up her ce as your mother for Nanny , because she didnt want to your sake .


    And for mine .


    My chest was tight .


    Every part of my body trembled as I tried to process the additional shocking revtionsing in parts .


    You lied to me , I choked out .


    All of you lied to me .


    Luna Vanessas expression hardened once more .


    What would you have done with the truth , L ? It wouldnt have changed anything .


    You would still be a bastard , an unwanted child in this pack .


    The words pierced my heart , reopening wounds I hadnt realized I carried .


    I pushed myself to my feet , though my legs were shaky , but I managed to stand .


    Youve seeded Mo … Luna Vanessa , I sniffed back tears .


    Youve broken me in ways I would never mend .


    I hope your revenge is exactly how you wanted you waited until I had a chance to be happy and then took the happiness away from me .


    All Ive ever wanted was to feel like I belonged , like was loved .


    Youve made sure I never had that .


    Luna Vanessa didnt respond .


    L , please ! Nathan came to me .


    I know its too much to bear but , can you pause minute … for a Theres no pausing , Nathan , tears blocked my vision .


    I cant trust you … I cant marry you … a waa ndad with k 187 The truth of her birth i ce … If you loved me as much as you im , you would have said something .


    Do you know how foolish it feels like walking around like an ignorant fool , having peopleugh and snicker behind my back … I know … a tear rolled down Nathans cheek .


    And Im sorry .


    Please , L … please .


    I shook my head .


    Theyre going to make you choose , Nathan .


    You heard the men .


    Personally , I think you should do what they want you to do .


    L … please ! he tried to hold but I swatted his hand away .


    Stay away from me , Nathan .


    I hate you ! I turned on my heel , my chest heaving with the effort of holding back sobs .


    I needed to find Nanny … I needed answers .