As a result, even if I went to this school, there was no change.


    No, maybe I''m not going to change from the beginning.


    Good or bad, I am the same as before.


    The reason is very simple.


    Because I know myself well. I know all the advantages and disadvantages.


    I also know that boys and girls don''t like me.


    I know everything clearly, but I''m not going to change.


    But it doesn''t matter.


    Because I don''t feel that pain anymore.


    It''s because I''m looking forward to it.


    I walked out of the shower set up in the guest room, even the water drops on my wet skin, so I stood naked in front of the mirror. How many times have I thought about breaking a mirror?


    Every time I see an old injury to my flank, the horrible past will show its head.


    I felt dizzy and nauseous, so I held up the washstand and vomited.


    Why do I have to go through that?


    Why do I have to suffer like this?


    Why, why, why - I keep repeating that.


    Repeat this meaningless sentence.


    The past cannot be changed.


    No one can change.


    The gods are cruel.


    My personality was destroyed after that nightmare, and I lost my youth, my friends and myself.


    I have to correct that mistake.


    No matter how annoying it is, it''s better than encountering the same situation again.


    I don''t need any youth.


    I don''t need any friends.


    It''s important to protect yourself.


    For this reason, I will do everything necessary.


    I''m a parasite, a weak creature that can''t live on its own.