Cheng Qin, standing on one side, nodded, "Anyan, don''t worry. I promised you that I would do it. I respect your decision."


    "Thank you."


    Anyan has never been so desperate.


    This is the third child, ah Shen. We have lost three children. I''m afraid I can''t pay for such a sin with my whole life. Let me pay for it with my whole life.


    "Holding the hand of a son and growing old with him", I dare not think that it is too far away from us. As long as I can keep one of these children, I am willing to take him away from you and leave you forever.


    He''s a terrible family now. All I want is a child to grow up safely, healthily and happily. As long as he is all right, he can''t grow up in such a safe environment. I have to take him away. I don''t want any harm to the baby in his infancy.


    Shen, I''m sorry.


    Two lines of clear tears fall from the end of the eye


    "It''s a girl. She''s premature. She needs to be in the incubator right away." Dr. Jennie''s voice immediately rang out, "the boy didn''t keep it. He did his best."


    The boy didn''t keep


    Anyan only felt a burst of pain in her heart. She just looked at her daughter and was immediately sent into the incubator secretly.


    "Anyan, the child is safe. Don''t worry. Dr. Jenny and her team will take good care of it."


    Anyan nods. She feels so tired that she has no strength at all.


    "As for the boy... Let me go and talk to Jorge." Cheng Qin looks at the child who has lost her breath. Her brow is slightly wrinkled. There is an unspeakable pain in her heart, not only because she regards an Yan as a friend, but also because she is a doctor, but she is unable to save a child.


    "He''s a good brother..." Anyan''s voice sounded, "he gave the hope of life to his sister." She choked, tears straight down, she as a mother, really can''t bear to see that has no temperature of the child, heart, full of holes, like tens of thousands of hands in the hard pinch her, she is very painful, really painful.


    Sorry, I''m not a good mother. I''m sorry, I didn''t protect you. I''m really sorry.


    Anyan has a thousand and ten thousand apologies in her heart, but the child can''t hear them.


    ……


    It has been more than half a month since Anyan was discharged from the hospital. She didn''t say a word, and she lives like a walking corpse every day.


    "Young lady, you can have some." Aunt Xu worried looking at an Yan, stewed fish soup, she is not a drink.


    Anyan didn''t say a word. She just shook her head.


    She didn''t want to drink, not a sip.


    She has been repenting, repenting of her inability to keep the child as a mother.


    Aunt Xu heard the sound of walking for a while, and looked at He Yun''s tight and handsome face. She sighed helplessly and said: "he Shao, the young lady has been refusing to eat. At most, she just eats two mouthfuls of rice and two mouthfuls of water to maintain. This person has lost a lot of weight. If she goes on like this, she can''t stand it."


    Heyun knows the pain in Anyan''s heart. As a father, he has no pain? Seeing that little child without breathing, without temperature, without even opening his eyes... How could he not collapse? But if he collapses, what should an Yan do?


    "Be obedient and have some fish soup." He Junshen''s words were very flattering. The next second he took the bowl in aunt Xu''s hand and motioned aunt Xu to leave.


    After nodding, aunt Xu stepped out of the master bedroom.


    She also feels the subtle changes in the relationship between he Junshen and an Yan. An Yan treats him like a stranger.


    He handed the spoon to her mouth. Anyan frowned and looked up at him. "After I drink this bowl of fish soup, can you let me leave here and you?"


    Her voice was calm, but only she knew how much of a wave she was in.


    It''s really cruel to leave him.


    Heart, sharp contraction, pain as if to make her unable to breathe.


    "You told me never to leave you." His deep voice sounded in the silent room.


    "Yes, I did, but that''s what happened. Now I''m going to break my promise." Anyan looks at the hejunshen in front of him, his tone is so light, as if nothing had happened, and the water has no trace.


    "The reason." His eyebrows were tight, and his deep eyes were full of heartache.


    "Three children, isn''t that enough?" Anyan looked at hejunshen and said with a faint smile, "in the past half a month, I''ve thought a lot. In fact, as early as when you and I met for the first time, I shouldn''t have handed you the water, and I shouldn''t have run around the playground behind you. We''ve been wrong since we met! Third child, this is the third! He Junshen, these three children who didn''t survive are the best proof! This time, I must leave you, please let me go! "


    At the moment when the voice fell, her eyes were red and her fists clenched involuntarily. She could not help but burst into tears.


    "Let you go?" His voice was still low, but his eyes were covered with a different layer of cold light.


    Anyan nodded, as if relieved, and said: "yes, let me go, let me be safe, and let yourself be safe."


    "Can you take good care of yourself?" He touched her little head, still doting.


    "Yes." Anyan nodded, his voice trembled, "I will eat well, drink well, sleep well, without any burden, I am so tired when I am with you, I am really tired! I''m not happy with you at all. I feel guilty just like a sinner. So... Let me go, OK? "


    "Drink it up, and I''ll let you go."


    If she is not happy with him, it goes against the original intention, he only wants her to be happy!


    Anyan nodded and looked at the bowl of soup in his hand.


    Heyun gave her spoonful by spoonful. She didn''t refuse. She drank the soup one by one. He fed it very slowly. When she finished the last mouthful, Anyan tasted the salty tears. She knew she couldn''t help it.


    He put the soup bowl on the bedside table on one side, put his hand on her small head, and directly kissed her. The action was so swift, so fanatical.


    Anyan knows that this kiss means goodbye.


    ……


    Anyan''s tears, difficult to restrain the slide down, the pillow has been wet a large.


    "Mommy, Mommy, you have nightmares again! You''re crying again


    Small soft body climbed to the bed, so leaning on an Yan''s side, tied two small pull girl stretched out a small hand to wipe an Yan cheek residual tears, and then quickly in her face kiss.