Xiaodie went to the teahouse, and the female shopkeeper, who seemed not much older than her, cleared the table and said with a smile: "sister, do you want to drink tea? Come and sit here. "


    Little butterfly licked her dry lips and nodded, "well Well, how much is a bowl? " Under the consciousness pinches a corner in the cloth bag.


    Qin Gu said, "one Wen, one bowl."


    "Please give me a bowl..." As soon as I sat down, the tea arrived.


    Although the man is very reluctant, but still came to sit opposite Xiaodie. "Please give him another bowl of tea..."


    The man muttered: "it''s really a waste. It''s just a bowl of water. It''s a Wen for a bowl. It''s enough to buy half a catty of coarse grain."


    Xiaodie has some grievances, and the other party complains all the way because she didn''t bring more jewelry silver when she "escaped".


    She began to doubt whether it was true that the other party said that she loved her rather than her identity and family background.


    Tea fruit really fragrant Qinpi, a few mouthfuls go down, the whole person has tired to disappear.


    In the rising tea atmosphere, Xiaodie feels her sight is in a trance.


    The eloping couple drank their tea nervously, burying their heads as much as possible, for fear that they would be recognized in the crowd.


    I''m even more afraid that a team of people will suddenly run out from the end of the road to catch them back


    But until they finished drinking tea, these coincidences and dog blood did not happen.


    Xiaodie looks at the end of the road, inexplicably some lost, pulled by the mountain to leave in a hurry.


    The two men, recovering their strength, set foot on the road of elopement full of thorns and rough again.


    Xiaodie never expected that Dashan''s home in the "mountain" was so remote. What made her more and more uneasy was that she found that the farther away from the town, Dashan didn''t care and tolerate her as much as before.


    The shoes are broken, the feet are worn out, and the nature of the mountain is gradually exposed, but Xiaodie has no way to retreat.


    There are few people here, dense forest, and the howling of wild animals from the forest from time to time


    No matter how tired and painful she had to bite her teeth and keep pace with the mountain.


    She recalled that when she was at home before, she was the only daughter and the delicate lady in the family. Even if she ate and dressed, she was served by people. She had never suffered such hardships.


    Xiaodie has begun to miss the carefree days in her heart. She has already regretted eloping with this man. Because the other side in front of their courteous, because the other side said they would be good to themselves, they shamelessly into a head.


    However, there is still a trace of hope in Xiaodie''s heart: Dashan said that he was energetic and didn''t understand the wrinkled sentiment of those scholars, but he was more down-to-earth and would live a better life than those scholars.


    So, in fact, with a down-to-earth man, life can be peaceful and the couple will be harmonious.


    Finally, when she arrives at the "home" of the two thatched cottages, Xiaodie feels lost. She just subconsciously thinks that if Dashan is as industrious and down-to-earth as he said, why are there only two thatched cottages so dilapidated? And his mother and brother and sister-in-law all look at her with a strange vision?


    They take away her baggage and let her cook and sweep


    Therefore, in her cold and ironic eyes, she directly changed from a boudoir woman to a servant woman serving the whole family.


    Dashan looked at her in the eyes no longer had the admiration, no warmth, no care. In addition to drinking with those people during the day and scolding her, there was no pity at night.


    She wanted to leave, but she was no longer innocent, and still voluntarily eloped with this man. If you go back, even if you have parents to protect you from punishment, the final result will certainly not be good.


    Moreover, she found herself unable to leave - she was pregnant.


    The new life in her stomach is like bringing new hope to her dead and depressed life. She thinks that the arrival of the child will change the mountain and the attitude of her family.


    However, with the birth of her daughter, the reality has not improved, but has become more difficult.


    Not only the family, but all the people in the place looked at her with disdain, as if she had given birth to a daughter.


    She did not understand that in her short life span of more than ten years, she was the only daughter in the family. Although she occasionally heard rumors that men were more important than women, she did not realize it.


    In this environment, people''s behavior and character will also change imperceptibly. She subconsciously caters to the living rules here, tries to cater to her husband, and breaks down the values of others.


    The next year she was pregnant again, and she was as desperate as anyone else to have a son. However, the reality is still so bad, she gave birth to a daughter.


    At this time, Xiaodie finds that her heart has been unconsciously changed and has been assimilated by everything here. She also finds that she does not like her daughter. She even has some resentment because her daughter makes her status in the family and village so low and unpopular She thought that if she had a son, her husband''s fairness and other people''s attitude towards him would certainly not be the same.Butterfly in the day after day work and cold words become numb, and become like the women around: old, coarse.


    At the end of the day, she was so numb that she didn''t know when she was getting bigger again. She lay numb on the delivery bed. Someone said in her ear, "it''s another money loss. It''s useless. I''m drowned." she didn''t respond to what the coarse voice said. She only mechanically followed their demands, even if her fist and rolling pin fell on her Just giggle.


    Xiaodie finally falls down. She feels her life is gone and her consciousness is gone Is this going to die?


    At this moment, she didn''t even have the most instinctive desire to survive, and her godless eyes were dead.


    Well -


    but why do you feel so painful in your heart that you feel a shiver from the bottom of your soul.


    It''s so painful, so depressing, so miserable Xiaodie finds that even this kind of pain and suffering is strange to her for a long time, but it is because of this pain and depression that she realizes her existence.


    The most painful thing in life is not that you feel pain and depression in life, but that you can''t even feel it.


    At this moment, the little butterfly who feels that she is returning to her body wants to cry, and instinctively wants to struggle and escape from the numbness and darkness.


    Ah -


    Xiaodie cried out with all her strength - except that she had cried after Dashan just arrived at the "home". She was met with insults and fists, and later she learned to be obedient and did not shout.


    A feeling of weightlessness swept through the whole body, and the butterfly felt like falling from a high altitude


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