I grabbed my hair with my hand and tore it wildly. My facial muscles twitched violently. I held my teeth tightly and didn''t let myself scream


    I used to be so close to Dong''Er, so close to each other, so solemn, so sweet and happy, so deeply adored, just because I was bankrupt, Dong''Er immediately changed his mind to my business opponent and rival?


    How can Dong Er be so cruel? How could it be so different? How can you be so forgetful? It''s impossible. It must be impossible. Dong Er left me for some other reason. It must be! Otherwise, Dong''Er won''t go to Xinghai by plane!


    "It''s absolutely impossible, it''s not true! It''s not true! It''s definitely not true. " I suddenly raised my head, looked at Haifeng, and hissed, "Haifeng, you tell me, it''s not true, it''s all false, you tell me, tell me..."


    I look at Haifeng with despair and expectation.


    "It''s a pity, brother, I can''t cheat you. It''s true. You''ll die of this heart!" Haifeng said calmly and cruelly, "after you disappeared, I have seen them go in and out of shopping malls and hotels affectionately, talking and laughing for several times, which I have seen with my own eyes Do you want me to give you a little movie on a living bed


    My heart was hit heavily again, staring at Haifeng.


    "Brother, face the reality, don''t deceive yourself, don''t daydream, what should come will come sooner or later, maybe, Dong''Er doesn''t belong to you, don''t go to extravagance -" Haifeng continued: "a Zhu told me today that she met Dong''Er twice on the plane, don''t think that Dong''Er is looking for you With so many Fang, it''s normal for her to go anywhere. She can go to Beijing, Nanjing, Shanghai and naturally Xinghai Wake up, I know you are sentimental, but you have to face the reality, although the reality is very ruthless and cruel


    Haifeng''s calm words stung my painful and cold heart. My internal organs felt extremely cold and spasmodic


    Some scars, scratch on the hand, become the past after healing. Some scars, delimit in the heart, even if delimit very light, also can stay in the heart. Some people, close at hand, but not in life. Some regret, destined to carry a lifetime.


    I fell into deep pain. Although Donger''s departure made me miserable, I still had a little luck in my heart. I always felt that Donger''s departure was too strange, and I didn''t want to believe that Donger would betray his vows. Today Haifeng''s words put out the faintest light in my heart, and I was completely desperate It''s too late.


    I sat there, my cigarette end burned my finger, and I didn''t even notice the smell of barbecue skin.


    Haifeng reached out and put my cigarette end into the ashtray. Then he looked at me silently and smoked one by one.


    For a long time, I breathed heavily


    Haifeng said slowly: "Yike, listen to my brother, forget the past, forget all the unhappiness and depression, from the beginning, you are still young, we are still young, we have a lot of fighting capital, some are beautiful youth.


    "This damn life is a train to the end of life. On the way, there will be many stops. No one can accompany you from beginning to end. You will see people coming and going up and down.


    "If you are lucky, someone will accompany you for a while. When this person wants to get off the bus, even if he doesn''t give up, he should be grateful, and then wave goodbye, because maybe another person will accompany you further at the next stop Everything is easy to get together and disperse The most important thing is to open your own car. "


    I looked at Haifeng, touched a cigarette, lit it and sucked it hard.


    "Don''t torture yourself wantonly for the sake of the so-called love. Love doesn''t depend on how much you have changed, but on how long you have stuck to it. Don''t let emotion become a kind of torment for the sake of the so-called love. The more you expect, the less likely it will give back to you. Don''t hurt yourself rather than turn back for the sake of the so-called love. The extinguished flame can''t burn, Finally, you can only use your blood and tears to slowly melt all the pain


    Haifeng continued: "well said, love is like two people holding a rubber band. The one who is hurt is always reluctant to let go. You idiot, would you like to be clear? You look like a bear now. Are you still a man? Or the free and unconstrained Yike in the past? I think you are a loser now!


    "You look down on me the most. It''s just a woman, isn''t it? For a woman who doesn''t love you and leaves you in your most difficult time, is it worth being so lost? Son of a bitch, you cheer me up. You should have given up your heart long ago, and you should have taken a damn chance. "


    With that, Haifeng patted me heavily on the shoulder.


    My body trembled and my eyes looked straight at Haifeng.


    "What are you looking at me for? Don''t talk a fart! " Haifeng looks a little hairy when I look at it.Suddenly, I couldn''t stop laughing. In the sad and suffocating air of the room, the laughter was full of desolation and sadness


    From Starbucks, Haifeng and I went to a pub and asked for some dishes. Haifeng didn''t drink. I asked for a bottle of Erguotou and drank it all alone.


    Drown one''s worries with wine, and worry more. The more you drink, the more depressed you feel.


    When I was about to have dinner, I received a call from Li Shun, asking me to accompany him to the bar. So I said goodbye to Haifeng and went back to the hotel. I went to the bar of Kaiyuan hotel with Li Shun.


    Li Shun asked me to drink Chivas with him, but I didn''t refuse. I clinked a glass with Li Shun.


    Li Shun asked for two ladies and gave me one. I didn''t refuse. I leaned up to drink with them.


    Looking at my performance tonight, Li Shun had an unexpected expression at first, then adapted and even seemed very happy.


    Until 12 o''clock, Li Shun took two ladies back to the room and asked me to come in.


    I sat down on the sofa in the living room of the suite. On the tea table in front of the sofa, there was a skating pot.


    Li Shun was drunk and sat down on the sofa in front of the curling. He said to me, "ha ha, yi Ke, you have a good drink tonight. It''s good to go out and mix. You have to learn to let go. This life is delicious, good to drink and fun. These two girls are all out of the ice. You pick one to take back to your room, and I''ll take another one."


    I looked straight at Li Shun and didn''t speak.


    With that, Li Shun lowered his head and held the straw. A young lady half knelt down in front of Li Shun and began to light the fire and bake the ice. Li Shun began to suck up and kept looking up, closing her eyes and spewing white smoke


    Another lady in a miniskirt sat next to me, rubbing her plump body against me, and then picking up my hand and putting it on her thigh and stroking it back and forth


    I''m like a vegetative person. I let it tease me, but there is no reaction in my body and heart.


    The air began to smell strong again.


    After the last puff of smoke, Li Shun closed his eyes and shook his head a few times. He was very intoxicated. Then he opened his eyes and looked at me with perplexed eyes. He waved: "brother, come on, take a few puffs. It''s very cool --"


    the ice lady was still half kneeling there, with a lighter in her hand, looking at me.


    Without saying a word, I stood up, went to Li Shun, sat down, reached out and touched the straw


    Unconsciously, I fell into the edge of depravity.


    Before, I was disheartened because of the bankruptcy of the enterprise and the departure of Dong''Er. It was a kind of depravity. Later, I followed the underworld society, fought and killed, and played with guns and sticks. It was a kind of depravity. Now, I''m drowning my worries by drinking, and I''m about to get involved in drugs. It''s a kind of fall, and it''s still a deep depravity.


    I don''t know where my life, my body and my soul will degenerate with Li Shun.


    At this time, my brain is in chaos, and I will open my mouth to hold the straw without thinking.


    just at this moment, my mobile phone suddenly rings. At this moment, the ring of my mobile phone is particularly harsh.


    My heart trembles, takes out the handset to have a look, is the autumn Tong calls.


    When I saw the number of Qiutong, I was shocked and my heart rate increased sharply.


    At this moment, I suddenly wake up, what am I doing? I''m going to take a goddamn drug?


    As soon as I thought of taking drugs, I was shocked by myself. I had already entered the underworld and entered the abyss of depravity. If I got into the habit of taking drugs again, I would be totally finished!


    I took my mobile phone and looked at it. I was hesitating whether to answer the phone. Li Shun then looked at me: "who''s calling?"


    My heart was a little flustered, covered up, casually said: "my mother --"


    "pick up quickly --" Li Shun urged me.


    "Oh Then -- "I pressed the answer button and began to speak:" Mom, it''s so late. What can I do for you when you call? "


    "Ah - what? Mom Qiu Tong was confused over there and said: "Yike, you read the wrong number. It''s me, Qiu Tong --"


    "Oh Ma, what''s the matter, you say! " I said while Li Shun made a gesture to go out to answer the phone, Li Shun nodded with a smile, so I quickly opened the door and went out to the corridor.


    "What''s the matter with you, ike? I''m Qiu Tong. Why do you call me ma? I''m not as old as your mother, am I? Is my voice and tone very similar to your mother? " Qiu Tong couldn''t help laughing at the end of the phone.


    At this time, I had already reached the corridor, so I quickly changed my words: "Mr. Qiu, I''m sorry I was with boss Li just now. I''m afraid I''ll let him know that you called me, just Sorry... "


    "Oh Are you still with Li Shun so late? What are you doing? " Qiu Tong said.


    "Well, it''s nothing." I was incoherent: "nothing."


    "Nothing. What are you doing together?" Qiu Tong asked.


    "It''s really nothing. It''s just It''s talking and chatting together. " I said."Chat? Talking? So late, two big men chatting together? " Qiu Tong''s voice was obviously full of doubt.