Every time I see floating life like a dream and silent there, my heart aches faintly. What is she looking at and thinking about? Why didn''t she speak? Does she know I''m looking at her, too?


    Several times, I can''t help but want to talk to floating life like a dream. Every time I raise my hand, I finally fall down. The gap between reality and virtual is so big, what can I say to her? What can she promise me?


    After all, the virtual is an ethereal dream, but the reality is unchangeable, she can not get out of that reality. What will be destroyed if you contact me here again?


    Why can''t I face the reality bravely, accept the reality, forget the dream destined to be empty, and let myself come out of the hopeless addiction?


    Think about Donger, think about Haizhu, think about clouds, think about Qiutong, my heart is highly tangled up.


    I don''t know where I should go. I want to try to let myself down completely, forget all the pain in the past, forget the deep family affection, forget the self deceiving dream, and seriously face Haizhu and accept Haizhu.


    However, when I think about it like this, I always can''t let my mood go up and down naturally. When I see Qiutong in reality, when I see the chat record of buttonhole and floating life like a dream, I''ve been strong for several times. If I want to really let myself accept Haizhu, I''m tired and weak. I can''t defeat my own demons after all.


    Now, there seems to be a relatively peaceful relationship between cloud and me.


    Her feelings for me, I know in my heart, are still not faded, or even more intense. But the clouds seem to have become more sensible and prudent.


    And I love cloud more than love. I prefer to treat her as a relative and a little sister.


    Although I already know that Dong''Er no longer belongs to me, I still can''t forget the unforgettable first love in my desperate and painful heart. The unforgettable years in the past often flash in my dream and mind.


    Whenever I think of Dong''Er, my heart still hurts. Time and reality have not lost the deep impression in my heart.


    Think of these, think of Haizhu to my true feelings, my heart can not help but feel guilty, feel sorry for Haizhu.


    I have thought that, from a realistic and long-term perspective, Haizhu is undoubtedly suitable for me. However, I want to enter Haizhu, but I am hindered by the invisible knot. I want to let go of myself, but I am bound by deep contradictions. I feel that I am sinking deeper and deeper in an invisible net, and I can hardly extricate myself


    In the egg pain disputes and busy work, I let myself numb to live.


    On the afternoon of the weekend, I wanted to relax my mind, thinking about the plan and running to the seaside.


    At the end of winter, the sun is slanting on the blue sea, the sea breeze is caressing my face, the waves are beating on the coast, and on the beach, a few couples are walking intimately Everything seems so soft and harmonious.


    When I ran to the small pine forest by the sea, I was surprised to see Qiutong''s car parked on the side of the road.


    What''s Qiutong driving here for? Is he also here to relax his mind?


    I walked gently from the back to the front of a look, lying on the glass to see, autumn Tong is sitting in the car.


    Qiutong sitting in the car, I am not surprised, surprised is the man sitting in the co driver''s seat.


    That man is Haifeng!


    Shit, when did Haifeng come to Xinghai? Why didn''t he tell me when he came to Xinghai? Why is Qiu Tong here with him? What are they doing here?


    A series of question marks welled up in my mind, and I stood beside the car, staring at them.


    Seeing me here, Qiutong and Haifeng also show unexpected expressions. They open the car door and get off. Qiutong smiles and looks at me: "Yike, come to exercise again! I just told Haifeng to contact you, and you just happened to show up. "


    I don''t understand the meaning of Qiu Tong''s words. I look at Haifeng again.


    Haifeng looked a little depressed, but he also said to me with a smile: "Qiu always said that he would pick me up tonight. He called several friends together and was about to call you."


    I nodded: "Oh..." At this time, I haven''t come back to myself, and I''m a little confused.


    "Well, you two can talk. I''m going to do something. I''ll see you in the evening. I''ll be the host!" Qiu Tong said while sitting back in the car: "Yike, you can join in the evening. I''ll call Xiaozhu and Yunduo and take my daughter."


    I nodded again: "Oh..."


    Then Qiutong drove away, leaving Haifeng and I here.


    Seeing Qiutong''s car go away, I look at Haifeng. Haifeng suddenly sighs: "Alas..."


    I said, "Birdman, when did you come?"


    Haifeng said: "this afternoon, Mr. Qiu picked me up at the airport..."


    I said, "don''t tell me! What a bird, you


    Haifeng laughed awkwardly: "it''s not too late."


    I said, "what are you doing here?"


    I think it''s unnecessary for me to ask this question. Haifeng and Qiutong are together when they come. What else can I do? But I still want to ask.I didn''t expect that Haifeng''s reply was beyond my expectation: "stay in Xinghai!"


    I am a Leng: "resident?"


    "Yes, ALA has been transferred to Xinghai office," Haifeng said. "The performance of Xinghai office is too poor. The person in charge has been transferred. The headquarters has dropped me here Why don''t you welcome company? "


    "Oh..." So I nodded: "Welcome! However, you are not just my company, are you? Is there another intention? "


    The meaning of my words is obvious.


    Haifeng grinned bitterly for a while, and then said, "I''d like to have that intention, but it''s a pity that it''s not going to work Ai - Yike, I found that I really failed in my love. I finally found a woman I like, but she was hot in shaving. I was as hot as a trouser jacket, but they didn''t mean it at all I wish I had listened to you. "


    I said, "well Mr. Qiu pointed it out to you directly? "


    "Well You don''t know. I send messages to her every day these days to express my true feelings. However, she doesn''t want to talk about them at all. She always tries to find a topic to take my words apart. As far as he is concerned, I came to Xinghai today and sent a message to her in advance. She drove to the airport to meet me. At first, I was very excited. I thought there was a good thing, but in the end, she directly sent me a message I came here for a long talk When you came, it was just over. " Haifeng said dejectedly.


    "Oh What are you talking about? " I asked curiously.


    "She talked a lot, heart to heart. The general meaning is that she regards me as a good friend, as a good friend like you. I hope I don''t have other ideas. She said that she and I will never cross the line of friends. She cherishes my understanding and friendship, and doesn''t hope that we can''t even be friends in the end." Haifeng said: "it seems that, as you said, there is someone in her heart. It seems that no one can take the place of that person in her heart."


    I grinned: "I told you a long time ago, you don''t believe it! You have to look for yourself


    I have an indescribable taste in my heart. I don''t know whether it is sweet or bitter.


    "After what she said, I figured it out in my heart," Haifeng said. "Since we are not predestined, it''s good to be a good friend. Having such a high-quality friend can be regarded as a harvest for me to come to Xinghai. Now I feel that Qiutong is really out of reach for me. Her heart is tightly closed, and it''s hard for outsiders to open it She is the goddess in the sky, and the person who can walk into her heart doesn''t know where she is


    I laughed and said, "of course, that''s the right person for her It must be the people in the world, it must be the people around her. "


    Haifeng suddenly said, "but I don''t think that person is her boyfriend now."


    I said, "why do you feel this way?"


    "I asked her," Haifeng said


    I said, "how did you ask?"


    Haifeng said: "at the end of today''s conversation, I asked her if she already had a lover in her heart. She hesitated for a while and didn''t say a word, but her expression was obviously tacit. I then asked her that the lover should be her current boyfriend. Qiutong''s expression suddenly became very ugly, embarrassed and awkward. At that time, I decided that although she had a lover The fiance, however, still has other people in his heart. "


    I turned my head and looked at the sea in the distance. I didn''t make a sound, and my heart was full of depression.


    After that, Haifeng said: "today, after face-to-face talk, I''m dead hearted. Since I have no chance to talk about feelings, I''ll be a good friend. In the future, I''ll work in Xinghai and work hard with my friends. It''s a great honor to have a woman like Qiutong as a friend. Ah --"


    I turned to Haifeng and looked at her: "Haifeng, what are you looking for What kind of girlfriend? The conditions should not be too high! "


    Haifeng said: "I don''t have high qualifications. I just like those girls who are innocent, honest, kind-hearted, don''t admire vanity, don''t seek fame and fortune. These days, there are not many such girls I finally met one who didn''t mean that to me Hoo Hoo


    I said: "in fact, there are many such girls, but you didn''t find them. Haizhu has introduced so many beautiful stewardesses to you. Why can''t you see them?"


    "Ha ha, this feeling is fate, no matter how beautiful it is, don''t you think so?" Haifeng said: "beauty is not food. Of course, it''s best to meet someone who has both talent and appearance I think, a woman, beautiful is not fundamental, beautiful is true, this beauty is not only good-looking on the outside can be, to have inner purity and kindness, but also gentle and elegant


    I agree with Haifeng.


    In the evening, Qiutong invited Haifeng to receive the wind. Piggy and cloud attended. Qiutong arrived first with Xiaoxue. It''s at the Seamen''s club. Seamen''s club is a comprehensive restaurant and entertainment place integrating eating, drinking and playing.


    When Haifeng and I got to our room, Qiutong and I had already arrived.


    Piggy saw Haifeng, radiant, warm greeting: "Hi - brother MEDA Haifeng, meet again!"