In my ignorance, my mind was stirred. I suddenly thought of what Bai Laosan had said on the phone that day in the Crown Hotel of Xinghai. I also thought of Bai Laosan''s brother-in-law and wood''s dinner together that night. I also thought of Li Shun''s parents'' sudden transfer of duty, and Li shungang''s sudden appearance in 2046 when he just left Xinghai
My heart beat fast.
These events happened in a dense period of time. It seems that they are so coincidental, accidental and inevitable. Is there any inextricable connection between them? Will there be any great conspiracy hidden in it?
Did I feel that the undercurrent from Xinghai officialdom and the underworld began to accelerate and surge, and would erupt soon?
I pressed my forehead with my hand, trying to figure out the relationship between these things, and to figure out how the undercurrent would surge, when and where it would erupt if it really existed.
After all, I don''t know enough about officialdom and gangsters. My social experience and experience are not rich enough. My mind is not so sophisticated and complicated. I can''t see through the mystery of things at present
Of course, at this time, I can not know what kind of influence these things will have on Qiutong''s future, and how they will influence Qiutong''s fate.
I don''t know how long I''ve been thinking about it. I''m tired and sleepy. I finally can''t stand it and fall asleep.
In this sleep, I fell into a deep sleep. I kept dreaming about Qiutong and Lishun''s engagement, Haizhu''s tearful looking at me, the thin and melancholy face of the clouds, and Donger''s eyes looking at me
Finally, I dreamt that Qiutong and I were standing on the edge of a cliff with a bottomless abyss behind us. Facing the joint pursuit of Li Shun, Bai Laosan and wood, Qiutong took my hand and jumped down the bottomless abyss with me
"Ah --" I cried and woke up, sweating and soaking through my underwear.
When I opened my eyes, I saw Dong''Er in his white cotton pajamas, with his hair still wet, standing at the head of the bed looking at me.
The light inside is bright. Look out the window, it''s sunny.
"Xiao Ke, you wake up," Dong''Er said.
"What time is it?" I wipe the sweat from my forehead.
"It''s eleven in the morning." Dong''Er sat by my bed and touched my forehead: "Xiao Ke, you have a nightmare."
I sat up and looked at Dong''Er: "you wake up long ago?"
"Just wake up, just take a bath!" Donger said.
"Oh..." I just looked at the bath after the winter, just like lotus general fresh and delicate, can not help but see crazy.
Seeing my eyes, Dong''Er''s white face showed a trace of blush, but then his eyes were slightly uneasy.
I reached for Dong''Er''s hand: "Dong''Er."
"Well..." Dong''Er let me hold her hand and promise in a low voice.
"You look good." I said from the bottom of my heart, gently rubbing Dong''Er''s slender, slender and tender hands.
The blush on Dong''Er''s face began to spread, but then he sighed softly and clenched his lips tightly
"Take a shower." For a moment, Dong''Er gently took his hand out of my hand, stood up, went to the window, turned his back to me and looked out of the window.
After taking a bath, I put on my clothes and came out. I saw that Dong''Er had changed his clothes and was sitting on the sofa, holding his cheek and thinking about something.
See me come out, Dong Er looks up at me: "hungry?"
I nodded, "and you?"
"Hungry!"
"Shall we eat downstairs?"
"Well..." Donger stands up.
No one seems willing to talk about the next step until now.
We went to the restaurant downstairs and ordered our favorite fried rice cake. We ate it silently.
After dinner, we did not leave, still sitting there, looking at each other, I know, it''s time to say that unavoidable problem.
"Xiao Ke, you''re leaving, aren''t you?" Dong Er talked first.
"Well..." I nodded. Donger said this, no doubt that I want to go back to Xinghai, but she has not asked me what I do in Xinghai.
"Oh..." Dong''Er, with a faint look in his eyes, has some unspeakable expectations.
"What are you doing in ningzhou now?" I asked Dong er.
"Me?" Dong''Er smiles faintly: "jobless vagrant!"
"Well You You... " I want to say: "would you like to go with me?" I said for a long time, but I didn''t say it, because I don''t know what will be treated after I say it.
Dong''Er was silent for a while and looked at me: "Xiao Ke, why didn''t you ask me what I had done in the past?"
"Why? Do you want me to know? Do you want to tell me? " I said.Dong''Er said slowly: "last night I said you shouldn''t come to me This is a hurdle, a hurdle in our hearts. This hurdle can''t be overcome. I, you and we can''t talk about the next step So, whether I want to tell you or not, I''m waiting for you to ask
I understand what Dong''Er means, and my heart pricked: "I don''t want to ask."
"Why?" Dong''Er''s voice sounds far away and a little misty.
My heart is more and more hurt. I lower my head and keep silent for a long time. Then I look up at Dong''Er: "I miss you as long as I leave you. My missing and separation are synchronous. From last night to now, your performance has told me that no matter what happened in the past, no matter what you and I did in the past, our past is true, and the feelings between me, you and us are true.
"In the past, I have been suffering from separation all the time. When I meet again, I believe that I can see that you still have the past affection for me Don''t want to ask, because I don''t want to let you, me, we get hurt again, because I believe we still have tomorrow
"We can still recall the past, we can go back to the past I believe that as long as you and I have this heart, we can get through this
Even though I said that, I have no idea whether I can really cross this barrier.
I have no foundation in my heart. I also have no foundation for Dong''Er to pass.
I don''t want to ask about the past. It doesn''t mean that I don''t care. It''s just that no matter what the reason, the fact has happened. If I ask again, what''s the point of letting the past stab and kill each other again?
Of course, I would like to know the real reason why Dong''Er left me, but at this moment, I just met again. I don''t think it''s time to ask.
First, it''s not the right time; second, I always don''t want to believe that Dong''Er will betray our past feelings. I prefer to believe that Dong''Er is forced out of helplessness, and I avoid the past things with a kind of escape and fluke mentality; third, I still don''t know what dirty and despicable means Duan Xianglong used to attack me. I want to have a way of thinking Time to rush.
After hearing this, Dong''Er clenched his lips tightly, looked at me in a daze, and said for a while, "OK With your words Come with me Dong er''s voice is a little hoarse.
Donger is willing to go with me, my heart suddenly relaxed, but inexplicably feel a bit empty.
"Well, good!" I nodded.
"Last year, I went to see you, but I didn''t find Later, I did not move the idea of looking for you again, because I suddenly felt that I was no longer worthy of looking for you. Although my heart has been thinking about you, I can''t forgive myself for what happened in the past. " Donger murmured.
"No - don''t say it, don''t say it again!" I interrupted Dong''Er and said hastily, "I just said, I don''t want to know, I don''t want to know the past I only, I only believe in my own eyes, I only believe in my own heart, and I believe in what reappeared before my eyes yesterday. "
"Xiao Ke, it seems that you want to cheat yourself What are you running away from Donger said.
"I don''t want to force myself, I don''t want to force you, and I don''t want to hurt all of us." I said, "I think we can try to start over, try to erase the past with time, try to start a new life I''d like to try. Would you like to? "
"If not, will I go with you?" Dong Er looks at me and holds my hand.
I hold Donger''s cold hand and look at Donger: "well, let''s go by plane at 6 o''clock this evening. I''ll book the ticket in a moment."
"Well..." Dong''Er nodded: "I''ll go back and pack up now."
"I''ll take you back, and then I''ll do something!" I said. Before leaving ningzhou with Dong''Er Lin, I''m going to visit Lao Qin.
Dong''Er and I got out of the hotel and took a taxi. We sat in the back row together. When we started, the driver said, "go to the East Lake garden first."
Dong er''s body trembled slightly and looked at me: "Xiao Ke, how do you know where I live?"
"Some time ago, I saw you at the gate of East Lake Garden. You passed me by." I said.
"Ah --" Dong''Er whispered unexpectedly: "that You Why were you there
"I was about to call you, but At that time, I didn''t know you had
"You went by yourself?"
"No, and Haifeng, let''s go there and have turtle soup."
Dong''Er turned to look at me: "Haifeng stopped you, didn''t he? If there had been no Haifeng, you would have called me, wouldn''t you
I didn''t say anything. It was tacit.
"Haifeng''s sister Haizhu What''s your occupation? " Donger asked again.
"Flight attendant!"
"Oh Stewardess... " Dong Er repeated, and then said, "which airline? Where did you fly? ""Ningzhou to Xinghai, China Southern Airlines!" I said.
"Oh..." Dong Er looks out of the window and doesn''t speak any more.
Donger got off at the gate of Donghu garden. We agreed that I would pick her up here at four and then go to the airport together.
Then, I went to Lao Qin.
After a roadside air ticket office, I got off to buy a ticket to Xinghai, 6 pm, China Southern flight. The ID number of winter child was back to me. I didn''t need to ask winter son.
After buying the ticket, I called Lao Qin and said that I would go to baccarat to find him. Lao Qin said not to go there and asked me to meet him in a nearby teahouse.
Twenty minutes later, Lao Qin and I met in a single room of the teahouse.