My heart trembled, hoarse voice: "at least, now, I don''t want to know."


    "Why?" Donger said.


    "What good is it for me, for you, for us to know this?" I said.


    "I don''t know Just, I want you to know that no matter what I''ve done to you in the past, my heart has always been yours. " Donger said gloomily.


    "I believe, I understand, I know." I said: "that''s enough, I just need to know that your heart is mine, that''s enough I want your heart


    "Since you don''t want to ask now, well, I''ll tell you exactly when you want to ask." Dong''Er said: "of course, if you don''t ask me, I won''t ask about your past, because I know very well at the moment that no matter which woman you once wanted, your heart is mine, and you always have me in your heart. For me, that''s enough."


    Donger''s words made me feel ashamed. It seemed that I had done something shameful. When I had no face to see Donger, I could not help being moved by Donger''s tolerance and magnanimity.


    "Dong''Er, let''s forget the past and look ahead. In the future, we will always be together and never be separated again!" Think of the past wandering years, my heart sour, and some gratification.


    Donger nodded, looked at me and laughed: "kiss me -"


    I bowed my head and kissed Donger''s lips affectionately.


    Dong''Er took a puff of smoke: "Xiao Ke, when I left the airport tonight, what Qiu Zong, who called you manager Yi, was your customer?"


    "What''s the matter?" I said.


    "It''s nothing. I just feel that this person''s attitude towards us seems very cold and indifferent." Donger said.


    I breathed a breath: "this Qiu Zong, is not my client, she is my boss!"


    "Boss?" Dong''Er was stunned and looked at me: "boss? Your boss? How do you have a boss? Don''t you start your own company here? "


    Seeing Dong''Er''s suspicious expression, my heart sank and I laughed bitterly: "Dong''Er, I cheated my mother. I didn''t let her know about my bankruptcy. I''m afraid my parents will worry. Think for yourself, I just went bankrupt. Where can I get the capital to start a company? I am now working in the distribution company of Xinghai media group. "


    "But what does she call you manager?" Donger said.


    "Because I am the manager and head of a department in the distribution company." I said, "I''m a worker now, and I get my salary and bonus."


    "Is that true? Or are you teasing me? " Dong Er is still suspicious.


    "I didn''t lie to you, it''s true!" I said.


    "Well You''ve got a house Said Dong''Er.


    "Excuse me," I said.


    Dong''Er listened to me finish, his face showed great loss and disappointment, staring at me, as if he could not accept the reality of all this.


    Looking at Dong''Er''s expression, I suddenly felt a panic in my heart, and I suddenly felt that I was incompetent.


    Since I got to know Dong''Er, I have never seen such an expression of appreciation and praise.


    Dong''Er presses the unfinished cigarette to death, then slips out into the bed, looks up at the ceiling, and suddenly becomes silent.


    For a long time, Dong''Er murmured, "yes, you just went bankrupt. How can you open a company so quickly? I should have thought of it. I should have thought of it. "


    Hearing Dong''Er''s words, my heart seemed to be pricked. I lay down, hugged Dong''Er''s body, patted Dong''Er''s back, and kissed Dong''Er''s face: "Dong''Er, after the bankruptcy of ningzhou''s company, and without you, I have completely fallen down. But now, with you, I have motivation again. Believe me, I will cheer up well, I will rise up again as soon as possible, and I want to rebuild myself New stand up, I want to have their own business and company, believe me, I will


    I don''t know whether I''m afraid that Donger will be disappointed and give Donger confidence or that I''m afraid that I will continue to sink and cheer myself up.


    Dong''Er looked at me: "it takes a lot of money to start a company. Now, where do you go to get the money?"


    I hastily said: "I will do my present work well, try my best to get more bonus and save more money. I will spend the last year trying to save a sum of money. I will start from a small company and grow up slowly As long as I work hard and do well, I will certainly do it. "


    I know that in the current situation, I can''t do without the issuing company. Li Shun has decided to have sex with me. I either work in the issuing company or return to his underworld. I have no third way to go. And to the underworld, although I can make a lot of money, I can never go back. That''s a dead end.


    Dong Er looked at me and didn''t speak.


    "Don''t you believe in my ability, Donger? I can do it. You know, our previous company was built step by step from a small age. It was built with less than 100000 yuan at that time. " I stroked Dong''Er''s cheek and said, "now, as long as you support me, you believe me and you are by my side, I will have the motivation to rise up again. I am a capable person. I will make a lot of money and make you live a good life."Dong''Er looked at me for a long time and forced to smile. The smile was bitter.


    "Dong''Er - believe me, I can do it!" I said incoherently.


    Dong''Er pursed his lips and said in a soft voice, "OK, Xiao Ke, I believe you..." Donger''s voice is dry, with a melancholy that cannot be covered.


    My heart some pain, a man can''t let his beloved woman live the ideal abundant comfortable life, is how failure.


    I can''t help feeling the urgency and pressure, because of Donger''s disappointment.


    At that moment, I even had an idea in my mind: to return to Li Shun.


    I know that as long as I go back to Li Shun and want to make money, I will soon have a lot of money. The money I make in a year is no less than that I make when I start a company.


    A flash of this idea, I can''t help but be scared.


    I know that if I really go back to Li Shun, although I can make a lot of money, what is waiting for me will be bottomless abyss, and the consequences will be unimaginable.


    I can''t go this way until I have to. What I have to do now is to work hard in the issuing company, make a lot of money, complete the accumulation of original capital as soon as possible, and then wait for an opportunity to get rid of Li Shun''s control, start a new company and make a comeback.


    Thinking of this, I began to look forward to the grand blueprint in front of Dong''Er, constantly giving Dong''Er confidence.


    Maybe Dong''Er saw my anxiety and nervousness, and took the initiative to kiss my forehead, and said softly, "Xiao Ke, don''t think too much, go step by step, don''t put too much pressure on yourself It''s getting late. Go to bed. "


    Dong''Er is sleeping soundly in my arms, but I''m not sleepy. I''m staring at the ceiling with wide eyes.


    Donger''s return has made me feel the pressure that I have never had in the past nine months. Of course, it has also brought me tremendous motivation. The excitement and impulse to start a new business have been completely aroused, and I am determined to start a new rise.


    Of course, the ideal is not a dream. The ideal must be based on reality. At present, what I have to do is to quickly complete the accumulation of original capital without leaving the issuing company. At the same time, I will try my best to break away from Li Shun''s control and rejuvenate myself.


    Qiutong is not mine, but Li Shun''s. floating life is like a dream, and I can never walk into my reality. Since I want to live in this society, I must have a positive reality. The only woman in my reality is Dong''Er! My lost and recovered Dong''Er!


    Although the return of Donger has not been as perfect as before, but I myself, is not the same situation? Dong''Er doesn''t care about the past with me. Do I have to worry about her past all the time?


    Although the love I''m looking for is full of scars, with our past emotional foundation and unforgettable first love, I believe that we can get back the happy feelings and good times in the past.


    I can''t help but think of a sentence I once said: life is struggle, for ideals, career and love.


    At the moment, love is the driving force and catalyst for my struggle, the foundation and powerful energy for my rise again.


    Looking back on my experience in the past nine months, I have many ups and downs in my heart. What is life?


    If life is a straight line, should I go on like this? Since it''s a straight line, why are there bumps?


    If life is a circle, should I break the circle or go around in the same place


    I turned off the bedside lamp, looked at the boundless darkness in front of me, and thought: maybe life is not a straight line. It can''t be a circle!


    Straight line, no end, and life has an end, life is a turning line, but also a multi turning line, the important thing is that you can grasp every turning point, so that every time is full of meaning!


    Life can not be a circle, because people are always growing, constantly enrich themselves, people will never return to the original place.


    The most vulgar thing to say is that when I come to this world, I have nothing, but when I leave, I will have a lot. Even if I can''t take it away, it is the result created by every step of my life, and no one can change it


    After thinking for a long time, I fell asleep.


    The next day, after I got up and washed, I began to make breakfast. After that, I called Dong''Er to get up and wash. Then, we had breakfast together.


    "Are you at work today?" Dong Er asked me while eating.


    "Weekend, no work!" I gave Dong er a bowl of porridge and a poached egg.


    "Oh Today is Saturday? " Donger said.


    "Well, yes!" I said.


    "I''ve been in a muddle all day. I don''t know what week it is." Dong''Er made a mockery of himself.


    I gave a silent smile.


    "What''s the name of Mr. Qiu?" Donger asked me again.


    "Autumn Tung!"


    "Oh It''s a good name, it''s nice to hear, and it''s beautiful. " Dong''Er murmured and then said, "how can you go to work for her?""In order to survive, I went to apply for a job. If they needed someone, I went!" I said.


    "This autumn tree." Dong''Er stopped for a moment, looked at me and said in a half joking tone, "she doesn''t have hidden rules, do you?"


    "What are you talking about? Is that possible? " I said one.


    "Well Do you like her very much? " Dong Er then came up with another sentence.