Of course, my impulse is still under the control of reason, I dare not.


    I have been with Haizhu. I can''t indulge my emotions any more. I must be rational.


    I bowed my head and said, "thank you. I''m wrong. I''ll review it."


    Qiutong suddenly stopped talking. I looked up and she was staring at me.


    I took out a tissue from my pocket and handed it to her. She took it and turned around to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes.


    After a while, Qiutong turned around and said, "let''s go. I don''t want to stay here."


    Just as I was about to leave, I suddenly remembered something and said, "wait a minute, you wait for me here. I''ll do something there."


    Qiu Tong looked up at me and said, "what''s the matter?"


    "It''s convenient for me to go." I grinned.


    "The head rolls furiously:" the face turns red


    I quickly ran to the fourth brother''s shack and saw that there was no one in the shack.


    I took out my pistol and saw that there was no one around, so I wrapped it up as it was and buried it again. Then I ran back to Qiutong, clapped my hands and said, "OK, let''s go!"


    Qiutong and I went out of the woods one after another, crossed the beach, and arrived at Binhai Avenue. I saw Qiutong''s car parked on the side of the road.


    Just as I was about to open the door of the co pilot to get on the bus, Qiu Tong suddenly stopped me, took out the car key and handed it to me: "you come to drive, my mood hasn''t come back, I''m afraid of distraction."


    I took the key and got into the driver''s seat. Qiutong got into the co driver''s seat. I started the car and drove away from the seaside.


    On the way, Qiutong has been speechless, holding his cheek, staring at the front, not speaking, occasionally sighing.


    I know that what Qiutong saw today will definitely bring a great shock to her heart. In peace and prosperity, there are still such a group of people dancing guns, playing tricks, ignoring the law and acting recklessly. Can she understand and accept this?


    I said first: "Qiutong."


    "Well..." She agreed, still holding her cheek, still looking at the road ahead.


    "How did you get here?" I said.


    Qiutong didn''t speak for a long time. After a while, she turned and looked at me: "I received a strange mobile phone message. He told me that you were at the seaside. I don''t know what you''re doing, so I came. As soon as I got to the beach, I saw Li Shun coming with a group of people, so I came with them. "


    So, I feel confused in my heart. Whose is this strange SMS?


    So I asked the number, Qiutong said, but not the number of the fourth brother.


    I guess, is the fourth brother with other numbers sent SMS, mobilize so many people? Or is it wood who arranged for the yellow one? Or someone else?


    I can''t think of it at the moment. I feel some egg pain.


    "Ike."


    "In -"


    Qiutong leaned on the back of his seat, relieved, and then said, "you can''t be so reckless and thoughtless. You can''t think about your own safety and life. But, you know, do you know that you''re not living for yourself, you have parents, you have Haizhu, you have friends and relatives who care about you, do you do that Think of what kind of shock and pain you would bring them if something happened to you. Are you too selfish


    I honestly accept Qiu Tong''s Criticism: "I''m wrong. I''ll change it later."


    "Just now I slapped you. I don''t know how I slapped you. I suddenly lost control. I''m sorry. I''ll apologize to you," Qiu Tong said. "I''ve never slapped anyone since I was young. I don''t know what happened just now. I''m sorry for beating you all of a sudden. In fact, I know that even if you should fight, I am not qualified. "


    Qiu Tong sighed deeply.


    "Don''t apologize. You''re right. You''re good. You should be wrong." I said hastily.


    "Do you still have pain on your face?" Qiu Tong said.


    "No pain, no pain at all, just like touching." I''ll do a relaxed look.


    "You --" Qiu Tong couldn''t help laughing, and tightened his face: "you are poor."


    "I''m not mean, I''m actually very honored," I said. "Everyone''s life has many firsts, the first laugh, the first cry, the first anger The first time you hit someone in your life, I caught up. It''s not easy to get the first time in your life. "


    With these words, I suddenly felt that something was not right, and I was busy.


    Autumn Tong also seems to feel this words some not quite right son, complexion is red, mouth one pursed: "this is not the first time, this is the second time."


    Obviously, Qiu Tong still remembers the first slap.


    I said: "however, I feel it is the first time in my heart. I hope every time is the first time."


    With that, I laughed awkwardly and turned to look at Qiutong. The look on Qiutong''s face was also awkwardly.Yes, there are many firsts in my life. A year ago, I got Qiutong''s first slap. I don''t know if I will get Qiutong''s other firsts.


    When I think of Haizhu, I feel guilty and guilty.


    A week later, Haifeng recovered and was discharged. This week, Yunduo has been taking care of Haifeng in the hospital. Qiutong and I often go to see him.


    I don''t know how, piggy also knows about Haifeng''s injury. He went to the hospital several times to see Haifeng. Every time he saw the clouds there, he left unhappily.


    After Haifeng was discharged from hospital, he and I went to Shenzhen on a business trip before we had a long and detailed talk.


    This week, I never saw Li Shun again. It seems that he suddenly appeared that day and then disappeared again. He spent a lot of time in ningzhou, but he always suddenly appeared in the sea of stars when it was urgent, and some of them were haunted.


    In fact, I am very grateful for Li Shun''s sudden appearance that day. If he didn''t come in time, maybe I am still in Bai Laosan''s water prison, or maybe I have disappeared in this world, mysteriously and quietly. No one knows, including Li Shun, Qiutong Haizhu Yunduo Haifeng, and even general wood, the red capitalist who identified me as a member of the Jianghu.


    That mysterious strange SMS has been bothering me. I want to ask my fourth brother. I sent him SMS several times, but there was no reply. It seems that my fourth brother is missing.


    I don''t know whether wood wants to know. I can''t guess.


    Since I gave a brilliant lecture at the group operation training meeting last time, my reputation in the group operation system has greatly increased. The person in charge of each department of the operation system knows me, knows me, and greets me warmly and politely.


    These department heads are usually arrogant, and generally they are dismissive when they see little people like me, but now their attitude towards me is like spring enthusiasm.


    I feel again that respect comes from strength.


    The time soon came to August 3, 2009, which is still fresh in my memory and unforgettable forever.


    August 3, this day, is my birthday, is my 29th birthday; this day, is the day that Donger once promised to give himself to me completely; this day, is the day that I wandered to the Yalu River on the cruise ship and met Qiutong.


    I''m one year older, and I''ve added an indelible 365 days to my life experience.


    When this day comes, Dong''Er no longer belongs to me. I don''t know who she belongs to now and where she will go in the future.


    This day is coming. I have known Qiutong for a whole year. In the past 365 days, Qiutong has left me the most indelible memory and emotional imprint of my life in reality and virtual world.


    In these 365 days, starting from knowing Qiutong, I have known clouds and Haizhu one after another, ushered in seeing off Donger. In this familiar and strange foreign land, in the middle of my wandering, I feel that I have experienced great changes in career and emotion, as well as hardships and experiences.


    I can''t help feeling the ups and downs of my life, years and experiences.


    At noon, sitting at my desk alone, looking at the date on the calendar and the big "3", I can''t help feeling a little trance. The same "3" can bring me to this world, let me know the woman I will always remember in my life, and almost bury my life through wood''s mouth


    When the mood rises and falls with emotion, I take up my pen and write down some things on the paper:


    once I love, once I hate, once I gather, once I scatter,


    once I get drunk, once I die, and once I return, it''s hard to discuss right and wrong.


    Smile is the flower, cry is the water, love is the dust of the world.


    Do you hear the moon counting your dreams?


    Who do you think the sun laughs at?


    What success or failure, what fame and wealth, who is right and who is wrong.


    Walk fast, walk slowly, walk early, and walk late. They are all made of loess.


    Everyone has that day, tears on the sunset, step on the clouds.


    How many people laugh at me? How many people are sad?


    Repentance is wine, regret is tears.


    There is only one poem that can stand to read and set up my monument.


    A few insects, accompany me to sleep forever


    Writing, sleepy up, unconsciously lying on the table confused in the past.


    Suddenly wake up, suddenly see autumn Tong is standing in front of my desk, is holding my writing in focus.


    He rubbed his eyes, sat up straight and looked at Qiutong.


    Qiu Tong looked at me: "wake up?"


    "Took a nap." I said, "when did you come in?"


    "Just came in, passing by, see you are dozing, casually came in, see what you write, is reading." Qiu Tong took a chair and sat down, looking at me: "Yi Ke, you write very well, I can''t see, you really have literary talent."


    I laughed: "this is not my writing, forget where I saw it, write it down.""You are very honest." Qiu Tong said: "after reading these poems, I feel that you are very touched at the moment, because I am also very touched."


    "Life is just like that." I said: "even if life is one hundred years, it''s only 36000 days. Except childhood, old age and sleep, it''s only more than 10000 days. Life is too hasty. Suddenly I feel at a loss."


    "Yes, life is very hasty, there are many shortcomings, just, don''t be at a loss." Qiu Tong said: "just because life is too hasty, we don''t have to wait until life is perfect. We don''t have to wait until everything is arranged. We can do whatever we want. One can never predict the future. So don''t delay the life we want to live. Don''t be stingy to express the words in our heart, because life is only in an instant.


    "There are many things that have become old things before you know how to cherish them. There are many people who have become old friends before you have time to pay attention to them. There is only one time in life. Regret can''t be made up for. What we should do is not to regret what we have missed, not to mourn, but to seize the time to strive for more opportunities. Live well, it''s good to live. "


    "It''s good to be alive. Is it really good to be alive?" I muttered to myself, "it''s not easy to live."


    "Of course, it''s just because it''s not easy to live that we have to live better." Qiu Tong chuckled: "life in the world, a total of 36000 days, home ten million houses, sleep only three feet wide.". Cherish life! Life is only in a moment. "


    I dry smile, did not make a sound, and then looked at the autumn Tong cold not Ding said: "autumn Tong, today is a few months a few days?"