My heart trembled and sighed deeply.


    "Give me a promise and I''ll cry You give me a love, I will really stand here, reluctant to go Xia Yu said.


    I looked at Xia Yu: "Xia Yu, I''m sorry I can''t give you any commitment You should have your own life. "


    Xia Yu looked at me crazily: "I don''t believe you can''t You can, but you don''t want to


    I bow my head, I know my words hurt Xiayu. I know that life is a process of cutting through thorns and thorns, so everyone has a section of injury at the bottom of his heart. When the injury has occurred, it seems that the only thing he can do is wait for it to heal. It seems that as long as he firmly believes that he can be happy with the scars.


    I can only comfort myself in this way.


    Xia Yu said: "you don''t know that when a person is used to a love, he can''t easily start another love. When a person wants to start a new relationship, the old love habits become the fetters, which are often insurmountable. "


    I looked up at Xia Yu: "I think it''s passable As long as your heart is strong enough. "


    "Unfortunately, I''m not as strong as you think." Xia Yu said: "you are what I can''t guess. I''m at a loss. I''m what you can''t imagine. Because of you, I''ve been serious, changed and sad I''ve told myself many times, don''t struggle for the past, don''t worry about missing, don''t humble myself, I''ve told myself many times, if you don''t care, I don''t love you However, I can''t overcome my inner truth, I can''t surpass myself, I can''t I can''t do it. "


    The sound of summer rain is full of confusion and sadness.


    I said: "summer rain, everything is fate I still hope you can be happy. "


    Xia Yu said gloomily: "fate Fate I know I should believe in fate I know that people''s fate is predestined, we can''t change it. Just like some people, the past life is doomed to this life, but it can''t be changed. When I met you, I knew that I had a premonition that we would experience an extraordinary story, but I''m not sure whether we can interpret this story completely, who will be added in the middle, and what will happen, and I can''t know I''m an ordinary person, but I''m experiencing extraordinary stories. I''m an ordinary person, but I''m performing a hard and unforgettable memory Are these really just memories? "


    The voice of summer rain is full of distress and struggle.


    I said: "summer rain, we are ordinary people, we can only accept reality, respect reality."


    Xia Yu was silent again. After a while, she stood up and said, "only the dream knows what I long for, and only the dream allows me to own greedily."


    Then, the voice of summer rain choked.


    I dare not look up at the summer rain.


    Xia Yu then turned and walked to the side of the road, where there was a Mercedes Benz. She drove directly and left me and Lao Li alone.


    I watched Xia Yu leave, stood up, walked slowly to Lao Li and sat down.


    "Are there many fish here?" I asked Lao Li.


    "You have bullied my daughter away?" Lao Li did not answer me, but asked me a question.


    "I I didn''t bully her We talked for a while, and then She''s gone. " I stammered.


    Lao Li looked at the sea and said in a deep voice, "Xiao Ke, you are my son, she is my daughter, she is your sister, you are her brother I have only one daughter. You are not allowed to bully her. "


    "Well..." I nodded and agreed.


    "I understand what happened between you. Although I don''t say it, it doesn''t mean I don''t understand." Said Lao Li.


    "Well..." I answered again.


    When Lao Li doesn''t tease me, I sometimes feel that Lao Li is very dignified. That dignity is not made, but a kind of temperament and momentum that I can''t help emitting. This momentum makes me feel awe and fear for him.


    "Alas..." Lao Li sighed, as if with some helplessness, and some affection for the summer rain.


    I can''t help but feel uneasy


    Lao Li said slowly: "in fact, I know that everyone has a barrier in his heart and a knot in his heart There is always a person hidden in the center of everyone''s life. Maybe this person will never know. However, this person can never be replaced. And that person is like a scar that can never be healed. No matter when it is raised or touched lightly, it will hurt faintly, even to the bone. "


    Lao Li''s words moved my heart. I couldn''t help thinking of Qiu Tong.


    "Life is like this. The curtain of life stage may open at any time. The key is whether you are willing to perform or choose to avoid." Lao Li added: "in a person''s life, there will always be someone shuttling through your life without leaving any trace. It''s plain and simple. You may have known each other for many years, but your feelings are always as peaceful as water. No matter how many times you leave each other, when you come back to this city, it''s still the same at first sight. Never felt alienated. I don''t know what this strange feeling is. It''s so shallow that it''s not painful; it''s so deep that when you recall it, you''ll find it everywhere. "A burst of unspeakable sadness and great loss suddenly welled up in my heart


    Lao Li looked at me: "are you confused at this time?"


    I said: "Lao Li, what is confusion?"


    Lao Li said, "a long time ago, there was no language in this world. The world, very quiet, very pure. With language and communication between people, troubles, sadness and doubts come one after another. With the convenience of modern communication, language information can be sent thousands of miles away in an instant. As long as you are willing, you can talk about unhappiness, anger and ups and downs.


    "I thought that a lot of puzzles in life could be dispelled and a lot of pain could be found. However, there is still so much sorrow, so much sorrow. Why? It''s because of some desired but uncertain expectations, because of some panic in the chaos with different opinions, because of some dark mood that can''t touch the end So there is confusion. This is confusion. "


    I nodded as if I knew nothing.


    "Xiao Ke, tell me, why are you confused?" Lao Li said.


    I didn''t speak for a moment. Yes, why should I be confused? I always feel that no amount of words can reach the desolation in my mind, and no amount of expression can witness the desolation in my heart. So, I said to myself, no one will understand themselves, no one can trust, and even once lost themselves, blurred who they are, forget where they are and where they want to go.


    Those feelings condensed due to the loss, like a low Wan song, constantly singing the sadness of falling silence. Floating melancholy, shaking like slender tentacles, unscrupulously drilling into the skin pores, stretching like vines, winding into the heart and lungs, let me suffocate, let me pain, let me numb.


    Because of confusion and chaos, because of chaos and wandering, when the pain comes in all directions, language has become a burden. So I''m silent, I''m lonely, I''m lonely. I quietly leave the bustling, take away all the pain, a person pain. I cautiously rigid with a variety of expressions, for fear that a casual will reveal the secret of my heart, gradually, will be happy with their own fall farther and farther. It seems that I don''t want to get it, but I can''t see the opportunity.


    Is that why I am confused?


    I didn''t seem willing to say this in front of Lao Li, so I kept silent.


    Seeing that I didn''t speak, Lao Li said, "don''t know or do you know but don''t want to say? I guess you know it but don''t want to say it. Since you don''t want to say it, I''ll tell you that emptiness, uncertainty, negativity and decadence are the reasons for confusion. "


    I looked at Lao Li in amazement.


    Looking at the sea slowly, Lao Li said, "I am no longer confused. Because confused, so missed. Because confused, so lost. Finally, when a confused attitude is embedded in a person''s life, is it he who spoils life, or does life ravage him? I don''t know, because he is confused


    "The stars change, the world changes, but why does fate always reincarnate in a similar path? So some people began to feel helpless: is it impossible to get out of this confused swamp? Let it sink. "


    I took a deep breath and said, "I have fallen I''ve been working hard. "


    "I mean to sink, obviously it''s not your job." Lao Li said faintly.


    I see. Lao Li is talking about my emotions. Yes, I am sinking in the emotional world


    "But a lot of times, confusion is just an excuse to escape! Do you realize that? The answer never comes uninvited. Life, there is not so much helpless. Has the consolation obtained by asking for it degenerated into a kind of pity? If it is, it will not help the existing wounds at all, on the contrary, it will make things worse. So, are you willing to linger in the excuse, or crawl forward? " Said Lao Li.


    I meditated.


    "Sometimes, confusion, as a kind of mood catharsis, can balance our hearts. There''s nothing wrong with it. Confused, many times, just like the dark clouds and rainstorms in front of the rainbow and the darkness around the film, it is with beauty and brilliance. In a word, confusion is also an expression of people, a kind of interpretation and interpretation of happiness, anger, sadness and happiness, which is indispensable. However, if the confusion rises to the medium of escape, it becomes an excuse. Excuse, final deceit, still oneself


    Lao Li''s words beat my fragile nerves.


    Finally, Lao Li added: "confusion makes our life as flat and tasteless as water, but it''s everywhere. As time goes by, the water seeps into the sea, and only we can ferry ourselves to the other side. So, shine your eyes, don''t let confusion bewitch you. Only when you have a shore in your heart can you have a ferry, a boat and a tomorrow. "


    Then Lao Li concentrated on fishing and ignored me.


    I sat cross legged beside Lao Li and fell into a long meditation


    Lao Li and I stayed at the seaside until sunset.When I left the seaside, I noticed a black car parked not far away. There seemed to be several people in the car.


    Seeing that I was paying attention to them, the car quickly left


    Lao Li didn''t seem to see them. He broke up with me calmly and left under the escort of the personal security guard.


    That night, I was in the dormitory myself.


    Haizhu went on a business trip in the afternoon and went to Yanji with Kong Kun.


    At midnight, I was in deep sleep when my mobile phone suddenly rang.


    In this silent midnight, cell phone ringtones are particularly harsh.


    I touch my cell phone and answer it directly.


    "Second master, no No, something''s wrong! " The voice of Xia Yu''s panic came from the phone.