I keep looking down.


    "Second master, sing a nursery rhyme to you: I''m a clay doll, clay doll. I can''t speak there. Passers-by smile at me. I''m happy. I''m a clay doll, clay doll. No matter how hard it is, I''ll watch him there. I''m a clay doll, clay doll. I just want you to stop and have a rest. I can''t speak, But I can listen, I''m a clay doll, clay doll, I''m just lonely, I just want to have someone to accompany me, I''m just a clay doll who doesn''t speak


    "It''s over, isn''t it good? Unfortunately, you can''t hear my voice, you can only see Alas


    "Second master, how are you? How''s big milk? What about big milk? Is it still clinging to you as always? Ah - I often feel lonely and lost here without you. Apart from thinking about you, I often think of sister Qiu Xiaoxue and cloud Also often think of big milk before big milk


    "I know that qiujie Xiaoxue cloud will always think of me, they will, I also know that big milk before big milk will think of me, but they will feel relaxed because of my leaving, but they may not completely relax. After all, although my most powerful opponent left, there is still fierce competition between them Competitive


    "In fact, where would they think that although I am far away, I am still the most powerful competitor It''s just that I''m not as stubborn as they are, and I have to value a position or monopolize it I''m not greedy, am I? Hee hee


    "Of course, I know that it must be you who miss me most, just as it is me who miss you most. Is it narcissistic of me to say that? Yes, I know I am narcissistic, but I must be narcissistic, otherwise, I will lose my spiritual support, I will collapse, I must force myself to narcissism, only in this narcissism, I can find comfort and relief.


    "Well I''m a poor man, aren''t I? Sometimes I really feel sorry for myself. My good second wife is beaten by my father Li


    "In fact, I should have written to you long ago, but I didn''t write until I finished the clay doll yesterday. I stayed in my room alone for a long time. Looking at the three clay dolls in a daze, I suddenly cried and cried very sad


    "In fact, I''ve been writing to you for a long time, but I''ve always been very ambivalent. I don''t know whether I should write to you or not.


    "At this time, I was drinking. I was writing to you and drinking, though I didn''t drink much. At this time, I seem to feel drunk, because of you. To drink away one''s worries is to worry even more. Second master, I can''t forget you. I can''t let you go. I can''t live without you. How terrible the world is without you, I would have nothing without you


    "You know what? At this time, I am crying, this is the most weak and incompetent performance, isn''t it? Will you laugh at me? Do I love you? Second master, do you know how tired I am? Now it''s late autumn weather. Silly, I''m full of you on such a night. I think I should go to sleep, but your voice reverberates in my ears and I can''t help it. "


    I couldn''t help sighing, lighting a cigarette and looking down.


    "Second master, little Ke, brother At this time, my heart suddenly very contradictory, I am afraid, because I have not written a love letter, also do not know how to let you understand now this really me, for you, how can I always feel lost without having? My feeling now is helpless and hesitating, there are too many words I want to tell you, I am so deliberately hidden, I really want to have a special place in your heart


    "Many times I look forward to the stillness of time. At the moment when you have me, I won''t let you leave me for any reason and go to other places to find new stories. After all, this is not a myth. The ticking of the clock reminds me clearly. In fact, I have been simply longing for you to say like me, love me, I want the real thing in your heart I think I deserve it!


    "Second master, I cry again. Maybe you will laugh at me again. In fact, you may never understand my heart. I keep my promise. As long as I can do it, I will make it successful. Everything I said to you is true. What I pursue is true love, eternal life, not three kinds of blood, which is a kind of eternity and the will of everyone with good knowledge.


    "Yes, I understand very clearly. From the moment I first met you, I knew that you were the man I was looking for in my life. I knew very well and told myself that I would follow you until the end of my life. Although I tell myself so, but at the moment I, I am so far away from you, this is how contradictory things


    "I love you so deeply that you can''t escape this heavy missing. In the tears, I choked and said the feeling of deep feeling, but also regretfully complained about my undefended love, which made you drown and want to escape again and again. Let you be free! I promise you that. With the blood in my heart as an oath, until I learn how to love you, I finally know what is the way to love you, but I accept it without regret. As long as you are happy, as long as you are happy enough."Second master, I deeply implore you, don''t drive me out of your love door, I can''t lack your love for a second. Only when I get your love, my life will be glorious. There is no way to replace the feeling of missing you with one sentence. Although I know the pain of Acacia, I am willing to bear the wonderful pain. Yes, you have many choices. There are many excellent women around you, but I believe in myself! Because no one will love you more than I do!


    "Xiaoke, don''t ask me how much I love you. Xiaoyu really can''t say it. All I know is that you have become a habit in my life, an indispensable habit. Every day, I can''t eat or sleep, but I can''t help thinking about you. Really, I hate my so-called single-minded. All the time, I say to myself, can''t I really find his shadow? But it seems that I am wrong again. In fact, my love is born for you. How can I find someone who can replace me?


    "Maybe the onlookers around will say that we will not have results, we have no beginning and no end. In fact, I don''t know that you are just a distant and difficult dream. But I couldn''t convince myself. I''m stupid. My friends around me also say that there are many men in the world. There will be one as good as you. But I have no intention to find. I said no matter who it is, he is not you after all! Not my second master


    "I know that if I don''t write to you again, maybe I won''t write in the future. In that case, I think I will regret it all my life. So, I picked up the pen, of course, I know, you have the right not to love me, but you have no right to stop me from loving you, no matter whether you will really love me, I will try my best to fight for it. My world is wonderful because of you! I am a woman who will make you happy. I don''t think you will give up a person who really loves you


    "Think of someone said, there is a kind of pain, you do not understand, I can use a smile to cover up, with indifference packaging. This kind of pain, you don''t understand, because we are at the end of the road, you indulge in your world, I stick in my heart. But some people have never been with you, but you can go far away. Missed people and things, do not have to look back; scabby scars, do not need to repeatedly touch. Many things are just a kind of game. There is no need to take them seriously. "


    Seeing this, I sighed again, put out the cigarette end and continued to look down.


    "Second master, don''t say these heavy words. I''m really tired. I''m tired, and I''ll make you tired too In fact, I know that the road of life is very long, no matter how we choose, we have to move towards maturity, and we are all going towards the end. I understand that if you want to learn to constantly deny yourself, the world is right and we are wrong, and gradually eliminate young paranoia and frivolity; if you want to learn to observe others and cultivate tolerance and magnanimity, in fact, there is no absolute right or wrong, it depends on how broad your mind is; if you want to learn to be simple, you will not be too complicated if you are simple to the world.


    "Hee hee, I think I''m happy again, because I''ve been looking at these three clay dolls when I read this letter. They are lovely clay dolls. The craft of the mistress is good. It''s really good. You know, I made two sets of clay dolls, one for you and one for myself


    "Don''t worry, I will lose sleep. When I go to bed at night, I will put the clay doll by my pillow and let you and Xiao Ke go to sleep with me, so that I can sleep well You should also take good care of our clay dolls You should always look at me and see Xiao Ke Although we have a small gram now, I think there will be some in the future


    "Second master, I think I''m going to sleep. Before I go to bed, I''ll sing another song of clay doll to you, which is also for me and our little Ke Ke:


    clay doll clay doll, a clay doll;


    also has eyebrows and eyes, and eyes blink.


    Clay doll, clay doll, a clay doll;


    also has the nose and the mouth, the mouth can talk.


    He is a real doll, not a fake one;


    he has a dear mother and a silly father.


    Mud doll, mud doll, a mud doll;


    the second master is his father, the second wife is his mother, and he will always love him.... "


    After reading Xia Yu''s letter, I look up at the sky, the sun is a little harsh, I can''t help rubbing my eyes


    In the distance, there came an old song: why do you say goodbye? What do you say together? Now, although I don''t have you, I am still myself


    Collect the letter from Xia Yu and put it in the box with the mud doll. Then I stand up and plan to leave with my lonely and melancholy heart.


    Turning around, I saw Lao Li standing not far behind me. He was looking at me quietly, with a gentle look.


    I went over and looked at Lao Li: "you Isn''t he gone? "


    "Can''t you come back after you leave?" Lao Li said.


    I took a deep breath and nodded, "yes."


    "You I don''t seem to be in a good mood. " Lao Li said.


    I silently looked at Lao Li for a moment and said, "I''m leaving."


    Lao Li nodded.


    I turned and walked away slowly. After a long walk, I looked back and saw Lao Li still standing there looking at meI gritted my teeth and walked away quickly.


    It seems that everything just happened was just an episode. I have a lot to think about now, and the top priority is the golden triangle.


    Across a few roads, unconsciously to the people''s Square in front of the Xinghai municipal government.


    A road separates the square from the Xinghai municipal government building. On one side is the modern square with beautiful atmosphere and green grass, and on the other side is the municipal government building with rich historical flavor. Although Xinghai economy is very developed, it has not built a luxury office building. It has been working in this old building with decades of years.


    The music fountain in the square is blowing, and the huge water column rises and falls one after another with the rhythm of the music, changing different postures, causing bursts of praise from the surrounding audience.


    In the crowd watching the music fountain, I inadvertently saw Qiutong and Xiaoxue. Qiutong holds Xiaoxue''s hand, and they are concentrating on watching the fountain. Xiaoxue is excited and cheering from time to time.


    I didn''t disturb them in the past. I stopped not far behind them and watched the beautiful water column sway in the sky


    At this time, my mobile phone rang, from Fang Aiguo.


    "Report to deputy commander in chief, the latest news is coming from the base camp." Fang Aiguo said.


    "Say --" I answered briefly.