The man in front of the bed was still sitting there, as if he had been thinking.


    Although Lin Yaru and I are silent under the bed, they are interwoven and trembling in silence.


    It seems that Lin Yaru is not conservative. It seems that she does not exclude me. She even caters to me. It seems that she likes what I do to her. It seems that she encourages me to do it


    I can''t control myself. I feel like I''m on fire


    All of a sudden, my brain is in a cold war and suddenly wakes up -


    What am I doing? What the hell am I doing? What am I doing to my women?


    What''s the difference between me and animals? Who am I right for doing this? Can I live in Haizhu next door? Am I right for Qiutong who lives in Xinghai? Can I live up to Lin Yaru''s respect for me? Isn''t that self destructive? How can I work with Lin Yaru in the future?


    Even if Lin Yaru didn''t resist, even if she would, even if she encouraged me to do so, I can''t go on like this. I''m playing with fire!


    Damn it. How could I do that? I did it! What the hell am I doing?


    Deeply remorseful, I stopped.


    Gently adjust the breathing, I try to control their ideas, do not let their own wishful thinking.


    I finally calmed down and fixed my eyes on the brown shoes.


    After a while, Lin Yaru seemed to calm down, and her body was not so hot.


    We lay quietly under the bed, Lin Yaru lay in my arms, we quietly looked out of the bed


    After a while, the man finally stood up and seemed to hear him take a deep breath. Then he went out. Then the lights went out, the door was closed, and the footsteps went away


    I was relieved, and so was Lin Yaru.


    "Get out." I whispered in Lin Yaru''s ear.


    "Well..." Lin Yaru agreed, but her body didn''t move.


    I patted her with my hand: "my limbs are numb."


    "Puchi -" in the dark, Lin Yaru gave a light smile, and then moved her body out.


    After Lin Yaru went out, I moved my lower limbs and then came out.


    In the dark, Lin Yaru and I stood face to face.


    In the dark, I can''t see Lin Yaru''s face. I don''t know if her face turns red.


    "Yes Sorry Just now I... " I stammered.


    When Lin Yaru turned on her flashlight, I saw that her face turned red. Her eyes were looking at me, and her lips were pursing tightly.


    Facing her eyes, I became more and more uneasy. I hated what I had just done. At this time, I really wanted to slap myself in the face.


    "I''m sorry I''m sorry I continued to apologize, more and more embarrassed.


    Lin Ya Ru suddenly laughed silently, and then said softly, "deputy commander in chief, you are welcome. What happened just now? I don''t know. "


    "This..." I''m a little flustered.


    Lin Ya Ru laughed again, her face flushed, and continued to say in a low voice: "actually Actually Just now, I didn''t blame you I''m voluntary. "


    My heart can''t help but jump up again. I don''t know what to say for a moment.


    "Since I volunteered, and since I didn''t mean to blame the Deputy commander-in-chief, the Deputy commander-in-chief doesn''t have to think about it any more. He doesn''t have to be upset." Lin Yaru made some disheveled hair and said.


    "Oh..." I looked at Lin Yaru foolishly.


    "Just think that nothing happened just now, just think that it is." Lin Yaru laughed again.


    I grinned.


    Looking at me, Lin Yaru couldn''t help laughing again and said, "well, deputy commander in chief, don''t do this again, although just now We did that. Although I was voluntary just now, I still won''t let myself go too far. I won''t allow myself to do something wrong with sister Haizhu, and I won''t let our relationship break through the bottom line between the superior and the subordinate. Just now, I think it''s a very special episode at a very special moment. "


    Lin Yaru seems to be very open-minded, seems to do things very well.


    "It''s gone, it''s gone We Let''s keep working. " Lin Yaru said.


    I nodded, looked back and said, "the man just now Who is it? "


    Lin Yaru frowned and did not speak.


    "He has the key to the room." I said.


    "It is estimated that It should be him... " Lin Yaru said.


    "You mean Zhang Xiaotian?" I said.


    Lin Yaru nodded: "I guess so, but I''m not 100% sure!"


    "If it''s him, what''s he doing here? How could he have the key to Kong Kun''s room? " I said.


    "As for Kun, it''s not easy for him to find the key to every room, but he doesn''t know why he''s here for half a day." Lin Yaru said.Lin Yaru''s analysis is reasonable. I nodded.


    Then, Lin Yaru and I continued to search the room separately. After a long time, we found nothing of value.


    At this time, I took out the notebook and opened it. Lin Yaru lit it with a flashlight.


    The notebook is Kong Kun''s diary, which is not recorded every day, intermittently, but daily work account.


    I flipped down a few pages and suddenly stopped.


    There is a paragraph on this page: she is very good to me and she trusts me very much. The more so, the more I feel uneasy and feel sorry for her. However, I like him so much that I can''t deny that I like him so much. What should I do? What should I do? What should I do?


    I bit my lip and Lin Yaru looked at me.


    I continued to turn down and saw another paragraph: that she gave me a lot of benefits, let me monitor her every move, although I don''t want to, but I can''t make myself not to do it, because I don''t seem to want to see her with him, although I know I don''t want to see him with her, but I can only do it, my love How contradictory I am


    Obviously, the two here are not the same person she is referring to.


    I continued to look down and saw another passage: the devil forced me to work for him. If I didn''t want to, I would die without a place to die. I don''t want to die. I want to live well. I want to live happily If I agree to his request, I will get great benefits. However, I feel sorry for her and even worse for him. However, I can''t resist the temptation of those banknotes. I need money too much


    In addition, the devil promised me that he would only work for him. In addition to giving me great material benefits, he also promised that I would not hurt him. Besides that, he also promised me to help me realize my wish to be with him, help me defeat her and her, defeat all her So, I have no choice, I can only promise the devil, can only believe him No one can say these words. I can only write them to myself here


    Seeing this, I seem to understand something.


    Lin Yaru looked at me and nodded. Obviously, she also understood.


    I continue to look down: I don''t know whether I will be discovered one day, whether he will know my identity one day, and once I am discovered, I don''t know what my fate will be But I know that he will hate me to death. All the friends around him will despise me and hate me


    At that time, how to face, how to survive, I will live to leave here? I want to try to convince myself, try to comfort myself, and tell myself that I do things for love and for survival. However, I clearly know how powerless, hypocritical and despicable my comfort is. But I know that, but I still can''t resist those temptations, those about material and love


    Am I crazy? Am I really crazy? Maybe I''m not crazy, maybe I''m the most calm one, because I know what I''m doing, because I know that what I''m doing may be what I should do. Even if I don''t do it, there will be others to do it. Instead of doing it like this, it''s better for me to do it well


    Of course, I hope that the devil is really like what he said, the purpose is just to defeat his real opponent with the help of the information I provide, and will not hurt her and him I hope it''s true. I hope it must be true I''m afraid of having nightmares, so I press these words under my pillow and accompany me all the time. I hope this can protect me and make me feel safe


    Seeing this, I took a breath and looked at Lin Yaru.


    "A woman crazy about money, a despicable woman in the name of love On the one hand, she is doing bad things, on the other hand, she is comforting herself. It seems that she is working for two people at the same time Lin Yaru said with slight disdain.


    Lin Yaru saw it through.


    I kept turning down and there was no more.


    I closed my notebook, put it back, and meditated.


    "What to do?" Lin Yaru said.


    "I''ll think about it before I make a decision." I said.


    "Oh..." Lin Yaru looked at me and said nothing.


    "What do you want to say?" I said.


    "I think Can we turn around and use her to do things for us Lin Yaru said.


    My heart jumped and looked at Lin Yaru.


    "You mean, use her instead." I said.


    "Yes." Lin Yaru nodded.


    "Then she''s getting deeper and deeper. Once her opponent finds out, isn''t she more dangerous? Even, she''s dead!" I said.


    "Such a woman, this is the inevitable outcome, what a pity!" Lin Yaru''s tone is a little cold: "for the ghost, the revolutionary army has always been disciplined."


    I understand what Lin Yaru said about discipline, that is, execution. Li Shun has always been very strict with his insiders, and has never been soft handed.


    Thinking of this, I had a cold war in my heart.


    "If she refuses to work for us, if the Deputy commander-in-chief is reluctant to do anything, then I will do it." Lin Yaru said easily.I looked at Lin Yaru for a few seconds and didn''t speak.


    "Ask the deputy commander in chief to make a decision!" Lin Yaru said.


    I took a deep breath: "Lin Yaru, am I your officer?"


    "Yes," Lin Yaru said simply.


    "Will you listen to me?" I said.


    "Listen," said Lin.


    "Well, then, it''s up to me to deal with it, and you''ll follow my command in everything." I said.


    "Yes," said Lin.


    "Don''t report this to the headquarters for the time being!" I keep an eye on Lin Yaru.