"Ike, do you love life?" After a while, Qin Lu asked me.


    I nodded: "yes And you? "


    "I Although there are all kinds of disappointments in my life, and although I am often entangled by some troubles, I have always loved life infinitely. I have never been pessimistic about my fate, and I have never had any idea of world weariness


    "You know what? I feel the most incredible thing is why someone will commit suicide. It''s good to live. Although it will be tired and bitter, it''s better to live than to die. Life is so precious. Why do some people commit suicide? It''s really hard to understand. " Qin Lu said.


    I said: "you have a good mentality, very sunny Yes, life is very precious. You can''t give it up easily Everyone needs to have a positive attitude like you. "


    Qin Lu said with a smile: "I know that a person''s life is not only for himself, but also for his side. He cares about himself and loves his friends and relatives. He must have a sense of responsibility and give up his life at will. This is not only irresponsible to himself, but also irresponsible to his friends and relatives who love him. After all, those who commit suicide, I think People who lack a sense of responsibility And I am a responsible person, so I will never have the idea of suicide


    "You know, I once heard a mage say that if a person dies abnormally, he will be very painful afterwards. Including suicide and accidental death, it can be very painful. I will feel the painful experience of death every seven days after death, and I will feel it 500 times before I enter the next cycle. Especially suicide. If it''s a Tantric practitioner, suicide is a crime of killing Buddha. It''s very, very serious, and it''s a prisoner in hell


    "There is a saying in Buddhism: after suffering, the bitterness comes to the end; after enjoying happiness, the happiness comes to the end Many people''s current sufferings are mainly caused by some bad things they have done in their previous lives. If they can''t repent or remove the suffering and karma they should bear, it''s useless to avoid them. Moreover, if they want to avoid them, even if they temporarily avoid them, then the original sufferings will increase during this period of time, and the sufferings will be heavier when they feel them, and suicide will be even more bitter It''s bitter, it''s painful


    I couldn''t help laughing: "well It''s good for you to think so. In fact, I can see that you are a person with a sense of responsibility, and I know that you are not a person who avoids confusion. "


    Although I say that, I think of Xie Fei in my heart. Qin Lu says that she has a sense of responsibility. So, is she responsible for Xie Fei? A person with a sense of responsibility should be selfless, but Qin Lu obviously has her own selfishness.


    It seems that I think too much, especially at such a time.


    However, what Qin Lugang just said impressed me deeply. I remember it firmly.


    I don''t know why I remember her words so firmly.


    Sometimes there is no reason for some things.


    "I''m tired I''m going to have a rest. " Qin Lu said.


    "Good You rest, you sleep I''ll cover her up.


    "Tonight You''re suffering a lot. You''re working hard. You can sleep a little Qin Lu said.


    "Good." I nodded.


    "Go to bed. You can''t sleep well on the sofa." Qin Lu said.


    I''m a little hesitant.


    "Do you have any worries at this time?" Qin Lu looked at me with quiet eyes.


    I couldn''t help laughing awkwardly and saying, "OK, I''ll go to bed."


    "The bed is big enough, you can lie beside me. With you lying beside me, I will feel very safe. After this night, you will leave at dawn I''ll feel the peace of this short moment, and I''ll sleep soundly. " Qin Lu said.


    I didn''t speak. I went to bed directly, slept beside Qin Lu, and kept a proper distance from Qin Lu''s body.


    Qin Lu sighed slightly: "turn off the light, go to sleep."


    I reached out and turned off the light. The room was dark.


    Where I lay still, Qin Lu beside me didn''t make a sound.


    It seems that she really fell asleep.


    I was slightly relieved, staring at the ceiling in the dark in a daze


    Unconsciously, I was confused in the past.


    Confused, I began to dream, dream of rainy days on the road, suddenly out of a lot of toads, yes, toads! The toads were disgusting and strangely shaped, like the shape of an open umbrella, and then I kept stepping on them. Although I tried to avoid them, I couldn''t achieve it.


    "And then it was even more terrible. When I finally got to the end, I stopped and suddenly found several toads hanging on my arms, holding the edge of my clothes! Take a closer look, those toads are not holding my clothes, but the tail of a gecko. Those geckos are clinging to me


    Finish a nightmare, and then another, one after another nightmare, constantly surging in my dream, one more terribleI didn''t wake up in the nightmare, and I was nervous and free of fear in the terrifying dream


    Is nervous in the terrible fear of entanglement, ear suddenly rang out a burst of rapid bang bang bang the sound of knocking on the door.


    I opened my eyes and sat up abruptly. I saw the light in the room was on and light came in through the curtains.


    It''s daybreak.


    Qin Lu was lying there, staring at the ceiling in a daze. When she saw me wake up, her eyes turned and looked at me.


    It seemed that she didn''t hear any knocking at the door.


    At this time, the knock on the door rang again. Someone was really knocking on the door.


    Who''s knocking at the door? My heart suddenly tense up -


    just wake up from the nightmare, I am very worried that the person knocking on the door will be the last person I want to meet at this time.


    If that is the case, the situation will be unmanageable.


    Qin Lu looked at me and said softly, "go and open the door. My cousin is here. I sent her a short message in the early morning Her family is in the countryside of Xinghai. "


    As if to verify Qin Lu''s words, a girl''s voice was heard outside the door: "cousin, it''s me..."


    I took a long breath and felt relieved. Look at the time. It''s 9 o''clock in the morning. Unconsciously, I slept so long in a nightmare.


    I immediately got out of bed, simply arranged my clothes, and then went to the door to open the door.


    There was a 20-year-old girl standing at the door. She looked honest. When she saw me, she was stunned, and then looked at the number of the door.


    "You''re right. Qin Lu is in it." I said with a sweet face.


    "Come in, cousin." Qin Lu continued.


    The girl was relieved and gave me a friendly smile. Then I dodged. She came in and I closed the door.


    "What''s the matter with you, cousin?" After the girl came in, she asked Qin Lu and went to her bed.


    Qin Lu tried to smile: "nothing, just a little uncomfortable. I''ll talk to you later."


    The girl looked at Qin Lu, looked at me again, and then kept silent.


    Qin Lu then looked at me: "you go, go to work, don''t delay your business, there is a cousin in, I''m ok, you can rest assured."


    It seems that Qin Lu doesn''t want her cousin to know who I am. Qin Lu didn''t call my name.


    I nodded: "then I''ll go."


    "Well Remember what I told you, remember what you promised me Qin Lu said.


    I said, "well You can rest assured. "


    My heart is a little heavy.


    "You go." Qin Lu said.


    So I went out. My cousin and I went to the door. After I opened the door and went out, I looked back at my cousin. She gave me a sweet smile: "go, big brother."


    Although she didn''t know my name, she knew to call me big brother, a very polite child.


    I gave her a smile: "that Qin Lu here will be more hard for you."


    When I say this, I feel that something is wrong. It sounds as if I am Qin Lu or have a special relationship with Qin Lu.


    "You''re welcome. My cousin and I are our own family. We can''t talk about hard work." My cousin said politely.


    I had nothing to say, so I left, and my cousin closed the door.


    I took a long breath and went directly to the elevator entrance. I was about to press the elevator button. After thinking about it, I drew back my hand and went down the stairs directly.


    I was walking down the stairs when my cell phone rang. At this time is the quiet stairwell, cell phone ringtones particularly harsh.


    I can''t help shaking all over.


    It seems that my shaking is due to everything that happened last night, including my constant nightmares. I don''t seem to be free from that mood.


    Touch out the mobile phone, a look, is Haizhu call.


    Relieved, he began to answer: "a Zhu -"


    "brother, it''s not good. Something big happened in the company." Haizhu has some panic sounds.


    Of course, I know why Haizhu is in a panic, and I also know what she said is the major event of the company. Calmly, I said to Haizhu, "ah Zhu, don''t be in a panic. What''s the matter? Slowly, what''s the major event of the company?"


    "Kong Kun, she She said Haizhu stammered.


    "What happened to Kong Kun?" I said.


    "Kong Kun, she resigned suddenly and left In addition to her, there are also three travel agencies and hotel employees who suddenly quit and left at the same time. " Haizhu said.


    "Oh Kong Kun resigned, and several other employees also resigned. " I said.


    "Yes, it''s OK for those employees to resign, but Kong Kun She didn''t say anything in advance, and suddenly left I left without knowing She didn''t even call me or send me a text message. " Haizhu said.


    "Where is Kong Kun?" I said.


    "I don''t know." Haizhu''s voice was very dejected.


    "Why did she leave suddenly?" I said."I don''t know." Haizhu said: "she has been doing well. I didn''t expect that there was anything wrong with her. She didn''t even say hello. She said that she would leave without a trace She How could she I always treat her as a good sister. How can she treat me like this... "


    Haizhu''s voice was a little sad, as if she was going to cry.