"Yes, there''s no choice but to fight in the back!" Qin Lu''s tone is very simple.


    I lit a cigarette and smoked in silence.


    "Do you think I''m mean, selfish, shameless, cruel and cold?" Qin Lu said.


    I looked at Qin Lu and didn''t speak.


    "I know that''s what you think, that''s what you think." Qin Lu said.


    I smile bitterly.


    Qin Lu was silent for a moment and said slowly: "in fact, I know how helpless, how emotional, how complicated and how sad life is. Noisy floating world, want to pursue a lot, can belong to me very little, so I don''t want to struggle for some things. I will not choose to put down, will not be relaxed; I will not choose quiet, will not abandon the dust.


    "I don''t want to understand thoroughly after countless struggles. I know that the happiest state in life is not to lose myself in the cold and cruel life. I don''t want to lose myself, I don''t want to hurt myself, I don''t want to neglect myself, I want to give myself a real account, which is acceptance."


    "Accept what? Who will accept it? " I said.


    "Accept this fact, accept what has happened, accept the fact that everyone can''t change:" Qin Lu said: "who will accept it? I, Guan Yunfei and Xie Fei have to accept it, and of course, everyone around us Acceptance is an unchangeable ending. "


    I looked at Qin Lu with incredible eyes, listening to her high theory, it seems that what she said is very reasonable, it seems that her reason is very sufficient. But it seems that she is using far fetched defense and explanation to cover up her more and more serious anxiety and uneasiness. This kind of anxiety and uneasiness has been entangled in her heart. She has no one to talk about, no one to talk about, and can only be deeply buried in her heart, and has no chance to be released.


    Qin Lu''s mental pressure is actually great. I feel that she seems to be on the verge of collapse.


    It seems that Qin Lu is not the only one. I''m afraid Guan Yunfei''s spirit will soon be broken down by Qin Lu.


    It seems that Xie Fei''s mental state may not be very calm.


    Qin Lu continued: "in fact, in this world, everyone is striving for a perfect life. Similarly, I also want my life to be perfect. I want a happy marriage, I want a real love person, and I want all my ideals to come true. However, I also know that there is no absolutely perfect thing in this world. Therefore, some people say that it is permanent to have regrets, and life is incomplete.


    "That is to say, there is the best state before the full moon. Leave a little room for expansion and a little full space for monotony. But I don''t think so. I insist on my own ideas. I don''t want any regrets and imperfections. Therefore, I must learn to accept, learn to continue, accept, let go, let go; continue, let go, let go; change what can be changed, accept what can''t be changed. "


    I heard a little dizzy, said: "your words seem to be very philosophical, I do not understand."


    "It doesn''t matter whether you understand me or not. For you, just understand my heart!" Qin Lu said, holding out her hand, holding my hand on the table, and then looking at me warmly.


    Qin Lu''s eyes are hot, but her hands are cold.


    I gently pulled out my hand, looked at Qin Lu and said, "do you really think that your life will be perfect? Do you really think that''s what everybody thinks? "


    Qin Lu looked at me and said, "I really want to tell you something."


    "You said I lit another cigarette.


    "Live your own life and don''t ask others for it by your own standards." Qin Lu said.


    I was at a loss for a moment.


    Qin Lu continued: "don''t ask others by your own standards, and don''t look at people with colored glasses. Because everyone has their own preferences and personality, as well as the value of life. What you don''t like is not bad. To borrow a sentence: the species of living things gradually decrease, while the species of human beings gradually increase. No matter what people or things, existence is reasonable. You don''t have to look down on it, you have to learn to look at the world with appreciative eyes.


    "One thing, no matter how perfect the design is, because of different evaluation standards, there are always shortcomings in beauty; a person, no matter how beautiful he is, because of different aesthetic levels, there are always defects. Walking in the vast world, we all strive to make ourselves perfect, but more often, we feel the regret of imperfection. Gold has no barefoot, and white walls have little time. As long as we have longed for it and pursued it, we should smile and ignore the imperfections, because imperfections are the most real. "


    "You''re defending what you''ve done! You are looking for a reasonable theoretical basis and basis for your behavior! " I said.


    "So what?" Qin Lu said.


    "In fact, you know that the so-called theoretical basis is far fetched!" I said.


    "Do you think it''s far fetched?" Qin Lu said.


    "Yes I nodded.


    "But I don''t think so!" Qin Lu said.


    "Do you feel like you know that?" I said.Qin Lu''s eyes flickered and murmured, "what do you mean by that?"


    "I don''t mean much, I can''t control you, you are an independent individual, you have your thoughts and thinking, you can only let yourself control yourself, but I want to remind you, don''t go too far." I said.


    "After So what? " Qin Lu said.


    "After After that, it will backfire! " I said.


    "Did I? Or do you think I did something wrong? " Qin Lu said.


    "Yes I nodded.


    Qin Lu was silent. She bowed her head and said for a while, "if it''s really wrong, it''s wrong at the beginning. The wrong at the beginning caused the wrong at present. Even if it''s wrong at the beginning, it can''t go back now. If it''s wrong, it''s wrong to continue to go wrong. It''s right to continue to go wrong. Until now, there''s no turning back, for example If you look back, you will die. "


    Looking at Qin Lu, I said slowly, "do you want to hear me say something?"


    "Yes! In front of me, you can say anything. I won''t blame you for saying anything. It''s not guilty. Go ahead Qin Lu gave me a smile.


    I said: "in fact, I always feel that the greatest pain in life is to want and fear to lose; the greatest practice in life is to shut up and step forward; the greatest insight in life is nothing and forget it; the greatest insight in life is how to come and how to go; the greatest happiness in life is to have peace of mind.


    "I once said that happiness is the most important thing in a person''s life. To have a healthy body, in a happy state of mind to do what they like to do, safely realize their own value, this is the greatest happiness of life. Good times never come, good flowers never bloom. Life is short, cherish it well, treat it well, grasp it


    "People live like this all their lives. They don''t live like a dream, so let''s start with a smile. Don''t regret what you missed. You miss the people and things, others have a chance to meet; others missed, you have a chance to have. Everyone will miss, everyone has missed, but what really belongs to you will never be missed.


    "Qin Lu, I admit that you are very persistent and strong, but strong, not in the face of sadness do not shed a drop of tears, but dry the tears and smile in the face of future life. In fact, I want to say that some things, for you, everything is over, or you can think that everything is just beginning. "


    "What you say is very implicit, but even if it is, I can still hear what you mean. You are dissuading me, aren''t you?" Qin Lu said.


    I said, "you can think that."


    "I want to say that once the big play of life starts, no matter how much stage fright you have, you have to play it to the end of the play," Qin Lu said


    I was stunned and looked at her.


    Qin Lu continued: "since life is like this, many people make a mistake in the play, that is, they always place their hopes on tomorrow, but often miss today. The past will not come back, the future is unpredictable, the only thing I can do is not let today become tomorrow''s regret.


    "There is no rehearsal in life. Every step I take should be precious and fragrant. If I don''t ask for a smile from the sun, the warmth is still there, but I will smile more confidently and calmly; if I turn around and find my own shadow, and give way appropriately, the sun can pass through my heart and warm every corner behind me.


    "If the spread palm can''t touch the butterfly, then clench it into a fist and wave your arms to give strength. If I can''t smile brilliantly, I will throw my face into the bright sunshine and smile with the sunshine. You don''t know that there is such a person who will feel the world is brilliant because of your smile. "


    I listened to Qin Lu''s words wistfully.


    Qin Lu continued: "in the world of mortals, there are too many disappointments and too many helplessness. I am just a particle. I know that if I come quietly, I will leave quietly one day. Maybe it''s a kind of beauty and eternity to have a brilliant moment like fireworks, but I prefer to believe that it''s a kind of beauty to be able to watch my happiness quietly. If I am not happy, then I will go out and have a look, the world is so big, the scenery is beautiful, there are many opportunities, life is very short, I don''t want to shrink in a shadow.


    "When I''m depressed, I squat down and hug myself, but I won''t easily forgive others or let myself go. I want to laugh brightly, I want to make the world sad; I want to be bright even when I am sad. I don''t want my life to move forward in tears. If you understand tears, you will understand life


    "So, I have to stick to what I should stick to, I have to make myself stronger and stronger in being strong, and I have to get what belongs to me. You once said: life is struggle, for ideal career and love. Yes, you''re right. Now I''m fighting for my ideal career and love. It''s just that my way of fighting is different from most people. But as long as the result can be realized, the process doesn''t matter. "


    I was a little sad, shaking my head: "it seems that no one can convince anyone."


    "The facts will not need to be proved!" Qin Lu said stubbornly."Facts What kind of facts you need, and what the facts will be I murmured, my heart suddenly felt abnormal irritability, and then some uneasiness.


    Think of a sentence: life is like a train, the past scenery as beautiful, let you linger, but you always need to move forward, you tell yourself, I will certainly come back to see, but in fact, you can never go back, the scenery, meet people, after all, is gradually away! Only when you can stand loneliness can you keep prosperity!