"You don''t want to think about these things. They have nothing to do with us. Even if they are, they are something we can''t control. We just need to do ourselves well. Let everything else go." She said.


    "Hey, hey I can''t help myself! " I said.


    "I think you think too much of yourself!" She said.


    "Don''t you have an idea?" I asked her.


    She was silent.


    "Hey, hey..." I laughed again.


    "What are you laughing at?" She said.


    "What? Can''t you laugh? " I said.


    "Well, proud of it?" She said.


    "Muyou!" I said.


    "Well Mr. Yike, I want to tell you that you are very tired most of the time, aren''t you? " She said.


    "Well..." I admit that.


    "Do you know why you are so tired?" She said.


    "Yes, because I think too much." I said.


    "The answer is correct. If you know, why are you so tired?" She said.


    "I''d love to!" I said.


    "You -"


    "what''s the matter with me?"


    "You''re hopeless!" She said.


    "If it''s hopeless, it''s hopeless. I can''t change my character." I said.


    "I still hope you can think less and make your life simpler. In that way, your mood will be relaxed and your life will be much happier!" She said.


    "I want to do that, but I can''t, I can''t..." I said.


    "Alas..." She sighed: "Hakka God, if you are simple, the world will be simple to you. Only a simple life can lead a happy life. People should be self-sufficient and tolerant. They can''t think about complicated things. When the load of the soul is heavy, they will complain about the world and worry about others. We should regularly delete the memory and discard the unpleasant people and things from the memory. Life is short, wealth and status are attached, life does not bring, death does not bring, simple life is a happy life. "


    I took a deep breath, feeling a little sad, and said, "you are right, but it''s easy to say and difficult to do In fact, I know that we both have this kind of character. Although you are talking about me, how can you not? Of course, I know one thing you are better than me, that is, there are some things you can think about and put down, you can tolerate and accept, but I can''t. I''m far worse than you


    "In fact, I know that your heart has been very bitter, you are much more bitter than me. In fact, I want to share your pain, but I can''t do it well enough. In fact, how I want you to be a pure and simple person. Similarly, I want to be like that, that way, you and I, we are all simple and happy But in reality, we can''t do it. We can''t get such a simple thing. "


    She was silent.


    I was silent, too.


    Think of a sentence she once said: with an ordinary heart, accept what has happened, with a broad heart, tolerate those who are sorry for us. To help the people who need help with the heart of unchanging, adhere to the correct concept, and with the heart of joy. To put down the heart, face the difficult things, with a good heart, appreciate the things around. Treat everyone with sincerity and share others'' happiness with pleasure. With selfless heart, inherit the successful experience, with the heart of gratitude, appreciate everything you have!


    More and more I feel the gap between me and her, the gap of cultivation, the gap of cultivation, the gap of practice.


    In silence, I looked at the dialogue window on the computer, looked at her head, lit a cigarette, and tasted it silently for a long time


    Thinking of her in the air, she must be looking at me at the same time, just as I look at her.


    A throb and a shudder in my heart


    Floating life is like a dream, a dream is like floating life


    I can''t help feeling a great melancholy and sadness, as well as boundless confusion and melancholy


    At that moment, it seems that the person who has been deeply in love is breathing the world in the eternal air. The love and missing in my heart will not just belong to the memory I once had. I feel sad to think that some things may not be forgotten, some things may not be memorable, some things may be willing, some things may have been powerless.


    Maybe, I love you, this is my disaster.


    Maybe, you love me, this is your disaster.


    Disaster, breathe in disaster, exist in disaster, fight in disaster, endure in disaster, disappear in disaster


    The burning ash hurt my fingers, and my hand trembled.


    My heart was shaking.


    Dejected, go to sleep.


    It''s Friday.


    It''s very cold today. The north wind blows. The sky is overcast with cold wind.


    Today, I''m going to drive the minister''s wife to the provincial capital. I don''t know if my elder martial sister Xie Fei, who has been made by me, has ever been.


    After going to work, I called sun dongkai directly from the office line."Good morning, Secretary sun." I said.


    "Good morning, Xiaoyi." Sun dongkai said.


    "When are you leaving?" I said.


    "Well I''ll start in a minute Sun dongkai said.


    "Oh..."


    "What? Can I help you? " Sun dongkai said.


    "Well, I have a report for you." I said.


    "What''s the matter?" Sun dongkai said.


    "I want to go to Secretary Ji''s office later." I said.


    "Oh..." Sun dongkaila has a long voice.


    "I want to report my thoughts to him." I said.


    "Reporting ideas?" Sun dongkai said.


    "Yes I''m a member of the Discipline Inspection Commission of the group. I think I can go to his office and have a private talk with him in this name. " I said, "besides this, I can''t think of any better reason to approach him alone..."


    "Oh, you mean..." Sun dongkaidun stopped, and then his voice became a little light: "I know what you mean, good, good, your idea is very good, I agree, I support, OK, go."


    "Before I go, I''ll give you a report and listen to your instructions." I said.


    Sun dongkai seemed even more happy to hear me say this. He said: "there is no instruction, but you should pay attention to a few points. When talking with him, you should pay attention to the words and details, talk with him with a respectful attitude, listen to him more, and catch useful information from his speech I''m talking about useful information, that is, valuable things. Do you understand me? "


    "I understand." I said.


    "Today, you remind me that as the director of the economic management office, you are also a member of the Discipline Inspection Commission of the group. You can often meet him alone with a reasonable identity and sufficient reasons. You have the conditions to contact him more. You should give full play to this advantage. In the name of making use of this condition, you should contact him more in the name of reporting and asking for instructions, If you want to be submissive in front of him, you can take advantage of these opportunities to get more valuable information. " Sun dongkai said.


    "Well, I remember." I said.


    "Go ahead and let me know what''s going on." Sun dongkai said happily.


    I put down the phone.


    Straighten out sun dongkai''s side, and then I can rest assured to approach Secretary Ji openly. This is the purpose of my first call to sun dongkai. I can''t let Sun dongkai be suspicious of my separate meeting with Secretary Ji.


    Meeting secretary Ji was a decision I made after repeated consideration yesterday. Considering the current situation, I decided to meet him once before going to the provincial capital. I want to tell him some words and things. I feel the need to see him.


    I don''t want to go out with Secretary Ji secretly. In case sun dongkai finds out, he will show up. I decide to make use of my position as a member of the Discipline Inspection Commission of our group to meet Secretary Ji openly. I not only meet Secretary Ji openly, but also inform sun dongkai in advance, and let Sun dongkai accept the support happily.


    Then, I picked up the inside phone and called Secretary Ji.


    "Secretary Ji, I''m Xiaoyi." When I got through, I said.


    "Oh Xiaoyi... " Secretary Ji''s steady voice came from the phone.


    "Is the leader busy at the moment?" I said.


    "What? What are you doing Ji Shuji said.


    "If I''m not busy, I''d like to go to your office and give you a personal report." I said.


    "Ha ha..." Ji Shuji laughs: "it seems that you can''t refuse to report your thoughts."


    "I went to report to you in the name of a member of the Discipline Inspection Commission of the group." I laugh, too.


    "The reason is more sufficient, then I have no reason to refuse:" Secretary Ji laughs: "I just got to the office, it''s ok now, come on."


    I put down the phone and went straight out of the office to the group headquarters.


    Just arrived at the first floor of the group building, I met sun dongkai and Cao Li walking out.


    Seeing me, they stopped.


    "Start now?" I said.


    "Yes, it''s cloudy today. It''s forecast that there will be snow in the afternoon. I''d better rush to the insurance Station early in case of snow." Cao Li said.


    It seems that Cao Li is more important than sun dongkai in her visit to the provincial capital.


    Of course I know what Cao Li is thinking.


    "Well, I wish you a safe and smooth journey." I said.


    "What are you doing?" Cao Li asked.


    I hesitated and said, "I''m going to report to Secretary Ji''s office."


    "You go to Secretary Ji''s office? Reporting? " Cao Li with unexpected eyes: "what do you want to report to him? You are in business. What do you report to the Secretary of the discipline inspection commission? "


    Cao Li''s tone seemed puzzled and discontented.


    "Ha ha, I''m still a member of the Discipline Inspection Commission. Of course, I can report to Secretary Ji!" I laughed.


    Sun dongkai glared at Cao Li and said, "don''t interrupt and mix things that don''t belong to you. Who will Xiaoyi report to? Do you need to ask for instructions in advance?""Did he ask for your instructions in advance?" Cao Li said.


    "That''s not what you should ask!" Sun dongkai glared at Cao Li again and then gave me a smile: "OK, you go We should report to Secretary Ji and listen to his instructions. "


    Sun dongkai''s words accentuated his tone.


    I nodded knowingly and went into the elevator.


    I think sun dongkai will explain to Cao Li the real purpose and intention of my work report to Secretary Ji later. He will tell Cao Li that he already knows what I am going to do.


    I went directly to Secretary Ji''s office.