It seems that in order to show my attention and welcome, at noon, the director arranged the workers to kill a sheep and make a big pot of whole sheep. Then he informed other deputy directors that I was assigned here, and several deputy directors came to meet me.


    In addition to the director of the base, the deputy director here was assigned to reform through labor here for various reasons.


    The living base in the mountains became a place for the group to exile cadres and workers.


    Lunch was a big one. Everyone had a big meal and drank a little too much.


    During this period, Su Dingguo and I had a conversation alone.


    Su Dingguo had known about me for a long time. First he sighed for a while, and then he mentioned it here.


    "We deputy directors are not in the base all day, so the director must be nagging in front of you?" Su Dingguo said.


    I laughed.


    "It''s typical of him to sell well when he''s cheap." Su Dingguo said: "in fact, you know, the director wants us not to be here. No matter who lives here for a few days and doesn''t leave, his face will pull the elder."


    "Why?" I said.


    "The director regards the living base as his own private plot and his own farm. Most of the staff here are recruited by himself. They are all relatives of seven aunts and eight aunts. Besides supplying the meat and vegetables produced by the base on time and in quantity, he also gets a lot of benefits, and makes some small moves in private.


    "He is not afraid that the workers will know what he does, but if we stay here every day, won''t it make him feel uncomfortable? After all, he still has some taboos about us He''s here every day, so we can''t wait for him


    "For one thing, we can''t stand the hardships here, and we don''t want to live here. For another thing, since the director doesn''t welcome us to live here, why should we look ugly? So simply three days fishing, two days drying net, something to play a face-to-face, nothing to do in the city busy with their own things. It''s good for everyone to be happy The director also turned a blind eye to this and did not ask Su Dingguo said.


    After listening to Su Dingguo''s words, I suddenly realized that, so it is, the director does not welcome me to live here for a long time. He thinks I am in the way here.


    I know that.


    "Do you know what to do?" Su Dingguo looked at me with a smile.


    I can''t help but appreciate Su Dingguo''s reminding me, saying: "I know However, even so, I don''t intend to go back to the city for a while. Since I''m here, I''ll stay here for a few days. "


    "Ha ha It doesn''t matter to live, but you have to coordinate with the director. This local rich man doesn''t need to provoke him... " Su Dingguo said.


    I nodded with a smile.


    "Alas..." Su Dingguo sighed: "brother, I didn''t expect that you would be sent here If you come here, even if you enter the reform through labor camp, it''s hard for you to get ahead Like Tang Liang, he is extremely lucky. Few are as lucky as him. "


    I said: "if you don''t show up, you can''t show up. It''s good to stay away from the disputes of the group here. You can be at ease."


    "Where there are people, there are contradictions and disputes. It''s also inevitable here. You don''t feel it when you first come here. You will know it after a long time!" Su Dingguo said.


    "Maybe." I said.


    "We stay here. Who will remember us I''m afraid they''ve forgotten all about us for a long time Su Dingguo''s tone is very pessimistic.


    Looking at Su Dingguo''s expression, I didn''t speak.


    "It''s almost the same as retreating to the second tier. It''s a comfort that we don''t have to go to work to get paid and hang up a name in the base, but we can be busy with our own affairs in the city." Su Dingguo said with a tone of self mockery.


    I nodded: "well..."


    "It''s just This is the end of our political life, and this is the end of the road to officialdom! " Su Dingguo sighed again, looking gloomy.


    I don''t know what to say for a moment. I understand the feelings of a person who is full of desire for power and official career at such a stage. It is the greatest despair in his life. Once he is desperate, his spiritual life will be destroyed. This is a very cruel thing.


    Suddenly I think of a sentence: no desire, no demand.


    It seems that it is a very happy thing to have expectations. No matter how desperate, we can seize the last glimmer of hope.


    It seems that the highest state of human spirit is to have no desire and no desire. In other words, to have nothing to do. It''s really not suitable to be a man to reach this kind of state. No wonder all the immortals are carefree and have no desire. How can they have trouble?


    When I was a child, I always thought that I could be free when I grew up. When I grew up, I found that there was no freedom in the world. It''s like a bird just out of the cage, full of joy to find the wonderful outside, but I don''t know that I''m flying to a bigger cage, and I can never escape.What human beings are good at is to bind themselves in a cocoon. They try their best to pursue what they want, but then they are bound by it. It starts over and over again, always regretting, but never changing.


    In this process, I constantly look forward to, constantly disappointed, constantly comfort myself, next time will be better. Along the way, the beautiful dream is constantly destroyed by the reality, but I still do not know how to repent and continue to weave the next dream.


    It seems that for me, only with a dream can I have a direction. No matter how tortuous the world is, I can finally find the right way.


    It may be ridiculous, but it''s my belief.


    Since the reality is too cruel, maybe I should learn to cheat myself.


    It seems that white lies can not only comfort others, but also bring hope to oneself. Even if it''s very small, it''s better than nothing.


    It seems that, although I think so, I can''t really have no desire.


    After that day, I began to change. I didn''t take part in any labor and activities in the base during the day. After breakfast, I went out to the surrounding mountains and came back when it was almost dark. After dinner, I closed my room and watched TV. I didn''t care about anything in the base and pretended that I couldn''t see anything.


    In this way, the director''s face began to get better, and he became more and more warm to me.


    But actually, he still wanted me to go back to the city as soon as possible.


    Although the director is out of sight and out of mind to me, I don''t want to leave at present.


    During the day, when I''m wandering in the mountains, I usually don''t walk too far away from the base, just a few hills nearby. Soon I found a place suitable for martial arts training. Just behind the base, in a mountain depression, there is a piece of open space. The ground is very flat, surrounded by dense pine forests, and the environment is good.


    In addition to practicing martial arts in the open space during the day, I will also climb to the highest mountain nearby, where I can see the surrounding mountains and the free flying eagles in the sky.


    I often look south. To the south is the sea of stars, where there are autumn trees. Further south, hard south, across the Yellow River and Yangtze River, where is my hometown, beautiful Jiangnan, where there are Haizhu, my parents.


    Looking at the boundless sky, I often think of those things that I seem to have been far away from in the past, those people, those complicated, soul stirring and sentimental past, those men and women who love me, love me, hate me and hate me.


    Often think of those things and people, my heart is always difficult to calm down, although I want to calm down in this mountain, but I am very difficult to do.


    Life is plain and quiet, so I live alone.


    Although I didn''t go back to the city, I have avoided the director''s action and disappeared in front of him as much as possible, which made him feel a little satisfied. His attitude towards me is also acceptable. Occasionally, he would have a few drinks with me at dinner in the evening.


    At noon this day, I spent a long time in my martial arts training ground, sitting on a big stone next to me smoking.


    It was very quiet around, and the calls of unknown birds came from time to time in the woods.


    Suddenly, I heard a strange laugh coming from the woods not far away.


    My heart suddenly a shock, stand up to the sound of the direction to see.


    There was nothing to see but the chirping of birds and the low howling of mountain wind.


    I thought I heard it wrong, but I didn''t feel wrong.


    I threw away my cigarette end and walked slowly in the direction of the sound.


    When I was about to walk to the edge of the woods, I heard another strange laugh.


    This time, I heard it clearly. It was someone.


    Without thinking about it, I went straight into the woods, to the place where the sound came out.


    Before he arrived, a man stood up in the grass of the forest, wearing a suit of khaki. No wonder I didn''t see him just now. He was wearing protective clothes.


    Seeing this man, I was surprised: "emperor, it''s you!"


    The emperor, with a smile, came out of the grass and came to me.


    "As for your behavior just now, plus your clothes, I say you are a Weasel, won''t you object?" I said sarcastically.


    "It''s your freedom to say anything. Is it useful for me to say no?" The emperor grinned at me.


    "You''re very capable. You know I''m here!" I said.


    "It''s not hard to know you''re here. I said that I can do whatever I want to know and find!" The emperor said.


    With a sneer, I went back to the stone and sat down.


    The emperor came over with me, sat on the stone next to me, looked around and said, "brother, you are very carefree. You live in a paradise in this mountain, and you have found such an elegant and closed martial arts training ground It took me a lot of time to find you What''s up? Has Kung Fu improved recently? "


    "Would you like to have a try?" I said.


    "Hey, hey, I still have this self-knowledge. Don''t say that you have made progress now. Even when you haven''t made progress, I''m not your opponent. If you want to fight, don''t come to me. Go to Alai." The emperor said.I can''t help feeling dejected when I hear Huang Zhe''s words. I also have self-knowledge. I know that even if I practice for another year, I may not be the opponent of Alai. Not only me, the fourth brother and Lao Qin are not the opponents of a Lai. Although a Lai is simple minded and cruel, when it comes to Kung Fu, he is really a good hand.