Chapter 10 The end that will be the new beginning.


    I can''t bring myself to love me. So I believe in that promise. But he doesn''t love me and he doesn''t exist. So I don''t need him. I control me and nothing holds me back.


    Well I was right about figuring this thing out and I would escape for the most part. Since I was just standing in front of the eiffel tower a minute ago. Now I''m in darkness. There is no one there and a cement ground below me.


    I guess this is where atheist go since they don''t believe in God and those who believe in nothing. This doesn''t seem like a bad place at all. I wouldn''t mind having my life end here.


    I wonder if I can create something here. Since this is like a blank canvas. So I can think or wish for something and see it. Okay I''ll try it. I have nothing to lose and literally nothing.


    But before I did I looked down expecting to see my ghoul form. But there was only darkness. I was black mist that had shape. The shape of a human body. But all it was is an outline. I moved my arm to touch my face and the mist of my hand went through my face.Unauthorized reproduction: this story has been taken without approval. Report sightings.


    I took it out and tested my theory about everything being a blank canvas out on my body. I though about my past human form I could bearly remember. Once I looked at myself again I had that body but no clothes on. I then realized I had to make the clothes. So I imagined myself in a blue dress and I had one on.


    I experimented with it. I tried out different clothes and body shapes. Then I found one that fit me best. I felt I could be a new person.


    I had a similar body, face to my original one. Except I had a clean shaven man''s face and no breasts.


    I was a man, but I didn''t mind in the least. I look and sound so much better. I did enjoy being nothing better than my human and ghoul shape. I wasn''t anything. No gender, no sex, no rules, expectations, and no more lies.


    This form suited me best and I say myself as a man. But more importantly as someone I could grow to love. I could finally love myself.


    I don''t right now but I will one day. That''s enough for me. How about I change the scenery now.


    I want to live my days quietly and how I like. So I picked a nice country place with a house. Maybe someone I can fall in love with nearby.


    It''s just how I imagined I feel finally at peace. I see a stranger in the cottage nearby. I''m standing on a hill in a t-shirt and shorts. It''s a little windy, it''s fall weather just not chilly yet. The plants haven''t all died yet. You can see a few leaves going brown.


    I''m standing on a little hill, I can see a small City. No, it looks more like a village. I can make a life here. The man I say in that cottage looks friendly. I''ll go say hi.


    Well I''m off living how I want with who I want. I''m a free man and pretty happy with myself. I''ll live my life and everybody can live theirs. Well I better get to it. Who knows what happens at the end. And who really cares.