141 Do you feel strange ? L After seeing Nathan off .


    I returned to my room , my mind still swirling with a lot of questions and conflicting emotions .


    I barely had time to settle before Nanny entered , a thoughtful expression on her face Hey I greeted with a smile .


    She barely acknowledged me .


    Instead , she walked up to me and touched my forehead gently .


    Do you feel strange ? Maybe a fever or dizziness ? Nope I shook my head .


    Why are you asking ? She hesitated , as she hovered over me .


    Have you been having any unusual dreamstely or feel like you might being down with something Nanny I sighed No , Im fine .


    Whats going on ? She shook her head , forcing a smile .


    Nothing dear ? On cur there was a knock on my door , the maids hade to inform me it was time for my bath but Nanny sent them away , insisting she would help me .


    A whileter , I was in the tub , sitting quietly while Nanny bathed me .


    She seemed preupied with something and her movements were careful as if she was afraid to speak .


    Nan I turned to look at her over my shoulder .


    What is it ? She paused , taking in a deep breath as her gaze was fixed on my back .


    Finally , she sighed and said , Two of the three stars on your spine are gone .


    Theres only one left : I twisted around , as my heart skipped a beat .


    Is that … a good thing ? Nanny hesitated , then offered me a strained smile , Yes , it is But I didnt miss the flicker of fear in her eyes Han I said pietly , I can handle anything , just tell me , is something wrong ? Tell me the truth .


    What does the lone star man she wouded my gaze , buying herself with washing my scalp .


    Its nothing to worry about .


    Youre pet progressing as expected ? massuring enough and I could shake the feeling that there was more Her words didit to it but for the sake of my sanity and peace , I decided to let it go After any bath , I sat on the vanity table drying off my hair as Sammy folded the towels beside me .


    Today she was chading me for not cleaning off in the bathroom which meant she had a lot going Bot something in the warmth of the room , the scent ofvender lingering from the bath , and the act afternoon sun made me feel an unfamiliar sense of belonging Something in White Moon Doyoneet stranger ? Nan ! I called out to her quietly , watching her from the mirror .


    She paused and turned bleak Ves ? Ive decided Im not going back to the human world , I said firmly , feeling my heart jolt with fear at the thought that I was uprooting everything to be here .


    Her brows arched slightly , other than that , there was no other reaction except her lips curving into an , Oh Yes , I nodded with a smile .


    Tve been thinking about everything and with the things I saw that Xander was preparing , I want to stay here and help as much as I can .


    At least for now, until the Feral attacks pass or reduce .


    After ward , maybe Ill consider going back but for now … Im staying She didnt say anything .


    Her eyes still held that bleak gaze but I continued anyway , my tone bing lighter .


    The initial tension from my previous announcement was slowly ebbing away .


    And besides , I added , my cheeks flushing pink , Nathan proposed to me .


    Technically not a proposal in every sense of a proposal but he asked me to be his mate officially of course .


    So maybe … just maybe I might be staying afterwards .


    At that , Nannys eyes widened slightly Im so excited , I continued animatedly .


    I mean , can you imagine ? Marrying Nathan , bing his mate .


    Spending my life with him .


    Iughed .


    Ah … Ive got to admit though , hes an upgrade from all the men Ive been with , How many men have you been with ? Nanny retorted without looking up .


    She was putting away the washed clothes that came in earlier yesterday .


    Ive been meaning to do that but was just toozy .


    Not a lot but with some shitty ones .


    Still , Nathan is caring , he gets me , its like marrying your best friend and I feel safe when Im with him , like nothing can go wrong You dont feel that way with Ramsey ? Nanny asked straightening the sheets on my bed .


    That was when I noticed something odd : there was a faint frown on her face .


    She didnt look pleased .


    Youre not happy about Nathan ? I turned in my chair to face her .


    I thought you liked him more and why are we suddenly talking about Ramsey ? L , I just wish youd consider a lot of factors before doing anything .


    Who you end up with is Important as a Moonsinger .


    There are no second chance mates for you like other werewolves .


    You can only be with one person for the rest of your life .


    I stared at her Nan ! Hes getting married to Cassily Thorne not to mention what Ive suffered from his hand .


    Forget all of this kind act that hes putting on … Ramsey is a different person behind the screen Or maybe youre reacting this way because he wasnt acting the way you wanted and expected .


    him to do She sighed .


    Dont get me wrong , Nathan hes perfect but Ramsey is your mate .


    Ive learnt so much about what it entails to be a Moonsinger and Its beyond what we read in the Do you fent strange ? My heart jolted at her words and immediately I turned away .


    Dont turn your back on me , L Woond .


    I saw everything , how easy it was for him to take .


    your powers away .


    How he blocked me off , how … her voice faltered You dont understand how scared I was … The Dark One , I felt his power … I saw visions , L … she wanted to say something but decided against it .


    I just need to train , find Neriahs sword in the Northern forests and everything will be alright , I murmured reaching for a face cream .