142 His Orb … L Its not that simple ! Nanny said marching towards me , tears in her eyes .


    You pledged yourself to him when you allowed him to do those things to you with his Orb .


    I know Mother Liora hasnt said so much about it but , L … he can control you … bend you to his will , do whatever he damn wants .


    You think hed just let you go if he didnt have something nned … and heavens … youre the damned reincarnation of Neriah … did you even know what happened between her and Xander ? 1 tried not to be rmed .


    The books said something about them falling in love and … The BOOKS ARE NOT SAYING THE TRUTH she screeched interrupting me .


    They want you to believe that Neriah only had to capture the Dark One and lock him up .


    She did more than that … she made him vengeful and dont you dare argue with me because Ive seen the visions … clear and crystal as ss … She paused and paced a little beforeing back to me .


    Xander The Dark One is out for revenge and he will not stop until he gets it .


    Just like how he destroyed her Pack back then , he would do even worse and do you know why … he has a part of your power at his disposal .


    He can choose to do with it in whatever way he wants .


    He can control your mind and make you useless .


    I dont know how you keep escaping but all of this makes me uneasy .


    If only you had listened to me … if only you had just done all the things I told you … A strangled sob escaped her lips , she was crying freely now .


    I cannot allow this .


    I cannot allow you to remain in this world .


    L … she came and crouched beside me , holding my hands .


    You must leave … thats the only way to survive .


    As much as you do not try to tap into whatever , he would nevere after you .


    Nanny ! your source or I stared at her strangely .


    She was practically falling apart before my eyes .


    Ive never seen her this way .


    Dont worry , well find a way to take care of the Ferals and it doesnt matter if they call you a coward .


    I just want you to live , please ! She cupped my face , a tear rolled down her cheeks .


    seeping i into her mouth .


    I love you so much , L .


    Ive always cherished you with everything in me … I cannot allow anything to happen to you .


    I shifted ufortably , I was not used to this kind of familiarity with her .


    Tell me … she sniffed back tears , reaching for both of my hands again .


    Tell me youll leave .


    Please ! I stared at her for a few minutes , at a loss for words .


    What could I say ? Im not sure , I said finally , averting my gaze .


    If I leave , a lot of people will die .


    Nathan , Ramsey , Mom , everyone , you … 13 142 His Orb , Theyve been doing fine without a Moonsinger for 10,000 years .


    Im sure theyll find a way to sort themselves out .


    I cannot allow you … I removed my hands from her grasp , rising from my chair to put distance between us .


    Know your ce , Nanny , I said quietly .


    You cannot make that decision for me .


    Not only am I an adult but youre not my mother and I want to stay .


    I dont know what you saw in your visions but I want to cmity .


    o this for the sake of the innocents who will be at the receiving end of any that will strike .


    And you think you can save everyone without your powers ? Nanny scoffed , swiping angrily at a tear as she crossed the room and came to me reaching for my hand again .


    Ive always loved you like I would my child .


    I practically raised you … and for years , Ive loved how you honoured me as your mother .


    You know I am doing this in your best interest .


    And Im tired of running .


    I moved away from her again .


    I dont know what you saw and Im sure it made you scared but Im confident about this and this is the first of many decisions I want to take .


    I know youre attached to me but what will Mom think when she finds out youre acting this way .


    Nanny sighed running a hand through her hair .


    Your mom doesnt care about you more than I do But shes still my mom , I fired back And please … enough talk about his .


    Im tired of hearing the same words over and over again .


    Ill be fine and I wont be leaving .


    Also , theres no future for me and Ramsey .


    We can change the narrative and shape it into our wishes spare She huffed with tears in her eyes .


    Youre nothing but a child .


    Do you think Xander would you because he said he loves you ? Hes evil , L and evil rarely changes and just so you know , its either him or Ramsey .


    There is no Nathan in between .


    If you must spare his life , leave him alone and let someone else have him .


    a Fear coursed through my veins as the words of the High Priestess echoed in my heart too .


    Th thats for us to decide , I said bravely .


    Nannyughed then shook her head , grabbed theundry basket and walked out of my room leaving me more confused than I was before .


    After she left , thoughts of everything that she said were hunting me and I was feeling quite restless .


    Deciding to explore within the pack , I slipped out of my room .


    Thete afternoon sun was waning , shining brightly only on polished surfaces .


    I wandered through the pack , loving the buzz of activity as every pack member went about their day .


    I was so consumed in thoughts that I found myself at the training grounds .


    A group of warriors were engaged in drills , captivating me with their uniform movements .


    I approached the training ground , leaning curiously at the rail as I watched them .


    I hadnt had the time to settle properly when the warriors training , stopped immediately , bowing respectfully to I felt my cheeks flush with embarrassment .


    * Please Please I said hurriedly Dont ston on my scenunt .


    I just wanted to watch The warriors exchanged nces and one of them , presumably the instructor came forward .


    Modesinger ..


    he said awkwardly clearing his throat as his eyes sought mine .


    What title should I call you ? What title … Lya I said immediately cutting him short .


    You can call me L , thats my name , no need to be formal He nodded .


    Can we help you with anything ? Umm With Nathan always swamped with work , I had to keep on training .


    If I wanted to be useful , at least .


    I was wondering if I could train here sometime .


    I wont get in the way .


    I promise .


    Just … in a corner somewhere .


    I promise not to slow you down .


    I added .


    The instructor hesitated for a moment and then nodded .


    Of course , youre wee here anytime .


    thanked him and left , a small smile on my lips .