171 Emotional turmoil … Ramsey o My heart nearly stopped .
L had never set foot in my room before .
Seeing her here felt so surreal , Quickly , I ced the frame face down on my counter .
Of course , pleasee in .
She entered the room , closing the door softly behind her .
Her eyes were red and her hands were fidgeting nervously , I could smell her distress , I wanted to go to her but I didnt want to startle her , so I dug my heels where I stood and waited for her to tell me why she was here .
I didnt know who else to go to , she began , her voice trembling slightly .
Seth he told me Id find you here , I gestured toward a chair , feeling happy at her statement .
Please , sit down .
She shook her head firmly .
No , I cant .
1 … I need to say this or I might explode .
rmed , I moved closer trying tofort her but she backed away .
I kept my distance when she held up her hand .
Please , Ramsey … donte any closer Okay , I nodded Whats wrong ? Do you want to tell me ? I asked gently .
She took a shaky breath , as tears spilled down her cheeks , rming me more .
Ramsey , Im going crazy .
I have to tell someone , or I feel like Ill die I clenched my fists at my sides , I wanted tofort her so badly , but I also wanted to respect her space .
What is it ? You can tell me ? She looked up at me , with eyes filled with anguish .
Ramsey, I could get into lots of trouble if someone knows this and I came to you because it was the most natural thing to do .
But now , I dont know … Im so sorry because Ill burden you with it ? Its not a burden , L and no matter what we would figure it out together .
Can you trust me ? She shook her head .
I cant .
I murmured something inexplicable under my breath .
You have to trust me now , I promise I wont do anything that would put you in harms way .
Please … please … L , look at me … She turned tear filled eyes to me .
I took a step toward her until I was standing close to her .
Gently , I lifted her chin , then with my other free hand wiped the tears on her cheeks .
Her lips trembled and , in a flurry , she leaned against me , sobbing harder , at I just stood there , holding her , trying to thrust away the crazy thought that came to my mind .
I wanted whatever the situation was to be Nathan breaking up with him or something along that line .
It would make me the happlest person today .
into my Lax sneered at my wicked thoughts but I ignored him .
After she was spent , gently , I scooped her hands and carried her to the couch in my room , ignoring , Laxs prompting to take her to bed .
Ive managed to stay away from women for a few weeks now and he was already itching .
We sat on the couch with me still cradling her until she climbed down from my legs and sat next 171 Emotional turmoil … I have a wolf The silence that followed after the announcement was deafening .
I just sat there frozen , my mind racing to process what shed just revealed .
The High Priestess had clearly stated that a Moonsinger cannot have a wolf .
Then again … was she the one who helped them out with the Ferals several days ago ? It was you right ? I blurted .
The one who fought the Ferals .
She stared at me with confusion in her eyes then shook her head .
Im lost .
What are you talking about ? I shook my head , sighing with relief .
I guess it wasnt you but … the wolf … are you sure ? She nodded .
Shes been with me for a few weeks now or since forever , I think .
From the first time I had my first encounter with those Ferals , shede to me in my dream and talk to me and stuff but she manifested herself recently to me .
That would exin your recent change in your physical appearance .
Did you know you look more radiant than usual ? Yeah , she nodded People have been telling me that .
But I kept her hidden .
I was so scared .
I thought … I thought something was wrong with me but she was with me , Ramsey .
Shes real .
My heart pounded as I tried to process her words again .
I knew what this revtion meant .
It wasnt just a secret ; it was a truth that could change everything .
A Moonsinger having a wolf would put her in trouble .
Plus , the irony of the entire situation wasnt lost on me .
Here I was , about to announce my engagement to another woman , while the one person who could turn my world upside down chose this moment to share her deepest secret with me and not just that , one that could put her in trouble .
The Moon Goddess had a cruel sense of humour indeed .
My ceremonial attire suddenly felt too tight, the room too small .
Outside , the preparations for the festival continued , oblivious to the earthquake happening within these walls .
Nathan would propose tonight , thinking he knew everything about the woman he loved , while I stood here holding a truth that could change everything .
As Lycan Leader , I should immediately report this to the Council A Moonsinger manifesting a wolf was unprecedented , dangerous even .
But one look at Ls tear stained face , all I could see was the girl that I had seen wide eyed in the ballroom that day and the woman who had unknowingly imed a piece of my heart .
Have you told anyone aside from me ? Sheughed bitterly , swiping at the tear stains on her cheeks .
Tell who ? My mother ? Nathan ? They wouldve looked at me like I was some kind of freak .
Youre not a freak , I said firmly .
Youre … unique .
Special ? She looked up at me , with amusement in her eyes .
You dont have to lie to me , Ramsey .
I know Im going to be in big trouble but I wanted to tell you first .
If ever this gets to the council … 101 Emotional turmoil .
It wont ! I reached out for her hand , pressing it to my lips .
You cannot tell anyone else until figure it out .
I would have to tell Nathan now that Ive told you , She murmured thoughtfully .
I rolled my eyes at the thought .
Are you sure he can handle it ; he doesnt seem like it .
He will , she chuckled even better than you but thats not the problem here Ramsey .
Having my wolf is another thing , the problem is , I havent felt her in days now .
I cant see her in the dream world , I cant feel her inside me like I did a few days ago .
Shes silent and I cant help but feel that something is wrong Wait ! I raised my hand to stop her .
You had your wolf and now you no longer have her ? She nodded .
It feels like she wasnt here in the first ce but she was .
I saw her .
I was her .
I felt her and we went for a run .
I dont understand what might be the problem .
Does this happen often ? I know you have a Lycan but Im guessing its almost the same thing except for the species ? Yeah , I agreed with her .
Lax only disappears and stops talking to me when I offend him but its usually within a 24 hour window and Ill still feel him inside .
Maybe thats why … Shes been gone for nearly five days now and I dont feel her .
Its like before I had her .
Empty .
Is there something I can do ? Do you know ? I didnt have a lot of experience with Werewolves .
Though I was mixed blood since my mother was a werewolf and my dad a Lycan but I had a Lycan .
Still , the earnestness on Ls face made me feel helpless .
The one time that she came to me asking for help , the fact that Im not able to help her was tearing me apart .
There was a rapid knock on the door before it opened and Seth walked in .
He looked apprehensive .
I saw his eye dart between me and L on the couch before it settled on me .
Alpha ! he sighed I think Miss L should leave now .
Luna Cassidy is on her way here .
She must have gotten wind that shes here , he pointed to L .
Were not doing anything wrong .
I only came to see him , L defended immediately .
She should stop being paranoid , if I wanted Ramsey for myself , I could have him .
Please have me , I muttered under my breath .
Its the Harvest Moon Festival , Miss and were trying not to create any scene , Seth said woodenly .
If Luna Cassidy should see you here … Fine ! L hissed .
Ill leave .
Then she turned to me , Can we continue this conversation elsewhere ? Preferably in the open or your office so your mate can be at ease .
I nodded .
As she started towards the door , the door to my room opened again , this time , more forcefully than before and Cassidy ran into the room sobbing and straight to my arms .