I ran to the guard of the community, who was sitting there in a daze and taking a nap.


    I knocked on the door to go in, sketched Dong''Er''s appearance, and then asked him if he had seen such a woman go out. The guard looked at me drowsily for a long time, and then shook his head. For a while, he said no, for a while, he said that he had just been confused and had a nap and didn''t pay attention.


    I was a little anxious. I ran to the outside of the community. The street outside was empty and empty. Occasionally, a car sped by.


    I stood blankly on the side of the road, looking at the scenery around, it was still, as if the world had solidified at the moment. Looking up at the deep night sky, I couldn''t see a star in the dark sky.


    All of a sudden, there was a night wind, and a few drops of rain fell on my face. It was going to rain.


    My heart is a little bit panicked, while constantly playing Dong''Er''s mobile phone, I ran around aimlessly, shouting Dong''Er''s name. In the silent night, my voice is particularly harsh, and my basic voice is particularly eye-catching.


    When I searched in vain for more than half an hour, the wind suddenly became heavy, and the rain began to grow, and the wind and rain came in the early morning.


    Soon, I became a drowned chicken, drenched up and down, the sea of stars in June, the night is still so slightly cool, I can''t help shivering.


    I stand in the street, standing in the cold wind and rain, let the wind and rain blow my body, the body becomes cold, but my heart is burning, anxious.


    At this moment, I suddenly feel the weight of Dong''Er''s safety in my heart. Dong''Er follows me to Xinghai for a long time to survive. If something really happens, how can I explain it to her family? How to account to my own conscience?


    But now, where can I find her? Where did she go?


    My heart was in a panic, and my body was shivering. Finally, I couldn''t bear it. With great worry and anxiety in my heart, I dragged my tired and wet body back to the dormitory.


    When I came back, I felt cold all over. I quickly took off my wet clothes and rushed into the bedroom. I rushed into the bed and covered it. I was cold all over and curled up in the bed. It took me a long time to warm up.


    Lying in the warm quilt, I think of Donger, who is not sure where. The wind and rain outside are continuing to ravage. Where is she alone?


    I am not sleepy. I want to smoke a cigarette in the living room. I get up and open the closet to get my pajamas. As soon as I open the closet, I am stunned. Donger''s clothes are taken away!


    When I look around again, Donger''s suitcase is gone.


    My brain a burst of dizziness, Dong''Er with suitcase, took all his clothes, is she left the sea of stars?


    It suddenly occurred to me that I should go to the railway station. Maybe Dong''Er went there!


    At the thought of this, I put on my clothes and planned to go directly to the railway station.


    Just about to leave the bedroom, I glanced at the dressing table at random, and suddenly found something in front of the dressing mirror. When I looked carefully, it was two bank cards, and there were several pieces of paper full of words under them.


    I picked up the bank card and saw that one was my salary card and the other was my ningzhou bank card. I deposited 500000 Yuan Li Shun gave me. Dong''Er kept it for me. I lied that there was only 20000 yuan in it.


    What does Dong Er mean by putting his bank card here? What did she write? I quickly picked up the writing paper and began to read.


    "Xiao Ke, when I wrote this letter to you, you fell asleep in the living room.


    "You sleep and snore on the back of the sofa. I know that you are very tired, you are very tired, your body is tired, and your heart is tired!


    "You''re sleeping. I''m not sleepy. I''m writing you this letter.


    "What happened tonight can be described as the biggest conflict since we knew each other. It''s our first time. It''s the first time that I''ve been beaten by a man. It''s also the first time that you''ve beaten a woman. Look, we''ve all achieved the first time in our lives. There are countless first times in our lives. Tonight, we have the first time at the same time."


    Seeing this, I was a little ashamed and ashamed. I took the note and sat down on the sofa in the living room outside. Then I lit a cigarette and continued to look down.


    "When you see this letter, I have already left your dormitory Where I go, you don''t have to care, you don''t have to find me, I''m not a child, I know where to leave, also know where to go!


    "At the moment, I think that what happened tonight seems to be accidental, but it is inevitable. It will happen sooner or later, but it lacks a suitable fuse


    "Tonight, you and I have been drinking. We are impulsive in speaking and doing things. Maybe we all need to calm down!


    "I know your whereabouts tonight. It''s not that I''m following you. I don''t have that boring hobby. It''s just that, coincidentally, I met you. Of course, you didn''t see me!


    "Tonight, when I say Qiu Tong''s words, I admit that I''m abrupt. I''m reckless. I''m extreme. I''m impulsive. I shouldn''t judge others behind their backs. Maybe I shouldn''t believe others'' words at will. Maybe she''s not really that kind of person So, here, I apologize to Qiutong."To apologize to Qiu Tong doesn''t mean that I admit my mistake to you. I don''t have to apologize to you in this matter. Why? what you think? I evaluate Qiu Tong. What does it have to do with you? Why can you start with me because of my comments on Qiutong? What is the relationship between you and her that makes you suddenly become so angry and impulsive for those words?


    "I don''t know what the relationship is, because I don''t have any evidence to prove it.


    "I don''t know, you know, she knows, God knows, earth knows!


    "However, I don''t want to prove that what should belong to you is yours, and what shouldn''t belong to you. No matter how hard I try, it''s useless. I still understand this simple truth!"


    I look at these words, my heart suddenly very empty, guilty.


    I keep looking down.


    "Xiao Ke, the reason why I want to leave is not that you beat me for the words Qiutong said for me, but that you yelled out of your mouth. I believe that the words have been pressing on your heart for a long time. It''s the real idea that you always wanted to say but didn''t say.


    "Xiao Ke, we''ve known each other for a long time. Once, we thought we knew each other very well. Once, we thought we didn''t have any distance between each other. Once, we thought we had achieved mutual love. However, after a disaster, more than nine months of separation, we met again. Suddenly, we felt that we were still very close, but it seemed very close Far away


    "We always feel that we can get happiness by compromising, making do with and tolerating. But when you lower the bottom line, you get the lower result! isn''t it?


    "The cruelest sentence in the world is not that I''m sorry or that I hate you, but that we can never go back. The most taboo thing in love is that both of them are dreaming about each other''s future, but they are always thinking about each other''s past.


    "The nine months of parting is a knot in your heart and mine, a knot in your heart that can''t get rid of the deep entanglement, and a knot that I can''t prove that I can only let nature take its course.


    "I know that although you don''t ask me what happened in those nine months, it doesn''t mean you don''t want to.


    "You try to be magnanimous and indifferent. It seems that you try to make yourself erase the past page. It seems that you think that what happened in those nine months makes you unable to accept and look back. So you let yourself accept the reality you have imagined and determined with a cramped heart, and then you are tortured and hurt by the situation you have guessed.


    "Why don''t you even ask me? Because you fear, because you dare not face the reality, because you have been escaping, because you have been cheating yourself, because your heart has been - did not put down!


    "On the surface, or in your own heart, you can show it to me, or tell yourself that you see it, you put it down, but I know that you always see the reality and think of the pain when you are smiling and intoxicated, and then the cold feeling can no longer warm up.


    "After so many times, my heart is tired at last. This is the reality. In the past nine months, I have drunk countless times, but finally woke up, I was walking, but could not find the direction.


    "Meet again, I want to give you happiness, try to please you in all kinds of ways, including me in bed and everything about you, but suddenly feel that I can''t walk into your world.


    "I want to exchange my efforts for a ticket to your world, but it''s just my wishful thinking.


    "My world, you seem to be unable to enter; your world, I seem to be expelled. I still love you. I close my eyes and think I can forget, but my tears don''t deceive me


    My heart is aching and my eyes are wet.


    "Xiao Ke, between us, I don''t want to say apology. Apology doesn''t mean you are wrong, and I''m right, and it doesn''t mean I''m wrong, and you''re right. Sometimes it just means relative to the self.


    "As for the knot in our heart, I don''t want to say anything more, because I know that it''s beyond ordinary people''s logical thinking. It''s useless for me to say too much, except that it will make you feel that I''m trying to make up a lie to make you believe me.


    "This point, after I hinted to you twice and you pretended not to understand and pretended to be deaf and dumb, I understood that you seemed to have determined what happened to me in those nine months. After you took it for granted, you accepted me, accepted me and recycled me with the heart of suffering and being hurt, with the fear of facing the past and reality I.


    "Although we have been peaceful on the surface, I know that your heart has never crossed that barrier. You dare not think about it, but you can''t help thinking about it. You dare not face it, but you can''t get rid of it completely. This is very clear in your performance after we did that..."


    Seeing this, my heart shuddered.