"But, although I didn''t say it, I have the same opinion Since Well Kong Kun said.


    "You don''t think Haizhu and I are suitable, so who do you think we are? And you? " I feel a little unhappy in my heart. Although I have some confusion about the future of Haizhu and myself, and although I feel that the relationship between Haizhu and me is changing subtly, I still don''t want to hear such words from others.


    "Maybe I''m not the best, but I''m still Of course Maybe I''m the right person. " Kong Kun''s words are somewhat contradictory, incoherently said: "I at least know that love needs to strive for, care, cherish, and operate. I like you, or I love you. I just need to know this. Since I left Xinghai to ningzhou, I have been thinking about you all the time. I am very contradictory to myself, and I hope to be able to work in ningzhou Seeing you, ningzhou is afraid that you will come


    "Because I know that in your heart, maybe only sister Haizhu, when you come to ningzhou, only sister Haizhu can And I can only wait and see from a distance But today, I finally have the opportunity to be with you, to be close to you, and to speak from my heart with you. "


    I took a deep breath and said to Kong Kun, "Kong Kun, since we met, even if we had not met at that time, I cherish our friendship very much I really hope to be a real long-term friend with you Friends I''m talking about friends, friends in a simple sense When you come to Xinghai and work in Haizhu''s company, my feeling becomes more and more obvious. I am very happy to see you and Haizhu be sisters.


    "In fact, ShanghaiZHU has always regarded you as a good sister in her heart and placed great trust and expectations on you, otherwise she would not take you to ningzhou this time and would not entrust you with the responsibility of general manager Between you and Haizhu, I hope you and Haizhu can always be sisters. I also hope we can always be friends. I always attach great importance to the friendship between you and me and Haizhu. "


    Kong Kun lowered his head for a moment and said, "I understand sister Haizhu''s friendship with me. I know she has always valued and trusted me But I didn''t live up to her expectations for me. I have been working hard and doing my job conscientiously. I also regard sister Haizhu as a good sister from my heart


    "However, some things, some emotional things, are uncontrollable. I don''t know when my feelings for you have changed. This kind of feeling makes me more and more painful, especially when I see sister Haizhu with you, especially when I think of you together, especially when I hear sister Haizhu mention you in front of me …


    "I don''t know why I got to this point. I don''t know why I can''t control my inner feelings I keep comforting myself and persuading myself not to think so, but I can''t Moreover, especially when I feel that you and sister Haizhu may not be together in the end, this kind of feeling makes me crazy. If you and sister Haizhu really can''t be together, then I don''t want to let myself lose this opportunity, and I don''t want to let myself watch you passively... "


    "Why do you say Haizhu and I won''t be together? We are engaged. We will get married at the end of the year. We all know that. Why do you think so? You shouldn''t think so. You should bless us... "


    I interrupted Kong Kun''s words in a very hard tone, but I couldn''t help feeling a little empty in my heart. Kong Kun''s words even made me panic.


    Is it that Kong Kun is influenced by Dong''Er''s point of view, that Kong Kun really believes in Dong''Er''s judgment, that once I won''t be with Haizhu, she is afraid that I will come back to Dong''Er again. Although she knows Dong''Er''s intention and mind, she is not willing to let Dong''Er succeed, and she has to work hard? If Dong''Er knew that the alliance she had worked so hard to cultivate had such a plan in mind, what would she think?


    "Yes, I should wish you well, and I should But I don''t want to give up my chance to strive for happiness I know there are many men, but you only have one. " Kong Kun''s tone was somewhat stubborn.


    Kong Kun''s words made me feel a little helpless. I said, "well, Kong Kun, don''t say any more of these words. I hope everyone will be well in the future I don''t want to see the friendship between you be destroyed because of this. I don''t want you to even be friends I hope you will always be Haizhu''s best sister and friend. I hope you will always be Haizhu''s best assistant. I hope you will live up to Haizhu''s trust and expectation. "


    "I will do my job well as always. I won''t let Haizhu down You can rest assured of that. " Kong Kun said.


    "Outside of work, I hope so, too." I said.


    Kong Kun did not speak. She bowed her head and said nothing. Then she turned around and quickly washed my inner library and hung it on the clothes shelf.


    Then, Kong Kun looked at me: "brother Yi, your clothes have been washed."


    "Thank you. Thank you very much." I said.


    "It''s the first time I''ve washed Neiku for a man." Kong Kun said, biting his lower lip tightly."Your words make me feel very ashamed, very moved, very helpless, very tangled, very embarrassed!" I said.


    "You It doesn''t have to be Kong Kun said, "well, I''ve done everything I need to do. Tonight I am very grateful for your advice and Instruction Hope Tonight''s events will not make you angry, will not let you have any bad views and shadows on me I hope I can get your guidance and instruction in the future. "


    "I will not be angry with you, nor will I have any shadow in my heart In the future, as long as you need, I will continue to give you some good suggestions and opinions. " I said.


    Kong Kun gave me a deep look and relaxed a little: "really not angry?"


    "Well..." I nodded. Although I was a little unhappy because of Kong Kun''s words, I couldn''t be angry just because of her actions. After all, it''s not normal to be angry about this kind of thing. Men may not be angry because women touch themselves. Otherwise, it''s the biggest pretending force.


    I don''t want to pretend, so I''m not going to be angry.


    "That''s good." Kong Kun suddenly laughed, a little reluctantly, but it seemed reasonable.


    So I tried to laugh.


    "Well I''m going Kong Kun looks at me.


    I took another step back and nodded, "well, OK."


    Kong Kun slowly walked out of the bathroom to the door.


    "Tonight, I still want to thank you..." I said a word behind her. My original intention was to thank her for washing the inner library for me. However, as soon as the words came out, I suddenly felt that Kong Kun would understand it as a multi-layer meaning, so I said in the street: "thank you for washing the inner library for me Internal library. "


    Kong Kun''s face turned a little red, and then he gave me a deep look: "what happened tonight, will you tell me?"


    "No -" I shook my head.


    Kong Kun laughed: "in fact, brother Yi, I just said that you and sister Haizhu are not suitable. Don''t be angry. I really feel this way Also, even if I don''t think you and Haizhu are suitable, I don''t think you and Donger are suitable Even I feel that she is not as suitable for you as sister Haizhu In other words, I don''t think they are suitable for you... "


    Obviously, the implication of Kong Kun''s words is that Haizhu and Donger are not suitable for me, only she is the most suitable.


    I can''t laugh or cry. I smile bitterly: "in fact, I think any woman is a good match for me. I can''t match any woman."


    When I said this, I had a tendency of self mutilation and self abuse in my heart. This kind of self mutilation made me feel a little happy.


    Kong Kun pursed his lips: "brother Yi, why do you belittle yourself like this What kind of man are you? I know best Well, I''m going. You can rest. "


    "Good night." I stood there.


    Kong Kun gave me a smile, then opened the door and left.


    I quickly went to the door, lying in the cat''s eye to see, see Kong Kun''s figure disappeared in the line of sight.


    Then, I went back to the sofa and took a long breath. Suddenly, I felt that the pillar brother below was still so hard. It was very uncomfortable to rise, and there was still heat flow in my small abdomen.


    The desire aroused by Kong Kun has not subsided. If not, I will be very sad tonight.


    I reluctantly went to the bathroom, took out the pillar, knocked on its head, sighed, held it and closed my eyes


    I think of Qiutong, the drunken night with Qiutong, and the several times of attempted love with Qiutong


    The effect is very good, soon brother Zhu vomited, vomit to a mess.


    I looked down at what brother Zhu vomited for a long time


    Then I took another shower and sat down on the sofa.


    Now my body and heart are much more comfortable


    Light a cigarette, smoke it slowly, and start thinking about Kong Kun''s coming tonight


    I suddenly feel that I am pretending to be very hypocritical in front of Kong Kun tonight. If it is not Kong Kun but Qiu Tong who is here tonight, but Qiu Tong who does what Kong Kun does for me, will I refuse? Will I still say something that seems pure and noble? Will I mention the damage to Haizhu? Can my so-called reason overcome the impulse of feeling Yu? Will I be willing to let reason overcome the impulse of emotion?


    After thinking for a long time, the answer seems to be No.


    As a result, I feel more and more hypocritical and hypocritical.


    I often feel in my heart that I am forced and hypocritical. Maybe this is human nature.


    I often do not want to deeply analyze myself, because I am afraid, because I want to escape.


    But I can''t help but face my own ugliness and evil from time to time. This ugliness and evil may be the most real self, and may accompany me all my life.


    Thinking like this, I can''t help feeling frightened


    I think about the day and Qiutong, and I think about Kong Kun coming to my room tonight